What if all what I wrote wasn't true ?

I mean, in June 2007 the girl I fell in love with (on internet on Tagged, never saw her though) died and after I heard a voice saying my name in my left ear, a girl's voice in amazement, I thought it was her and I vowed to stay faithful to her, now it's 2012 and I have been tricked by a lot of inner visions concerning my quest to find her through mystic yoga, never heard of her again, the innner visions and the thoughts that were not mine tricked me, it wasn't true. I spent 5 years of trying to be faithful to a dead girl, trying to find her.

I didn't find her.

I am in a band and I have a lot of realizations that I would make it in the music business, I would be famous and tell the world about the Islamic danger !!
That's been going on since 2006, the dream to become famous, and tell the world about the blessings of Krishna Conciousness as well.
I got a lot of inner visions about this and a lot of dreams which I wrote down and posted on dream forums.

Í didn't get famous.

So these are two examples that kept me in a prison for at least for 5 years.

Now, the Islamic conquest of the west in one night, what if this isn't true as well ? Then these realizations (inner visions, thoughts that were not mine and dreams) are not telling the truth, but they keep me in a prison of thinking the wrong way !!
Being convinced that this wil come true as well, like the dead girl and becoming famous, I kept on believing this since 2007, being called a little Hitler, a racist, a bigot and so on, I took it as my cross to bear, but what if it was designed to trick me and keep me in this prison since 2007 ?
Then I am thinking the wrong way since 5 years and if I continue this way, I will be in a prison for another 3 years (until 2015).

I am now really really doubting these realizations about the Islamic conquest of the west in one night.

I never found the girl (although this was promised to me by the means of a whole prophecy, the Cassandra prophecy which were inner visions and accompanying thoughts), I never got famous and probably the Islamic conquest of the west in one night will not happen as well.

I mean...........it is proven that I cannot trust inner visions and accompanying thoughts about some things, why should I trust these about the Islamic conquest ?