Hello, long time lurker, first time poster... Anyway, my experience:
I had gone to sleep at around 2 AM and then woke up at 6 AM to try to WILD. This was before I read very much of this DV Academy WILD course... I lied down on my back, and just tried to relax and do nothing. This went on for a long time and nothing happened. I hadn't tried a WILD in a long time, and forgot some stuff, so I was just doing the really-basic-and not-very-good technique-for-wizards-only of not really having a specific anchor or anything... Needless to say, it started to become very frustrating. For some reason, I just could not relax; I felt itchy all over and just had to keep moving around. I suppose I was too excited about doing a WILD and was too aware of my body and how strangely uncomfortable it felt.
So after a very long time, about an hour or two, I got up and started surfing the web. I decided to read all of the WILD course by Sageous. 3 hours had passed since I had first awoken at 6. Of course, I was still missing all the sleep I needed. So I decided that I'd go back to sleep, but I'd also try using a mantra to attempt to perform a WILD as well. I came up with a pretty weak mantra, "my dream, now", I'll think of one that I like more soon...
Anyway, I lied back down and got as comfortable as I could, closed my eyes and started saying the mantra in my head to the rhythm of my breath. After some minutes, I was surprised with how well the mantra kept me "distracted and aware". You know, distracted from my physical body and all of its uncomfortable sensations, but then aware of what I was trying to do. After some time, I was feeling much more relaxed, and at some points, I was imagining myself up and playing my keyboard, since that's a tactile sensation I can imagine very easily. There were a few times where I actually heard the keyboard as I played, so I knew I was approaching dreamland. Then I felt SP kick in. It felt much more "gentle" than usual and I tried a little harder to immerse myself in my imagination, and hopefully reach a dream, but soon the SP disappeared. Something I've noticed when I've been in SP is when I pay attention to it, or "notice" it and acknowledge its presence, it always seems to rev up and get more intense. So after that SP ended, I stayed still and kept at it, and soon after, it came back. This time, again, didn't last very long. A minute later, a very short one-second "burst" of SP appeared. I thought that was a little weird.
Some minutes later, I believe, was when I kind of lost consciousness. I heard my parents talking above me and opened my eyes to see them talking to each other next to my bed. Quickly, I did a reality check and yeah, I was dreaming. I don't remember the transition though, so definitely not a WILD. Not that that matters, especially considering that I woke up right after I realized it. I got back on track and chanted the mantra in my head more. Not too much later, SP appeared once again and I tried to imagine my body floating above my bed. It wasn't quite working, so I just tried to sit up with my "phantom" body. This worked, but then I felt something large and warm gently push me off my bed and on to the ground. This wasn't scary or intense or anything, it was just kind of weird. Everything felt like it was moving slowly and floating. Being on the imagined floor, I tried to feel like I was falling through my floor to another version of my room. This did work a bit. I felt I was back in my bed, in a new instance of my room. This time, I imagined myself sitting on the side of my bed. I felt it, and decided to open my eyes. I could see my room, but it was a little blurry. Standing up, I realized everything still felt slow and floaty. As I tried to move forward, something started to obscure around half of my vision. Not over my entire visual plane, but as if something clawed at the fabric that my mind's eye projected upon and under that fabric, was another vision, as if I was looking through two pairs of eyes at once. It actually seemed as if if I was looking through my dream eyes, and then under that, I was looking through my real eyes, since in the "other vision" I could see my room from my perspective in bed. My "real" eyes' vision was blurry too, and my comforter was covering some of it, so I couldn't really see too much from that perspective. At one point, I thought I saw a woman sitting there, next to my bed, but she disappeared. I tried some stabilization techniques but they didn't really work. It seemed to me that I just barely "made it inside" a dream and so I wasn't really capable of gaining control yet. Then I woke up from that.
Twas a very interesting experience! Thanks for the lessons, Sageous.
I'm excited to try again tonight, or maybe during a nap in about an hour, since I definitely still didn't get enough sleep, considering that whole thing surprisingly only took around 40 minutes.
I wonder if this is as long as it looks...
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