BluePhoenix

I slept fitfully last night. At one point I enter into sleep paralysis. Instead of yielding to the natural urge to fight it, I let go, as I am now accustomed to doing. I let the full body virbrations over power me and I quickly "slip through". I am now in a forest and this is the hunger games. I tell myself I am dreaming and fly up to a night sky with a view of deep space. I lose focus and float down. Someone wants my help. I think that I am awake now. I tell myself as soon as this is done I will go back to my dream. I am "holding the dream inside me". I feel as if it is a physical thing in my chest. I hold on to it for some time as I run along a forest path behind some girl. Somewhere along the way ( maybe I get bored) I lose all traces of lucidity and cannot remember anything else.

I could not move and I called my mom to come even though I knew my Fiancee was lying next to me. She came and was trying to force my top jaw to open. I was wrong and hurt. I became mad. Then I woke up and did not move. I went Straight into sleep paralysis and had vibrations and sound. I had the initial fear but remembered to relax. The vibrations felt like a limb that was a sleep and was now getting circulation but there was no pain. The sound was like wet rubber rubbing against itself over layed with loud ringing of the ears. After a few seconds, I then came out of my body. I went in and put of my body and got stuck on the ceiling every time. Every time I slid out I felt the vibrations go away from the top of my head down to my toes. It was like I literally was sliding out. Every time I slammed back I started the vibrations and sounds all over like before. I did this I think four or five times total. I heard a voice say "not to far, come back". I thought I sensed a tether from belly button to belly button at some point. I had some fear that I would wonder too far and not get back. I tried to think of what I wanted to dream about and be lucid. I thought I would fly but that's what I always do so I decided to find a dream guide. But when I opened my eyes all I could see was the dimly lit bedroom. I tried to grab the ceiling fan once but felt my hand grab the sheet and jumped back into my body. One time I looked down and saw my body laying in the bed. It was hard to see myself because the room was dark but I could make out my legs out of the blankets and see my face in the glow of the light from the humidifier next to me on the end table. The whole time there was a ghostly phantom image of a woman floating ceiling level. She was attractive and I thought maybe I would have sex with her but realized it was wrong and a waste of time. It looked like she was sitting behind a desk and was silently conversing with someone to the left of me. I never bothered to look over at the other person. It was like they where observing me. I finally woke for good when the cat moved.

Are OBE's real or just dreams?

I usually only post lucid dream online. But this one was different. Almost like being lucid.

I am with some CIA group and we have the power to meditate on who we want to be and we awaken as that person or thing in time. I was trying to control a toy doll for whatever reason. There are other with me. we all lie down. I wake up and there was something about Bill Clinton. I said something funny to him but I also failed the mission by doing that I was jerked back.

This time I am to be this young African American woman.
I am free falling. I am with a woman. We are in transition or leaping. Some man appears and he is going after the same one I am. we argue and I say this one is mine. I surge forward to beat him there. I wake up and check my laptop. I look at the profile and see a picture. I look in the mirror and sure enough. I look just like her. Assassination is my task. I rig stuff up and plug this thing in and I realize I am missing something. An explosion goes off outside too early. Someone is coming. I realize too late I am missing whatever it is I am supposed to have. I grab a large picture and kind of hide my body behind it. I have a large combat knife in the other hand. I figure I can confuse and surprise the person and attack quickly. I am behind a door it opens and I come around with knife held high. It is a pretty young woman and I cannot stab her. I don't want to kill anyone. I know I must. I hesitate she screams and cowers. I am taking too long. I should have don't it already. I am failing the mission. I step forward. I don't want to do it. I suddenly wake up

I am living with Jack Black and I something happens were not getting along. I think maybe he has physiological problems. My mom comes I talk to her about it. Then I go outside and find him tied up. We have to go get the guy that did it.
Something happens at this point I realize I am dreaming.
I find myself in a large room of people. I am walking down the hallway to go in the room and I am telling myself I am dreaming. I feel my hand rub together and I think I should do something funny to scare all the people. I decide to hover and fly in and. I make my face as distorted and scary as I can imagine. I feel my teeth grow huge fangs. I fly in and make an inhuman roar. EVERYONE in the room screams and runs away. The room is totaly empty. I think geez I guess I over did it. I laugh. I walk around the building. And realize I am in a mega church. Everyone everywhere has ran away.
Then the dream shifts and I find myself in the middle of some church play. Its confusing. I see people from tx that I haven seen in years. I am walking down the hallway again and I remember I am dreaming.
I remember that I decided to create a light-saber. I look at my hand but its empty. I keep trying to imagine a light-saber hilt. nothing. I see a mirror and try again. The room gets dark and I see myself with a red light-saber. I twirl it and spin it around like in the movies with all the sound effects. Then I see someone else come at me with a green light-saber. We clash for a moments. The figure fades away then back. It has no light-saber. I wonder where it went. I guess it threw it. I hear it coming. I put my light-saber hover my head behind my back. I deflect the figures light-saber at the last second. Then I force throw my own light-saber at the robbed figure. I see mine past right through with no damage. Like it was a ghost. I see him clearly now. It is a dark skinned man with a green and white robe. He is just standing there calmly with arms crossed in a very sage like stance. I see my light saber return to me but I realize I have no idea how to catch it without getting injured. I see the blade pass through me. There is no pain or sensation. Everything goes black. Death by my own light-saber. What a shame.;)

I was arguing with rachel about something. I am getting pissed. She is hear to get the kids. But I am talking to her from upstairs on video chat on the computer. The screen goes black so I go down stairs. I push through crap piled on the stairs. She is gone. I wonder if she didn't want to see Alysha.

Now we are (Alysha) driving in a truck. It is day time. But I instinctively know its in the middle of the night. (Dreamsign) I look at the clock and it is 1:28 am. I see tent set up for tornado victims. People are out and about.
We pull over and it is suddenly dark. I make note of this as odd but I don't catch on yet. I have a flimsy hang glider and I am going to the lucid caves. I am a little lucid now. My hang glider is like a kite. It pulls me up but I get hung on a tree. Alysha helps me. I see a helicopter and we get in the truck. Its past curfew. We duck in the seat and the helicopter passes slowly over. I think we are fine and it comes back taking pictures. I smile for the camera. Then a different on comes back and launches a missile at us. I drive the truck away down the street. I see a old man with a dog. I notices the helicopter did not follow so I turn around back the way we came.
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We are now in cave that is military controlled. It is the lucid cave and I am 90% lucid. Alysha is
Sitting in a chair and there is a officer behind a desk. I say watch this. I walk through the back door and yell at the high ranking officer. I tell him I need a lot of beer and a fast car. Or maybe a jet plane. He nods and I walk back to Alysha smiling. I told her what I said. She looks at me funny. So I tell her its ok. I know this is a dream. Yea we are dreaming. My speak is getting slurred like I am drunk. I feel myself wake up.

I don't move and keep my eyes closed. I quickly go into sleep paralysis and have a WILD. At one point. I feel my arms move and I try to lift my head. I feel like I am lifting out of my physical body but like the other day I get stuck half way. I am almost in the dream. I feel my head push through. And I feel the point past my body were the vibrations stop. It feels like I am leaving my body. The whole time I feel like there is a presence to my left. I am a little creaped out but I know its part of the illusion of SP. I think about the movement technique and try to just feel like my body is sliding out. I feel my hands let loose I am writting. I think I say. Lucid cave. Lucid cave. The presence on my left speaks... something. A question? I tell it I was having a lucid dream. I feel like Alysha can hear me. I feel my hands writting lucid cave. I say more forcefully. I think I see words on the picture. I think I am in the dream so I open my eyes and I see my dark room. I try again. [/COLOR]

Vibrations. Sliding. It works. I enter a dream but I forget and I am not lucid.
I am sitting in a desk. I have a wrighting on a colored pencil drawing. It looks unfinished and there are caves. A man yells private come here. He is talking to me. I am in a classroom. He tells me to get out. I walk out the door down a hall. I realize I need to know why he did that. There is a hand written note that read: "No military personnel allowed. Especially privates. Turn around and go away"

I wake up. I try to re-enter the dream but I am wide awake.

[COLOR="deepskyblue"]Later that night
I successfully preformed a WILD but I don't remember any SP.
I am fully lucid with Alysha. I am trying to convince her that we are dreaming. I tell her to watch. I poke my finger into a wall and sink it into it. I felt like stiff jello.
I push my arm all the way in and then my body until I go all the way through. I see a couple at a table eating. They are mildly surprised. I turn back through the actual door way and Alysha is gone. I call her name but I can't find her. I keep telling myself its a dream. I poke my finger through my forearm. I take a lady by the arm arm poke my finger through it. Then I decide to rip her arm off. She freaks but I tell her to relax its a dream and it will grow back. I feel the urge to pee. And I'm upset because I do.t want to stop dreaming. I go outside and see a door to a bathroom. I almost go pee but I stop myself because I know I will pee the bed. I see Tim go in and he tells me its OK to pee. I force myself to forget about it. I decide to fly away. I float up but there is a wall and a ceiling outside. I drop back down and go through the wall. I am in a wide open flat plain with an over cast sky. It is very beautiful. Float up and take off fast. I'm still lucid. I try to go into the clouds and above but I lose my self and I feel like I. I focus on the dream and go back down. I try again. This time I make it past and see the sun but I start to wake up.I find myself just kind of floating in black in-between waking and dreaming. I focus and find myself lying on the ground. I am still lucid. I look round and see an old western style town. All the buildings are intact but completely burned out. I decide to experiment with teleportation. I point to a spot and a black hole appears on the ground. I say cool. I dip my hand in and it looks like a liquid. Hysol from work. Black and thick but runs off like water. I dive in and I get stuck. I worry that I can't breath but I know its a dream and I take a deep breath. I swim down and gravity shifts to right side up. I am in a wall with wood two by fours. I am disappointed but realize I wasn't expecting anything. I feel the urge to pee but ignore it. The walls are closing in on me and I feel lost in amaze. I push the walls wider. I see a door and before I open it. I ask myself what do I want to see. I think medieval times. I open it and it and I think king Arthur. The town looks sort of medieval but the closer I get the more modern it is. I see a skyscraper in try to force it to be a castle. No luck. I walk on. I can hear the air freshener go off in my room. I look around but don't wake. I hear a snore but it sounded like a giant stopping. I don't want to see that. I find myself in a shopping promenade with a fountain. I really need to wake up and go pee. I feel like this is a very long dream and want wake up. I say wake up and I close my eyes. But I can't. So I lat down and some lady comes and wants to kiss me. She smells like peach air freshener. I decide to see if I send a text to Alysha in a dream if she can get it in real life. I am trying to text "I am in a dream". The words get blurry and I lose focus. I wake up and finally get to pee.
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I woke after nine hours of sleep. I had zero recall. I had an hour before I just had to get up so I tried to dream some more. My mind was racing with thoughts and I couldn't fall back to sleep. So I did a few minutes of meditation to relax and quiet my mind. Then I started my "I am dreaming" mantra. I had a though about a haunted tour my fiancée told me about but I pushed it aside. I think my consciousness split for a few minutes. I also had a thought wondering if WILD could actually happen. I was doubtful. Then I had a thought of a ghost or demon or something coming for me. I wanted to run but I was paralysed. Then I remembered myself and said no I must be about to dream.

I was indeed in SP. I felt all tingling and twitchy. I told myself I didn't care about whatever was coming it wasn't real. I relaxed and in a few seconds my body became calm. I partially opened my eyes. I could see a brightly lit window. Somehow I mistook this for reality. I did not expect to enter the dream like a FA. So not realising I was dreaming I closed my eyes again. I felt very disappoint. I felt a few twitches of SP and then.... I don't know. Memory gap. I had given up. Next time I will know what to expect!

I vaguely remember getting up and seeing myself dressed with crazy bed hair.

I remember fragments of being in a building at night. Some strange workplace. Using keys on doors. Bruce from where I really work.

Then I was in my ex in laws living room. We had just watched some movie about long haired gerbils with my kids. Their grandmother and grandfather were watching it too. She said to him

"You know what they are selling at the pet store now don't you?"

"What? Long haired gerbils?"

"Yep!"

I wake up.

I doubt I had a true WILD. I did sort of forget myself before the SP. Is this a normal WILD experience?

I am at church. I look at my iPhone and the screen is half melted and the back has popped loose. The whole phone has expanded. It is also very hot to hold. If it was any hotter it *would burn me. My mom is next to me and I show it to her.*
She laughs and say "oh no".*
I say, "this is no laughing matter this is serious!!!"*
I am outside in the parking lot. As I walk to my car I hold my phone flat in my palm. It is nearly burning me and it stings. I think I need to cool it off in a hurry. I get in my car and turn on the a/c. The cool air makes the phone cool too fast and it pops to pieces. The screen comes off and it looks like hot glue was holding it on. Then I see some strange keypad and I play with the button wondering how that was under the screen.*


Non-linear existence.
I vaguely remember reading something online about "why are you living a linear life in a non-linear existence?"

Well I WBTB and took G. I couldn't WILD and I only briefly had one LD. I woke up way too many times but I can recall 6 dreams from last night after not being able to recall anything for the past 3 or 4 nights. So here it is the order may be not be exactly right.
[COLOR="red"]#4 is lucid[/COLOR]

I also want to note that I am not experiencing ANY side effect from G.

during meditation I heard someone say "Acts 34:59". It doesn't exist but its weird enough to note.

1. WWE at Church.

I am at church with my mom. I see my brother walk up and talks to my mom. I am busy plugging my laptop and my iphone up to charge so I don't say anything. I think I should since I haven't talked to him in a long time and I miss him. I go back to my laptop and iphone and he walks off. I notice that my cord to my iphone is strange looking and is falling apart. I see my brother again and instead of talking to him I tackle him and put him in a wrestling hold. We both laugh about it. The odd thing is that he doesn't do anything back and I am barely trying. I push my palm in his face to get a reaction but he just laughs. I think how odd it is. I was always the one to be pinned down and helpless. I say, "Man I need to brush up on my WWE"!

2. Weird Stomach Issues.
I just ate at what I think looks like the Dairy Queen from Luling. I can feel my stomach moving and hurting. I go to the bathroom. I look down and I am shirtless but I don't notice. The only thing I notice is my stomach is wavy and vibrating in one spot. It is very uncomfortable. So I think I need to use the toilet. I sit down and my sister and her husband walk in. They say something.
I say, "I sure am glad that you are both in here while I take a crap".
They get the hint and leave. I cant go and my stomach is still going crazy. Then I notice that I am sitting on the bowl and the seat is still up. So I stand and put the seat down. I feel very confused and disoriented. All I can think about is how my stomach feels and looks. Then I suddenly wake up and now I know why my stomach feels so weird. THE CAT IS ON TOP OF ME AND SHE IS KNEADING MY STOMACH IN REAL LIFE. Geez what the crap?:lol:

3. Power Lines and Cops
I am on top of Burger King and I push over some power line polls and cause a major power outage. I walk calmly past all the cops past the gas station and to price cutter. I get in my car and a cop follows. I say, "Damn cops always giving me shit"!

4. Church Diner [COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
I am at some church diner and at church I don't recognise. We eat. I am snacking on various treats. I see a familiar face I talk for a while. Something about twins. People are cleaning up and turning out lights. Time to go.[COLOR="red"] As I walk out with a group but alone in my thoughts, I remember ADA. I instantly know its a dream. I have my doubts but instead of doing my usual RC I think that if I can fly then its a dream. As I run toward the door leading outside, I briefly wonder if I will make a fool of myself and not fly and thus not be dreaming. But then I reassure myself and know that when I step outside I will fly. And I do. The ground leaves my feet as I look down and jump. It is a cool night sky and very dark. I hover about ten feet up and ten feet away from the door. I spin around to look at the people. All I can see are silhouettes coming out of the doorway. I think it would be funny to scare them so I make a ugly face and put my hands up and claw at them. Then I try to make a creepy roar but it comes out odd. It sounded like I was gasping with my mouth slightly open while flicking my tongue in and out. The people coming out just look up at me and continue walking like it was no big deal. I am still making the noise. Then it begins to sound very real and my attention shift to external and I wake up because I am really making the sound and I have one of my arms up in the air like in my dream.:roll:[/COLOR]

5. Gross Porn :eek:
I am walking and I see a woman running down some stairs with a child and its butt in the air to the side. Another woman is behind her. The child shoots chunky white diarrhea onto the other woman. She stops and takes her shirt off. She has 3 boobs and very long nipples. Some passers by walk up and took the middle boob and begin to suck the nipples even though she has white baby poop all over her. Then it is all on tv.
I switch the channel.
It is American Most wanted. And there is a rapist. My fiancé is next to me and says how she likes rapist show. I think she is crazy but I don't say anything. Then the show turns to some kind of scary demonic porn. I am sicken by it and try to turn it off but my fiancé is turn on by it and keep turning back on. I am sickened about it but don't mind at the same time. (Her actions are very uncharacteristic compared to real life.)
*Amazing Sex Scene*:shock:
Later I am trying to take my Monty Python shirt off but it keeps sticking to me. I think I have pulled it off but it flips back on inside out. I get very upset and start tearing it off but it continues to cling to my skin like it has a mind of its own. I feel panicky and claustrophobic and I franticly continue to rip it off. I tell my fiancé to help me. I wake up.

6. She's Dead.
I am in the hospital waiting. I am trying to see a doc for some reason. The dream shifts and I am wondering around. I see some beds with curtain dividers. I see my fiancés mom. She is dead and there is blood. I am very sad but I remain strong. I tell the doctor who she is and they seem to already know. I tell them to make sure if she is dead. They check pulse and then stab her neck with a scalpel. They say she she not bleeding out any more so that means her heart stopped. Then I see her twitch and move for a second. I tell them she moved and she cant be dead. They tell me it was just her nervous system slowly shutting down. Then I notice she is wearing her nurse uniform. I assume this is were she works. I watch as they try to move her and one guy looses his grip and drops her. She flops to the bed and off to the floor. She was limp and jell-o like. I and I begin to get sick as I realise she really is dead. That is a real dead body and I know her. I wake up.

Bad night
Lots of dream fragments. Very little recall. I think B6 gave me restless legs and for some reason my ankle was throbbing all night.*

Rachel talking to me in driveway. She was trying to rekindle something and I was getting pissed about it.*

Something about a ghost

I had my sisters kids. They were all really young. They wanted to sleep in my bed.*

I get up to go pee. It is dark. In the partial light it looks like the toilet is completely gone. It kind of changes and morphs as I am peeing but now its just the tank that is missing. I wash my hands and touch wall as I lean in the closet for a towel. *At that point water sprays me. There is strange shower piping in the wrong spot. *I try to stop the water but the more to do the worse it gets. I head downstairs for help. it is dark downstairs too. I head the front door open and see the shadows of Jason and dad. I have conversation about the bathroom and they tell me they have been remodeling the bathroom all night and just got back from the store and now they had to stop to get some sleep. The dream shifts some. *Alysha and I are Out back. I see a reindeer in the back yard. A man is there chasing after it but he stops. The reindeer tries to horn me several times. But I run and dodge. At on point the feel it's antlers. They were soft and kind of furry but solid at the same time. There was no pain. Then the reindeer catches it's horns on the back of my knee and flips me over it's back. I can hear Alysha scream in terror. I feel my face land on it's furry butt as the reindeer bucks me off. I felt glad that the hoofs didn't hit me. I pick myself up off the ground and the reindeer runs off. I hear music and a large crowd now. *There is a parade in the front of the house. I see oddly dress people outlandish white outfits marching down the street. It is day time now. I know it should be dark (dream sign). I feel there is some significance to this but I am distracted. We walk to the front. And on the sidewalk is a wooden structure with a roof and bleachers. There is a woman singing come fly with me let's fly away together. *I am Lucid now. I say yes this is a dream. See a child in a white dress. Take her hands and I dance with her. *I am having fun and being silly. I look at all the faces in the bleachers and stare at them as they watch the parade. I decide to fly. I let go with ease but I only Hoover. * I push myself off the shoulders of a man in a blue and white stripped shirt. I hit the ceiling. I think I lose lucidity here.I grab the singer buy the wait and fly up to the ceiling again. I am getting frustrated at the ceiling. I can feel her body next to me and her slender waist. I look down and see Megan Fox. I put the singer down. The music is still playing loudly. I lose Megan for a sec and I find her. I notice those piercing eyes. I fly to her and grab her the same way. This time I remember the ceiling and fly out and around to the roof. We lay down and cuddle together for a minute. I can hear the music come fly with me but it is dim and muted now. The sky is dark again and the only light is from the glow of the parade below. Megan tells me I am fat and ugly. I say this is how I've always looked. She tell me at least she's able to express her feelings now. I say well that's good butt I don't know what you except me to do. Then I remember Alysha. I am confused how I am with Megan Fox. Megan doesn't make me happy only Alysha can. Only she truly loves me and I only want her. This thought wakes me up.* Lesson learned ;)

Wondering around looking for something. Crawling in tight places. Found a red stone with a white antena. It was magical. Someone dropped it. I rubbed it on a wall to make a hole. I ran away from the others. I used my wand to repair the wall. Repairo.

In the store. Non lucid dream control.
I was in walmart with an old lady from work. It was like we were dating. I got scared and sickened. I kept looking at her to see what I ever found attractive. I willed the dream to change and the conversation changed to me just bumping into a co worker at the store. I was relived and was trying to end the conversation so that I could make my escape.

Forgot the 3rd dream. Maybe it will come to me later. Vampire? Monster?

4th dream is a fragment. At the kitchen sink with a bud. Something in the wrong place. I said oops how did that sneak in there.

4.2
Disc golf on the beach
I am on the beach with a friend. His face is unknown to me. I am aware of him but I don't really look directly at him. He is diving into deep clear water and picking up disc golf discs that other people lost. I become excited and look myself. The water starts receding. I think low tide. I see broken shells. Then I hear an intercom voice from my phone. It has a radar of my position. The voice tells me to more a few feet back. I match my position to the marker on my map. Then I look down and see a large cache of light blue disc partly buried in the wet sand. I dig with my hands. I notice the saturated sand wanting to ooze back into the hole. I dig faster and pull a large stack out. They are all the same disc. There is witting on them but I can't remember now. "mako shark"? My friend takes a nylon bag to put his discs in and moves father out into the water. I reach for something myself. As I am fumbling *I see group of young men walking up. They are looking at the area I dug the discs from. I hear one say that the disc are gone. I consider offering the disc but I decide to hid them until they ask. I hope they go away. I have pillows and blankets next to a light blue and grey tent. I try to cover all the disc with the pillows. I try to shove the as many discs a I can into a duffle bag that is full of clothes. The men go into the tent and I can hear them talking. I become a little nervous. One comes out and looks at my stuff and tells me the discs are his and I should give them to him. I tell him ok but I should be able to keep some since I did find them. He agrees. So I hand most of the blue ones over. I have some others that are yellow and whit. He wants the one that has a cone shaped thing in the center. It looks like a spot to spin a disc on your finger. I think it's cool an I tell him I am keeping it. Suddenly I am in the tent with the men and there is a girl that wants the disc. I finally give up and let her have it. She puts in on a small bookshelf and it turns into a black and yellow gun. I find this very odd and begin to stare at it. I wake up.*
4.1
Space battle board game
Was with the ex in law for some reason. Placing a board game that was a space battle. There were ships with different attributes and some were from starcon star trek and star wars. The game turned digital and was animated. My ex wife would not come out of the back room. I was glad and a little confused how I ended up playing a game with the last people on earth that I would ever want to spend any amount of time with.*
3.31
Death In This House
I was in a house a lot like the one I am currently living in. I was with my fiancee and my parents. We were doing mundane normal things. I remember cuddling with my fiancee. At some point I walk past a table with a book on it. The title was "There is Death in This House". (meaning the entity Death). The cover had a picture of Death with a sickle.*

Just Because He's Black
I am at some public competition or election. A black kid wins even though he obviously should not have. I am outraged. I say they only voted for him because he's black. It's just like Obama. Then I turn and look to my right and see the young man I was talking about. He is sitting there quiet and introspective. I immediately apologize and tell him that I don't have anything think against him for being black but they voted for him for the wrong reason. He did not look offended. Only agreeable.*

Mold shop
I am at work. The company made changes overnight. The two machine I use are on opposite sides of the building. The inside looks like an empty Walmart. I see Patrick and Craig. *I complain about it. They say nothing only smile. *I start my machine and proceed to walk to the other side. The walk feels long and I feel too tired to walk all the way.I am looking down and the floor is cratered and painted a bluish gray just like it is at work. I struggle to move my feet but I manage to get there. The dream shifts. I have a molded cable in my hands. I bring it to QC and as I start to hand it over one o the connectors loose all it's pins. I stand there with my mouth wide open in shock. Someone from behind me starts to say something.*

3.30 3am
Vivid- Ocean Whirlpool
I am on an airplane. It is a short ride and I realize that I don't notice the take off or landing. I see Debbie from work on the plane. I am on a RR trip. We go into a house with many bedrooms. I see Cindy from work pass by me. I notice people taking rooms and putting their stuff away. I ask someone without looking at them if we are assigned rooms or if we just pick. I hear him tell me no and to take 4. I see a room with a sign that says 3-4. I go in. I see two young men, two small chairs and what I think is a tiny bed behind one of the boys. I joke about the bed and the boy steps aside and now it looks like another chair. I am disappointed that there are no beds but then remember that we all brought sleeping bags.
The dream shifts and we are all swimming in the ocean. It is dirty water and there is a type of wall were the water stops like a big swimming pool. I see no sand but I don't find this odd. Suddenly a mass of large lobster like shells and carcasses come floating toward me. I swim around it. Then I see another mass of shrimp shells. Someone in the background complains about "those shrimp boats". Two large dark skinned women yell at us to get out of the water. They seem afraid so I comply. My younger daughter is with me. I take her out. As I climb the wall, I turn and see a huge whirlpool. I think " water tornado". The whirlpool becomes swift and violent and an enormous fountain of ocean water shoots skyward from it's center. I am glad no one was in there. I turn to see my daughter walk away with someone I trust. I turn back and see two very large young men standing in the center of the whirlpool. They seem paralyzed and don't move. Myself and some other men reach out and take their hands to pull them out. I wake up.
3.29
Starburst in pc. Waiting in line empty handed. They open a bag of starburst an give me one. I can fell the chewy candy in my mouth but not taste it. I want to buy a bag so I tell the cashier. They tell me where it is while they wait. I am holding up the line. I can't find it. So someone helps me.
3.29
I am in the house in Luling. We are painting and fixing it up to sell. Someone that looks like victory is painting the wood trim white. I tell her I wanted to leave the trim alone. She apologizes and wipes it all off. I look around and see the place. I am confused buy what color we wanted. There is blue yellow and white. We debate about this. I am in my room now and looking around I think that since we made everything so nice I don't want to move now. I walk into the bathroom and my mom is in the sink in a bathing suit underwater. She body fits in the sink but her legs stick out. I notice another copy of her in the bathtub doing the same but I don't look at her directly. I am afraid she will be naked. I just shake my head and walk out.
3.27
Met Rachel at gas station. Her dad. I have truck. Being nice. Return item. Mall cross fire. Cops. Hid in floor board. Captured. Hostage. Beaten. A woman is going to kidnap dalynn. Outraged. I try to text mom. Caught by man. Helpless. They are going to rape alysha. Panic. Then they decide to only set her hair on fire. Mental anguish. Had breathing. Struggle. No use. I plea to let be me. Panic. I am crying. I think how rachel would be happy with my pain. I want to make it all stop. I wake up breathing hard and upset.
3.23
Cuddling with coats
3.20
High school dream with old friends. My mom told me to tell Shannon and Ryan something. I see them but only wave. Then I remember and can't find them. Crawling through bleachers.

At a place like home but different. My brother is telling visitors to our company how I'm the best and most knowledgeable in my job. I feel embarrassed and dont know what to say. I feel myself shrugging and making faces.*

I'm a stranger thrown into a chaotic world. There is war. Half the population is destroyed. We our part of the planet was thought to be safe but was over run by mutants. We escape. We see so many airplanes flying in thinking they are coming to be safe but we watch as they are shot down in flames. We make our way to a safer place.*
I am going down river with hundred of others. We all have boats. Some are taking it slow and even fishing. I run a tolling motor. I take it slow so that I don't disturb the others. At some point nothing works right I go to fast and crash. I end up on the bank. But I am hurt. I pass out as I see a man coming my way.*
I wake up in a batch tub. There is a tiny yellow fish in the water. A boy is next to me. I ask him what happened and he explains. The fish swims around. Jumps and lands in the edge and flops. The bath water keep rising and falling like ocean waves. I push the fish into the water. It pauses mid air for a second and then falls in the water. I laugh. Then I feel something larger bite under my thigh. I jump up and see a turtle. It is trying to bite me. The boy says he put it there and I tell him it's a snapper and to get it out. The turtle is leaf green with spikes around the sides. I reach to grab it but the boy does first.***
We are lounging outside in a rock formation. A crown passes.*
*There is a robot. 5080C? He's the brain. *I see someone from the first *another man recognizes him and says something like *You must be bullet proof . I think yeah big deal we've all been through hell. The saviour. The one with the plan. Our best hope.We follow it. *New Mexico like desert. Walking into a town. We look back. Can see fireballs streaking toward us in the night sky. We watch frozen not sure what it is or what to do. It gets closer and bigger. I realize they are bombing*the city. Someone says to get under ground level in a basement. We run and hide. Safe. The view switches I see the shock wave roll in. Buildings are wiped out. People are ripped apart and melt like wax figures and their limbs and heads pull away as flesh stretches and strings away like cheese in a hot pizza and their blood turn into green bubbling goo comes I see in the building above. A woman was in a bathtub. She dies horribly.*
I have made my way to some high tech refuge camp. I have to take a computerized test and if I pass I can go where it is safe. A has already gone. I desperately want to be with her. I take the test I am waiting for my results. Fail. I see as others pass and go into a strange telleporter. They are immersed in a clearish plastic or wax and somehow vanish to another place. I wonder if there bodies are destroyed and rebuilt somewhere else. I wonder if they are really alive. I dismiss it. I take the test again. I see the results. It's a lower grade. I am panicy and frustrated. Time is running out. The enemy is coming. I really don't know anything about anything that going on. * The test keeps asking about current events. I am sent to a desk. There are star wars like projections. They are counselors from someplace else. Some of them are missing I get the sense there are being attacked. I sit down and before we begin the man disappears and is replaced by a feather looking thing. I bends forward and shocks me. I jump back. I start toward it again and it shocks me once more. Someone ushers me away. It is a woman. She tells me I have to take the GED written test. I protest but it is no use. The other flunkies and I are hurried into a room with tables. We immediately begin the test. The first question asks about 5080C. It wants to know if his vision for humanity is A) pratical B) mystical C) two part. explain.
I panic I have no clue. I look at my neighbor. I think I see her put mystical. So I write it. She reaches over and erases my answer and changes it to two part. She whispers something. The test monitor sees and comes over she reaches for our tests and pauses. I think she is going to fail us. I am so scared. I just wanted to be with Alysha. She has a change of heart and takes her hands away. I wake up. * * *