Leaving the matrix

I'm in a mall, I walk up to this store, it is as if it is the only store that represents current trends. It represents what the "follow the leader" youth are at the moment I feel. I feel so compelled to go to this store every day, and I enter and quietly go to the back where no one is. I avoid the groups in the store. I dig through the clothes, and I dig through the backpacks, and other accessories, but just as the other times I find nothing. Nothing resonates with me. So I quietly try to exit the store without the groups, or the worker seeing me with which might spark an unwanted conversation. I come back at I assume is the next day, I go to the back of the store to a place unoccupied, I dig through all the stuff, the fads have changed since the last time, it always changed, yet I find nothing. I try to exit the store unnoticed, but the worker stops me and comments on how I come in everyday, dig through stuff, then leave. I tell him that I come in with hopes of finding something everyday, but, then he finishes my sentence "but find nothing.", Some girl who was listening starts talking, I don't hear any of the words, but I begin to follow her and just leave the worker. I hate how she keeps talking, but doesn't make eye contact with me and I have to push through people to keep up with her, then I realize we are out of the store, then I can understand her words and she says "how old are you?", I tell her "22", then she sighs and says "it's a shame you're too old.", then she begins to walk again, I get frustrated and ask her "too old for what?", then she just kind of ends our conversation by smiling at me then walking away, but I keep following her from behind, then I wake up.