Ophelia's Book O' Fun II

I was naughty and went to bed at 3am because I knew I could sleep in forever, so I really didn't deserve these 2 LDs, but here they are anyway

I WILDed probably around 8am. After the vibrations settled, I opened my eyes and was in my room and in bed, per pretty usual. I fought with many layers of blankets and finally got up, but then I woke up. I went back to sleep and ended up in a nonlucid in a grocery store. I was walking down the frozen aisle, when it hit me that I was JUST awake a few moments ago in my bed, trying to lucid dream. BOOM! I remembered the basic I task right away, so I looked for a dream character. My mom was in the frozen aisle too, looking through some frozen items. I said "Mom?" and she looked at me. "Can I have one of my Christmas presents early this year?" She said "Ok" as she started pushing her cart towards one of the registers. When we got in line, there were some floral arrangements on one of the endcaps. She picked one and gave it to me. It was a small, thin glass vase with 4 orchid blossoms in it. They were the most intense, hypercolored purple I'd ever seen. I said "Wow, thank you mom!!" And I was fiddling with them, kinda rearranging them. As I did that, 2 yellow gerbera daisies also appeared in the vase, then 3 roses too. I'm glad that happened, because it kinda snapped me back into the fact that I was dreaming, so I could do another task. I said "Ok by mom, I gotta go do some stuff," and I just set the vase in her cart.

When I got outside, it had snowed everywhere. ANd it looked like a tiny town in Montana or something, with mountains everywhere and everyone dressed like they were going to go ski. I took to flight, and just swam in the air. I tried to think of another task, and all I could think of was the snowman one (and how I kinda didn't really want to do it). As I was in the air, I saw AND heard wolves and bears in the mountains. I thought how much I really wanted to fly there and either battle or befriend them (wolf task HELLOOOOO... oh well). I promised myself I would after the task. I landed on a nice pile of snow across the street from the grocery store. It didn't seem like enough snow, so I willed it to snow (a skill I acquired from one of last year's tasks ). After a few inches accumulated, I got straight on my knees and started trying to form the traditional snowman from 2 big balls of snow. But they would morph a bit while I was making them, and the falling snow kept accumulating around him, basically forming him back into a big amorphic snow pile. I decided to go with it, and instead of sculpting a snowman, I decided to carve him out of the giant snow pile. I made him look a little cubic, with a weird mouth. Kind of like a cross between a robot and an Aztec god. I wasn't even using my hands, I just willed chunks of snow to fall away, leaving the relief of a snow-robot, partially embedded in the drift. I said "Ok, WALK," and when I did, he stepped out of the drift, and marched kinda robot soldier style. At this point, he wasn't even snow anymore, it was pure, clear ice somehow. Probably because I felt a bit like I was doing an ice sculpture rather than snow molding, if that makes any sense. Satisfied with my marching iceman, I thought about heading for the woods, but then I woke up.

I was having a non lucid where I was floating on a giant bag of ice on a river. I suddenly became lucid and continued floating toward a waterfall. I wasn't scared about it. I passed a waterfall on the way to the other one. I ran my fingers through it, it felt so nice. I lost vision but did t care because I could still feel the water. I thought of the basic task and found myself in a library. I asked 2 women what they were thank for and got useless answers that I can't recall. Then I saw a guy sitting at a computer, and I asked him. He put his hands in front of him, and cupped them like he was feeling a pair of invisible breasts. He said "I'm thankful for those giant, white, soft, fluffy...... Flying kittens."

I patted him on his shoulder and lolled. Then I felt like waking up for some reason, and so I announced that I was leaving. As I did, a cute guy in the computer lab said "no wait wait! I wanna play too " I knew I did t have much time, so I just grabbed him and stuck my tongue down his throat. He had a massive amount of really old soggy chewed up gum that he swapped into my mouth! It took forever to get it all out, but when I did, I just spit it all in my hand and then shoved it right back into his mouth. Then I woke up.

I took a late nap, and had a couple WILDs that fizzled out kinda quick. Then suddenly I was dreaming that I was in the car with Danny on my way to work, and I was like 'hey! I was just dreaming a minute ago.' So as Danny was turning a corner, I just opened the car door and jumped out and said later.

I took to flying and the scenery was beautiful. So green and lush. And the sky was completely cloudy, but with lots of this silver linings (I will have to find a pic). I was flying in my goofy little slow way, where I'm upright, and just kinda flap my arms to change direction or gain altitude.

I flew near a store that had wedding dresses and wedding cakes in the window display. I thought 'Oooooh I wanna go in and look around.' I landed and looked in the window. I could see a case full of little individual confections of all shapes and sizes and colors. And two Asian ladies were working on a wedding cake on a little island counter. Just a really pretty store.

I decided to try something I had never tried before, and phase through the glass window while keeping my eyes open, and see if I could keep my vision the whole time with nothing changing. It totally worked haha, beginners luck? Anyway the Asian ladies looked at me and smiled, looking a little confused. I just said "hey don't worry it's just me," and I pinched off a piece of the cake they were working on. The outside was white fondant, but it was impossibly light and not overly sweet. And melted in my mouth and was just delicious. Not possible really to make fondant irl. I praised the ladies for it. The. I went to the pastry case and just stuck one treat after another into my mouth. Everything was delicious. I remember something powdery and hazelnut flavored, and something else carrot cake like. Best dream food ever.

I decided to leave and on my way out I opened my wallet and it was full of twenty dollar bills. I dropped 4 of them on the floor on my way out lol. When I got outside, the sky had changed drastically! All those silver-lined puffs of clouds had turned into giant jellyfish!!! The sky was filled with them. I looked in awe and excitement and yelled "Wooooow!! Cloud jellyfish !!!!" And as soon as I said that, the sky got dark gray, there was thunder and lightening, and the jellyfish started to move toward me. And they started raining. And where ever the rain hit, here was smoke. Like some kind of acid rain. I wondered if it would be neuro toxic rain too since they were jellies.

So I admit, fully lucid, I was kinda excited and scared. Kinda like when you play tag but you're outnumbered. So I ran into some random building, just before the jellies got to me. I found some stairs that went down so I ran for it. But as I descended, the acid rain from the overhead jellies burned through the building and started raining on me! I felt it, and it burned and sizzled a bit. It did t hurt really but it did have a kind of electric feeling.

I kept finding more stairs going down, hoping that the acid rain wouldn't be able to get too me. After a couple more fails, I finally reached what appeared to be an underground garage parking for the building. I was close the the exit and could see outside. Three REALLY big jellies were hovering by the exit. I quickly bid behind a cement pillar. I admit I felt like I was grinning from ear to ear, this was fun! I peeked around the side of the pillar and saw 2 of the jellies leave. Where was the third???? I peeked around the other side, then the opposite side again, nothing. So I started for the exit and the big jelly was right there!! Fucker was hiding on the other side of the pillar!!!! I freaked out and made a gun shape with my hands and went "pew pew pew!" and it hit the floor dead. Fuck yeah.

I went back outside to have big war against the jellies but I woke up. All fun though. It's nice to take a break from totms sometimes, and just go with the flow

I slept in really late. At one point I tried to check the time on my phone, but my left eye wouldn't open, and the phone screen was senseless garble. I'm dreaming!

I get up with the surgery task on my mind since I thought about it last night. I go to the bathroom so I can see in the mirror. I brought my phone with me and the time says 6:58. then i look away and back and it said 6:49, then i looked away and back again and it said "9:69 (really)". like it truly said "really" after the time lol! anyway, The only tool I can find is a dentist pick. I lift up my shirt and start to make an incision but it hurts lol! I say out loud, "I can't do this!" But I just think fuckit, and tear a line down my abdomen, which was nothing more than a deep scratch and no blood. It hurt a bit but not like an actual incision. I set down the tool and put each hand on either side of the scratch, and pull outward. The skin splits perfectly and I'm staring at my rib cage and a bunch of organs that look like steaks! I select one that kinda looks like a stomach and remove it. It wasnt connected to anything, and no blood. I set it on the sink, and it just looks like a sirloin steak lol. Then I look at my reflection and there's a ZIPPER no lie, where the incision is. So I just zip my skin up and I'm fine.

Sometimes I think my subC is too cartoony and keystone cop for these gory tasks :p

Early this morning, I woke up at 5:30am, then again at some point and started getting some vibrations. They were being really really pokey about kicking over into a LD. Finally I got there, and I opened my dream eyes and found myself in my bed as usual. But when I tried to get up I woke up for real. Ok. So I repeated the process and same thing. I think I did it maybe one more time with no success. Not good hehe.

Then my alarm went off at 6:50 to make sure Chris was on his way to school. Then I went back to bed and got the vibrations again, nice and strong. As I was waiting in those couple moments for the dream to start, I quickly thought up a Plan B because I didn't want to risk waking up again and losing all my chances for a lucid. I thought, well, I'll just start the dream IN the bed, and maybe even go for a task while staying in bed. I opened my dream eyes, and was in bed again, and it was pretty dark. I thought about the basic I task all I needed to do was eat a piece of Halloween candy. I can do that right here in bed haha. So I slowly reached over and imagined a piece of candy would be right there on my nightstand. Of course as I'm reaching over, that old childhood fear of something under my bed grabbing me popped in my head. Sure enough, some small animal or creature jumped up and locked its jaws on the side of my hand. It kinda hurt, but not enough to stop me. I continued to reach for the table, with this thing dangling off my hand. I felt on the table and there was a little piece of candy wrapped in cellophane. Yay! I brought both the candy and the creature into bed with me, and just shook the creature off my hand and it vanished. It was a bit lighter now, and before the creature vanished, I could see that it looked a little like a deranged prairie dog lol. Anyway, I opened the candy and it was a tiny square of blue gum. I popped it in my mouth and chewed, and it tasted like blueberry!

I decided maybe now the dream was stable enough that I could get out of bed, and I did easily. I managed to go out of the room and down the hall a bit. At some point I woke up, can't recall exactly. Fortunately, I DEILDed right back into the dream, back in my bed. So I decided to do the same thing (because if I could convince my subC that the candy was poisoned, I'd get advanced wings too!). I reached over, got the same little attacker, and shook it away again. This time the candy was a little red square of gum and tasted like cherries. I got up, went down the hall and into the bathroom. I wanted to see in the mirror if the gum was poisoned and what it would do to me. I'm telling you, I willed the SHIT out of that gum to be poisoned, but nothing happened. I stuck my tongue out and the gum had stained it green. I thought to myself "I guess in dream land, blue and red candy makes green!" Then I woke up.

A silly little basic task, but I'm mostly proud of the way I handled the issue of accidentally waking up. I'm seriously patting myself on the back for not only thinking up the solution, but thinking it up quick! It was mostly out of desperation for fear of losing lucid opportunity, but I'm telling you: once you're in the mind set to solve problems in a lucid, or just before the lucid, or while transitioning, you only need a few seconds of really rational thought. Then things will fall into place. Then you'll feel like a million bucks and a super lucid genius for the day!

I got super lucky on this one. It was a very long lucid. I went to bed late on the couch, then woke up, went back to sleep. Did that maybe every 2 hours until 10am when I could finally sleep undisturbed for a couple hours.

I drifted off to sleep, and immediately had a dreamlet of me reaching over and checking my phone. I knew I was dreaming because I had just go e to sleep and I did t need to check my phone for anything. I immediately left the bedroom and was greeted by my dog, Daisy. She was super hyper and jumping all over me, and then a second Daisy appeared! They were all over me and I felt I may wake up. So I just relaxed, pet the 2 Daisys, and felt the dream get more stable as I recalled the advanced task. Perfect, I'll just walk up the diningroom wall. I also remembered the ABCs task, so I thought I would just sing it while trying the advanced. I put one foot on the wall, then as I tried to put my other foot on the wall, I fell on my back lol. Like in real life, but I had a tiny moment of hover. I tried this maybe two more times and fell. I did reach the end of the ABC song at least! So anyway, I tried a spot of wall next to an open door, and I used the handle to help me once both feet were on the wall. Then I walked right up, no problem. I got to the ceiling, put one foot on the ceiling, and immediately felt my work flip 90 degrees. I got both feet on the ceiling, and it felt like strong magnets were holding my shoes in place, yet I could take steps with little effort. It was amazing, I felt the blood rush to my head, and my hair was hanging down. I really felt upside down, really cool.

I don't remember how I got down, but I wanted to try walking up the wall again without the doorknob. I thought maybe a run and jump would work, and it did! My feet stuck right on the wall, and I was able to repeat the process, this time in front of the diningroom mirror. I cod see my hair hanging in my face.

Again I don't remember how I got down, but I wanted to try again, this time just walking straight to the wall like it didn't matter. When I did, I fell again. Oh well, run and jump worked at least haha.

Still lucid, I recalled the call a dc task. Should be no problem, since I've done it before in lucids. But never with a cell phone, and that's all I had at the moment. I don't know about y'all, but trying to find contacts on my iphone is hard enough irl, much less dreams, lucid or otherwise. I would find a contact, then the screen would scroll away from it when I tried to click it. After alot of trying and failing, I finally came across "Kevin M." from college. Haven't talked to that boy since like 1994. But I called him and he answered, but he sounded like a drunk Texan, instead of the straight edge Norwegian I remember from college. I asked if this was the same Kevin M that met me in a H4H build in 1994, and he said it was him. I asked why it didn't sound like him anymore, and he said in a thick drawl "Because I turned into a drunk Texan, I hope you don't judge." I said it's all good, I got enough for the task anyway.

The dream was STILL going, but I couldn't for the life of me recall the 4th task. In this moment as I'm typing, I still don't remember it, so no chance. I started probably losing lucidity a bit at this point, but I remember I went to the bedroom and say DC Danny. We didn't speak much, but I was messing with some stuff in a drawer. My finger got stuck on something sharp, and I was like "wtf is this?" And Danny said "it's a fishing lure." So it was. I took the little hook out of my finger, and was admiring the pretty red feather lure attached to it, when I noticed that in the same basket in that drawer, was a couple individually wrapped condoms. I said "I don't think you should keep fishing lures with the condoms baby, seems like a bad idea." I was already kneeling on the floor because this was the bottom drawer, so then I just kinda lay down on my side on the carpet. I could feel that I was about to wake up, and I thought to myself, "Yeah, that's enough for this dream." And I woke up on my side, in the exact same position, in my bed.

This was yesterday morning. On my phone so I'll be brief. I WILDed early, around 7am I think. After the vibrations, I knew I was dreaming, but I couldn't move my dream body, and I couldn't see. But I was able to imagine that I was gently rolling off the bed, and I landed on my feet on the bedroom floor and I could see. I went straight to the floor and pushed my face through. A tunnel to hell formed, but it was quiet, dark, and not much fire. Which actually seemed more creepy. I called down "I'm coming down!!" and I saw the devil poke his head into the tunnel and turn to look up at me. His eyes reflected light, and I was scared for a moment. My fear caused the devil to change into a more docile form (CL if you're reading this, we need to talk about how emotions really drive the dream setting and characters). Anyway, the devil turned into a chubby old black lady, still with the eyes though. I yelled for a rope to appear, and started down, but I woke up. I deilded and did the exact same thing, only I tried to summon beers on the way down, woke up again. Deilded again, this time skipped hell and went into the kitchen. I went blind on the way, but I could still feel so I kept walking and made it to the kitchen and got my sight back. I saw an old woman looking in my fridge, and I recalled the basic task! I asked her the meaning of life and she said "I am a good ___ and a good leader." I didn't hear the first work so I asked her to repeat. She said "I am a good dad, and a good leader." Lol ok. I woke up.

I was naughty and didn't record some WILDs from last week. On my phone so just brief points:

The one where I tried he'll one last time. The devil was small and at the bottom of the tunnel. I grabbed at him but he was like air. He slipped away through a hole in the rocks, and I stuck my hand I. The he to get him. Something happened causing great pain in my hand, like electrocution, then I woke up.

Then the one where I figured out how to summon DCs! I just ti d a tall building which are usually around, then fly to a top floor window, and they're right there behind the window! I have to flap hard with my arms though because I apparently fly heavy. Anyways, I succeeded I getting with a cute blonde chic this way, but I woke up before sex. I DEILDed I to the same dream, found her again, woke up too soon again.

The one where I found a pretty brunette this time, using the fly to the window method. This time I succeeded in getting with her. I decided to watch the details this time. Won't go too specific. Anyway it was such a turn on that I woke up!

Quick entry from the phone:

My first LD at the new house yaaaaaay! Been sick with a little cold so I was tossing and turning a lot. Usually causes me to wild early, like 7am. It was a struggle initially I'll explainers later. I got there finally and went to the floor to phase through to hell but my face smashed on the carpet. Tried again and got through. I yelled down the tunnel I'M COMMING! I saw the devils head for a sec, and some other beings walking around at the bottom. I summoned a rope and spelunkered(?) to the bottom. By the time I got there, everyone was gone. I walked around some dark, dank caves, nothing. I even found a cave with some really creepy dark silvery wavy water. I yelled names like Hades!!? Mephistopheles!!? Nothing. Woke up before I could think to try the turn around summon trick.

DEILDed back in my room, went outside, saw some little kids, remembered to ask one what the meaning of life is, canNOT remember the answer!!! Took them flying though. Serves me right for being so desperate for the totm that I ask a two year old.

I admit I didn't properly complete these 2 tasks, but it was still an interesting adventure. Well, isn't every dream?

Anyway, I inadvertently woke up and fell back to sleep maybe 5 times between midnight and 5am, which I think helped set me up really well for WILD. Then I either woke up or FAed (I'm beginning to think there's a possibility that I don't really know the difference right before I WILD), and I turned slightly and felt vibrations. I remember thinking at that moment how strange it was that I was getting there this early.. normally they don't hit until well after 7am (with rare exception). So I went with it, and a few cycles passed and I "woke" into a dream. In my bed as usual, checking to make sure I was dreaming, I saw Danny sit up slightly. He asked me a question that was complete gibberish, and that confirmed the dream.

I got up and left the room. When I went down the hall and into the livingroom, it looked completely different, like that of a small apartment. There were a bunch of scattered papers on the kitchen counter, and I remember thinking at that moment "I know I wrote down the tasks of the month on one of these pieces of paper...." So I began rummaging through them. I couldn't find what I wanted, and I kinda got clear there for a second, questioning the validity of these papers. Then the Hell TOTM struck my brain, and I immediately got down on all fours. I pressed my face through the floor, and that obedient tunnel to hell appeared instantly. A moment of fear swept through me (if you haven't read any of my tunnel to hell dreams before, this is #4.. and if you can imagine for real, a dark, creepy tunnel that goes way down deep, with some fiery orange glow, and sounds from the deep not unlike the Balrog of Moria, then you'll know why I chickened out the first two times and didn't go in). The moment passed quickly, because I've been psyching myself for it in waking life. Alot. No fear, it's a dream, MY dream...

The past few days, since my last attempt at this task, I decided that I would manifest a rope to get down, because flying/hovering/climbing are not at the top of my lucid skills. Obediently, a sturdy rope appeared in front of me, perfectly in the center of the tunnel. I grabbed it and tugged, it seemed to be fastened at the top somehow, but I didn't look up. My focus was down down down. I grabbed the rope with my arms AND legs like a spider, and began to slide down. I felt a little like I was going down a really creepy well. "The Well from Hell" haha, sounds like a scary B movie. Or a documentary: "Hell's Wells, Have They Dried Up? Story at 11." Ok I'm done

Anyway, I started sliding down the rope, which should have burned my hands, so I'm glad I didn't have that as a distraction in this dream. I focused hard to see a bottom to the tunnel, because that's where I failed last time (it ended up being an endless tunnel and I woke up before finding the bottom). Two times I had to focus and say, "I'm approaching the bottom, I'm approaching the bottom," and my feet finally found the ground. In retrospect, I don't remember any heat at all. I had a lucky, pain free trip to Hell. Almost immediately, a figure approached me. (My memory is a little foggy from this point on, so I'll do my best. I think my memory tends to be a bit better when I'm super focused, like descending the tunnel, since I was so set on tackling that. So when I got to a point I hadn't got to before, I stopped trying to control everything, and just let the story take over. But as a reflex, I may be dropping too much focus as well, and forgetting stuff. Gotta work on that in the future.)

Alright, so a figure approached me, and he seemed to be made up of half smoke, and half something corporeal. But he seemed to phase in and out of it. I think I asked if he was the devil, but I don't remember an answer. I remember him getting super close to me though. He was handsome, when he wasn't a billowy cloud of smoke. And I remembered Dianeva's idea to ask him the meaning of life! (Sadly, the beer never popped into my head, aside from which, even if I had succeeded in this basic task, that's a pretty long as fucking way of getting to it, to then fail at the advanced!) So I asked him "What is the meaning of life, oh Dark Lord?" (kidding, I didn't say the dark lord part ) I know he had an answer, I just KNOW it, but I don't remember. All I remember is he swooped me up in wings of smoke, and the next thing I remember, I was standing on earth.

Oreo face? I think so!!

Apparently I'm not even good enough for hell, and the devil himself kicked me right out. Wow. So the last thing I remember is seeing 2 DCs that I have a hunch that i recognized. I'm pretty much nonlucid at this point I think. I hug them both tightly, then wake up.

Alright Devil, you wanna play like that? Maybe next time I conjure some magic Devil snare and tie your ass up. I'll pour beer down your gullet if I have to for these wings!

Well CL, you were right. We recorded an in depth podcast, and it was like major fodder for my lucid early this morning.

I woke up at 5:30 am when Danny had to go to work. I know that before that, I was tossing and turning for hours. Because I ate a bunch of cheese crackers right before bed. At some point after Danny went to work, I fell back to sleep. Then I had a brief FA, where I thought I had woken up, but to my left was Danny sleeping in the bed. But I knew that he'd already left for work, and Danny always sleeps on the right. He looked like Danny, and rolled over on top of me as if to give me a kiss, but by then I knew it wasn't him. In a split second I went from "Oh shit...." to this thing wailing all over me. My vocal chords were paralyzed, so I couldn't talk nice to it. I felt like something was holding my hands down, but the demon wasn't touching them. It was so weird. So I just started thinking happy thoughts. He started to kinda shrivel, and slide away from me, down the bed, in a sort of catatonic state. But I still couldn't move very well. So I started trying to move my arms, which I could a little, then ZOOoooommm, the creep was right back on top of me, screaming and looking all freaky. His head would shake back and forth really fast, like that Tool video (Sober). Before I thought to think happy thoughts again, I noticed that everytime he shook and convulsed like that, I could feel vibrations in my hands. So I just decided to close my dream eyes, and sure enough, my usual WILD vibrations swept over me. I opened my dream eyes again, an was alone in my room. I tried to slowly get out of bed, but I was really entangled in blankets this time. They were too heavy to get off me, then I woke up. Fortunately, the vibrations came right back, and I ended up in my room again. I got up, an went to the bedroom door, blankets all wrapped around my legs. But as soon as I left the room, they were gone. WHEW.

I knew that a personal goal of mine for a while (which is also one of August's TOTMs), was to create a portal to hell, and share a cold beer with the devil. I wondered that if, after all that DEILD Demon nonsense, if I would be too chicken to do it (since in the past, there was a TOTM where you had to go to purgatory and rescue a soul. But my portals kept going past purgatory and straight into hell, and I was too scared to go lol. That made me mad so I became determined to conquer this). Anyway, I didn't feel that scared. But as soon as I got to the living room, I noticed that the front door was open, and Danny was standing on the porch, looking as if he was waiting for the rain to stop before getting into his car to go to work. I questioned if I was dreaming or not afterall! I went outside and notice that it wasn't raining, just the sprinklers were on. I looked at him and we exchanged a few words, can't remember what. Then I noticed the skin on his nose was gone. Like a skeleton meets Michael Jackson kinda thing. Ah, ok lol. I went to give him a quick smooth before continuing with my task, but when I did, it was like kissing air. So creepy.

I went back into the house, and got on all fours on the floor. I had to hold my glasses in my hand, which kept falling of my face. I pressed my face into the floor, and it phased through. A huge, craggy tunnel formed, and went straight down for what looked like miles. It was illuminated with a fiery orange glow, and I could hear sounds from way deep, like, chains and heavy things hitting against rock. Just like the last 2 times. In waking life, I had already promised myself that the next time I found this tunnel to hell, I wouldn't be scared. I told myself, "It's ok Ophelia, nothing to be scared of. It's just a dream. And when you find the devil, he's going to be really nice and you're just going to share a beer together." I really felt ok with this. I began to descend, in a sort of rock-climbing fashion. But the dream environment didn't seem to match what I thought it should look like when you are climbing downward. Hard to explain, but it seemed like I wasn't really going anywhere. So I decided to just float down slowly. This worked, and I was slowly falling, not too fast, which would have woken me up. I probably SHOULD have looked down though, because I didn't really have a focal point. I should have looked down and visualized the bottom, because what ended up happening was, I just fell a while, and then woke up naturally.

If I had succeeded in this task, I wouldn't have counted it for myself, since I had a heads up on the task. Who knew that I would break a dry spell on the FIRST of the month lol.

All kinds of new stuff here. First of all, due to some recent family tragedies and issues, I was up until 5:30am. I woke up at 6am, then again at some point, then again at noon. This time when I went back to sleep, I was drifting off and watching some swirly images on the back of my eyelids. I thought to myself, "If I have a lucid dream now, I don't even want to attempt any goals or anything, just a hookup." I felt so mentally and emotionally exhausted, that I didn't even like the idea of any tasks. This has happened to me a few times, happen to any of y'all? Anyway, the swirly images took me straight into a dream then right back out, but the images now looked like my dog Daisy's nose lol. So I just focused on this snout, because somehow it anchored me right into a dream. NO vibrations.. a first for me.

But like my usual WILDs, I started out in my bed. For some reason I didn't try to take anything carefully or slowly like I usually do, I was just in kind of an IDC mode. I just sped to the bedroom door, almost tripping over the entangled blankets. I got to the door and I thought I about lost the dream, because my heart was racing, and I was breathing hard. I really felt it. Everything went kinda "Wom wom wom wom wom" for a moment, but I held on, and I didn't wake up after all. I left the room and went down the hall, already set on finding a hot chick (yes I'm aware I have a problem, or I'm half gay or idk what). The hall opened into the living room and there was an older woman and a young guy I think. I walked up to them (completely aware that I was female at this point btw, because I remember feeling a little awkward that I could see my long hair all strewn about my face, yet I was about to ask them something that a guy should be asking), and asked, "Hey, where's that hot chick who lives here?" [Notice I didn't ask "IF" there was a hot chick here, I asked straight up "WHERE" she was ] The older woman pointed to another room. It was a sunny room with a bay window. The first object I saw in the room was a baby grand piano, and a pretty lady was playing the piano. She was wearing a red turtleneck sweater, and a short skirt. She looked half hispanic, with a really nice layered hairdo. I walked up to her and she smiled at me, and I noticed one of her teeth was slightly crooked, but in a cute way. I just said, "hey baby" and grabbed her , lifted her off the piano bench and tried to kiss her. She didn't want to at first, but then I was like "Come onnnnnn" [my dream, my woman]. I kissed her and she let me this time. A few heated moments of frenching and kissing her neck (I like doing that, maybe it's because i like MY neck being kissed irl?? And I think as a guy, I can do it better than guys irl hahahaha, sorry boys). I transformed into a guy without even trying this time. There was a mirror on the wall by the piano, and I caught my reflection in the corner of my eye in between kisses (I keep my eyes open the whoooole time by the way, just in case of lost lucidity), and I had short hair like a guy. Plus I noticed something happening downstairs So predictable. I I pulled down my jeans and sat on the piano bench. I lifted her skirt and sat her on my lap. Then ... same ol' same ol'. Felt gooood though. No wonder men are such hornballs. At one point (and this is weird), I put my hands under her shirt while we were at it, but she didn't have a bra, and hardly any boobs. Which felt like I was in danger of getting turned off, so I just massaged her chest until boobs started to grow right under my hands. Really interesting sensation. We did it for maybe 15 seconds but I woke up just when I was about to finish. Oh well.

Didn't get her name either I'm such a jackass.

I was having a nonlucid about being in a college class. Suddenly all the students starting moving the desks in little rows in the back of the class, so that we could all see the professor's desk better? Something like that. Anyway, after all the seats were rearranged, it situated me right behind a pretty cute guy! Not what i typically go for; he was a little taller than me, light brown hair with one of those hats like ACDC wears. HE was wearing a red flannel plaid shirt, and had a little goatee. Very reminiscent of the guys back in my college days. he flashed me a couple flirtatious looks, before finally asking me out. I think I gave him my number, I seem to vaguely remember struggling with the number (irl I just got a new iphone and number, so it was hard to remember in the dream lol). After class we walked down the hall together, talking about I can't remember what. Our arms swung to our sides as we walked close, occasionally grazing a finger on the other's hand. I was tempted to just hold his hand, but I didn't want to give away so much before the first date.

That's all i remember from that dream. When I woke up, I was thinking about him. Then I went back into a nonlucid dream about college again. I was headed to a class, when I saw the same guy. I thought to myself "I Just had a dream about this guy!" Yay lucid. I was pretty elated that this DC found me again, and now that I knew it was a dream, I didn't have to play hard to get anymore. I went straight up to him and grabbed him by his stupid flannel collar and kissed him square on the lips. It felt gooooood but I closed my eyes and woke up.

It was time to get up anyway.

Man I had some crazy nonlucids the other night when I went to bed sick, but they'll have to wait. I gotta tell y'all about the interesting WILD I had this morning.

Went to bed at 1am, woke up at 7,8,9 and it was sooooo hot. But I kept trying and ended up WILDing probably at around 10:30am because I woke up from the WILD at about 11am.

Anyway, traditional roll over, vibrations, then WILD. I got up out of the bed, and my vision was bad, balance was off, and it was really really dark. One of my eyes was blind too, if that isn't insult to injury. [Doctor says to the patient: sorry, your vision is 20/1000, and that's in the eye that ISN'T blind, chuckle chuckle.] ANYway, I left the room and went down the hall, thinking of the hug task. The hall opened into a sunny little play room that doesn't exist irl. A 3-year old version of my son Chris was playing on the floor with some colorful blocks. Perfect! [A little side note about 3-year old Chris: that was the age he was when we had to go to a shelter, and he had regressed somewhat during all the turmoil. Point is, it was during a crappy time for me too, so I feel in many ways that me and Chris missed out on a lot of fun during his 3-year old time. When I was 3 and my parents were split up, my mom took me to Disneyland. Alot.] Happy to see cute lil Chris, I just bent down and picked him up and hugged him super hard and long. Best feeling ever

Then I thought of the write name in sand task, and I noticed that part of the playroom had a sand pit. I won't really count this task because it was indoor sand, but I told myself at that time that in case I don't find a beach later, I'll just try it here. I wrote "Lisa" fairly easily, then "Ophelia" next to it . Ok, still lucid, what were the advanced tasks? I couldn't remember them, even now as I'm typing this out I can't remember, oh yeah, punch the pres. Oh well, all I could remember at the time was the only one I DIDN'T want to do, which was to jump in the volcano. But I figured I could just go there anyway and maybe I'd get brave when I got there. I asked Chris if he wanted to come along and he followed me to the front door. I could hear that it was raining bad outside, and Chris said "Mommy, umbrella" and pointed at the closet where we keep them. I told him that we won't need them. We stepped outside and it was pouring horribly, and super dark. Now, I never have much luck getting rain to clear up, but I remember that one member who uses his DCs to do things for him. So I told Chris to point at the sky and use his magic to make the rain stop. It took a few tries, but the rain stopped, and it got a little brighter out.

I didn't see any mountains or volcanoes anywhere, but a van drove up to us. A guy was driving, and a lady was in the back and she opened the sliding door, asking if we needed a ride. I said, "Mount Fuji is over there somewhere, can you take us there?" She said ok, for $40. So I handed her a $40 bill Which did seem normal at the time lol. Anyway, we weren't driving for long before the van was now on the tracks of a roller coaster. I said to the driver "Man, we gotta get off this thing or I'll lose my lucidity!" as we rolled and tumbled, with visions of Mount Fuji going in and out of my peripheral vision. We finally stopped and got out, and we were in DisneyLand! (Anaheim).

I knew that one of the rides was situated around a volcano that I could probably make real somehow, because I had seen it from inside the van. But then I noticed that Chris was in the arms of that woman from the van, looking really sad. He said, "Mommy, I don't want you to go into a volcano.." Ordinarily this would be where I combated the DC guilt trip and said something like, "Ok, you stay here with Aunti so-and-so, while I go get some 'ice cream' wink wink," and then continue on to find the volcano. But here I was, totally lucid, with 3-year old Chris, AT DISNEYLAND! So I thought fuck it, "He Chris, want to go ride some rides?" And he ran over to me and grabbed my hand. I thought to myself I don't even care if I lose lucidity at this point. The lady gave me back my $40 bill and said, "Here, you can have this back to get some ride tokens." So we went to the token dispenser (so not existing in real Disneyland, oh well who cares. Mickey coins sounded fun). I stuck in the entire $40 dollar bill, which seemed to empty the dispenser of all its tokens. Me and Chris just started filling our pockets with the tokens, much to the dismay of a dad and his son, who were waiting to get their tokens lol. Then Chris and I walked hand in hand and got in line for one of the rides. I believe I did start to lose lucidity at some point in that line, but I don't think I was ever happier in a dream.

This one had some positive points, as well as some facepalms. But I'm starting to understand some stuff better about my LDing self.

So I WILDed pretty much like I did yesterday morning. Woke up at 5,7,9,10 for various reasons. Went to the bathroom and got water a couple times. I finally rolled over at some point and felt the vibrations.

I opened my eyes slowly and recognized right away that I was in an alternate bedroom. It's been hot lately so I didn't fall back to sleep with covers on, so I started the dream without and bedding issues. I opened the door to the bedroom, which led to a hallway in a hotel. These rooms were on the 1st floor apparently, because the hall eventually opened into the hotel lobby, which also resembled a huge mall. A hotel-mall, do they have those yet? Seems like a fun idea

Anyway, on the left was one of those make-up selling counters, with beautiful women who try to squirt you with perfume or offer a makeover as you walk by. I saw a really pretty blonde one that I though to go for first, but she rushed off with a customer and I lost her. I came upon a nice looking asian-american woman, who clearly paid alot of attention to her makeup. She had shoulder-length perfectly straight, shiny black hair, and meticulous eye make-up and frosty pink lipstick. I asked her if she wanted to go out with me, but she was reluctant. I'm still female doh! I guess some part of me thinks that if I act like a guy, the DCs will see me as one. Oh well, she had one of those circular swivel mirrors, so I looked into it.

I looked like I did in college but with a bob style hair cut. So I started hard at myself, willing for change. My hair darkened and shortened to shiny black, and the shape of my eyes became a thin almond shape, resembling someone who was part asian. Then my jaw got more square. I looked semi cute, like I could have been on Karate Kid II haha.

Anyway, I took the lady's hand and said, "Come on." She still kinda didn't want to. I just pulled her down the lobby by her hand anyway, and she didn't struggle. I pushed her against the window of one of the stores, but I accidentally did it a little too hard, and she bonked the back of her head on the glass a little. This was going so bad lol. I looked at her apologetically, and took her face in my hands. I kissed her gently a few times, then I remember to ask her for her name. She said something like "Hatika." I whispered her name to her a few times, in between kisses. I was just trying to make the effort to remember her name after I woke up, but I guess she liked it, because then she started really getting into it. Breathlessly she whispered to me, "I want you ______." She referred to me as some name but I forgot it.

That did it for me. Across from the store we were making out in front of, was a little spanish-style restaurant. The only light in there was from little votive candles on each table. But the center of the restaurant was completely dark, since no light reached it. I marched her straight to the carpet in the middle of the restaurant floor, threw her down on her back. In about 10 seconds, I managed to scoot our pants down just far enough, get 4 thrusts in, and I was done! I woke up immediately after.

So..

I'm still a dickhead. 2 one-night stands in as many days, and I still don't know their names. I'm glad I remembered to ask for her name this time, even if I forgot it. And I'm happy I can find hot chicks to make out with me, and that I can transform pretty easy. I think part of my problem though, is, well, the restraint for one. But I also think I'm kinda settling, since I'm not finding the precise chick that I want. I mean, right now, I feel like it shouldn't matter which chick it is, because it's all part of an experiment. But IN the dream, I'm more emotional I guess, so I want exactly what I want, and I want it now. So I need to figure out a way to combat this, or work with it.