Hi Transflux,
I read your post with much interest, although I didn't understand much about it, but I kept pondering about your post in the evening and during the night. In the evening I was experiencing my surroundings as part of myself, it is actually like this according to Tibetan dream yoga, even when awake, although you have "real" external stimuli at that moment, the reality that you experience is something your mind constructs (on basis of these external stimuli) and is different for every individual. The only difference between dream reality and waking reality is that the latter is based on external stimuli, but in both cases it is our mind that constructs our reality, so yes, whatever we see, hear, experience, comes from our own mind.
Anyhow, based on your explanation and what i knew about dream yoga, i felt motivated to expand my identity somewhat, feeling that whatever I saw was a construct of my mind, also my body, so I could identify with things out of my body.
While sleeping this thought came back to me once and awhile, I tried what you described without really understanding, "rotating" (?) my awareness through different thoughts, moods, visuals, understanding that it all are different parts of myself, and growing my awareness. I don't know if it was because of this, probably, but at one point i dreamt and suddenly realised i was dreaming and had a nice lucid dream. But after i woke up from this LD something special happened. I pondered again on this awareness that can grow bigger then your body, this brought me in a state where it seems like i was clear awake, not be able to fall asleep, but anyhow not really awake, some kind of false awaking, but definitely not in REM, rather in non-REM, no visuals, just feeling being awake, while not really awake. I have this often and has frustrated me allot, cause it looks like insomnia. But now i realised that it might be my mind tricking me into believing i was not sleeping, so i tried to be more aware of that state and feel how different it feels like being really awake, this brought me closer to waking, I could here my real body breath, but when I switched my awareness to that other state, I felt in that state I needed no breathing (finding out if i need breath or not is a RC for me), so I knew that this state was some kind of vague dreamstate, and the other state where i was concious of my breath was the state of being aware of my real body, but i could switch between the two states. Very strange, it was like i could switch to a semi-lucid dream state without dream to my almost awake state, and the former felt very nice, meditative like. I finally switched to the dreamlike non-dream state and tried to build a dream from there, but this costed me to much effort and it woke me up, for real this time.
So Transflux, i really want to know more about the process you describe, can you give me some more background information, some link to some more explanation, or can you describe it in more detail?
Thanks in advance and thanks for sharing it in the first place.
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