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Dream Fragment - "Clavines (?), a warm drink made from strawberries. (I sure wouldn't drink that! ) Posting on DV, littlezoe."

Just A DC [MILD]

I was at my old middle school, but I perceived it as my community college, and I was walking around in the hallways after a class with O. I saw this girl I used to know named AB, and then I became lucid when we were walking out of the front doors and I was asking O what he wanted to do. He said he would need to go home and take a shower before anything, and I realized that I actually still had a class to go to anyway. I turned around and waited outside the door with J, who was apparently in this class too. I lost lucidity around this time, and I don't remember much about the class except that I think it might have been an English class and it was over extremely fast. When the teacher let us go, it came back. I was walking out of the same front doors with J this time and laughed as I noted O coming back in. Still sort of in a transitional mindset, I turned to J and asked him "Is this our dream?"
"No." Well that was blunt. He started talking about something else, but I already knew I was lucid at this point and I know that J is one of my friends with the capacity for real conversation, so I wasn't putting up with this.
"Wait, why not?"
"Because it's your dream."
"Oh, so it's not a shared dream?"
"Nope, I'm just a... uh, D...C?" He looks at me inquisitively. I love that the fact that he doesn't know dream-related terms carried over into his personality, despite how aware he was.
"Yeah, 'DC'." I pause and look around. This whole time we'd been walking away from the school, first through the parking lot and now over a nearby field. I turned to him again. "Well then what do you want to do?"
He starts off a sentence with "Well, normally I...", but then the dream starts fading away. I heard more of what he said at the time and I'm pretty sure I even comprehended it (I think it was something to do with running?), but I can't remember it now. Everything faded to white, and I woke up.

Dream Fragment - "N and M dating, homework, drinking in the rain, train, back against the sun, O doing something...."

Bleeeeeh.

I wanted to say more, but suddenly I'm not feeling so up to it. :/ Maybe later.

Dream Fragment - "Coming up on three hits of acid, anxious." Hmmmm.

Day one of the no fap challenge.... This is going to be just wonderful. >w< It's been about 26 or 27 hours since the last time and I can already tell things are going to get worse and worse, I almost gave into temptation once until I remembered.

Oh well, at least I've got Phantom Brave!

Before falling asleep last night I decided to smoke some medium-grade weed to see if it helped with meditation more than the high-grade weed I've been smoking. The reason for this is because all of the high-grades around here are body highs, which means they have a good THC/CBD ratio rather than the mostly-THC head highs of the medium-grades. Since THC works through CB1 receptors which colocalize with and also indirectly stimulate D2 receptors, I figured this would be a much better bet for achieving a dream state; THC-dominant strains also make me hornier and trip harder in a psychosis kind of way, all evident of dopaminergic effects. The CBD strains have anti-THC action and then add their own serotonergic effects, which is wonderful for getting high and probably even for meditating in a non-dream-related way, but that's not what I'm looking for here. The outcome was pretty successful, I didn't achieve a WILD or OBE or anything because I'm inexperienced and it was right before going to bed originally, but the vibrations did get very strong, I felt warm and tingly all over and I had basically melted into the flat surface of my bed. I also used a light machine the first 10 minutes of it, and that created some pretty intense patterns that were pushing the high into complex visuals like cascading faces. After I finally pulled myself out of that, I fell asleep.

Dream Fragment - "Flying in a jungle with N, commemorative dollar coins with jokes written on them, school/mall food court, Facebook, talking about shared dreaming?"

Lucid Fragment IV [DILD]

I remember becoming lucid based on the fact that something I said didn't make much sense, but I don't really remember what it was now. This wasn't an "oh no, another lucid lost to a fragment!" dream, I was just really tired when I woke up and I didn't think it was interesting enough to merit taking the effort to write it down. Yeah, I was feeling lazy.

Jello Cubes And Drugs [Non-Lucid]

In an auditorium, I was in a new class with lots of confusing things going on, and my mom was sitting next to me in some kind of stadium seating. She had stopped talking after some red jello energy cube showed up next to us. I was pretty high and I started playing with it, unsure of what exactly it was. I was also talking to some really drug-dealer-stoner-looking guy about a new powerful drug I was planning to synthesize, and my description was complete with cartoony breakthrough visuals with bugs and galaxies and veins and blood vessels and etc., and I was saying it could basically either make you trip balls or it could kill you, we just don't know yet. The visual was pretty intense! That part of the conversation happened as we were walking through a hallway somewhere after leaving the auditorium, but I can't remember much after that now.

First Experiment [Sleep Paralysis]

After I woke up I got on DV and checked new threads for probably not longer than five or ten minutes. Upon checking the Post pictures of sexy hawt females thread, it occurred to me that I still hadn't officially reset my counter to zero for the one month of no masturbation challenge, and I was finally in the mood to do so. So that was fun.... Afterwards I thought about how long it had been since I originally woke up, and decided what better than now for a WBTB experiment? I got out my bong and smoked some more of my medium-grade weed, then positioned myself lying on my back in the bed, facing up.

At first I just felt extremely relaxed and zoned out. Then I started getting some mild hypnagogia coupled with delirium, i.e. thinking it was actually happening, but only a little bit. The first thing I remember is repeatedly thinking that I was walking into my bathroom and looking into the mirror, but still being faintly aware that I was really still in bed. There was more than that, but it's hard to remember now. After a while I got lazy and intended on giving up, so I flipped over to my side.

Suddenly, there was a large number of things going on in the room. First, the TV was on, I couldn't see it but I could hear it quite clearly. I don't remember what was being said. Second, my cat was meowing loudly in my room, and I couldn't see him either. Third, my mom was telling me something about my cat which I don't remember now. Same story, heard but not seen. And fourth, I was on DV talking to StaySharp about everything that was happening. Throughout all of this I was aware that this wasn't actually happening, except for the thing about DV. I was able to completely open my eyes and think at least somewhat lucidly. "Okay... I can't move.... So I'm in sleep paralysis? Alright then." With eyes open everything was dreamy and extremely distant, as if it was being perceived but not really processed. I looked at my laptop (which wasn't even actually there) and saw it start floating around the room, shrinking and growing in only one direction as it did so. There was a mild sense of "That's not right....", and then I closed my eyes again. I was back in my bathroom, looking in the mirror. This image wasn't completely solid, it was like 90-95% there, basically enough for it to be a fully structured dream sequence but with me still maintaining bodily awareness. I had a baby carrier positioned on me so that the baby would be in front of me, covering my chest and stomach, but there was no baby in it. Instead, there were two long, feminine, and beautiful legs protruding downward from somewhere in it that's hard to recollect now. I could also hear the voice of my cousin K talking about how I was going to turn into her or something, but I think it might have been more of my train of thought than something that was actually happening. This weirded me out a bit and, without fully comprehending the situation, I decided that I'd had enough of this. I opened my eyes again and just stared at the wall with the intention of ending the whole experience, and before long the dreamy feeling faded away, and I could move again.

I'll certainly be using this weed for more experiments in the future!

Third Lucid Fragment [DILD]

The only thing I remember about this is that suddenly the world became more vivid and I realized I had control, so I started using powers, and after a few seconds of "Yesss! Power!!" I thought to myself "Oh wait, I'm lucid, aren't I?" And then my recall drops off.

:C

Three times now.... A new plan of action is required.

#1 - Dream Drug OBEs [Non-Lucid]

My dad and I each smoked some weed laced with synthetic cannabinoids, at least a good few and including JWH-420, and we ended up having heavy out-of-body experience trips for a while. I don't really remember what happened other than a few flashes of color. When I finally started calming down and come back to "reality", I noticed that my dad was still pretty out of it. I went to my bed to lie down and turned off the lights, and then I woke up in my real bed.

Dream Fragment - There was a family party going on but I can't remember where, some swimming occurred, our family friend DE and my cousin GA were there and GA had apparently just come out of the closet, or something... and finally there was talk about going off to college, but I can't even recall who it was about.

#2 - Lucid Fragment Again [DILD]

All I remember is that I became lucid and I told myself I had to keep focus. And that's it. :T *sigh*

#3 - Creepy Party [Non-Lucid]

There was some really bizarre party going on with a bunch of people there, and I don't really remember much about it other than being scared and deciding to leave with O. We walked out to a parking lot and decided to meet up at my house, and when I got in my car I noticed that I was really high, and I felt it was off of a synthetic cannabinoid. I felt cautious about driving, but noticed it barely took me a second to be at some highway intersection. Soon after that I woke up.

#4 - Changing Rooms [Non-Lucid]

I was in some kind of clothing store and lost in what I wrote in my notes as a "matrix of rooms and bathrooms." Basically I was looking for a changing room, and there were rows and columns of hallways with rooms in between each intersection, mostly consisting of bathrooms and changing rooms that were too revealing, and occasionally just an actual hallway. I was walking around in a pink one-piece bathing suit and carrying lots of different clothes, and at one point I walked past a group of women just standing around and changing out in the open. They chuckled at me as I walked by distressed, I guess because I wasn't as willing to change in the open as them lol.

#5 - Lucid Nonsense [DILD]

No memory of when I was non-lucid, but I do know a good amount of things happened. I became lucid at my house and flew to the laundry room where some random guy was standing. I tried to punch him and it went in a sort of slow motion and he dodged it. I turned around and saw another guy standing in the kitchen, so I flew up to him and this time he tried to punch me, again in slow motion, but as he did I grabbed his arm and directed it towards the other guy, hitting him this time and seeing my face in the microwave door as I passed by it. My memory gets a little hazy at this point, but I talked to my dad to make sure it was still a dream, and then I touched some stuff to stabilize. I randomly decided to grab a bottle of mustard that was sitting on the kitchen counter and pour it on to the floor, but nothing came out despite there being a squirting sound. I told myself that the mustard must have covered the whole outside world! And when I looked outside everything had some mustard on it. I didn't really get to explore it, though. My vision got weird and I started seeing my arms resting in front of me like in a bed, and I started thinking that I must've been waking up and my eyes were opening. I fought it but eventually I just gave in.

False Awakening - I started typing up my dream and got a little less than half way through, but then I fully woke up and luckily didn't lose too much.

Dream Fragment - Alright, this is really all I remember, so bear with me. >.> My entire perspective was something like a side-scrolling RPG, and it was all constantly moving to the right. There were very flat and 2D graphics, but they were still pretty detailed. "I", the main character, was what appeared to be a large gorilla flying around in some kind of hovercraft that was like Bowser's from the Mario series but much less cartoony, more futuristic and mechanical. I was constantly firing bullets down under me and to the side somewhat, and there were explosions happening constantly all over the "screen", along with several things that are harder to remember. And that's about it.

This dream was undoubtedly inspired by the following two games, which took up a lot of my focus yesterday:

Lucid Fragment [DILD]

"In a mall, N, melanieb, flying through holes in a wall and a hallway, possession."

Yeah, so basically all I remember about this dream is what I have there. I became lucid, I flew, I possessed someone, and melanieb was there.... Damn you, memory!

Sigh. I'm pretty sure it was fairly in-depth, too.

#1 - Why Do They Keep Coming!? [Non-Lucid]

The dream started out at my house, and somewhere down the line it turned into J's house. I'm not exactly sure when the switch took place, but I'm pretty sure this first part happened at least mostly in my house. People kept coming over and then leaving, all totally random people, and it was making me nervous for some reason. Then one of the guys who came over pulled out a tiny revolver. I jump up to him and try to pull the gun away from him but he won't let go, and we're locked in kind of a struggle to push the barrel in each others' direction, and in the end I manage to face it up under his neck and pull the trigger. There's not much gore or anything, in fact after that I think he just leaves. But I was still really on edge for the rest of the dream, and when we were suddenly at J's house (which wasn't his real house) I started obsessively searching for objects around the house to weaponize to protect myself against the random people who kept coming over.

Dream Fragment - "Something about DV being so crowded that OldSparta sent out a message about individual threads needing to be moderated, and I volunteered to handle a couple of them."

#2 - My Powers Have Increased! [DILD]

I was back taking classes in middle school again, still at my current age like always, and O was there in my first class but I can't really remember what it was about. I guess it was the end of the year or something because we were taking our final exams, and after the first one I tried to go to the second one but the layout of the school wasn't right. The stairwells were gone and I had to search all over for a way to get to the second floor where my class was, and finally I found the stairs behind two closed doors that actually lead to two classrooms in waking life. Once I found the stairs there, I became lucid. I decided to keep heading to the class, but the thought of walking up the stairs was rather disheartening. X) I took two or three steps and as I was doing so said out loud "I'm already there." and the scenery around me just sort of phased into the classroom. Sweet! The entire back wall was just windows so I walked up to it and looked out, we were very high up and overlooking a highway. Definitely absolutely nothing like the area around my middle school, but a pretty awesome view for a middle school classroom if I do say so myself! I noticed that there were barely any students or even desks in the class, and I think I recall someone saying it was the math exam (I'm pretty sure the previous one was for English). I can't help but notice that the teacher is unbelievably obese. >.> She walks up to me and hands me my exam, and I just kind of drop it and put my arm around her shoulder and get her to walk with me. I said something about how I was going to help her and I called her Sarah, though I'm not sure where I got that name from. I snapped my fingers with the intention that she would become young and thin, and she did, right before my eyes! But then I got greedy. I snapped my fingers again trying to change her into a girl, AD, that I've known since elementary school, and it sort of worked but she was really lanky and unhealthy looking, shoulda stuck with the first success. Anyway, I tried to get her to have sex with me, but before I could even really get the whole thought out the whole scene started becoming geometric and bizarre, and it become unstable enough that it just fell apart and I woke up. Damn. :T

Dream Fragment - "A whole family sharing a bath robe."

First, a couple fragments from yesterday.

Dream Fragment - "At a bookstore, attempting to find a small book that's apparently given to girls starting college that rarely contains a Winged Dragon of Ra (Sphere Mode) Yu-Gi-Oh! card. I was unsuccessful, basically just wandering through a large crowd of DCs the whole time."

Dream Fragment - "Talking about American Dad!, thinking about speed, and watching some star stuff song video but with women talking about speed and alcohol."



And now for last night.

Dream Fragment - "Smoking weed and browsing DV = bloated."

#1 - Huffing Gasoline [DILD]

I was at some building/junkyard or something with my dad, and I had the strangest feeling that I was a little kid again, even though I still felt like I was in my normal-sized body. I started to think that my life had completely started over and I was living it as a kid again. My dad distracted me with something about some jug of gasoline or something that a woman he was talking to was holding, and without really thinking about it I took a big whiff of it. My head immediately went very fuzzy and I stood up, but was very disoriented. I started getting some intense Alice in Wonderland syndrome, everything around me shrunk to at least less than half of its original size, generally more, except for my dad who was still at his normal height relative to me. Around this time I became mildly lucid, but not enough to really appreciate it, I just sort of knew this wasn't really happening. I wandered off into another room and opened up a file cabinet, and I don't really remember what happened next. My memory is clearest again when I became fully lucid, but I could tell the dream was ending anyway so I didn't really try to save it.

#2 - DH's Shenanigans [Non-Lucid]

I was in a huge mall parking lot or something somewhere with DH and a few other people, as well as several other people hanging out in cars around us. I was standing behind my own car while DH and the others were sitting in the back. Suddenly the car started backing up all on its own and almost rammed us into the car behind us. Thankfully it stopped though, and the other people were a bit freaked out and left. DH climbed into the driver's seat and I went up to the passenger seat and asked him what he was doing and he said he was going to go drift in the empty part of the parking lot where there was a lot of rain, in my SUV. I told him he was just going to get us killed or something, but he laughed and did it anyway. It was fun, I must say. >w< Somehow this transitioned to me being in a classroom with lots of kids I knew in school, particularly high school. I was sitting at a computer up against a wall next to lots of other people, but I can't really remember what I was trying to do. This girl SS (the friend of the other SS who we smoked with, for my own self-reference so I know who the hell I'm talking about) comes up to me and grabs my legs and holds them up in the air between her own legs. She's being friendly but I can't remember what she was saying, and then this guy CW walks up to me and starts talking about how DH really likes some rehab center that I went to (that I never actually went to) because you still get to do drugs there. Suddenly I think to start looking through my phone for DH's phone number, partially to text him and partially to look busy to get rid of SS and CW, but they just stick around. CW starts smashing his face into mine and on to the keyboard, which in addition to the legs thing with SS made this all a very awkward situation. In the end I finally found his number, but they still wouldn't leave me alone. That's about where it ended.

#3 - Unusual Druggie Group [Non-Lucid]

I was hanging out with my cousins P and G and some random little girl and older guy. We were in a hotel room of some kind I believe, and G and the little girl were both tripping on something while I was on ecstasy. I had little more than a pleasant body high, and P seemed concerned that I wasn't really feeling much. He tried to convince me to take another tab that he had, but I pointed out that it was different than the one I had taken and told him that I don't mix tabs. Apparently my cousin K had also been there but left and G couldn't understand why, and the older guy was telling him that he was just oblivious to her emotions and she was clearly upset about something, and he said what that was but I can't remember it now. I told P we should smoke some weed if he wants me to be more fucked up, so he got up and loaded a joint but didn't roll it yet. When he walked away, some other guy that we were apparently hanging out with now stole just a tiny amount of weed out of the joint and I called him on it. We got into an argument and suddenly the dream fell apart and got sort of confusing, and I fell on my back and felt paralyzed, but wasn't overly concerned about it. The little girl ran up to me and as she did she turned into a dog, and I was afraid that she was going to lick my armpit and it'd be insanely ticklish while I'd just be stuck there not being able to move or do anything about it. However shortly afterward everything I was seeing melted into my room, and I was fully awake.

Dream Fragment - "Dianeva and I create an IRC language that's hard to understand at first because it work the same way as SSRIs???"

I've been really lazy about logging DJ entries and checking others lately, but I'm trying to get back into it now, starting with these dreams from the past week or so. I got lucid four times despite smoking lots of weed, too!

April 28th

#1 - Unemptiable Mouth RC [DILD]

I was hanging out at the house of this kid AB who I knew in high school, except it was actually my house and we were hanging out in my parents' bedroom. It was just us and some random people, and AB apparently smokes weed now (which would NEVER happen in real life). I can't remember much of this part, but I know we got a pizza and we finished it but I still wanted more, so I said I was going to head out and get some since everyone else wanted to go somewhere else. At the door when I was getting ready to go I noticed that RE was with us as well. Now first of all, the way I was thinking of this was that AB, RE, and I all lived in my same neighborhood, and AB and I each lived in mirror copies of the same house. There's a street that extends directly out from my house, and in this dream the whole neighborhood was just symmetrical around this one street, so on the other side would be my house again, the one that's actually my house. Yes.... RE also lived on the other side but one street over, so we decided to walk home together. I realized that this was my first time seeing him since he got signed to a label for one of his latest songs (which actually happened in waking life), so I congratulated him for it. Instead of taking the symmetrical street we went to the next one over and started walking down it, and somehow it turned into a huge bazaar with lots of restaurants intermixed in it. RE went to stand in line to get some food, but I just sat down at a small table not far from him. Suddenly my mouth started seeming very full of chewed up food and it was really starting to bug me, it seemed like no matter how much more I chewed up and swallowed there was always the same amount still in my mouth, so I started just spitting it out on the table and it still wouldn't reduce in volume. O's mom suddenly showed up out of nowhere and sat down at the table with me, and I felt embarrassed because I couldn't say anything. I pointed to my mouth and made a weak gesture and she nodded, it looked like she was chewing something too. I went back to my annoyance and started getting really upset about it, thinking "This only happens when... I'm dreaming." The area has suddenly become a 7-Eleven-like store, and I get up excitedly and say to a DC a couple of times that I'm dreaming, to which he grumbles "Yeah, I heard ya the first time!" and walks off trying to mind his own business. I just flew around the store a little bit and tried to use the windows to teleport myself, but it didn't really work. After enough bouncing around, the dream faded. I woke up without moving and with my eyes still closed, so I thought about attempting a DEILD, but then I got antsy and decided I'd rather remember this dream for sure instead since it was my first lucid in a while.

#2 - Cute High School Guy [DILD]

I saw this girl... wow, her name would also be AB, I didn't foresee this problem. >w< Anyway, AB and this guy T whose last name initial I don't know, were walking around my old high school where I ran into them. It seems that they still go to high school despite the fact that they're also celebrating T's 23rd birthday, and it appears as if they're dating. T starts asking me to do something for him involving a bridge and digging but I can't remember exactly what now, though I agree to do it at the time. There was also talk of a monster...? Anyway, I start walking down one of the school hallways and see some black lagoon-type humanoid monster just standing there, and lazily think "I'm dreaming." I fly down the hallway and there was some cute guy standing there. I landed and the dream started fading a little bit, and I told him to hug me because I needed to stabilize. He did and I grabbed his ass while he was doing it. :3 After that, I took my glasses off for some reason and everything got really blurry. Wonderful move, me.... I put them back on but it didn't help anything, so I just gave up trying to save the dream and let it fade away.

April 29th

Dream Fragment - "D's house base, McDonald's food drug makes you full, K, aunts S and D."

Dream Fragment - "A's boyfriend drive to movie dad meets us turn into M SSRI serotonin control dopamine M burped by boyfriend by being thrown into the air hilarious everyone so happy, dave1701 doing SSRI presentation, among others."

Negligent Sisters [Non-Lucid]

I had sisters (I'm an only child in waking life) that I normally forgot about because I never saw them, at least a few. I claimed that the last time I'd see any of them was around 15 years ago. J was over (and refusing to shut the door to my room no matter how many times I told him to) and getting to know them before coming into my room to wake me up in the morning, having spent the night. He talks about my sisters and I said if he was getting to know them then he probably knows them better than I do, and I'm obviously feeling a little dejected. He starts talking about how he'll have to take me home soon because he has stuff to do during the day, and I'm like "What the fuck? I'm already home....", and suddenly we can't remember who drove him over. I look out front and neither of our cars are there so I start getting a little concerned, but then I wake up.

April 30th

Waiting For Class To End [Non-Lucid]

I was doing some really bizarre worksheet in a high school class and then I got up to stand at the door with this girl A who's last name I forget. We could hear some kids yelling funny stuff with a musical track playing on the other side of the door, and we start making fun of it and I do a little dance that makes A laugh. We eventually pushed the door open to hear the music and I recognized it at the time but I forgot when I woke up.

May 1st

#1 - Horny Teacher [Non-Lucid]

This girl who I don't know wants me to help her go to the game store (which is apparently anti-Jew ) at some vacation spot, I don't remember exactly where. The store ends up being a medicine store owned by my old Chinese class teacher. He tries speaking to me in Chinese and I don't understand him, but I don't need to to pick up on his incredibly lewd gestures. I laugh weakly and the girl and I leave (oh, also, I lost a sandal right outside the store and magically had it back on when we left), and then we see the actual game store we meant to go to. As we're walking in we look at each other and back at the medicine store and I say "Pervy old man."

#2 - Transporting Bodies [DILD]

I was helping a group of people transport bodies in bags into a truck being driven by a fake cop that's behind some huge house. The people weren't dead though, just unconscious. One of the bodies was actually melanieb, and I saw her sneak a quick glance before pretending to be knocked out again as she was put into a bag. I finally finish taking all the bags over and then walk out to the front of the house and become lucid. I try to make all the windows in the house suddenly shatter but it isn't really working, so instead I fly up to the roof and lay on my stomach and feel the brick texture, and I was intenting to make something of it but then I woke up.

May 2nd

Spa Adventures [DILD]

There was a lot of dream leading up to this, but most of it is blurry in my memory. I was at some kind of resort hotel/apartment all by myself, and I went out to a room that was supposed to be like a private spa tub room. I got in the tub and was enjoying myself, but was also somewhat afraid that someone was going to break into my apartment, for whatever reason, but after I got up and locked the door to the spa room I stopped worrying about that. I looked around and noticed that there were no walls in the room, in fact the huge hotel building was built in a square design with all of the spa tub rooms directly on top of and under each other and all facing inwards in the square, so I could actually see lots of other people using their tubs as well. It was mostly girls, but some guys too. I became a bit concerned for my own privacy, but then figured that I'm already looking at everyone else, so, eh. Across from me and to the left a bit I saw a creepy guy looking straight at me, with some weird woman crawling around like an animal next to him. I tried to act like I hadn't seen him but it was too late, he yelled to her to get me, and she jumped all the way over to my tub and cornered me. She's reaching into my forehead and I'm freaking out, but she says "I'm just prying open your third eye so that you...." Well, there was more, but that part's a secret. Sorry! So I say "Oh, okay!" When she finishes opening my third eye, I'm suddenly standing in one of the hotel/apartment rooms again, and I think to myself that that was pretty crazy was just happened, it must have been some kind of hallucination or something. I happily walk off, but quickly become suspicious, so I do a noseplug RC for the first time ever in a dream. Holy crap, it works! Now I know what it's like to breath through my nose when it's pinched shut. I fly out through the window until I end up at some pool area where there are what seems to be a few random employees and a Chinese man and his daughter (?). I had a lot of energy so I was just yelling gibberish at them like usual and repeating stabilization mantras to myself, which seemed to work pretty well. The man and his daughter started getting into a fight so I flew off and started traveling down different hallways in the main hotel building. A thought suddenly occurs to me that if I'm dreaming now then maybe what happened was I fell asleep in the tub and the woman opening my third eye was hypnagogic imagery, and now I'm slowly drowning there in my sleep. I freaked out a bit but finally managed to "wake myself up".

False Awakening - Ah, safe at last, back in the spa tub. Happiness sets in, then suspicion. Noseplug RC. Damn it! Oh well. Totally forgetting about my imagined danger, I fly off and hover around the other floors' spa rooms. One pretty much directly below me is occupied by three very gorgeous and very naked women just chilling in their tub, and I was intent on joining them. X3 But then I woke up. D: Damn it!

This was first dream I can actually remember that I've had in days, likely due to all the weed brownies. The day leading up to this dream I ate a brownie and a half (I think?) and smoked some in the morning, but then in the evening was only drinking. That's probably why this dream was... the way it is.

Something New [Non-Lucid]

I was watching something, I have a vague feeling of it being South Park. There was also some talk about The Beatles going on, but just in the background somewhere. Whatever I was watching, it grew and took over my entire perspective, and I shifted into third-person. I was panning my view left over a wall, and everything started taking on deep hues of neon red with twists of golds and purples and some other colors to a lesser extent, and the world started flattening and becoming somewhat cartoonish in an ancient hieroglyphics type of way. Patterns were being drawn and morphing around on the wall, and eventually the wall opened up to reveal an enormous panoramic view of some house from the point of view of what appeared to be one of the living room corners. This created a very bizarre feel to the whole scene, it was simultaneously flat and curved. The panning stops when there's a door to another room directly in front of me. A woman walks through the door and the scenery around her starts rapidly shifting and morphing into various patterns in a sort of rapid-fire flow, and her appearance is frequently changing as well, and she occasionally phases through other objects in her surrounding. The background has taken on sort of a salvia-esque spin and the woman seems to be made of some strangely stacked cardboard-cut-out-like building blocks.... It's really hard to describe, but I saw people that looked to be made out of the same material a long time ago when I mixed diphenhydramine with psilocybin mushrooms. The whole environment is becoming incredibly unstable, and suddenly the scene ends.

False Awakening - I'm driving down the service road of a highway in one of my old cars, and I just look around and for a moment think that that bizarre scene was something I was just thinking about, but then I remember how vividly I experienced it and it occurs to me that I must have been dreaming and now I'm awake. I tried typing up the dream, but then became concerned about the fact that I was apparently sleeping while driving.

False Awakening - I wake up again, still in the car. Now I'm getting really concerned that I'm actually driving while asleep but I can't force myself to wake up. I still take time to try to type up my dream in my phone, but the time is really messing with me. It looks really wonky at first and then keeps changing around randomly. Of course, it doesn't tip me off to anything.

False Awakening - This time I woke up in M's apartment, where I actually did spend the night after we finished drinking. Her big dog gets up and climbs on top of me in a really uncomfortable way and won't get off. I'm again trying to reach my phone to log the dream, but am unsuccessful.

False Awakening - Once again, I woke up in M's apartment. She's already awake and tells me that she's late for work, she has to go "feed the whale". I get up too and tell her I need to go soon, so I probably won't be there when she gets back. After that, I woke up for real, and almost completely forgot the actual dream.

Dream Fragment - This one I don't remember much of, but there was a big texting conversation going on between me, Linkzelda, M, M's boyfriend, N, M's previous boyfriend, and C. (Maybe some other people, too?) It's hard to remember now, but I'm pretty sure I saw part of this dream through my own perspective, part through M's perspective, and part in third-person. The only visual I can really remember now was that M's previous boyfriend was at his house wearing one of those cone-shaped birthday hats and there were balloons tied to a chair behind him.

This was from my first night in Las Vegas, I fell asleep after finishing a bottle of champagne.

#1 - My New Bathing Suit [Non-Lucid]

This one was kind of odd, more like a visualization-induced non-lucid. At first I was just drifting off in bed, and I was thinking about walking around the hotel pool. We'd stayed there before so I know the area pretty well. In my imagination I was walking around in something like this, but like all black:



At first I was just sort of wishing I had that kind of bathing suit, but as I got more and more tired the scene started to expand and suddenly I actually was walking around the pool in that suit. I wasn't lucid though, so I didn't really appreciate it. I remember thinking that I was supposed to be meeting up with some friends of mine, some random female DCs who were busy changing into their suits, but I got distracted by a food stand by the pool. I tried to get a hot dog, but they were out. :C I saw my dad lounging by the side of the pool and went over to him and asked him why there were no hot dogs, and he said that they ran out of meat. He got up and started walking off with me and I started complaining about the situation to him, but I don't remember much after that. I think I woke up not long afterward.

#2 - Fading Phone [Non-Lucid]

I had taken a bunch of downer drugs, and I specifically remember that Ativan and Xanax were two of them. I was partying all night, and I woke up the next morning while it was still dark outside. My dad was there and he asked me if I had gone anywhere while I was on the drugs, and I said no but joked that I couldn't be sure because I had blacked out. He looked concerned, and I layed down on the living room floor only for it to suddenly morph into the hotel room bed. Without changing position, I reached over to grab my phone and start typing up my dream. Suddenly, my dad gets up and walks over to my bed and is acting all emotional (I can't remember exactly what that means, but that's what I wrote down) My sheets are pulled up over my head by an unseen force, then my dad grabs my hands through the sheets. I'm overcome with a fear, and suddenly I realize this isn't happening. It's a very odd sensation to describe, it's kind of like... you're staring at the ceiling the whole time, and you're just really confused about what's going on, but it doesn't change the fact that you were just staring at the ceiling, it's just that you don't really understand it at first, so much that you think all this other stuff is happening, but then when you finally do, it still feels like that's all you were ever doing. Anyway.... I grab my phone again and start typing but it suddenly phases out of my hands, and I try a couple more times but it never works, so I give up. I have the actual feeling of being stuck, which is rare for me even in sleep paralysis, but I manage to shift my line of sight to the left. There's a faint light visible from something in the room, and as I stare at it it starts moving closer and growing and creating strange alien symbols, and I'm filled with a fear again, but then suddenly I snap out of it and am fully awake.

#3 - Lucidly Non-Lucid Bad Trip [Non-Lucid]

This was a terrible dream. :T I took Benadryl, or diphenhydramine, at a hallucinogenic dose. For those of you who don't know what that's like, basically it's sort of similar to non-lucid dreaming, only even more schizophrenically psychotic, and layered over waking reality at the same time. Actually, it can be sort of like the way I described the sleep paralysis, everything is just so unbelievably confusing that even though you're interacting with reality, you just interpret it allllll wrong. And so that was reproduced, accurately I might add, in the dream. And diphenhydramine is an unbelievably terrible experience, not to mention I know how bad it is for you and already had to overcome an addiction to it, so this was a nightmare. The worst part about this experience was that I believed I was in this dream-like trip, so I was paying extremely close attention to the dreamy nature of everything that was happening, and yet no matter how odd it was it couldn't tip me off to the fact that I was dreaming because it fit the scenario perfectly. My mindset was basically like being lucid of the fact that I was non-lucid, and it pushed my dream insanity to a whole new level. I was at my aunt and uncle's house and even my family members over there were becoming extremely confused at the bizarre and unexplainable things I was doing. Yes, I was so non-lucid that the DCs were confused. I can't remember much of the actual plot, though.

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This dream was from the second night we were there, and I fell asleep after more drinking and taking some Soma (carisoprodol).

Dream Fragment - I took a large dose of methoxetamine, which I've never taken in waking life, and ended up tripping out. I was in a classroom somewhere and someone was giving me a foot massage, and because of the drug it felt like my toes were floating off of their original spots and randomly switching places, which made me feel warm and giggly at the time. That's about all I can remember, though.

I had several more dreams than these but I couldn't log them down because my phone was acting weird. :T Oh well. At least I got the lucid one down.

#1 - Bizarre Family Party [Non-Lucid]

This one I just remember a few bits and pieces of. I was at a family party, there was some "moon scare" going on referencing some sort of apocalypse, it was my cousin K's birthday, my cousin G was suddenly legally allowed to drink alcohol despite being 17 years old, I talked about how I was hanging out with M and a couple other people before the party, out in front of the house a runaway bicycle came out of nowhere and rammed into some random guy's nuts, causing one of them to burst with blood flying everywhere , and finally a third-person view of some strange Futurama episode where Bender and Hermes got fused together.

Dream Fragment - I accidentally stumbled upon some YouTube video about "secular graduation" (something related to school), and all I remember about it is that there were lots of theater kids from my high school starring in it which surprised me, and there were these two Asian kids at the end. One of them was a bit chubby and had short, straight, silvery white hair, and the other was very thin with a blonde beard but a black goatee.

#2 - FLCL Throwback? [MILD]

I was back at my middle school in a regular classroom but it was in the music hall. I was playing a Pokémon game with a bunch of random people and then C, an old friend and amazing weed dealer, comes in and joins us. Eventually he's heading out again and I decide to go with him, but when we get out into the hallway I realize it's a totally different person. I follow him out to the cafeteria anyway, only all of the tables are gone, and he's talking about OpheliaBlue, someone else I can't remember, and cheese. Slowly I start to think that something's not right, and then I realize that I'm dreaming. There are a ton of DCs walking around, and I tried to do something that failed but I can't remember what it was now. I saw some oddly placed lockers and decided to fly over to them, and as I did a couple of them magically opened, and there was just one big locker space behind them. There was a sheet of music in them, so I picked it up and then went over to a DC and yelled at them "Make music come off this page!" However, I was flailing the paper around in my hand as I was saying this and I guess that caused it to lose shape, I saw it morphing so I stopped shaking it and it took solid shape as a red electric guitar. o.o I shrugged and whacked the DC on the head with it, and he fell over and I flew off. I turned around to look at him a second later but all the DCs in the area had already changed drastically, and he was gone. I was just hovering above the crowd and decided to whack someone else too, so I did and as he fell over slowly his head popped off. I flew off but the dream started fading, I had lost my sense of sight and I could tell it was about to end.

False Awakening - This was fairly interesting.... I woke up, but didn't open my eyes. I guess that might've been connected to the lack of visual input at the end of the lucid, but I just perceived it as keeping my eyes closed. I felt my surroundings and could tell that it wasn't right. Upon a little inspection I realized I was lying down in a bathtub with just a little bit of water in it, I could feel the porcelain edges and everything. I considered the idea that this was some sort of strange tactile hallucination based on my bed that was just continuing because my dreaming mind hadn't totally shut down yet and I hadn't opened my eyes yet to break the illusion. However, when I actually did open my eyes I was lying in my bed in a totally different position, so it was definitely a false awakening.