dream fragment

Dream Fragment - I was on some random psychedelic(s), as were lots of other people. I gave an old, old friend C and this guy D some psychedelics of their own and even some money to get more when they run out, but they still weren't very thankful and came running right back when they wanted more.

Dream Fragment - Lots of my friends took some 2C-T-7, and a separate group of my friends also took it but with DPT, totally unplanned, and then they ran into each other while tripping. The dream was mostly the next day and I was just listening to them talk about how awesome their trips were.

Dream Fragment - Another good one ruined by not waking up all the way right away. >.< Literally all I remember about this dream now is that Linkzelda41 was there for I'm pretty sure the whole time, and there was lots of talk of OBEs, and I think we may have been having some too because I remember seeing the whole world reduced to some kind of energy grid. Then I woke up and thought delirious thoughts to myself for a minute or so, then just laid in bed all happy for another couple minutes and said "Wait, hold on a sec!?", but by then it was mostly gone.

#1 - Could It Be? [DILD]

I was at my house in the den having a small party with a group of people who I mostly don't remember, but it included this guy J who I haven't seen since middle school but we used to see every now and then, but he was really soft and sensitive (that's putting it really nicely, it wasn't exactly in a good way). There was also a female DC there who stands out in memory unlike the rest, she had kind of a badass style of dark clothes that looked like they were just meant to be worn as normal clothes but still had kind of a club look to them, it's hard to explain exactly but I think it looks really cool. (Aaaand just right now as I'm typing this up, suddenly something occurs to me. The last time a DC was this vivid in my memory, she was wearing the exact same style of clothes. The hair style was different here, but the face looked about the same from what I can recall. And that DC from before also happened to have super speed and could have totally kicked my ass if I didn't wake up from my lucid, she totally outclassed me. And here comes the interesting part....) The girl used a cloning ability to split herself into two bodies. Somewhere in the back of my mind I thought of this as a dream power, but it didn't make me become lucid. She starts making out with J with both bodies at once, and he's having a GREAT time, and I start taking pictures with my phone. Eventually she stops and the two of us head into another room and I tell her that was really nice of her to do given the way J is kind of fragile. She smiles at me, and suddenly I get the idea to head back to my room for some reason. As I walk past my dad's office, I hear O talking on the phone with his dad sounding like he'd have to be heading home soon. I decide to start looking through my phone to see if the pictures I took are any good, and I can't find them. But I do find a picture of a different J, a guy I used to hang out with a lot when I got out of high school, standing in some high school chemistry classroom. (Though it wasn't the one we had, we did have a chemistry class together in 10th grade, so it's not too crazy.) Suddenly the scene overtakes me and I'm watching it in third person. I become lucid, which is odd considering the perspective I'm in now, and the girl suddenly appears out of nowhere next to J. My falling-love-with-girls-in-dreams instinct takes over, and I jump into J's body to try to make out with her. Before I can, it suddenly snaps back to me in my own body in my bedroom at home, with me sitting on the bed and her sitting in my desk chair. I reach out and kiss her and pull her back on to the bed with me, but then the dream ends. :T

False Awakening - I get up and start thinking about making note of the dream, and then for some reason I can't quite remember now I get sidetracked thinking about OpheliaBlue. Suddenly I start having a panic attack, and I'm flooded with false memories about how I took a hallucinogenic dose of diphenhydramine at the party from the dream, which definitely didn't actually happen. I'm freaking out and thinking I must have overdosed, I feel my forehead and it's sooo hot, my limbs are all feeling extremely tense, and my heart is beating erratically and keeps having stinging sensations. I drink some water to try to cool myself off but the water itself is kind of warm, so I get up and turn on the lights (successfully!) to get dressed and go get some cold water from the kitchen, but things are already starting to look really bad, and as I touch my chest to feel my heart rate suddenly I feel a heavy sinking feeling. But then I wake up. Finally. :\

Dream Fragment - "Something about trains, teleporting, and a girl named Nelly...."

#2 - Candy Gift Boxes [Non-Lucid]

It's the end of the school year in high school, and someone who I can't remember now is teaching me how to make these triangular transparent two-sided candy gift boxes as a present, and then afterward O invites me to go get Chinese food with him, but I wake up before anything becomes of it.

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So now I'm really thinking about the female DC, she's really the only DC that vividly stands out to me, she's outgoing, she's recurring (totally odd for me with DCs), she totally overpowers me in lucids, and she can use dream powers that I'm not even close to having yet.

Could she be my DG...?

Dream Fragment - I was at a Target-like store with D and my European History AP teacher from high school, and we were locked in some battle over who would get some random girl DC as their wife, "based on some doubles/singles Ed, Edd n Eddy setup", I have no idea what that last note means. Don't remember much else, it was pretty weird....

Dream Fragment - This one there was definitely more to, but I didn't wake up all the way from it and it was hazy even when I did, so it's pretty much lost. But what I do remember is that the whole time there was a very emotional feel to it, and I spent a lot of the dream talking to a girl, in whom I could clearly sense Linkzelda41's energy.

Dream Fragment - "Hanging out with M and N, shopping on ecstasy and sort of freaking out."

False Awakening - I woke up and walked to the window and looked outside and was super excited to see the ground covered in snow. Somehow, I had a feeling it would be, too, even though the weather in waking life is nothing like that.

My dreams last night were kind of scattered and hazy, most of them are hard to remember. I can't say it wasn't an interesting night, though!

#1 - Ice Cream Parlor [Non-Lucid]

At first I was driving down a road somewhere, and I saw this guy J from public school walking down the sidewalk at one point. After that it gets hazy, and then I remember being at an ice cream parlor and trying to get the cake-flavored ice cream, and they put in about a scoop and a half of it but then also put a scoop of mint on top, which I did not ask for. I did ask for sprinkles on it though, which they didn't put on. I was a bit concerned at the time, but I got distracted by a woman who looked like Jane from the newest Fun with Dick and Jane movie (Téa Leoni), but she was in tears and saying that that's not who she is.

#2 - Escape To The Other Reality [DILD]

I don't really remember the dream leading up to this, just the part where I became lucid, except it was more like a low semi-lucidity because I knew I was dreaming and had the clearing of brain fog that comes with lucidity but it didn't stop me from being pretty delirious. I became lucid in my room and decided that my reality (the dream) was closing in on me and trying to destroy me or something, so I decided to get in bed and go to sleep to escape to the "other reality". I guess maybe that was a really skewed way of interpreting the dream ending and wanting to wake up, for some reason?

False Awakening - I woke up in my bed as a result of going to bed in the lucid, and it was extremely vivid, probably the most vivid non-lucid I've ever had, and maybe because I actually intended it to happen coming from a lucid. It felt exactly like real life, not even that dream feeling that comes with the extremely vivid lucids was there. I was laying belly-down in bed, and I'm pretty sure I felt somebody grab my ass. However, the vividness didn't last long, the dream turned into a wonky mix of first- and third-person action camera perspectives and involved an intense Pokémon battle. Though I was aware that I was playing a new Pokémon spin-off game and could see it from time to time, I was still mostly seeing the battle happen in front of me, though it was very cartoony. I was trying to defeat and/or catch a Charmander, though somewhere down the line it became a Bulbasaur. I also remember using my own Charmander, a Squirtle, and a Pikachu in the battle against it, and I remember reading on the game screen that I also had an Arcanine on my team. I finally beat the Bulbasaur in the end (can't remember if I caught it), and then I stuck to the game screen and looked at my team, noticing that the other Pokémon on my team (I can't remember if there was a sixth, or if it was that Bulbasaur if there was) was a Doduo with a move called Universe Cannon. However, it had 0 BP (which I think means 0 PP).

I really liked this dream, first of all because it involved a Pokémon battle , and second because it had tons of text that I could read perfectly clearly. :3

Dream Fragment - "Crime rates somewhere go down, and something about drinking certain cocktails."

Dream Fragment - "Walking around my house which is actually school, leaving a weird class with stars and to speaking to sea and space goddesses, then start looking for my English class or something after getting all my backpack stuff packed up."

#3 - Trapped In My Bed [Non-Lucid]

As I was falling asleep, I started hearing quick, loud collision noises, and then I started feeling my body fading away. I really wasn't prepared for this hypnagogic stuff so it kind of startled me out of my trance, and then I just fell asleep normally.

There was a dream leading up to this, but I don't remember what it was. I think I intended to write it down at some point, but forgot about it after this. I woke up into sleep paralysis, like the real sleep paralysis where you wake up and can't move, not the one people talk about to refer to hypnagogic hallucinations. I was extremely confused and noticed that I had double and triple vision at some point, things were spinning a bit, and it felt like I was closing one of my eyes to help myself see. (I didn't understand what was going on, so given my previous history with sleep paralysis it was more likely that one of my eyes just opened and the other didn't really.) Because of this and the super dreamy feeling everything had, I assumed I had taken DXM. The entire time with was going on, I could hear "Kokomo" by the Beach Boys playing in the background of my mind somewhere. I tried getting up to go to my computer and message O about how I was tripping, and I got half way through the message, which was REALLY hard to do given my vision and everything shaking and feeling a strange gravity and brain fog, and suddenly I started realizing that half way though my messaging it had just started turning into gibberish. I got concerned, and then I looked closer and realized that I was still lying in bed. I did that a few times, and then I recognized this pattern of thinking something's going on, suddenly it gets really confusing, and then realizing it wasn't even happening - from anticholinergic deliriants. I stated to fear that I had taken diphenhydramine (Benadryl) too, and that I was now on a DXM/DPH combo, which is NOT something I need to be doing. I entered a sort of despair and just managed to close my eyes and watched patterns quickly form from the blackness, and as they grew and approached me I started feeling really intense and really uncomfortable vibrations. I probably could've entered an OBE from this state if I wanted to, but the fear overtook me and shook me out of the sleep paralysis. *phew*

Dream Fragment - We had these candies which I perceived as weed brownies but they were more just like chocolate chunks with sprinkles, and the sprinkles were varying shades of green and strategically placed with the candy shaped to look like a nug of weed. I also remember A smoking some legal weed mimic, but that's about it from that dream....

Backwards Crab Walk Through Time [DILD]

I'm with M and some random guys pull up in my car so I tell them to scoot over so I can drive. We drop one of the guys off, and then as I'm trying to figure out where to take the other guy he keeps talking about this book he has that's part of some new cult he's in, and there are lots of bizarre religious illustrations in it. I remember one of them was a woman leaning back and staring up in euphoria and she looked like she'd been 'healed' or something, and she had like claw-shaped lips and at least ten or fifteen eyes scattered all over her face. It was really odd.... While I was staring at the book the scene changed from my car to a high school classroom. I tell M we need to leave, and I don't remember who this was but this random woman started chasing us back through time. Like, I would run out of the classroom and it would take me back into a classroom I had from the previous year (I'm not sure if any of these classes were classes I actually had, though). Eventually I started doing a backwards crab walk as I was being chased. During this time I became lucid but was a bit too flustered to make much of it other than to keep moving and watch how insane all of this was. It seemed like I was stuck in some kind of environment loop where the class was just repeating over and over again, and then it all collapsed into whiteness and I woke up.

This is karmic retribution, punishment for having four lucids in one night. :C This was the worst recall yet... I don't even have a full dream to post. T-T

Dream Fragment - "Hanging out at O's newest house, made lots of friends."

Dream Fragment - "Third-person Marshall (from How I Met Your Mother) freaks out about an essay exam."

Dream Fragment - "Something about trading attack turns in some IRL RPG."

And now... I leave you with these thoughts.

A lot of my memories for the night are really splotchy, my recall was pretty bad. Plus, I got really distracted for a while after waking up and didn't take the time to read over my dreams until now. As a result, some of this probably won't make much sense. :T Anything in quotation marks is just a direct quote from my notes, and something I couldn't really figure out.

#1 - New College Dorm [Non-Lucid]

"Looking for a new college dorm and seeing a lot of people in the process, getting ready to make an offer but afraid someone else might get out. While looking for someone to get out, somehow I accidentally set up a coke deal through O and he even has it for me by the time I wake up. Apparently I lived under some housing label before and never knew and the employees are shocked because normally everyone who does is close as family and I just never noticed before since I was such a loner, and they were gonna play hard ball but now it seems like they really want to give it to me."



#2 - Easy Money [Non-Lucid]

We opened a restaurant at my house, and I spent pretty much the entire dream taking peoples' money and credit card numbers but never actually brought any orders out.

#3 - Dream Journal [Non-Lucid]

I'm visiting some high school class and we're having some mid-day recess, and apparently I go there day after day because the days keep skipping while I'm outside. On the last day I actually go back inside and see the classroom for once, and the teacher puts on a movie. I pull out a yellow paper pad to doodle or something, and notice on it the words "Dream Journal". Obviously, I remain non-lucid.

Dream Fragment - "Something about Linkzelda41 and eating an orange?? So faint...."

#4 - Joking About Celebrities [Non-Lucid]

"Wandering around school, make friends with some of the girls in that class. D's there, and O. Something about celebrities, we joke about one of them going crazy and attacking the others in a story or movie or something. Then I head through the hallways with D (other D) thinking about what to do, I have class but I end up getting game guides to read instead."

False Awakening - "I think I must have went home, laid down in bed to read the game guides, and passed out early."

Terrible recall. >_< Maybe I should try drinking apple juice before bed or something!

#1 - Feels Bad Man [Non-Lucid]

I don't... I can't, there's not... I don't even, why... it's not... no... no.... No. So this dream, the entire dream, was dedicated to taking a piss in a jar, and then smoking it thinking of it as weed. Not like using the piss as bong water or something, oh no - literally, smoking the piss. Near the end I ended up casually talking to a girl who looks like one of O's roommates about it. >_<

#2 - A New Friend [Non-Lucid]

I was working for some weird old man in a game store in some small town O and I were on vacation in, or something. O was working there too and he was trying to show me how the job was done. The old man comes up to me and hands me this really long and skinny plastic cylinder (really the only way to describe it) and tells me I need to fill it up with ice, and then water from this little playground area across the street. I wasn't sure where exactly he was referring to, but I went outside and met this girl who looks like S, a girl I see very rarely but who I've known since high school, but not exactly, so she's more of a random DC. I told her what I was doing and she showed me the way, so I got the water and went back to the store, but then I realized I hadn't got the ice yet. :T I went and put it in from the ice machine in the back, but I was afraid the old man would get mad at me for doing the order wrong, and he did. He started yelling at me, and he was so angry that he decided to close up shop for the day right then and there. All of us employees, a few customers, and the DC girl sit down and try to think of something to do. She offers me a ride if I'm willing to go get something to eat with her, in a way that makes it sound like she has to give something for me to want to hang out with her, and I feel bad so I say I have my own ride but I'd still be willing to go eat with her. She looked at me inquisitively and asked "Why, are you weird?" and I said "Yeah, I'm pretty weird." She looked happy, but a couple seconds later I woke up.

Dream Fragment - "Camp, tripping with K, exercise and homework, M before K?"

My recall's starting to get pretty poor, I think I need to start reading up on some ways to increase it, and also some lucid stabilization guides. I had two lucids, but it seems like every time I have one that lasts more than a few seconds it's spent fighting the dream to keep it alive, and often failing, and I don't get to focus on anything like finding Linkzelda41 or exploring powers. :T Hmm.... (Though, I guess I did get to briefly attempt one thing that would be useful for that this time, but it didn't really work.)

Fragment - "K, tripping, freak out fan on/off, zombies, his phone too warm."

Fragment - "Giant valley filled with water, pink Star Fox fighter battle, on DS. Water level dropped at end."

#1 - Fight To Survive [MILD]

I'm in high school with O and D, a history class I think, and our teacher is giving us a lesson along with some humongous white snake with no eyes that still somehow stares into your soul. Some guy in class was browsing the internet (on his laptop I guess, kind of hard to remember) instead of paying attention, so the snake caused him to become a cartoon and switch bodies with a female anthropomorphic bunny. o_o After class we're getting ready to leave as if class was totally normal, and I became lucid after talking to them about the snake. O walks through a door with some girl on the way out (like literally, they phased right through it) and I follow him (phasing through the door as well, the first lucid power I actually had to work to get good at, and can now do flawlessly ) to try to get him to come back but he still walks off. I decide to open the door to change where it leads to, and it kind of works but not really, it just leads me to a different school hallway. The dream starts to fade so I start rubbing my hands together and feeling the walls and looking all over the place for new input but it's not really working, so I jump forward and start licking the wall as well, three senses stimulated! It doesn't taste as bad as I would have imagined, just sort of neutral. I start walking down the wall (never removing my hands or tongue from it) trying to find something to do, and the dream clearly doesn't want to last. My limbs are slowly failing as if I'd been fatally poisoned or something. Finally I see one of those little bins they had at stores with different ice cream cones and bars in them, and I run over there and just grab a regular vanilla ice cream cone. I started eating it and it actually tasted pretty good, but then I woke up. I guess it wasn't a total waste.

#2 - False False Awakening? [MILD]

I was talking to K about some politics related to lucid dreaming (mostly gibberish I think, but something about how some politician was claiming that lucid dreaming was equivalent to passing through the gates of hell ), and then I get a... well, it's odd because I can't remember far enough back in the dream to know if this was actually true or not, and I want to say it's not, but suddenly I had a feeling of clarity and said "Oh, this is a false awakening." and that made me lucid. I just looked at K and said "You're not even going to remember this conversation." And he smiled at me, then I woke up. On to the couch in my den, which seemed perfectly normal. I thought the conversation we were having was funny so I wrote it down to tell K about it later, but once I finished I actually woke up in bed, and I don't really remember much about the conversation now.

I can't wait for Link to read this one.

#1 - Cute Animal Class [Non-Lucid]

I'm back in a middle or high school class, but it's taking place in my room at home. I don't perceive it as my room at the time, though. The class was strange, and generally involved petting cute animals. I spent the first part of a dream petting a black cat that was sooo fluffy, and I remember a white cat walking around in the background, and at some point some dog that was cute but upon waking up I'm pretty sure was horribly mutated, or at least not remotely what a dog should look like. I think she was based on N's dog, too. Class ends, and I remember thinking that winter break was about to start. I reach down and grab a random blue jacket that's sitting on my bed and struggle to put it on for a minute, then I turn to look at the door and notice that Linkzelda41 is there! I said something along the lines of "Merry Christmas" or "happy holidays", and I ask him to wait up for me while I grab my stuff so we can leave the class together, but he heads out. :< I try to grab all my stuff and run after him, but I start to notice that there's a LOT of my stuff in this classroom. (Still haven't realized that it's my room. ) I start panicking and grabbing as much as possible, thinking "I can't just leave all this stuff here, I need it at home!!", and my arms are starting to get really full and I'm not sure how much more I can carry, but then I wake up.

Fragment - "Large class, black midgets with dog heads that turn into trucks, singing, P."

#2 - Our Fate Is Sealed [Non-Lucid]

I'm with a bunch of other people my age in a house (based on D's?) sitting on a couch facing the kitchen counter. Apparently, we perceive it as being stranded or locked in somehow, and we have been for a couple days. We're trying to keep spirits high, and one guy has been smoking weed with the guy who's cooking our meals because he was freaking out, and we all joke that the food is way better now. A girl tries to play a prank on them after they're coming back to the room from smoking a bowl, but isn't fast enough. He makes some small plates of food and hands them out (and I mean really small, but I suppose we're rationing), and I offer some to the girl sitting next to me on the couch but she declines. Finally she says "It's going to happen... we're all going to die." She has some prophetic powers or something and laments that after all this being trapped it's just going to end. She warns everyone that if they want to make the end of their lives worth it they better do it now. She points at me and says she can't say why but I'm the only one who can go home, but it still won't save me. She also claims that some of us may temporarily come back from the dead but not for long. As a result, when I get home she wants me to make a list with all of our names on it, that way it'll add to the mystery when we die, and when she comes back to life she can get the list and sell it for millions. I woke up after she said that, though.

Well, I went to bed last night fairly drunk from red wine and having taken a few small hits of JWH-250. I'm sure this had some effect on my dreams but it's hard to say, though there was something pretty interesting at the end of the night!

Fragment - I remember being in some hotel filled with water and a manatee swimming around, and you had to get to some other private room above the main one I was in by climbing along a ledge on wall, but that was also where the manatee mates and it gets mad at you for being up there so it tries to attack you while you're doing it. I also remember that when I reached the room there were voices of Family Guy characters saying really random stuff. I also recall hearing the phrase "twelve year olds without sex".

Fragment - I just remember being in a chat room with Seroquel and OldSparta.

Fragment - I'm looking after some guy (perhaps handicapped? he seemed incredibly child-like) and trying to be buddies with him, I was showing him some anime movies which weren't real but looked pretty interesting. The only other thing I remember is that the TV had two separate volume systems that you had to make work together to control the sound. >.>

#1 - A Crazy Night [Non-Lucid]

This occurred almost immediately after the last fragment, I was awake for probably a second or two. I was walking through a store with O and talking to him about getting drunk and losing my clothes and how I'd probably never find them, and O says "Yeah, I think the neighbors saw you." During this this one guy I knew in high school came by and asked us if we worked there but we said no, so he walked off.

#2 - The Patrick Effect [Non-Lucid]

I was in my dad's car with my family (but my mom was driving) and we were driving down what I perceived as our alleyway, but it was actually nothing like it, it was like a dirt road with bright green grass hills on each side and a bunch of little shacks with cars parked all around them, and no fences of any kind. The car breaks down when we pull off to the side, and we stand outside with a bunch of other people for a minute, then it jumps forward to that night at my house and we're having a huge party. I think the party is centered around me somehow, actually. I get tired of being in the den and kitchen where most of the commotion is, so I go into the living room to hang out with O, a random girl I don't know, and another DC that frequently changes throughout the rest of the dream. We started talking about music, and I'm trying to tell the random DC about one song that's really good but I couldn't remember what it was called, but the girl reminded me. (It's "Layla", though in the dream I thought of it as "Leila". )



I went out to the kitchen and den again to see everyone had gone outside so I wasn't too worried about playing loud music, and I tried to put it on by going to YouTube and typing it in, but instead I found... the most amazing thing I've ever seen in a dream. On the screen were characters from SpongeBob SquarePants, with an especially large focus on Patrick (and I think maybe Squidward). They were all quickly jumping all around the screen (mostly one character at a time, though) and ranging from really close to really far away and performing very random movements and actions, and muttering things that were definitely in their voices but completely inaudible, it was like total delirium. While they were doing these things, the entire screen was engulfed in gear-patterned-type kaleidoscopes of sky blue light distortions and tendrils that pulsed heavily and emanated from a blindingly bright white vortex in the center of the screen. The characters and background scenery were dragged along with and twisted and bent by these distortions, and overall the scene was just like some unbelievably massive acid trip. Staring at it for too long caused a grid of Pokémon to form in my vision, and I looked away to see everyone else in the room staring at it in awe. My dad had also come into the room and sat down at the table and was marveling at it. I looked back at it and just stared some more because I couldn't bring myself to look away, it was so beautiful. The Pokémon grid thing started happening again, and suddenly I realized that I was shirtless. I went into my room to put something on, and started thinking about how I was going to spend countless hours watching the screen and seeing how far I can dive into my mind with it, but then I woke up.

I am now officially dubbing this "The Patrick Effect" and making it one of my lucid goals to recreate this effect in a dream. I never expected my mind to create such a powerfully accurate psychedelic effect in my dreams, I must use this subconscious ability as much as possible!

I'm pretty sure I was having some interesting adventures all night, but I really only remember the end of my dream that happened before I originally woke up in the morning. Fortunately, I fell asleep and woke up again a few more times before actually getting out of bed, so I have a good few dreams recalled.

#1 - Looking After Moe's Ice [Non-Lucid]

I'm hanging out with Penny from The Big Bang Theory in a huge house, and also a friend of mine, S, but he's off taking shower so he's not really in the dream yet. I'm supposed to be looking after a bag of ice and a cat for Moe from The Simpsons on the second floor bathroom, so I go up there and start grab the bag, but then the ice slips out! I'm panicking because I don't want the ice to melt on the floor, and I can hear Moe talking from downstairs so I'm afraid he's about to come up and find out that I screwed up. I hear footsteps on the stairs, but then it just turns out to be K and O coming over to hang out with us. S gets out of the shower and the four of us all sit down on the bathroom floor (I think S was taking a shower in a different bathroom, but I'm not entirely certain....) and eat some popcorn we just pulled out of nowhere, and we start making plans for what to do for the night, but then I wake up.

Fragment - I'm hanging out with M and maybe N, and we're thinking about getting really drunk and they're talking about setting me up on a date with someone. We were all sitting outside at some restaurant table while this was happening, but that's all I remember about it.

#2 - Attempting To Get Drunk With Dianeva [Non-Lucid]

This started out at my house with O and J having come over to hang out. Apparently Dianeva and her family were visiting the US and they were going to be near where I live, so she was going to come over to hang out. In the meantime I decided to go swimming until she got here. I was in the pool for a little bit, but then it started raining really hard so I got out. When I went back inside there was a full-blown party going, just a family party but with a LOT of people at it. My parents had already let Dianeva in at the front door so I went and met her. We started talking and I gave her a short tour of the house, though I tried to hurry through it to get to the most important aspects, "Here's where we keep the beer." and "Here's where we keep the liquor." We grabbed some drinks and started heading out to the living room but there was an enormous crowd of people out there, including my mom, watching a movie or something. I told her we could go talk in my room with O and J and it'd be much more chill, so we went back there but when we got there it was completely filled with people, too, also watching a movie I think, and including my dad. I felt embarrassed because I didn't realize they would all be back there and we had just kind of barged in, so I introduced Dianeva to everyone (first as Dianeva, then her real name). We walked back out to the living room and weren't quite sure what to do, and Dianeva kind of sighed and went to lean against a couch. I went up to my mom and tried to get her attention to ask her why there were so many people here but she kept ignoring me. People were noticing that I was becoming a little pissed and started joking that I was trying to ask her "a hacker question". Finally I got mad and said "Fine, I'll talk to dad instead!" and stormed off into the kitchen (despite the fact that I just saw him in my bedroom), and then the power went out and I said "That works, too." >_> It came back on in a second and I turned around and went back to my parents' bathroom to find him (still forgetting about my bedroom) and found him smoking a joint with an invisible man. I could hear the man talking faintly, but that's it. It kind of distracted me from the issue at hand, and I looked in the mirror and noticed a vest, or something like that, floating above where the invisible man was (but only in the mirror). I reached my hand out awkwardly trying to imagine where his hand might be so we could shake and I'd introduce myself to him, but a strange force pulled me forward and apparently through him, and there was some dimensional shift and suddenly I could see him and not my dad, and the vest was floating above where my dad was in the mirror. And then that was it for that one.

Fragment - It's third-person, and I'm watching Ted and the rest of the How I Met Your Mother gang sitting at their booth at MacLaren's Pub in the normal in-show camera angle perspective. Ted is just talking to the rest of them about wanting to get married (and he's sitting on the end, the chair instead of one of the booths) and it all seems surprisingly normal, except that his drink is a mug filled with pancake batter and blueberries.

#3 - Open Your Eyes [Non-Lucid]

I have a very bizarre feeling that my eyes were actually open during this dream. I'm supposed to be heading over to N's apartment to smoke weed with him but he hasn't told me to come over yet (he lives about 30-45 minutes away depending on traffic), so I decide to go over already and just not knock on the door yet, and then when he says I should start heading over I can be like "Alright, I'll be there in a sec!" When I was just waiting around in his parking lot he was texting me about how saltyseedog was on the news for making some groundbreaking discovery about the relationship between dream time and waking time. But I woke up before I could get any more information about that. But what's interesting is this entire dream was sort of... transparent. Almost like it only existed because I was thinking about it, but I still wasn't aware of that. (But I guess that's how it actually is. ) But the entire time I kept having the incredibly confusing sensation that I was lying in bed, and I could actually see myself in bed through my normal first-person perspective. When I actually woke up, it felt like the dream just faded away, and what I saw was the same image I had been seeing the whole time.

So that was cool.... Not a bad night, if I do say so myself!

So tonight was pretty interesting, first I became a TV character, then a model, and then I accidentally had my first WILD. I only wish I could remember more of the second dream, stupid false awakenings! And stupid me for not doing RCs!!

#1 - Possessing Penny [Non-Lucid]

I think there might have been a brief moment of lucidity in this one, but I'm going to list it as Non-Lucid because I'm not totally sure. It started out with me at a study group with Leonard and Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory and a couple random guys, we were individually doing these textbook assignments and obviously they were doing way better than me. I was embarrassed to be doing so badly so I put down my notepad and picked up my two (absolutely gigantic) binders and went to pick up a small pile of clothes I'd apparently brought with me as well, but I dropped them all because I was hurrying too much and ran out the front door (we were in some fancy house). Through the windows it had been nighttime outside, but on the outside it was daytime, and also I didn't notice this at the time but now that I think about it the second I got outside there was no sign of any house anywhere, we were by like my elementary school playground. Leonard followed me outside and at this point I became Penny! I was aware of the change, which I never am in normal dreams. Things got really vivid at this point, so I think I actually became lucid when I realized that was happening, but after that I went back to non-lucid but was still really excited about the transformation. Leonard started asking me what's wrong. He was crying and I started calling him Sheldon but I knew it was wrong, and then he corrected me saying it was Isaac. I gave him some excuse like I had a spirit trapped inside me or something, to get away with being Penny without having to know whatever she should know in that situation, and he asked me if I still knew that it was 1993, and I said yes, though I was still lying. (Also, 1993...?) I walked around people playing some sports and was just excited to be Penny, but after that I woke up.

#2 - You're My Angel [Non-Lucid]

I remember very little about this dream so it's basically a fragment, but only because of false awakenings. What I do remember is that I was some absolutely gorgeous and pretty tan woman, the way I thought of it at the time was I looked like a Victoria's Secret model. I was wearing some cute yellow bikini, and I was sitting at my computer warning people about the hacked DV. There was definitely more to it than that, but I had a false awakening where I wrote it down so I forgot some of the details, then ANOTHER false awakening where I wrote it down and forgot even more, so by the time I actually woke up that's all I had left.

#3 - Accidental First WILD [WILD]

I was lying in bed not really intending to fall back asleep after the last dream, so I stayed there awake for a bit but then I started to zone out and drift off a bit. Out of nowhere a dream scene formed around me almost instantaneously. There was a song playing somewhere in the background of my mind, and then I was in my parents' bedroom but there were a few tables set up by the bed that aren't normally there and some of my family members were walking around. Next to me were my cousins P and G, but they looked a few years younger than they are now. Everything was extremely vivid, basically indistinguishable from real life. I just thought to myself "Okay, this is interesting...." P and G were playing a game of Clue, I watched them for a minute and then P looked at me and said "Hey, how're you doing in the closet?" to which I responded "Good...?" I was a little caught off guard and didn't really try to stabilize or retain lucidity. I heard the song from the beginning start playing really loudly but still distantly again, and then the dream collapsed and I woke up into sleep paralysis. I didn't really realize what was going on though, I was hallucinating and my eyes were open so there was lots of confusing stimuli. I was getting a third-eye type visual of myself typing up the dream in my phone but I wasn't sure if I was actually doing it. Around my room I could see that my wall proportions were extremely distorted, the room looked almost triangular, and the light was quickly switching between nighttime and daytime. I could see one of my pillows hanging off the bed (which it actually wasn't) and it was covered in large piano keys. It was all incredibly weird, but then I woke up fully and realized I hadn't actually typed up the dream yet, so I got up and did that.

Hold on a sec.... If I had done a reality check when I was typing the dream in sleep paralysis, would I have been able to re-enter a lucid dream with my eyes open!?

But anyway, that's it for that night. Pretty interesting if I do say so myself, even if not incredibly detailed.

#1 - This Is What Pikachu Is! [Non-Lucid]

There was something going on in the dream up to this point, but this is where my memory picks up. I was standing outside and there was a kid disguised as Yugi from Yu-Gi-Oh! standing high up on a tree branch. I started talking to him and he asked me if I liked Yu-Gi-Oh! and I was saying I've been a fan before, and he transformed me into Kaiba and gave me a duel disk. I think part of me didn't believe this was actually happening, but I wanted to draw my hand so I closed my eyes to imagine the duel disk being there and did it, and I felt the cards between my fingers. I think closing my eyes is where things went wrong here. When I opened them again, I was myself and I was sitting on the ground dueling this kid with our cards just on the floor and no duel disks. This kid seemed so normal when I talked to him before, but now he was acting really childish and unstable, and he seemed to have an obsession with Pichu (the Pokémon). >.> He had a big Pichu doll and picked it up and ran into the corner of the room and embraced it in the fetal position. He started repeatedly yelling "This is what Pikachu is! This is what Pikachu is!!" I looked down and noticed that both his deck and the deck he gave me consisted almost entirely of Pokémon cards with a few Yu-Gi-Oh! cards here and there. I looked at my hand specifically, six cards. The first two were Yu-Gi-Oh! cards, of Pichu. And the last four were Pokémon cards, also of Pichu. -_- A guy, J, I used to know shows up to watch the duel and tells me that we're apparently at some after school event, and a girl I recognize but I can't remember where from goes over and tries to calm the kid down. And that was it.

Fragment - There was something about Phantasy Star Online somewhere in here (third-person control as if I was the character), but I can't remember anything else about it.

#2 - Did The Dream Change For You Too? [DILD]

Outside some diner, my friends D, O, and I are getting into my car and it's being robbed by two men (and maybe a woman?) and we stop them, but they end up coming after me with knives but I kill them in self-defense... or at least, one of them. If there was a woman then I killed her too, but one of the men survived and got away. This part of the dream is really hazy and hard to remember. We get warped to some huge department store (it looks kind of like a Sam's Club) fused with a library (I interpret it as the library from a University close to where I live that some of my friends go to). An old friend, N, is there so O and I go sit down by him after noticing some really shady looking guys working at the store that I think may be connected to the robber who got away. Suddenly, a voice comes on on the overhead speakers calling me out specifically by reading a letter, but I didn't listen to it. I noticed that the call was coming from one of the shady guys using a walkie-talkie-like thing, and I went jumping up and down (like several feet ) around the isles to taunt him and make it really obvious that I know it's him. I go and sit down next to D (where O and N were a minute ago) and ask him what the letter said, but then a girl walks out from behind the shady guy and says it was her letter, and reads it again. She says that the robbers I killed (the man and woman) were her parents and now she's challenging me so she can get revenge. I say that it's them who attacked me and it's their own fault, but I won't deny her a fight. I walk up to the back wall with D and everyone vanishes on the way, and I stop to look at a bunch of purple posters on the back wall. There's a very strange perspective change, the posters vanish and suddenly things get really vivid. I had an unbelievably brief moment of lucidity here, and said "The dream just changed...." Then things got a little fuzzier and I turned to D and said "Did the dream change for you, too?" He stares at me with a really creepy smile, and I blast off toward the ceiling. I'm bouncing off all the walls at extreme speeds and there's a black line being drawn behind me to follow my path. I remember feeling like this line being drawn was expanding my consciousness to infinity and I assume that I'm on some drug now, but then I woke up.

Welp, I had two lucids last night! My recall was kind of crappy because of smoking weed during the day, which I'm definitely taking a break from again because it's negatively effecting my dreaming. :T But I did smoke calea too right before bed and that increased the vividness of what I do remember, so at least there's that. Before falling asleep, I started off the night with some meditation, and I tried to push the idea into my head that I would be lucid and that I was looking for Link, preferably at school. I'm not sure how much progress I made on the latter since there are a few dreams I can't remember at least. :\ But at least the former worked!

#1 - Return Of The Mall School [Non-Lucid]

This one starts out at a mall school, a thing I usually often get in dreams where gigantic malls are interpreted as schools (with individual stores as classrooms and stuff like that), but actually haven't had in quite a while now. I see this one annoying kid from high school walking around and want to avoid him so I go into the bathroom. While I'm there I think I have to pee, but I decide not to. I remember that I'm supposed to be leaving school with M so I walk out and see this girl L and another girl who's hazy in my memory talking about me. I suddenly start sliding on the floor, something which I've noticed I've been doing a lot lately in dreams, like I'll purposefully slide myself on the ground and ride the slide over some really long distance as if it's just some normal thing to do, and I even have good steering during it. So I do that and end up over at Barney from How I Met Your Mother, and I think I became Robin at this point. (And I just realized that we're in a mall, which is funny if you watch the show. ) We just start making jokes and walk out of the mall school and end up at my car, and we get in to drive off but then the dream starts fading and I wake up.

#2 - Hunted Down [DILD]

This one is rather bizarre. Though some of it seems almost first-person at times, I'm pretty sure the whole thing was actually third-person. So there are these two guys on a plane, and the plane crashes into a cloud (yes, a cloud) that turns out to actually be a mirror that was just floating and reflecting other clouds. Both guys jump out of the plane trying to hit the water below (they're flying over the ocean or something, but there are also lots of glaciers and the like, so maybe around Antarctica?). One of the guys hits the ice too hard though and doesn't make it. The other guy is swimming around in the freezing water and then someone comes down and is scouting for them, which makes the guy think that this was no accident and they were being hunted. So the guy starts acting like he's dead and just floating in the water, and he almost gets away with it but then the scout figures him out, so he jumps out of the water and starts running forward with the guy chasing after him with a gatling gun. Suddenly the scene changes back the mall school's food court, and the scout is firing like crazy but the guy easily dodges it all and people standing around are stunned. Then I think the dream started falling apart because I'm back at home, but still third-person but without anyone to see, my perspective is just quickly bouncing around my living room. I became lucid during this part, which was very odd. I remember thinking something about games in relation to what was going on... but unfortunately that's the least vivid part of the dream in my memory because after that I had a false awakening where I managed to write down every single part leading up to that, then woke up for real and had to write the first part down again out of fear I would forget it so the lucid part became really hazy.

Must. Start. Doing. RCs.

#3 - Reconnecting With Old Friends [DILD]

This one is practically a fragment, but I did become lucid for it. I remember watching people playing video games in my house, and then I noticed that our old cat Karma was there. She disappeared (died most likely, she was really old) when I was in like second grade I think, and I really missed her. She also seemed younger than I ever saw her and maybe meshed with some properties of Miu, our most recent cat but who also disappeared around a year and a half ago. They really were similar in some ways and my mom frequently accidentally called her Karma. I really felt like they were both there again in this one dream cat and I became lucid when I felt their presence, so I just pet her for a minute and played around with her until something else grabbed my attention and I lost lucidity. I don't really remember what happened after that, but I really enjoyed this dream anyway.

Fragment - Waiting to hang out with J but at my house, though I remember walking up the staircases at his apartment complex....

So that's it for this night. I'm not going to smoke any weed today, so hopefully I'll remember more tonight!