Choi's Journey of the Conscious Mind

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[COLOR="silver"]This time when I went to WILD, I had an sleepmask on me and I had my eyes open behind it, so all I saw was darkness. I started to go through my day with eyes open, to relax myself. Then I pictured myself getting to a location and I felt my body "yawning" not like the sleep paralysis wave but my body was starting to become fully relaxed. And here I lost consciousnes... Although I woke up shortly after and I felt my nose was itching on the tip. I thought this was the test signal or something, but then I was overwhelmed with the feeling of failure. I kept still, but I thought that I had already failed, so I gave up.
But I hadn't moved my body, so I hadn't failed the failure was that I gave up. I then fell asleep normally.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I were in my school and some girls that I know asked me if I wanted to play soccer, and I said "Nah I have to go" and they inisisted "Come man it will be fun!" and I stayed. Then I suddenly blacked out and wake up in my bed, but there is three girls laying there! How the f*ck did I thought I was awake... it was an odd false awakening. and I went back to sleep.
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[COLOR="blue"]I remembered more on the awakening, but I didn't write it down, so now I have forget what i dreamt.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="silver"]This time I also put on a sleep mask, don't know why it was just for fun. I started to think "Ok now I am going to think about my day, the first that happend was" ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Well I need to find a better methpd to prevent my mind from falling asleep. I think that any thought will do as long as it keeps my mind busy. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I were looking at a wall somewhere in my house. One guy and two girls were pointing at the wall and screaming "Oh my God it's a cockroach!". I looked at the wall and saw that it wasn't a cockroach, but a supersized wood-louse.
It was enormous, but I knew that they aren't dangerous, so I took a stick and made it fell down to the floor and it crawled up into a ball. I took a giant piece of paper (I have no idea where that come from) and I put the wood-louse on it and then I bringed it outside.

I were now standing on a green and I looked at my hands.[/COLOR] [COLOR="red"] I was now awared of that I was dreaming, I remembered to rub my hands and then I did the "butt-ground" stabilisation that I had done before. I was now a little more aware of the dream, but as usual... I didn't stabilised enough. and I lost myself in the dream[/COLOR] [COLOR="blue"]I started to fly and heard police sirens and I started to think that this was the dream chasing me down, because they don't want me to be lucid. althoug I wasn't anymore.. But I still thought this way. I landed on the ground and started running, now I saw normal people walking down the street and I realised that every person here is a potential enemy and I have to watch out for people with guns, because if an agent takes over that body, I am screwed, I can't dodge bullets like Neo.

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I now saw a man with a black suit and a earpiece. I started to run. I ran passed a police with a gun, and heard the sound of him morphing into an agen as I run. I then remembered I can fly away from them. So I jumped up into the air and heard the guns fire at me, but they missed. I flew into a house, some kind of never ending stairs were there. I saw my friend David and I told him that we have to run. So we ran up the stairs, and we started to feel the house rotating, so the stairs that we were running up from was we now falling down from, we had to decide every move and adapt to the house rotation. We heard an agent laugh outside the building.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I woke up, but I was aware of that I had woke up. So I tried to DEILD, but nothing happend..
It might have been an awakening, but I didn't reality check. From now on I am going to get out of bed on every awakening and reality check. Deild is nice, but I am going to see how man false awakening I really have, and not make them a false awakening anymore.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
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[COLOR="silver"]This WILD before bed attempt was harder, because I started to lose consciousnes already on the "go through my day" part.
But I used to have trouble falling asleep, so this is both a way to relax myself and to someday maybe WILD.
It's my weird way of Yoga Nidra Meditation. But I fell asleep and had this dream.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="blue"]It felt like I was thinking in my bed and suddenly I was dreaming, although this was many hours later.
I had a weird dream about me being imprisoned by an evil queen. I had the form of Eddard Stark (The character in Games of Thrones) and my (HIS) two daughters were there. We did an attempt to escape, but the queen stopped us.
This queen by the way as the hot Queen Cersei (From the same serie). She came to the prisoncell to smack talk me. I looked at my hands and [/COLOR] [COLOR="red"]I become lucid. But aw.. I couldn't control myself I saw the queen and thought "I Am gonna punish you so hard". She is evil in the serie and she was evil here, but still hot... So I had sex with her, but as soon as those feelings took over the lucidity vanished.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I then had a dream about me having a American girlfriend and we were going to take the boat to somewhere. But only people who talked Swedish were allowed, so me and her tried to fake a conversation. I said "Are you tired sweetie" in swedish. And she answered (Ja) "Jaaa" which means yes. with a long e xD. But we couldn't convince the man and he throw us both into the water! I hate water and I woke up. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I have to remember to ALLWAYS stabilize the dream, I forget it to often.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="silver"]This night I tried to WILD before normal sleep. I have heard that it is impossible, but I was thinking and thought, if we can
be aware of a dream, to be lucid in that sense. And still be able to rest, wouldn't it be possible to stay have the mind awake the whole night and let the body rest. This is called Yoga Nidra "Conscious sleep". I have allways told myself that a dream is just a thought, but a vivid thought and I have even seen my thoughts become a dream in a WBTB DEILD.
So if I can just stay aware until my thoughts, become vivid then it should be possible.
I considered the problem of staying awake long enough for that to happend, but I came up with an idea to keep my mind busy and to totally forget about my physical body.

I like visualization, and day dreaming in that sense. I thought that if a dream is a vivid thought, then a thought must still be the closest to a dream that I can come while being awake. So my method to keep my mind busy is to daydream, but not the nornal way. Usually when we day dream we think about something and associate it with something else and suddenly we think about anything and then we fall asleep.

I started out by going through memories of my day in my mind, as detailed as possible. When this was done I assumed that I was perfectly relaxed, my body felt numb and uncomfortable feelings started to appear. Now I pretended that I was going to separate from my physical body into my non-physical body, pretend that I WILD so to speak.

So I visualised that I went out of my bed and I chosed two objects in each room in my house to explore.
And when I come to the kitchen I started to lose consiousnes from time to time, but I returned to the visualisation.
Eventually I lost it completely and I had a dream.
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[COLOR="blue"]I were in my school and this dream was boring, because it was just about a normal schoolday.
Then I was walking home from that schooldream and suddenly I realised that it was a dream.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="red"]I didn't stabilise I was not aware enough in my mind to do that for some reason, instead I looked around and were surprised that I remembered this much from the real world, because it was a real location.
I took pace and ran and jumped and started to fly, I have had many fly dreams now so I had enough confidence to control this flying. And this time I decided to fly to the universe! When I were up there and saw the starts and the empty black space I started to accelarate and it almost felt like falling. And I fell and fell and suddenly I was back in my bed.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]I heard my mom screaming "Your dad is shopping clothes!". "In the middle of the night?!" I said surprised. "Yeah go back to sleep" she said. And when I did I woke up for real...[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]On my real awakening I did a reality check and I was now awake. I looked at the clock and it was now 4.40, so I went back to sleep.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I was now standing in my tv room and a person I don't really like was laying on the couch and eating popcorn, this was a weird dream and I don't really remember it.

Then I was walking into a Chinese store, I looked at a t-shirt and it was a cool background and a text saying "Zhore".
I then saw a bowl of red balls, I asked what it was and the person behind the disk said "Dragoneggs" and then I woke up.[/COLOR]


[COLOR="silver"]I will make a new attempt to WILD today, but if I fail which I probably will I have an alarm to WBTB.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
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[COLOR="silver"]This time I woke up sometime in the middle of the night. I didn't wanted to move so I didn't watched the time.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]My dreams have been so vivid nowadays, it almost feels like I am aware of my subconscious actions.
For example I would never ever think of killing a man, but I had a dream about stabbing a man with a knife, and I was aware of it. It feels like I experience another persons life. But I am aware of what I am doing, although I don't know it's a dream.
One simple reality check could solve everything... Anyway this dream I were on a bus and it seems like this was a schoolbus.
I see two hot girls smiling at me. They giggle, then one of them puts her hand on my lap! In the dream I welcomed that hand. But then the bus stopped and my dream personality changed and the environment changed. I stepped out of the bus and we were now on a beach. Two girls from my real school were there. I was only wearing underwear and was going to change to swimming shorts, but I was embarrassed to change infront of them. Then I just thought "Screw it" And I just changed.
Then I was going to impress everyone by jumping into the cold water frst. So I took pace and dived into the water.
In the water I had no control at all. The stram took me farther and farther away from the beach until I couldn't see it anymore.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I woke up. I believe in Sigmund Freuds theory that we dream about stuff that we are not allowed to think of in the real life. But even in the dream we are ashamed so it disguise itself with symbols.
If I was going to interpret this dream it's easy. The first dream I associate with sex...
The second I associate with a girl I like and how embarrassed I am when I am with her.
Anyway I am going to start affirming that I will do a reality check before I fall asleep and these vivid dreams might become a lucid one.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="lightblue"]Middlestate (I change this to hypnagogic, because that what it is)[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]This morning I woke up and remembered a dream, but I told myself let's test if I can skip to note this dream and still remember it.
I didn't... I went back to sleep and had this dream.
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[COLOR="blue"]I were on a big balcony, that was made of stone. In some kind of caslte I think. Then the teenage king from Game of thrones "Lannister..." open the big door and sais something to me. I thought about this weird experience, although I wasn't lucid I was very aware of my body and choices. It almost felt like I was controling my movement, but I didn't know that I was dreaming. Weird state, because what is tricking me to believe that this was real? It was the same feeling you have when you watch a movie. You are somehow involved in it. Although this time I was controling my actions.
Then I hear someone climbng on the steep mounatin next to the balcony. I look down and see a whole group of soldiers.
"We are here to rescue you" they said. The one who was first grabbed my hand and all of them lose their grip and they formed a chain, like you see in movies when people almost fall down from a height. The guy below that person who held my hand held in his ankle and so on, you get the picture. When all were up they gave me climbing equipment and we climbed to the side of the castle and then down, to the grass. "Down with the king!" they yelled. Then they started to burn down houses in the village, and I shouted "Stop! What the hell are you doing?"

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The dream transformed into the wild people from the same serie and I was now transformed into Khal Drogo!
I think I associated harrassing villages with that. Now I wanted to do backflips! I ran and did a backflip to impress everyone, but on the landing I bit my lip. Everybody was chocked, although I hadn't noticed it myself until I saw their eyes direction.
I got chocked, then I woke up. Cool dream thought[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]It felt like my dream was that vivid because I am used to the dreamy feeling. But it can just have been a coincidence, and it's weird that I didn't become lucid.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
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[COLOR="silver"]Last night I went to bed, feeling dizzy and terrible. I am ill. I still did the exercises for day 3 and 4 and then went to sleep.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I had a dream where I really had the urge to go to the bathroom. The whole dream consisted of me trying to find a toilet. When I finally did find one I stood there very long and let it flow. I understood that something was wrong, how can I pee for this long? And why doesn't the urge dissapear?!
I then got a terrible realisation, what if this was a dream and I wet myself for real, so embarassing.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I woke up and saw that, no I hadn't wet myself. But I still[ had the urge to go to the toilet.
So I went to the bathroom and then went back to sleep. I told myself that I will recognise that I am dreaming.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I was now standing at a theater, and I was a part of it. My role was to just say one line at a certain time. I saw my parents down in the audience... I don't remember why or how, but I went down under the scene and saw that someone had started a fire with fireworks, so the play had to be canceled.

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The dream sceneary changed and the basement was now a part of my real house (I don't have a basement) and I went up to the kitchen and saw a hot violinist. I immediatelly thought about sex. But when I went out there to reach her, she transformed into a flower. I was discouraged. I then went to my livingroom and I looked at my hands.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="red"]I instantly became lucid. This time I was really focussed on how to stabilize this dream.
I looked at my hands and I touched my body, I rubbed my hands. And then I did something I have never tried before.
I jumped placed my feet infront of me, so when I landed I will hit my butt. On the landing everything become super clear.
I then leaned back, like the test you do to test trust, but this time no one was catching me and I fell straight down on my back. The spine felt weird and I bounced straight back up. The dream was now clear, but I forgot to spin so my mind wasn't clear...
I went out in the garden and flew, with surprising control. Then I saw my dad, I somehow become convinced that he was my real dreaming dad in my dream, so I did everything I could to make him realise that he was dreaming.
I shouted "Dad you are dreaming!" "Look at me you are in a dream", instead I lost my lucidity... [/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I woke up and wrote this dream down, I could have chained it but chances are that I wouldn't have remembered it then, so I didn't wanted to risk that. Instead I went to the bathroom again and then back to bed.
I now thought to myself "I can enter a dream without falling asleep, my thoughts wil be vivid enough"[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I then had a dream about something that I can't remember, something matrix related though.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="red"]Then I see a hot girl and become lucid haha. But this time I didn't have the same control over my subconscious mind. I instantly thought about sex and lost my lucidity right away.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I then had a dream about me trying to kill a person from the Games of thrones series.
Khal Drogo, incredibly strong and fast. But somehow I managed to put a knife in his chest. Although I was chocked.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]It feels like I am getting better at stabilize a dream, but today I am going to read about what more I need to do according to the most famous authors on the subject. Maybe it had been done if I had spinned too.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
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[COLOR="silver"]Many of the people who are taking part in my school project have written to me and said that they somehow attained higher awareness of their dreams, by either experiencing their dreams differently or remembering more of their dreams.
I did the second part of my method "Opening The Minds Eye" I can't let my people skip ahead so I will not tell what I did.
Anyway I accidently noticed one of my awakenings during the night and fell back to sleep.

I had some dreams before this ,but I don't remember them anymore.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I had a dream about me standing outside of my house[/COLOR] [COLOR="red"]I looked at my hands, and become lucid. I was in the dizzy state that I hate, but this time I remembered that I wanted to try the spinning technique.
I started to spin and thought to myself "The next thing I will see is a dream, I am dreaming". In the middle of it all everything turned black and I got a little disapointed. But then I found myself standing there again and I did the spinning once more, and now I was fully aware of my thoughts, I was as aware as I am in the waking life. I could remember what I wanted to do and so on. So I started to feel the texture of a brick wall with my hands. but later on the dizzy feeling came back...[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]I was now laying in my bed, and I went to my computer to write down this dream, but when I started the computer, it shut itself off, like it sometimes do. But this time I got a message saying "There is a problem with your harddrive[ would you like to restore?" I clicked Yes "Then I had a terrible realisation. All my work about the Dream Project is on the computer and I only have one old backup, which means that I have to rewrite alot of stuff.
As you all might have guessed this was a False awakening nighmarish (not really I didn't felt that scared, just frustrated).[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Then I woke up in my bed, although I could have chained this dream, I wasn't paying attention to that.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]So the spinning technique is a way for me to get more conscious in that sense, that I can remember real thoughts and concerns in the dream. But after I have spinned I should stabilize it alot more, and if I wake up I do a reality check.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="silver"]Right now I am doing the exercises that I tell the people in my school project to do. And although I have already pracctised my awareness alot, it's still a good pracctise for. This evening before falling asleep I just looked at my hands nothing more. And I had some vivid dreams and even a short lucid dream.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I dreamt that I were in school and were listening to my history teacher. I normally like history, but this time I didn't undertstood anything she said. And she kept repeating that this was something that we should now by now.
She described different peoples life by drawing, weird lines and dots on the board. I raised my hand and told her that I didn't follow. But she only got angry and then she kicked me out, after I had a breakdown haha.

I was aware enough to realise that something was wrong, the school flelt different, everything felt different.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="red"]The dreamy feelingitself made me realise that I was dreaming. I looked at my hands and it stabilised a bit, although I forgot my old goal to use the spinning technique. Instead I foccused on the lockers and the surounding. And I saw that everything become more clear. I thought for a second (Why I don't know) "Who am I in love with?" Then I see her walking out of the library and I was not surprised to see who it was.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Unfortunately those feeling made me lose my lucidity, although this was the end of my 4 day dryspell :)[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I am glad that both my conscious and subconscious agrees with something.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="silver"]This morning attempt made me realise that those terms are actually wrong. Atleast they are not clear enough.
I woke up to the alarm, but I was to awake to be able to fall asleep, although I still went into a subconscious focus, but this time I was in a more conscious focus than subconscious, but it was still a subconscious focus and therefore a dreamlike state.
This experience made me understand the different states better. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="red"]A Lucid dream is a state where I am in a fully subconscious focus, but where I let some of my conscious mind be a part of it.
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[COLOR="blue"]A dream is a state where I only am in a subconscious focus, maybe 0.1 % of the conscious too, and thatäs why I remember the dreams as vivid or real.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts is actually the exact same thing, but here I am in a fully conscious state, the subconscious is still active although I am not aware of it.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]But this morning I experienced something new. And none of these terms explains that, so I need a new word.
I woke up to the first alarm. Then I tried to go back to sleep, but I just couldn't. So I lay there through some of the alarms, then I gave up. I got out of bed did reality checks so I was sure that I was awake. Then I turned the alarm off.
Then I went back to bed trying to get back to sleep...[/COLOR]
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I thought about school and my homework, and suddenly I had a really vivid thought of standing there, but it was not a dream, because I was still aware of my body in bed and I could move it and so on. I even went up and wrote some notes about this experience and then I got back to the thinking state again. My thoughts were as vivid as a dream, but I was not in sleep paralysis and I was not asleep. I was in a more conscious state then a subconscious, but I was stil in a more subconscious state than when I am awake and in a less subconscious state than when I am dreaming. I find no words for it, but I guess I will call it a middlestate. Because it is something in between. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Hopeully I can fall asleep tomorrow and get a more subconscious focus, I think I will set my alarm earlier so I'm not to awake or conscious.
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[COLOR="silver"]This time I did the biggest misstake I could ever do, so now I can't make anything worse. I forgot to start the alarm! ...
I started the app, but I forget to go the settings and start the alarm.
Although I had a lot of naturally awakenings I woke up earlier than the alarm usually wakes me up, probably because my body doesn't wanted to be chocked awake. But I fell asleep again and continued to have these awakenings, but because I didn't heard the alarm a single time I didn't care much about these awakening even though they were a perfect oppurtunity to DEILD.

So I dreamed a little.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I met a girl who was flirting with me. I know her in my waking life and I am pretty shy around her I don't know why. Although in my dreams I were funny, witty and all that stuff and I was aware enough to remember what I said, and I admit that I was a funny guy. That made me wonder, why can I be this funny in a dream it's still me... And not for real? =([/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I woke up and sort of noticed this awakening, but I moved around but then I went out of bed.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I didn't realised that I had just DEILD and this was a induced false awakening, but I made it false myself. So I lost my lucidity shortly after this. I was now standing in a gym and I did my normal routine until I realised that I were really strong. I then have a memory about me rescuing somone from som criminals, but I don't remember this dream anymore.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="silver"]This time it went the other way around, usually the alarms wakes me up over and over again and then I wake up in sleep paralysis.
This time I woke up to the first alarm, I then had a false awakening. I looked at my hands, but they looked normal so I didn't become lucid. I don't know why I didn't do the noseplug. But anyway none of the alarms woke me up atleast I wasn't aware of it...

Hopefully I am the next night.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I do now remember although, that I woke up to some of the alarms, and then I was in sleep paralysis, then I visualised myself getting out of bed, but I must have been too tired to remain conscious and that's why I thought it was a False awakening.
Damn it![/COLOR]

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[COLOR="silver"]I went to bad late on my previous attempt, so I adjusted the timer to wake me up 6 hours later. But last night I went to bed earlier and forgot to adjust the timer, so I slept for 8 hours. I still made an attempt with the alarms, but I couldn't fall back to sleep... [/COLOR]

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[COLOR="silver"]Normally I would say, I were out last night and went to bed late.. So I did no attempt because I was to tired.
Or .. The battery of my Iphone died so the alarms didn't wake me up all the way. But this time I did all the misstakes that I have allways blamed my not succesful attempt on, but I still succeeded![/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I got to bed really late! But I just changed the timer so I slept the same amount of hours.
When the alarm wakes me up. I feltl really uncomfortable so I moved.. and then I fell back to sleep again.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="blue"]Then I had 4 False awakenings in a row. I know that they were false awakenings, because my Iphone died long before those awakenings... But I dreamt my own alarms! On the fourth false awakening I thought about vaccation, and the exact same words that I thought about I now heard my mom say in the other room "We should go to Spain". But I didn't become lucid...
Then I woke up and saw that m Iphone had died... So I thought "Ok I failed no big deal, I know that it would have worked if my Iphone hadn't died.[/COLOR] [COLOR="red"]Then I close my eyes and I see that it's a yellow cloud on the back of my eyes! I observed it and my last thought of a location I were on the previous day becomes my dream.
Either it was a False awakening that I WILDED in, or it was a normal awakening I don't know, but it doesn't matter because I got lucid anyway. I was now standing on a parking lot and (I'm am chocked and ashamed over what I did) my bestfriends crush M. is looking with horny eyes at me and my dreamy me thinks "This is a dream, it wont hurt my friend". I don't even like her that much in reality... But then she jumps at me and tells me that she want to have sex. I stabilise the dream by feeling her lips when we kiss and touching her body, and rubbing the.. hands haha. I scream I am dreaming! It stabilise only for a bit. But I am still in a dizzy feeling, then I just forget that I want to stabilise and I have sex with her. Then my friend shows up next to me not even bothering! And then he joins and that feels a little weird so I left. But he followed me so I thought hmm the last day we were bragging about how we knew how to impress girls, even if he didn't know them. So I tried to imagine the location we had been at. And the dream changed, but then it morphed into something random. I thought "Were do I find nice girls?"
Then it started to appear lot of McDonals restaurants! And was like "WTF?!" Then I just went into one of them, and there were nice girls alright :shock: I walk up to one of the girls, and say "Hey what's yor name?" and she answers "Annie". But then she says alkjhaaöhwfwaf :? ... And then I say to my friend "Come man you have to dare to fail to succeed.
Then I pushed him to talk to someone and I talked to a girl that was 15 years older than me, it felt weird to hit on her :/ Yeah I was a total jerk in this dream... [/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I think it's pretty interesting that dreams tend to draw my attention to forbidden thoughts
Sex with my bestfriends crush, hitting on older girls. Maybe that is the stuff my subconscious is fighting with holding back. The norms and my conscious mind believes it wrong, but my subconscious loves and hates what my conscious hates and love.
I did stabilise properly in this dream, but it still didn't work, it got stable only when I stabiised, the second I stopped the dream become more unstable. Subconscious VS Conscious 1 - 0 ...
I think I am going to try the spinning technique next morning, because that is something that many people have talked about and sais that it works. The truth shall be told![/COLOR]

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[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
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[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]


[COLOR="silver"]This morning I had 3 lucid dreams and got own experienced knowledge about how the dream environment is. I had one false awakening, but I didn't reality check, in that moment I were so motivated that I wanted to WILD, instead I switched position in the dream and fell asleep. Then I woke up to the alarm and realised that I had a false awakening, although I didn't reality checked on this awakening either, so I am not completely sure if it was a dream or reality. I started to think about my previous dream , but I wasn't trying to WILD. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="red"]I felt a switch of consciousnes and I was now standing in a store, I immediatelly remembered to stabilise so I started to touch a brown desk that was infront of me. I took my hands and touched my legs and used my body as a stabilisation technique through the sense of touch. Then I saw a girl and even though I was lucid and didn't had to care about her, I did... So she told me that we should steal some of the watches that were behind the glas. I thought to myself this is a dream I can do whatever I want, so I broke the glas and she pointed out one of the watches and I grabbed that and gave it to her.
I wanted something cooler so I looked for a really cool clock, and I found one (I didn't find any real picture of this watch design, so I am going to try to explain it) it was like a big stone and the design of the screen was looking like a shining star.
Golden spikes pointing in all directions.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="silver"]Short after this I heard the next alarm and I woke up. I was surprised to my behaviour in the dream, why did I wasted my precious time on a girl that I didn't even know, to steal a watch? Normally I would be satisfied with this dream, because it was vivid and lucid, so I usually just went up and wrote down the dream, Not this time.
I were still perfectly still and thought that maybe I can chain this dream, because I will still remember this dream, so no reason to worry about that.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="red"]So I started to think about the same dream again, and felt the switch of consciousnes again! I was now standing at the same spot that I woke up from. A little more aware of that I don't need to follow that girl I remembered that I had told a fried in reality that I wanted to go to the universe and find out what my subconscious mind believed that was out there.
So took pace and started to running out the street and then I jumped and levitated. But I wanted to get speed, but it was hard to imagine, so I did a sound with my mouth that reminded me of Ironman flystyle. I started to accelrate through the sky, really fast it almost felt like I had engines on my back, I couldn't even control it. Then it felt like I flew straight into an invisible wall and I fell. And I fell ... I fell really hard and I closed my eyes and I were in my bed and I still felt like falling.
I knew that this sensation must be a dream so I imagined myself getting out of my bed.
And the imagination become real as usual, and I went down to the door. And I remembered that I wanted to visit a waking life location to see if it felt as real as reality. So I flew (calmly) to my first school, but it didn't look anything like it so I tried to visualise how it really looked like, but I just made it change texture to red brick. I associated school with my old interest which was Harry Potter, so I saw castle textures and buildings appear. [/COLOR]
[COLOR="red"]I woke up again and chained the dream again, but I think I thought about Narnia for one second, because the dream started out in the room were the locker is located (the one they use to get to Narnia). Although the locker wasn't there!
All I saw was a woodwall I ran through it and imagined myself gettig to platform 9 / 3/4.
And I was suddenly looking at the Hogwarts express! I stepped into the train and remembered that I wanted to complete the Hogwarts Challenge on Dreamviews, but then I was on the wrong place. I needed to go to the Diagonalley to get a wand.
Instead I started to ask people n the train in panic if they had a wand I could borrow.
For some weird reason the Requiem for a dream music started to play in the background.
I later decided to wake up, and I associated the woodwall with waking up, but when I walked through the wall I woke up![/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I learned alot from these dreams. Some of these things I have allready heard from Stephen LaBerge and other, but this attempt prooved that it was true. Robert Waggoner: "The sailor never controls the sea".
Likeways the dreamer never controls the dream, the dream (your subconscious) control about 90 % of the dream while the dreamer control 10 %. You just control where to go and what you might experience, but the dream is what creates everything that you see and experience, it might give you some information, but you just flow along what the dream creates.
Which is a good thing, because what if I was a watch designer, if I controlled everything then it wouldn't be anything different compared to reality except you might be able to control the elements and physics better. But now I asked to see a cool watch and then it just appears! Another thing that I got confirmed was that dreams are built of thoughts and associations and emotions and that is why it's hard to have good control, because who can control both their thoughts, associations and thoughts? Although my goal is to use lucid dreams as a paradise and to be able to do that I need more control. So I am going to work on how to do that. And last but not least, chaing dreams might give you more lucids, but they are harder to remember each time you do it. For example I forgot to mention that I met the Harry Potter characters on the train =)
Hermione :loveyou: :content:[/COLOR]

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