dream fragment

Biker bar shenanigans

I am in a biker bar that is dimly lit
There were other instances before this that blurred together
I am looking around at the neon signs and people sitting around the bar
All of their facial features seem blurred and misshaped
I immediately know that I am dreaming
Looking at my hands, yup too many fingers and two thumbs per hand
I try to remember my dream tasks and decide to summon
Swinging my hand out and back in I have a gun in my hand
Nope, did that already, I de-summon it while looking at it, just fading into nothing
Remembering I’m in a bar I decide a beer would be nice!
A bottle slowly phases into my gripping hand while I look at it
The DCs around me are staring(through their deformed eyes)
I gather I am putting on a magic show of sorts for them lol
Hold the beer up to drink it exaggeratedly and feel the liquid going into my mouth
It tastes like nothing, like no carbonation or anything, almost like drinking air that has volume to it, I am let down because I wanted to drink something in a dream
It seems to be hard to remember the whole list of tasks from the competition
I remember thinking about telekinesis (this used to be my most reliable dream sign but had the thought the other day I haven't had any TK dreams in quite some time)
Reaching out with one hand I levitate all the bottles sitting on the bar
People sitting around stand up and audibly gasp
Oh boy now I’m causing a scene
I drop them all at once and hear some glass breaking
I walk around the bar just taking in the details
It seems dimly lit and not as clear as I would prefer so I say in my mind loudly “CLEAR”
The picture snaps into focus and brightens some, good enough
I then remember thinking how I’ve never made a portal in dream and that would be interesting
Holding my hand out with two fingers extended like Dr. Strange I start drawing semi-circles in the air
Greenish sparks start coming out of my fingers and I can see the outline of the portal forming
I’m unsure where I want to go, the portal seems to be fading in and out
It is now a large human-sized oval greenish portal like from rick’s portal gun
I sidestep into it without a clear idea of where I’ll end up
The dream pauses/does that screen shake thing that happens when you walk through a portal in VR chat
The dream destabilizes and I lose lucidity as the next dream locale boots up

Fragment

I befriend a younger couple, and the girl has eyes for me
I attempt not to be disrespectful but the guy is constantly leaving us alone
It feels like a survival situation
We have a hole with cargo nets in it we can hide in to be safe

Fragment

of a war game/outdoor airsoft match
I throw a grenade through a window a great distance away, and hear the enemies yelp before it goes boom

Fragment

I am with my friend who has started a fire in his backyard to keep us warm
He started the fire inside a dilapidated shed with no roof and missing a wall or two
I worry the fire could spread
Some time elapses and I go back to his backyard to check on things
The fire has completely engulfed the shed as it was mostly all dried aged wood frames
He doesn't seem to mind much because they were going to have to clear it away anyway
I am slightly concerned at the size of it and people might notice
Then we hear the news playing from inside his house
They are reporting a house fire seen from miles away
They describe the location as being exactly where we are
I think, oh boy here we go
The dream fades while we talk about how to deal with the tall flames

Filipino Journey

I have just arrived in the Philippines with a few friends
As we get checked in there is a guy who gives us all of our paperwork/visas
They are printed on transparent acetate cards that are oversized which fit into my loose pants pocket only barely without falling out
We are in an area similar to a large cafeteria almost, partly looks like an abandoned k-mart with bare walls and busted fluorescent lights
There seems to be food waste all over the floor with some kind of brownish orange sticky sauce smeared all over the place like someone was mopping with oriental sauce
The floor is very sticky and I'm trying not to walk on it as I explore where we are
I'm just kind of amazed that I'm in a new place
My friends are moving very fast and not really taking things in, they are also boisterous and I worry we may be drawing too much attention to ourselves
We adventure around the inside here, I notice children scattered playing in the corners, and people generally waiting around like a train station of sorts, though I am surprised at how dingy and worn down everything is
We go through a doorway to another room and I notice a giant block of butter maybe 3 feet high on the other side, I take up a chunk and eat it
My friends all laugh, I notice there are businessmen and other random people coming in and out of this concourse
One guy in a suit coming through the doorway sees me eat it and laughs too but it's all jovial and lighthearted

When we finally leave the area we are in a very busy marketplace-type bazaar roadway that seems like a back alley connected to other streets
It is very busy with people coming in both directions, vendors shouting and even the odd motorbike whizzing past, it seems very populated
I tell my friends we should probably find someplace safe because I know not everywhere around here is safe to be as a tourist
We are dodging in and out of alleyways eventually meeting a friendly looking american

He leads us to his permaculture farm which seems very interesting
I notice there are other americans living there in a commune-type setting
G is with me now, it seems my friends have gone in a different direction
As we're walking through this permaculture farm I notice that it's nestled around/built into a wooden framed house, going through the different rooms I realize that we accidentally just walked into their home
I see the main guy who owns the place in his bedroom
He is a farmer and also a chef, he is very friendly and incredibly kind, a relaxed soul
We apologize that we're in the bedroom and he walks us back out giving us a little tour of the permaculture farm along the way and the little community center where everyone is hanging out
I notice there are a lot of very earthian healthy looking people but they all seem like-minded and hospitable
It is picturesque and comfortable here

He's describing a dish they're putting together, it's very similar to falafel
He asks if we know how to form them with a wood dowel concave mold he is holding and if we would mind helping them prepare a large batch for the community
We agree, I'm very happy to learn about a new dish in a new place, I am amazed to be in a new country and that there are so many like-minded souls here
I notice that I’m wearing these very shiny brown leather shoes and the floors are very smooth terracotta tile
I slide over the tiles very easily as if there is a layer of oil on the floor
To the point where I don't even have to walk or lift my feet to move around
It sort of feels like I'm ice skating and I tell them how weird it feels to be able to move around They watch me and chuckle as I kind of slide around the room without really moving my feet much
We walk outside together and I ask him if there are many permaculture farms around here
He says no, I respond that I'm really surprised I thought that there will be more permaculture farms like this in the Philippines
He says there's a couple but it's not very popular with the locals

As we're walking I notice practically across the street from the farm there are many other similar types of people wearing tan leather-bound medieval armor and some of them are riding horses
There's some kind of grand activity going on that seems like a medieval game of sorts
I'm just amazed at everyone’s coordination and the varying outfits
They're very excited to be involved in the activity, and everyone besides me seems to know what's going on
I talked to a random girl with black hair as I am walking into the group
I now have leather armor on my shoulders
I'm watching the horses ride and do stunts as they're also manipulating different weapons and staffs in a LARP fashion, it reminds me of a renaissance festival
G is with me now so we walk in the other direction away from the permaculture farm and notice that we're very close to the beach now

The ocean is to my left
I am in a video call on my phone with the main chef guy from the farm
Describing what I'm seeing, the beach is very close to the road so I walk over
Excited because I've never been in this ocean before, I stand with just half of my feet in the water
I see the waves gently crashing, the sand is incredibly white, almost pearlescent
Though the shore is only two or three feet deep along the side of the road which is very close to the water
The water is turbulent, not really wavy but I can see peaks
The water is also darker than I expected, it looks different than other seas or oceans I've been in
I'm very excitedly explaining on the phone what I'm seeing and I'm so happy to be in a new place with G

As I'm looking around more I see almost what look like high-end villa sort of enclosures
They all seem like streamlined verandas of organic shapes terraced multiple levels high and built into the hillside all facing the ocean
There are random pieces of furniture scattered about and little curtains hanging around doorways
I'm wondering if maybe these are timeshares or if people live here
I don't see any place for beds or anything so I'm really confused as to the layout
We're just kind of adventuring around different passageways
I seem to go inward too deep and through a curtain there's an older woman wearing flowing clothes who is obviously staying here, she comes out to meet us but doesn't say anything
Apologize turning around we walk back out towards the sea

I am walking down the road by myself now
I seem to be wearing some traditional garb that fits loosely, like multiple layers with the outer layer covered in decorations and a vibrant blue color
As I'm walking I notice a group of people almost like a religious gathering in the street
They are walking towards me slowly like a meditative walk
As I get closer I see it's mostly younger children with maybe a half dozen adults in the center
They are all wearing matching garb of blues and reds, which also match my outfit
They're playing chimes and flutes while walking in a very specific way almost like a dance
So I step to the side to let them pass but one of the men in the group sees the way I'm acting and shouts “Continue walking!”
Saying over and over again “Just walk straight ahead with your hands at your side, just walk straight ahead with your hands down, just walk straight ahead don't stop!”
I gather I have done something culturally improper and he is correcting me
So I continue to walk forward just looking straight ahead and walking through them as they pass through around me
I see now they all have ornate decorations all over their shoulders and down the front
They all have hats on which almost look oriental, flared up on the sides with a round top with colors that match the rest of their outfits
The feeling as they pass me is almost mystical as I purposely attempt to not look directly at any of them

I am in my parents' house now and I understand this is before we left for the Philippines
Getting ready to go pack up and I’m told someone is at the front door for me
It's not the person I'm expecting as I glance down the stairwell from the second floor looking out the front door I only see a pair of very tan very long legs
Coming down the stairs closer I notice it's a woman in a red dress with blonde shoulder-length hair and bright blue eyes
I recognize her immediately as Tricia Helfer from battlestar
Stepping out to meet her I remember when winning the trip to the Philippines I randomly messaged her inviting her to come on the trip with us, even though I knew it would be a long shot, there was no way they would respond but here they were on my front door to go on this trip with us, she seemed excited too
Complimented her on how good she was in battlestar and told her that I loved everything she brought to the character and how impressive it was that was her first acting gig
Also that I understood why she hasn't wanted to try to revisit the role or just try much more in Hollywood since then because it was so popular, she tells me about how she wrote a film called Invertigo but it never got made
The dream fades as we’re laughing and just generally chit-chatting on the front porch

Fragment

I am in a music store that seems to be having some special release party
It’s locked to the general public and we’re all vibing inside
There are maybe a dozen people and I only recognize a couple
Christina Ricci is sitting in the corner with some friends
The dream fades with the general murmur of layered small talk and chill music playing

UFO Pizza Ghosts

I am outside some building that feels like a sonic
It is nighttime, I see lights in the sky in the distance
The more I look the more the lights resemble cartoonish-looking flying saucers flying in pairs
There are probably close to a dozen scattered across the sky
I attempt to point them out to the people near me

Later I am in the building and it feels like a pizza restaurant that is closed for the night
I gather we are in here to retrieve something for the owner
My friend wants to snag a free pizza while no one is here
The streets outside are also empty

The inside where we are goes almost misty with a pinkish hue
There are pink colored orbish like odd shaped beings floating through the restaurant
They are dripping with some pinkish ooze
They don't seem threatening at all but it feels ominous and somewhat eerie

Somehow my friend now has a baby in a carrier he says we should take with us
I don't mind he's carrying and he seems to recognize the kid
We go outside and my friend is now in a 60s-style convertible waving me in
He has the baby's cradle fastened in the backseat
There is another random guy there smoking cigarettes
I am disgusted and begin voicing my opposition to him smoking so near an infant
The dream fades

Fragment about getting a package in the mail, I am surprised it arrived several days before I was expecting it

Fragment about seeing someone close to me going down the stairs, they fall face first and I race down the steps to see they are unresponsive. I turn them over and pull them level onto the ground while trying to wake them up

Gun Game

Firearm situation with teams of people against each other
I am with friends it is very tense like an action sequence
Arming myself with various weapons and matching clips/ammo
Have long x-ray scope I can snipe with, on some random rifle
Take out two of the other team on the rooftop of the opposite building
One enemy is in our building
He casually walks through the door of our hotel room wearing a silver vest and smiling, he looks like liev schreiber
I unload both clips of the auto pistols I have that look like pez dispensers
He seems fairly unaffected and I instantly think he's cheating
He shoots me a bunch with his auto but they feel like bbs or airsoft pellets while saying he messed me up really bad
He has also stolen several pairs of my colored glasses and pulls them off his hip and hands them to me, I note they are colours I don't normally don't have like white and several brighter shades of green
(Note: I hardly play fps games and do not own a firearm)

Nooooooowiiieeeee!

I am in a dark large house on the second floor that has banisters wrapping the walls covered in fancy paintings
A toddler maybe 4 or 5 runs at me shouting a play name for me "Nooooowwwwiiiiieeeee!" and they hug me like they are glad to see me after some long time. I say thanks I really needed that and the dream fades

White Carpet

The room becomes a very nice house
I arrive out front of a very open all-glass wall seated in a rock wall with the front door wide open
I realize I just woke up on the driveway with my head on my pillow
There is a man who looks like Anthony Fauci sitting in a small round car that looks like a jetsons car with wheels, he is watching me stand up slowly
I pretend to be ready to work, so I wave as I carry my pillow inside
The foyer is all glass and opens to an ultra-wide stairwell leading down into their home
The wife is in a flurry is getting ready to leave for work
I tell them the service guy is here because I don't know what work I'm doing
Now realize I am doing contracting work for a friend
Long open floor concept spreading three of four rooms across and she wants all the white carpet ripped out
I say no problem as she leaves for work
I go outside to call Chris to double-check he's coming with the truck
I am transported to the work warehouse and I'm hanging onto the back of the truck while talking to two other female employees
One is obscured by a forklift
We are back in front of the house
The woman is finally leaving the driveway
It is a very ritzy neighborhood and I see other fancy cars driving by
For some reason, I ask her if the Bidens live up here
I go back inside and start ripping the carpet up
It is double layered and I realize it will take twice as long
It's also double-sided with a black suede flowers pattern on the underside
I now notice there is a difference of off-whites between the carpet in the kitchen and the carpet in the middle room as I haphazardly start to rip it up with a pair of scissors I found
Realize I don't have any of my tools or kneepads and it's going to be a long day

WBTB- Drank some blue lotus stamen tea, awake around 30-40 min
Dream is nonsensical and a mishmash of the previous locations and people I interacted with. Did not get it written down

Fragment of trying to journal my dream on my phone with little success
Continually delete what I typed and tried several times to just get a single word to input correctly
The dream fades and I wake up realizing I never journaled my dream

3/2/20

I am in my godmother's house with her many kids
I am baking
She gets frustrated by my spilling flour
I tell her I will clean up
When I'm done I wipe it all up
The bread is a small breadstick someone asks me about
They compliment me
I notice the house is dirty
I spend maybe 30 minutes cleaning up their living room of debris and paper left from the kids playing
My godfather is very surprised and pleased at the end result
He mentions having a special time on certain days where we can clean like that, as the whole house is disorderly
I am fine with it because it's superficial cleaning and wouldn't take any time at all

Transitions to walking down a street with old highschool friends/church friends
There are several youth group bands set up all singing the same music along the street.
I have a rolling table stand I am leaning on and roll it over to watch the groups play in unison
Suddenly a band behind everyone starts playing their own music
It's not bad it's just not what other people are playing
The other bands stop and seem confused so they turn around and watch the new band play
I stand with friends and lean on my pummel horse type stand table while watching

I am walking down the street with friends again
My buddy Nate decides to hit on some girls we are walking by
He tells them he wants to show them something
We all get on a shuttle/bus that has a sound system
We all have headphones we plug into their sound ports
He is playing some song for them he wants the girls to listen to
I am confused because the music isn't that great
He then tells one of the girls that she looks just like the lead singer of this band and he thought she would think it was cool
People are somewhat impartial
We all now take turns playing music for each other to listen to
I tell the group it would be cool if we randomly played a song and had the group guess who was the one who selected it as a game
People like that idea
We only get a couple of songs in
One is apparent because it's a sappy hills CW type song that is definitely this helpless romantic girl sitting in the front who used to have a crush on me

I now notice that I have two small fuzzy very very newborn baby birds sitting on my head
They seem incredibly premature and I'm not sure they will make it
I carefully remove them from my head and place them down on a counter
They are both still alive but I gather they will need some serious care
I am in a run-down market like a dollar store with no attendant so I start rummaging around looking for materials to build a nest/make food/administer it to them
I've only seen a few videos of people taking care of birds this young and small
I get some soft towels and find some creamy soup I wonder how I will keep them warm and look for a hot water bottle
The attendant comes out and looks confused
I tell them the situation and show them the birds, they are relieved and sympathetic to my cause


3/05/20

Driving w mom in a smart car
She drives off the road, on a log, and almost over a cliff
I carry the car backward and turn it around by hand

I am driving through a winter storm with an older woman in the car
It is a 50's classic now
The controls are two levers
It is tricky but manageable
Highway speeds but tons of snow and ice on the road

I am kidnapped by a larger bald man with glasses
He takes us (myself and three siblings) to some old house in the middle of nowhere
He has an incestuous family
His kids don't wear clothes and they are all dirty
I escape with my sister
We make it a town over before he finds us
He takes me in a car to a meeting
The meeting is in an old dim looking pool hall/bar
They are having a sacrificial service
They are burning a toddler
I don't want to be there
It is a celebration for them they are all dressed up and communing like it is a holiday for them
I am disgusted and try to leave several times
Each time he walks me back in and forces me to watch
It is smokey in the room
I escape and make it to my car while everyone is leaving
I call the police to report what is going on
It occurs to me there were many firefighters and police there and They may be everywhere
The guy on the other end of the phone seems unphased
I hang up and key into my car and start to drive away


3/06/20

Being given a tour of the space shuttle that is a mix of Saturn v
There are a few of us standing on the core up high
There is a screen that simulates the heights and I stand to the side because it is almost disorienting
Just then the top opens up and we are lowered down the sides almost like a ride
We each have a chest strap holder like a roller coaster and we line the inside of the craft facing each other
I wonder if Starship could hold people like this

I am in a classroom with people I went to high school with
The math teacher seems hip
He has long dark hair with some grey streaks
He also wears black-rimmed glasses
He has a unique sense of humor and the students like him
There is a note taped to the front board talking about how his wife left him
It seems like it's meant to be a morose joke
A kid I went to high school with is singing/beatboxing a song and everyone is listening to him
I have the sudden realization that I am too old to be here
It frustrates me
I say out loud realizing it is a dream
'why am I even here? I am too old to be in school!"
Everyone stops and the teacher looks at me
The teacher begins talking to me directly
I don't recall everything he says but he tells me something along the lines of "because you want to learn" it is true, I have been asking to be taught by my dreams
I just didn't expect it to be so literal
He explains a few things to me and his voice becomes jibberish
I begin to wake up
I remain still and focus on the dream and talking to him
The dream reappears around me exactly as before with fewer students in there with me
This happens a few times and I am able to reform the dream and reappear in the same classroom always with the teacher
The last time I reappear the colours are off in the room
I ask him why things look different now
It is almost night time and there are no lights
I manifest small flames in my right hand and intend them to go along the wall in the back of the classroom, with each one the room gets brighter
Once they line the back wall they begin to dim and flicker
I intend them all to be brighter at once and they do
The room is brightly lit now
Our studies continue

I am in the back of a department store mixed with a chemical facility it seems
There is an invisible person wrestling with me
I ask them to help me carry cans of a beverage out and they oblige
I see a girl I used to know hooking up with one of the guys in the bathroom
They are shocked I walked in but I don't care I just have to urinate really badly
I set up to pee and go for what seems like minutes
The guy looks over at me amazed that I am going for so long
The relief feels amazing
My penis hangs down past the knee of my shorts when I am done, I don't care

I am in a gas station/head shop
I purchase a large water pipe and a smaller rig for oil that looks like the nectar collector but more convoluted
For some reason, I throw a small weight through a Pepsi machine and it puts a hole in the front of it
Whenever someone uses water on the beverage station, pop spews out the hole
I find the water cut off and switch it off to fix the problem
I find the water hookup to the machine that was broken and unplug it
I am now able to turn the water back on and other dispensers work


3/07/20

There's a taco truck part of a cultural festival thing
The tacos are super cheap and we buy a few to eat
Like a dollar apiece
I have a backpack full of money

In a friend's house, it is super big with many gadgets and an expensive computer and a voice-activated shower
I am the rich kid doing some promotional tv spot
I am walking on top of a telephone booth and something else that is mostly glass
It breaks with my step and I crash through it falling to the ground
Broken glass is everywhere
I am bloody and covered in thousands of small glass shards
My stomach is cut up too
I can walk fine but everything stings
I go to the large house and tell the shower to turn on
It is a large walk-in room attached to the bedroom
The water is at the perfect temperature
I try to clean myself but some glass still remains
I am picking glass out of my skin the entire dream
I notice several cars driving down the long driveway from the bedroom which is on the second story
My friend's siblings have all arrived
They are all older
My friend offers me some shrooms to take for our trip
I eat one to microdose but never end up feeling anything
They are large like baby bellas not small like normal shrooms
He turns everything off in his room but tells me to leave his windows open
The screens are still in place
We go downstairs and meet his siblings who are all of various ages much older than us
One of his brothers has a hang drum he is playing on the stage in their front yard
I want to play it but never make it onto the stage


3/12/20

Driving see a circle of sunlight on the moon that fades in a minute or two
Parked at a campground that is also the parking lot of the spa
Kevin is giving me a tour of the new facilities
Everything is updated and newer futuristic looking
I am crying because I am back
I pack up and go to leave the parking lot
Drive down the street before I realize I forgot things on the ground by my campsite
A necklace and a few more things
Drive back and there is another car parked in the lot
I pick up my things slowly and a guy walks up to me and asks me if 73-year-olds can float
We talk about the tanks while I walk up to the spa with him
I tell him I was just leaving but I'm happy to talk to him
He is impressed with my knowledge and glad to talk to me
I tell him to tell the people in the spa about me
Mark is standing in the other room talking to other employees

Fast forward
I am in a camper/RV
I am looking at my body and it looks like someone else's body
My ribs pulsate and roll like a fish out of water
My elbow has an exposed joint like a puppet
I am made of a flesh coloured plastic material
My arm is many mechanisms
Someone is shocked I don't look human
I may be an alien
I say oh, those? Those are just my tubes


3/14/20

Some kind of political action event in a long hallway
People are lined up to hear different other people talk at certain intervals
There is a woman in a chair trying to talk to people but no one is listening because she isn't official
There is a man reciting the Hare Krishna
Everyone joins in and sings
There is a dance troupe of guys doing a pre-rehearsed dance routine
I join in for the fun of it but I don't know the dance
He tells me for the next segment I need a pair of boots
I don't have any
They have a special shoe with a brick on one foot
It is like a stomp routine
Later he asks me why I didn't dance as tight as them
I told him I'm not a dancer but I like to dance
I have no formal training
He is sitting at a computer
Upstairs there is a girl who has an amateur bakery in her room
Her oven is a wood stove made of plywood
There are tons of fresh baked bread rolls and sourdough in forms
Everyone seems to be really impressed with her
She is surrounded by older men trying to court her
I wait until fewer people are there and begin talking to her questioning about the oven and how it's constructed
I tell her I wish my parents let me have an oven in my room when I was younger
It is all a sort of historical reproduction now
There are hundreds of smaller birds that I thought were moths at first
They are tiny like the size of cicadas
They obviously are there for the crumbs
I ask her who eats the birds
And a cat appears and catches one on the floor
She says see, a perfect ecosystem
We have a conversation about historical reproduction and how someone a hundred years ago would never imagine that we would be baking bread the same way but then jump in our car and go a hundred miles an hour down the highway
She turns down many gentlemen callers
Our conversation is pleasant


3/15/20

Elon tells me to collect foliage
They capture a dinosaur and take it across the street
I have a special calculator that is an mp3 player for Victor
Nikki falls weird while trying to snowboard down a mountain with fresh powder
We rescue her and she is embarrassed

I'm in a large airport terminal/arcade like a futuristic dave and busters
I am taking a trip overseas with Guy with Ginny too
I realize last minute I don't have a clothes bag packed and go back to pack clothes
I'm walking through the terminal and can't find my clothes anywhere
There is a leak from the ceiling and a couple of small pools of water on the floor
A worker middle-aged woman tells me not to step there and I don't listen and slip slightly but maintain my step
She gets mad at me and tells me she is going to get me in trouble
I ask her if she is a middle school teacher because she's bad at ordering people around
A cop/guard comes over to me later and is annoyed the woman bothered him for such a stupid reason, he mocks her in front of me


3/16/20

Sitting at a four-top table with three other middle-aged women
They are silently bidding on fancy plates to eat pizza with a fork and knife on
The woman I am paired up with tells me she only puts one slice on a plate at a time
We all put our heads down to bid
I don't understand the process and they are all seasoned in it
I look at my phone and swipe away a few messages
The lady across from me chastised me for not paying attention and looking at my phone
I look up and begin to yell at her and tell them that they are all petty as fuck and this whole process is stupid as hell and I walk away out of the store

Down the street, I see Nikki by a large tree next to a river
We hang out and it is a pleasant rekindling
I am suddenly large and cut like Karl urban we begin to hook up but I am also watching it happen
As the intercourse progresses there is a power-play between who is in control
Her face gets blood red and pulsed like she is lifting weights and she grows a beard as she becomes more forceful
The me I am watching asks her why can't I just love you like I used to, and she shrugs

I am in a Halloween store with my mother and there are workers in costume just casually walking around
I go to the makeup section to browse
There is an upstairs loft that isn't too populated but has a guy sitting at a desk
He is selling laser-cut temporary tattoos that literally burn complicated designs into your skin but shed within a day or two
He shows me some demos and I am impressed
It looks like it hurts but he assures me it's quick and painless, he also shows me pictures of how quickly it fades, I think it's a great idea
There is a small snack shop connected to the costume store that has three mini sliders for sale
They have 3 of them put together to show the workers on a shelf up high with a mirror directed to show the reflection
They seem tasty but I don't try any
There is a drive-thru

I am suddenly in a Mexican restaurant of sorts back in the kitchen
I gather I am a server but hanging out with the cooks
I see one of the cooks eating his lunch real quick
There is a paper towel dispenser which is full of long flat tortillas rolled up
His burrito is half hanging from the ripping part as he eats the remainder
I take both hands and pull out the last bit and ask him if I can have it while it's already in my hands
He shrugs and I realize I should have asked before grabbing the food with both hands
I apologize and begin to eat it.
It's dry but flavorful

I am a cowboy in the western 19th century
I am with a troupe who take over some ritzy plantation with force
We threaten with guns but aren't overly violent
The slaves are all worried at first but I assure them they are all free now and don't have to worry about anything
They are all african american women in their 20s and 30s and they are surprised and happy to be freed by us
The plantation owners aren't very pleased but go along with it
We all sit down to have a meal and serve ourselves family-style dishes
I have huge portions on my plate of coleslaw green beans and potato salad
It all tastes really good and I talk to the people around the table about how southern food tastes so much better when you're in the south
There is someone in my troupe who is severely prejudice against army soldiers and there is a soldier who is in the room too
He tries to fight him and wants to kill him outside
More army shows up and there is a large explosion


3/17/20

There were several episodes to my memory recall. But it picks up. And I am in a homie warm large cottage, that seems like it's at a summer camp or something. Surrounded by people that are there at the camp and they are familiar to me like festival.

There seems to be a kind of war. For the battle between the two sides, one is a red side one is a blue side people are dressed like pirates, but also like festival ware.

I talk to a guy who has multiple large sticks/logs, and one of them looks like a didgeridoo. I ask him if it's a didge and he says, I don't think so but it might be and I ask him if there's a hole in the center. I take it from him and begin to look and notice that the log is larger than I thought it was at an off angle and there is a hollow hole through the center of the trunk, but there are many cobwebs and debris inside of it and I don't feel like putting my mouth on the end to see if it reverberates like a didgeridoo.

At a certain point, there was a female companion with me who felt very warm. We were connected in a way that we knew each other prior to this experience. We spent time alone away from the group, we were inside of almost like a hanging woven wooden egg-shaped chair we sat in together and there was a spell put on the chair so that no one else could see that we were in it even while standing next to us. There was this overarching theme of magic. Like maybe we were magical creatures or we were hanging around magical creatures.

There are some memory gaps and it transitions to me exploring the outside area and there are multiple buildings all connected with a flat black asphalt pathway, that is almost as wide as a road and is very smooth and glossy. To move quickly. I put rocks under my feet and I'm able to slide down the hill very easily almost like I'm ice skating.

I see someone else pass me on the other side of the walkway only they are riding a flat disc-like sled. They look at me laughingly and are curious at what's on my feet as they pass me by going the opposite direction. I go to the far edges of the area and there's an older building that doesn't really seem to be used anymore, but there is a small family out front and I gather that he is making fake bigfoot plasters imprints And they are worried that I will catch them in what they are doing, but I pretend not to notice and ask them questions about the building. They say they will open the doors for me but no one is in there, so I don't really care. I end up walking through one of the glass panes into the building and it's like a science museum child's education center. With cartoonish graphics on the walls amongst other things but it is barren and no one is in there. I walk out and tell them what's the point of having a lock on the door if their windows are open, I continue walking around the campus.

I am suddenly in a theater/arcade area where everything has neon lights. They are low lit like pink neons and green neons and everything feels retro almost like from the 80s. I don't recognize anybody anymore and there are many older games that are being projected on a movie screen in a theater that people are playing. I ask a guy sitting upon a stool playing an old box arcade game what year it is and he says, it's 1980 I say, oh shit I must have time-traveled again. Now realizing that I am stuck in another time. I can't figure out how to get back, so I just wander around and explore the area trying to get to where I came from. Every new opening seems to lead to a new area. None of which looks like the place I was in before.

There's a big open midway. That seems like the opening of a movie theater with many different doorways going in different directions, it almost feels like a science museum. But more like a theater and everything is still retro colored and the people even are dressed in the style that was popular in the eighties.


3/18/20

I am in India
There is a strong current river next to the town I am in there is a long tube wave down the length of it
I befriend a young girl who identifies as a boy but she looks more androgenous
We venture around the markets of the town and they seem quaint and simple, yet familiar
I have one day left in India before I have to travel back and I am trying to figure out where to go to spend it
I have a conversation about which part of India is more Muslim and which is more Indian traditional
We are taken to an Indian temple that hosts pagan rituals
There are several guys in the group who seem like posers to me
They want to be baptized in pigs blood
They are lowered into aquariums full of blood and act super affected by the ritual
While this is happening the temple is lit with a green glow, it is night time
I begin coughing hard and a long bloody hairy mess comes out of my throat
I cough up this bundle of blood and hair and feel incredibly relieved when it is all out, it takes a minute or two to drag it out
I am annoyed at the white guys who paid to have the faux ceremony and gather it is a service the locals provide to tourists who don't know any better

We are at a convenience store and the guys are being rude and rambunctious
I have painstakingly baked a cheesecake from scratch and one of the guys found it and ate it all
I am pissed off because I have to shave
I grab his mouth and press the remaining cake out of his mouth and smear it on my face to shave with
I wipe it off with napkins
We find a snack dispenser that has reusable plastic bags under it of different sizes to our snacks in, I am trying to do the bat conversion to figure out if I have enough money left over to buy some

There is a large overweight man who comes into the store and pushes over a girl in our group
I start hitting him with pipe pieces on the floor and he is shocked
He claims innocence and was just trying to get her attention
He walks back into the kitchen and asks for hours to work, they put him to work


3/20/20

Cooking school under one chef she is female
We are in blue and red teams
She asks me to make chocolate ice cream with thousand island
I spend time walking around looking for the recipe folder
My friend from my last restaurant job is in the crowd and wants to talk about aliens but I am busy trying to put the recipe together
It ends up looking like a hamburger bun with ice cream in the middle
I ask the chef if they are macaroons
She says no that would be cream on cream
we take a field trip to Tel Aviv to sample traditional food
I am excited because it looks very authentic and the restaurant is filled with locals
We file into booths along the wall
There are mostly females and I am one of the few guys
We look at menus and I order a coconut shrimp appetizer but don't remember ordering my main course
The restaurant seems to be meat-based
After we place our orders we are ushered next door to a warm springs spa where we can relax and get massages and general pampering
It is very relaxing and the water feels great
We are all in our bathing suits
After some time we finish as a group and begin to congregate in front of the restaurant next door for our meal
One guy in the group is trying to complain/make a joke that we should all be in our trousers to relax, but he is wearing a long traditional dress and so am I. He says "everyone is wearing their trousers come on", I reply slyly, "Oh really? Everyone huh?" Sarcastically, people giggle at me and the teacher next to me laughs at my observation that he is not in trousers
We sit in new tables this time that are rectangular heavy wooden tables with wooden chairs all around
There are maybe a dozen such large tables in the hall
Just as people around us are getting their food a very large crowd of maybe 50 Muslim men arrive in the open-ended restaurant all cheering clapping and singing
They go from table to table one at a time lifting every chair and table up to shoulder length while chanting a certain prayer or blessing very loudly
When this happens I notice the women lean backward and throw their heads back and the men lean forward and bow over their table
I want to watch but an obese man at the table next to me grabs my neck/head and holds it down during one of the blessings
When they get to our table the food is already on it but we all stand up and let them lift our chairs and table while we stand by and attempt to sing along with the blessing
Once they finish the whole crowd departs as quickly as they arrived singing and clapping getting quieter as they leave the area
The whole experience was energetic and mystical almost otherworldly
We are now sitting at our table looking at the food which has been sat in front of us. I don't remember what main I ordered but I am sure I don't have the right food, other people's meat looks really good but I think I may only have an appetizer
The dream fades as I look around the table at everyone's entree, wondering if this is family-style or if we are only allowed to eat what we ordered.


3/21/20

At a rodeo wearing a long tan coat
There are many people there
A native american girl keeping giving me weird looks
A guy tries to sell me his run-down jeep cherokee for $400
Jake Neely runs around like a wild beast chasing a cow
I have a sniper rifle


3/22/20

Purple electrical storms
5 tornadoes/dust devil's
Eat waffle house to go
At a school after hours hanging with a teacher

A large america festival with thousands of people closely packed in
Run by a company that sells fake underwater experiences using fish tanks and backdrops

At some underground party/festival and hear a band playing in the basement
I see a guy who looks like weird al there is no one downstairs watching
The band sounds awesome like electro-funk and they are wearing costumes like cybertronic spree
Lasers and light effects and smoke, it is an entrancing show
I watch and groove for a while and a couple of people show up and are super surprised that I didn't come specifically to see the band and don't know their names
They both are wearing cybertronic spree t-shirts
they go back to the band manager and tell them I am living in 2015 and don't know anything but that they need promo people and I might be useful

Something about Bin Laden coming down a river in a boat to see me
I have two books I take with me
We sit in the boat, it feels Egyptian
We talk for a while
Afterward, a guy who works for him tells me he is impressed that I talk to girls every day


3/23/20

Going to Wayne's house for shamanic group
There are many people I don't recognize
A lot of them are young
Gin is with me
We watch a pixar movie about a dragon that changes colours
There is a balloon made of glass in the room
The shamanic practices never start
I gather he doesn't practice anymore
His wife left him and he lives alone

I am trying to get to Wayne's house and driving the car through some shopping mall that is also a restaurant
People are shocked I have a car on the walking path
I ask a woman how to get to a certain address she tells me to follow her
She leads me to another woman who starts to get a table for me
I tell her I asked the other woman how to get to the address on this paper I have
She rolls her eyes and walks away
I decide to use my phone and google it
I was close, his house is through a shop at the end of a corridor

I leave Wayne's and walk down the block
I am in Kettering by a large field
I see Jack with his drum and many others showing up for an event
There are maybe a hundred people there
Jack tells me it's drum day, he asks me to move a garbage bin to the edge of the road so the smell doesn't blow into people while we play
I am amazed there are so many people gathered.
I am suddenly upset no one has masks on and everyone is pretending it is like before with no precautions
I decide to go back to Wayne's to tell him about the drum circle
He has no idea but is surprised by the coincidence
He doesn't want to leave the house

There is a cafe in the mall outside his house with a stage
There are many musicians who gather to make music
I have my guitar with me in its soft case but I don't play
One of the musicians has a rattle that is many hands that clap when you shake it
He has some monologue about how making tools to congratulate yourself stunts progress when you self reinforce without external checks
A larger vehicle drives by that he made with dozens of the same rattles automatically shaking and cheers playing through loudspeakers
It's like a mobile cheering and clapping crowd. But no one is clapping
I am missing my guitar and go around the stage looking for it, I see several cases that are the same as mine but have other equipment in it
I realize I left all my stuff in my car
Someone has my possessions in a felt purse they put aside for me
I jokingly ask if I can keep the bag and they say no
I walk back to my car, a child asks me if I am looking for younger people, I say no I'm leaving now, everyone says bye to me

I'm in a classroom that feels like a mix between an art room and a cafeteria
I look at myself in the mirror and I am a younger blonde girl with odd shapes painted on my face like Bowie
I get into a verbal argument with a table of obese african american girls sitting in front of me
They were making fun of someone close to me and I began questioning them and telling them off
One of them got up and started walking towards me
I mock their actions asking them if they were going to hit me because they disagree with me
I am on a roll and they don't know how to respond because everyone around them is astonished they are being told off by a little girl
A bigger girl who looks trans begins to get an attitude with me, I tell her off just the same
People are on my side because I am standing up to horrible people who are known bullies
She eventually gets fed up and walks away
People are happy for me
I make a comment about something big as she walks away because I notice she is a head taller than everyone else
People go ooooooooh and I feel like I have won the day

*NSFW*

Spoiler for NSFW:

I am at Alyssa's house on the front porch
I buzz the door because I know she's home
She comes to the door but doesn't open it
I hear her moaning through the speaker box
I can hear her pleasuring herself and her little squeaks of joy, the sounds of her body
She rubs herself to climax while I stand at the door
She then slowly opens the door and I see she is completely naked
She looks up to me with a sultry wanting lust drunkenness look in her eye
I confirm she is alone in the house by glancing back
I reach down and run my fingers through her slit gathering some of her juices
I bring my hand to my mouth and taste her while she bites her lip watching me
She tastes like sweet nectar
I step into the house, the door shuts behind me as I feel her naked body against me
The dream ends

3/26/20

Road trip south to Florida w family
Get there and realize Gin isn't with us
They say she's not invited and I get angry and yell
It's a white house kinda run down I think it may be my uncle's second home
We stay on the first floor
I go to the basement to explore
It is dark and cavernous like a dungeon
Cody is with me as we venture from room to room
There is water under the floor
There are tons of red jellyfish looking creatures in the water
I Google them on my phone
I slip into the water once but they don't bother me
Cody helps me up
We go into a larger room that has metal bars all around the windows like a prison and a very large almost statue-like dagger/feather hanging diagonally from the ceiling through the room
The whole room is musky and rank with cobwebs all over and vines hanging from the ceiling
My mother's brother shows up and flips on the light switch to the room
The lights flick on and everything looks normal now, flat white walls and tile floors
I am shocked that it looked so crazy before and wonder what the effect is
I pull out my flashlight on my phone and turn the lights to the room off again and shine it
I see now the effect, the light shines through the thin walls and shows the bars in the other side of the windows and such
The large feather dagger hanging from the middle of the room is gone
I try to describe it and mention I have seen it before, I've been here before

I am with a group of friends in a post-apocalyptic scenario
Many people are migrating at once and there is chaos
Large crowds of people walking down the street congregating at certain waypoints to meet with others
At one of the waypoints I see a girl I used to know, only she looks slightly different
I glance at her name tag and it says Elizabeth though I know her IRL name is Savannah
I say loudly, Elizabeth eh? As I walk out of the crowded room with her to my back
She is with one of her friends and calls out to me when we get outside
I go back to her and we talk
She looks different but still familiar, slightly rougher as if life has been tough for her
She mentions she has a place where we can sleep for the night if we need
My friends are very interested because we are nomadic survivors now and will take anything we can get
It skips to the house where she offered us to stay
We are all in one room and there are three beds in it
The sheets are made but it feels like an old person's house
I realize that people have died in these beds and there are towels on the floor at the end of the beds with fluids on them
There is that stale putrid smell in the air
I ask if it's true and she says yes, the place she works at deals with body removal and she gets to use whatever is leftover
I am immediately bothered by the situation
I cannot sleep in a bed that someone just died in
Someone in the room questions me as to my hangups and I tell them
"The fabric of space-time, the literal three-dimensional space is torn or altered by the transition when someone dies. This place is tainted by death"
The person struggles to listen to me and kind of rolls their eyes at me
I don't care and leave

There is a fragment where I am with a large hispanic family
One of them has started a food truck and is catering a party they are having
Everything is free and laid out like a cookout
People have their fill and there is still plenty of leftovers I pick through
Some 7 layer taco dip
Some chips, some tacos, and a tres leches cake with white icing
It all tastes very good but I don't have any utensils and eat with my hands
The icing goes everywhere

I am on some gameshow with several over thieves and criminals
We all take the same tour bus around town
I gather the theme is something about who can steal the most without getting caught
We are given nothing and no help
But everyone must be secretive and no one really talks to each other
At the store, one guy tries to take a large pallet of rolled quarters but is immediately caught by security
I bend over to help and hand the stack of rolled quarters back to the guard
While doing so I skim two rolls of the top with my fingers without anyone noticing
Sweet I am broke and hungry as hell
We are all walking around a grocery store trying to figure out what to buy to eat
Everyone else is looking for packaged processed food
I go to the fruit isle because it is the cheapest and best nutrients for the buck
I buy some lemons and avocado with my change
I go back to the RV we are staying in and make a pitcher of lemonade and eat the avocado
Someone else was caught trying to steal something
I go back out and attempt again
We are by a casino that has large golden letters on a sign
I take one and wrap it in a towel and barely make it back to the RV
It is then revealed to me that I have been caught and the whole show was secretly being filmed about us, not about what we were told
I manage to escape in a bathrobe with my pitcher of lemonade in my hand
I am with someone else who is older and reminds me of my mentor Doug
We steal an armored RV which belongs to the security following the show
They are not pleased and shoot at us as we drive away
We crash through a gas station and stop for some reason
Doug asks me if we want an assistant
There is a younger asian boy who wants to join our adventure
I am appalled because it is dangerous and I don't think we need to have a child involved with this
He asks the kid if he wants to come and he says yes so we let him on board
We drive away speedily while being shot at by the pursuers
The windows and the car are bulletproof
I find an assault rifle loaded in the back, I cock it, take off the safety and proceed to try to shoot back, all the windows are barely cracked but not open really
As one of them starts to drive up close to us on the back right I stick the nozzle of the gun out the crack and shoot out one of their tires
We are on the highway going very fast and they immediately wreck into the sidewall
We lose our pursuers and continue driving along
I begin searching the RV for any supplies
It seems brand new and not stocked at all
I find a mini-fridge and go through it
Nothing but an empty lunch bag in it
But I pull a cover from the back and discover a boatload of cookie dough of various flavors
I hand some off to Doug and the kid
We munch on cookie dough while driving away to freedom, the dream fades


3/28/20

I am in a bigger white house sleeping in a bed with gin and another couple
They are older and the woman looks kind of washed up
I had seen another couple in the house cleaning that looked just like the other couple and the woman told me it's her sister who is now with her ex. He looks like the other guy but they are not related
I gather we own the house now but they still live there as cleaners
They also have kids who are running around
I am not very amused and find the whole thing rather unprofessional

I am suddenly in another house which is like a small studio
There is a guy with a shaved head and hair on the front of his head only and glasses
He is showing a custom washing machine he built which fills itself with a container of soap and starts itself at a tap, he is proud of it
He leaves and his girlfriend begins to give me the tour/introduction
I am in an Airbnb of sorts but it is very small
It is rustic and in the middle of nowhere in the forest
The bed I will be sleeping in is in the same room as their kitchen/laundry room and she tells me she will be coming into the room to do things but she won't bother me
I am fine with the arrangement because there isn't a lot of space
I venture around the land and it is very green
There is a small stream running parallel to the property and there is bright green moss all around the base of the many trees
I see large spiral snail shells in the moss and amazed by their size

I am suddenly in a post-industrial landscape with a large cathedral-like manor that houses an orphanage or church I am unsure
I was once part of the community but now gather things have changed and I am different
They have a prophecy of a dark one I may be fulfilling
I begin flying around the many rooms in circles high in the air
I am dressed as Santa Claus
I continually shout Merry Christmas as I fly by people
The kids all point and laugh but the adults are cautious and lead them away
I feel several loose spiral shells in my mouth and spit them out to look
My hands and face have gone dark
I am eating a slushy from a paper pack and slow down by an adult, they take the trash from me
They make a comment I am acting like a child now and laugh though most of them still fear me

I have been neglecting to write up my dream journals at length. These are notes from the last month sans narrative.

1/11/20

Hanging out with Korn
Nate doing back up vocals for them
I scream with them in a performance
Upstairs in one of their rooms
Monkey says cool we have enough fans
I say ok in that case you guys suck ass
Why don't you make some good music?
They laugh
They are doing an acoustic set practicing new music in their living room
It is a large room with many mementos
I sit off to the side and listen
The girls are brainstorming what to decorate themselves as
I recommend fairies or elves, they love the idea
There is a fancy marble stair coffee table that has a fancy chess board in the center of the room

1/13/20

Jeremy's truck pulling trash bin
Nate's tequila pond idea with Chris and Andy
Party in the backyard people jump the fence into my neighbor's pool
In the basement of my middle school, there is another shadow school
I attend a guest class with other adults
It is about lucid dreaming, Smile is teaching
There's a list of dream websites I ask him if he used Dreamviews he says no
Park my car at a strip mall and go into a costume store
Everyone wears different costumes
Turns into a sickbay by the entrance
I see Mel teaching different craft classes for kids
She talks to me about the teacher from my middle school
I wander the parking lot at night clicking my key fob trying to find my car, other cars keep beeping instead
I see other cars that are my model but different colors
Eventually, find my car and drive away

1/16/20

Old times video game flea market
I stow away in a minivan with two girls in the back
Aleeya likes me, her friend texts me an offer, and her picture
Ride all the way home with them
Hide from the parents

Their family runs a BBQ Restaurant that is incredibly popular
People line up around the building waiting for them to open
I gather their brisket is world-renowned

I am in downtown Kyoto
Part of a school trip but we have wandered off from the group to explore
Huge skyscrapers all around and fancy shops
Feels like a mall
I am with a friend at first but we get separated
I am dressed in all green/pirate pagan wear
I put on a foam life jacket I find by one of the booths
Look in many stores
Fancy glass store
The woman asks me if I need anything
I smile and say "I have no needs" and continue to browse.
She tells me the clocks are in the back
I am blown away by the detail and variety
I ask my friend if we can just book a single night Airbnb and stay downtown away from our group, he isn't sure

1/20/20

Guy shows me the tomatoes he grew, hands me three
I accidentally eat one and feel bad about it
It tastes good
One of my friends Elijah eats the other one
I only have one left out of the three he was showing me and feel bad because he did not offer me to try them
I am babysitting his kids while he is at work at a church
My shower has drywall over the tub and I am using a smaller section
There are three showers in my bathroom
I am on a video call with Leyanna
I am more buff than IRL

1/21/20

Who is Erwen?

1/22/20

In Spanish class
Smoke some weed and put in eyedrops
Class votes on who's drawing is the best on the board in the back
Everyone votes for Cody's pop can
Everyone knows he's dead
I leave the class without looking
Come back and ask the teacher to show me
We talk and I tell her he was my brother
Start to cry while I talk
The teacher is compassionate
She is younger now

We are now in Bosnia/Romania
My car is in a side lot
It is glistening purple electric in the sun
Another person is telling me how to take care of the paint with a special tool
I get in the car and three black guys get in the back seat as well
I ask them where we are going fellas
We drive down the street and they are content

I am with a girl who is my interest
We kiss occasionally
We are on crowded city streets and walking between cafes
We swim in a pool together, maybe skinny dipping, I have no shame

I am in front of a restaurant
Using a special tool with metal spheres on the end of it to break the glass corners of a structure at the entrance
As one side breaks, it sprays fine glass shards down one side of my face
I gather I am making the entrance into something new
A car with an older man pulls up and watches me work for a few minutes
He is confused
I try to explain to him what I am doing
He shrugs and drives away

1/26/20

Parents decide to go out to dinner with another couple, they are meeting another couple at a restaurant.
I am upset and tell them I disagree with their choice because it isn't safe to be meeting in groups of six yet.
I crawl into the car to express my dismay and they have a daughter of the friends in the backseat. The daughter decides to stay at home with us and so does the father but he quickly disappears somewhere.
It is G myself and her hanging around the house for the night.
It begins storming outside and we notice 2 tornadoes forming in the distance so we all rush in and go to the basement to bunker down and wait it out.
The wind and rain are very loud

In another house
Rundown and flooded in one entrance
The other door has a large hornet hive on the outside of it that buzzes viciously when I touch the door
The home is decrepit and seemingly uninhabited for quite some time
I walk back and forth between the two entrances trying to decide how to get out

I am in another room with several people
There is a young African American boy being violent with myself and others
I warn him to cut it out
He continues so I tackle him to the floor and pull out a shotgun I find on the floor and press the barrel against his cheek
I say now you stop this now or I'm gonna put a huge hole in your floor directly behind your head.
Someone else in the room giggles
He nods his head slowly with wide eyes
I pump the shotgun several times to empty the shells from the barrel
Only 2 or three of them are good cartridges the others seem to be crumpled and bunk

At a certain point, he finds a gun on the floor and starts waving it around jokingly aiming it at me
I scold him and tell him to never aim his gun at anyone, never let the barrel point at another person he doesn't intend on killing.
He moves the barrel to the side and up and down trying out the technique, I nod.

I am back in the house from earlier in the dream, only now I know it to be an Airbnb type setup and the family is away but coming back today.
We have only lived here for a couple of days but I feel like cleaning up thoroughly
Opening the windows and scrubbing counters and doing dishes I realize the house was much dirtier when I started than the mess we made
Check out is 3 pm and it is almost 4 o'clock and the family gets home while I am cleaning
For some reason, I have a large pot of water on to boil for mac n cheese
I almost throw away a series of canisters like garden pots or trash cans that are all stacked together
The owner tells me they are "odds and ends" I gather this is a hoarding family and may not take to my cleaning house that well. Oh well, the kitchen is clean and the fresh air is starting to clear the space.

1/27/20

Driving from the passenger seat
Keep changing seats, driving from the backseat
A cop turns around and follows me into the neighborhood

I attend church, Will Smith gives me a turban, Shaq shows me how to put it on
Boys and girls are separated
We celebrate afterward and I learn Dave Chappelle was there too

Beginning of a middle school Sunday school class, I joke they have to audition
People go along with it we all laugh

1/31/20

Get hooked by a helicopter fishing line
One large hook goes through my right foot
The other is in my right hand
They land and still pull me along
My toes and top of my foot have been mauled and gory
My knee and leg are torn up too
It doesn't hurt but I gather I am in shock

I am driving someone's white truck back to the spa
I select quick travel and the truck appears across the street from the spa and I am standing inside suddenly
Nothing looks recognizable
There are dozens of employees just standing around
Several clinic-based modalities have been added and I gather there are several doctors working for her now
It is more like a doctor's office than a relaxing spa
Mel is kind and tells me to have a look around
One of her eyes is all red
There are many new walls and walkways I have no idea how to get around.
The float section of the spa has been dumbed down and all the old murals have been painted over
As I walk back I try to walk through a room that has people laying on cots/hospital beds
A doctor across the room talking to another doctor raises his hand to me and shakes his head as if to gesture not to come this way
I try to go around but all other walkways lead to this room
I take the long way around and exit the spa
I am in a mall now and the spa has an entrance with many signs above it
So many partnerships it isn't even recognizable as a float spa
I am sad

2/02/20

In a big church service
Everyone had taken off their shoes
It ends with a congregation in the back wanting to sing a long traditional song
The pastor wants everyone to sing it
The smaller congregation is from an older church and wanted to sing it for everyone else
Everyone tries to sing it at once and it sounds horrid
An older man in the group at the back is pointing at me
I cannot keep my balance
Everyone else is turned around watching them
I am standing in front of everyone
The pastor has everyone restart the song but has a favorite kid begin the lyrics
They are on an overhead projector at the front of the room
It has like 5 verses

2/03/20

Boxing fight hug punching
Food festival giveaway large tent with a band
Tryst with Em, put up a tarp from rain
They cut people's hair
Nighttime kings island run
Bathroom with ancient symbols
I have seen the real thing
Shoot purple energy from my hand
I am magic and elusive
The invisible one is someone else and threatens our family

2/04/20

I am in Hank Greens classroom talking to him
Just happen to be there
We shake hands he's happy that I'm a fan

We are in a food garden
Outdoor pavilion, many vines, and varieties
I eat part of a huge avocado
The seed is soft and makes me sick and woosy

A cult wears blue and white
They are super defensive
I am wearing all blue and questioning them
I see my old guitar teacher in the leader's inner circle
I try to introduce myself but they scoff in metaphor and riddles
I don't understand a word they are saying to me
The leader looks like Kenneth Copeland
We have a 1 on 1 exchange
He has glowy red night time eyes
He talks for a few minutes and everything segues to much later, we have all been put in a trance
The leader is deposed somehow
We party at his end playing musical instruments like a bluegrass jam band
I play a stand-up bass on its side
We are in a theatre

We witness a boat coming down the snowy icy street very quickly and doesn't see the water's edge
As he approaches the intersection his boat plunges under the water by the angle he was turning and he goes under the ice
I gather this is a problem and he might need help
I see his boat barely surface and his body is limp
I jump in the fridged icy water and swim towards him
He's in bad shape, I pick him up and get him to the shore, he's not just knocked out, his body is pretty messed up
His eye is all red
His limbs are eviscerated and barely holding together
I pull out my phone and begin to dial 911
I gather he's not going to make it
He starts to come to
I tell him he's going to be ok
Just relax, just relax, you're ok man, don't worry you're going to be alright
I am deeply worried he will realize how bad it is and freak out in his final moments
The more I look at him the worse it is
In the final second, he realizes how messed up he is, his eyes go wide, and then still
It is over

2/07/20

Meditating at the bottom of a pool
Slow-motion choreography fight
Android woman all metal
Dad's backseat with spiders
Victor's party house, escape from police
The horn says $500!
Ben wears cyber goth BDSM wear to impress a young blonde
There are different tribes of post-apocalyptic gear wearing folk

2/08/20

In theatre to watch show laying on the floor in front of seats, I have a ticket
Argue with people in front who are mad I'm not in the right place
Use light to read the ticket and find the right seat
I sit in the very back
There is a massive explosion elsewhere while I'm in the theatre
I feel shockwave

On phone with a Russian girl, I am undercover
Sitting on a pergola next to the house smoking a cig, it is disgusting
Rick rolls up in a wrecked green car held together by duct tape
The car rolls over when parked wrong on a wooden grass divider I help him escape

Stalked by an ancient mummy
In a hospital, I press the "feeling down" button in the elevator
Makes an appointment with someone
I have a badge
They don't let me in the employee's area
Another nurse talks to me
I vent some and describe being stalked
They don't believe me
Christopher Eccleston is with me

I am in Jamaica
With a disabled family
Most of them are in wheelchairs/hick like
They tell me it costs 4k a month to live there
It is a large family celebration
They eat chicken tenders, sliders, and cheap pan pizzas
One of the siblings is a sentient hand in a jar
I want to find Mokko
I have no money or supplies, just my clothes
They point me down the road

I walk by myself for a while
There is a large music festival going on by the path
Some white girls notice me but I keep walking
I see Matthew walking by in a crowd, I call to him
He is somewhat annoyed for me to meet him
He tells me he is doing a collab with ML7
His hair is a large purple fro
I ask if he can show me the way to Mokko
He agrees and we walk down the path
Many run-down communities and farm places
It starts to rain hard and it is night
There are 4-5 feet of water we are traveling through
They are walking on bundles of straw that are standing up in a field
We are all soaked
Matthew goes ahead and I lose him
The friend is not ML7 but we walk together
He is short white and wearing black-rimmed glasses
He tells me ML7 is overrated and only good at Anna, we laugh together

We walk into a large tree community
Carved pathways and many rooms people/families are living in
I lose the friend
I am by myself for a while
I befriend a jamaica guy
We talk about Jamaica
I am passionate and he can see
I have no money so the panhandlers leave me alone
We see a couple of girls dressed as fairies
One tries to do magic and makes a small boy levitate
My guide climbs behind him to the second floor and reveals the kid was on a string
It was a sham to get money out of tourists
I have no money or possessions
The Jamaican guy tells me he can see a part of jamaica inside of me
Something is here for me to find

12/27/20

I am in a very crowded gymnasium like standing room only with tons of people all around. Everyone is having fun and there is water spraying everywhere. Even though it is super crowded it's still really happy and the mood is elevated. I joke that this ride is basically just a line, cause everyone is just waiting to get past everyone else while walking around in the gymnasium. I start to notice everyone has different costumes on.

As I am walking there is someone close to me who says that I have to leave the crowd and go to the edges, as the crowd is starting to thin out. She pulls at my overalls as if to mention my costume didn't win. I now notice there are groups of people in matching costumes all standing in circles together in the center of the room. They are doing the same dance, but each circle is different and they overlap like a venn diagram. This all feels like a well rehearsed ritual. Everyone seems to know what is going on besides me. I am enamoured by the choreography of it all. There is an Indian guy standing next to me who seems to know what is up, so I ask him if he knows the name of what's going on.

He tells me this is called the 'Sitar Aaahg Sango Oood'. I repeat it several times as I have trouble hearing him say it repeatedly. He tells me of it's ancient history as a ritual. It is performed as an act of communal purification and bonding. Everyone here seems to know exactly what is happening but I am still kind of clueless. I am beside myself, I talk to the indian guy for a while standing in the crowd watching people dance in the center of the room in unison. At the end of everything about a third of the crowd is nude just walking around going our different directions. No one seems to really be paying attention to each other. So I am nude as well and walk through the gymnasium to the exit/towards the showers to clean off.

It's the next day and I am still blown away by what I experienced the night before. But I have missing time between then and now and realize I don't know how I got home, and my car is missing. I remember the indian guy telling me about a restaurant he goes to so I venture out and take someone's minivan to get there.

It is a Thai restaurant in the upstairs of some small strip mall. It's quaint with just a few tables and counter sitting. Standard florescent tile lights in the ceiling and large windows with tan blinds at the end of the room. I see J there and tell him about my night and what I experienced. That I thought I was dreaming but now it seems so real, cause my car is now gone and I don't know how I got home. He is very interested to hear about the ritual and so is the smaller older thai lady who works there. I tell them the name the indian man told me and both of their eyes light up. They know this ritual very well, and we're impressed I was able to witness it.

While sitting at the counter top I realize J now works at this restaurant, he is preparing tea and doing some general busy work while I talk to him. I mention how nice that would be and how I would love to work at a Thai restaurant. The older lady notices my comment but doesn't say anything to me about a job. At a certain point I have to tell the story of the night before over and over again as new people show up and are interested in my situation. While talking I keep mentioning how I thought it was a dream, so I nosepinch and realize I am still dreaming, but it still feels so real so I continue to go along with it.

A man I see who looks like Hank from king of the hill, he works next door and brings over a bowl of special sauce he has made for the thai lady. It is a mango ghost pepper sauce or something similar. It looks like sweet and sour sauce with minced garlic and chilis in it. I mention it would probably be really good on wings. I accidentally spill some of it while moving one of my plates to the back of the counter. I tell my story again and he asks me if I have a small black car.
I say yes and he informs me he saw a black car crashed into the river on his way into work this morning. I am flabbergasted. I realize I haven't checked the parking lot of this place which is in the basement level of a parking garage beneath us. I go down there and see a car that looks like my car but it is the wrong colour.

Directly next to it is my car, with all the same junk in it as my real car. I am incredibly relieved. I realize I have two cars here now and wonder how I will get both of them back. So I drive the minivan home and come back to get my car. Then I realize I do not have my car keys on me. The thai lady at the restaurant tells me they should be hanging somewhere over here, and points to a corner where their employees put personal items. Without being too invasive I attempt to move papers around and others keys looking for my own. I don't recall ever finding them.


A fragment about being in one of my clients homes which is now kind of like an all white vogue apartment. They are on vacation and have tasked me to house sit for them. I know they are coming home soon. A girl called A I used to know is also there. She is manipulative and thoughtless with other people's possessions. She invites a few people over and I am not pleased at all because it isn't her home to begin with. They make a small mess and everyone leaves.

She cleans the apartment thoroughly and it looks sparkling again. I am relieved because I know that my client is coming home soon. She then invites 10 people over since it is clean now and they completely trash the place again. The dogs have completely soiled the white floor and there is food and crumbs everywhere. I am beyond livid with her decision. The dream fades as she attempts to clean the apartment once more.

12/23/20

I am with K and the doctor is also there. She is barefoot wearing a flowing black dress and her long wavy dark brown hair hangs in front of one of her eyes and lays softly on her shoulders. We are in a large green field with scattered flowers and tall trees lining either side like a narrow pasture. We notice alligators of varying sizes on the sides of some ditches coming up from different places. People are scared and so is K. The doctor and I are excited and treating it jokingly like an adventure. I am more curious than concerned however K is shocked by our nonchalants.

I hold K's hand while the doctor deals with some of the alligators in a passive way. She is comforted but still cautious of the gators. The doctor is in his original metal tube TARDIS. He fades away leaving us on the edge of the field by a set of very large wooden doors. People are leaving but there is still a large gator by the door. I assure her the doctor will be back because he always comes back. I hold a metal tube in my other hand while walking her to the door.

I invite K to come with us. She asks us if it is always like this. I tell her this is a typical Tuesday. She is flabbergasted by the excitement and declines more adventure. I am surprised by her fear but understand her cautiousness. The dream ends as we walk hand in hand through the large metal studded wooden gateway.


I am in my basement with a friend. I walk out front and notice a worker in a work van sitting right in front of my car. There are random graphics on the side of the white van I gather a neighbor has called them for some duty like copying keys. My friend has left my godson's backpack on the sidewalk next to my car. As I walk out there I notice some taller skinny girl in an all jean skirt walking in front of the house on her phone.

She doesn't seem to notice me. I mention to my friend we shouldn't leave the backpack on the sidewalk as there might be valuables in it, and would be super easy for someone to just walk off with it. Walking to my car which is bumper to bumper with the work van being worked on I notice my car doors are open. The girl walking by just casually gets in my car without saying anything and starts going through it picking things up like she owns the place. We are both taken aback this is happening and I give a curious yet amused stare towards the girl while standing feet away. The girl doesn't realize I own the car.

After talking to the worker of the van for a few seconds, I ask the girl 'how are you doing?' She says 'Great, just tryna figure out who owns this fine whip!' I now notice she is somewhat goth/punk looking, pale freckled skin and short dark hair with coloured highlights and not bad looking either. I am still shocked she was rummaging through my car. I tell her 'This is my car, just what do you think you are doing in there?' She just shrugs and says 'looking for stuff'

Somehow it transitions and we're now in my basement all together. My friend is there on my bed and the girl is sitting on the futon with her knees to the side. We are casually talking and I am somewhat interrogating her. Still trying to figure out what she was doing in my car. She is attempting to comfort me by telling me that I am alright and shouldn't worry. She slyly is giggling and taking pictures of me with her cell phone while I am talking to her. I call her out for it and it's no big deal. I now notice one of her other friends is on the couch across the room just watching the whole thing. He also looks like a taller goth kid with long black bangs. As we are talking I notice he now has a girlfriend with him who is laying on him cuddling while we all talk. I start to notice that her friends are starting to just appear in my room and I am not even sure if I trust her yet. She takes my headphones out of her bag and throws them at me. I say 'See! Was that so hard? How can you expect me to trust you or your friends if I don't even know what you've taken from me!'

Suddenly another friend barges into the basement from the garage door in a hurry. He is portly, red-faced with some random black band t-shirt and a stuffed backpack on. He says quick things to the friends and immediately goes into my bathroom. I am through with this. I tell everyone 'Alright! Get out, I don't know any of you and I have a bad feeling I am being taken advantage of here!' The girl seems cute and I apologise to her but she has to see how this is wrong. The portly guy comes out of the bathroom and just walks back outside and leaves through the garage. I wonder if he has taken from my food pantry in the garage.

When I look outside to find him I notice there is now white marker written/drawn all over my black car. Random words and symbols cover every square inch of my black paint like some teenagers binder. The girl mentions she has the same car as I do and I tell her she is lying. The portly guy is no where to be seen. When the friend and the girlfriend get up to leave the girlfriend is down low at first and I almost pet her like a dog. Laughing at my sudden lapse in logical judgement. I am now unsure of their genders as they are referring to each other as her. I let the girl use the bathroom before leaving and tell her maybe I'll see her around sometime but it will take some time for me to forgive her intrusion and theft.


There is a fragment of me driving my car down the street. It is night and cold and snowy. My car hasn't been started for a while so I barely get it cranked and gather the engine is trying to die so I just let it idle while I coast down the street hoping it will catch up and rev to life. My windshield is completely covered in frost save a small gap in the bottom left I can barely see through. It also feels like my seat is too far reclined and I am having trouble controlling the car (most of my driving in dreams is either from the passenger seat or the back seat and usually stressful). I see shadows and yellow flashing lights on one side of the window while it is still heavily obfuscated by the frost. I know there are cars parked on either side of the road in my neighborhood and attempt my best to keep the car centered without hitting any of the cars on the sides. After a time I flick on the defrost and turn the air on full blast, the window clears up within seconds and I see I have kept the car in the center with no accidents so I just continue to drive around the block warming up my engine.


I have a fragment of being stuck in a dock/asian market place. There are many dim lit rooms with prepared food and second hand goods on tables for sale.
Everyone seems like a prisoner/drowsy to their life. Everyone looks down and is just slowly going about their business. I am moving quickly from room to room, it feels like a flea market inside an old fashioned run down corporate campus. It starts to feel partially post-apocalyptic even. I make it outside and somehow fly up over the roofs of the building.

This opens up into a massive expanse of never-ending run down weathered corporate buildings, none are over two stories tall. It is reminiscent of those shack slum villages you see in Brazil or India, buildings showing the gradient of the hills they are built upon. Only every building is mossy, run down, and soiled with algae on the sides. The dream fades as I look down over the watery docks I am hovering over.

12/22/20

I am in some shower house E is there, long hallway with multiple showers in it. Just about to get in one when the whole house jolts to the side. There are electric pulses running through the walls and the ceiling I gather the house has been hit by lightning it must be storming outside. We go outside and it is storming hard. We try to duck and I warn other people coming to the house to watch out for the lightning.

I am with my brother J. I gather we are in some kind of highschool/middle school combo, both have girlfriends our ages who are our companions. We venture around the school for a while then begin being chased by the security for some reason. I understand there is a terminator type character coming after us. We leave the property in different vehicles. He has a big blue van I end up driving later on. I have multiple sets of keys in my pocket. My companion is with me.

We go to a restaurant and know that we are wanted by the law. The other people in the restaurant are older folks who don't know who we are. We get a table and sit down to eat. After some time people start to become suspicious of us, there is a tv which is broadcasting our pictures and mentioning that we are being pursued.

I now have the blue van my brother was driving and he is no where to be seen. It is my companion and myself we narrowly escape as I fumble for the right set of keys to get the older van to start. It has blue carpet inside.

We are back at the school. It must be lunchtime so I stand in one of the lines to get food. There are only drinks at this line in a cooler on the ground. I keep pulling bottles out which have been drunk out of. I want chocolate milk and pull out a milk shake base which is melted in some kind of container. I don't have any money and gather everything here costs something. The lady at the register just gives me a drink after I pull a small carton of chocolate milk out. I walk around more and notice many different lines for people to get food but they are all different types of desserts. Like chocolate pies and candies and brownies and everything sugary. I ask someone if there is any actual food here and they seem surprised none of the lines have food ready. They tell someone else that we're down to chocolates and they need to prepare more. I find a line in a back room that has some old pizza on it. After I get a couple pieces and begin walking back to my table I notice more food starting to get brought out like dumplings and tacos of sorts. I shrug it off and continue back to my table.

Towards the end the whole thing feels like it has been a movie production of a sorts. Everyone is happy that the shooting has ended and just hanging around with that satisfied completed feeling. I see some kids who I thought were in middle school and I ask them what grade they are actually in, they say fifth and I am surprised the production used actual correct aged kids for their roles as middle schoolers. We are all walking in a line beside the building in a field back to the main area.

I am with my companion again and she is happy to be with me. As we are leaving the lot she shows her ID to the guard. He stands there looking at the ID suspiciously for a few seconds. Looking back to her and the ID, I ask him if he wants to take a picture and start to pull off. He reluctantly tosses the ID back towards our open window and I catch it with one hand. We pull off and start driving away, she tells me she is happy that I'm here, we hold hands while I have one hand on the steering wheel and the dream fades as we pull out to the main street.

12/20/20

Lucid fragments

I am laying in bed and G pops her head around the corner and asks me if we have a t-shirt with the word NASA on it. Cause someone is here who wants it back. I know immediately this is a dream and tell her no one is here because I am dreaming. I nosepinch and affirm it.

Several times I start to wake up and partially open my eyes to see my bedroom and re-enter the dream with a nosepinch.

One of the times I pop back into a bedroom which is larger than my own and I gather I am in a large house. There is a girl in the room who looks like Amanda Seyfried who is fawning for me. I understand I am not supposed to be there and her father is in the house looking for me. So I wander through some rooms and find myself in a large walk-in closet, the dream starts to collapse several times so I rub my hands together to bring it back. I am in the closet so I reach out to feel the clothes hanging up to get a tactile sensation making the dream more anchored. I notice there is a makeup vanity set up in the corner of the dark walk in closet. She slips in the closet and kisses me a few times as her father draws nearer, she then walks out to distract him while I hide in the large dark closet.

Starting to wake up again I nosepinch and re-enter another dream. I am in my bedroom again and there are 2 random people in the room. I know this isn't real because I'm quarantined and don't have company. They disappear and I sit up to start talking to the dream. I say 'I am aware I am dreaming', I nosepinch again and the dream gets clearer. Everything is very bright crisp and the layout to my room is slightly different than IWL. I say out loud 'I know I am dreaming right now, I am listening, show me what I need to see' I look around and partially notice a couple attachable lamps/mini electric devices hanging from my bed frame. I say again, 'I am listening, show me' and suddenly the two devices light up with life and begin buzzing around my head like small single propeller drones. One of them hovers inches from my face looking directly at me. I am cautious in the first instant but immediately calm myself acknowledging this is the dream communicating with me.

It is a white plastic device which has a rounded cone end like the tip of a rocket and buzzing propeller blades which keep it aloft. I calmly watch it for a few seconds while the second one buzzes around to the right of me. I say 'Hello, show me what I need to know' it hovers bouncing inches from my face for almost 30 seconds with no indication of changing. I repeat again, 'I am watching, show me' I feel the dream start to collapse but maintain the awareness by feeling the sheets in my hands without changing my vision. It flies over to the second one on the right of me. I look down my bed and see the two of them circling each other like small bats in flight. They are pointing towards my stack of books at the foot of my bed, flying towards them then away in a "Look here" type manner. The dream fades and I awake in my dark bedroom.

Note: there are ~50 books stacked against my bookcase at the foot of my bed from a library sale last year, perhaps my answer is in here?

12/14/20

I am riding a bike w Matt stone through thick fog. There are two bike lanes on either side of a road/runway we are riding down. There are thick trees lining both sides, perhaps pines. The fog is thick and I can only see ~fifty feet ahead. I gather we are on the border of North Korea. We have permission to ride here but are told to stay on the right side. Matt stone rides on the left path defiantly. As we come up a hill he jumps over to the left quickly in case anyone is just beyond the hill and sees us.
As we continue down the road we ride through several abandoned stations. Like gas stations that seem run down and emptied.

We come across an abandoned air force base. There is broken glass and spray paint everywhere it feels like it has been well traveled. We ride our bikes through the center of the building and through doorways looking at the different rooms. One of the rooms looks like a commissary or small cafe. We stop and begin to walk around checking out the closets and find a stairway.

The stairs go several stories underground. Matt stone becomes my friend B. Walking through the basement it feels like a fallout shelter that is still super run down. It feels nuclear in nature. We walk into one of the rooms and there is a very large korean man sitting in a brown folding chair with his back to us. He has on a stretched white wife beater. We casually walk up to him and he isn't really surprised to see us. I gather people come here often as tourists just checking out abandoned places.
B starts talking to him in broken english. He responds with single words but his English sounds good. So I ask him how he is doing. He responds just fine thank you.
B gives me a wtf look because I assumed he could speak good English and he did, B is naturally patronizing.

He explains that this is his job to maintain the station down here in case anything catastrophic occurs. He has a tiny grey computer with a green screen sitting on the floor. It is his only communication with the outside world minus people who stop by occasionally to check out the base. I suddenly remember seeing this place before and especially him. I remember reading a Vice article about this place where he was interviewed and had his picture taken. I tell him I recognize him and I saw pictures of this place before. He abashedly agrees like I am sure he has done many times before to others who had ventured this way. I remember the term for this type of occupancy and Google the words 'Planned reoccupance'? And find studies describing the act of having one person live deep underground to man nuclear codes in case of a worldwide emergency. It seems like a thankless job but free room and board.

We walk around some more checking out the basement, we know we cannot take pictures because we don't have permission from the government and know we will be searched before leaving the country. I make as many mental notes about what I am seeing as possible. There is a stack of different types of missiles that sort of resemble tall gas canisters leaning against each other in a corner. There are short fake windows high up on the walls to emulate natural light. The downstairs feels like a wet basement but it is slightly better kept than the upstairs which has plenty of broken glass and upturned furniture.

When we come back upstairs we are suddenly outside and there is another man there we are now talking to. We describe what we saw and I gather he is another reporter of sorts. He tells us he saw a body down there once and shows us the picture, I gather this is something to do with the base research. He mentions how his picture was in full sunlight so the face was illuminated. While we are talking I see my mentor Doug walking up the stairs coming towards us. He is glad to see us. I am glad to see him as well and move to hug him. He talks about his travels and checking out this place was on his list too. He is surprised we came without him.

I am in a car with my parents. We are driving in Florida and they want to go to the beach. They have a specific place they park when they want to go to the beach which is under some stilt houses that are all joined together. I am amused and ask them if they always park here, they say yes it's always open.

While pulling in there is a younger woman with sunglasses sitting by the entrance who looks like she is working the lot. My dad asks her a question about the beach being open and she gives a snotty college girl look. My mom asks if she is working or not. She says she doesn't work here. But she does mention the beach likely won't be open very long because of the storm that is blowing in from the gulf, (we are on the east coast).

I tell my parents I can check my phone to see what the wind currents are doing. I see that there was just a hurricane here but it was traveling away to the east away from shore, the precipitation is cleared for us but then notice what looks like a front forming on the west coast blanketing across the state towards where we are. I look up and now notice it seems overcast but there are still plenty of people on the beach.

I am in a large white room that seems like a futuristic shopping mall. There is a lady is upset her toddler/child has become a life-sized doll. I understand that the doll is a plant by some malicious force. I also notice it is a bomb and rush everyone else away from the area. She doesn't believe me and stands by herself when it goes off in her arms. It is an energy weapon and she vaporizes on the spot.

I am with Karl Urban as we attempt to move through the mall looking for answers, he is incredibly pissed off and determined.
We are now in a music store. I wear a certain pair of headphones which have orange rims around the ears. Before we leave the owner of the shop offers to give me another pair of headphones free of charge. He puts them on my head and the most amazing classical synth wave music is playing. I am overcome with emotion and cry at the thought of our mission.

I take them off and walk rushedly away leading my crew behind me so they cannot see my tears. It is known to me one of our crew who looks like Dwayne Johnson wants to exterminate the entire planet the enemy lives on. They are a sentient robot race I gather. While venturing through the mall I find myself in a stairwell which seems to have a booth set up with counters on one side, everything is still white. There is a girl there I gather she is an artificial person. She is brunette with dark rimmed glasses and an hourglass figure. I am sitting on the counter with my legs open as she stands between them. We are both nude and I notice she feels my legs rubbing on her sides, she looks at me closely and smiles. We begin kissing. Only I can tell this is her first time and she doesn't quite grasp the concept, but the emotion emanating from her is authentic. There are small bubbles in her mouth that I am wiping off of my mouth. I now understand the artificial people are struggling to understand humanity but they mean us no harm. I must stop my friend from wiping out their whole planet.

He is in a darker all white room with many other people. He is in the process of convincing everyone the validity of taking out the enemy by destroying their planet.
I have recruited a couple of my friends to my cause to stop him. I gather we need to create a makeshift guitar with cardboard and strings we find around the shop. It doesn't sound too good. I tell the guys we need to find a wire like a thin string to get it to sound right. Dwayne doesn't want us to succeed.

He finds a small pair of scissors and attempts to cut our stings to the guitar nulling our plan. I stand up and begin some grand monologue explaining how the artificial people have been misunderstood and they are not our enemy and he wants to destroy their entire planet, it's not right.
There is no way complete genocide is the answer to our problems. We need to communicate with them to find a compromise and learn to live together.
Dwayne is irate with me but just stands by listening to me while I win over the crowd.

12/11/20

I am with R and E, I gather we are going to a small restaurant to work some big event. Somehow I am in possession of a live crab for some reason. I put it in the trunk of the car we drove over in.
We go into the restaurant we are taking it over to cater a wedding I think. I am unsure if I am cooking or serving. The cooks there are unsure if they are working our event or not.

I start to help set up tables and chairs in the typical bustle of before event catering.
The band is setting up on the stage, I notice a black and white fender that looks pretty nice. I pretend to play the air guitar, it appears on me and I am holding it playing it suddenly. I am embarrassed that I didn't ask to play it first. The guitar belongs to one of the ladies getting married as they are walking onto the stage together. I quickly put the guitar back and apologise, going about my work.

I now notice this is going to be a lesbian wedding, they are both older ~mid forties maybe, shorter rounder build and kind of messy reddish hair. They seem kind and non elitist, but they still treat me like the help.
All the guests are there and I notice kind of worriedly that no one is wearing masks. I am unsure of my duties or even if I want to stay here.

So I sit down at a table with other people and order a glass of wine. There is a younger kid next to me who orders wine as well. I am suspicious but the waiter serves him anyway, whatever, their funeral. I gather this is a somewhat ritzy crowd and everyone is used to getting their way.

I eventually end up at the mother of the brides table. She is older and white haired, she almost reminds me of Betty White. She definitely has a charming smile and is very joyful for the occasion. She seems to have taken a strong interest in me, I can tell she likes me, perhaps I remind her of someone from her past. She asks me if I am a time traveler. I say yes, but I can only travel in one direction. She laughs uncontrollably dipping her head towards the table. The other workers seem to be jealous I am now part of the party. The dream fades as we continue our conversation.

I see a giant Pringles can on its side it feels like a float, it is floating like a balloon it is mostly white. It reminds me of a falcon 9 booster on its side only it's lighter than air.
I put it on like a hat and ride a tricycle like scooter around through crowds and lines of people. Maneuvering my way through buildings that almost remind me of a 90's pizza place. Everyone laughs/ gets bonked by the length of it as I pass them.
I try to cross traffic through a highway and almost get hit by cars coming towards me.

12/8/20

Walking around outside a Walmart I think, I keep finding folded up money on the ground. Only ones and fives but they are all folded different ways. Some of them aren't even full bills

Hanging out with Ninja and a couple of his friends in a room. They are being kind but one of them is still kind of shady so I keep an eye on him. At one point he comes back from upstairs and tells me my dad gave him this pen and hands it to me. I doubt him because the pen is important to me and there is no way my dad gave it to him. I call him out for it and ninja is embarrassed his friend is being shady.

Ninjas brother now is being really nice and shows me a bunch of gifts he got for me and my family. They are like Valentine's gift baskets with chocolate and various things in them. It now becomes combined with minecraft somehow and he tells me when I activate a certain point it will build a house for me on top of where we are. I am flabbergasted and very grateful I gather this thing was very important and it's very kind of him to spend so much money on me and my family. Ninja is also surprised.

The friend is gone and it's just him and his brother now they are both drinking and rather drunk. Ninja warns me we need to look out for his brother cause he is somewhat suicidal. We're upstairs and his brother is being sloppy drunk and they are goofing around each other. The brother wants to dive down the stairs cause he thinks it will be funny. We both say no and tell him not to cause it is dangerous and he could seriously hurt himself. We get him to stop but he's still being sloppy drunk.
We are outside now and the brother is laying down next to ninja, they are laughing about something so we stop laying attention to him for just a minute. He picks up a small firecracker looking object and puts it on his forehead. He says goodbye to us and lights the fuse. It is a thermite flare and immediately burns bright and downward with great heat and turns his head to ash. We are both taken aback and cannot believe this just happened. Ninja is in disbelief and quite emotional. I try to comfort him but am still in shock about the occurrence.

I use the little money I have left to buy a tracksuit. Like under armour tops and bottoms. It is cold out so I have a hat and a woven looking balaklava on. I am lining up with tons of other students for a track meet. I am still pretty upset about my friend but feel kind of numb about it, my parents keep trying to comfort me but I act apathetic. Mom tells me she is sorry I had to spend my money on a running outfit. I shrug. We are now lining up with other students who are stretching and getting ready for the meet. I feel like this is my first time running but still feel very capable to perform well. I acknowledge I'm not in the best shape and may not have the endurance but still feel like I may place. I see other people running and competing, I am unsure what event I will be in. I tell someone I've never been in track before (not true IWL) I see a couple kids practicing their baton pass. I decide there's no way I'm running more than 400m without dying. I wake up while talking to my dad who somehow jumped over a chair.

12/7/20

Kostas the Grecian baker is showing off a pumpkin plant growing on the wall of his bakery, talking about keeping the roots on the wall because it is so beautiful. I think he wants to harvest the blossoms to cook. I agree whole heartily and take some video for him.

I am walking down a hallway in a school going to class, all other classes have already begun. No one minds that I am late to the room.
I sit down at an open desk with my backpack. Everyone is already going over a test or homework.
When I sit down the desk is small and I fall backwards with the desk attached to me doing a roll, everyone kind of laughs but nothing is too disrupted.
I realize I am 32 and have been out of school for quite a while. I shout 'hey everyone! This is a dream!'
They cheer and start to get up, the teacher looks defeated. I say out loud that this should be obvious because I am older and have been out of highschool for over a decade, so this is definitely a dream.
I tell the whole class to pinch their nose and breathe to prove they are dreaming. Some are confused, some do it. I do it together with them and prove that I am on fact dreaming. It's a great feeling.
I leave the classroom, there is a group of students standing in the doorway blocking my way. I ask them if this is a door, because it definitely looks like a door. And one by one they move out of my way begrudgingly. The dream destabilizes multiple times in the hallway so I drop to the floor and feel the cool tile with my hands to re-stabilize the dream the hallway comes back into clarity and I begin walking again.
This happens several times in the dream I always drop down and feel the ground or rub my hands as I feel the dream start to collapse and with some focus it rematerializes around me.
While outside I fly around with ease, not as much effort as I remember it taking. I have a sort of iron man pose.
The school is now a 1800's military academy and I see rows of students/soldiers carrying bayonets.
They are scared of me, one of them throws their bayonet and almost hits me as I fly over. I fly higher into the air and over the pond. It's an old campus with a large pond in the middle and many older trees like southern live oaks.
The dream starts to crash again so I land and feel the grass through my fingers,I pay attention to the sounds of the water and the street nearby. The scene comes back but the soldiers are gone. There are creatures now moving faster than vision almost.
I reach out my hands and control one that has gone by me and is almost on the other side of the water.
I intend to control its movement and wind it back like a toy. I see it's movement slow. It is like an animated toyish looking trex that belongs on a playground spring but it is moving around very fast, it moves backwards and forwards and I am content with my control so I let it go.

I tell someone close to me that I am dreaming and they tell me to come with them, we all get in a car and they tell me I have to meet Theodore Roosevelt, they tell me that I'm gonna love Teddy.
He is showing me his collection of cars, one of them looks like a pre-model T but it's combined with a wooden boat. Without saying anything I help him take it down off a rack and fold the wheels down to drive. I complement the antiquity of the collection and tell him the oldest one is my favorite, Teddy is much more informal than I am expecting as he is wearing swim shorts and a safari hard hat. His mustache is large and pointy.
We go into an army bunker with other officers and the dream starts to collapse again. I drop down and feel the cool floor, then the windowsill and start to take in all the details and senses. The dream comes back but the men are gone. There is a redhead now who looks similar to Lucile ball. She is sitting on the edge of a desk in an all khaki military dress.
She is pleased to meet me, I ask if it's really her and she nods. I am so pleased to see her again. I wrap my arms around her lower half and just embrace her. I tell someone else in the room that this is the Prime Matriarch. She is my guide, I have been looking for her for literally months. It is an immense relief to be finally close to her so I just breathe it in for a few minutes.
There are several props and maps around the room she begins trying to show me things while explaining, I don't grasp the meaning of anything she says but the warmth of her presence is comforting.
The dream destabilizes again and I rub my hands together quickly and feel the walls of the barracks.
I hear talking and can feel sensations of the walls but my vision hasn't returned yet. I imagine where I just was and intend to step back into the barracks.

I am now with a couple old friends in their apartment. They show me a collectable figurine they have from one of the Batman cartoons. He undoes the box in a meticulous way to show me the figure inside and puts it all back before going into the other room.
The box falls forward and I grab it to put back on the shelf. Everything has become shifted in the box and I attempt to put it right. But nothing fits the way it was. I try to fold the box back up the correct way and am unsuccessful, I know they will be displeased that I messed up their collectable. They are leaving to go get ice cream across the street I tell them to wait for me while I struggle with the box
I finally give up and admit defeat, I have the thought that they will think I was trying to play with the toy rather than admire the collectable. They go ahead of me to the ice cream place anyway.

I am now in a 50's style diner, it's packed with classmates and people I used to know, they are all at different tables having their own conversations. I gather that I am still dreaming but don't intend to change anything.
I see the girl with blue hair and I tug on it as I walk by her but don't say anything. She follows me around so I talk to her in passing, then a girl I used to date runs up to me like an excited puppy and tries to derail my attention. It works and I give her the drink I have in my hand. The dream starts to crash so I drop to the floor again to re-stabilize.

The diner disappears, I am now in a highrise corner new york flat with large windows looking out to the night time city and only one other guy in it. He looks identical to Mark Sheppard. I tell him that I am dreaming and he agrees with me, I go through several periods of almost waking up but always come back into this room. Maybe 4 or 5 times. He is impressed but attempts to get my name. When he speaks details it is gibberish and the same with me, so he tries to write it down. They look like wingdings combined with korean characters. I describe very clearly what I see.
He tells me he wrote his name. But I cannot read it. He is very amused that we can have normal conversation but certain details seem to be 'edited' in real time from us. He tells me to find him when I wake up.
I write my name down in permanent marker but he tells me it just looks like random gibberish to him. We are both amused that we can't seem to share each other's name. I do manage to piece it together one of the times I phase back into his apartment after partially destabilizing. He says his name is Marc Bilit. I need to find him when I wake up. He is also surprised when I come back into the room. Apparently when I destabilize I just disappear from right in front of him, and when I come back I just pop back into existence. He is very tickled by this occurrence. Marc Bilit. Remember Marc Bilit it's very important that I find him when I wake up. We are working to understand cross communication between dreams.

12/6/20

I am at a sort of camping house which is located in a campground I frequent. It is a common area that seems like slightly nicer than a large shed. It is run down but charming like a rustic 3rd world b&b.
There are daily cleaners who tidy up the place and the shower always smells nice.
At a certain point I am doing laundry in a common space just casually listening to the sounds of the machines and the outdoors.
There are a few people who hang out in the common room/kitchen, it is familiar to me because I have spent a fair amount of time in this room. Other people have the same sense of ownership. They have special events which can be facilitated like communal meal time or paid tours of the grounds we are on. There may be lasertag? I gather it costs like ten bucks a night for a fold out bed in one of the rooms. It's not fancy but it's dry and warm. I live there for a while with friends from the campground. I meet amazing people and we form a sort of impromptu family unit.

Alex's wedding

Alex the French guy cooking and I become friends at the campground ground, we become best friends during the summer and while there he meets the love of his life. She is called Eve and just as wild as he is.
They hit it off really well while at the campground and are always around each other. At a certain point he asks her to marry him. Very happy for them both I tell him I am ordained and would love to officiate the ceremony for them.
Fast forward to the day of it is something slightly different.
His grand idea is to entertain her and her friend in the middle of a street while musicians set up behind them in a mass of chairs and perform their favorite sonata flash mob style. She is meant not to see the group before they are set up so him and I are attempting to distract them while the musicians show up. I am the main distraction. I am playing an accordion for the first time, I really enjoy how it sounds and remember some of the notes I play while dancing with the accordion like a drunk street performer, I get some compliments on passing.
Cars keep coming down the path and Alex is getting distraught because Eve and her friend see people coming in and setting up behind them though I think they try to pretend not to, to preserve the illusion of surprise. The road was supposed to be closed off but traffic keeps cutting through the parking lot driving past where we are, we move to only blocking one lane.
Her and her friend finally notice something special going on so he abandons the surprise and decides to move to an open part of the parking lot with no road going through it.

The location then turns into a large room like one of those strip mall churches with drop ceilings and tile floors.
She knows what's happening now, but it's ok the magic is in the air, everyone is getting excited now. She is getting ready with her bride's maids and they all have a different bright neon colour on. She is all blue in a tight fitting dress with a Massive blue fohawk, her friends have on, red and green with their hair dyed respectively, with also matching awesome huge hairstyles.
Alex has on a snazzy suit. It almost looks like a mix of period and futuristic style.

There are lines of chairs people are filing in taking their seats little by little. Alex was sitting next to me waiting for the orchestra to all get there and set up along with guests. At a certain point he goes to the doorway to see his fiancé. I think of the tradition and what people will think of him seeing her before the ceremony but he doesn't seem to mind. He stands with his back to the doorway and she comes up and gives him a kiss on the cheek, I am standing close to him, they are both giddy.
He glances to the side but doesn't see all of her.

Things then begin to be quite chaotic.
Not all of the orchestra is here yet, there is uncertainty if they will all show up.
A long tuba flute player is in front of me blowing into his flute thing, obviously bored.
The ones that are there are just casually tuning their instruments making that pre-show cacophony.
The bride starts to freak out a little bit, getting nervous and pacing back and forth at the front of the room. Alex goes up to try to comfort her to no avail.
I now have an open seat next to me. There is an older couple which walks in looking for a seat and asks me if the one next to me is open. I tell them that's the groom's seat but see many open seats behind me I motion towards.
There is a rough not unattractive girl who walks in, and I point to a seat behind me as well. A guy she was flirting with earlier in the dream(at the campground maybe?) is sitting next to the open seat. She mentions 'well at least someone can carry me out of here if I get too drunk' and the guy quietly pumps a 'Yes' fist action. I also gather she has some kind of show she is popular for.

Things are becoming more chaotic now as the couple begins to audibly fight at the front of the room. There is a great disagreement which neither party is seeing eye to eye. The band is all here but are waiting to start playing. As with the crowd, we are all just kind of looking at each other while we watch the obviously distraught couple attempting to make amends just prior to their wedding.

I really feel bad for the couple, Alex is being proud and trying to make light of everything to calm her down. She is upset he is not understanding her, claiming his insincerity is not helping and she's kind of laugh crying at his attitude. She tries to get away as he's following her back and forth in front of the room.
It is really hard to watch.

People in the audience start to bicker at each other, making snide comments and generally escalating the situation.
Things are really going downhill now.
Everyone is standing up and multiple people in the audience are in arguments.
Someone makes a comment to the girl with the show obviously trying to throw shade however she seems oblivious to the criticism. I finally interject and say something for the first time.
'I mean, we all have seen your show, so we know who you are, but have YOU seen your show?'
People gasp and everything stops while people standing in a circle are all looking at her and I now.
I continue 'Now don't get me wrong, I like you, and I'm sure many people here do too. But you should really watch your show. Because if you do that then you would actually See Yourself. Like see yourself how we see you, not just how you see you, and that's not a bad thing. It's just the perspective of seeing yourself the way other people do. That's why relationships are so important, it's a way for us to see each other through each other's eyes, and that's beautiful. That's what is so special about Alex and Eve, they see each other, because they love each other, and it's that completely unadulterated vision which bonds people in this way.'
Everyone is silent but smiling,
The couple is quietly hugging behind the circle of people, they are watching and listening with tears in their eyes while smiling and pressing themselves into each other.
'Its important to see who you really are, or at least to find someone who can really see you, so that you can see yourself, and love yourself, so that you can love each other'
The dream fades with a warmth of compassion in the room though it is quiet after my voice.