Side Notes
I have been neglecting to write up my dream journals at length. These are notes from the last month sans narrative. 1/11/20 Hanging out with Korn Nate doing back up vocals for them I scream with them in a performance Upstairs in one of their rooms Monkey says cool we have enough fans I say ok in that case you guys suck ass Why don't you make some good music? They laugh They are doing an acoustic set practicing new music in their living room It is a large room with many mementos I sit off to the side and listen The girls are brainstorming what to decorate themselves as I recommend fairies or elves, they love the idea There is a fancy marble stair coffee table that has a fancy chess board in the center of the room 1/13/20 Jeremy's truck pulling trash bin Nate's tequila pond idea with Chris and Andy Party in the backyard people jump the fence into my neighbor's pool In the basement of my middle school, there is another shadow school I attend a guest class with other adults It is about lucid dreaming, Smile is teaching There's a list of dream websites I ask him if he used Dreamviews he says no Park my car at a strip mall and go into a costume store Everyone wears different costumes Turns into a sickbay by the entrance I see Mel teaching different craft classes for kids She talks to me about the teacher from my middle school I wander the parking lot at night clicking my key fob trying to find my car, other cars keep beeping instead I see other cars that are my model but different colors Eventually, find my car and drive away 1/16/20 Old times video game flea market I stow away in a minivan with two girls in the back Aleeya likes me, her friend texts me an offer, and her picture Ride all the way home with them Hide from the parents Their family runs a BBQ Restaurant that is incredibly popular People line up around the building waiting for them to open I gather their brisket is world-renowned I am in downtown Kyoto Part of a school trip but we have wandered off from the group to explore Huge skyscrapers all around and fancy shops Feels like a mall I am with a friend at first but we get separated I am dressed in all green/pirate pagan wear I put on a foam life jacket I find by one of the booths Look in many stores Fancy glass store The woman asks me if I need anything I smile and say "I have no needs" and continue to browse. She tells me the clocks are in the back I am blown away by the detail and variety I ask my friend if we can just book a single night Airbnb and stay downtown away from our group, he isn't sure 1/20/20 Guy shows me the tomatoes he grew, hands me three I accidentally eat one and feel bad about it It tastes good One of my friends Elijah eats the other one I only have one left out of the three he was showing me and feel bad because he did not offer me to try them I am babysitting his kids while he is at work at a church My shower has drywall over the tub and I am using a smaller section There are three showers in my bathroom I am on a video call with Leyanna I am more buff than IRL 1/21/20 Who is Erwen? 1/22/20 In Spanish class Smoke some weed and put in eyedrops Class votes on who's drawing is the best on the board in the back Everyone votes for Cody's pop can Everyone knows he's dead I leave the class without looking Come back and ask the teacher to show me We talk and I tell her he was my brother Start to cry while I talk The teacher is compassionate She is younger now We are now in Bosnia/Romania My car is in a side lot It is glistening purple electric in the sun Another person is telling me how to take care of the paint with a special tool I get in the car and three black guys get in the back seat as well I ask them where we are going fellas We drive down the street and they are content I am with a girl who is my interest We kiss occasionally We are on crowded city streets and walking between cafes We swim in a pool together, maybe skinny dipping, I have no shame I am in front of a restaurant Using a special tool with metal spheres on the end of it to break the glass corners of a structure at the entrance As one side breaks, it sprays fine glass shards down one side of my face I gather I am making the entrance into something new A car with an older man pulls up and watches me work for a few minutes He is confused I try to explain to him what I am doing He shrugs and drives away 1/26/20 Parents decide to go out to dinner with another couple, they are meeting another couple at a restaurant. I am upset and tell them I disagree with their choice because it isn't safe to be meeting in groups of six yet. I crawl into the car to express my dismay and they have a daughter of the friends in the backseat. The daughter decides to stay at home with us and so does the father but he quickly disappears somewhere. It is G myself and her hanging around the house for the night. It begins storming outside and we notice 2 tornadoes forming in the distance so we all rush in and go to the basement to bunker down and wait it out. The wind and rain are very loud In another house Rundown and flooded in one entrance The other door has a large hornet hive on the outside of it that buzzes viciously when I touch the door The home is decrepit and seemingly uninhabited for quite some time I walk back and forth between the two entrances trying to decide how to get out I am in another room with several people There is a young African American boy being violent with myself and others I warn him to cut it out He continues so I tackle him to the floor and pull out a shotgun I find on the floor and press the barrel against his cheek I say now you stop this now or I'm gonna put a huge hole in your floor directly behind your head. Someone else in the room giggles He nods his head slowly with wide eyes I pump the shotgun several times to empty the shells from the barrel Only 2 or three of them are good cartridges the others seem to be crumpled and bunk At a certain point, he finds a gun on the floor and starts waving it around jokingly aiming it at me I scold him and tell him to never aim his gun at anyone, never let the barrel point at another person he doesn't intend on killing. He moves the barrel to the side and up and down trying out the technique, I nod. I am back in the house from earlier in the dream, only now I know it to be an Airbnb type setup and the family is away but coming back today. We have only lived here for a couple of days but I feel like cleaning up thoroughly Opening the windows and scrubbing counters and doing dishes I realize the house was much dirtier when I started than the mess we made Check out is 3 pm and it is almost 4 o'clock and the family gets home while I am cleaning For some reason, I have a large pot of water on to boil for mac n cheese I almost throw away a series of canisters like garden pots or trash cans that are all stacked together The owner tells me they are "odds and ends" I gather this is a hoarding family and may not take to my cleaning house that well. Oh well, the kitchen is clean and the fresh air is starting to clear the space. 1/27/20 Driving from the passenger seat Keep changing seats, driving from the backseat A cop turns around and follows me into the neighborhood I attend church, Will Smith gives me a turban, Shaq shows me how to put it on Boys and girls are separated We celebrate afterward and I learn Dave Chappelle was there too Beginning of a middle school Sunday school class, I joke they have to audition People go along with it we all laugh 1/31/20 Get hooked by a helicopter fishing line One large hook goes through my right foot The other is in my right hand They land and still pull me along My toes and top of my foot have been mauled and gory My knee and leg are torn up too It doesn't hurt but I gather I am in shock I am driving someone's white truck back to the spa I select quick travel and the truck appears across the street from the spa and I am standing inside suddenly Nothing looks recognizable There are dozens of employees just standing around Several clinic-based modalities have been added and I gather there are several doctors working for her now It is more like a doctor's office than a relaxing spa Mel is kind and tells me to have a look around One of her eyes is all red There are many new walls and walkways I have no idea how to get around. The float section of the spa has been dumbed down and all the old murals have been painted over As I walk back I try to walk through a room that has people laying on cots/hospital beds A doctor across the room talking to another doctor raises his hand to me and shakes his head as if to gesture not to come this way I try to go around but all other walkways lead to this room I take the long way around and exit the spa I am in a mall now and the spa has an entrance with many signs above it So many partnerships it isn't even recognizable as a float spa I am sad 2/02/20 In a big church service Everyone had taken off their shoes It ends with a congregation in the back wanting to sing a long traditional song The pastor wants everyone to sing it The smaller congregation is from an older church and wanted to sing it for everyone else Everyone tries to sing it at once and it sounds horrid An older man in the group at the back is pointing at me I cannot keep my balance Everyone else is turned around watching them I am standing in front of everyone The pastor has everyone restart the song but has a favorite kid begin the lyrics They are on an overhead projector at the front of the room It has like 5 verses 2/03/20 Boxing fight hug punching Food festival giveaway large tent with a band Tryst with Em, put up a tarp from rain They cut people's hair Nighttime kings island run Bathroom with ancient symbols I have seen the real thing Shoot purple energy from my hand I am magic and elusive The invisible one is someone else and threatens our family 2/04/20 I am in Hank Greens classroom talking to him Just happen to be there We shake hands he's happy that I'm a fan We are in a food garden Outdoor pavilion, many vines, and varieties I eat part of a huge avocado The seed is soft and makes me sick and woosy A cult wears blue and white They are super defensive I am wearing all blue and questioning them I see my old guitar teacher in the leader's inner circle I try to introduce myself but they scoff in metaphor and riddles I don't understand a word they are saying to me The leader looks like Kenneth Copeland We have a 1 on 1 exchange He has glowy red night time eyes He talks for a few minutes and everything segues to much later, we have all been put in a trance The leader is deposed somehow We party at his end playing musical instruments like a bluegrass jam band I play a stand-up bass on its side We are in a theatre We witness a boat coming down the snowy icy street very quickly and doesn't see the water's edge As he approaches the intersection his boat plunges under the water by the angle he was turning and he goes under the ice I gather this is a problem and he might need help I see his boat barely surface and his body is limp I jump in the fridged icy water and swim towards him He's in bad shape, I pick him up and get him to the shore, he's not just knocked out, his body is pretty messed up His eye is all red His limbs are eviscerated and barely holding together I pull out my phone and begin to dial 911 I gather he's not going to make it He starts to come to I tell him he's going to be ok Just relax, just relax, you're ok man, don't worry you're going to be alright I am deeply worried he will realize how bad it is and freak out in his final moments The more I look at him the worse it is In the final second, he realizes how messed up he is, his eyes go wide, and then still It is over 2/07/20 Meditating at the bottom of a pool Slow-motion choreography fight Android woman all metal Dad's backseat with spiders Victor's party house, escape from police The horn says $500! Ben wears cyber goth BDSM wear to impress a young blonde There are different tribes of post-apocalyptic gear wearing folk 2/08/20 In theatre to watch show laying on the floor in front of seats, I have a ticket Argue with people in front who are mad I'm not in the right place Use light to read the ticket and find the right seat I sit in the very back There is a massive explosion elsewhere while I'm in the theatre I feel shockwave On phone with a Russian girl, I am undercover Sitting on a pergola next to the house smoking a cig, it is disgusting Rick rolls up in a wrecked green car held together by duct tape The car rolls over when parked wrong on a wooden grass divider I help him escape Stalked by an ancient mummy In a hospital, I press the "feeling down" button in the elevator Makes an appointment with someone I have a badge They don't let me in the employee's area Another nurse talks to me I vent some and describe being stalked They don't believe me Christopher Eccleston is with me I am in Jamaica With a disabled family Most of them are in wheelchairs/hick like They tell me it costs 4k a month to live there It is a large family celebration They eat chicken tenders, sliders, and cheap pan pizzas One of the siblings is a sentient hand in a jar I want to find Mokko I have no money or supplies, just my clothes They point me down the road I walk by myself for a while There is a large music festival going on by the path Some white girls notice me but I keep walking I see Matthew walking by in a crowd, I call to him He is somewhat annoyed for me to meet him He tells me he is doing a collab with ML7 His hair is a large purple fro I ask if he can show me the way to Mokko He agrees and we walk down the path Many run-down communities and farm places It starts to rain hard and it is night There are 4-5 feet of water we are traveling through They are walking on bundles of straw that are standing up in a field We are all soaked Matthew goes ahead and I lose him The friend is not ML7 but we walk together He is short white and wearing black-rimmed glasses He tells me ML7 is overrated and only good at Anna, we laugh together We walk into a large tree community Carved pathways and many rooms people/families are living in I lose the friend I am by myself for a while I befriend a jamaica guy We talk about Jamaica I am passionate and he can see I have no money so the panhandlers leave me alone We see a couple of girls dressed as fairies One tries to do magic and makes a small boy levitate My guide climbs behind him to the second floor and reveals the kid was on a string It was a sham to get money out of tourists I have no money or possessions The Jamaican guy tells me he can see a part of jamaica inside of me Something is here for me to find