Dthoughts

Went to bed at 5 am put alarm at 10 am. I woke up naturally on 8 am. Still tired, headache and i didn't recall a thing. Then i did nomad's trance recall and i remembered fragments from this lucid dream i just had. :O

Dream #1

I recall myself doing very short mantras last night. And visualizing practice. I kind of recall doing a reality check in my dream while riding a bike. Took me about 2 minutes to determin if i was actually dreaming or not. I went flying. At first i fell like i was gonna fall but then i just remembered to float instead of fly and it worked. I flew around little houses . I remember being on the ground again and prowling around looking for stuff to do. I climbed over a wall into a backyard and as i was doing that i was thinking if sex would really be the same in a dream. The last thing i remember is that there was a naked girl with tiny titties sitting across of me. She gave me instructions on what to do. She said, touch my right boob like this and say Yes. If you touch my left boob like this you have to say No. And you have to say it like this ; Noooooooooooooo.
I touched her left boob and said Noooooooo. And i woke up. i think.


Went back to bed after a shower. fragments again.
Dream #2

I was riding my bike and i ran into my friend's dad Hassan who was also riding a bike. He told me "It's about time you get a job already. You can come work at my place we need you there." I said "now? I'm just headed to school right now i can't go with you."
He hesitated and said well it's up to you but we could really use you. I said fine. Nevermind school let's go. I was still contemplating in my mind if i really wanted to do this cus he does have a big restaurant now and they almost only serve meat products. Not sure if i'm up for frying them all day.
Anyway i joined him and the next thing i recall is riding my bike coming from the restaurant's direction towards school. I thought i was with Hassan riding besides me but when i'm thinking of this scene i remember a really big and broad black man riding besides me. Possibly with sunglasses.
There was something really cool about this guy and when i was riding on the Boschdijk there where youth's from school walking around the sidewalks and i saw a lot of people looking at him in awe.

I remember fragments of being at school once. Taking a seat in the middle of the class. Alone.
I was at home and i was telling my mom about my dream with Hassan. I said that he got a job for me. Even tho i only dreamed it im pretty sure he really wants me to work there.

Then i remember going into class again. We where outside going into a Bus. Our classroom was located in a bus. (not 100% sure.. but i think so, atleast something like a bus) I went to sit next to Inge. One seat behind where i sat last time. Atleast i thought i was going to sit next to her cus then i realized i sat next to another girl and Inge was sitting next to her.

Dreamed of being in a big hall i think. Loads of boys and girls. Loads of computers there. A lot of chatter went on but i don't remember a thing. Later i found myself in a Gym(?) area or something else. There was a girl sitting in a chair alone near the wall. And i think there where chairs in the middle of the gym.
The girl was wearing a skirt or something, cus her legs showed.

Again, around 30-60 people there.

Alien

Lately, the only fragments i remember are of impossible proportions. That's why i don't write these dreams down. When i wake up from this shit, i only remember something impossible and unexplainable happens. Somethings that aren't in the dictionairy. No point in writing it down.
It's like the shit is so complex as soon as i wake up i can't remember it because my mind would go overload.
Anyway this morning i remembered some vibes of the dream.

I am an alien in my dream. And i'm finding out things about humans. And i do impossible shit. I remember in this dream that i cut myself in slices. And becoming all those slices of myself or something weird. I feel like i'm doing shit that only salvia can do to you in these dreams.

Paragliding

... I'm walking in a forested area. It's dark and the moon shines dimly. I'm on a field trip or something. 60 or so people are walking in front of me. In pairs or families. Including my girl neighbour and her family. I'm with my parents. Everybody was wearing orange raincoats or something.

The whole area had a magical vibe to it. I think i recall candles are lit everywhere we walk.

We are at the top of a really high tower. Way above the clouds. Everybody jumped out of the tower with their paragliding things. Red . My parents go together before me. And i'm the very last to jump.

"Great! Everybody got instructions on how to use this thing and i'm just left here to handle it myself"
"How does this work?" I look and i find a button. Ah! That must be it. I jump!
As soon as i jumped i already pushed the button. The red paragliding thing comes out.
I'm gliding. So fast, this feels so good. I leaned too much down and i rocketed. I ask my parents how do u steer this thing. And my dad says ; "Just act like ur fucking!"
Oh yeah ofcourse! I lean backwards and steering is easy. I let myself feel the adrenaline and wind in my face. It feels so good. I understood now why you really need to do this first in order to know how it feels. It's just unexplainable if u haven't done it. Mid-air i'm keeping my eyes closed for some reason. Kinda scared i guess. I knew i was about to hit the grass. And i land. Blissfully.
Boy, that was fucking great!
Then my dad says our neighbour-girl said she didn't like it and said it was boring. I'm pissed! Boring?? wtf's wrong with the girl. I can't allow that.
I take my bow and arrow and i shoot towards her. Steady. Aim. Fire! I turn into the projectile arrow and i shoot myself into the sky. Flew a bunch of feet. My pointed head hitting the ground. And i wake up.

I was having dreams on and off with my mate Orhan in it. He's coming back on monday and he let me know just yesterday.

So after doing loads of stuff with my mom. Me and Orhan are sitting on a fence in my street.
A woman and im guessing her daughter pass by. The woman looked at me with a dirty look and that really pissed me off.
I go on a rampage and i call her all sorts of shit for being such a judgemental whitch. Bla bla bla bla ! Then i turned my pointing finger to the girl. She was blonde with short curls and a small nose. She didn't say anything. She was mostly staring at the concrete floor. I point my finger at her and say. AND YOU GIRL! You look very sweet... She smiled to herself.
Orhan was exceedingly impressed and laughed out loud. I walked away while he kept following them.

I think i recall dreaming about a TV talkshow. And they where hosting Shared dreamers to come tell their shared dream experiences on TV.

Took a nap this morning.

I dreamed i was in a park talking to people. I was thinking about lucid dreaming and i hopped on my bike to ride away. Then i noticed this huge billboard sign saying : "NOTHING BEATS LUCID DREAMING, DV FORUM"

I'm like.. wow how didn't i notice that sign. I guess lucid dreaming is getting populair if there are billboards like that noawadays. Wait a minute ! I pinch my nose and i'm able to breathe.
But fuck.. i'm back in my bed. I was vaguely aware of that the whole time actually. Seeing both scenes at the same time. I didn't bother pinching my nose in bed. I was pretty sure i woke up. I just tried to get back in the dream, without success.

There's 1 big dream i posted to DV in a false awakening. I forgot it when i woke up for real. Really pissed me off.

fragment from another dream ; We, not sure who we is. where playing with quite big Electric sort of Energy Balls. there where 2 just bouncing about. I don't remember how they where made.

The balls in question where blue ! nah for real they where blueish, with electric things going in and around them.

I always used to imagine fighting. I never won, as a kid i culden't even control my imagination. No power in my imaginary fists.


last hour of sleep

I'm sitting at some kid i used to hang around with 4 years ago. I'm playing playstation. Really enjoying it 2. Thinking of getting one of these myself. A tad later i'm trying to get to sleep. I had a blanket and i'm sleeping right in front of the door. Some guy thomas was also there nd he started fighting me. I fight back a little but there's something wrong. He's blocking off all my kicks like a trained boxers and my fists have absolutely no power. I get annoyed.

Earlier a dream involved DV forums. I'm pretty sure it was a dream because some avatars where missing..

My alarm clock is useless... i set it at ~5-6 hours after sleep practically every single night.. Guess what, i always wake up after full sleep and the alarm rarely shows it even went off. what a bunch of crap.

Fragments ; dunno, i think i recall a stone bench. and a brick wall. I might or might not have been bouncing on top/over this wall. Someone or myself might have called me Bright eyed and crazy. I take that as a compliment.

Some really stupid shit where i wake up in the middle of the night. Dream of looking out my window at passer-by's. Even tho i was consious about being in bed.. i didn't think it was at all strange that i was looking trough a window with my eyes closed. no lucidity here.

2Night I took some 5-htp supplements. Which resulted in a good deep sleep. I must have forgotten to put my alarm for WBTB cus I slept 10 hours straight.

Remember a dream fragment tho ; I was on this forum, reading the advanced serial dreaming RPG thread and I posted that i wanted to hear more about Wakingnomad's Denn dreams.

Then he posted something back something like ; "Yeah, well that's too bad ! I asked someone else I didn't ask you anything"


Somewhere last week i had some sick hallucination. I just have to post this lol.

I was trying to just get to sleep and I guess i was starting to get into SP. Suddenly i felt myself thinking about snakes. I thought to myself ; man probably gonna turn into a snake now
And yup.. a few seconds later i lost feeling of my own body. My arms where gone, my tongue was longer. I felt the inside of my body turn completely hollow. My skin felt thicker and thicker more like leather. I was feeling 5 times heavier than normal. I stuck my imaginary tongue out kinda like a snake and i wiggled about moving like a snake. I did this purely by instinct.
Normally when i get some animal hallucinations i can feel their feelings. A snake doesn't feel much. I just had a strong urge to go kill stuff and feed myself.


About at the point when my body turned hollow i started to get scared. I didn't want to be a snake. When i started moving like a snake i forced myself awake. Got out of bed and immediatly moved my arms to check if they are still there. Luckily they where... i don't ever wanna turn into a snake again, atleast not for now man.. it's scary.

Talking with a girl bout bisexuality. She has a girlfriend i know that . And i asked her if she's a lesbian or if she goes both ways. She answered something but i forgot. I got kind of comfortable with her and i sat close to her so we touched a little bit. (i mean we touched out arms !! i do . ) i liked ^^, as close as im gonna get with her, cus she's lesbian and all.
She said something about the sex being difficult. Because one is doing all the work while the other one is just lying down. That's always so unfair and we fight about who'se turn it is now. haha.

I almost forgot to write notes down about this dream but i'm glad i did. I just can not for the life of me imagine i'm talking to a lifeless dream character in dreams like this. Such a personality and cleverness in her just like she is normally, she has to be more than just a DC. She is a recurring character in my dreams and i like having her in my dreams. I think these are either shared dreams or she is a VERY GOOD representation of herself in real life. Since i don't really talk to her that much i've gotten to know her real well just by dreaming of her. More than i could ever know....

must.. rembember.. more dreams..

recurring dream about a girl on msn without her boyfriend name in it.. it's like the 6th time now or so.

some guy made mushroom tea, said it failed so he gave it to me. i drank it, tasted like mushrooms.

Vague memory of dream fragments. I remember sitting with my father. He wanted to wear my socks. I thought it was weird cus my socks are dirty but he did take them on.

*fuzzy*

We have arrived at our grandmother's house with the car. There's some kind of party, we go inside and my granddad is sitting in his chair. The furniture was moved tho, the whole building looked different. it wasn't the real house. I kissed my granddad in the cheek and as i did that i realized... My grandfather is dead. This can't be, it's a dream. I try to pinch my nose not really sure if i could breathe. I COULD BREATHE!. Holy cow this is a dream. My heart starts pounding. I say to myself relax, don't get too excited just do what you have to do.
I want to go outside and i mentioned this. My neace wanted to go with me so i took her with me. We walked down the street and i thought i'd try to fly. I take a sprint and i lift off. I can barely fly, i floated a little but fell to the ground. My neace and passer-by's didn't seem at all suprised that i was able to fly. (barely)
We are riding a bike. My memory is vague but we arrived in my own town. There where loads of people going around their normal business. It was a busy street near the mall. I remember looking around and thinking. This is so real. This looks exactly like it does when awake. I wasn't even sure if i was really dreaming , nothing was really different than when i'm awake.
I remember i wanted to go to the moon. So i decided to try and draw a portal on the floor. I moved my nails and tried to make a circle. I was a little bit embaressed doing this in a public area because goddammit this was so real. All those peope that pass by must think i'm a lunatic. Well... no portal ever appeared. There was a drain in the middle of the circle. The one u find in cities. I thought maybe i can push it like a button and a portal will appear. Nothing. In retrospect maybe i should have opened it and went inside . how dumb.
I thought about my body lying in bed. I was suprised to be still dreaming. But i woke up.

Jumped out of my freaking bed to write this shit down. Loads to learn. But this was exactly what i needed. It was actually my birthday yesterday so i suppose this was the best birthday gift i could ever have. Saw my granddad AND i went lucid. WINNING!

Dream #1

I am at a bar in what i thought was a hotel. I am sitting on a bar stool with my mother next to me. My sister was sitting behind the counter and a woman was standing with us who i perceived to be the hotel manager.

We talked for a while which i don't remember and then there was something stuck on my sister's arm which i also don't remember what it was. I let my fingers move across the object and it let go of her arm. I made a sexual joke about that i have magic fingers if u know what i ean . Then i thought, shit they aren't gonna think this is funny. I looked at my sister's face and she was starting to smile widely. My mother burst out laughing and all four of us started laughing out loud. I woke up.

Dream #2

I am in a backyard of some sorts with my neighbour who i never talk to. This backyard was covered and there where a few gates and fences . I was with my little dog and my neighbour had 2 large dogs in his part of the fence. Then he brought another dog with him. This dog was HUGE, like 4 meters tall and basically very big. I had to be careful not to let my dog near those dogs. Somehow my dog was able to open the gate tho so i blocked him from going in there. It was all very strange.

At some point there was a party going on and there where loads of people. I had a deep conversation with my neighbour wich i recalled when i woke up but i forgot to write it down (goddammit) i actually remembered the entire dream but i didn't write it down. Now i have forgotten it.
At some point my sister was there standing behind us. And she burst out laughing again. I wake up.

Dream #3

I'm in my living room with my little nefue. In the dream i thought i was talking to my friend but when i woke up i realized this was my nefue i was talking to.
We where watching tv or something and something came up about stoning a woman to steal her money or something. My nefue said, i do this sort of stuff.
I told him that's very selfish, it's completely unfair. It's just pure greed. You don't even need the money.

We talked about this for a while and he mentioned he was a crackjunkie and he needed the money . I told him that's no excuse, it's still greed to steal the money just so u can keep loading up. Once you start hurting people at one point it will be fatal. You will be fed with guilt for the rest of ur life. He broke down and he cried. We hugged and i closed my eyes.
In my closed eyes visuals i could see a hand made entirely of light reaching out to me.
I woke up again.

Dream #4

don't remember goddammit.

Long ass dream here with my best friend whose currently in jilla. (i think it's a signal dream)

I was at home with my friend O and we where just about to go outside. The sun was shining, i wanted to go right but my friend saw 2 guys on the left side and he wanted to go there.
I was reluctant but i agreed.

*dream skip, dont remember*

We are in a car with these 2 fellas and it turns out that they are two seasoned gangsters. They talked O into doing murders for them and we did. We went to some places and i think O killed some people.

*Dream skip*

Later we are walking down the street and they requested something hideous, O had to shoot a kid at a kid's party. We didn't want that. We ran.. We ran but realized if we just ran down the street they would catch up on us. I saw an alley somewhere and i said O get in here.
As soon as i was in the alley i realized one of them was going to come from one side and one from the back, they had us cornered.
There was a backgate of someone's house and it was not locked. I signallled for O to get inside, we did. We where standing in someone's back garden. I tried opening their backdoor and it was also open.

There where people in there and i was afraid to go in because they had a right for privacy.. (how dumb) We stayed outside and the gangsters saw us . They took us with them and we arrived in a park. There was one kid playing there near the river with a ball, a few minutes from now O was gonna shoot this kid. It was so sad.

O walked first and he started playing ball with the kid. Me and the gangsters got out of the car and we walked over there. There where suddenly loads of kids and was a busy kid party. I was standing near a wall thinking that O is gonna grab his gun any second now and kill this kid.

One of the gangsters came up and talked to me. He mentioned that they do kill people but they only do it at night. So O didn't have to kill this kid, he's only convinced he HAS to kill the kid. That's his problem he says.

Then a girl i knew stood next to me, Ashley. I said "Hey Ashley". She said "Hey Emiel"
Huh? Emiel, that's not my name. I looked over to my left and saw 2 babyfaced kids sitting there and i realized she was talking to them and one of them was Emiel.

**fuzzy memory, wake up**

My dream recall has been different lately. Usually i remember something when i wake up and that's gonna be my entire recall. Lately i've been waking up without recall only to get flashbacks of the dream back to me at random.

I dreamed about tidying my room i even brought up the vacuum cleaner wich i never do unless i'm expecting someone to come over. (i was cleaning my dream home because i was expecting company!!!!)

I remember a passionate scene where i was saying goodbye to someone. In the freedom of a dream there's like no boundaries. It was very nice to be able to really express love without the bad feelings of guilt and other things that hold us back. That someone i saw yesterday and i kinda knew it's probably the last time i'm ever going to see her in person. We never really got closure or anything so for the sake of being happy about the situation i'm going to assume this was a shared dream and she won't have any negative feelings left-over towards me. It's a perfect ending.