Dthoughts

Went to bed around 3 AM 16th of april and had significantly vivid lucid daydreams before falling asleep.

Had a few hours before going out to bed for school and just figured i would lie here and dream a little bit.
I thought of Steph and started to imagine a girlish woman in a sort of redish-coloured hallucinatory form. The image was immediately alive and started communicating with me. Not unlike how I imagine a Tulpa is alive as well.

I wondered if I had permission to proceed and she responded with an overtly elongated way of saying; No. She kept insisting that I was not welcome until I could not supress or hide my slightly hurt feelings anymore, to which she reacted with playful engagement and told me she was just kidding. ! I joyfully engaged as well and dream scenery began to form a little, and we where sitting on top of some grass. We got a little closer and I was hapilly holding her in my arms for a little bit when I decided that I did not want to engage in this intimacy for too long. For some reason out of my control I bit her a little bit, perhaps this was spurred by my subconscious imagination because I consciously decided to shapeshift into a wolf for this moment and told her to ride on my back. She did, and I could feel her weight on my back and she hold on to my furry neck which i thought was quite pleasant. I ran through a forest whilist thinking of something to do and within seconds thought of showing her my tree-hut that I planned on dreaming after deciding to climb a tree first. Climbed the darn tree with her still on my back and realized there's no hut unless I envision a way there and started to force my paws unto the wooden floor of my not so well thought out treehut to get to my non-existant entrance.

I fell from the tree with her still on my back and immediately as a reaction envisioned a jetpack to fly upwards. To which I decided not so proceed because I am a wolf and do not have a jetpack so i kept on falling. I coulden't think of any other escape soon enough before hitting the floor and to my suprise. Steph (Who I had forgotten by now) .. Came to the rescue with a jetpack and picked me up before I hit the solid ground! It didn't last long, we flew a bit to above the trees before falling because Miss ran out of fuel in her imagined jet-pack. I teased her bout it said ofcourse this non-bio solution of yours consumes energy like a mo-fo but thanks anyway atleast we now have more aerial time.

I wanted to save the day this time and just before hitting the ground imagined my treefriends to grow some roots fast to catch us and it did. We roots and leaves broke our fall. Atleast, they did for me. Might have just forgotten about Steph here. It is about now that she started to walk away from me without saying anything. She walked towards a mountain entrance. I asked her where was going and she said she was being called by her boyfriend and had to go.

I thought Oh okay, and opened my eyes to write down the daydream I was having. After a minute or so I heared her call again and I asked whatsup? I got something of a hot-tub and I wondered if she wanted me to sit in a tub with her. I tried to.. But it didn't feel right or quite as vivid in the sensory department as that other daydream I was having. I thought I was just having a fluke and this whole tub thing was part of my imagination. I skipped the exercise and my subconscious nagged at me for minutes to write down hot-tub anyway because it is important.

I read Steph's dream the next day and thought it was a significant link that she dreamed of sitting in a bath-tub with her ex-boyfriend on a mountain on that same night. Pretty clear HIT I am guessing?

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Kind of wokee up, got out of bed a little and went back. Had no more interesting shared dreaming experiences afaik. This part might be of value to some to see if they can understand this part of my subconscious;

Later dreamed of some foreign kids/criminals that hang out in our city who tried to crucificy me like jesus with the thorned wires, except they tried to tie me up to branches of trees. They made numerous attempts I think on different trees. All of them failed because I didn't feel any pain and the wires woulden't quite stick to my wrists. For some reason (maybe a bad reason) I got along with them. Had some explicit vulgarity on quite hostile activies (I think.. vague dream) and some foreign kid was pissed at me because his little brother was listening. As I was being crucified tho , the ~14 year old kid looked intrigued and looked as if he learned a lot from me. I thought it was just valuable lessons.

All this is boring. Really. It doesn't tell me much either. The dream kind of made a fluent switchover to having the principle of our school calling me from a distant office to go and teach kids in a classroom at a beach I was seeing on a screen (I think the screen represents my life and the story of my life.. I had to go finish the story I was writing.. My life literally was on the line here, things would definitely not be the same if i skipped this class) and to get out of the damn bed. get ouf of bed. get out of bed. and i walked towards her office. noticed that i had my front door open thought it was weird and a moment of lucidity hit me and i woke up. Realized i was late for school , which i already knew on a subconscious level but I got the fuck out of bed anyway to do the damn test because I would feel absolutely horrible if i didn't do the test and would probably lose any chance at finishing my mid-school exam with a positive grade. (thus ruining all my chances at one of two papers I still need to go to univerity! I really need to study more..)

Also, still haven't posted my awesome lucid. Which is so awesome that is really almost beyond words. There's some good parts in it tho that is englishable and doesn't require the vantage point of my shitbrained mind to be enjoyable. Had a lot of fun tho, met all of my crushes in the same dream. 2 hours of straight up lucidity. Wow!