non-lucid

I had one dream that was interrupted by my phone but I did get this other one.

I was w/ Mike & I was supposed to be going to my Grandma's house & showing Mike around because he had never been there but he'd heard stories about it. So we showed up & a man came out & told me that she didn't live there anymore which is true IRL. I just couldn't leave. I kept walking around it & trying to look inside & outside. I was desperately still looking for things to still be the same but it just wasn't of course. I spent a lot of time in this dream but in the end it just eventually dissolved.

I'm sure this was because my uncle just died & my aunt posted a memorial page for him w/ a bunch of pics. Hence, memory lane was a bi-product. Kind of bittersweet. Not to mention that I just talked to my grandmother for the first time in a million yrs because my uncle died. I didn't want to for personal reasons but I was raised better than that & her son just died & I knew it was the right thing to do. As a result it turned out to be better than I thought. Not ideal but I feel it was a weight lifted off my chest that I didn't even realize was there.

I'm a spectator in this dream. First a man comes into a restaurant and is acting weird. He must give a message to someone but he is uncertain of what to do or who to give the message to. The chef comes out and gives him something. He goes to his next stop & is in line w/ others like himself who are basically being blackmailed into doing things or risk dying. It seems to be on a grand scale. There are now big places being held by ppl doing unspeakable things. It was very gory and gross. Then it turns into a mass brain washing event & ppl are't realizing that they are indebted to some unknown evil. Cops are even killing ppl. People are wearing pig heads, like from real pigs. Gross. The people are going mad in the head. Some are eating large amounts of feces. I want to puke. It's like if you spread out some intestines but it was all poop. Finally a flood starts to come. It looks like the population is being cleansed. Then Meesha woke me up.

I've had stomach problems due to being sick yesterday so maybe that was the weird poop thing. I'm not sure if there is a meaning here or if it's due to fever & med dreams. I have been paying attention lately to how ppl treat each other now a days & how our earth is being ruined. I find it all so sad. On a side note I just realized I've been so busy that I haven't even looked at the TOTM so I'm going to do that next. I still don't feel well today but I'm doing better. I think I just need a lot of sleep.

I just got up briefly. I've been pretty sick today. I haven't even talked to my husband except on the phone. He's already in bed asleep. I had just got back to sleep a little while before he got here. So weird.

Anyway, back to my dream. NON-LUCID: I was w/ this guy & the first place we were was on a boat. He was trying to track down a murderer & he needed my help. We were finding clues & the murderer was posting online which is where some were coming from at first. Then we were in a house & the guy was starting to catch on to us so we had to come up w/ a new plan. Suddenly it was just like a movie because things went really fast. The bad guy was killing ppl & we were trying to get to him but he was making it look like we had something to do w/ it. We were constantly trying to stay out of jail & track him down too. There was lots of blood. That's the best I can remember.

I was visiting a friend which I haven't seen in a long time. The dream was odd in the respect that I couldn't figure out how old we were supposed to be in the beginning. I was in the town she lives in which is only 10 minutes from me IRL but I haven't seen her IRL for years either. Anyway, we are at a local plae where we are hanging out & talking but then we go to a school. There is going to be a ballgame somewhere & she's either attending the school or there in some other capacity. For some reason ppl are being paired by her to sit together & be some kind of pep squad for the school. I was wondering to myself in the dream if she would pick me which I found odd that I just suddenly was noticing what I was thinking on a really strange level. She did pick me & a girl beside her looked taken aback by this. We go on the bus & are at the bleachers of the game. The girl is there & so is my friend & I become all full on lucid & look at her & say to the girl "Rindi & I all grown up, we have kids & grandkids of our own. And Josh is in his 5th yr of college" I just staretd laughing & woke up.

Schools are one of my dream signs.

I had one dream before this but I didn't log it because my journal was moved accidentally. But then I awoke from this dream. I was in a body painting contest that felt like it went on forever. I had as much skill as I do in real life which is none yet I was in this contest. The category was camouflage. The backdrop was an ocean & we were to paint our models so that they blended into a moving ocean while laying partly on the wet part of the beach where it meets the water & they had to also be partly in the very clear water. Another contestant kept sabotaging me by by moving my things & replacing them w/ things that couldn't possibly work. The last straw was that when you do body painting the women have nude colored patches that cover there areolas & genitals. But I was only giving this weird big patch of black faux hair to cover her genitals. It was insane & I knew I could not make this work. This dream seemed to go on forever so when I got to this point in the dream & realized I was in a dream, I just woke up out of frustration.

I was in a police station & apparently worked there. I had just came in for my shift & some bossy bitch was trying to tell me what to do. I told her that she wasn't my boss & that she could go fuck herself. I can't deal w/ ppl who think they can just do what they want & treat ppl like shit. The room was trashed & it wasn't even my job to clean it. That woman just made me crazy mad, lol. Just a weird little dream but at least it was something because my new meds didn't even allow me to remember any kind of dreams at all yesterday. I pulled back my dosage which was already less most ppl can tolerate. My tummy doesn't do well w/ meds & I have to take nausea meds w/ any pain meds.

D1: I was being talked down to by some old boss of mine & I'm working for a Pizza Hut, lol. He wanted me to replace someone at one of the branches. But Mike didn't approve of this change, yet I was going anyway for some reason. I couldn't find anything to wear because apparently I was in some kind of job way above the employees at the actual restaurant. I had also worked there before at some previous time yet I kept driving around & couldn't find the branch.... Meesha Cat woke me up.

D2: I used to rent a house a long long time ago IRL from a local Radio Talk Show Host named Hank Rotten Jr. In my dream I was looking all over town for specific ingredients from Hank to make a Chinese dish to win a radio contest.

Spending the holiday w/ my husband. Had non lucids but I just keep falling back asleep. Monday will be back to 6 days a week for my husband until Christmas break. Hence, I'm making time for family.

Yesterday, lucid: This was a reocurring dream scene. Back in high school even though I'm an adult. This time I just said, yes I know I'm too old to be here & became lucid. I was shocked to find that I was back in time to the 60's. I stumble upon others who also were others like me that are time travelers in a sense. I'm kind of startled & confused that there are other ppl like me. I ran off some violent crazy woman & decide to stay w/ these ppl for a while & enjoy this new adventure. But Meesha Cat wakes me up.
I laid back down & focused on the dream I was just in & I started chaining right back into it. Still my time travel friends & we break up into groups in an apartment complex to keep us all together. We now come across children w/ the same time travel ability so we feel obligated to help mold them & train them to be safe w/o drawing attention to their abilities. A woman is charting out who will live in which apartments. A man & me are hitting it off & flirting so we ask to be put together w/ a group of the small children that we have bonded with. All of the children were toddlers up only to the age of maybe 6 at the most. After we had settled in I woke up.

Today: I was in a dream w/ my husband & we hear my phone ringing. We are both laughing saying "Fuck 'em!" We are avoiding my phone. But it really was my alarm on my phone which was waking me up. I checked the time & it had been going off for 8 minutes, lol

Yesterday I had a power issue in my house so I just was able to say only that but here my dream from yesterday where I needed to pee before I fell asleep but I was so tired I fell asleep anyway.

Non-lucid: People are in the beginning stages of turning into zombies I think. That is the close I can figure out but they didn't look like they were injured in anyway but they had become very violent & distant & just plain were acting weird. I was in a nice bar that served food too. Also there is a big park outside. We are stealing food by slipping in through a second entrance through the huge bathroom in the back. This repeats a whole lot. I continuously feel like I need to pee but I just keep going on these trips even though a bathroom is right there over & over. This was a long dream w/ us going through the park & back to the bar like place. (Meesha Cat woke me up so, that was that.)

Today my dreams were just to hard to hold on to. I'm just becoming so busy that I'm exhausted but only get small amounts of sleep. Friday we wrapped up helping our son by a car & took it too him at school then we all drove back to our house where we had went to buy a new tv & stand which is our gift to ourselves & for the grand kids so they can now watch Netflix & DVD's w/ it. Most of today will not be much rest either. More preparing for family for Thanksgiving & my poor husband went to work for his second 6 day week w/ crazy overtime.

non-lucid: I was in this hospital but all the rooms were weird scenario's. One had my dad saying that my mom left him. (which will never happen cuz they just retired & traveling via their RV. They now officially live in it w/ their dog} It was just so bizarre.

I know the meaning. I have way too many things going on & I need to take care of myself first.

non-lucid: I was w/ a group of people preparing to go into a part of America where we were to secretly vote but must be coached & heavily guarded due to the civil unrest of a kind of fall out from Martial Law which turned into what looked like a 3rd world country. Some sections were completely taken over by way more than a military presence. There were parts that were taken over by local thugs in the city. It was a whole lot of violence. Militia were the ones helping us. These were a mix of races of concerned military persons who were trying to take back our country. It was disheartening to the reality of what could actually happen here. Those of us who were white had to hide our faces & also vice versa for black people w/ us in order for us to stay safe during our journey through different areas that were biased to whichever group of people they were against. There was a big focus on making sure we filled out our ballots correctly in order for them to count to an underground group of citizens trying to take back their country. It reminded me of those persecuted & killed during the Nazi reign where citizens banded together to stay safe & become the resistance. We were the resistance in my dream. We were the people who were trying to stop the oppression. We even went through a very crude lesson in firing guns & protecting ourselves w/ strategy & knowing how to deal w/ those we encounter. Such as when to get down, how to recognize different groups of ppl we would encounter according to our race. This was a very vivid informative dream for me do to the civil unrest & oppression that resulting from most of us voting for Trump to try & break free from the political agenda of the elites. (Essentially those whom did not vote for Hillary.) What the people that voted for Hillary do not understand is that our history has been actually changed in academic books to educate a false history in favor of those who were the real racists (democrats) whom wanted to oppress the black community. Planned Parenthood is a form of eugenics which has been widely ingrained in our society for way too long. Our people in general are not racists put the establishment has promoted to pit races against each other in order to divide us. Hence my dream was structured like this. I think I'm going to do some outward meditation today because I've spent so much time dealing w/ a political war that I've been studying & educating others about for the last 16 yrs. I owe it to my country to continue to search for answers & put it out there via social media. We finally won the vote in Trump. He understands the real political agenda of the elite & is a business man whom we need badly in a country that is so insanely in debt & are in need of a good house cleaning & makeover.

This dream was very vivid in the streets in buildings & individual people & details. Unfortunately I can't explain the dream very well. It featured members of my family & my own sexuality into the conversations. It was not a sexual dream though, yet the topic was quite prominently there. I am a bi-sexual woman & I am married to a very heterosexual man. I'm really not sure why this topic was even any kind of topic. Maybe it had to do w/ a conversation I just had w/ my husband which related to people thinking that anyone of LGBT community would vote for Donald Trump. Well, the answer to that is that he publicly recently made a comment about supporting the transgender community. But more importantly the dream was so very very vivid in details that was very exciting as always. It wasn't even a lucid dream yet it was incredibly vivid which I enjoyed quite a lot.

I had a really weird that is hard to explain. It was a mishmash of holiday colors & themes. I am obviously starting to feel the holiday pressure. I have tried to live each day, day by day & live in the moment but now I have to deal w/ crunch time. My husband got some seriously bad news after being at his job for almost 34 yrs. The new owners gave them a raise but back handed them w/ going to 4 10's. which is Monday through Thursday 10 hrs a day only 4 days a week. For someone like my husband who works a ton of overtime to keep us afloat & to keep up w/ the added tasks because they fired so many people, this is awful. The overtime is basically lost which is a crazy portion of his checks so he didn't in reality get a raise but will be making less when you add all of this up & add on new insurance rising. Hence, the overwhelming dream. Then there is one of my daughters who has lived w/ her boyfriend for almost 3 yrs now & she just can't understand why I can't afford in many ways to start buying things for his 3 kids. If she gets married I'll have no choice but it's all so shaky. I don't want to get attached to them & vice versa & there is heart break everywhere. It's so complicated because her boyfriends parents buy her 2 kids stuff. There circumstances are very different from our even though his mom works at the same place my husband does. They won a lawsuit & don't have home payments & other such stuff. AHHHHH, it's so frustrating. My poor husband works so hard to pay for all of my medical needs too which they couldn't even fathom. Apparently my daughter still doesn't understand it all. All she knows is that this creates conflict for her which I cannot fix. Okay, I think my ranting is over. (taking a deep breath) Tomorrow is another day.

2 pts wbtb
1 pt non lucid
= 3pts

I was staying w/ Katie briefly & we plan to go to see houses. We are looking around & see lots of bedrooms in the house we are looking at & it's clean. But it's close to other houses which I don't particularly want for my next house. Yet my kids & Mike are there & we are really liking it all & the price. Suddenly Katie grabs my hand & drags me off into a bathroom & shoves some clothes at me. She says we are going to go see Anthony in jail even though in real life he is in prison. (She was just talking about seeing him & how they made her change her shirt while she was there when it was totally appropriate). She had pulled some strings to get us into see him. Things kept going wrong so we were obviously never going to get there.
WBTB
Dream recall was interrupted do to life