Turquoise Dreams

I'm in a house in Iceland, that looks like my mom's kitchen. They are talking to me in icelandic, but I don't understand them, because I don't speak that.

Outside, it's overcast, cold. Looks like street outside of my childhood house. Kids just got out of the large metal tub outside in their front yard. They are all Icelanders. Short, blond hair, I'm amazed they are not cold to me in swimsuits. But I guess the water was hot. I wake up and I'm cold from sleeping at opened window.

At a large table with icelanders, eating food.

I'm going through some outdoor space. It's full of boxes, cardboard, stuff laying around. I'm chasing someone and I'm climbing over thing thinking proudly how good I'm at that and that I finally get to do it.

There are some bunnies. One got separated and I want to close the gate so it doesn't go out on the street, but I see rest of his group is there, so I let him go. They are brown, white,... so cute.

I'm outside, and I look up. Nothing at first, but stars come to view, shooting star, formations of stars... I feel the strongest feeling of happiness. I cry or almost cry from seeing such beauty. I also know, that those things appeared only after I kinda wished for them to appear, and I'm satisfied with that knowledge.

[10:03:37] <gab> in a dream few days ago, I was falling asleep, and another person was watching me, she started asking me questions and I was replying with "mhm" . She said "oh, that's what you meant by being awake while asleep"

[09:56:34] <gab> I have a toothache, and had one in a dream too, doctor came and wanted to give me a shot for pain, but I ran away
[09:56:50] <gab> while thinking what an idiot I am, he was trying to help and I didn't take it

[09:57:22] <gab> oh yeah, forgot to say, that I'm putting off going to the dentist in waking life

First day when I actually had to use 2 blankets, because it got chilly at night. Finally, I'm so over hot summer.

So, in a dream, I decide it would be a great time to WILD. I start to rock back and forth and I try to actually feel the motion. Like it happens when you imagine a motion while falling asleep, then when you are in HH, you actually start feeling it.

So I start rocking, I'm on a verge of feeling it, when someone in the dream disturbs me and I can't continue. Dangit.

Off today, so sleeping in.

Switched to sofa around 3 am as per usual, coz can't sleep on the bed the whole night.

I'm at the US airport. Looking for my flight with another person. Rest of our group is already at the airplane. Looking at the departure board, trying to find my flight to Frankfurt, Germany, but not sure what the connecting airport will be, because thinking it's not a direct flight.

They are already calling us to the gate, and that's how we know where to go. The glass door we try to enter through is exit only and the officer motions to me to go around. I do, then I panic because I don't remember seeing my passports in the bag I packed earlier.

Now, I'm in Scandinavia. Also waiting for a flight or a ride. I finally decide to go buy some local cookies at the place I see nearby. I stop at the museum to look at some crystals and see an exhibit of millions year old slice of a tree.

I ask a guy if there is more crystals ahead. He tells me no, only some poor people housing development.

I keep going towards the "cookie place". I come up to a most beautiful sight. It looks like a shallow lake, with dozens of smallish Viking ships on it. The ships are all dark brown, ornate, all same, and turned the same way, towards me.

I look in the left bottom corner of the lake. The water is see through and inviting. I tell the other person, who now is my younger brother, that this is where we should have spent our time, swimming and playing in the water.

Some strange light comes over the lake, and illuminates small parts of it, as a sun peeking through clouds would do. The water turns incredibly beautiful tropical blue and I'm ecstatic. I start taking pictures with something that looks like a drink pouch, lol.

Yesterday:
I'm attending some class teaching english. Few classes in, I'm suppose to go to the next one, but it's 6 pm and I'm tired. I don't want to go, since It's for beginners and I'm not a beginner.

The classroom is attached to some church type of a building. I'm escaping from there. Manage to get myself to some sexual situation before I leave.

In a shed, still by this church, telling someone about lucid dreaming.

8/30/17

Bed 5pmW
WBTB 1am - 2 am
back to sleep on the sofa because my arm hurt (this is how I basically do it every night now, minus the WBTB)
No supplements

Not sure if it was a WILD or a DILD. Was pretty long.

[17:42:55] <gab> had a very interesting lucid last night
[17:43:27] <gab> I went to some kind of an office/data storage, and they showed me pictures and videos from my childhood
[17:44:03] <gab> they knew everything
[17:44:10] <gab> past and future
[17:45:55] <gab> I think I dreamt about this, because I had a dream with a house few days ago that was pretty strange, so I read about meaning of dreams with a house/rooms/doors, and it sounded interesting
[17:46:20] <gab> and I decided that I will explore houses, even if I dont like to
[17:47:11] <gab> that, plus 11 hrs of sleep and a WBTB

I was in a room. There were offices to the left and to the right. Brightly lit, dark wood desks and man all busy with papers and stuff. Dressed in white shirts, vests and dark pants.

I remembered that I don't like to explore in houses, but I also remembered that I made a decision to explore despite of that. Because I read on the website about houses representing our mind, which I already knew. Doesn't make it any less scary, haha.

So I went to the left and somebody started to help us. I was taken to a screen, like a flat screen tv on the wall. Images started to show. Photographs, that started to move like a short video.

Me, maybe 6-7 yrs old, sitting in a cardboard box. Another kid in his box next to me. We were playing that we are driving them, having a blast. (now that I'm typing this I just remembered, that we used to play in boxes like that, outside in the weeds, pretending they are space ships.) I noticed how my faced looked, clothes I was wearing, and many more details.

Next image was me in my early teens. In a black and green checkered flannel shirt and dark pants. Short hair, very tomboy-ish. I noticed my face again and how it was true to my look from that time, but how different it looked from my earlier images. And how differently I dressed.

There were more videos. Then I realized, I could ask them anything. I remembered my mom wanted to know about her dad. They said they can show him to me. They took me to a person laying on a hospital table. Top part was human male, bottom was a very strange alien. Stomach was twisted and narrow. They told me this is my mom's real dad.

I wanted to know more, but I could tell they are busy.

But I still asked if I will be able to lucid dream when I'm old. I didn't get an answer. I had a feeling during this whole experience, that they know everything, but that didn't mean that we should also know everything. Some things are for us to figure out, or not know.

I found myself in front of my childhood house. Something didn't add up so I counted my fingers. There were more. I rejoiced and started flying, all giddy.

I watched this airplane fly and fall into the water. I dove after it, into murky and dark water that I percieved to be a wide and deep river. I pulled the airplane out to the surface. It felt good.

This today:

I'm suppose to start working in this house. So they are taking me to my room to show me where I'll be staying.

The house is huge, almost size of a city block, if not bigger. I don't see it all, but I sense it.
Walking through a light color carpeted corridor with white walls, that's zig-zagging. I ask why are we this far from all the other rooms. We walked for minutes.

My room is at the end of the house. I don't feel good in there. It has at least 3 doors, and later I see more of them. I don't like them. I open one door, and it leads to another small, empty room with much older decor, but it's empty. Another door from that room leads to unknown, but dangerous place. All doors lead to places I should not go to. I'm sitting on my bed, when I notice that a white door on my left has a top panel pried off and as my vision zooms in, there is a tall, white haired albino looking guy looking at me. I walk up to the door, scared, but I confront him asking why is he spying on me.

Few days ago:
I'm in a line at some amusement park or place of fun. I start talking to this woman and it turns out she is Hungarian. We start talking and I'm pleased that I can fluently talk with her. We introduce each other and I know she is Margit. I tell her we had a family in a town (forgot the name in the morning, but in the dream I knew it's the correct one) and we found out that we are family. I knew she is a personification of my "aunt" margit. later I saw her name somewhere written down and it was Tunde, but I still knew it was her.

It was very emotional, we both cried, and we were VERY happy to be reunited.

(Yesterday, I met some Hungarians at my work, and I was surprised how well I can speak to them. I immediately thought about this dream, how without it, I wouldn't have been able to speak to these people this well, because I have not spoken that language in a good while.)

I'm in a room, looking at the window. Bad guy is there, aiming at me. I aim at him with my long rifle, get him in the scope and blow his head off. I'm pleasantly surprised that the gun actually worked.

I'm in Israel. Visiting in some kind of official capacity. Walking through a town, going up a path. Light streaks appear high in the skies. I realize they are missiles. I ask a military pilot, if it's some kind of an exercise. By then I clear some brushes and I see some alien looking flying objects attacking, and getting hit by the missiles.

On a street with a group. People dressed as police start shooting at us. We fight back, I get a shotgun from one of the terrorists and aim at another one. A guy is targeted by a laser sight, I follow it to find the shooter, but it's a sniper high in the air, obscured by clouds, on something that looks like a helicopter.

We win the fight, I look back if we collected all their weapons and we get away. Now we are in a building and I remotely see a part of it that's all white. It has all kinds of emergency items stacked against a wall. Plastic sheets, things that you use to protect yourself from radiation or chemical agents.

As my view is leaving that area, white door is closing and I'm thinking that that's where we would be confined if we get attacked, and that it looks pretty safe, but isolated. A sign above door says FOG, and I know that's an acronym for that safety place. And I say in english, that it sure is not Free Online Games.

We are sitting, laying all huddled and talking. I look at my phone and there are 4 messages. One is from Ophelia and I'm surprised but happy.

Last night bed around 8 pm

WBTB 2:14 am - 4:11 am

2:41am - 3x 300 alpha GPC (300 more than normal 600 dose)
4:11am 8mgs Galantamine

I was really sleepy and ready to fall asleep just on time, about 15 min into taking GM, 2hr 45 min into taking GPC.

But dangit, had to get up 4 times, every time when I was on the verge. I got pissed (and I realized that I shouldn't have, because no problem is big enough to put me in bad mood and nix my WILDing chance). So I just said ef it and laid on my side, knowing that I had WILDs here as well, so I knew I can still do it. I just couldn't lay on my usual WILD position on my back with pillows anymore.

So I finally fell asleep just as the GM was one hour into it's effect, on the top of it, and so was GPC, at it's peak at 3 hrs after taking it.

I was in a dream in some situation 100% sure I'm not dreaming. To prove it to someone, I counted my fingers. There was 6, then 8, then over 10. I realized I'm dreaming.

Started walking around and remembered the Turn the Moon blue TOTM. Looked for the Moon, but didn't see it, again. So I remembered some personal goals I set my intent on doing during WBTB. I turned around thinking - behind me is my past life. I looked, but I don't think it was behind me. When I turned back in front of me, there was a distant scene. All lit in deep blue, silver, black illumination. Almost like light through blue ice. 5-6 steps, made of stone, very long ones. Like leading to a throne. 3-4 warriors were standing on those stairs. Dark looking, scary, ominous. Holding spears. Reminded me of those frozen warriors from Thor movie, that Thor went to fight to their frozen planet.

I turned away thinking it's too scary and no way I'm gonna explore that. But next second I changed my mind and got excited about my decision to actually go there and see if it's really dangerous, or if some adventure awaits. Since I learned that not everything that looks scary actually is and it's good to overcome your fears. (I'm also doing this in my lucids when I'm exploring houses.)

After this, I found myself in some sexual situation. I was already losing lucidity here, so majority of this was in a non-lucid.

Some private house, getting ready for a sx party. Closing curtains and such, undressing. Lots of preparations. Not sure if it even got to any action. I know someone was there whom I knew, and rules were that if that happens, you can leave, coz that's awkward. But that person happend to be my boss in WL and they said No, I can't leave. Lol, being screwed over at work is translating beautifully into my dreams, haha.

I'm off today, but wasn't planning on WILDing. Then I woke up around 1am and wasn't able to fall back asleep.

So I got up, watched some TV and took

2x300 Alpha GPC - 2:47am
8mgs Galantamine - 3:53am

and went back to sleep on the sofa.

Next thing I know, I'm sitting up, laying down, sitting up, laying down... over and over.
I realize I'm dreaming and I added some feet to head flat sliding motion. Then I hovered out of the room in the same position.

I decided right away that I want some sx, after not LDing for about 3 wks. I got some 2 long sx episodes.

Next time, i don't remember how, but I ended up on the street. Started walking slowly. I noticed how good my awareness is and how long it lasts. I wanted to do something meaningful, haha, so I kneeled down and started to pour dirt through my hands while noticing how it feels.

Then I remembered the TOTM - change the moon to blue. I read what dreamvixen said in the thread and at that time I decided that I want to do this task.

I looked up and it was at night, but overcast. I kept looking for the moon. Did the "hey look, there is the moon", but it didn't work. That's when I said forget it and got some more sx.

Day off today. I was planning on getting up at 2 am, which is 1 hr before my normal waking time. Do a WBTB and WILD. But even before the alarm went off, I turned it off and opted for a sleep in.

I woke up at 4:30am. Stayed up for maybe 15 min. Debated to take choline or not. I chose not to take it, but to go on a sofa and see if I could WILD. I covered myself with my bath robe in hopes to attract my cat, so he would sleep on me as he used to during my so many WILDs before. It worked.

He laid on my legs and despite of him moving, kneeding and purring, I fell asleep. Just before I dozed off, I felt a WILD coming. My head started to buzz and get a headrush. I wanted to help it get me over the hump and into a lucid, so I tried standing up.

Not sure if it worked, but next thing I know I am walking in the town square of my childhood town, in front of the church. It's very crowded and as soon as I realized I'm in a dream, I decide to just go with the flow, walk around and explore. Then I remember just about the only TOTM I wanted to do and I decided to look for a picture or a poster. I see one on a church wall. Walk up to it and for some reason, instead of just walking into it, I start to dig into it. The wall is kinda soft, but a bit resistant. I give up and I think I lose it here.

Watched the second movie Insurgent, that comes after Divergent.

Had a dream inspired by the ruins of Chicago they were trekking through, and by family relations.

DR:
I live in one of the 5 high rise apartment buildings. They are horizontal and about 25 story high. One of them crumbled and we knew it's because it was made cheap, for poor people housing. We were wondering when our will fall as well. I see in my mind gray concrete with cracks.

There is a sense of danger. We walk into our apartment and realize mom and dad are not there. We suspected that but hoping they will be there. Now we know something happened to them, maybe someone took them.

Took a nap this afternoon. I take one almost every day, exhausted from work and super early mornings.

I normally doze off on the sofa, but went to bed this time. Had a long dream.Something about trials or a reality game type of a thing.

I'm climbing up this metal ladder. It's complete dark where I'm going. But under me, there was light. I'm think all I have to do is THINK or WISH for it to be bright and it will be. But it doesn't work. I know the ladder breaks at some parts and I'm suppose to jump to another one to continue, but I'm worried that in the dark, I will not see it and may fall or miss the jump. But somehow I know I'll be ok, since it's not real.

There was more and I wish I remembered it all.

I'm sitting in my parents living room, in my usual spot. It's late afternoon and sun outside is getting softer. It's making for some beautiful scenery as mature, big trees and their leaves are of with all colors plus golden from the sun. I pull out my iphone and start taking pictures.

Now I'm in the kitchen, and similar, beautiful trees in late afternoon sun. I grab my iphone and my regular camera, wanting to take pictures with both and compare. See if iphone makes any good pictures compared to the other one. So I walk out to the balcony to have a clear shot without window glass. My dad is there saying he was about to have a smoke, if I don't mind doing it later. I leave without a word, knowing that later will not work, because sun is going down.


I'm outside, the apocalypse is happening. The ground is shaking, buckling, ripping, lava coming out. Cool : D