non-lucid

Monday 8/12/13

Last night bed around 1am - 8:30am

DR 1 - I'm flying ovet the ocean. Some voice is saying that the birds I'm seeing live on the rock pile I have just flew over. I stop in mid-air and look behind me. Really, there is a rock pile, maybe 30 feet in diameter, sticking out of the ocean.

I look around, trying to figure out which way to go. I have a feeling it's that way, but there are only clouds there. I look in front of me and in the distance, very tall cliffs rise up from the water. I realize that's Boston where I'm suppose to go.

I start flying that way. Ocean has all different colors. Darker blues, and light ones. I'm looking around and I like the colors very much. Waves are not tall, but choppy.

As I come closer to the clifs, I start flying straight up to go over them. I can do that with ease and I'm a bit surprised. Clouds seem like after the storm, broken up, and late afternoon sun is shining through them at low angle.

An airplane flys just little bit higher than I'm. Now I'm over the ground. Looks like country side. There is a huge contraption ahead of me. Basic shape is that of a teleskope. But it's made of orange steel bars. As I'm watching, it shoots out 2-3 salvos of some kind of a yellow beem. At first I think it's to communicate with aliens. Since I have already turned to the right, I look back at it and trying to see what will happen, because I Iave a feeling something will happen. Like maybe it was doing something to the clouds or the atmosphere.

DR 2 - I'm in a building with a large automatic garage door. (Breaking bad last night)

DR 3 - Somebody has a snake. It's very long and skinny, whip type.

DR 4 - I'm in my home town, on the corner with large intersection, at night.

These dreams vere all very detailed, with lots of colors.

Saturday 8/10/13

last night bed 2am -7am (breaking bad marathon)

DR 3:58 am
Some kind of mayhem going on. Two cops were shot. I need something for protection so I grab a pistol from fallen cop. I also grab his holster with extra magazine, and same from another cop. His holster was small, light beige. Just like the one Walter was trying on in Braking Bad today.

In a room with people, we escaped here from the gunmen who shot the cops. I have a handheld device with screen, that shows gunmans presence. He is getting closer.

DR 7am
I have a small, plastic critter-keeper box with dozens of newborn snakes. I see them clearly. They are a size of a small earth worm, greyish, with black zog-zag line on the side. The crate has sand and some plants in it. Some of the snakes are out of the box. I'm laying down and I'm worried that some of them may get in my clothes.

i know I can't keep them alive to get bigger, so I think of a way to kill them. I hate the idea of having snakes and even more the idea of having to kill them. I grab scissors and start cutting them.

I woke ip after this and wanted to go back to sleep, but the images were still so vivid in my mind and I was so uncomfortable, that I decided to stay up.

Tried to take a nap around 9am, but cats had different ideas.

Fell asleep around 1, woke up abruptly to cats again. Good thing, too.

DR - It a last day of school and I feel incredibly, monumentally sad. Same feeling as I had in WL, when my school in P was over. It took me good 6 month to recover from that IWL. Loved that school so much. Had no idea dreams can replicate feeling to this degree.

Friday 8/9/13

Last night bed 12:30 - 9am

DR 1 - I'm in a sleek airplane. Just like the one on Hawaii 5-0 last night.

DR 2 - I'm looking at something pretty in a distance, trying to figure out, what it is. I realize it's a small island with it's reflection in calm urban lake surrounding it. Trees on the island are of fall colors. Deep orange, yellow. I'm taking a picture of it with my camera and as I zoom in, I see incredible details. Ground with no grass, fallen branches. I need to zoom out a little to see the island.

DR 3 - I'm standing in front of my aunties door with a homeless guy. He puts piece of plastic in my shopping bag I'm holding and a piece of broken hockey stick. Those two pieces are of same shape. He asks me to buy him another piece of plastic like that for his foot, coz that one broke.

He is also drug addict. Person living in there is his mentor. I'm going inside to look for him, but a guy tells me, he is in the hospital for a rehab. He tells me to eavesdrop by my aunties bedroom door. I lean over, but don't like doing it so I leave.

DR 4 - I'm in a large one story house. Hear some noise, but don't see anything. Few minutes later a young guy comes to my view by the sliding door. he just climed up the dirt hill to the house. He is all bloody, His elbows and knees have dried up blood and some deep scrapes. i bet he took a tumble while hiking. Then two guys are holding up someone between them. He is also battered, I'm thinking they all had some hiking accident. I let them in.

(I think this was the first dream of the night and there was a lot more after this happening in the house.)

I'm glad my recall is back up. I'm also going to bed sooner than I used to and that could be a reason as well. Tried the looking at eyelids and saying I'm dreaming like last night, but didn't have any results from that.

Thursday 8/8/13

Last night bed 12am - 7:30am

As I was falling asleep, I thought I'll try to have a DILD that night. So I was looking at back of my eyelids while saying "I'm dreaming".
I thought I got lucid 2 times last night in a DILD. But there was no excitement and I'm leaning towards these being false lucids.

DR 1 - I'm on a street car/trolley, going up slight hill. I sit on the driver's side, by the window. I'm marveling at the architecture of tall buildings with red tile roofs in typical Korean/Japanese style. I'm thinking how cool it would be if it was North Korea, but I know it could also be South Korea. That's when I realize I forgot my camera again (this is becoming a recurring issue for 20 years now).

I hear the tram's bell ringing and we switch to going backwards. I'm not worried, thinking trains do that sometimes. But then I see the guy in front of me looking back with worry and lady on my right is kinda screaming.

I look back and as we are rolling backwards, a truck that's all silver chrome is coming up the hill. It is just a few feet away and I cradle my head to brace for impact. I'm trying to think how else to protect myself and I move my leg a little to different position. At the same time I know we are gonna hit, but we will be ok.

We end up not colliding after all. But we start rolling again, I look back, and there is an elefant coming up tha hill, just a few feet from the back of the trolley. Some light purple liguid is squirting from his feet to the ground, as a street sweeper truck. Again, people scream, I brace, but we don't crash.

DR 2 - I'm sitting at the table with two man. Son and father. They are dressed in black. I'm still in North Korea. They cooked a feast for me and I feel so bad, because I know they have very little and don't want them to give it to me. There is a boiled/grilled chicken quarterd up on a tray, and something that looks unapetizing, like soft brains or something. One of the man lifts from the chair and in broken english tells me that that dish or recipe is from his grandfater. I'm telling him not to give me a lot, but he says "eh, no, here is another scoop" and puts another spoonful of goop on my plate. I start eating the chicken but I know I have to eat the other thing too as not to offend them.

One of the man walks by with an IV bag for his son.

That's when I say "hey, you guys, this is a dream, I'm in a lucid dream. That's when you realize in your dream that you are dreaming". With these words I'm already standing at the window, one leg out the window and a smile on my face. I fly off.

I cross the street and enter a buildng. I'm fying through some corridors and large rooms of what looks like an underground warehouse. I'm still in North Korea and I thing police is after me now. I'm flying between and over some large stacks of pallets, looking for a corner for me to hide in.

But nobody is rushing after me so I decide to get out of there. I'm stopping at crossroads and looking around, then turning to direction where the most light is coming from.

I'm out of the warehouse, flying up some short stairs, ending up in a large marbled hallway with deli shops. I thinking if this is still North Korea and I feel bad for all people there who are not privileged enough to shop and eat there.

I'm sitting someplace when I say "oh, this is still a dream". not sure what I did after. I feel like I was fighting to retain lucidity.

Monday 8/5/13

Last night bed 11:30pm - 9:10am

I remembered 5 dreams from last night. Every time I woke up, I remembered one. Re-told it with words in my head and went back to sleep. I remember the older ones, but not the last two.

DR1 - I'm at some kind of crossroad. Then I'm at my friends house (p. Bros). She is not home. Inside is nice. It's a one story building with nice big rooms, nice furniture, kinda modern.

I'm in the bedroom. I have a knife in my hand and I make a slow, deliberate cut on my left upper arm. Someone is there with me, watching me. I make another cut. I feel it bleeding. I let it be for a while. Then when it's all dried up, I ask for some bandages. I put some antiseptic lotion on a gauze pad and clean myself up. Then I dress it with another gauze pad.

Then I decide to take a nap in the bedroom. There are no sheets on the bed, but the comforter is nice, fluffy, white, down.

When I wake up, I think I hear my friend outside with her small kids. I quickly make the bed and straighten stuff.

DR2 - I'm a roommate with another friend of mine, who happens to be a daughter or a person from my first dream. We are fetting along nicely and I'm telling her to just tell me if she wants the windows opened or closed, tv on or off, and stuff like that. I'm easy to get along with, so she should just tell me if she is not comfortable.

Someone there askes me to close the window and I see that person is old and shivering in a coat. So I close the window.

DR3 - I'm sitting on a sofa, next to a friend of mine. Room is opened, with lots of people. Someone comes closer and we learn he is a drug boss with his body guards. He is not happy with us encroaching on his territory. There is sense of danger, but I'm not scared. I tell my friend not to let him take her to another room. At the same time I know, he is about to take me there. I think I saw someone coming out of there in distress. Some woman.

Too bad I forgot last two dreams.

Sunday 8/4/13

I have been remembering and forgetting this dream today all day.

DR: I'm at home. It's 10 till 9. School starts at 9, so I don't know why I'm having breakfast, instead of being on my way. I know if I leave now, I still may make it on my bike, maybe be just 5 min late.

A couple is there to take care of a chiled while I'm gone, but it's not my child. I'm in a hallway. I have a feeling it's first day of school. I'm putting my shoes on, then going back for my briefcase. i'm looking at a note my my gave me. It lists all kinds of excuses, why I was not in school. It's too many excuses and I'm not gonna do it. By now, I'm over an hour late so I decide to skip the whole day.

8/2/13 Friday

Last night bed 2am (working) - 6:47

DR 6:47 - I'm in a large, one story house, with some people I know from my past IWL. Lots of rooms, lots of doors to the outside. Every time I walk outside, I see animals.

There is a cute, brown bunny with big eyes, sitting on some wood pieces. I don't want to scare him away, but I want to see him up close. A lake or rather a pond is less than 10 feet away. There is a small ibis type of a bird. Never saw anything like that before. He is so cute. A pair of regular, brown ducks come closer to the shore, and another pair of fancy ducks, with some kind of a hat with hanging brim, like mother goose? They are hurrying to come closer, flapping their wings and splashing the water.

I go inside to look for my camera. There are cameras everywhere. I pick one up, turn it on, only to realize, it's a digital Polaroid camera for instant pictures. It's not mine. I keep looking. All kinds of cameras there. I finaly find one I think it's my Canon. I take it outside and try taking pictures of animals. I snap a few, then I notice some grinding sound. After closer inspection I see, that the objective is crooked and out as when zooming, and screen is cracked. I get mad, that someone must have knocked it off the table.

I open the door to the outside again, and see some larger animals. Size of a wild pig, but they look alien. Then I decide it's a family of warthogs. I let the kids look, but then I close the door, so they don't attack us.

The strangest animal I found in one of the empty rooms. It looked like a very large beaver, with flat tail. But his body was shiny as a slug, and it played with colors, like you see on water with some gasoline on top of it. Or a soap bubble.

I normally don't see animals in my dreams, other than my cats. So this was very unusual. And most of the animals were in pair, or in family group.

Back in the house. I'm chicking someones homework. There is a bunch of papers around and homework gets mixed up. I spen rest of the dream sifting through papers trying to find that homework.

Very detailed and colorfull dreams. Thank you.

Thursday 8/1/13

Bed last night around midnight - 8:30 am.

Nap 3pm - 4pm

DR - last minutes of the nap

I'm fooling around with a classmate from elementary school. I tell him to stop, because I think he has a girlfrend. Then I ask him if he has one and tell him that if he doesn't, we can continue.

I'm in a small, rectangular room, that's adjacent to my room. That room has shelves with trays full of different kinds of bread. Long bagettes, loafs... I walk throught the room and I have a feeling, it doesn't belong to me, but they trust me to be there. I break of a tiny piece of bread and eat it. I'm disappointed in myself, since I have never done that before. I wonder if there are cameras. I'm disturbed with what i have done and go back to my room to get some money. I see price labels next to each bread tray, so I'm gonna pay for the whole loaf.

I remembered later, there were some delicious looking bread sticks standing in a cup. Sprinkled with some spices and cheese, from pizza dough. I felt relieved, that now I don't have to make them myself.

Wednesday, 7/31/13

Last night, bed around 1am.

DR 3:30am
I was being taken on a foot pedaled flying machine up to a gunship. The flying machine looked like a unicycle and one guy was pedaling it. There was a pole attached to the unicycle and on both sides it had some kind of a compartment. It was made out of a frame and canvas, that was loosly attached. I was in the left one, another someone in the right one.

As we approached the gunship, I saw that the unicycle and two compartments will exactly match the side of the ship, so we can dock. As we docked, the canvas ripped and I was deposited into gunners compartment. So was the guy on the right.

By doing this, the gyu on the small apparatus lost momentum and started tumbling down with his machine.

The gunship looked like a pirate ship with sails, but I could tell it was modern.

I had a long dream just before this one, all I remember I was with other around body of water. Something like a small lake in the cave.

7/30/13 Tuesday

Last night bed around 1am. I figured I can try falling asleep with my Yoga Nidra CD. It's not made to make you fall asleep, but for some reason, it puts me to sleep in 10-15 min, or even less. Don't know if the narrator has hypnotic voice, or really, just mental survey of body is so relaxing. As he speaks, there are pauses, maybe 4 to 8 sec long (different places different length). And without realizing it, i fall asleep, still awake, and I'm startled awake with his voice, only to fall asleep and wake up again. I like the feeling.

DR: I'm in my home town, on the street, where the long time ago burned down movie theater used to stand. A parade is suppose to start in a little while. We see the cars that look like rollercoaster seats assembling.

Someone I know is suppose to be on one of them, so someone droppes off my balck backpack on the sidewalk with my camera. I'm walking there to pick it up. There are some people getting out of a bar that's right there and I'm really worried they will take my backpack. I come to it. It's my old, black backpack, all worned down, filled only half way. I look inside and my camera is there. I go back on the sidewalk, getting ready to take a picture.

After it's over, I walk on the sidewalk towards where we used to live. I'm inside a house with some people I know and I'm so sad, that I have to go back. It's even worse than last time. People ask me about that and I'm just sad.

I keep walking, and a child cries after me from a first floor balcony of a yellow house. I look back, but I know it would be even harder on him if I stoped or said anything to him. I think I was crying. A man and a woman that are standing with the child, I sense they are very kind and fair, but I'm not sure, they are his real parents. They tell me to wait, it's ok for us to say goodby properly. That's when I really start to cry and I appreciate they let us hug.

I just hope I don't have a child in astral that misses me.

Thursday 7/25/13

Last night bed 10:55 - 3:21, Involuntary WBTB 3:21 - 4:20, then trying to fall asleep till 5, when I moved to sofa to WILD.

DR 3:21 - I'm on one of the higher floors of a large building. Dormitory or hotel. But nobody is there, only me and a few people. 3-4 of us sleep in the same room. It's hot and I'm in tanktop and undies. I finally ask them if it's ok for me to be dressed that way, one answers that it makes him uncomfortable.

There is some crazed family after us. Few kids and two adults.

I hide my cat from them in another room. Then they pretend to be vacuming and cleaning, I guess to be able to get close to us without suspicion. Then I remember I hid my cat in that room and run there, really scared, if he is still there. I find him under bed and he runs to me immediatelly, jumps in my arms and he whimpers, cries, shivers, clings to me - he was so scared. I feel so bad for him.

Then he starts talking to me. Normal sentences. I'm so surprised. The others want to tell the world about talking cat, but I stop them.

Then we ahve a fight with the crazy family members in the corridor. We subdue the kids, and father tells us we should worry about the mother, 'coz she is the real nutz.

DR - My former teacher is showing me her house, so I can find it from other reality, or when I'm in alternate reality.

DR - Promoting someone to DG and someone to mod

DR - I'm in my moms bed, showing someone how to induce LD/OBE, just by inducing sensations associated with transition.

DR from night before - I got a facefull of spider webs

Monday 7/22/13

I went to bed at 8pm. Was just so tired from last 2 days not getting enough sleep. Had a bunch of dreams. Then finaly woke up from a nightmare.

Started out not so bad. Cops were chasing me and two others. Normally, this is fun, but tonight, I was scared and uncomfortable. i think I have done something really bad. So I'm running away up the sidestreet, while cops are on the main street. I'm hoping the will drive by and not notice us. I can barely walk, like walking in a tar. So i turn and walk backwards. This has usually helped and I'm making some progress.

Then we re running through some corridors. Now I know I have done something bad. A geman shepherd walks in front of me and flashlight he has attached to him illuminates the corridor with weak yellow light. I prod him with my assault rifle and even before i do it, I feel bad about it. But can't stop myself.

Then a booming voice echoes from the end we are running from. Something about "they are coming for us". I start to yell in panic and others come back for me, because I can barely walk again.

EDIT:
I watched tv for about an hour before going back to bed. Decided to say my mantra "next time I'm dreaming I realize I'm dreaming". And I also decided to add "when I see blue star, I realize I'm dreaming". There is something about visualizing blue star on the Yoga Nidra cd I practice. So I thought I add it as something new. Perhaps my mind will pay attention to it because it's new.

So as I'm reciting these two mantras, suddenly I hear mysef saying: "Next time Karl is not there I realize I'm dreaming". LOL I had to get up and write it down. Where it came from, I have no idea. I don't know any Karl.

Sunday 7/21/13

Last night bed 12:30 - 6:44am

DR - I got a job at Sea World type of an amuzement park. It's at the shore, which looks like northern California. My female boss is showing me around and what my responsibilities will be. I'm taking notes. I'm suppose to start at 7am next morning. There is also a school or day care. So it's good, that my last job was a teacher.

We are wearing matching uniforms, which is a polo shirt top, with a logo. I'm cleaning some area, then I hop on my laptop to research other employees, so when I see them, I know who they are. I realize I'm proly not suppose to be on the internet during work, so I ask about it.

EDIT:
I got only 4 hrs of sleep from Friday to Saturday, and 6hrs today. I really wanted to do WBTB this morning at 6:44 when i woke up, but I never went back to sleep to WILD. So at 10:30, I thught I do the Yoga Nidra, at least first 1 or 2 parts - the survey of the body and breathing. When I layed down for this, cat's were both fine and asleep. Of course, as soon as my head hits the pillow, one of them decides to settle an old score and goes after the other one. I put an end to that, go back to meditation, when I notice someone went potty and that's the end of my meditation.

But, I started to fall asleep again, very fast, and had some starting sensations of floating, just as twice before, only way to weaker. Will try again later.

Saturday 7/20/13

last night bed at 5:20 am - 11 am
Watched a Breaking Bad marathon from 12midnight - 5:20am

B6 50mgs around 1pm.

DR: I'm walking around town square. Looking at booths and stores. Checking out postcards. I'm in european country, but not sure if it's part of EU, so I ask if they take Euros. I have a feeling I'm in Serbia. Postcards have a lots of very nice, church like buildings on them and I'm thinking, that I don't remember this country having such historic buildings.

I'm talking to two sales people. Later outside, I point them out to someone - one salesperson has a purple, the other one blue top on.

I'm inside of a building. I'm either escaping, or plotting a break in. I'm going through walls, on the roof and watching some FBI people inside and I know I don't want them to see me. Outside I'm flying around.

I'm still in the area. Talking to Jesse from Breaking Bad. We are deciding what to do, so we look at the movie schedule. I say I would like to see some movie I know from waking life.

Lol, watching "Salt" and she is running bare foot. I just remembered, that I ran barefoot in my dream last night. And I was kinda worried if I will hurt my feet. But I wanted to experience how it feels so I started to walk and run and run faster. It was a new sensation. Cool.

7/17/13

last night bed 12am - 8:30am

DR - I wrote down some keywords at night. "Backpain, classmates, school looking for printouts, LDing

Around noon I layed down and listened to my Yoga Nidra MP3. Barely like 4 min into first part - "Surveying your body", I suddenly got into this very weird and pleasant state.

I lost feeling of contact with sofa. As if I was floating on water bed made out of energy. It was moving like a waterbed would, slight wavy sensations and energy.

This part "survey of body" is guided meditation. Voice is telling me to pay attention to certain parts of the body and to experience them any way I can. Either feel the skin, bones and such, or experience it as energy.

I my mind I said "energy" and when thinking of parts of body, I was first time actually able to feel them. Like "top of my head" I was actually aware of it and felt it. Same with knees, ankles and so forth.

It put me to sleep rather quickly.