Iluzjusz

04.07.23 I'm going on vessel to work so I prepared plan how I wish to improve my skills. Because of inregular sleep schedule I decided to focus on side skills instead of techniques. That include:
-Dream recall
-Meditation
-ADA and general walking awarness
-Last and first thought recall
-First awarness after waking up

I will try to write down weekly report in DJ. It's depend of my internet connection but I think this will be not big problem. Also i'm open minded so if you have some advice go ahead

Dream recalling
I will full describe one dream and rest of dreams will be write down via tags. I will write down dreams 5 times in week to prevent myselft from burnout and colidation with my duties.

Recalling at beginning: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Goal: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality
Month 1: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Month 2: 1 at good quality and/or 1-3 at any quality
Month 3: 1-2 at good quality and/or 2-4 at any quality
Month 4: 2 at good quality and/or 3-5 at any quality
Month 5: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-5 at any quality
Month 6: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality

Score is calculating via arithmetic mean in week period.


Meditation
I will meditate twice per day - after lunch and before sleeping. I will meditate 5 days in week. Reason is the same like in Dream Recalling section

Goals: 2x20 minutes
Month 1: 2x5 minutes
Month 2: 2x7minutes
Month 3: 2x10 minutes
Month 4: 2x12 minutes
Month 5: 2x15 minutes
Month 6: 2x20 minutes


ADA and general day awarness
I will try to be aware as much as possible. Because I can be aware independently from my activites so there is no excuses and I will practice ADA everyday.
My dreamsign is night (or darkness) so also I relate my “Hukif’s Hook” with awarness of daytime.

Goal: Reach “very high awarness” level
Month 1: “Non-zero” (awarnes uptime > 0% of waking time)
Month 2: “Occasionally” (awarness uptime 5-15%)
Month 3: “Low awarness” (awarness uptime 15-25%)
Month 4: “Moderate awarness” (awarness uptime 25-35%)
Month 5: “High awarness” (awarness uptime 35-45%)
Month 6: “Very high awarness” (uptime 45-60%)

Of course this will be very subjectively. I have no device to meansure my awarness level



Last and first thought recall
This is my experimental exercise. It is working in the same way like dream recalling but instead of dream I will force mayself to recalling last remembered moment before falling asleep and first moment after waking up. The goal of this exercise is observe border in memory between reality and dream.

Because this is experimental and non-offical exercise I have no goals.


First awarness after waking up
Goal of this exercise is decreasing time what I need to aware myself after waking up.

Tonight I didn't slept well. Maybe 2h of shallow sleep so at day I was very tired. I decided to make 40 min of nap and still I had problem with falling asleep. I slept maybe 10 minutes and when alarm clock woke me up then I decide to stay in bed for longer. Today I had nothing to do so I didn't care. I fell asleep without any problems this time. And I remembered one dream

Dream #1
I woke up in my room. Nothing special happened but I used my foot to pick up some plastic item from box (that box doesn't exist in reality). That item looked like some kind of smartphone/camera holder. I imagineted that I can use this holder to create "dragon ball-styled head computer" (like here https://static1.thegamerimages.com/w...-Over-9000.png ). I put piece of cardboard for meansurments. That cardboard was imitating computer screen and I was checking how much view field it is blocking.
I recognize something weird. I can see through that cardboard. I blink my non-blocked eye for check this and I was right - I can see through cardboard. But in weird way because I was able to see only static elements of my environment If I moved my hand I didin't see my hand. "It looked like my mind memorised my room so much that I can see it, but I'm unable to see moving dynamic objects" I thought. Also my vision through that cardboard was in poor quality "Maybe i'm in dream?" But for some reason I didn't made RC. Next I went out of my room and checked myself in mirror. My face looked pretty normal, nothing special but still I was able to see through cardboard. "Weird" I said

In that dream I was very focused on my vision perception. I'm sure I was close to LD

Today I didn't slept well. I needed 3-4h to fall asleep and I slept shallow. Also I woke up few times in night. Probably because of air temperature (I dunno how much it was but I had opened window, working fan and was sleeping uncovered) and because of change in sleep time (normally I'm sleeping between 4-12 am but today and tomorow I have classes so I need to wake up much early)

DF 1#
I was child in unspecific primary school. Teacher wasn't glad because of me so she went to talk with my parents about my behavior. My mother gave me detention for something (I dont remember). Next I was driving a car and someone was trying to kidnap me but unsuccessful so I bet with kidnapers (I dont remember what was bet) so if I will win I will get they car and they never appear here again, if they will win then they get my car. I won

DF 1#
I was in my garden at evening, sky was cloudy. I don't remember what I was doing but I was with my familiy members. I remember I was dreaming about getting Lucid Dream.

Dream #2
I was on small vessel around 100m of length during big storm at night. Ocean waves broke our ship in half so captain call abandon the vessel alarm. I wanted enter to bridge, but chief officer stopped me.
-What are you doing? We are abandon the vessel!
-I left inside my laptop, I just go pick up my computer and I will be ready!
-No! Go to lifeboat!
-Please I have important documents inside
-I said no!
I was thinking about asking captain for permission but I gave up. I reminded I have second laptop I can pick up. Also I was afraid that because of heavy waves that laptop fell down from table. I run to check it and I was right - my broken laptop was lying on floor. Cover of laptop broke apart and some piece of electronics was lying near to that laptop. I started to collect parts of my computer when I saw weird device connected to my computer via USB. It was 1-2 meter long purple cable with 3 balls on the end. Because I didn't had time and I didn't knew what it is I grab this device and hide it in my pocket.
When I was leaving with my broken computer something happened to other seafarer. He was unconscious so we evacuate him to deck lower. During waiting for rescue helicopter I saw his leg was missing, and his face was red, swollen and full of blood. Also he had cervical collar on his neck.
Scenery of dream changed. Now I was in unspecific place as helicopter pilot. Piloting was very difficult so I decide to land. I don't remember what was later but I know dream was much longer.

I was in my garden and I was searching for powdered paprika. It took some time and I didn't found it instead I found some spice mix that contains what I wanted. It was in yellow-green paper pack. For some reason I forget that it should be paprika and that mix contains tomato. Next I went to my pot. Water with meat and vegetables was boiling. I add some random spices and that spice mix with tomato.
Scenery of dream changed. I was with my friend somewhere I dont know where. My friend invited me to sex party but I refused. Next my view was a little bit diffrent because my POV was switching between place when I was and some auction website. On the end of dream I was start recognizing that something isn't right. My POV was locked on this website and I started to wonder why I cannot see place where I'm with my friend.

My dreams was long and I was remembering them all when I woke up, but in few seconds I lost almost entire memories. Weird feeling when I literally see like my memories are burning and on the end I have only ashes xD Anyway I will try to restore memories as much as possible

DF 1#
All place in that dream was fictional. My home, school, outside space. Especially school. I remember big main chamber that looked like circle and it had classes door around. I remember that I and my friends we were trying to hide something. Not a physical thing it was something... more abstract like property or idea of something. Anyway we wnted to keep this as secret and teacher was close to discover that.
Entire dream was dark so I think it was night.

DF 2#

[I was so absorbed to remind DF1 that I completely forgot what was here]

DF 3#
The best remembered dream from today. I was about 500m from my home on crossroad. Suddenly i got SMS on my phone. It was about changes in traffic light and road sing system. I saw colors on traffic lights were reversed. Someone was walking with his son and they was confused about it. I told them about my SMS and father thank me for that information. Next I saw green roadsing background changed it color to yellow (the sings started to look more like in germany). I was very suprised so I made reality check. I even told to myself "It must to be dream" but my RC was false. "Really? It is a reality? Oh... okay".

DF 4#
I was on walk with my dad. I dint remember what happened here

Today I remembered 1 dream in good quality. Sadly my planned wbtb (and remaining 2h of my sleep) was interrupted by my parent.

Dream #1
I don't remember the beginning of dream. I was riding on my bicycle near my allotment garden. It was middle of day, probably spring or summer. Good weather, sky almost clear. I stopped on main road side but I don't remember why. I know I was thinking about something. Next I continued my bike trip and after 200-300m I turned right on the nearest road cross. In my real life there is rails and train station but this time I passed car park first. Some damaged or destroyed bikes grabbed my attention, one of them - blue roadbike - had missing rear wheel. I started to think why people are leaving bikes here (and I think this is point where I was near to get LD) but I ignore the bikes. Next I reach the train station. I passed railway and I saw trashed bike wheel in bush. I came to this wheel and I took a look. "The gear is damaged but entire wheel is in good condition. I will take it and repair in home". At this point I reminded that blue bike with missing wheel. I was sure this wheel was from that bike. "I will take bike as well. It will be easy to repair"

Today nothing specjal, just dream Fragment

I was waiting with my friends in school for exam. Someone tried to check porn on my computer. Also I remember part of this dream was in hospital. I was in corridor and I was talking with random patient

I was afraid like yesterday - today I will have problem with sleeping because I went to bed at circa 3am LT and it passed 2-3h untill I drift off. But good ending happening (sometimes)

Dream (DF) 1#
I dont remember this dream very well, only some pieces:
On the begin I remember my dream looked like GTA (IV or V). I had some shooting with cops and I went from outside to interior of building. In the end part of dream I saw something like HoI4 game. I saw "battle" between my and enemi tank divisions. My division won the battle but it lost entire ammo supply and organization and I started to think my template of division suck.

Dream (DILD) 2#

Non-LD part
My friend sent me to buy some food for our party. Some chips, alcohol etc. I started to count money he gave me and I return for more money then I went to shop. For some reason my dream changed scenery. It was just random moment - no after passing door nor rotate behind my backs. It looks like I have hole in memory bc I was walk forward to shop and my dream just changed. Now I was on my bike with half empty beer can. I wanted to drink some of beer but in last moment I saw police car passing me so I abandoned that idea (In my country drinking in public is illegal. And still I was on bike ) but police just passed me and nothing happened.
I parked my bike on car park and passed 4-5 cops. "What happened here? What is going on?" I asked myself. I saw one policeman is pumping something like industrial hosepipe. I ignored that fact and just entered to market. For some reason my other friend respawned with me (I don't know him from real life. Just random NPC). We walk through supermarket corridor and stopped at kebab kiosk to buy some fastfood. I checked the prices
-What the fuck, why evrything here is so expensive?!
-Because customers are buying it anyways
I was really hungry, my friend also. He ordered "rollo kebab hamburger". I ordered traditional polish cutlet in bread roll. After few moment cashier said:
-Here is your order
-That cutlet looks awfully. And where is roll? I ordered cutlet in bread roll
-No rolls for you!
-OKAY. SO I WISH REGULAR KEBAB AND DONT PISS ME OFF!
The cashier started making new order and he went to backroom. After few moments he come back
-My manager said everything will be prepare good but I cannot promise that he dont use his ass to mix your kebab sauce
After that I just make sure the cashier started my order and I just left the place without paying. He was calling me for money but I just ignore him

Lucid part
Scenery of dream changed. Now I was with my childhood friend outside. I started to think that something is wrong. That isn't the place where I should to be. I check where I am and I made reality check - it's dream. My friend told to me
-Lets go that way - he pointed direction with his finder
-No, no let go that way - I pointed my direction
-Nah, my way is better
-Okay then. See ya!
And I just flew away My friend was scared and I just flew away from him. It's was my fist time when I flying in LD with full control. The felling was so nice. And I can feel nice fresh wind on my face when I was flying forward. And the view of my city was wonderful. I decide to land on roof of the high building. I wanted this because it was abstract for me - just random flying person standing on the roof. In the meantime I trying to recall my three-step-goal but I failed. "Anyway - this is LD and I have fun! I dont care about step goals" I though.
When I was trying to land on the roof I recognize I have problem with that. So I decided to just fell down from circa 3-4m. I didint feel any pain and It was something new for me. In normal condition mistakes in my dreams are painfully. Anyway I reach my roof and again I look for my city view.
My friend respawned near to me. I saw his happy smile. He was proud of me.

Today I remembered 3 dreams, but I lost memory of first one before I woke up from bed.

Dream #1 (about 11 a.m local time)
I was in some sort of village in 1939-1945, probably in Poland. Weather was was windy and cloudy it was a little bit dark like autumn evening. I was running away from gestapo or other nazi agency (it wasn't specified in my dream). I asked people for help or place to hide but nobody responsed so I crossed the main village road. It was made of mud and I almost slipped. I entered to someone backyard and I opened door to basement. I saw 2 people inside (probably the owners) so I ask them for hiding. They agree. I went inside and man led me to special place in his basement. After crossing hidden door I was in some kind of forest. It was dark like night, and I saw snow and frozen mud. We went to the end of main road of tha forest and that was my place for hiding

Dream #2 (about 1 p.m local time)
I entered to area of big jail. I was outside on the road. Structures was made of red bricks and architecture was old. Weather similar like in dream no. 1 - windy and cloudy but I dont remember what season it was. I passed side road and entered to building. I was in dark room probably in undergrounds. For some reason I had long sharp knife and magazine. I tried to hide that knife because I dont want to have any problems. After that I left the building and I left the entire area. On the end of dream I passed main gate.