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Color Code: Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid, Waking life notes

Dream Lesson 3: Overcome sexual distraction

March 18, 2015

I wake up but don't move. I feel tingling and then vaguely feel like I have gotten up and started walking. I can't see anything. I say/think "I'm a ghost." I gain my vision and the dream becomes more solid, and I remember my ongoing goal.
I approach a refrigerator and knock on the door saying "I would like my next lesson, please." I say something about it being for control.
I pick up a bagel with both hands and let go, trying to make it float, but it drops to the floor. Rather than bother picking up the same object, I grab a jar of jam from the fridge. I place it on top of the fridge (which is either very short or I am floating) then make it float by keeping my hands a few inches out on either side of it.
I believe I remember a post on DreamViews in which someone says that dream control needs to be based on things we are familiar with. I say to myself "I know what it's like to lift, but not what it's like to let go and not drop it." (Meaning, my dream can easily use my memory of lifting objects in waking life and apply it to making dream objects float, but has no obvious memory to prevent dream objects from falling when let go.) But, I say, "I know I can do it."

I practice a few more times making the jar float, and having fun doing it. I am now able to drop it and make it stop falling after a second.
I talk to the dream and the school I believe I am attending and ask what's next or if I should continue the lesson.
Now I am in a giant version of the garage in my childhood home. Watermelons start flying at me. I hit and kick them and make them bounce off each other. I grab one and try to take a bite of it.
I have a giant metal wrench and I'm hitting some metal things (?). I see a giant person and ask if he wants to fight, but he seems to ignore me. I hit a stack of red hot cogs, or metal discs and they go flying.
I lose lucidity. Someone is talking about dictators and is going to cut my fingers off with a knife.

Color Code: Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid, Waking life notes

Dream Lesson 4: Basic Control

March 6, 2015

I am outside with my girlfriend in a clearing with woods around us. I see what looks like an old camping tent that is fallen over and dirty, maybe with some other garbage. There is also some stuff inside it.
I point it out to my girlfriend and say "It's disquieting. Is that the right word?" She says another word, maybe "misgivings." The tent moves and I realize there are people sleeping in it. They are just campers. I say "sorry," for waking them, and move on.

I realize I am in a dream. I tell my girlfriend that there actually were no people in the tent the first time I saw it, but then when the dream decided there was, the people appeared there. I say it was a dream plot twist.
My girlfriend and I are sitting on some steps in a doorway. I show her how I can pinch my nose shut and still breath through it. I prompt her to do it and it works for her too. I say "isn't that cool?" She agrees it is cool, but seems more interested in something else. I get caught up in sexual activity until I wake up.

I reenter a conscious dream. I am still preoccupied with sexual desire. I find a woman, but she turns into a cat.
Finally, I remember my goal to take dreaming school lessons and I say so out loud. I zip up my pants and ask if my lesson goal is to avoid sexual distraction. I say "Please show me if that's right, thank you."
Someone else who is with us now points toward a short hallway and a door. There is also a small shelf and a bowl of fruit. I hear musical chimes like from Mario 64 when you unlock a new area or item. I say "thank you" again, putting my palms together in front of me. I want to show gratitude to the dream. I approach the door, noticing that there is light around the edges. My girlfriend and the other person are staying behind. I say "thanks guys," as I step though the door.

I am in a small room and now the light is out. I say "another dark room..." because this has been common in my lucid dreams. I find a light switch and flip it and the light comes on. Now I can see more clearly and there is color. I am pleased that it worked.
I look at my reflection in a mirror and begin removing my teeth, all together like fake teeth. I am doing this just for fun, but I am also thinking how my next lesson should be about basic control and manipulation.
I turn away from the mirror and wake up. I try to stay still to enter a dream again, but my legs are very itchy.