Nightmares
Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid March 20, 2011: Terrible, emotionally exhausting dreams tonight. In one, I was in an army that was sent to attack and kill innocent people, unprovoked. Later, I walked through the area and saw the aftermath. There were dead and injured people all over, and lots of damage to the building. It felt like I was in a movie, but everything was real. Another dream, same night: I was in a restaurant that was attacked. The windows were smashed in. A bunch of people held out babies and used them as weapons. The babies vomited all over the place.
Dream Lucid Partially lucid Feb. 10, '11: I was driving my car on the highway, going to work. I did not have very good control over the car. (a common dream sign) I blacked out for a few seconds and realized I had been in an accident. We pulled over. someone was hurt and had to go to the hospital. Another man was angry. I was very upset. N arrived and I told her what happened. I told her that I was going to work, even though I don't work there anymore. I thought I had woken up from a dream, thinking I had to go to work, like I was still in the dream state of mind after waking up. So I thought I was confusing dream and waking reality. This is another example of a dream screwing with my mind. Then I was in my parents' house, in the kitchen. Finally it occurred to me that I could be dreaming. I was too caught up in the moment earlier to think of it. I pinched my nose and breathed through it, confirming that I was dreaming. My parents were there and I slapped them in the face (playfully?). I talked to Anna and told her that I never really knew her very well.