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Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid Waking life notes

February 14, 2014:

I am walking through a college campus. I suddenly become lucid, for no apparent reason, and look around. I enter a room full of people. I want to find a woman who was in a class with me earlier. She was nice, but I don't remember anything else about her, so no one can help me find her.

I go into a classroom. There is a class in cession. It looks to be about something very boring. The class filled with only men. I say to them something like "Why are you having this boring class? This is a dream!"
I try to prove it to them by making a desk chair float. I lift it and let go, but the chair simply falls to the floor. I then put the chair on a table, with some difficulty. I put another desk chair on top of it, but they both fall over.
I am annoyed and disappointed and say "Why does my dream have normal physics?!"


Now, hours later in the day, I am wondering, why did my lucid dream objects behave that way? For a long while now whenever I try most things in a lucid dream that I can't do in reality, it feels like I am only pretending to do it, no different than if I did it in waking life. Why is this? Is my imagination lacking, for some reason?

I don't know why some night I have good dream recall and other nights I barely remember anything. I can't figure out what the variables are.
Last night I tried Mascot's "Dreaming Potion" before bed, as directed in this thread.
In the first half of the night I had some strange and unusual dreams, but I don't remember them. In the second half of the night I only remember a couple of fragments of average type dreams.
I will try the dreaming juice again tonight. Maybe I should drink it after five or six hours of sleep.

The last few nights while trying to enter a lucid dream with the same techniques that has worked before, I would either be too tired to focus, or I would become too awake and not able to fall back asleep. The latter is the most annoying.

Things to work on and remember:

- Do not think about trying to fall asleep. This makes it harder to actually fall asleep.
- If my nose is congested, get up and blow it before trying to sleep. Otherwise, it will be a constant distraction.
-Use a thinner blanket. I get too hot with the new down comforter on me, and too cold with off.
- Do not try too hard. It has been difficult to get the right balance of passivity and aggression. I hope with continued, consistent practice, that I will make some progress in this area.
- Continue to work towards the goal of consistent, conscious waking without movement. This should greatly help with staying relaxed enough to re-enter a dream.