non-lucid

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

Oct. 13, 2011
I am on a sidewalk by the street with two other people, a man and a woman. Two ghosts appear. They are the ghosts of the family of the two people. One ghost is the dad of one of the people.
I say "Why can't we see more ghosts?" as I look around.

The girl tells me that I could see the ghost of someone I knew, if I really want to. So I think about seeing my grandfather (my mom's dad) while rubbing the sides of my head.
An orangutan appears. I say "Grandpa was not an orangutan."
He waves at me and I wave back, and he vanishes.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

October 11, 2011

I put a large lawnmower on top of some people in a convertible. The lawnmower is not turned on. They push it over and off of them.
I begin to fly away. The people have turned into a young (pre-teen) boy, who says he is going to throw gravel at me. I tell him that the gravel is made of foam.
The kids yells "You shit doodles!" So I take him literally and I poop out drawings.

Then I have a wedgie. Now I am in some kind of business building. I say aloud that I need to go to the bathroom "to take care of this."
I go into a restroom. Two of the walls are windows through which I can see the receptionist desk.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

May 22, 2011: A woman and a young guy (18 or 19) are in a car with 17th or 18th century style chairs, and no roof. The woman gets out and goes to the door of a large building.
They are both like characters from the Matrix, in attitude and appearance. They are wearing long coats.
The Boy thinks he knows everything, but is wrong. He thinks a man loves the woman, but the person is actually a woman. The boy has chocolate on his mouth as he talks in a serious tone.

A corner of the building, near the door, looks like the walls are made of human skin and painted over. The woman lifts the thin walls, they were just lightly glued together. She says the wall is full of guns, or weapons.
Inside, there is a secret room, where experiments or some secret activities are done.

Now I am part of the action, not just observing. I hear someone say there is a new species.
Suddenly, an alien monster appears, although I don't see it. I run and jump on top of a wall. The creature sees me and runs very fast towards me. I shoot at it but the bullets are useless. It jumps at.

I yell out "Stop! Pause!" and the creature stops in mid-air. I have no idea what to do. I say "I guess I just... get killed." Then the creature gets me and i wake up.

nonlucid lucid partially lucid

March 11, '11: I was the principal of a middle or high school. I was in a towel. A small robot bug kept following me and going under me. I didn't like it at all. I picked up the robot bug and bent it, breaking it in the middle. Then I threw it at a huge aquarium in my office.
The glass shattered and the water spilled out onto the floor, along with a large salamander-like creature.
Then I was myself. The room was flooded, a few feet deep, and I was trapped in there with the salamander and a very big python.

I was scared and called out for help. I hid in the back of the room, in a small space above the water, with a cat.
A woman came to help, possibly the nurse. She took a pillow and blanket and placed them on top of the water for me to step on. The snake was going under the water, its tail was still above the water. My cat ran for the open door and grabbed onto the snake's tail. I was afraid the python would kill her. But she bit the snake and got away.

The woman carried me out of the room and saved me. Then it turned sexual as she began to play with my penis.
But then I woke up.

Dream Lucid Partially lucid

Feb. 24, '11: I was in a car, passenger, I think. An angel was driving a car behind us. The girl in the car with me said the angel didn't like me. There was a big truck beside us, the angel car did something to put us in danger and we almost crashed.
I thought I was ok, but then I realized i was floating above the road and I had died.
I was Buffy (from Buffy the Vampire Slayer), and also partially George (from Dead Like Me). I saw my body on the road, along with the girl who was in the car with me. I was dead and a ghost. I became very upset and started crying.

I had been working with dead people for a long time. Now I was one.
Then I was in the kitchen, sitting on the counter and washing dirt off my feet in the sink.

Emotionally exhausted, I was led to a room and told I could stay there as long as I wanted/needed to, until I was ready to move on. To the rest of the world, I was dead. The place was like an apartment for ghosts.
There were three other dead people in room next to mine. They had been staying there for many years. I had known them when I was alive, but not when they were alive.
I sat in a chair, with a woman, in her room. She was comforting me.
I became angry at a cat that was bothering me, and I yelled "I'll kill you!" Then I started crying again.
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I was walking down the driveway, towards my parents' house. At first I though I was just imagining in and now yet asleep. Then I thought I was possibly awake and really there. I asked myself if I had just walked to the mailbox. I couldn't remember, so I concluded that I was dreaming.

I found some small pools of water among green moss and grass. I dipped my hands in the water and lifted some in my cupped hands. I thought about drinking it, but the water wasn't very clean looking.
Then it got cloudy and rather windy. I didn't like it.

I called up to the sky and asked the dream what my spiritual name was. I cupped my palms over my ears to listen, because it was windy and noisy. I heard a voice respond, and I said "thank you" to the sky.

I want to keep the name that the dream gave me private. In the dream, I didn't remember what the name meant, but I knew I had heard it before. After I woke, I had an idea of what it meant and I wasn't sure if I should accept it. Later, looked it up. I was mostly right about what it meant, but there were other things about it that I think makes it OK to use in my dreams.

Then I said, to myself "if this is my dream, who makes the wind and the clouds? A part of myself?" It was getting very dark and windy, like a storm. The sky voice said something I didn't understand.
I was blown away, into the air.
It's like the dream was showing me that it was stronger than me.
I ended up in a room, floating. There was a man who was not solid, who then disappeared.
A hand and arm went through my chest. There was a weird toy or doll hanging from the ceiling.

Dream Lucid Partially lucid

Feb. 7, '11:
1) I had a short lucid moment when I told my mom to have a sense of humor in dreams. She was upset by something I had said.
I asked her if she knew where Sheila was. Then I asked again with different wording. I asked for Sheila to be there.
I saw a girl in the kitchen that did not look like Sheila. She had darkish skin and was very sexy. We had sex for a few seconds until I woke up.

2) I was back in my parents' house, in the dining room. (Not like how I'm usually there in my dreams, like I'm still living there. In this dream I had returned to visit.) Braden approached me and talked about art school. Several people gathered at the table, I think for a Bible study. My dream journal was open on the table. I picked it up and closed it, saying there could be inappropriate stuff in it.

Dream Lucid Partially lucid

Feb. 3, '11:
1) There was a hamster that kept attacking a pocket watch that I had. The hamster would growl and bite at it. It got more crazy and I couldn't get it away from the watch long enough to hide it.
Then the hamster stopped moving. There was something wrong with its brain. I didn't know what to do.

2) I was a scientist. Three young boys sneaked into my time machine. It was shaped kind of like a giant laptop, and the whole thing was inflatable. The boys threw a ball into an empty space in the underside of the machine.
It was floating on water. It started to deflate and an alarm went off. I ended up in the water, which had turned green.

3) I had a very short lucid moment. I was flying when i realized I was dreaming. I looked at my hands and landed on a roof. That's all I remember.

Not very good dream recall these past few days.

January 29, 2011: I was with N in a building of some sort. It was like a hotel and/or a mall. I was going to go look for my grandmother (don't know which one), but I was nervous about it.
I got lost, with some girl with me. Someone started throwing bombs at us. Then the bombs were exploding ice being shot at us.

Then I was in a building with lots of old, deformed people. It was partially a school. I wanted to draw on a door that I saw, but I couldn't because there was someone nearby who would see me.
An old lady in a wheelchair picked me up and hugged me.

January 30, '11: There might have been something with legos. I'm not sure. Then it was like Land of the Lost, but in my parents driveway. There was a large T-rex sort of dinosaur, and a King Kong.
I became annoyed because it didn't make any sense.
I saw big spiders in all of the trees lining the driveway.

Dream Lucid

January 27, '11: All my dreams tonight were unpleasant.
In one dream, My cat, Lilly, was playing in the snow in the middle of a road. She would burrow into the snow. I hurried outside to get her before a car ran over her. But it was difficult because my pants were down and I couldn't get them up. I did save her, but I was stressed and worried that she might do it again.

Jan. 28, '11: Uncle traveling Matt, the Fraggle, was in my grandparents' house (dad's side). He tripped and fell down the stairs. Then he was just the lifeless puppet used in the show. I held it and hugged it.
It was made of foam and I thought it could easily rip.

There was a DVD that was kind of stuck. It was paused and still playing at the same time. That's why the Fraggle stopped moving and why I could manipulate him (rather than it just playing the regular show).
A woman there said she had ruined a video game that way. If I left the DVD paused too long, it would start recording over the show with a video of me with the puppet.

Dream

January 24, '11: I was outside, in a tree, wrapping a string around a branch. I heard someone whistling coming from the woods. It was my grandpa.
Then I was inside. It was late at night. I was in a big house with lots of large windows. It was a vacation house.

I saw a black panther outside. It was bigger than a person, and it had a baby panther with it. The large panther saw me and got inside somehow. It chased me and jumped at me. I grabbed it and choked it. I could squeeze its throat shut, so it couldn't breath. But I didn't want to kill it. I threw it over the railing of a stairwell.

Later, I thought if I put the cat in water it would dissolve. I said I remembered this from a dream. (I really have had a dream about a cat that that was attacking me dissolving in water). The panther was now a house cat. I called it a jaguar.
My family was seated at a dining table. My parents called Don Juan, or Castaneda to ask him why I was having this experience.

Non-lucid Lucid

Jan. 22, '11: I tried the same breathing and relaxing method as the night before. I didn't get as close to consciously falling asleep as last night, but I did feel myself slip closer to sleep a couple of times.

Dreams: I was on a school bus. I had to climb over folded seats to get out. The door was very narrow and I barely fit through. I wondered how bigger people fit through it.
Outside the bus, there were lots of young people, possibly teenagers or college students. I jumped on a car and rocked it up and down.
I knew I was dreaming. Although I probably wasn't fully conscious. I was carrying some books or something. I threw them far away, toward some trees on a hill. The objects flew and vanished, with magic.
Then I jumped into the air and dived toward the ground. My hands went into the ground, without breaking the dirt. I could feel the soil even though my hands were nonphysical.
I walked around a bit. I was chewing on something. It was kind of gross and I wanted to spit it out.
I woke slightly and the scene changed.

I was in my grandparents' house (father's side), at a big table. I was still lucid, but my limbs were numb and hard to move.

A separate dream, no longer lucid: I was in college, a new semester, sitting in a computer lab. A class started. I had another class to go to. I got up and walked to the door to leave, but I had forgotten my soda and my shoes. There was a small fridge under the computer. I walked back to the computer, in front of the teacher to get my things.

Another dream: I was outside. It was dark. We passed a parked vehicle. Eddie pointed out a grasshopper on the vehicle, knowing that I don't like them. I mostly ignored him, saying I had seen it earlier. Then he threw the grasshopper at me and I woke up. I grumbled and said "little shit..."

January 12, '11,
Sometimes I remember dreams that I don't even know how to describe.
Like last night, it started out with me playing with a female dog with puppets on my hands. A male dog showed up and was trying to mate with the female dog. I thought that I was probably suppose to keep them from mating, but I didn't do anything about it. The owner of the girl dog appeared and I was afraid he would be mad. But the girl dog was wearing something around her waist to keep her from getting pregnant.

He stuck his finger into a hole in the dog's belly, and pulled out some of her intestines. They were really long and thin. And then this is when the dream gets hard to describe.
I was helping with operating on the dog, but it didn't look anything like a dog anymore. It was like a two-dimensional representation of part of the dog's intestines, laid out on the ground, big enough for us to stand inside. We were trying to move a string/chain that was somehow suppose to go inside the intestines, but was partially hanging out. Sort of. Even that isn't a very accurate description of what was going on. I was standing in the way and the string/chain was caught behind my legs.

Then I had a ball of some sort, like a small basket ball, and I had to find an empty place to put it with all the other basketballs on the ground, in a large field. There were also people sitting in chair and tiny frozen animals in the grass that I had to be careful not to step on and break. This was all still part of the operation.

I grabbed onto someone's leg and slid down a hill, still holding the ball and trying not to touch the ground.

And that's all I remember. What the heck was all that?

Non-lucid Partially lucid

January 11, 2011: I went upstairs in my Grandparents' house (the non-living ones). There was a ghost up there that started talking to me.

I don't remember everything that happened while I was up there. I got increasingly creeped out and went a little crazy.

I chased a noisy vacuum cleaner around, trying to turn it off. The noise was really bothering me.
Then I somehow ended up back home. It was dark in my room. There was a glowing blue light coming from a digital clock or something. I was still scared of there being ghosts.

I said "Let's do something else until we forget about it and it goes away. Because this is a dream and that's how it works."

But I did not become fully lucid. The dream continued for a few minutes longer and then I woke up. So that was kind of disappointing.

I had my first lucid dream of the year on the first day of the year. It wasn't a great one, but any lucid dream is better than none.

January 1, 2011: First, I was in a non-lucid dream, waiting in a long line to use a pay phone. Some guy in line picked up a piece of broken glass and tried to stab me with it. I grabbed his arm and we struggled.
Then I woke up, but I didn't move. I felt vibrations and eventually entered a new dream. But I couldn't see. I sat up and moved around in the dark and tried to open my eyes, but it just made me return to my physical body (wake slightly).
I entered another conscious dream. I tried to fly, but gravity felt real. I put my hands on a table and sort of pushed with my hands and jumped at the same time. I pinched my nose to see if I was actually dreaming. I could still breath. Then I floated off the ground with no effort.
The scene changed. I was walking through a house, pushing doors open to walk through them, even though I was pretending to be a ghost. I went into a bedroom where I scared several cats. It sort of scared myself too and I woke up.

A later non-lucid dream on the same night was very interesting, I thought.
I was in a church building (I stopped going to church in waking life years ago), people there were arguing about whether or not to write another part to the Bible (a New New Testament?).
There was a large plug hanging from the wall. Part of it started glowing red, indicating that it was time to write the new holy book. The guy who was going to do it had left. The plug was glowing even more when I picked it up.
Suddenly I lost control of my arms. I lifted the plug over my head and put it into the back of my head.
I felt a strong rush of energy go through me and I woke up, thinking it was like going into another plain of existence.

I thought I should return to the dream to write about it, but I couldn't.