International Oneironaut Shared Dreaming Journal

Windhover's Dream

My family and neighbor from upstairs are at some kind of building/ school. I'm inside the building, running down the stairs. then suddenly my dead grandpa in IRL attacks me with a fruit knife. (IRL it's not that I hate him, but he was kind of a psycho. I didnt like him) He's holding the knife in his right hand. I grab his two arms to block. (omg...I just remembered that this attack is from my comic?) The pointy knife comes closer to me. but due to his senile(?) he loses his energy bit by bit, then I could push him forward. I snatch his knife and stab into his stomach. He thumps on the floor, not moving, but I have to make sure he's completely dead; I stab again in his heart. the feeling of stabs are really vivid. then my dad and brother appear; I think that killing my grandpa is part of the plan. my dad says that I should hide the knife. there are several people outside who are close to me, so I hide it in my back, holding it. We get out and I stand in front of my neighbor. I drop the knife on the ground behind me, and cover it with some soil. the blood that was all over knife taints the soil; it was noticeable... my mom and neighbor say: what's that behind you? so I say, it's just a stick.. -.- and I lie to them that there's a dead old man in the building.
I really regret that I murdered a person. I'm very scared of outcomes: detectives are gonna find out my fingerprints...getting arrested, spending years in jail..
later the police arrived and search the scene. We have to wait a the building for some sort of big event (I think there was other murder in the building), but I want to leave so bad.
my mom and neighbor get in the car to leave early, maybe just for resting in our home, so I ran to the car, taking the seat that I want to leave early too. We arrive at our home.

when I woke up I was so relieved that it was a dream. another nightmare...