non-lucid

I'm at a café with Albin. I ask him if it's a dream and he is confused. I tell him that it's nothing and that it's just a RC. I look into my plastic cup and see a straw. I take it up and wonder if I should unwrap it. I think about how it is bad for the environment if I trash it without using it. I unwrap it anyways and suck in air with it. I walk to the counter and watch the trash can and wonder if I should throw the straw. I walk out to the street with Albin and find myself in Centrum by the big hill outside Partaj.

Notes: I woke up early and didn't remember much from my dreams. I did have a strong impression that I was lucid or something like it. I remembered this dream 30 minutes after I woke up. I haven't seen Albin in a long time.

Didn't get that much sleep tonight.

I'm in the TV room upstairs and I'm talking with dad. Mom comes in and joins us.

Notes: The family except mom spent time in the TV room upstairs yesterday.

I set an alarm 07.00 and wanted to try to turn on my lamp and then try to sleep one hour again. I had an idéa that this would make me dream more vividly/have many dreams. I didn't recall any dreams from the night but remembered two dreams from the one hour nap.

I see my old french book in a shelf. I grab it and lie in my bed to read it. As I open it up my old french teacher Magnus enters. He asks what I am doing and I showcase my book and say that I am doing my homework. He says that I only have a C in french and that school lays a lot of money on us and that if I want to I can get extra help. New fragment. Someone is talking about how the world is going to be filled with water so that we can eat more fish. I see a big house under water as I hear this. I hear another voice that says that the water is way too cold and that it wouldn't be energy efficient. New fragment. I'm in the same room as I was before with the french book. There is a one meter long blue fish with some kind of fur on it on the floor. There is a girl that is fascinated by the fish and pets it. I pour some water on it so that it can feel comfortable. When I pour water on it I accidentaly rip the eye out from the fish. The eye falls out and fall on the floor. The eye looks like an olive. I look at the fish's eye and notice that there isn't any blood there and I wonder why. I feel really guilty and bad. Suddenly there is a grey transparent liquid coming out from the hole where the eye was before. New fragment. We have walked outside and Nellie and Sara is there. There is a big hole with water at the bottom. Nellie wants to jump into the water but she thinks it is too high to jump. She takes the stairs instead but because she is only a small child it takes a long time. I am annoyed because I am in a hurry for something. Sara takes a big sprint and tries to jump over the stair into the water but only comes halfway and hurt herself as she lands on the stone steps.

Notes: Today is the first day of school in a long time. I feel the pressure. I don't have french anymore but I think it will always be the subject that symbolizes school because it put so much pressure on me.

There is a big train and I see a group of children inside the train. There is another group of children somewhere else in the train too. The train is moving slowly and there are four guards outside the train with guns that is guarding them so they won't escape. The second group of children is talking to the first group about how the guards won't shoot the second group and that they can escape because of this. New fragment. The children are walking next to the rail. There is a spring on the rail that a child takes up and puts a trap on so that the train will break.

Notes: I read The Promised Neverland about two months ago and this reminded me of that serie.

I'm in our kitchen but it is in Japan. There are some people from church in Kristianstad there and they talk about fighting. I ask them if you can punch someone in a special way and one of them punch me that special way when I ask. He punches me so hard that I fall to the ground and can't stant up at first. When I lie on the ground I am supposed to do sit-ups. They tell me to take my hands to protect my face. The right hand is supposed to be just under the nose and the left hand over the nose. Every third sit-up I am supposed to punch the air two times. Benjamin and Samuel show me how to do it. They look very weak and they have a really hard time doing the sit-ups. I walk to the dining room and there are the Japanese family. There are some rings on the table and I look at them. They are bent in ways so you can't wear them anymore. Monica is there and she teaches me how to make a "burva" (In my dream a burva is a small paper cone). I succeed in the first try. I tell her that I will never have any use for this knowledge. She tells me that you must know these things in order to succeed in life. I say something mean about the Japanese family to dad but realizes that they might have heard me. I look around and find that no one is there. I wonder to myself why people travel the world, for example to Japan. I think that it is because humans are good to adapt. Therefore they can adapt to different countries and have a good time at different places.

Notes: The Japanese family was the rich mom and dad from the movie Parasite. We talked about Benjamin yesterday. I have just seen some bad sides of Samuel and I think that his weakness in the dream is a sign of how I view him. I often have conversations about how most things in school you learn is useless that reminds me a lot of the conversation I had with Monica in the dream.

I wake up 03.20 and try to wild but fail. It is frustrating that I can't succeed.

I had an alarm 10.00 and turned on the lamp. I wanted to remember some more of my dream so I went to my bed again and closed my eyes. I dreamt about the two next dreams after that.

My view is following my mom when she was about my age. She talks about how her seven scarfs disappointed her when she wore them. She and her famiy walk to a "trade your clothes for other cloth store". Someone of the girls is complaining about how poor they are. There is a room with different red and black striped shirts. Mom is becoming a bit crazy and grandma tell mom that she shouldn't have too many red and black striped shirts. I think it is weird to only have shirts of one style in your wardrobe. Mom already has a red and black striped shirt that looks about the same as the ones she takes. Grandma takes the shirts to the checkout and leaves two other shirts and takes mom's shirts. I get a body of my own now and walk to the exit. There is a painting on the ground about how you should not buy things if you can't afford it and a poor man that is standing alone in a store.

Notes: Mom's family was a bit poor when they were younger. I saw a poster about a store where you trade clothes for other clothes about two weeks ago. I wore a black and red striped shirt yesterday.

I'm outside our house and I am supposed to find out if the mini monsters are friendly or bad. Me and Morgan see the monsters behind a big house. The monsters comes to us and we wonder if they are evil.

I wake up 10.45

I'm by a big road and it is parted into two smaller roads. I walk to the left road and have some friends with me. There comes a wave of evil monsters and I have to protect my friends.

Notes: There was a really intense bond between me and my friends. I am fascinated of how dreams can make us believe we have known our dc:s our whole life. I watched some scary movies with my friends and cousins yesterday night. I had a dream about guns too.

I'm at a greek scen and looking at people who are acting. There is a naked man on stage.

I'm in a fancy house with many people at a party. I go into a big room and into the toilet. There is a person that kills me and cuts me up into very small parts and my view becomes like a movie. They put my body into a sack and cut down more people and put them into the sack. Annika puts the sack under her shirt and applies a fake stomach over it. She looks pregnant and I am somehow feeling her stomach. They walk out and there are two indian people who are with the heist. They walk into a hotel and to the elevator. The woman starts to cough up fake blood and the man starts to scream for medical care to take their attention. They get a room and walk up to it.

Notes: I watched a video where Gatis Kandis showed how to hide toilet paper and put it under his shirt so it looked like he had a big belly.

Tuva is my girlfriend but we don't see each other because we don't have anything to do together. I take a moped and drive to her because I want to break up with her and not just let it pass away because that would be bad. The moped I use has a broken pedal and sometimes I have to push really hard with my foot for the engine to start. There are some cars in front of me and back and I drive past Pastabaren. Eni is there and greets me, he thinks it's cool that I drive the moped. I reach Tuvas home and walk in. Her family is there and I meet her parents. When I walk in Tuva says that I absolutely can't express my love for her. I tell her that I need to tell her something in private and that I am not going to express my love for her. She follows me to the porch and I tell her that I don't want what we have to just slip into the water slowly but that it is better that we put an end to it here and just be friends. It comes out very good and I am able to express myself. She says that I am right and we walk in again. There is a 2.5 litre juice package that I have never seen before. I take a glass and pour some into it. It's so big that some of the juice is spilled out. I walk out and meet Eni again. He seems happy.

Notes: I've had a similar moped situation where I have to manually start it over all the times.

I dig some gold by scratching the surface with a big stone. Some other people are there and I show them how to do it too.

I'm in church and Elina has a baby there. I play with it for some time. I walk to my cousins and see that Therese also has a new baby. I play with it but it is really slippery and I can't hold it for long. I almost drop it but Peter saves the baby. I tell him that she is really slippery. The Children are very annoying and Jonathan and Oskar is fighting over a mobile game.

Notes: I love babies.

I'm in a snowy place and I am looking up a hill. There are my Norwegian cousins. There is a man that I don't know who is about to slide down the snow hill with only his skiing boots on. He succeeds and is very happy with himself because of his old age (he is about 45 years old). I have skies on me and ski with Tobias. I walk into a hut but my vision is getting darker and I can't control my legs properly. I fall down on the ground and look up. There is a small girl about 13 years old that is caring for me. She lies next to me and is kind of petting me. I think it is awkward to lie so close to her and that if someone sees they might get the wrong idea. I still like her company because I havn't got any power to stand up. I see Stefan but he likes that she cares for me.

There is a secret room with a code on it. There is a girl that says to me that I have to go in. There is a four digit code and she opens it. There is a big boy around 17 years old and he copies the code without my persmission. He wrote down 1 4 9 9 vertically on a paper.

Notes: I remembered much more when I woke up in the night but didn't want to write it down and see how much I remembered when I woke up if I really focused on remembering the dream.

I'm in a big room with stoves and a lot of monotonic black drawers. I was just hired to work here and they are giving me instructions. The one showing me around feels like Julia. She says that I need a name tag and learn how to fix different things. She shows me my own fridge that I have private access to. There is a hamburger and she tells me to always put the sauce on lastly. I say that it makes sense because otherwise it will become soggy. I look on the hamburger and there are two cucumber slices and a very bad looking tomato slice. I see a big bag in a trash can and think that I accidentaly put it there so I take it out and put it on a big shelf. There is a big fridge with strawberries in it. I ask the main boss if I should take four strawberries and put them in my fridge. She says that I need 11 and that I need to slice them first. The one guiding me earlier says to the big boss that it is not necessary to cut them anymore and the big boss says "okey, so they changed that". We walk to the right and there are many workers that are frying Singoalla biscuits directly on the stoves. I wonder to myself how the boss can let these workers do things like this. I think to myself that they probably aren't good tasting but that I understand how someone could like it. I see how the biscuits get golden brown and how the cream inside melts just a little bit and it looks much more appetizing now. There is a big chocolate muffin that is soaked with butter and looks very good. The boss inspects the muffin and says to the workers "This is why you should have become a film crew instead!".

Notes: I work at Subway and this is really how I think of them. They change how things are all the times and because I only work on the summers there are a lot of changes that I have to learn each time. I recently got a mail that I have to do two hours of online courses because we have to re learn some new things. My co-workers at Subway usually do random food combos that isn't good. Some people took white bread and dipped it in a cola drink and ate it for example.

I'm very emotional and cry to my dad. I have some kind of board. About 1x1 meter. There are many emblems on it and I get two more from my dad. I am happy because I finally have all of them. I try to use some magic from one of the emblems but I don't succeed. I think to myself that I only can use them in dreams and that I have to wait until I sleep.

Notes: Well that was funny. The dream was much longer and I saw the emblems in the dream. I remember they were beautiful with shiny coulors but not how they looked.

I'm playing piano and there is music playing. I try to find the right chords to the music and I succeed. It goes very easy and I only have to use the white keys (the music is in C). I make some big jumps over the piano and miss the right chord. My grandma I is also there listening.

I'm standing by a beach with William. I talk about all the different kinds of cells in our body and how they work. We talk about ships on the ocean too.

Notes: I had a big biology test yesterday and now I dream about it. Me, dad and William was going to a friend today.

I'm sitting on a bed with IT and we are talking about something. The wall to my right is a glass wall and I see the people and town walking outside. I talk about the trachea and how I could strangle him with a throwing tool I have in my hand. He seems afraid. I Keep on pushing him mentally and he becomes unstable. He goes on a rampage and throws himself under the bed. I am scared because I don't know where he might show up. I get confidence because I was able to scare him earlier. I walk of the bed and prepare to face him, thinking that I can beat him. He jumps me from under the bed with long nails, sharp teeth and his arms stretched out against me. I become lucid and try to wake myself up. He starts to tickle me and it is terrible. I wake up.

Notes: In biology we talk about the different body parts that are active during respiration, the cell, digestion and circulation. I have a test on these subjects in two days and I am nervous and should have practiced more. In the dream I use biology as a weapon.

I'm in a cellar. I'm being hunted and decide to hide in some kind of big container in a public bathroom. There comes a green slime monster and it jumps into the container and dissolves into some kind of hidious green mixture. My vision is changed to outside the container and I see the mixture is moving disgustingly. There comes a new creature in the bathroom. It is a large man without a shirt that looks brain dead. He jumps into the container and all his body contents are being pushed out from his behind until there is only a loose skin of him. His contents are not intestines as you would expect. It is diarrhea! I am inside this container but my vision is from above and I see the mixture blending with the green slime. My senses of disgust is almost making me puke and I feel horrible. But this is not the end. Monster after monster comes in and I have this afraid feeling at the same time I have this disgusted feeling. All the monsters jump in and dissolve into diarrhea and I am somehow counting how many things have jumped in and dissolved. I counted to ten. New fragment I am at a beach with Olivia, Stefan and Gabriel. We walk inside a big cabin and it is pouring rain outside. I look at the water and the big waves outside. Gabriel shows me some kind of cylinder device with many holes in the bottom. There are four clays with distinct coulors. Blue, yellow, red and green. Gabriel shows me how the clays start to rise from the holes and that I am like the red clay. The red clay is superior and rises over the other clays. He says that this is how the different clays impact on the greenhouse effect. I am proud over it and says that is the way I am (I did not think about it in the dream but there were four people in the room and four clays. Maybe each colour represented each one of us). Olivia changes the subject and we talk about going out swimming but I say it is too cold. I think in my head how warm it would have to be for me to go and swim. I start with 19 degrees celsius but end up at 25 degrees celsius.

Notes: I felt a bit stomach sick yesterday evening which may have resulted in the disgusting dream. When I woke up I was afraid to go to the bathroom because of the disgusting dream which makes it to a nightmare too. Yesterday I did some math and showed my family how we could have saved more than 1 million kr (113 000 USD) by only eating egg each day for the past 16 years. I told them it is nutritious, cheap and better for the environment than red meat. I am fighting for the environment and doesn't know why the dream me acted as if I didn't care.

I tell my family in the dining room that I am allergic to eggs but wonder if they will know I lie because I ate eggs last week.

Notes: That was weird. Why would I ever lie about that? I talked about my allergies with my friends four days ago when we ate at a restaurant.

I have accidentally married with someone I don't like in our bathroom at home. I think dad is there too. It is a double marriage because another pair is also there to marry. My newly wedded wife and I walk into my old room next to the eating room. We talk and my sense of despair disappears because she is not that bad. I walk into my mother's and father's room and there are some naked people in there and I become somewhat lucid. I feel on my face and wonder if this is a dream. I don't quite come there and the dream disappears.

Notes: In physics yesterday I wondered about how many of the girls in my class I would be okey marrying to. I didn't think anyone had the same life goals as I have and that almost none of them would enjoy 80 years with me. I thought about how our everyday life would look like and that my religion affects a lot.

I tried to WILD 03.25 (woke up naturally) and had some kind of weird experience. I had my thoughts and knew I existed. I wake up and remember a whole dream but I didn't remember falling asleep.

Tried out the mantra "I am going to dream about love" to see what my uncounscious thinks love is.

I'm outside with mom. She is supposed to go breastfeeding.

Notes: Breastfeeding may be a symbol for new family members? Maybe my love is for getting a bigger family.

I'm at Håkanssons' and they have all these cars with motorboats on them. I am supposed to drive one of the cars. The boat is on the car's back and it is hanging pretty loosely. I get nervous and think it is going to fall of. We drive to town and everything is going fine.

I am in some kind of universe where everything is a sickly green coulor. My cousins H and Therese are there. We talk about how this is heaven but there is some kind of other heaven that we want to go to. We don't know how the other heaven is, if it is actually better but we just want to go away from this heaven.

Notes: I had some discussions with my friends about what comes after this life two days ago.

I'm in a sofa with two other boys in my age. One of them is a person from my english class. There comes a camera person and we are supposed to record a short movie. The two boys go and sit upside down in the sofa so their heads are pointing down and their legs are up in the air. The camera person goes and record them from a high perspective and films down on them.

There is a giant frog in front of me on a pedestal. I have to jump on it in order to fight it. I somehow get up on the frog and starts to jump on its head. The frog starts to jump really high and I get scared of the height. There is some kind of health bar on the frog and it dies.

Something about my cousin Gabriel.

Notes: I don't remember anything except a very strong precens of Gabriel.

I have some smaller friends who remind me of the Stranger Things company. Helene sends a message to me about aliens that have the ability to brainwash. Some of my smaller friends discuss whether we should try to build gear that can prevent mind control. They say that it is worth trying even if it does not work in the end. New fragment I copy paste the information Helene sent me and send it back to her because I want her to read the instructions. I talk with her over the phone too. She says that she has never seen that information earlier. We understand that Helene has been brainwashed and we prepare the gear. New fragment I sit on a rotatable circle platform with an iron helmet that is notably home made on my head with four other people. The one opposite to me also has a helmet but not the other two people. I start to spin the platform by using my feet against the ground. The smart one that is in charge of the operation says worried that the speed might be too high and that we might die. I keep on spinning and don't care about his statement. There are some of us guarding the door from the aliens. There is a platform from the ceiling were about five aliens stand on that is being lowered. I close my eyes because I think it is a movie and do not want to look on them because I don't like to see scary things on television. My closed eyes don't help me because I still see them. They are tall, green and slimy but has a normal face like humans. They reach the ground and start to walk against us. We spin faster and faster until the energy is full. There is a new platform that starts to rise and takes the aliens with it. The aliens are able to walk of the platform easily but they just stand there. The platform rises to the upper floor and an arm of one alien is trapped and cut of by the elevator. Nobody seems to care. The upper floor is very close to our floor and we decide to run away. I suddenly have very slippery heels and it is almost impossible to move in them. Stefan F is helping me to move. There is an alien that helps us and Stefan says that there is only one double agent. I tell him that we can't be sure and that there may be more. There is a staircase we come to and Stefan walks one way and I walk the other. I don't want to leave him but see that the two different paths we chose led to the same destination only that mine was shorter.

Notes: This was a nightmare and I was scared when I walked to the bathroom in the night. I saw a movie on netflix that Helene tipsed us to watch. We talk about brain control in the english lessons. That feeling when you can't run in a dream is so frustrating.

I wake up 03.20 and wrote down the alien dream. I try to WILD and have a very positive mind that I will succeed. I am able to keep my focus but the itches are bombarding me. It's impossible to relax and I decide to sleep. I had some confusing FA too.

It is some kind of Bolliad and I sit by a table with Diego. There are tables placed in the middle of the room and there are some youths dancing couple dance around us. I see some girls that look lonely that I want to cheer up by dancing with them but I decide not to. The youths that are dancing want to group dance instead but there is a young leader (about 20 years old) that encourages them to keep on dancing in pairs. I look for William and is sad when I remember that he is too old to be there. There are two old sister missionaries (about 70 years old) that talk about all the cakes on the table in front of me. There is a big cake that they want the recipe to.

Had a dream about dad and something too.