non-lucid

08.10.2012

Blonde Anime girl and Rei Ayanami (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for 18+:

I see a picture of a blonde anime girl that is going to get raped. It was like reading a Doujinshi, and there's a panel where the shirt she's wearing is ripped out, exposing her breasts. They were small and firm, and she had a very petite body structure.

Then there's another panel where she's in the missionary position, but this is seen at a side angle. Someone is on top of her, penetrating her intensely as she has her legs cocked up in the air. She looks like she's going to cry, and it's very hard to see who the person having sex with her looked like.

He was all a blur to me, but he really knew how to have rough sex with a girl of her size.

The dream shifts, and it seems I'm going to head out somewhere. I think I'm inside an apartment. The insides are just a blurry brown color with the wooden chairs, sofa, kitchen, etc.

There are two anime looking females in the room. There's a blonde one to the left of me that's holding my left hand, and the other has light blue hair.

I look at the blonde one first, and she looks like the londe female from "The Story of Little Monica."

She smiles and me asks,

"When will you come back?"

It takes me a while to understand what she meant by that. I shift my focus on the light blue haired girl on the right who is probably 5-8 feed away from us. She looks a lot like Rei Ayanami from Neon Genesis Evangelion.

I think she's wearing the white default outfit from the show, but I'm not too sure on that. I only see the profile view of her face, and it seems she was probably speculating about something, or looking down somewhere.

I keep focusing on her until she turns her head towards me, then she blushes, and quickly turns her head back.

Huh?

I most likely went out to go somewhere, but I don't know where.

I wonder why the Rei counterpart was blushing at me and so shy? And then I realized the same blonde anime girl holding my hand was the one who had sex in those panels I mentioned.

So the question is, was it me who had sex with her? And what about Rei? Why would she be blushing....hmm.....

O.O

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08.10.2012

Permission Ticket and Bands (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm at some kind of ticket booth, but before I go anywhere near the employee, I think I go to some other section where I have to fill out some application. It's basically a form on what you like, hobbies, preferred food, etc., at least that's what I assumed when I saw the question,

"What is your favorite band?" I believe there was a girl next to me who asked me that, and I said,

"Just put None" because I honestly couldn't choose one.

"Okay!" she said, and she draws a line through the answer space, something like that. Then I remember getting near the ticket booth for some kind of Permission ticket, though I don't know what it really is for.

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08.10.2012

Dark Merlin Bans Me on IRC (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm logging on the Dream Views IRC, and I talk for a while with some people. Then after a few seconds, Dark Merlin bans me.

It looked more like a disconnection rather than a ban, and I was wondering what I did to actually get banned. I was using the KVIrc system to check things I've said before getting banned.

There honestly wasn't any reason for me to be banned, and I didn't even spam in there or anything like that. Then I was able to get back on after 30 seconds or so. I double checked to see what I did wrong, and Dark Merlin banned me because I used bold font.

I wonder why that would get me banned, and then I saw some red font somewhere on the chat, so I check and find out it's Matte the mod, but his name is spelled as "Mate" in the dream instead. We were all talking about something, probably on why I got banned for a few seconds, but that's all I remember.

08.09.2012

Littlezoe Statue? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in a large room, and it feels like a museum in a way. The dominant colors in here are mostly white intertwined with lighter hues of brown, muddy brown specifically.

(I wish I had the female's sophisticated scale of colors in my head.....just kidding about that. )

It feels so spacious, though I didn't really take that into consideration while in the dream. At my current position, I can look to my left, and I see triangular medium with the top cut off to make a square base has some sort of statue of a cat.

I looked into the composition of the cat, and I keep having feelings that it's somehow associated with Littlezoe on Dream Views. The feelings kept accumulating, and I eventually had to take my eyes off it.

I don't know why, maybe it could be that I didn't want to have my mind saturated with those thoughts, or I had some random objective in this dream.

I believe I go upstairs to do something, but it's all speculation at this point.

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08.09.2012

Lois Griffin and OpheliaBlue Spanking (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wish I could recall more of this....

There's a weird process where if something happens (dang it, why can't I remember?), a person gets intensely spanked. I think Lois Griffin was one of those people, and apparently, OpheliaBlue was next.

OH YEAH..

I remember it being practiced somewhere upstairs in a random building, and there was a small walkway where people can be rolled over and spanked.

Sigh...only a dream, but not a reality...

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08.09.2012

Beer Belly Man (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I really don't want to go into detail of this dream, but to keep disciplining myself with keeping a steady dream journal, here goes...

I remember being in a room with my father, and some random dream characters. Though some of them look familiar to me, they don't really associate with people that would be considered "friends" to me or my father.

I remember the flooring consisting of a dark red carpet layering, and the walls themselves had the same color, or at least some kind of dark color. I remember an old man who's looks Indian is completely naked in the torso region.

He has a beer belly, a REALLY big one, and he has his left arm resting on the side handles of the red sofa-like furniture he's sitting in. He's wearing glasses, and are very trimmed around the edges as well consisting of a black color.

Blah blah blah, that's all I remember.

08.08.2012

I Wanted To Talk To You (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting inside of a classroom, and everything feels so small and confined...it must be a High School type of dream again. Everything is so blurry, even the windows emitting morning light are blurry.

I focus on looking at the desk I'm sitting in, just letting my mind wander around with random thoughts. I believe I had my right hand resting on the right side of my jaw. Just letting more thoughts drift by. I noticed that despite the blurred vision (except when I look at the desk I'm sitting on), the overall dream environment consists of shades of brown.

Everything felt so peaceful, but boring....lukewarm...still...tranquility. I felt someone on the left of me...I thought it was just a randomly generated dream character, so I wasn't really concerned about this. But then her presence gets even stronger, and ignoring her at this point would just be plain rude.

I slowly turn my head to the left...

Brown....

A bit more....and she looks exactly like the Autumn (a person) that I know in waking life. Her skin was smooth, and I think she had Hazel eyes, or close to just being light gray.

She has the same light brown hair as her waking life counterpart, and she's wearing the typical brown hoodie jacket, and has some tank top I believe, or maybe a vest, hard to tell since my main focus was just on her eyes because she was blinking them rapidly to try and get my attention from before.


She's resting her left hand on the left side of her jawline like I am with my right, and I couldn't help but quickly glance at her breasts for a while, at least the cleavage. She giggles and says,

"I wanted to to talk to you!"

I'm still being passive, but I am shocked that she would try to talk to me. Her visage still has me locked on her, and she has my full attention. She starts moving her eyes fairly quickly in short intervals, but she is still acting like a human though. (What I mean is that she isn't moving her eyes so rapidly like she's going through a REM phase or something =P )

I'm waiting for her to say something else to me, but then she elevates herself to straighten her spine, and then she takes quick and short left and right turns of her head, as if she's trying to find someone or make sure that no one is around. She does this for a while, and I pay attention to how ends of her hairstyle are individually flowing around the air with each turn.

When she makes a turn at me, I quickly look at her face again before she turns to the left again.

I'm not sure if you're really interesting in me Autumn....and I realized that my only way of communicating with her in waking life is completely gone...COMPLETELY.

The only point of that dream was that Autumn looked very real....but that's it.

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08.08.2012

Fake Smiles (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside some random store, and it takes a while for me to realize that this store is kind of like a supermarket. The flooring consists mostly of blue or turquoise carpet and some shiny white flooring on some sections.

I look at some shoes being displayed on my right. Some of they are contained by a transparent stand stuck on the wall. I look at a white shoes with gold and black lining to it. It looks fairly small, like the size fitting for a child.

For some reason, I feel like someone's watching me, and I look around at the cashier to see if it's them just looking around making sure no one's being suspicious. I think the cashier is close to looking like an Asian man, maybe mid 40s in age.

He's wearing a light blue fine checkered dress shirt, and I believe he's currently occupied with processing transactions with a customer. I get out of the shoe section, and continue walking around until I see a girl and two guys I believe slowly walking together looking down on a book.

Based on their reactions, it seems they must be looking at a school yearbook or something. Then I take a peek to my right, and noticed that the last High School I attended has mugs and slippers being sold in this store. I take another quick glance at these random items, and the school logo was definitely purple in this dream just like in waking life.

Then I looked back at the girl and her two friends. She looks a lot like someone I know in waking life. Let's call her "Thal." Thal has black curly hair, and it seems she put some kind of gel to make the lighter tones shine more than they should.

She's wearing a white t-shirt, and her breasts are still nicely packed together, and she has a bit of a stomach too. It's not pushing out too much, but she is a little chubby.

Then I look down her legs, and the body ratio does not match at all.....the legs look so skinny, and she barely has any ass to support her fairly huge breasts and torso, especially for her body composition. She's wearing really, really, REALLY, tight skinny jeans, and they are some variant of violet.

From a distance, I think there were little streams going horizontally on her pants that were light violet, or even close to being light pink.

The more these three smiled at each other while looking down on whatever book she's holding, the more I feel negative energy coming off my own body. I wasn't sure if it was jealousy, blind rage, or just feeling lonely, but I started to accumulate more negative thoughts towards these people.

I started to get a little egotistical, just a bit, feeling that I would be a match for hanging with Thal. These people she's hanging around with feels like she's just using them, that they're just temporary placeholders as "friends."

The person walking with her to the right is wearing glasses, is fairly skinny, and has oblong facial structure. The shirt he's wearing looks like a sports shirt, with gray lining starting from the sides of the collar all the way down to end of the short sleeves. Then all three them just looked like robots, just putting out fake laughs at each other, pretending that they're enjoying themselves together as friends....

I couldn't bear to look at this drone type of behavior, and I walked closer to the cash register, maybe 10 feet away from it, to look at more random items. I'm behind a small stand composed of cardboard, and it seems Donuts are contained here.

They looked like any default donut, but the sugar glaze was definitely enticing to look at. Somehow, the small donut stand behind me that's only at least 6 feet or more tall and 12 inches or more wide slowly starts falling down, or maybe it was the other cardboard stand in front of me?

Either way, I quickly use my feet to secure the bottom, and waved my arms in the air frantically, waiting to see where the rest of the stand will fall down. I quickly held it, and then slowly raised it back up. It seemed it was a random dream character that made it close to falling down on the ground.

I wanted to turn around to the cashier and apologize for what just happened just now, but then I realize it's not really my fault at all.

I can't even remember who it was that pushed the stand accidentally or intentionally....

08.07.2012

Blue Haired Lady and Four-Ink Pen (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I don't know the order of these dreams to be honest with you, but I'll put this one first because it's not only a bloody tease, it's hilarious (at least when I looked back to it again)

Wow, I'm lucky to remember this much, probably because of that "one" moment that makes me want to remember as much as possible.

I'm inside a very dark area, and the whole dream itself is reminiscent to Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory.

My mission was hard to follow, and I believe there was an optional side mission I could do by getting $5,200 somewhere in the area I'm going to sneak in. I know this because some person in the darkness wearing some kind of jacket with large collar sides told me. It looked as if they had glasses on, but it was too tedious to confirm in the dark.

The only difference in this dream is that the Noise Meter that is usually apparent in the game's HUD is gone, which means the only thing I have to worry about now it keeping myself in the dark. Things start out where I'm inside of a room that's not really full of lights at all.

It seems to have a style of Japanese flooring you'd see from a mini-temple, and the atmosphere of a work office. Even though there isn't a Noise/sound meter to be conscious of, I think made sure I walked silently.

(The bar above "SC Pistol" with the square in the near middle is the noise meter in Chaos Theory)

It's obvious that the person in this dream I'm looking at most of the time is Sam Fisher, but I feel as if I'm taking control over his body.

I walk silently to peek at what's in the other room that's to the right of me, and the way in is opened completely. I see a man sitting down at his desk working on something, and he's wearing a white dress shirt, with the sleeves folded up all the way to his elbows.

He has black pants as well, and when I was trying to sneak past him, I accidentally stepped into the light, raising my light meter to the near maximum level.

I panicked a little and quickly tried to find some dark areas to hide in. Someone quickly asks, "Who's that?" and I start running even faster to the dark source. It was some random DC wearing a dark blue dress shirt and dark dress pants, and I think this automatically raises the alarm system in the building. The music where you're found out in Chaos Theory is playing as well.

I can even feel that soldiers are going to come in as well. Since the people in the room where I'm found out are unarmed and innocent citizens, I just take the initiative to dash out of the room to a darker and wider space.

The next room is a simple hallway, and I run to the right, and see there's two doors. One involves lock-picking it, and the other seems is most likely unlocked. I attempt in pick-locking the fancy looking one first, but I had a feeling something bad was going to happen.

I quickly braced on the wall to the right of me, and there's a line of armed soldiers who look like Tengu troops from Metal Gear Solid 2 running past me. My foot was at least 1 inch away from them stepping on my feet, and I froze in fear. All of them didn't even know I was there....

I watch them go to the door I came into, and then turned back to get ready to lock-pick the door again.

What a flawed security they have! Soldiers with machine guys and metal armor....what a bunch of cannon fodder...

I get the lock-picks, and when I start lock-picking an interface comes up. It shows a see-through version of the door knob, and I see this in the night vision goggles (I find it weird I only use the goggles for this and not while sneaking in the dark...).

I get the feel of the lock, listening for any rapid clicking, and managed to get one part finished. I feel around some more with the lock-picks, and finally get the final part. I twist them together and the door opens. I believe there's a door to the right of the new hallway I'm in, and I go inside, and find that I'm floating on water.....

I go underwater without trying to hold my breath before, and I to my left, I see a portrait of a King with a Crown. The portrait is probably as long as my dream body, and it seems to be covered with some random broken objects. I take them out one by one, and then noticed something sparking on the portrait.

The crown on the King's head is actually real, and after struggling a bit to move it around, I take it out. Something tells me that this crown is $5,000 or more, so I guess by luck, I finished the optional mission that I mentioned above.

The dream shifts, and I honestly don't know what I would do after getting the crown.

It seems I'm back at the same starting point as before, so I guess this must be a dream reset or something.

I crouch down and walk silently towards two people talking casually. I tune in on what they're saying, but I'm also paying attention on whether or not they're going to close in on my location obliviously. They start coming in the room I'm in, and I decided to crease again a wall that I know they wouldn't bother to get too close to.

These are unarmed people, so I had to make sure I was very careful in what I was going to do to them, avoid any kind of lethal damage. I think one person was bald, looked like he was in his mid or late 20s, had a dress shirt and dress pants, but I couldn't pick out the colors.

While I'm staying still, I look at the guy that's like 10 inches away from coming in contact, and I see he's looking down on me.

I'm shocked at first, but seems he's just taking a quick glance at the floor and back to the person he's talking to that's behind me on the left. After they move around a bit, I finally find an opportunity to escape with ease. I go to a room where I have to go up a mini ramp (or stairs, I'm not sure) to get to the higher level, and as soon as I reach the top section...

A blue haired lady comes out of nowhere through a door. She's casually walking while her eyes are closed, and it doesn't seem she know I'm in this area because I dashed to the side of the wall, just barely though. I watched her as she goes down the ramp, and it looks like she's the type of woman with an attitude, I'm not sure why, but from her visage alone she looks like she's feeling cranky or something.

She's wearing a small blue jacket that extends until it reaches her waistline, and has a white dress shirt underneath it as well. She's wearing a blue skirt that goes all the way down and stops a few inches above her knees. The closest figure I'd say she looks like is Misato Katsuragi.

For some reason, as I'm watching her get closer to the door I came through, I wanted to aim my gun at her. A voice warms me that I shouldn't try to hurt her, and I quickly put the machine gun back.

I ignore her and continue going my way, and then I hear her footsteps getting closer and closer. I stay still, and she comes up right in front of me. I look at her lips covered with light red lipstick. I zoom in more on her lips, and she slowly opens her mouth in a lewd manner.

I'm tensed up, and she advances towards me....closer...closer...she tells me,

"You have something I want, and I want it now."

I wonder if she's into S&M.

She puts one of her hands into my pocket, and ruffles around a bit. She takes out a four-ink pen, puts her hand closer to me, and clicks in one of the ink slots for the pen in front of me.

Wait.....wait....you said all those things in a perverted tone, and that's what you want?


I honestly didn't know how to respond to this....

whole dream turned to complete nonsense to me by this point. There's some narration that the same woman that wanted my four-ink pen inside of the stealth camo-suit I was wearing had some slight mental deficiency....not too sure on that though.

That was a complete tease...I can't even recover from that...

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08.07.2012

Alyzarin's Voice (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

All I remember is talking to Alyzarin, but not really seeing her. I noticed her voice suddenly pitches. The environment and everything else was blurry.

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08.07.2012

Burning Babies into Diamonds (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember stuffing babies inside of an oven, don't ask me why. While I'm shutting the oven cover, or whatever you call it...it changes into some kind of frosty fridge container. Apparently, the babies would be converted into coal from the heat, until they converted into diamonds.

Once the diamonds were created, the cold version turns on to preserve the diamond I guess. I start scooping out the diamond, but it really looks like glass to me.

Yeah, I'm not going to go far into details on this, just cruel randomness.

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08.07.2012

Around the World (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

All I remember is going to random places in the world, going to school, and then seeing people trying to go to different colleges.

The area where everyone was at looked like half of an Aztec temple. The sky is beautiful, and even though I can't remember the sensations of the wind, I'm sure it's perfect weather in this dream environment.

I noticed one female who sounds British stepped up in the middle to talk about something. She was wearing a skirt, and a small brown jacket that only extended to her elbows. I think she wore a white shirt with some fancy decorations on it, but I was looking at things far away.

There's another dream shift where I'm standing near a table, and someone is asking me a question, though I can't remember what it was exactly, but I do know that I had feelings of fear is I didn't respond correctly.

My response was related to how moving to another area would be reasonable. And as I'm explaining why, a mental image of a map shows up, and then an airplane ticker with white dotted trails showing it's path becomes apparent.

It seems the plane is moving to Madagascar, but I don't know for what purpose.

There's also another dream shift, probably before all that I mentioned in this dream title itself, but it's just mostly running and following people.

08.06.2012

Baseball Killers and Sakyo (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm watching a Baseball game at the lower levels of a stadium, and it seems that you could go under the stairs and watch it as well. It's bright outside, and the whole baseball field is colored with light green.

Teams would be lined up on opposite sides, and apparently, there seems to be umpires on each side as well? Guess this Baseball game had elements of Tennis in it as well. The players looked like those small cartooni-sh looking baseball figures.

They were mostly round on the edges, wore caps, and apparently had circular shields as well. I pondered on why they would need shields in the fist place, but after some time, I think if a team wins, Sakyo from Yu Yu Hakusho would show up at the top levels of the stadium and scream,

"Kill them!!"

And gunfire would be aimed at the winning team. I look at this nonsense in awe, wondering what is the point to shoot the winning team in the first place. There were a couple of dream resets for sure, and each one made me feel as if I'm a baseball player as well sitting on the sidelines....

I could see these people's wickedness, and the thoughts that I would be next started to overwhelm me. The dream shifts to where I'm with a group of older people, and these look like people who would be orchestrating this sick act. The more they are talking to each other, and the more they are in my proximity, the feelings of fear faded away.

Sometimes I wonder if I was part of this vile act...

They were talking about how a lady managed to escape in the hallway they were in. The flooring was just one big gray surface, and it feels this area was well ventilated. For some reason, there was an opening between two people, and I wanted to just dash through them. But I felt that if I would do this so sudden, something would make them suspicious of me.

I honestly don't know who this woman was, but I just wanted to get out of this area. I waited until they were in the middle of a sentence, and quickly dashed towards a door behind them that they declared was opened. I wanted to know this for sure before I ran, because I felt they would shoot me, even though they didn't have any signs of weaponry on them.

I pulled on the door as if my life depended on it, and continued to run like a madman, looking at all viable options I could take in escaping through the random doors generated. I went to one door, and it didn't even have a door knob. I didn't take any time to wonder why, because I still had that feeling I'm being chased.

I quickly went down the mini-stairs to get up to that door, and kept running until I found a random door. I can't remember how it looked like exactly, but I just placed my fate that this would be one step out of this place.

I can't remember what I do next....

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08.06.2012

Sakyo and Toguro (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I see a house, and I'm in spectator perspective. The exterior is made of white or gray wood layers going horizontally. It looks fairly small, and had the style of it conforming to what you see in pop-up books...

Except that it was 3-D, and there are two windows, one right above the other. I look at the bottom window, and I see someone slowly walking down the stairs. The lighting inside has a yellow-orange type of hue, and I see the person is wearing a light gray suit with a blue tie or some dark color, and light grey dress pants as well.

He's pretty tall, maybe 6-7 feet from first glance, and I noticed that it's Sakyo from Yu Yu Hakusho. He looks at me with a smile, a stoic smile, or just.....it's hard to explain. He clearly had confidence in himself. This picture pretty much is how his facial expression was.

After looking at me for a few seconds, he looks up, and it seems the Younger Toguro brother from Yu Yu Hakusho is inside the level above him. Toguro rests his left arm on the side of the window, and peers down at Sakyo. He's wearing his dark green jacket, just like in the series, and has his shades on as well.

They exchange words, though I can't remember what exactly, and there seems to be a bunch of shaking on Toguro's level. It doesn't take them long to finish talking, and they go their separate ways.

Then it feels as if I'm being teleported into the inside of this house. In order to get in though, I had to go from some underground cave. When I get into the main base of the underground section, it's reminiscent to the area where Yusuke and Sensui fought each other in Yu Yu Hakusho.

I think I was interrupting their battle, but it's hard to say because I was running too fast, bt I do remember getting a quick glance of Shinobu Sensui looking at me, and he looks irritated, but he doesn't do anything to retaliate my sudden appearance.

(Kinda between these two pictures)


and this, except with his body on the same side as his head above

I keep running up the slope to get up to the door to get out of that place as fast as possible.

I slam the door as hard as I could, and then a bunch of random things happen that I can't even remember which one occurred first. Hiei from Yu Yu Hakusho is wearing his black cloak over his main fighting outfit, and is using his sword to slice random demons generated from a small section. Someone comments on how impressive Hiei's performance is, though I can't pick out where this voice is coming from.

08.05.2012

College Appointment (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a room, and it seems to be a hotel, and not my apartment. It seems my mother and father are both in here as well...looool.

Anyway, while I'm looking through some random papers, I think it somehow reminds me of the appointment that I can set up to switch my classes before the year starts. I think I'm going inside of a room to change or something, and my father passes by, and I tell him that I have to go somewhere to find what classes I need to change.

I thought he would say something negative, but it seems he keeps clear and just nods. I think my mother gets worried about the funding that I'll be getting for college. I get annoyed by this quickly, and I find some small random video clip that should convince her to ease her paranoia.

The same clip involved Elie from Rave Master, and then some random female voice declaring that college funding isn't really all that bad or something like that. I tell my mother to listen to that video clip when she can, and she leaves.

I noticed the carpet is red, and there are two beds as well, and the walls are white as well.

This is the part below I'm confused on whether or not it belongs in this dream plot.

It automatically changes to night time, and I'm riding my bicycle along the bicycle lane slowly. I reach an intersection, and look left and right for any cars coming, but it's clearly obvious that this place is empty of traffic.

Even the traffic lights have shut off, but I still make sure to check. There's a few randomly generated DCs walking on the sidewalks as well, and for some I had a weird hunch would look similar to people in waking life if I paid attention to their presence.

I turn to the left, and keep riding until I get on the street that will lead me to the Sbisa building. The dream setting suddenly gets brighter. I go into a random building, and it's a long stairway going up. I go up a few levels, and then see a girl with black hair. She's wearing a white shirt and blue jeans, she's petite, and is Hispanic.

She looks a lot like a girl named Olivia that rode the same buses I did in Middle School and even in High School. She's chasing boys, literally, but I don't know what factors she's using to do so in the first place. I feel bad for her in a way, and I quickly went up to her, put my hand slowly on her shoulder and declared that she shouldn't put herself in a position like this.

I know I felt bad for her, but I don't think my words matched to the situation, but either way, I smiled at her, even though she didn't look at me, and I walked away.

After that, I can't remember anything.

08.04.2012

Dead Bird? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm walking with my father, getting ready to go back to a random vehicle, but he can't move it because some spots on the ground had dead bird residue?

I'm not even sure on that.

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08.04.2012

Essay (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember being in class trying to prepare to write an essay. I see Melissa at some point.

What I find weird is that after I woke up to record these dreams, I slept until around 1:19 PM starting from 6-7 AM.....and I didn't remember any dreams from that second sleep....ugh.

I have glimpses, but I don't know if they were works in progress.

08.03.2012

Alyzarin and False Awakening (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I HATE FALSE AWAKENINGS. I hate it so much, that I have to use CAPS.



I open my eyes, all droopy and shit, HA HA HA, feels so real too you know!!!?!?!?

I look at the laptop I always have by my side to wake up from the alarm I have set. I open windows live messenger, and I see Alyssa (Alyzarin) log on.

This is where the bloody nbullsghakjdgsfsgvnfdbg happens.

I ask myself, "Why is she on so early?" I thought she'd be sleeping like a baby.

My eyes want to shut down, and I fall back to sleep.

Alyssa wasn't on at all....FALSE AWAKENING, DAMN IT.

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08.03.2012

Teaxs (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Yeah, I know I spelled Texas wrong, because that's how it was spelled in a store I went to in this dream.

I was driving a vehicle (I don't drive, so much for reality checking). I'm driving pretty slow, feeling that if I do anything too quick, something bad would happen. I turn to the left, kept straight until I saw a few stores coming up.

I get out of the vehicle, and it seems my father is waiting for a friend to come with us. I don't know how I know this, but apparently, this same person he's waiting for was cheating on someone before years ago.

It seems to me that he probably met him to settle some things. The man is fairly old, he has a blue dress shirt tucked into some dark dress pants. I didn't really pay attention to him talking to my father, I was just a watcher.

We go inside the store, and before we go all the way in, I see that at the entrance, it says "Teaxs" instead of "Texas."

I didn't want to pay attention to it for too long, since the words were stacked closely together, and at first glance, I just assumed it was "Texas."

The dream shifts, and I believe we're at someone's house. There's white tile flooring, and each of the creases is covered in black. There's a random dark skinned man, wearing a long gray vest and some short pants. He's also wearing a black cap turned the other way, and had a beard as well.

I think we asked him about his life, and he declared something about doing one thing, and then having to find a job at some point. He shrugs his shoulders when he tells us that.

That's all I can remember.

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08.03.2012

Jenny is a Bloody Tease (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Oh god, first of all, this dream made me realize how perverted I was when I played Bloody Roar Primal Fury for the Nintendo GameCube, and played as Jenny at one point.

Sometimes I would pause the screen, and just look at her, everything....EVERYTHING...I would even spam the emote for her to say "Yes" in that enticing voice of hers.....oh god....and some of the moves she did, I swear....are they even LEGAL?

Anyway....

It's pretty obvious I'm lying on my back on a floor, and the whole room is dark and has a blue atmosphere around it. It's blurry at first, and I feel I can't really move right now. I see a blonde female walk on the left side.

I still can't do anything, and she gets near me, squats down with her ass in front of me, and waves her fanny all around my face. She doesn't even make her ass touch my face, at all.

She leaves me there to just be teased, and even asks me,

"You want this?" with a smile on her face, and she was wearing blue latex I believe as well, very tight latex that I could see her cameltoe.

T________T

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY JUST WHY

THAT WASN'T NECESSARY.

WHY!!!! THAT WAS....HER GENITALS WERE LIKE 2 INCHES AWAY FROM ME!

God, why....I'm still trying to cry from this, but I can't...sigh......stop teasing me already!!!!

08.01.2012

Alyzarin and Rave Master (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I can't remember much here, but I definitely feel that I'm near Alyzarin. The room is bright, and I believe can see a glimpse of the black undershirt and black long sports pants with the white stripes on the side that she wore with my peripheral vision.

Alyzarin is showing me a few drawings she did, and from those sets, she showed a picture Haru and Elie from the anime version of Rave Master.

It wasn't like this, just using this to remember the outfits.

We continued to talk about random things that I can't remember too well. I didn't get to see her face unfortunately.

She has light brown hair, a beautiful shine to it, long, curly and wavy too. I couldn't recall her actual voice, but she was cheerful and talkative when she was next to me. She was glowing with enthusiasm, even though I couldn't hear her at all, and she had a slightly pale skin. It was probably because of the lighting in the room that made it seem that way, but I didn't really mind at all.

I looked at a picture of Haru and Elie. Haru is on the left side of the picture (from my view that is), and he's wearing the long sleeved black jacket with the Rave cross symbol just like in the anime version.

He also has a white shirt underneath the black long sleeved jacket as well, and Elie is on the right side next to Haru. She's wearing the sleeveless tank top with the rave cross symbol in the middle of it as well, and she's wearing the short blue shirt (it could've been the light red one she occasionally wore too, or not, oh well).

Haru and Elie are smiling, and it seems they have their focus on what's ahead of them. Haru has his right hand elevated above his head, probably to block something like the sunlight. I can't remember what Elie is exactly doing in the photograph, but she does have her mouth wide open smiling.

The next set of fragments are kind of confusing in finding out where they belong in this same dream plot. They could've been different short dreams, but I'll just combine them together based on certain characters showing up.

(Okay, this is the part I'm not sure belongs here, but my gut feelings says that it does).

After talking to Alyzarin, I go inside of a room that's way darker than the one I was in with her. I eventually reached one of those old types of elevators. It had a wooden base, and metal railings formed in a rectangle. Honestly, the elevator itself just looked like two wooden bases (top and bottom) being connected by metal rods to create space for those going on it.

The elevator, or whatever this thing was, could only contain one person. It felt kind of small, so I decided to sit down crisscrossed on the wooden base. The elevator slowly lifts up, and as I'm waiting to get to wherever it is I'm going, I see the bright white light emitting from the room I exit to get to this room.

I see someone slowly come out into the light, but I can't see their visage properly. I look at the blurry image of the person in front of me looking at me go up, and the more I look at them, the more I feel that I'm going to miss them a lot.

The only person where I would have that kind of feeling in a dream would be Alyzarin.....I couldn't do anything but just watch whoever it is stand there, and once the elevator went so far up that I couldn't see her anymore, I just stare at the brick walls from this point on.

The room, and even while going up the elevator, had that kind of dark blue atmosphere you see in dark rooms, if that makes any sense...

The elevator finally stops, and I get out, but I'm looking down on the floor before looking up.

I see things in first perspective, just like when I met Alyzarin, and I'm still looking down on myself, and see that I have no shoes on at the moment. I look up, and find Haru from Rave Master is on the left side. He tells me that I can find some shoes to where he's pointing, and while he's doing that, it seems he's in the middle of a conversation with someone else.

I look at the shoes Haru is wearing, and it's a pair of black lace-less shoes (maybe there were strings, but they were most likely too small for me to tell at first glance).

I look over to see which shoes are there for me to use, and the only ones that are there is a pair of light brown shoes. I couldn't tell if it was lace less, or had small shoe strings, and I picked them up and before I put them on, I realize these shoes look exactly like my father's shoes in waking life.

Greeeeeat, this moment is just screaming, "Being in your father's shoes..."

LOL.

I didn't really have time to think about this dream making me be in my father's shoes, so I quickly put them on, and I think I asked Haru what we're going to do, because I honestly don't know why he's around, or why I'm around with him.

He puts his right hand on his shoulder, smiles and declares,

"We're going on a new adventure."

I can't remember what happens next after that though.

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08.01.2012

Naruto Shippuden Resurrection (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I can't remember much from this dream, and I honestly would just classify it as a dream fragment, but this is only because the moments starting to flee from my mind when I woke up abruptly this morning.

I'm at a table covered in cloth, and on this table are several white printer type papers. Each paper has a portrait drawing of someone from Naruto Shippuden, and maybe a few random anime like faces. The perspective changes to where each drawing is panned over the other one, like, when I see one drawing, someone would say the name of that person, and then move on to the next drawing.

I think one name I remember sounded like saying "Sumo" or Suno," something like that. These definitely look like people who were resurrected or are going to be resurrected during the Shinobi War in Shippuden.

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08.01.2012

Raising Suspicion (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm walking around at a random place outside, and I believe I see a gun that's not loaded on a table to the right of me. I see a dark skinned man wearing an orange shirt, and baggy pants.

He has a gun blatantly located between his shirt and slightly tucked underneath the top region of the pants he's wearing. I start getting suspicious that he's up to something, especially if he isn't concerned that he should conceal the weapon in the first place.

I slowly reached for the gun to my right to try and get it loaded, but I forget what happens next.

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08.01.2012

New York and Texas (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Apparently, to get to Texas, I had to take the path that was previously set out for New York instead. I saw all of this on a brochure, or some kind of paper with transportation information on it.

The dream shifts to where I'm inside of a vehicle in the back, with my father driving on the left side. I think he's getting ready to make a right turn, and that's all I remember.

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08.01.2012

Alyzarin and Hyu's Avatar (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I took a short nap in the afternoon..

I log on to Windows Live Messenger, and I see Alyzarin has her status as "Away," so I decided to go on Dream Views and look at dream journal entries in the mean time before she would come back as "Available."

I go to Hyu's dream journal entry, but I can't see the title and the content clearly, the only thing that pops out is a new avatar of Yuya. She has her right hand resting on her chin, and has her left hand laying parallel to surface she's resting both arms on.

There's also a pink background behind Yuya. I think I go back to see if Alyzarin is available again, but she still is away. I look at her profile on Dream Views, and it shows she's online, so I guess she was going to get something and come back soon.

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08.01.2012

Weird Preacher (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outside in an environment that has a very gloomy setting to it, and it feels so empty being in here. There are a lot of skinny gray trees, and the surface was all covered in dead autumn leaves.

There's a house ahead, and it looks very old. Its exterior is composed of gray painted wood, and I keep hearing a voice that sounds as if someone is trying to preach something. I get closer to the house, maybe 15 feet away from it, and I see a man to the right of the house, in the middle of field.

Either this man has a Bluetooth headphone set talking to someone, or maybe he's just crazy and all alone. I think he is repeating the same set of words, and randomly walking around the area. I keep my distance away from him, but we eventually come close range to each other.

I can finally see his visage, he has an extreme frowning expression with his mouth slightly open. His eyebrows are pointing downwards, and his eyes are almost bulging out. He doesn't look mad, it's just that he has the expression pasted on his face.

He doesn't do anything to me, except to just look at me for a few seconds while he goes back to being crazy and talking to himself again. If only I could've recalled his repeated message, I wouldn't have labeled him as a complete nutjob.

Then random things happen, like I could hear voices of other people making fun of this same man walking around. There's a video screen that shows up in the middle of nowhere, and there's a gray pointer on top of the streaming bar with the letter "B" in white font.

It seems it's just a short advertisement for something, but the only thing I was paying attention to was the letter "B" in the white font, since it did take up a lot of space to serve as a time marker.

I heard someone make some smart-ass remarks about the advertisement, and the crazy man walking around the gloomy setting.

07.31.2012

Winning at Casino (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a Casino, and the flooring is probably a faded green color of carpet rug. I go to one of those slot machines, nice and shiny huh?

I think I put in a quarter, at least, and then pressed the lever down. I figured that since it's small change I'm putting in, I don't really have anything to lose.

I still had the anticipation, but decided to just let those feelings fade away, and as the machine stopped.......


I win $1,000.

I look at the screen to make sure this isn't some kind of cock-ish machine trying to troll me. The money is coming out of the machine, and I have $1,000 in my hand.

It's no wonder I didn't do a reality check....LOL.

The first thing on my mind when I receieved this cash was COLLEGE COLLEGE COLLEGE COLLEGE COLLEGE.

I was so bloody happy, my cheeks widened with so much enthusiasm (who ever knew cheeks could be happy), and if you thought that was all?

I put in another quarter, more or less, and won $500.

I can see why I had this dream, since I was listening to a few people I was eating out with yesterday talk about Casinos and their cock-ish ways into tempting you to gamble.

If I could poop my pants in joy a dream, this would be one of the moments.



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What's funny is that I remembered this dream because I saw a billboard sign showing the current Powerplay lotto while in Pennsylvania in my trip back home today.
And another thing, when I woke up, I didn't remember the dream until that Powerplay billboard incident I mentioned above, I woke up with the feeling that someone took a good punch on the right side of the jaw.
I wonder if those men who do punch and do horrible things to you if you do suspicious things in a Casino were in the dream because of my luck with money. Maybe that's why I woke up feeling like I didn't remember anything, hahahaha.

07.30.2012

Love Song (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting at a computer lab with a few random people, and I trying to think of something clever for a project I have to do. I believe I was wearing a black leather jacket, with a regular white shirt underneat, and probably long jeans.

I wanted to do some set of drawings for something, and I believe I was doing it digitally by first scanning a sketch of something, and then creating a separate layer to quickly draw in the lines in the sketch for better detail.

That's what I would think I'd do, but then I started to get distracted with something else. I look at the computer screen, and I was watching Nana (not the singer Nana) and Nobu hugging each other. Nana was crying on Nobu's chest, and he's holding her tightly in his arms.

I look at this for a while, and tried to speculate how I could relate this to the project I'm doing (and I honestly don't know what I'm doing it for).

I felt someone's presence to my right, but I didn't bother to turn around to see who it was at the time. I start getting more worried and needed to do something quick, at least that's what I think because I felt like I was being rushed.

Then the person sitting next to me queried,

"Why don't you do a love song for her?"

It takes me a few seconds, but I finally realized she was talking to me. I slowly turned my head to the right, watching her from her breasts all the way to her mouth. As I'm elevating my head, the black shadow starts to fade away and reveals more of her visage.

I think she had long black hair that was curly and wavy....

Unfortunately, that's all I remembered, I didn't get to see any other parts of her face except for her smile.

A love song? For who?

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07.30.2012

Store Killing (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm walking inside of what seems to be your basic supermarket. I believe I killed someone based on the number of people looking at me, and I think someone said that I killed her myself.

The dream resets, I think, and I'm walking around checking the aisles of the store for any kind of suspicious activity. I still have the feeling that I did something wrong, and I eventually reach an aisle, but didn't go into it, where there's a lady who most likely fainted.

An older women who has a wide stopic and huge ass (you know, the droopy torso and elevated ass kind of older women) holding the lady that looks like she passed out in her arms. She's kneeling down to support the lady on the floor, and when I looked closer, there's blood somewhere on the girl's chest.

As for the girl herself, I didn't pay attention too much to get her visage, because I still had a feeling that this could've been my doing. It felt as if this was a rewind on the event, except that I'm not with the group of people crowding around the female.

I'd say the female was in her 20s, and she was wearing a faded swamp green kind of dress with the thin straps that can go over her shoulders. Her hair was brunette, I'm sure of it, and she was skinny, but not too skinny.

Why am I killing people without knowing why I did so in the dream?

07.29.2012

Job Interview with Brunette (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting down inside a small room, and it's well-lit. Judging by its atmosphere, this same room feels like it would be air-conditioned if I had more awareness of the external stimuli of the A/C running in waking life. The light gives off a faded light orange-yellow-ish color, and in front of me is a female in a pink dress or something like that.

She's a brunette with wavy and curly hair in some parts. She's exhibiting a lot of radiance and enthusiasm towards me, which leaves me speechless until she popped the question,

"What are your view on work?"

After she asked me that, it was as if I indulged into some kind of mental time dilation to process why she would query me this. That feeling fades away when I get a mental light bulb, and realized that I must be at a job interview (at least). I tried my best to not portray any apparent facial expressions to her, and quickly fabricated a half-assed response.

I believe I declared that I'm a virgin, and that I'm single. I also explained some things (it felt like an extreme bravado on my part) of how I'm a decent person. In short, I was convincing her that I was a good little boy, though I don't even know why I'm meeting her in the first place.

She takes a neutral look at me with her mouth slightly opened, and then she quickly smiles and laughs. She even gives me a round of applause with her small claps.

She was very attractive, something about the way her visage was angled, her eyelashes and makeup really made me enticed by her.

I wonder if that could be Alyzarin I met, or maybe someone else. She had the height and the youth for her to be Alyzarin, and her wearing the pink outfit reminds me a lot of Alyssa as well.

Hmmm, guess it's all speculation.

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07.29.2012

Open Ceiling (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember being on top of the ceiling inside a building, and it didn't look complete. I noticed that the interior of the building, at least the room that I'm on top of, is composed of fairly faded white wood material.

07.28.2012

Airport Traveling (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember going to an airport several times.

I've been having some airport related dreams lately....

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07.28.2012

Weird Costumes (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I believe I'm inside of a waterfall cave with someone wearing a bright colored type of superhero outfit. It was just the helmet and cape that had bright orange and yellow colors, while the rest of their outfit was black.

They wanted me to follow them I'm assuming, but that's all I remember.

07.27.2012

Negative Points in School (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in a classroom, and it feels like it's in afternoon dream time. The teacher uses a point system, but I don't know for what purpose. The teacher looks like Sasha from "Meet the Browns" television sitcom. She's wearing a pink shirt that looks a little tight on her.

Maybe it was because her breasts were a little larger than normal, which pulled the shirt up a bit where you could probably see her bellybutton if she had a larger breast size. For some odd reason, I insulted her, though I can't remember what exactly, and she deducts 50 to 100 points from my overall score, which was low in the first place.

This sends it down to a really really low negative score. I was shocked at first, but after the teacher finds petty reasons to bring other people's grades down, I just let the dream plot be a passive experience instead. It's close to dismissal, and it's quite a crowd outside of class.

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07.27.2012

Disposable Prostitute (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There's a drunk prostitute, and she's short and very ugly. She's wearing a slutty black outfit. Basically, it's like she's wearing a panty made out of a black string that's only like 1-3 inches wide, which means you can see all of her private holes.

Simply disgusting, and since it was late at night, it was hard to look at her face, but I'm glad I didn't try in the first place. I'd say she was at least 50 years old or so.

Then I did something horrible, I literally lifted this short female, and threw her on the dirt on the side of a house, and turned back like she was nothing at all.

07.26.2012

Redhead in Black (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm not even sure if this is a precognitive dream or an actual one, because I think that when the dream was over, I was talking to myself about something, and I had a feeling that this happened in the onset of the dream being created.

I had the intention of finding Alyzarin in a dream, since I felt I could match her REM cycles at some point during my sleep.

All I remember is seeing a skinny female, big anime like eyes, but still within the border of realistic eyes. She is wearing dark red lipstick, and she's smiling to where the front of her lips make a steep curve down, while the sides curve inwards to her cheekbones.

She is wearing a black dress that looks like it could be worn in bed, like a nightgown of some sort.

Something tells me that I asked if she was my dream guide, but I can't remember if she responded to me at all. All that I could remember from her is that she just looks at me with a smile.

The more I stare at her, the more her eyes become enticing. She had light brown eyes, and then they were more gold-ish and lighter than before when I focused on the detail.

Her hair was similar to Paz's style in Metal Gear Solid: Peace Walker. The hair itself looked like it was just filled with a light red-pink color, no detail like individual strands or anything like that.

Her facial structure was small, slightly round, and made a slight dip or smooth point for her chin. She also had pale skin, and the black nightgown she wore augmented this with the heavy contrast.

The environment itself was blurry, very dark, from gray to black. It felt as if this environment was so blurry to where it would look like a running ink painting of buildings, etc.

After seeing the girl in front view, my perspective changes to where I see her in profile view. I realize how skinny she really is, and she isn't wearing any shoes, I think.

I can understand that the girl's visage and body structure was mostly because I watched a random Metal Gear Solid: Peace Walker video of Snake vs. Paz on YouTube late at night.

Now for the pale skin, and black night gown, it's probably because of a woman named Stoya who has pale skin, and wore a black ngihtgown or lingerie. I'll keep that source to myself. *whistles innocently*

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07.26.2012

She is a Lesbian (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Because I had little sleep last night, because I decided to do some late night internet searching, and talking to someone before they passed out (you know who you are =P), the recall is shallow.

I believe I'm hanging with someone, and based on how relaxed I felt, it was most likely the persona I take when encountering relatives that I haven't seen in a long time ago. It's the passive demeanor that just allows the naivette to grow and grow.

I honestly can't explain my feelngs for this kind of dissociative thought..

I think I'm following her in a clothes mall, and I only stick to following her. I wasn't interested in buying anything for myself or her, and I guess the only reason I was with her was because I wanted to walk around, or to just be there for the relative of mine.

I couldn't get her visage, it was blurry, and she was wearing mostly black. It was as if I was just following a shade or something. I believe we finally reach a cash register, and as I let her tend to her business with paying for whatever it is she has, I notice someone else close to me.

I'm not sure if she was following me, or is waiting in line, but I get a close up view on her. I realize she looks a lot like an African American girl I had for a Science class.

To make sure I somewhat remember her, I'll just put it out here that her family history involved having sickle cell.

She looked so adorable and cute, just like the waking life version. She looks up at me in a shy manner, if that makes any sense. I think she glances at me because I glanced at her, and I think she tried looking back somewhere else.

She was short, I'd say 5 feet or so, which is probably a safe estimate that the waking life version of her was in Middle school.

Wow, now that I think about it, she really was cute when I had her for Science class, but her personality....not so much.

LOL, why am I going through analysis of middle school encounters?

Someone is calling the relative who is still blurry for me, I think, and I think at some point, she said she is a lesbian.

I don't know how, but something just tells me she said that to someone.