Cities in the Astral

The last two nights of the competition I became aware of my mind playing video games. I did not have a dream body, but was watching the screen from a video game I had been playing IRL. I was able to control what happened just like I was playing the game. Very fun.

01-24-17 DILD I was minorly lucid just messing around enjoying when an ah ha moment happened and I knew I was fully lucid. I could remember the competition clearly and planned on doing many tasks quickly. However, a large window opened up in the side of the room and out there was a mountain and trees. I turned and flew through the portal and every thing blurred and the came back. I was under the influence of gravity, which is a warning sign for me that I have crossed over to as astral realm. There is a crowd of non-DC entities in a field and some gesture for me to come over. I landed by them and they told me they are playing a game and how would I like to help them? Sorry DV friends, the comp moved to a very back burner.
They are friendly entities that I think I have met many times, but I can not tell most of them apart. They had groups of five and I joined the group to make 5. The goal was to get your team to the top of a mountain first then to reach some goal up there. I do not think I understood the rules, as I am often pretty confused during these meeting, although the entities are much more understanding now. So, in my dorky way of dealing with things ion LDs I start out. I simply lift the other 4 members in a web of mass-TK and the race up the mountain at lightning speed. Before long we have reached an opening and go inside. We are inside what looks like a bunker with something in the middle like a thick column and a wooden door across the room.
One of the entities say "we need to talk." I ask them how we win the race, and someone says we just go through that door. I hear another team is coming, and am anxious to go through the door, but it is looked. They are all standing around me know. They say, "We have been watching you for awhile. We have decide to ask you to become part of our clan." Hear is the problem. I take this stuff seriously and realize I am about as aware here as a third grader. I told them, "I am nervous to commit to anything I do not understand. I do not know if you are a good clan, if your clan has enemies, and all sorts of issues like that." They told me to look in my hand. I see know we all are holding a large sliver of wood with something written on it. It seemed significant but I do not know why. They seemed irritable but not angry. Another team is in the room now and goes out the door. These guys just keep staring at me. I was suddenly propelled into normal half aware HH stuff.

01/21/2017 WILD I had a lot of trouble being motivated to do a formal WILD with all the tricks. I tried normal wbtb WILDs and by morning had 3 fails. Wonderful H.I. like being a rainbow energy angel flying through a tunnel. They honestly were H.I. more than a true dream. Final attempt I decided to do all the stuff in my formal routine and finally hit one. I was suddenly standing in a park down town in a city with tall buildings. My goal: Fly out into space and then into a black hole. I took off flying like Superman. Bam, I go from ground to sky scraper top in a flat second. Now my control failed me a bit. Up, up and away, out into space. No, the scenery just keeps adding in taller sky scrapers. Eventually I stop and look around. I am not that high off the ground, perhaps 400'. Time for new tactics. I will teleport out into space and then fly from there. I tell myself that there is a space station up there, and it has a subway restaurant on the promenade. I picture being in front of that subway on the space station. The visuals shift and I am over the antarctic ocean. There are icebergs and huge cartoon penguin. I decide to earn some quick points. I summon a surfboard made of ice. I fly down to it very very fast and hit the board with my feet. I shoot off across the ocean on basically a jet powered ice surfboard. I decide to do some elemental control. I look back knowing a huge wave will be shooting off the wake of the board. There it is, a beautiful spray of sea water. I decide to freeze it. The wave stops moving and turns white. I decide I am not impressed, and focus more on it. It turns into a beautiful ice wave complete with the shine and wet look. Time to teleport out to the Space Station. Visuals blur and reform. I am in front of a subway restaurant in what looks like a very modern shiny city. Cars are going by. I refuse to accept this is not the space station. I know that if I cross the street and look over that guard rail I will see space. I cross the street. Dream becomes unstable and I try to save it. No, I am largely awake now. I have slept too many hours to sleep more.

01-20-17 I spent the most pleasant time hanging out with my DG and her friends. Did not worry about the comp at all. It feels good just to be around her. There was no sexy stuff, just the warm comfort of being near someone special. At one point a bunch of us were hanging out in what seemed to be a park. She told me she would be right back. I took this moment to exert a little dream control. I laid back on a picnic table and summoned a pretty female DC (not an entity) and had her give me a massage. I closed my eyes (dream bodies eyes) and just enjoyed the massage. Before long my body had to urinate. I did not want to exit the dream, so I sat up. I was still in the park with the same people. They all said in a fun teasing way, "Dr. H$#% is in the house!" I knew they meant that I had been spacing out and was back with them. I noticed I was naked and summoned a beach towel which I wrapped around my waist. Before long I had no choice but to wake up due to natures call.

01-19-17 I did a WILD and lost contact with my body. I have no idea how or why this happened but suddenly I was trying to keep some dark malevolent force from plunging a knife into me. I felt a dream body, but the visuals were just shifting purple and black. I held the things arm away from me. I was on my back and it over me. I thought to myself, "this is just a lucid dream, relax and ignore this" yet I could not bring myself to stop forcing the implied knife (knife in the dark) away from me. I could hear the thing think malicious thoughts but not understand the words just the intent. Somehow the idea was there that this was the ghost of a bitter old man and I had fallen asleep in the Warm Springs house that we all agreed was haunted. It had never been a fearful type of haunted before. I also IRL was not in that house. I stayed calm and tried to shift my focus, but just ended up waking up.

WILD from a snooze alarm. My alarm was in my hand (phone) to interrupt my sleep every 9 minutes. The plus side of this trick is I often get lucid, sometimes multiples. The down side is that if I hit one it has to fit into that 9 minutes. I drifted back into sleep. Images formed of my old school field. I was walking around campus. I passed a picnic bench, then I was inside the building. Only on the edge of lucid, so I did a general RC. Does this make sense? No. Do things look normal? Lack of depth, dark, incompletely rendered, so No. I became much more lucid. I flew out through the classroom window. I see people in a front yard near by and decide to interact. I brag to an old school mate that I can jump all the way up on to the high roof top. The DCs are watching. I crotch and spring upward in a powerful jump. I barely go high enough, so I catch the edge above me with my toes. I am basically horizontal now. I pull just using my toes and heave my body around and upright until I can step on to the roof. This has an effect like the movie Labyrinth with David Bowie. The part where he steps from below a level and ends up on top of the level.
I fly away. I suddenly remember that we are in a comp. I need to stabilize and think. I land on a roof. I walk back and forth waving my arms and exaggerating my body motions. I repeat out loud, "this is a lucid dream." It works. I am pretty lucid and stable. I can't easily remember the cool goals. I take a huge leap to the ground and spider climb to the top of a large power pole. I always think spider climb is one of the goals for some reason. I have a little trouble near the top because the DC of me is now holding a phone in his/my left hand. I go to make this anomaly disappear when I realize what it means. It is a reminder to me that time is short, as I am holding an alarm in that hand in real life.
Something about opening a chasm? There is a road with cars, so I imagine it tearing open. A very poorly rendered gash int the road forms. The cars are driving through the air above it. Should I solidify it and maybe make cars fall in. Am I supposed to fall in. No. I remember it involved sledding into it or something. Too elaborate with my limited time. I must go for a few quick points. I see DCs on foot near the opening. I intend to make them scatter in fear, like a Godzilla film. I exert my will to no effect. I think as if implanting the thought,"Earthquake! Look! You will fall in." I exert my will again and it works. People go running crazy. To keep with the theme I do an earthquake to meet element manipulation, not understanding that ripping a chasm in the ground already got those points. I make the earth shake and watch the DCs panic.
The alarm goes off.

01/16/17 WILD. Not terribly impressive. I attempted a few times last night and this is all I ended up with. I started a WILD and entered darkness loosing bodily awareness. The background turned purple. I man was sitting in front of me at a desk. He looked like he was giving the news. I tried to look around, but the visuals were locked on this guy. I did not have a body. I tried to jump into this man's body, but still it stayed just the same. I tried to influence the actions of this man, and found out I could control him like a marionette puppet. I made him extend his arms one at a time and then wave them around. Soon everything went black again.

01-15-17 DILD I was in the midst of a long somewhat confusing dream that involved trying to sort personal possessions and move them. I was young and in what represented my bedroom. It was a mess and I heard my family talking from another room. I go to the door and realize I am naked. I think to cover myself with something. I look around and the scene does not look correct. I become lucid. I am now in the midst of a battle with Team Moon. I do not know any details but team members are running around blowing up buildings with weapons and I can tell tanks and such are involved. I run into one building to find enemies to fight, but only find allies. I know they are team members, but do not see them as specific DV members. This building is like a gym. I go through various scenes until I am in a warehouse and people are gathering supplies. I get in an argument because someone is grabbing things I want. I transform uncool items into cool ones and trade with the guy. I go out the door into the street and Team Moon member "He" is manning a rocket artillery battery. He looks like a big Russian trooper in winter gear and heavy boots. I see this with a mind's eye overview, as he is not actually close to me. Death from above rains down all around me. Buildings and troops are wiped off the map. I teleport to the top of a building near by and check out the battle. We are getting destroyed by "He" and his rockets. I see my team still has some tanks and helicopters that are about to be destroyed. I pick them all up with mass TK and float them over the water to an aircraft carrier. I get a telepathic thought in my head that this counted as a forfeit on my part. I walk into the destruction to try and make friends with 'He'. I find him (still huge Russian guy) inside a destroyed building. He moves to attack and I yell out that I have been defeated. He says, "No, you pulled your big equipment back before I could destroy it. That is not very brave." I tell He that we forfeited and that we should go destroy things together. We go walking through the city and it is so destroyed that I find little to destroy, other than some windows here and there. I use bolts of compressed air and blast it out of the palm of my hands to destroy windows. I take out the whole front of a store this way. I notice that I am barefoot for some reason. I shout out, "boots" and stomp my foot and instantly am wearing boots. He looks impressed and says, "very nice." The boots are not sturdy enough for my tastes so I stomp my feet and they become big rigid army boots. He suggests we go up to the corner where his rockets did not reach. We go there and walk inside a convenience store that has happy people shopping. We actually decide that we have destroyed enough and let the people be. I suggest we go to where the rest of his team are. We start walking... My recall fails at this point. The lucid part of this goes on in another scene that involves a totally different theme. I go into an apartment building and talk with a women, but details are few.

01/15/17 WILD I did WBTB 3rd time but take this a little more serious. Lay on back until right on edge. Roll over and instantly am asleep. I go into a dream observing a desert scene about large cats in Africa. A lion has a Cheetah cornered and she is defending her cubs. I take the perspective of the Cheetah. In the cat body I look back and will the cubs to climb a tree. They do not. I switch into the body of one of the cubs, and climb the tree. This feels somewhat realistic and have a neat view of the dry grass below. I do not see the lion, but see the Cheetah. I switch back into the cheetah's body. I am now a human in animal skins, like a Viking berserker. I am starting to feel my body in bed, so I try to ignore it. I go through a werewolf like transformation back into a cheetah. I look around for the lion and realize my form is of a female lion and not a cheetah. The lion does not seem to be around but I can not see well because I am on all fours in tall grass. I become fully aware of my body in bed. I am now in both bodies at one time, and soon have lost the dream and in void. A new dream does not form before my awareness fades.

This dream is interesting because it came sometime after the last dream in this journal. I was prowling through the darkness and felt primitive, like Tarzan. I was not lucid, but there was a depth and reality to the dream beyond normal. Across a field I can sense people coming and I am afraid of being caught. I go across a small ditch and climb over a fence. A small girl is pursuing me. She is wearing a school girl outfit with the skirt. She is not running, just clearly following me. I hide between a building and a fence and hold the gate I just went through closed. A man comes out on the other side of the gate and talks to the girl. I sense that he is telling her he did not see me. I can see through gaps in the fence. The little girl comes up to the gate (she looks very much like the girl in the last dream, but non-lucid I do not know what this means.) She laughs and says she can see me. I am afraid. She says I am not hidden at all. Her hand comes through the fence and rests on my neck. I panic and attack her. I am now on her side of the fence. I grab her ankles and cause her to fall in the mud. I am now holding her down in anger. the shocking unreality of me ever harming a child is like a lucid bringing RC. This cannot be real. It is a dream. I am lucid. Oh shit! I am attacking the girl from the last dream. Bad Eric! OMG! No! I wake up.

This dream started in classic DILD fashion. I entered aroom and saw objects there that did not make sense. They should have been in another room and looked as if they were sort of disassembled. I don't remember any RC, I just knew it made no sense, so I must be dreaming. I spent perhaps 10 minutes doing various fun things like practicing levitation skills. I decided to practice summoning DCs and then causing them to act as I wanted. I decided to look for pretty girls who would appear as I changed scenes by flying. After I found a pretty girl I would exert will to cause the DC to take her shirt off. Then I would see how quickly I could repeat this task chain. I was actually not being a pervert, but this task just seemed a fun challenge.
I was doing great, very rapidly completing the challenge and repeating, each time a new setting and DC. On about the 3rd or 4th time something weird happened. I approached a small group of people. I saw a younger girl in a school girl outfit. Nope. No way. I caused her to age in front of me until she was adult. I tried to use will to cause her to remove her shirt. She reacted like I was attacking her and shied away. I got a weird feeling as if I was suddenly in an astral type setting rather then alone in my mind. I said something like "please don't worry. I would not make you do anything you don't want to. I will leave you alone." I then flew up into the air to demonstrate that I meant what I said. The whole group flew up into the air in pursuit of me.
They started taunting me. I could tell (if you want to believe in such stuff) that these where not DCs but more like what ever my Dream Guides are. Perhaps this is now an astral world? They said things like how does it feel to have things you don't want done, done to you? After each comment like this I would get hit with something like a petronis from Harry Potter that they were projecting at me. One of them said something like, "that doesn't feel good, does it?" I responded, "No, it is definitely unpleasant, but this is stupid and I will not run from you any more." I then landed on a roof top. They were no where in sight.
I was feeling defiant because I have a long history with astral entities pushing me around when ever my actions turn sexual. Can you really blame them? Assume that somehow I have achieved a level of dreaming that allows me to go to astral realms (or laugh it off if such things are to far out there) and sometimes I go there with out realizing it. I then act out as if I own the world. However, this time I got mad. I addressed no in particular, sort of like screaming at God from a mountain top. I said something like this. "I want yo all to understand this! To me much of this is confusing because I a dreaming from a physical body somewhere else. I am subject to the drives associated with being a form of ape. I often think I am alone dreaming of things when suddenly I am hear and you are all offended. In my dreams I have almost ultimate power. In this hand I may want a drink," I flourished my left hand and a swirling cloud forms above my palm and becomes a glass. "While in this hand I may want breasts." I flourish the right hand and the torso of a woman floats above the palm.
"I do not ever mean any of you harm, so try to forgive me!" I then take off up in to the air with a great deal of showmanship, copying the way Magneto does this. Chest out, arms back and all. I feel good and powerful.
As soon as I start to gain height an image forms in front of me, like I am floating up to a sky scraper or cliff. There is an open area inside the structure. Picture if you took all the glass off part of one floor on a sky scraper. Inside this area are about 12 entities all looking at me as if in judgement. They seem relaxed and look a bit as you would picture Nero and his court deciding the fate of a gladiator. Some of these beings radiate large amounts of power and are very intimidating with out trying to look tough.
They do not say anything, so I do. "I am an honest man who is involved with a very confusing thing. I want to be part of this but sometimes I do not realize what is happening and can not always control my behavior when I am dreaming. I will even meet each of your eyes to show I mean well." In my travels I have found that direct eye contact in this place opens you up to psychic attacks or contentedness. It is a very rude thing to force on anyone and has deep meaning here, far beyond what we would make of it in waking life. It somehow is like plugging two computers together with a usb cord. This gets their attention! A few of them shift forward right away. A voice in my head asks, "you will meet or eyes?" I affirm that I will. Three men approach. The first stares into my eyes. He then smiles and says, "I am Beelzibub." I am a bit taken aback as this name is something I have heard before as a lord of hell from gaming books. I assume at the time this is said to shock me (basically a lie to mess with me.) I interacted with the second on, but can not remember what happened. I know he made the contact and also introduced himself. The next one seems friendly. He quickly makes eye contact then breaks it and introduces himself as "Midas or Minos." I think to myself that Midas is a mythological name. He sees my thought and smiles. A frost covers his skin, but it is metallic and gold in color. At this point my memory is completely gone. If the dream kept going I can not recall any of it.
***Important note afterwards*** I wondered at the name the 1st being gave me.My thought was that it was a joke. I have been addressed by a being claiming to be Horus and on claiming to be Siva in the past, however these are figures from Egyptian and Hindu stories. I had thought this seemed a bit like something from Star Gate the tv series. Like maybe these are old special beings, but not really Gods, maybe beings that started being worshiped but are more like just seriously powerful forces. However, the name Beelzibub struck me as a Christian demon. My thought had been that he was messing with me. I look up the name and like so many other things this was a pagan god who the Christians demonized. It is actually the name for Ba'al a popular god in Canon the land the Hebrews invaded. Of course any of this could be made up in my head and mean nothing, but if we are open to my belief that this stuff is real, then this now makes sense. That name would certainly go right along side names like Horus or Siva in a list of important gods of ancient races.

I have been lucid much of the night, but at some time I am surrounded by the group of Dream Guides that have been a new thing this year. On tells me that it is time for some next level stuff, but that it is intense and not to be afraid. He lead me into a chamber that looks to me kind of like a science building with scaffolding and cat walks and some giant machine on the lowest floor. I can not imagine what is next and am nervous. He takes me to the bottom near the machine(?) and am alien looking entity is there. She does not look like the greys in modern ufo stuff, but enough that way to give an idea. She tells me that I have gone about as far as I can in my understanding of these realms and my own dream work. It is time for them to change me into something that can see more (rough translation). I am instructed to put my forehead down on a ledge that may be part of the machine (we are right next to it, or a bank of desks? I am leary (of course) bare in mind that to me this is 100% real. I know I am dreaming, but am convinced I am in another dimension where I have slowly worked my way forward over almost 30 years. So, yes, this is more scary than jumping off an illusory cliff. I ask, "what should I expect?" She answers, "The closest thought in your mind that seems right is Electro Shock Therapy"
Well, that did not really calm me, but I do want to move forward. I know IWL that kind of therapy can be useful. I ask if the intensity of the thing will not just shock me awake? I am given the thought that if I can not hold on then I am not ready, how good are you? I place my head into some kind of cradle. A few seconds later I experience something hard to explain. It did not cause convulsions of the body. In fact, the body was no longer there. My ego or sense of self was not present either. Everything was patterns like lightning in red forming a galaxy of patterns. Suddenly I am back in the building with my head down. It happens again with blue, I come out into the lab and it happens again with gold. I am done. I lift my head and black out.

Long long ago I learned that the streams in these astral realms where something mysterious and special that my mind was translating into water. Through the decades this special phenomena has evolved into understandings that do not translate. Basically the ether is flowing in patterns and the only habitable places are in the eddies where there is some stability. In side these areas the ether mu"t be managed to ? It is hard to understand and beyond me to explain. I know that to move from one realm to another is almost like sailing on these streams. ??? Sorry I can not explain.

DGs took me out to rescue someone caught in some very high volume flow. My mind was filling in detail in ways I could understand. For me to translate these strange things that are beyond understanding, my mind must guess from things I do understand to fill in details. This took the form of a chaotic wild river full of tree limbs and a man was trapped under limbs. I could also see the backs of monsters kind of like crocodiles. We fished him out and then they took me on a sight seeing ride. Now here is the weird thing. As of yet I have never seen anything like a vehicle that can navigate the "waters" but clearly there must have been a force underneath us that allows travel. I look down and see nothing but the river.

We return to what seems like a recreational place. This area has the water flowing through it but it is more of a lake with almost no currents. They show me the most basic steps of making these vehicles. It is some pattern of energy around the feet shaped somewhat like a snowboard, but I can not see it. I just see the displaced water and am held aloft on the water. They take me to practice where the water is leaving the area. This is exciting kind of like boogie boarding, but I quickly get taken down in the water and can feel myselff being taken somewhere "other", but they helped me back up and we kept fooling around in the calm water.

I find myself swimming underwater and see a light as if it is the surface. I swim to it and crawl out. I have basically fallen into a house through a sliding glass door. I look back and the doorway is covered with water as if I am looking out a porthole. I see someone swimming out there and also see a very huge shark like thing following him. He looks as if he can not find the opening. I reach in and pull him out. We are both in the room now. I look back into the water. Strange creatures, all very ugly and terrible have gathered and are starring back at me. This reminds me of a time when astral entities showed me a boundary to a dark world of ghost like beings.

This is a few weeks old. I was deep into an epic length lucid when it got extra intense. I started to loose stability and could feel my body. I relaxed and tried to hold on. I started to flash back and forth between lucid dream and nREM half sleep hypnogogic stuff. As I started to shift the phase back to REM and firmly re-enter the dream world someone was holding my head under a shower of cold water. I enter fully into the dream and am surrounded by a crowd in my mom's old house. Someone pulls me out from under the shower and announces that I am finally conscious. This is like a false awakening except that I am not fooled. It is a party at my mom's old house and supposedly I passed out. I explain to my mom DC that in fact this is a dream I am having. She starts ranting about how she knew that lucid dreaming stuff was dangerous and that I could no longer tell real life from a dream. Everyone seems concerned. I walk outside and it is a very pleasant fall day. I notice my father (deceased) is by my side. I focus on him and give him a long hug. This feels real and like I am actually hugging my departed dad.
I take his hand and suggest we walk. There is some time dilation and it appears that we walked along the familiar roads of that neighborhood for about a mile. It was beautiful and very fulfilling. It takes about 15 minutes to walk that far, but actual dream time was perhaps 3 minutes, still it felt real. I get to the place where a smaller canal branches off from the big one. However the small one is going off in the wrong direction. I look around and dad is gone. I levitate out over the canal and dip my feet into it. It looks awesome starring down into the water, so vivid and layered. I start drifting down the stream. I now see objects floating past on the surface, There are tea cups on saucers, feathers and various random items. It reminds me of Alice in Wonderland. I reach down and touch an object. I decide to see how long I can stay focused while drifting along this wonderful sceen. I count out loud each item that floats by as I touch them. I got to 41 when I am suddenly standing near a convenience store. I see a group of about 7 people gesturing to me.
They seem to be astral entities as opposed to DCs. I go to them and one of them point blank says, "We are real. We were at your wedding. Come with us." Suddenly there is a cliff next to us dropping off about 50' into a river. The graphics are out of this world! OMG this is in total HD! The entities one by one jump off and into the water below. I am intimated because the experience is so graphic and it seems too high to jump. I decide I will do it and jump off the cliff. I plunge into cool water and it is realistic. We body float down a canyon until they are all getting out on the other side and pull me up too. There is a cave going into the cliff side.
They lead me up into a tunnel that is fairly dark and looks like the passages you might see in Egyptian tombs. There are symbols and hieroglyphs on the wall. We are coming up to a room lit by torch light. We walk around the corner and I am overwhelmed. A shrine like room is full of about a dozen more people. One of the people is about 9' tall and appears to be made of gold. It looks like a four armed Hindu deity. The crazy thing is that I am overwhelmed by a force that is impossible to describe. I feel power radiating off of this being and, I repeat, I am overwhelmed. I am fully lucid and rational AND at that point felt 100% sure this was a real being of god-like power. I fell to my knees and prostrated my self. I have almost lost all control of myself like a deer in the head lights. The god-like being approaches me and stands near me. Maybe I should have looked up and tried to interact. Maybe I could have met eyes with this being and learned amazing things, but I was in awe and completely unable to even look upon this power. It extended its foot and touched my shoulder with its toes. This had a feeling of a blessing like when a priest touches someone's forehead to bless them. I basically black out at this point.