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02/12/15 I was in a LD that really had very little visual quality so I decided to try and make some weird sounds (dare). I started by calling out Siva. It did not sound very powerful. I tried to vibrate the sounds and project them. They got all vibratory and the sound was neat. I summoned a long metallic dryer tube and tried calling out Siva in the same weird way, but directed down the dryer hose and turned the other end up towards me. Oh too cool! The sound had extra re-verb and also some sort of echo.

I have missed 3 good chances to get lucid for various reasons this week, and thought I would jot them down.

1) In a school building (ah! dream sign!). Look around and see a toilet. Need to pee. The toilet is not in a restroom, and women are nearby. Restroom providing no privacy (ah! Dream sign). Floor is slanted at odd angle. Oh yeah, clearly a dream! Let's do something, wait, I really do have to pee! No, put it off, lets do something, NO, have to pee! Damn it.

2) What kind of fish is down in that stock tank reef? Cool it is one of those uma uma noka noka appuii ei or what ever that weird name is from Hawaii. It is not under water (ah! Dream sign! Happy fish swimming in the air) lets get lucid. Fish bites my stomach. It kind of hurts. Hmm, ignore it, what now? Fish bites my stomach hard. Ouch, now that is stupid, I don't want to dream about a fish biting me! Stop that. Bites me very hard. Wake up in actual pain. Seem to have an inflammed limp gland.

3) Talking with buisnes people when my maleness flops out of my open fly. (should be dream sign? No lucidity) Just correct it, and zip up. No one notices. Go back to normal dream. Not much excuss there.

I just typed this out on a thread, so I thought I would paste it here so others can see one of my profoundest earlier dreams.



Early on when I had only about 8 years of lucid dream training i was entering every lucid and calling out in a voice that reverberated the dreamworld like the sound AUM. I would call out SIVA, SIVA, SIVA with the intent and feeling of both a prayer and a plea. I had been feeling something that seemed to be entities following me (not of the dream) but they stayed just at my periphery, for about a year. I went to a local park and went out into the field and practiced skills. I was very devoted and trained my abilities in every dream. I practiced leaping onto the top of a swing set and stopping dead on top of it. I suddenly got a feeling that even this was screwing around and I needed to be more serious.

I jumped down and faced off across the valley and called out SIVA over and over and shook the dream world with the power of my reverberating mantra. Suddenly I was yanked off the ground by an unseen force and pulled bodily and roughly forward through the air at high speed. It pulled me along and I saw a narrow canyon with a stream in it that I was being drug just feet over. I stretched out my feet and touched the water. It was more real than anything before and water flew up and was very life like. I was rushing towards the end of the valley and could see that the stream was issuing from a small cave at the very end. I was drug into the cave by this force and through a tunnel.

I was dropped on my knees in a very small cave, to small to stand in. It felt very really and I was scared, but did not want to wake myself. Was this something magical and other worldly/ I sure had been yelling SIVA into the void for about a year, better not wake now, no matter how terrifying this was. I looked around and there was a small alter in front of me along a wall. I heard a voice, "You must not destroy anything in my wolrd. Now choose!" I looked down and the alter now had about 6 items on it. They were common items that would be on an alter. There were matches and incense, a mango, and a bowl and a few other items.

I felt like this was a test and I needed to do something. I figured the first thing that one would do is light the incense. But no, that would destroy the incense and the match, what else could I do? I looked at the mango and wondered if I should bite into it. No, same problem. Then I thought about the mango having a seed! One of the skills I had practiced was causing trees to sprout out of things like skittles. I focused and caused the mango seed to start sprouting into a sapling right there on the alter.

The back wall lit up and the cracks in the wall started rearranging into a face. The face started talking in a powerful voice. It said, "I am Horus! You have drawn the attention of those with power. Why have you come here?"

Then I did perhaps the most arrogant and odd thing I could imagine, I suddenly decided that I was not going to speak with Horus until I tried calling out to SIVA now that I was someplace otherworldly. I turned from Horus and faced the back cave wall. I called out SIVA three times in the same mantra like reverberating way, as loud and strong as I could.

Suddenly everything changed, but it was an emotional change. Little changed physically, but I was overwhelmed with awe. I was unable to speak or move and I as terrified and also filled with other intense emotions, in a way beyond explaining. The back wall turned into black obsidian and a green light shown behind it. The light moved like a flame, but was inside the blackness.

A voice of ultimate authority and power boomed out, "I am SIVA! The gates have been opened to you! For now, leave this place!" I was suddenly pulled backward out of the cave and down the canyon. I was slammed back into my body and sprung awake with my heart racing and tingling with adrenalin.

It was very soon after that that the things following me started to reveal themselves and eventually one of them became my first real dream guide. Eventually after years of training I was taken to the astral and allowed access to a wonderful city. I have been going there for about 15 years now.

Sounds crazy? Some of you will not be able to believe this stuff about dream guides and going to the astral. However, for those who can believe, if you want this, it is attainable with dedication and time.

02/02/15 I had been dreaming about a childhood friend and his father and we were talking about fishing gear and such. I was sort of lucid, but not paying much attention. We were walking along a city street and came to a bridge. There was some form of protest going on, sort of like a picket line. I did not bother to focus on it and started across the bridge.

From the side it appeared like a small gang of hoods decided to mess with me. They came out behind me (I guess I sensed them, as I did not bother looking back.) I heard them call out angerly after me. I tried to not think about it as that would just make it happen all the more. I went into a building and caught a glimse of them chasing me (but I was not running.) I told myself to ignore it, and refused to acknowledge the stimuli. I opened a door and went out into a parking garage and down a short set of stairs. When I was only about 10 feet past the bottom of the stairs a thug bursts out of the door and yells something at me.

I decided that ignoring this was not going to help, so I turned around. There stood a gang type person and he pulled out what looked like a 9 mm handgun and pointed it at my face. I guess my dream is insisting I pay attention, but I do not get concerned, this is all virtual reality afterall. I take a couple steps towards him, and he unloads the entire clip into my face at near point blank range!

I do not respond and while it seems pretty real I just picture the bullets bouncing off. They do not even bounce off, they more reflect off like light on a mirror. The bullets reflect off in random directions and I reach the gangster. I reach out and crush his head (no goar, it just vaporizes.) I go back through the door and another bad guy is coming down the hall. I make a gesture like clearing a cobweb from in front of me, and he slamms into the wall so hard he pops (again no goar, just vaporized.) I turn a corner and there is another bad guy running at me.

I decide this is stupid and needs to be treated like a joke. I certainly do not like violent dreams and want to end this. So, instead of destroying this guy I grab him and give him a powerful 'wedgie' yanking the back of his underware up very soundly. I use that handle to stear him througha door to a room I make a bathroom. I shove his head in the toilet and give hima 'swirly,' flushing the toilet with his head in it.

That was the last I saw of any "bad guys," and was able to get back to not paying much attention to the dream.

02/01/15 I have been coming aware a lot during the long-term memory establishment phase lately. Normally being aware during this phase pisses me off and I then end up shutting it down (I wonder to what consiquence. This is where some mundane thing like a task at work plays out over and over endlessly. I normally refuse to dream about work, but these phases have been about tiling. I would think this would be just as nauseating, but I have kind of enjoyed it. Maybe I feel like I am getting ideas for the work still to be done. I know these phases are required, but it is usually the one part of a conscious sleep hat I dispise

01/31/2015 This dream verged on a truely vivid memeorable non-lucid, which I enjoyed. There was at times a semi-lucid element, such as thinking wow, "what a weird dream", or "this dream is so vivid," but for the most part it was pretty engaging and convincing. It was sort of like living out an adveture, just the kind of thing I have been hoping for.

It started when I was talking with my mother out in the shop of my house. I look up and could see clouds, but many of them were pasing by and were a deep brown. I then went to try and figure out why the clouds would be brown. It appeared that a major earth quake, probably from a volcanic eruption was taking place. There were more scenes of the sky and the brown clouds. there were scenes with shaking ground, and one weird scene with a mist like rain falling inside (that sort of made me semi-lucid, but I quickly got back into the adventure.) The final scene was the earth opening up and a giant sink hole swallowing up cars. It was a fairly long dream for a non-lucid, perhaps 10 minutes. Great fun and excitement!

01/27/15 I eventually went back into REM and a scene formed. It was a 2 level house, and I knew I was moving in here. I did not have memory of owning my current house. I decided to see what the house was like. It was a three bedroom, and the living room was at the top of the stairs. I interacted with a few DCs of family members. Cousin Todd makes it clear I should let him move in. In real life, I have great fear that when Todd gets out of prison he will try to move in with me. I was amazed at how well I could remember from waking life why Todd can never move in. I told him in clear terms why. at this point a hole popped through the ceiling and water started to flood the apartment. I assumed it must represent my fish tanks leaking. I found the whole scene irritating so I walked through a wall and went on to do other random things.

01/27/15 I shut off the alarm and DEILDed. I was now in the body of a woman (?, um, ok) and was outside the resort in Kauai. I decided that I was going to go and find the Tardus. I convinced myself that this would be easy. Suddenly Dr Who came out of the building following me. I should have teamed up with him and enjoyed the interaction, but I decided he was trying to keep me from taking the Tardus. I took off trying to get away from him. I ended up in a series of scenes where I told myself each random object was the Tardus. In one scene there was a large video game that you actually sit inside of. I sat inside it an DR. Who just casually was taliking to me, telling me that I should know this was not it. I got out and there was a large mail box. I found a key that fit it in my hand and "knew" it was going to work. Again, Dr. Who just said something funny and it was just a mail box.

I ran out the door feeling that unless I ditched Dr. Who, I would not be able to steel the Tardus. I heard him ask "what in the world is wrong with Jennifer?" I realized I was still in, and had been in the form of a woman. I tried shifting scenes while flying. I swooped and dove and went quickly through 3 scenes. The dream fell apart at that point and went into nREM.

01/27/15 DILD I was in a car driving and talking to the passenger near Capitol High heading towards the hill. I was commenting on how ridiculous Cousin Todd was, and how such and such made no sense about his actions in life. I looked over and it was cousin Todd I was talking to. I tried to cover for this f-up, and said I was actually meaning Brad, not Todd. Well, the thing is Todd is in prison and he is one of my dream signs. If Todd appears in a dream it means It is a dream.

I became lucid and just watched the dream for a minute. We were now in a parking lot at the bottom of the hill about where the fair grounds should be. Todd started going after some dogs with a rubber mallet. The dogs had come up from between two stores. I found this funny and just watched thinking about how silly it all seemed.

Now I found myself inside a new age store (the one we had been outside of). I looked around and found a strange silver ring, which kind of just found its way into my hand. It was a little unicorn with a star. I heard Todd's voice saying that it was a magic ring, and I should take it. I decided that it was not my ring and taking it would be steeling, and that I did not want to dream about a magic ring. I set it down and appeared back out front.

We started walking up the road and he started talking randomly. I decided to start taking control of the dream. I told him to watch me, and I would show him a great way to tell if he was dreaming or not. I then demonstrated a trick I made up where I take a short leap forward and do not let gravity take hold of me. In this case I lept and just started drifting across the road about a foot above the ground. He was impressed and I decided to screw around a bit. I looked way ahead at a fence and lept forward with my foot out in a kicking position. i now coasted steadily forward towards the fence until I had drifted 100 feet or so and planted the kick into the fence.

I now was coming up to a bridge over the river and told Todd that we should find a Tardus and travel through time. I decided that a field would be ahead of me and there I would find a Tardus. I started to see a field and told myself I could see the lights flashing that are on the Tardus. I did, in fact, start to see a flashing light ahead, like a rotating police light. As I walked into the field I saw a gazebo style green house with a rotating light on top. I just told myself that "the Tardus does not actually look like a police box, it takes any form that will not draw attention. In this case the Tardus is disguised as a green house.

I walked into the green house and it was in fact like a Tardus inside. It was very large and had odd gadgets and stuff. In the middle of it was a table with a toy that was animated like a circus toy. It had moving parts and the toy man in the scene started talking to me. He told me that we must use the Tardus to go on an adventure where we would fight an enemy who was going to do such and such, and the fate of the universe depended on it.

WOW! sweet, this seems like a very fun theme for a dream! A handled appeared and I reached out to pull it,,, here we go!

My alarm went off!!! Oh bull shit! You got to be kidding me!

01/26/15 I went straight back into a DEILD and wanted to spend more time with dad. Somehow I knew it would be meaningless to just create a copy of the scene. I focused on the feeling I had when I was just with him. I made some kind of shift, that I can not explain and the wall of the room I had formed in opened up and a portal appeared there. It showed some kind of garden scene and I steppped through. I felt some kind of shift, and appeared on the same bridge.

Everything was very vivid and my father was there. I walked towards him, but looking into the water, I saw amazing visuals of giant Koi fish, and I do mean giant. I stopped and staired at the visuals, many of the fish would have weighed 500 lbs. I saw a cool fantasy fish, that was a play on "sea horse." It had the back side of a fish which blended into a wonderful horse with all four legs and a mane.

I was content to watch it as I figured this was one of dad's Heavenly fantasies. Someone was trying to get my attention, but I was distracted and told them to look at the sea horse (and laughed at the humor of it). I looked up and an entity was on the bridge with me. It was an elderly woman and she made me think of my mother. She was so happy and said, "Eric, I am here also!" I was confused as this seems to be an after life area, and my mother is not dead. I realized after waking that this person was likely to be my mother's mother, grandma Jane. She gave me a big hug.

I turned and started taking to my father. This time he was very aware, and did not seem confused. He showed me a fancy mansion that appeared on a hill or something above the water garden. I asked him about this and he made some comment about how he realized he had needed to change some things in his life to have good things like a mansion.

It is hard for me to figure how this event took up 9 minutes, but that was pretty much it when the snooze went off. I wanted to hit snooze again so bad!!!!! But I had to get up and go to work.

01/26/15 I was 5 DEILDs into a chain when this dream happened. I wish this had not been during a 9 minute snooze, with a unavoidable interruption. I appeared on a bridge with tunnel vision ahead into the mists. This image was much like the animated Sleepy Hollow cartoon. A dark passage through trees with a solitary figure at the end of it. There was another weird effect that I can not explain well, that is that this seemed like a portal into another plane of existence. I was shocked and a bit confused until I realized the figure was my father. Dad died a couple years back, and on occasion I have been able to communicate with him through dreams/ ither that or I have quiet a delusion going on/ either way.

I called out to him and got his attention. I walked across the bridge and was in the water garden he had created in real life. At first he seemed confused and distracted, but eventually he focused on me and showed me around his fantasy water garden. I spent the entire 9 minutes walking with him and just looking at the things he thought he was growing. Eventually the snooze alarm went off.

01/26/15 I was in the hotel again and had lots of time for sleep. I set my alarm for 8 hours and planned on Alarm DEILD for the last hour.

I succeeded at 6 DEILDs of 9 minutes each. The first 4 were not so special so I will lump them all together. Themes included finding myself asleep on a bed at Walmart and walking around. I found the deli and ate part of a breakfast burrito. Then went out into the parking lot. I found a DC of an old friend out there in a car and visited with him. In one I appeared in a park behind some odd building and another old friend DC showed up and asked if I recognized the place from real life. A rest room building like in a park appeared, and I sort of remembered that it must be the little tiny park across from my junior high, and the other building was the back side of the public pool. I walked with him around the restrooms and we were then on a board walk and I looked at the store front nearest me. Nothing exciting here. In another I appeared sitting on the hotel bed, but 3 other people were in the room. I saw a large squash sitting nearby and picked it up. It grew larger tahn a pumkin. I started joking with the DCs and held the squash up to my belly laughing that under my shirt it would make me look pregnant. They suggested I do that, but I thought that was kind of stupid to waste lucid time on. I could just become a pregnat woman after all (maybe, sound like a challenging morph). I decided to cut the squash up and cook it and then serve it to these DCs and see if I could make it taste good. It fell into slices without the need to do anything and a pot of boiling water appeared. I dropped a piece in and it swelled up like those sponge toys. I poked at it with a fork, finding the whole texture and general appearance novel and fun. One of the DC scooped off a chunk and said it was nasty. I messed around with it a bit more before the next DEILD. I also had one with limited recall that just involved interacting with DCs.

I felt no need to fly or use super powers. I just had 4 fun 9 minute romps doing nothing worth while, but was completely fine with that. Then it got weird...

01/18/15 I had been having a DILD that involved me and my D.G. wondering through Indiana Jones type settings complete with crocodiles, wooden bridges and traps. We got out of that building and I found myself in a hotel room I knew somehow that this room was set up for people to view and rate TV shows. My wife was lounging on the bed fully clothed, and other people were in the room. Actor Micheal Fox was in the room and started talking about getting into their traditional TV watching position, and begins to manipulate my wife's body so that he can cuddle her spoon like from behind.

I suddenly get very angry, and tell him that I will punch him if he keeps doing that, and that i my wife lets him, I might feel like slapping her, if I was willing to do such a thing. I feel a lot of real emotional anger and it seems like pent up emotion from a past real life event. I decide that the whole scene is stupid and disrupt the entire dream.

Everything vibrates and the scene is gone. I can now partly feel my body and the scene is grey. However, a great deal of anger still is there. I decide that the healthiest thing I can do is get out the anger in the form of a dream, as it must be something repressed from life. I get out of bed (dream body) and start smashing holes in the walls. I smash a hole out side of the house. I remember the fire work tube from an earlier WILD and summon it into my hand. It starts shooting of sparks like a 4th of July fountain. I put my anger into it and it is now almost a flame thrower of silver and gold sparks and flame. I start burning everything around me. It does not take long to exhaust my anger and I eventually wake up.

01/18/15 I was trying to WILD and succeeded in getting out of bed and walking down my hall, then was back in my body. I got that far a second time. I realized I could hear the ferrets (5 pets) in the bedroom next door playing, so the noise was likely pulling me back. I decided to incorporate the ferrets into the WILD so my brain would think the noises were inside the dream. This time I got up (dream body) and walked down the hall intending on seeing what the ferrets were up too.

I got down the hall to their door and opened it. There is a baby gate across the door way. Suddenly the dream became fairly vivid, and I see dozens of ferrets running out of my room and up the hall towards me. They are stampeding over the baby gate to get into the ferret room. I step over the gate and see that now cats are coming. I find this all delightful and start laughing. The ferrets were running from the cats, I think, so I toss the cats out into the hall. Then a mid sized boxer dog is coming. I am having fun and take the cute dog and toss him out the window onto the lawn. A voice asks, "that is not nice, what if you hurt him?" I just chuckle knowing this is a dream.

I now leave the ferrets behind and try to think of TOTM. The only one I had planned on doing was fireworks, and I remember it. I go outside and my wife is now with me. I tell her I am going to shoot off fireworks. The neighbor boys are near by and come over to watch. I summon a large cardboard tube into my hands and point it skyward. I plan on it making a sound and jarring my hand a bit. It does not so I pretend that it did and summon a noise "phoof". I am now staring up and expecting an explosion in the air. Nothing happens, and one of the boys says "it is not working." I decide to believe it is working. I say, "No, it is just travelling up really far before going off, it is a huge firework."

Suddenly it goes off, but instead of the normal pattern it makes some psychedelic electrical pattern that branches across the sky. It is intense green and a bit like fractal art. I am very impressed as it covers about 1/4 of the sky. I repeat this and now the tube does make the sound and slightly jar my hand. This time it is faster and the pattern is bigger and bright red. I do this two more times.

I then went off and did other things, but did not pay too much attention after that.

01/16/15 Very weird astral trip. I was having a long intense lucid that involved flying around the city and landing on roof tops that were vivid. I remember one was a steeply sloped brass roof. I could actually feel the rooftop and the slight give a metal panel would have. I interacted with DCs and my dream guide through various scenes. At one point I had ended up back at what seemed to be a market, when I noticed the DCs one by one taking off into the sky. The entities who dwell in this city rarely fly as it requires energy to counter the gravity this astral area has in place This made me curious, so I flew up after them. They were congregating in the sky and communicated telepathically to me that they were attempting to open a gate way to another are.

I joined them by taking the hands of two of them and everyone formed a big ring in the air like you see with sky divers. Something very weird and hard to explain happened as that reality faded in and out and clouds swirled around and changed colors as the seemed illuminated from behind. The act seemed to take effort as we had to keep trying until a clear center appeared in in the swirling clouds that was lit like a sunrise. that expanded and reality vibrated, then we were floating in the sky above a new area.

We were above a hillside leading down to what looked like a lake or sea shore with features like you see around mineral springs. Many entities were walking down a short path and climbing in the water. I followed them. As soon as I got to the bottom I found myself and companions in a hot springs about chest deep. I realize now that I have been to this place once before in a dream that did not go so well (I freaked out, still being new to astral stuff). I was surprised that I now seemed in a some what enclosed area that was much smaller than what I saw from above. It seems the area is divided into small intimate hot tubs for relaxing with friends.

i asked the crowd in general what this place is, and someone told me to look in the water to see their history. I looked in the water and a scene formed. It was suspiciously like anime. I could not really tell what I was seeing, except that some central figure with a sword had stabbed it into the ground or something. I thought, "this must be a joke, it looks way to much like anime.

I looked back up and said out loud, "So your history is Dragon Ball Z?"

Everyone started laughing, and I felt that somehow they were playing a joke on me. I asked how they could know about things from my waking life? A girl talked and said that they were not from here and were actually all dreamers from various areas. She said she was from France, so and so is from Y*jU&^ (some alien sounding name I could not process) and you are from Idaho.

I asked how she knew I was from Idaho. Unfortunately, at this point I was jolted awake.