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Alcohol before bed

Bed time 12:30Am

Angry Father DILD 8:00AM

It's strange but I am at my ex-in-laws house. It's just me and my parents. I am playing with a new phone. It looks like a Note or galaxy SIII. My dad is ranting and raving about how something was evil and of the devil. I was getting really annoyed listening to him so I start to make fun of him. I tell him things like how I love mammon and I worship the devil. I show him little demon animations on my phone. It was straight sarcasm.

Then for no real reason my emotions turn into near hatred. I look up from the phone and I see him walking into the living room. I say, "I am going to punch you in the face!" He passes the ceiling fan and I can see the light shine through his head.

Then it dawns on me. The emotion and the light. All my anger fades instantly. I get overly excited and say, "WE ARE DREAMING!" He just looks at my funny. Then everything gets white washed with a bright light. I think I am waking up. I don't realize that fading to black is waking but the fading to white is something else. I sort of panic and think about the task I wanted to do. I try to visualize but I get nothing. I remember CanisLucidus and how he reentered by saying I am dreaming. It's all I can think of so I say, "I am dreaming." a several times. But then I give up way too easy.

I should always always always remember DEILD especially when the LD is so short. I guess I was taken by surprise in this dream. I am usually so involved with the emotion that I don't become lucid. Thanks, CanisLucidus for pointing out that strong emotion is a dream sign!

I didn't wake up after all. After the white goes away I find myself back in the dream non-lucid. I am sitting in the same living room playing with the phone again. I am scrolling though a bunch of text that I can't focus on. I click a link and see a picture of Howard Stern with puffed out lips hold a microphone. He is next to either some woman or it was Steven Tyler with puffed out lips holding a fake dick. I laugh at this and shake my head. All the time Spencer from work is talking to someone in the room. I never look up to see and I don't know what he is saying.

"Punch you in the face" I think this is the 3rd or 4th time this month that has been said in a dream.

Fragment
I remember being at Wal-Mart. I lay down in shopping cart and try to sleep.


New dream signs: Strong Emotion, Trying to sleep, "Punch you in the face".

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

I had multiple mirco awakenings last night. So many that I was just too lazy to record much. Its a shame I didn't even write down my LD so I forget a large part. I hope the rest comes to me during the day.

DILD? TOTM fail
Something triggered lucidity. I am assuming it was DILD I remember trying to stabilize a lot in a neighborhood. Something about houses. I was on the ground feeling the grass and rubbing my hands on the grass. I really wanted to feel the texture and hear the sound. I remember trying so hard to focus and gain clarity. *memory gap* Now I remember I had my hands under my jawline. I was outside and it was sunny. I remembered that someone on here looked at their shadow. So I turned until I saw my shadow on a concrete wall. (seeing my shadow in a dream is a first) It looked normal and I had my hands were I expected. I started pulling but my head would not give. It felt as solid as real life. I guess I didn't put enough prep work into it. Then I destabilized really fast and before I could do anything about it I woke up. I think I tried to DEILD but failed. That must be why I forgot to record it.

Fragments
My wife and I are getting married (again?) We want a really small wedding. I am talking to my dad about performing it this time.

There was something about being on the DJ forum. At each post my spirit somehow when to a physical place.

VILD before and WBTB. Failed DEILD twice. Had a small amount of alcohol in my system.

Fragment - Snake
I feel like someone else. I feel snake around my troat.

Fragment - Flagg
Had a long segment of no recall. I had the thought that The Wizard Flagg from Stephen King's books was stealing my dreams.

DILD (brief) - Tire Change
I am changing a tire on a large red pick-up. Tire sizes are all crazy but my ex-wifes brother and father keep telling me its ok. The hydraulic jack doesn't work right. It keeps letting the truck fall. I think I got it working right but the truck falls on me and I get crushed. It doesn't hurt and I don't panic. My movement is restritced and I force myself nit to feel claustrophobia. I am able to calmly get the truck back up. I had to tighten the jack release. I try putting a jack stand under the truck but it sinks in to the ground. Then I use some type of wire attached under the truck to the Jack. The angle is all wrong and i have the jack a good 10 feet away. This is so strange that I realize I an dreaming. I say to myself this must be a dream but I don't follow though with it. I feel busy and don't want interruptions. Someone talks to me and I fall non lucid. There is a third set of solid rubber tires like on a shopping cart. I am trying to figure it out when the dream changes.

Now its an episode of Glee and they are giving a guy money. To men are conversing at a desk. He looks like the main guy from Psych. They want him to drive the same truck and will pay him. They want him to look for that blonde girl from Glee. I don't know here name I hate that show. He says, Ok but I might have a bad day. They agree to pay him extra for gas money. The other guy pumps air with a bicycle pump and it looks like he is jacking off. He begins to comicaly moan and make faces. The view changes to a digital map of San Francisco. I see like a GSP trail of the truck and at different points there is a symbol that looks like a stack of cash. I hear a "cha-ching" sound at each one. Then I see large white bold letters over lay the image. It reads "COLD HARD CASH"

Family Visit - VILD effect almost DILD
I walk into my bedroom and I see my wife's cousin and her family and my brother-in-law. My wifes cousin looks into the bathroom with an devious expression. I peek in there and I see my sister-in-law sitting low in the bathtub. Thankfully all I can see is her head with a towel wrapped around her hair. The dream gets fuzzy. I lay down next to my wife on the bed and just chill with everyone. I see marbles everywhere. A marble rolls off the night table and I kick it. I land on my wife has a large pile of marbles on her. My dead grandpa is sitting in a recliner. He says something about the marbles. get up and look at some marbles on the floor past the recliner. I find some are misshapen. They are orange and yellow swirls on them. I tell him someone messed up in the factory. He says, Call them 'joys'." I find large ones that are more like large broken marble chunks. They have some comics pasted on it. Something about the way I was studying the marbles made me think of lucidity. Suddenly I want to change my clothes but no one will leave the room. So I try to sleep in my clothes. I really want to try to WILD. I close my eyes and slowly start to feel like a weird SP. My hands and arms twitch. Then it starts with my whole body. I decide to get up because I get embarrassed thinking that everyone with watching this happen. I tell my wife we are not going to church today. She argues and I wake up.

VILD

VILD is having and effect on my dreaming. The first part is blank but I remember walking into my bedroom and seeing many family mostly my wife's side. They were all there but didn't give me a lucid party. My dead grandfather was there as well but I didn't DILD. I later wanted to sleep and tried to WILD in the dream and had really odd SP. It felt like my whole body was jerking and twitching. I got up because I thought everyone could see me and I was embarrassed.

Attention focus

I DILD but let it go because I was so focused on a task. In waking life I hate interruptions so it carried over in my dream. I should work on this in waking life. Perhaps interprions can be useful.

Thoughts
Lucid
Non lucid

Edit: There was a almost DILD dream before my WBTB. I am at my ex-in laws house to pick up my daughter. She wont come. I feel so sleepy that I end up on a hidabed trying to sleep. Then I remember that I dream of this sometimes. I think about it some and almost get it but. Instead it was enough make me remember how I dislike these people and I don't want to be here. I go get my daughter from other room and make her come. Pick her up and she starts crying and says she doesn't want to go to my house. The alarm wakes me up.

LUCID Zombie Bite TOTM 4:00AM


I wake up at 3:22AM go to bathroom. Lay back down. I was going to attempt WILD but first I wanted to try VILD. I was so sleepy that forgot VILD so I still dont know how that works all though I did VILD just before falling alseep.

I am not sure what happened here. I think maybe there was a slight SP sensation but I just can't remember for sure.

I found myself just thinking I was having hypnagogic hallucinations. I started visualizing myself in motion. I actually do this a lot with HH to try to stimulate and form a dream. This time it payed off.

I am walking down 20th street in my town in the daytime. I am really close to my house. I take slow deliberate steps. I can hear the my feet crunch and scrape on gravel. I think how vivid this all is. I look at my hands. They look normal for the most part but are hard to focus on. I continue a slow zombie like walk paying attention to every detail while studying my hands. For a while I am not sure If I am in the dream yet. I give it a little longer before I am satisfied.

I stop and look around. I say, "God Damn. I did it. Then I think, "OK now don't get too excited. It's no big deal." The dream is still kind of weak and feels like it is fading. I rub my hands together some and It feels and sounds totally real. I think of the non-sp DEILD I had the other day and this confirms it was in fact a dream. I note that and continue.

I walk onto 20th street it is usually busy. It is getting dark now I see no cars. I jump once just for fun because I was reading flying LDs from DJs before bed. I kind of wanted to just fly but I remember TOTM so I just jump up about 10-20 feet and land hard and solid in road. Now I see cars coming. I think, "OMG I wonder what getting hit by a car would be like in a lucid dream." I step in front of cars. All I can see of the cars is head lights. I hear a faint car horn and Doppler effect as the car gets near me. I am a little surprised when the car just passes right through me. I wonder if I am actually astral projecting myself into the road.I play with this for a while and let several cars pass through me as I cross the street. Every time I get a strange wind sensation that goes through my body. I should mention this whole time the dream is trying to fade and I am really concentrating to notice every visual detail in stabilize. So, I start to feel like I need to hurry to get the TOTM done.

I see a house with an open basement like garage facing the road. This house does not exist here in real life. I remember that expectation is everything in a dream. I so tell myself that there is a zombie in there. I walk toward it. I just can't help it. I call out really loud, "ZOMBIEEES?!" I notice how funny my voice always sounds when I get loud. I become slightly amuzed at this.
I notice that I go back to my slow zombie walk for a while. Maybe because it just because I am thinking of zombies. One more car passes through me and get that odd sensation. The dream shifts a little because and I almost wake up I was not expecting to get hit. I had to really concentrate again to stay in the dream.

Instead of the garage. I ended up in the front yard. I see very large shovel with a shiny blue head on it. It is stuck in to the ground next to a blue wheel barrel. I hurriedly take the shovel because I am still expecting zombies. I hear a zombie growl behind me. I think that it is going to bite me in the neck and I don't want that. I turn around and face it. I cant see detail. Its more like the zombie had a light source behind it and I can't see its face at all but that does not take away from the realism. I can see he was wearing blue jeans and a blue flannel shirt. (whats with the blue?) I quickly decide that what I really wanted was a large, sharp pair of hedge shears. The shovel turns in to just that. I reach up and clip the zombies head off. I hear a loud, wet squishy, gushing sound and his head pops straight up and into the darkness. I watch fascinated as dark blood sprays from its neck. Then I want a shovel again and the shears oblige. The zombie is still walking somehow and I hit it in the chest and it falls over. I see another one now and I with out thinking I stab the end of the shovel into its throat. Then there is a third in my face to my left. I remember that I don't want to kill all the zombies so I drop my shovel.


This is how the Zombies looked but with no hair.
I do kind of puss out here because I am actually creeped out by the zombies. I force myself to relax a little.I hold my right index finger out to the zombie. Still the same with the lighting here but I see it open its putrid and mouth. I see strings of dark matter on its teeth. I tense up as the zombie takes a bite of my finger. There is no pain just pressure. I feel faint and sick and I collapse to the ground. I wake up.

I really should have tried to DEILD just for shits and giggles but I was afraid I would fall non lucid and forget this dream.

EDIT:I forgot to mention that I had several glasses of wine last night. One glass of homemade honey mead. It was strong so I went to homemade red wine. I drank half a bottle of that. It was all stretched over a 4hr period. I became thoroughly sleepy from that and a being slightly sleep deprived from the night before. So there may have been a slight REM rebound here.

Thoughts
Lucid
Non lucid dream
Inductions/aids/factors

So I decided to do the alarm clock thing this morning. I set it for 5:00am and hit snooze for 15 until the next alarm. I did this for about an hour. I was trying to DEILD/WILD but it gave me a DILD instead. That's fine DRY SPELL OVER

I am running in the woods. There are leaves on the ground. I dive head first into a thicket. I turn around and see several Indians in deerskin walking in a small valley. I don't focus on them. I want my bow and arrows. I realize I left them on the others side of the valley. I think maybe one of my daughters will get it for me. No. That's preposterous. So I a say, Screw it." I walk toward the valley and say, "Computer, freeze program." Everything freezes. The Indians the tress the leaves on the ground.After I walk past the Indians, I kept repeating to myself, "Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program.Computer, freeze program." The thought was that if I forgot about them being frozen they would either be gone or unfrozen when I turned around. Something about it feels familiar and I remember freezing time in lucid dreamsThis immediately dawns on me that I am dreaming. It's strange but I felt almost annoyed and cheated. I felt like I botched up the surprise attack on the Indians and now its just some dream. I didn't feel any of the euphoria that I thought I would after a dry spell. I just turn around. I never picked up my bow but I suddenly have an arrow notched and drawn back. I can vividly feel the string and the arrow in my right hand. Now my vision is blurry and I can see the Indian and the brown leaves on the ground but I can't make out any details. I pause. "What was the TOTM?" I have to think really hard. "Was it shrink myself?" No that was last month. Its a new month now. OH Zombies that's right. Where do I find a zombie. I know I will shoot an Indian and when he gets up he will be a zombie and he can bite my arm. I start looking around but the Indians are gone and my vision is so blurry. I try to focus but I just can't. I feel like I am waking so I decide that I better stabilize. I start rubbing my hands together. I feel myself in my bed and my hands feel extremely real. I can even hear my hands rubbing together. I try to open my eyes but It looks all messed up like when you are in SP. I don't feel any vibrations though. I am confused. I feel and heard my hands but not so much my arms. Then I hear my wife say,"Punch em in the mouth." What was that? That can't be real. OR I woke her up some and she is talking in her sleep. Then the Goddamned alarm went off and effed it all up

So I think I could have totally DEILD but the alarm got me. I think I was probably in SP but I wasn't feeling the vibrations. Which is unusual for me BUT I suppose its entirely possible not to since some do and some don't. I wonder if I am changing or if it just is going to be the same every time. BLEH! It feels like as soon as I understand my body it wants to change the rules on me. That's OK I'll adjust. I will be the DEILD master eventually

EDIT:I later found out that she was actually sitting up awake with the baby while this was going on an she told me she said nothing. So it was definitely hallucination.

I think this section will help me remember what works and what doesn't so here I go. Also, I know I try to be a purist and I may have told someone of you that I am going that direction but I think once in awhile aids are helpful and OK.

Aids
I was off today so last night I drank a whole bottle of homemade wine. Don't worry the alcohol content was fairly low or wine... 9%ish?
D3 8000ui - seems to make things more vivid and lighten my mood
Potassuim - 3600mg for restless legs and I seem to have a higher chance for when combined with alcohol lucids when I take a large amount.

I rarely try the above methods. It may or may not have an effect anyway.

Inductions
CALD - I summoned my inmaginary friend from my childhood. Her name is Taffy. The HI continued to turn sexual so I went with random faces telling me that I am dreaming.

WBTB WILD failed

ASILD(Alarm Snooze Induced Lucid Dream. My own name for something I spoke with OB about)
ASILD produced WILD

DILD almost successful but the alarm got me

Thoughts
Lucid
Non lucid

I was so hung over this morning I went back to bed after being up for 3 hrs. I decided to attempt WILD. I didn't really care if I got any sleep I just wanted to lay down. I started on my left side. I watched a lot of HI. I have been getting too excited in SP that I wake up. Some people don't have the SP and I have notice before that sometimes I just transition with the HI. Well that doesn't work well for me most of the time but I was trying to tell myself that I could do that and not get excited. So I really focused on the visuals more than the physical sensations.

I picked "get lucid" as my mantra and focused on HI. I hit SP and got way excited I started a lot of inner dialogue. "Oh yes this is it here we go ya omg ah shit" I woke up. I then I got up to pee and went back to bed on my right side and started the WILD again. I basically dropped the mantra and just meditated and watched HI until SP kicked in.

This time I stayed relaxed. Instead of transitioning out of my bed like usual I just visualized but didn't have much clarity of thought. It was more like strong HI. It was something like me looking at a video game and I was trying to move crustations that looked like little grey balls in the water with my mind. I wanted to shrink them but couldn't. I guess I had TOTM on my mind

Then that visual went away and I had a FA. I was so disappointed with my LD that I just rolled over from my left to my right side. I thought about the lucid dream and thought "Well that one sucked" (I didn't catch this until I actually woke up but I wasn't on my left when I started the WILD. I was on my right the whole time!)

So being in the dream still but not knowing it I noticed I still had residual SP vibrations. I thought it was really odd that it came back so fast. I checked by rolling my eyes to the back of my head (Sometimes that makes the vibrations more intense.) I was glad I was in SP and I just relaxed but I think I fell non lucid after that. I don't really remember much after that. There's just a fragment about seeing my dad.

The last time I actually WILD I had a lot of confusion but I my awareness we a lot better. If I wan't hung over I probably would have had it. Oh well, at least I was able to get lucid. I was starting to think that I was in a bit of a dry spell. Plus my hangover is gone! Now that I have more confidence tonight should be a good one as long I don't drink

Before hand I decide to do the advanced TOTM, swim in the cretasious sea. I watched BBC Sea Monsters with Nigel last week and was prepared. I would enter the mirror in my room and be on Nigel's ship.

I decide to WILD and actually did it! It was a lot like DEILD after all. I layed there with my mantra and a very dim awareness and suddenly I hit SP. It was a slight twinge and I wondered why so short. I relaxed and felt it again but stronger I get wildly excited. I feel my heart pounding and my breath shorten. I wanted lucid so bad tonight. I force myself to be calm with my meditation. Once I was relaxed the SP went away. My dream body gets up but I feel really real and wonder if I am a wake. I walk to the mirror and push on it and it is solid.

I am suddenly back in bed with SP. I get up and run to the mirror and bash my head on it solid. I feel embarrassed and drunkenly go back to bed. I feel the SP again. Again I rush to the mirror I really thought that if I entered the mirror I could be on the deck of Nigel's ship.I hit my head on it and wonder if why wife thinks I am nuts. I feel like I was just sleep walking. I go lay back down only to hit SP again. This time I think more about it. I remember the room didn't look right and I barely felt the mirror. OK lets just concentrate now.

I cleared my mind. I felt like I was floating. I get the urge to spin. I felt like I was on my back and the center point was my stomach. I begin to spin so fast that I could feel the centripicle force on my arms and legs. It was a nice feeling but I wanted to get on Nigle's ship! I made a new mantra. Nigel. Nigel Nigel Nigel... I imagined my hands connecting with a smooth railing of what could be a ship deck. I felt the friction from my spinning movent on my hands. I stopped the spinning and had a solid hold on it with my left.

Suddenly I am back in bed sort of awake. I DEILD quickly. I hit SP again but this time I slowly get up. No good. My body feels sluggish and the bed feels like a tar pit. I could only get my left arm over the edge of the bed. I imagine my feet slowly floating over the side.

Suddenly I feel something hard and cold on my left hand. It is so cold it almost hurts. I don't know if it got me or if I got it. I feel like I am pintching a cold raw half thawed chicken wing. It scares the hell out of me and I think something evil is there. I force myself reminan calm. I know I am dreaming and I am very determined to do the TOTM. The thing is so gross but It actually helps stabilize me. I stand up and pick the thing up since it is attached to my fingers. I want to know what it is. My vision is dim but the thing in my hand turns to my son. He feels cold and dead. I feel panic and I wonder if he is even alive. But no no. I am dreaming he is not real. I really have to tell myself this. I don't feel like I am going to wake up but a part of me wanted to so that I could check on him. I cuddle him to me and calm down. I force myself to walk the the mirror once more.

I feel my son sort of meld into my left arm and dissapear. I slowly face the mirror an with more determination I press my face into as hard as I can. It is just solid. So weird. I see my reflection. My face is blured and my reflection is looking to my left with a mind of its own. Yes I am deffinitely dreaming. I breath out with frustration and my breath fogs the glass. I hear my wife complain about something. I look over and she threw an arm up in disgust.
I say, "OOOH SHUT UP. You're not real anyway."

OK time to think how am I going to do this. I open the bedroom door thinking I would just be there. Nope. I walk to the front door and really concentrate on being on Nigles ship. I walk to it but I am slowed down. The room stretches and I can't reach the door. I try to run but I feel like some force has me by the waist and I can't get any traction. GOD my house is getting scarry!

I see my hands and it causes me to pause for a moment. They look so odd that I am distracted. I remembered something I wanted to try. I look at my fingers and see how crazy distorted they are. The lengths are all wrong and some fingers fan out into 4 or 5 other ones. I kind of chuckle at this. I have read that this happens in dreams and makes a good RC but I had never see it for myself in a lucid dream only in HI. Then, I remember something else and I try to make magic like on skyrim or the sorccerors apprentice. Bah I got nothing.

OK back to work! I am too determined not to complete my task. I force my way to the door and now it wont open. So I hit it. It cracks like glass. AH HA! I hit it again and again and each time the door cracks away. I begin to see daylight. They living room was so dark before. The last time the door looks really weak so I use the force. I force push like in Star Wars and the door explodes into tiny peieces.

I run outside but it is just my normal neighborhood. I run a few houses down to the south. On the East side of my street I see 2 women sitting on thier front poarch talking.
I stop and ask, "Can I get a ride to Nigel's boat?" I figure it was worth a shot. They both look hessitant and shocked that I talked to them. I think about how DCs like to talk gibberish a lot and I don't expect much of an answer.
But the one on the left says, "Yeah". I follow her to her house accross the street. Shis is wearing a black and grey one piece bathing suit. I see her keys in her hand.
I say"Well the thing is we might have to drive to the ocean. That's a long way." I think how I don't want to spend my LD trapped in a long car ride! She looks discouraged and confused.
I decide to try to convince her or something else. I said, "Look. Don't you have a teleporter? I know you have to. Eeeeeveryone has a teleporter!" I look at her hopeful and try to convince her.
Then she says one word without emotion, "Yes."
As she goes in her house she turns and says, "I have to freshen up a bit."
I follow her inside but think to ask, "Is it ok if I come in?
Again she says "Yes."

I look around and she has a messy house. I see a cat run off. I take it all in.
She says, Sorry my house is a mess."
"Oh dont worry about it. I dont mind." Then for some reason I get horny. Its just me and her alone in her house. Giggity. I grab her to me and take her top down. She goes limp and to allows me without emotion. I stop.
"I am sorry. I should not have done that." I remember that I have a task to do. I don't want to waste my lucid dream on sex. I would just wake up and be mad. I let it go.

We walk to a back room and she hands me a pill bottle full of some liquid.
"Here drink this."
I say, "What? So I drink this and I am teleported? She nods. "Are you sure? Whats in it? Oh well here I go." I open it and drink all of it. I remember one TOTM where you drink a potion and I didn't focus on the taste. This time I took the time to. I noticed it was thick and slightly sweet but tasted a lot like cough syrup.

I waited but nothing happened. "nothing happened"
"Oh thats just my vitamin thereapy. I dont like it."
I get pissed and realize she obvioulsy isn't going to help me. I hear some man talking in another room but Ignore him. I start to walk out side but I see a hallway to the left. I decide she has to have a teleporter some where in the house. I sneak in hoping she thinks I left the house.

I walk to a room and see a gross and dirty tanning bed. I see the light and feel the heat from it. There is a dirty toilet to the right. I start to get in the tanning bed thinking that will work but I really dont want to try that.

I walk to the next room and see a black pod of some sort. It looks like a SCI-FI deep sleep chamber. That has to be it! I get in and lie down. The lid closes and the light dims. Nothing happens. I look by my right hand and see a control panel. I punch a few buttons and say, "Cretaceous Period!" I hear a chiming sound and a swooshing noise. Then a chiming sound and the lid opens.

I AM AT THE BOTTOM OF AN OCEAN FLOOR! I see all the fish from the Sea Monsters show. Thousands of fish swimming all over the place. I am so happy. This is way better than Nigel and his ship! I am right in it. I see a Mosasaur right off the bat. I dont see sharks. I see something like Ichthyosaurs. I see a few Xiphactinus. I also see hundreds of other things that don't belong. Like little cartoony worm like things on the floor. And cartoony looking turtles. There was so much activy and so many different things swimming around that I have hard time seeing it all. I feel like sensory over load.

I hear some silly music and a dopey voice singing. "...Here I am swimming in the deep blue sea. The deep blue see. The deep blue sea...."
I laugh my ass off at this. I laughingly repeat "The deep blue sea hahaha!"

I notice and am not surprised that I can breath underwater. I remember that every underwater dream I could always breath like no big deal. I begin to swim. I notice the coral life in the floor and white sand. I see a deep ocean floor valley not far away. The water is so clear and everything is amazingly beautiful. But the ocean life is so thick! None of the fish seem to notice me and I am not afraid. Even when the big fish with large teeth swim by I feel calm and they ignore me. The fish don't even bother to eat each other. This Cretaceous Ocean is tame. I am surprised at this because I thought for sure I would be eaten if I pulled this off.

I get kind of bored just swimming. I feel content that I completed my task and am happy with myself. I see woman in a bright red one piece. She is just floating like she is dead. But I see her head turn and one eye look at me. Her reddish hair flows in the water. I come to her from behind. At first I act like I am a fish and lightly bite her arm. Then I get really horny again the dream turns into the best lucid sex ever. I feel really guilty because I don't like wasting a dream on sex. I didn't care at that point. I'll leave the rest to the imagination...

Afterwards. I notice we are on a white sandy beach and I see a rock cliff. For some reason I think there is a road up there but I don't care. I really just want to wake up now and record my dream. At that thought the world fades to black.

Xiphactinus


mosasur


Ichthyosaurs

NLD Black
Side Notes Blue
Lucid Red

My wife woke me but about 4am. She asked me to change baby's diaper. He's been awake for some time and she's tired. I do it. I feel irritable but let it go. I decide this will be a good time to WBTB. I bring him back and we snuggle and all sleep. I do a little bit of MILD. I quickly set intention and mantra. This time I chose "I am dreaming." I find that it helps to change mantra so that it doesn't lose meaning. As I was laying there I remembered that I haven't looked at TOTM yet and have no clue. I almost got on the PC but I felt really tired. I wanted decide on what I wanted to do but decided I would just be happy if I got lucid. I figure I would just play in my environment and have some fun.

I have some non lucid dream about a laser beam showing on the wall in my kitchen. It freaks me out. I look over the wooden half blinds at my niehbors kitchen. (I can do this in real life...odd I know) I see the guy but he is totally oblivious to me. I get really creeped out for some reason and wake up scared and heart pounding.

I remember DEILD. I hit SP. YES! I am so happy I know I am on my way to a lucid. NO! I tell myself to be calm. I do a calming meditation. SP subsides and I wonder if it is go time. I hesitate and them I just get out of bed. It feels so real but I am pretty sure its a dream. I can't see anything. I feel my way out of the room. I think about the mirror on the way out but it feels too solid so I let it pass. I remain calm and try to imagine the dining/living room. I can see for a few seconds and then its black. I feel my way outside. I leap off the porch and float up and now I can see. The night sky is full of bright stars. I brush past tree branches. I just sort of float and feel a rush of euphoria. The wind blows and I am carried away at high speeds. I can feel something like G forces and I am exhilaration and let out a screech of excitement. I feel like I can hear my real voice and wonder if my wife can hear me. My voice sounds muffled and strained. For a moment everything goes black again. I do a calming and relax. I float. I try to open my eyes but it feels like my real eyes. I can my own face like a reflection in glass with the stars and clouds behind it. I close my eyes and relax and just focus on making HI. I feel the exhilaration again and I can hear really loud SP noise. It sounds almost like high winds.

Suddenly I see two of my nephews. They are flying with me. I grab on to one and focus on feeling with my hands. I feel like the dream is fading again so I grab him close to me almost like we are spooning. It wasn't as weird as it sounds. I was just using whatever I had available to stabilize. I tell him to make a vortex because I wanted to go someplace else. I tell him over and over. I either close my eyes or I loose my vision.

Suddenly the three of us are standing in my kitchen. At this point I become aware that I have been repeating my mantra over and over but in the back of my mind and not as real internal dialogue. I note it and am pleased with myself. I look around and and was going to tell him to make a vortex again but realize there was no need. I say, "Oh never-mind. We are back." The dream shifts and we are in the sun room. I remember that I wanted to get used to talking to DCs so I ask my nephew a question. "What is you name?"
He replies, "Offers night."
"What?" I didn't understand him at first but as soon as I said 'what' it came clear. the rest of the conversation went like this. He would talk and as soon as I said 'what' it came to me before he could repeat himself. It was really odd. I ask him, "What does that mean?"
And he says, "I'll tell you later."

I suddenly remember my other nephew. I feel like he is standing behind me and I get an eerie feeling. I feel the same kind of fear as I did in the previous dream. At that point I lose all focus and the dream fades and I wake up.


I thought about DEILDing again but I really wanted to remember my LD and felt really excited about it. I look at the time. 4:40am. I note that I slept about 35min since WBTB

I later have some dream about trying to cut the head of my penis off with scissors. I get so far as to have a bloody ring around it and realize what the hell I am doing. I freak out. I realize that I thought it would just grow back but I have no idea why I am doing it. I feel like it hurts without real pain. Maybe I was just thinking about my son circumcision? Bleh.

DILD to DEILD to FA

I am at my wife's cousin's Karen's house. There is something about my bike being there. I bring it outside. I was thinking about riding it home and leaving my car. I look up and see a bright light. It flew between some clouds and lit them up. I knew this was unusual for an airplane. Some tree branches got in my view as I was walking. I back up and instead of this light I see what looks like 5 or 6 fish swimming in the sky. I say, "What the fuck?!" I look more intently and yes they are fish. They are a play golden color with a redish strip at the gills and blue face with the golden color at the mouth. I can see the scales. I see how the glisten in the eveing light. I stare bumbfounded. All I can say is, "What the fuck? What the fuck? What the FUCK?"

"OOOOOHHHHHH!" I finally realize that I am dreaming. I start to fly but everything fades to black very fast. I am in my bed. I don't move, I clear my mind and try not to think about the dream too much. I only know that I had a really short lucid.

I instinctively DEILD without much thought. I hit SP right away. It last for a few seconds and evens out to a dim hum. I just get out of bed like I would any other time. I know my body is paralysed. It is of course dark and I am blind. I tell myself that there is light coming from the window and I imagine seeing. Slowy I visualize and begin to see the room. (Next time I will visualize some other place. I am tire of seeing my house lol) I open the bedroom door and the world fades to black. There is nothing to grab on to visually. I feel a little panic that I will wake up. I use my meditation calm technique and rub my hands together and focus on seeing something. I come back. But I am really near sighted. So I crawl and focus on the baseboard and hardwood floor. It stabilizes a bit. I come to a dining room chair. (I have no real plan. I actually doubted that I would have a lucid tonight because we planned to get up early. Now that I think about it I did wake up at like midnight and pee. I went back to bed with a mantra "I will remember the dream and become lucid" until I feel asleep. So really that first maybe was a MILD not DILD?)

So I dont know what to do and you never think clearly in a LD. I see a book on the chair.I decide to read it. It looks like colorful recipes or menu. I focus really hard to read a line of text. Finally I make out the words in white. 'CHEESE CON QUESO'. I think I thought I was going the advanced TOTM. (I should have really done it) I decide it will be fun to move the book to the TV and see if I really moved it in real life. (I have no such book) After I place it on/near the TV my head totally clears. I actually believe that I woke up during my lucid. I really think I am awake walking around my house. I go back to the bedroom and lay down.

I have a false awakening. Something about the phone waking me up. There a tv on in the room. I get up on the other side of the bed. Then the alarm clock wakes me up for real.

I would have forgotten this LD if I hadn't had an alarm. So hears my take on forgetting LDs. Sageous seems to question if it was a true LD if you forget it. He says that he believes we are wired to forget NLDs and remember LDs. My thing is if you go from LD to NLD/FA it can be real easy to forget.

OK now I got to get ready. We have to be at the hospital at 5AM. My pregnant wife is to be induced to labor!

Fragment about daughter tearing paper from a book.
I wake up from some dream about work. Who cares? I DEILD. I have been trying all night I actually fell aleep the last time wondering why sometime it is easy and sometimes I just cant.

I feel the sp and wait for it to "even out". It feels just about time to try to get up so I smoothly and easily was able to imagine my legs moving over the bed and then stand up. Once I stand up I am in the dream. This time I was blind again but I have learned to handle that. I slowly try to open my eyes. Nope I see ceiling. I forgot I was not in the bed room at the time and didn't realize I could see the living room ceiling. But all that mattered was it was not my dream eyes I opened. I am way too excited. I remember to relax as if I am in meditation.

OK. So I just felt the walls. I have been wanting to enter the full length mirror on the closet door as a way out. I stabilized my focusing on the feeling in my hands. Thank you Sivasion and Dream Yoga class. I felt the door frame of the bathroom since thats what I would have been facing if I was in my bedroom. I remind you I was not. I just find that funny that I forgot. Anyway, I felt left from there until I felt the smooth surface of the mirror and the egdes of the trim. Not being able to see made is so much eaiser than I had expected. I just stepped through like it was a cut out in the door. I forgot to think of where I was going. I just wanted to see.

I found my self standing in the doorway from the bedroom to the dining/living room. I can see. I see my brother walking through. I was shocked and was not expecting this and the scene goes black. I think no. SEE! I focus on seeing the room again. It reappears like someone turning on a light from a dimer switch. I am way too excited again. I remember to relax as if I am in meditation.
I focus on the walls. I see the walls of the living are covered with hundreds of hats. I focus on that for a bit. I see a Yellow ball cap with a green "T" on it and trimmed white around. I have no idea what team that is and I don't care.
I walk right and see my brother.
I say HEY WHATS UP MY BROTHA?
Hey bro whats up?
Im dreaming! I clap my hand and spin around and say, "yeah!" Fist pump.
I feel fading and I am so fucking excited. I have to stabilize again. relax. My mind relaxes some just like meditation.

I focus on the walls again. I see a lot less hats now. "Hey where did all the hats go?" I am truly upset that I can't find the hats. I look and try to make the appear. OK never mind. I had real goals. OK. The competition. I'll do my 3 step. I already did flying. OK lets do TK. I look around. There is this table with a bunch of dirty glasses and other stuff... I dont know. I see a one liter plasic bottle of what looks like Dr. Pepper. I focus on that. It is half full. I try to make it move to my hand. Nothing. I try harder. Nothing. Then I hear the words of wizard Sageous (From another LD) "You can do it if you believe it." OK I believe I can do it. I really take that to heart. I relax my mind a bit and just allow it to flow. It comes straight to my hands. Yes! I drop it and now it looks like a plasic wine glass. I push it around with TK. I try to make it float and shoot off fast but can't. I try for more advananced TK. I look at the hats on the walls. I try to imagine them all shooting off at once. I lift my arms in the air and bring them together but nothing happens. Hmmm maybe that really is too advanced. (I didn't believe Matthew 17:20 )

OK what else was I going to do? Basic summon. I just try to do the same thing I did last time but now I am losing focus. I reach in my back pocket for a flash light but it is like I am pretending. It is getting dark again. I dont feel it or see it. I make a click noise with my mouth when I push the button. But wait. I did do it. I see a beam of light in the darkness and I feel something in my hand. I think misson accomplished. The darkness takes over my light and the dream fades. (I forgot to stabilize)

I have a false awakening. I am in my bed alone. It is bright and sunny from the window. I am trying to record my dream on my phone. Then it turns into being on some quilt on my bed. All of the memory from the LD is recorded on my quilt. Now I just remember fragments from the dream befor the LD. I am trying to touch a send text knitted on but it won't work. Then the kids come and jump all over me and and bed. I freak out. Noooooooo! I will forget my dream get of go away. Just give me a few minutes. I say go and I mean it go. They finaly leave. Now for some reason I safty pinning my phone to the quilt thinking that will fix things. I wake up suddenly.

When the moon hits you eye like a big a pizza pie *LUCID*

I was able to lay down for a few hours today and take a nap. I was feeling sick and tried. I tried to WILD for an hour but I was just going to noisy HI and my self awareness was just fading in and out. I figured it was the wrong time. Usually enough time trying to WILD will trigger a lucid like MILD or DILD. I had a dream with a MAJOR dream sign and got briefly lucid. I'm getting really pissed at how short my LD's have been lately. I think I am getting better but it is such slow progress. I've never had this much trouble before.

The begining is vague and hard to describe. I am at some place. Drawing or coloring and I hear some women talking. Some one said something about name motels. I heard one say "Best Western" and another say "Motel 6", ect. I say, "Damn ya'll must be cheap." I was just kidding them. I think of one in my minde. How about Hilton. I look to my left and see a sign on a building that says Hilton Hotel but its like a weird optical illusion with cat silhouettes and it morphs into Hilton Tipton.

Then the dream changes and I am in a Hotel room. I am lying in bed trying to sleep. I wake up annoyed that someone left the TV on but I didn't want to get up and turn it off because I was trying to WILD. The noise what driving me insane though. So I decide get up out of bed to turn it off. Then things get weird. Suddenly, I am looking at a PC screen and I click a little blue icon in the top right and the sound stops.
Now I am outside the Hotel. It is night time and the sky is dark but the moon is so bright I can see a shadow of the building. The grass is lush and green and perfect. I can heard the sound of it as my bare feet walk through. I can feel nothing however. I walk until I am in the light of the moon. For some reason I want to take a look. When I am bathed in the bright moon light, I look up.
Instead of a moon there is a giant thing. The best description I can give is something that looks like a cheese pizza. I immediately get lucid. The shock of it was more than I could deal with. I forgot everything but wanted to fly toward it and investigate closer..So I jumped and flew straight up. I should have kept my eyes on it because as soon as I looked down everything faded to black. I remembered that I was supposed to stabilize by focusing on an object. But I had nothing to focus on so I focused on making something.I get really confused here. I don't know if I opened my real eyes or dreamed I saw the inside of the hotel room again but it foggy and hazy and I felt all dreamy still. I closed my eyes but I felt too much of my real body. I thought to DEILD and for a moment I had a FA that I got out of bed in the Hotel to turn the TV off again. I kept hearing so much TV noise. I had a feeling that I was lucid before so I stopped to try to remember what happened. That's when I truly woke up.



Also last night I had a few frags.

Something about the Islamic Church in Joplin

The baby

Climbing Trees

Being at Walmart

Kids on the house

Lucid 1 7:44AM
I FA and start watching TV. Then it is like I am in church. Everyone is leaving but I want to stay as long as I can. I was getting tired of being in bed but was determind to LD I think about my brother. I guess he left too. Then I think.
I thought he was coming for labor day? Awe that's why dad tried to call me. So that means I am off tomorrow as well. Whoo hoo! I have another day to sleep in and have a lucid dream I do I a fist pump in the air.
Wait. I was trying to LD but now I don't really remember waking up. I am dreaming! I
decide to RC just to make sure. I put my hand to my nose and blow through. The sound of my loud breathing jolts me awake. I lay still and DEILD
I am in SP and I slowly and calmly make my dream body put my legs over the side of the bed and and I sit up. Just before I touch the floor I lose focus and wake up. I try to DEILD more but I am too awake now.

Lucid 2 8:13AM
I am standing in a familiar area near the Stadium in my neighborhood. There are a lot of cars parked. I see a grey car pull out of parallel into the street. It starts rolling out of control and I start to get all upset. Then I remember this is a dream and why would I care. It not even my car. My car comes to me on command. I look to my right and see my car coming to me on its own. It is pulling out of the parking lot. It is about to hit another car and I use TK to stop it. It keeps pushing against me wanting to go but I hold it firm. Then I realize there were other things I wanted to do. Like TOTM and 3 Step. I get excited. I wake up.

Lucidity RED
Thoughts BLUE

Bank - Fragment
I am trying to fill out a bunch of paper work at the bank.

Baby
My unborn son born. I am upset because I don't remember any of it. I fee like went a way for a long time. He looks like he is about a year old and is talking like he is 5. I put him on the top bunch of the girls' bunkbed. I ask my wife how old he is. She says he is only 15 days old. Together we say "But he acts like he is 5". "I know." She said. "He is so smart!" I am still trying to process why the heck I cant remember anything. I know something is wrong her but I can't figure it out. I play with him for a while and make up for lost time. Then, I get distracted by my phone and start messing with it. I feel guilty for not paying him attention.

Evil Horse Statues
I am in a museum. Full of horses statues made of various materials. I spend a lot of time looking around. Boring (I'll leave out some detail for time sake) Then I come to a strange stone one. It makes and evil face at me and I kick it. The entire statue become glued to my foot and is light like cardboard. I freak out and panic to get it off me. I startle away.

Game of Thrones and Sweeney Todd *LUCID*
WBTB MILD
I am standing on the edge of a wooded area with Jared. I see a bright blue sky and water. There is a road in front of us that leads to a stone bridge. Along the road there is a white picked fence. 3 or 4 wizards are dueling. I see fire and bright flashed of electricity. I don't know what came from who.
Jared remarks on this scene. "They are manifesting for the first time."
I reply with a comment about Game of Thrones. "Yeah I really like Thrones but it gets so boring in places and I lose interest."
Jared replies, "Well, you know it just.....
I interupt, "Hey look! It's umm... It's him!" I see Little Finger but I can't think of his name.
Jared looks. "Oh yeah that's that one guy."

I walk away but now I am walking side by side with a Lanaster. I am trying to decide if it is Tyrion or Jamie. I get worried because we are enemies but I am in desguise. I am really Benjamin Barker but going under the name Sweeney Todd. I get a view of the two of us from behind as we walk accross the stone bridge. I see that it is Tyrion but taller and I can see my crazy Sweeney hair with a grey streak.

Suddenly we are entering a tavern/commons type building. The outside is all stone. The inside has white was wood walls. The entrance is open like a huge garage without a door. I look up and all around. I think to myself that I need to remember this for later. So I gather all the detail that I can. I am taking this as me visiting a ren-fest and I need to write in my day journal later. I notice to the left are what look like bleachers and people in renaissance garb and eating turkey legs. To the right are some wooden rustic tables and chairs but I don't get much detail from it. Then in the back and to the right is an out cropping in the wall and an open window with a bar wench waiting to take orders. She looks bored.

I continue walking to the left and back. There is an opening to a dark red brick tunnel or hallway. I meet up with a Wizard. He looks a little like Sageous' Avatar but more real. He is bald and has a long flowing beard. I only get a gimps of him so I don't really see what his robes looks like.

So Wizard Sageous follows behind him and starts lecturing me about... I think was dream control. As he is talking. He shoot green plastic suction cup darts ahead of me marking the way. I have to jump down large ledges like huge stairs. I don't remeber much what he is saying but the thing that sticks out clearly is... "You can do it if you believe it. Or, I am just a great demon and I am lying to you. You decide." I find this to be profound and I ponder it intently.

We are now deep in some underground tunnel system made of brick. There is a 3 or 4 inch whole low on the wall. Wizard Sageous tells me I have to find a way to fit in it and continue on. I want to believe it but can't seem to understand. I turn and look the other way and see the tunnel turns to the left and into darkness. I see Wizard Sageous walking out of it into an adjacent tunnel.

I turn back and notice the hole has become very large. "AH! I get it! I believe it!" I now know that I am dreaming. I stare at the hole and half the wall disolves into nothing. There is a clear path for me now. But now I don't care to go there. I look to were Sageous walked out of a second ago and think that I have to really go that way. For some reason I know that there is something dangerous to me. An enemy of some sort. I start to go but it is too dark. Then I open a section or wall and look for some sort of light. Its dark there too. Then I remember I can summon. I reached into my back left pant pocket and pull out a 3inch mag light. I can feel the flashlight in my hand very vividly. I push the button and feel the click. The back of the cubby I opened is lit up with a blueish LED type light. I turn to go into the tunnel. And I suddenly wake up.

Maybe next time I will listen and go where I am told! HA! And Sageous the wizard?!?!? I freaken love it! He was almost like a dream guide!

Well I lie still and begin DEILD I feel SP comming but I get so distracted by the dream and I started replying the thing in my mind. Too much thought woke me up. SP faded. I had trouble going back to sleep after that.


Dead Grandma- Fragment
I experience strong HI untill a full not lucid dream occurs. Funny there was no SP
I am looking in the filing cabinet on the bottom drawer. My wife comes close to me and bumps her pregnant belly on my head. I look up and caress and kiss her belly. Then I look at her face and it VIVIDLY distorts into my dead gramdma. I am reminded of how it happens in Grimm. She telepathically tells me that she is reincarnated into my unborn son. I ask her how can that be he is a boy and you were a woman. She tells me things like that don't matter. I wake with a startle.

I don't know why she is showing up after all these years. I am not saying I think this dream means anything. It is just odd! And what if?

Lucidity = red
Thoughts / Side notes = blue

Ship it
Something about wanting to ship 3 books at UPS. One was going to my dead grandma. I got a bag and wasn't sure what to do. The lady that worked there gave me a box. I started writing my grandma's address. It was mostly gibberish.

Myrtle Dawson
Something somenumber
box 43 31?
Smithville, TX somenumbers
County Jasper somenumbers

Meteor Shower *Non-lucid control*
I am someplace outside with my daughters. I tell my younger one to look. We see hundreds of meters streaking across the sky in all directions. I am so happy and go find my older daughter. I tell her to look. But the sky had gone cloudy. I tell the clouds to open up. They part in the middle and slide away. There is a second layer of darker clouds. I tell them to open up as well. They do. Then I think something is not right. This is odd. I think about doing an RC but then I am distracted by all the meteors and the sounds of my daughters awe and delight.( I missed a major dreamsign here. I was so close but that's ok I will LD later. I have been trying to only RC in RL when something unusuall happens. I think it's starting to get through. I have never truly RC'd in a dream.)

Road Trip
I am going on a road trip with my dad. He rented a huge tour bus for the two of us. I think it's overkill but I go along. I end up driving. I get real sleepy real fast and my dad is somewhere in the back sleeping. So, I just set the cruise control and get in the passenger seat and fall asleep.

I wake up and somehow decide it had been a hour. We are still on the road and cruising along like no big deal. I find it funny that we didn't crash but I think nothing more about it. I am a little worried about the bus now. I pull over to check the bus over and make sure we are still on track with the GPS. Everything is fine. I see a seat in the front of the bus. I sit down and notice there are triggers under each arm rest were the hands meet the end. The left is the brake and the right is the gas. I move the bus forward to the toll booth. I see a cop car coming toward the bus and I think maybe it was illegal to drive like that. I stop at the toll and quickly get back in. For some reason I sit in the passenger side like I was waiting for someone. I can see the cop at the driver side window. I move over and talk to him. He grips me out for "driving with the ballast" and "I'm just giving you a warning this time". I tell him how sorry I am and that I was just checking my GPS. He leaves.

The toll booth arm opens and we continue. I make sure to watch the back end and not hit it on the booth. Now we are on a dirt road that looks like a mud racing track. I check the GPS and we are on the right road. So, I just drive. Then there is a jump off a cliff. I see other cars racing and jumping. The bus doesn't make it. We crash and then roll over the right way. Some characters from the move Road Trip fall out. I think we must have picked them up when I was sleeping. I open the door and let them back in. My dad is awake now and he comes to the front. I start laughing and tell him, "You know what? I was asleep for an hour while the bus was on cruise control! Baahahahahahha!"

WILD fail DILD to DEILD *LUCID*
So my alarm goes off and I am too tired to get up. I lay there fall asleep for about 30min and then wake up and go ok I won't really WBTB but I can try to WILD anyway.Maybe this time I will need a mantra since I am so tired. I repeat "awareness" twice and lose awareness. LOL
I have a FA where I am lying in bed. I am holding an eraser. I just bought two black pearls the other day and it feels like that. Then it is really thin and I get mad at the girls for using it so much. I bought that stuff so I could sketch once in awhile. I get up and go to the kitchen table where they left thier black pearl. I switch them out and go back to the bedroom. (It's odd. There wasn't much visual. Mostly physical sensation. Like moving in the dark.)I decide to I need to pee. So I am standing there peeing when I dawns on me that I haven't really woken up and this is a dream! Bam! I wake up.

DIELD Blind *LUCID*
OK no big deal. I will just lie here not moving. Clear my mind like in meditation and relax.

SP sets in. I start to get excited but I tell myself to be calm. Meditate. After I chill I think about the next step. I know I am paralyzed but I worry risking trying to move. I do it anyway. I force myself to sit up. I feel my dream body rise and then slam back into SP. This time I just imagine my feet rising in the air like I did yesterday. Then imagine them slowly moving over the side of the bed to the floor. I wait until I can feel a dull pressure from the floor touching my feet. Then I just straiten the rest of my body. I move like a wet noodle until I am standing. My eyes are still closed. I can feel my real eyes still and dont want to rish opening them yet. I try to move on and forget like yesterday but I was still thinking about it.
Because I was thinking about forgetting about it, I was still thinking about it. So, the rest of the dream is all blind and mostly tactile sensations and sound. Sill a very interesting experience.
So, I make my way out of the bedroom. I am pissed I can't see. I feel the wall until there is a light switch. I flip and for a split second I thought I could see. I try again and flip it back and forth. Nothing. I walk to the front door and feel like it bark my shin on something but it didn't hurt so I just ignore it somewhat annoyed. I hear my footstep lightly on the hardwood floor. I don't want to be loud and wake anyone up. I guess I just do this by habit. I unlock the deadbolt and open it and close it. I think the storm door was missing. I am amazed because all my sense of touch and hearing was so right on perfect. Now that I am outside, I really want to see. So, I risk opening my eyes, and what I see is my blurry bedroom ceiling. DAMN! I quickly close my eyes and try to DEILD back but I am too awake now

Drawing Attack
After some time I just want to sleep and don't care about WILD or DEILD. It's take some time to relax. So, I don't know if I was dreaming or just in a state of vivid HI for this one but I'll record it anyway.

I see a woman. She is pretty and smiling at me. I try to focus on her face and it goes blurry. I think she knows me. I wonder if I am remembering a past life in this dream. She wants me to come to her but I don't move.

I look at my hands and watch how distorted and odd they look. I wonder why I never think to do this in a dream. I continue to watch fascinated.

This is probably where the HI went to NLD
There is a pencil drawing on yellow paper. It looks like Poncho Villa. I focus on the face but it gets blurry like the lady did. Then the face come to life and Poncho Villa jumps out at me. I pick up a black pearl eraser. I, say "I've got an eraser. I will erase your ass!"
He runs and hides behind the bedroom door. I see him peeing around at me. I say something else to taunt him and I wake up.

Bedtime about 10:30PM WBTB natural no alarm 5:00AM sleep 5:30AM-8:15AM
LUCIDITY in red

At a church function potluck with mom and younger sis. The chruch was odd like a big confusing house. My mom found some lockers with a bunch of locks. You chose a locker and there are locks with keys available. Some with combinations. She chose a combination and tore the combination sticker off. She put her purse in. For some reason I have my laptop in its bag. I feel the strap on my right shoulder. There is confusion here and I can't seem to figure out what I am doing. I notice poster on the wall and some kids playing near by. I see them in peripherals only. I slap the poster and it makes a realistic noise. I feel a hole in the wall behind it. I pull the green thumb tack and look. It looks like a little geocache hidden in the wall. I decide to leave it alone and replace the thumb tack. I walk into the dining area and find my mom and sis. Mom waves at me. I now have this giant white down jacket. I don't know were to put it. I start to just throw it on an end table but Mom points and says, "There is a place over there."

I turn around. I see my dead grandmother (nanny) standing with the crowd but facing me. I was so focused on putting my jacket up that I almost walked past her. What made me do a double take was the fact she was wearing a crazy Lacy bright white dress. She looks ghostly. I thought maybe she is a ghost.

I don't know when it dawned on me I was dreaming. There was no ah ha moment. No excitement. I was just shocked to see her standing there. I remembered the last lucid several years ago right after she and papa died. I got to say goodbye and it was a profound experience, real or not. So I take advantage of the moment. I slowly walk to her and hug her. I am shocked that I could physicaly feel pressure against me. I say, "Oh! Grandma, you are here." I kiss her on the mouth. Unusual but not sexual. Still hugging her I say, "I'm sorry you died."
Her reply was giggerish. I said, "what?" Gibberish. "What?" I speak louder this time. More gibberish but she seems like she is trying so hard. I got the general idea of her saying comforting things. Then it all fades to black.

When I find myself back in bed. I Don't move I don't open my eyes. I Don't even think. I just stay in a clear and relaxed meditative state. I feel a very slight twinge of SP. Then floating. I feel my right leg float up. I almost woke at this. I stay very calm. There is no excitement only observation and curiosity. I thought about my previous SP transitions. So I let my leg float. Then I visualize or imagine my right leg joining. I am nearly standing on my head in bed. There is no feeling of gravity. I think about the floor touching my feet. That seems to help. I feel my legs flip over the side of the bed. My head is still attached to the pillow and arms feel pinned. The moment my feet touch the floor I force myself stand up straight. Yes! I am happy that I transitioned. I realize FA was not an issue. I notice my eyes are still closed so I slowly open. No stop. I feel my real eyes slightly part and see unfocused ceiling of my room. I think, "Ok fine. I can just do this blind until I can see." I feel along the wall and open the door. And see the dining room. I guess forgetting about the vision problem made it go away. I see water dribbled in a trail from the kitchen through the dining room into living room. I wonder what the kids had done. I figure they must be up already. Then I realize it doesn't matter because I have dreaming. I had no real plan so I just walk outside naked. I enjoy the full unrestrained freedom of my LD and started running down my sidewalk. I feel a little modest now. I look down to see if I am really naked. I sure felt naked. I saw my bare skin but I thought I saw underwear. For some reason I had a huge pregnant belly like my wife. "Whatever". I feel my crotch and there is fabric. Also the whole time I have a piece of the comforter blanket from the bed around my neck and flowing behind me like a cap. I looked around briefly and was a little surprised how acturate my mind was being. The neighborhood looks almost perfect to RL but everything had a slight tinge of red color. I noticed a strange Doberman tied to a tree across the street. It was grey with glowing eyes. "Ah there's it is." I am happy to have some reasureance that it was a dream. I was starting to think I was going to have to apologize to the neighbors for "sleep walking" naked. I continue my run down the street as the world fades to black.

I think about trying deild but I was pleased with myself. I felt I passed a milestone with transitioning and was distracted by memory of my nanny.

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My unborn son. Wife holding him. Me starring at his face for the first time. He has his mother's eyes. Reddish hair. And my mouth and chin. I reach out to hold him full of pride and happiness.