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    1. Lucid #99 December TOTM fail

      by , 12-06-2012 at 12:34 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      WBTB full 30 min. 1/2 cup cold coffee. + 2MG melatonin and 200MG B6

      I laid for about 15 mind doing SSILD. I felt too awake so I took 2MG melatonin and 200MG B6 for the hell of it. Went back to SSILD.

      Lucid #99 December TOTM fail 5AM
      I found myself in vibrations. For some reason I just waited instead of transitioning out. I think it was because the vibrations were so weak that I was unsure. This part is just fragments and vauge so I am not sure I did the TOTM or not. I end up outside. I remember snow. I get lost in each flake and feel like I am a snow flake myself. I float and lose vision. I open my eyes but I have double vision of my room and the dream. I run a dream hand over my face to rub my eyes. It feels real but I know it is non-physical.

      *Memory gap*

      I am dreaming still but non-lucid. I am in the living room cleaning absentmindedly. I am thinking about how I had a lucid dream and this was the 3rd night in a row. I feel positive that I can do it a fourth night and break my record. Then I think, "Hey! I still have time to sleep. Maybe I can have another lucid before I have to go to work." I see the couch and lay down to WILD.

      I feel SP/vibrations almost instantly. I think to wait then realize that I don't know why I did that before. Effortlessly imagined my feet meeting the floor. This time I was on the wrong side of the bed and not even on the couch.

      I was afraid of vision problems so I kept my eyes closed and felt my way out of the bedroom. I kept thinking "there will be light there will be light" over and over. I open the door and see the rest of the house is dimly lit by the scentsy pot. (Yes! That was the waking life plan!) I was pleased that it carried over into my OBE. I walk to the front door singing, "Theeeeeee sun will come out tomorrow bet your bottom dollar tomorrow..." I was still hoping for some light out side. I have dealt with vision and darkness to many times in OBEs.

      The front door opened easy. I half expected issues here. Out of habit I remembered to unlock the deadbolt and I was out. At this point I remember that my real body is just in underwear and I start to feel naked. I realize that it won't matter in a dream and I continue on.

      I step onto the front porch. I see the yard and it is dimly lit like pre-dawn. I vividly feel my feet on the cool concrete and my toes curl over the edge of the front step as I push off to fly.

      For some reason I don't get very high and I just hover a foot or so. But I am able to do so and a high speed. My sidewalk leading from the porch to the street becomes impossibly long. I feel the wind swirl around me and blow throw my hair. I hear a rushing sound like wind as I dart forward. I see beautiful pink cherry blossomed trees lining each side of the sidewalk. They are incredibly beautiful and I gasp a "wow". After a moment I stop flying.



      I want to do the TOTM. I look up and see a full moon above me. I look to the east and see that the sky is getting brighter. The sun is coming up. I can't see any northern lights, so I clap my hand and put them up in a grand gesture. I say to the dream, "Northern lights!"

      Nothing happens. I look all around in the sky. I see the moon still and some stars in the darker part of the sky to the west. All this looking around makes me dizzy and the dream fades to fast to do anything about it. I wake up.

      Updated 12-08-2012 at 03:40 PM by 5967

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    2. Lucid #98 The Woman in Pink Scrubs

      by , 12-05-2012 at 01:23 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)
      WBTB half cup strong coffee at 4AM

      The woman in pink scrubs.

      I am doing plasma in an ackward chair. It like I am laying with my feet in the air and head down. I want my left arm done so I can play minecraft on my Galaxy Player with my right. I turn around right and it is a normal chair. I find it odd.

      I look to my right and I am now driving in front of the hospital and there is a strange woman next to me in pink scrubs. She is loving on me like we are new lovers. I relize this is all wrong and become lucid.

      I hug her and say let me look at your face. I want to know who she is. She just looks like a familiar DC that I encounter but nothing like any one in real life. I note it and shrug.

      I remember a lucid goal now. Talk to the dream consciousness. Here is our convo.

      Me: Tell me something important.
      Her: ...
      Me: TELL ME something IMPORTANT... Pleeeeease.
      Her: uh eh mmm
      me: What?
      her: Well uh.

      I start rubbing my hands for stability.

      her: My dad had a grey beard. Its... Garguyal.
      me: GARGUYAL? What's that?
      her: No not Garguyal. (laughter)

      I rub my hand on her arm and note the feeling. Again for stability.

      Me: What is there that's important; that you can tell me? What do I need to know?
      her: Nothing. You're already perfect.

      I laugh so much at this. I feels really great eventhough I don't believe it. This is was my wife tells me all the time.
      I let go and want to wake up to remember the conversation. The dream gets dark. I realize I had my eyes closed at the end while snuggling to this woman. I only went with it because that was the flow of the dream and I wanted her to talk.


      There is nothingness for a moment. I start feeling my hair. I find a really stiff hair and think it must be one of my gray ones. I play with it until a scene forms.
      I am now non luicd back in the room about to give plasma. I see my laptop on a counter top and want to write in my DJ. Now I realize I can't get up because I have a needle in my left arm. The alarm wakes me up. Good thing too because I would have forgot this lucid!

      Updated 12-15-2012 at 07:26 PM by 5967

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    3. Lucid #97 DEILD CHAIN OBE 11.24.12

      by , 12-04-2012 at 04:15 AM (Xanous' Dream Journal)
      This dream was an unsuccessful/successful lucid as it was short and mostly blind but I got to try some new things like phasing and different uses of expectation. (I couldn't phase through a door but was able to use expectation to make it disappear.)

      I had some really interesting and new things happen with sound as well. During my DEILD I heard a buzzing sound and then the alarm clock. I kept in mind that it could be fake and found out that I only had to concentrate just a little to make it stop for a few seconds. That turned out to be a great reality test and told me it was go time. At a later point I could hear the fan like it was centered the living room. This was an odd experience as the sound changed as I walked around it but I knew that in reality the fan was in the bed room with me and I wasn't really walking around it.

      Also, my transitions from physical to dream body seem to be getting quick and effortless so that's a plus. I probably would have continued my chain but I think it was the baby that woke me. Oh well that's life.
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    4. Lucid #96 WILD OBE

      by , 11-18-2012 at 07:49 AM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Bedtime 11:30PM-7:00AM

      Potassium 1200
      B6 400MG
      Taurin 500MG
      Beer


      I am not sure why I took so many supplements last night. Blame it on the beer.

      Most of the night was a dark blank. But I was able to successfully WILD in the later part of the morning.

      I woke up from a dream earlier but fell back to sleep as I was trying to recall it.



      Fragment 5:44AM

      Something about being at the same place at 13th Street building and going to the gas station.

      In another dream my wife says, "You want It. Don't you?"
      I say, "Yeah, but after 9 - 9:30 I'm just so tired."

      I got up to pee at this point and thought about staying up for 30min to WBTB. Seeing how it was almost 6 I thought my son might be waking up soon so I just laid back down with a strong resolve to WILD. Plus the thought of having to stay awake made me shutter. I was really sleepy. I was able to hold awareness for sometime I eventually slipped unconscious. At about 6:30AM the baby woke us up. I really wanted to get a WILD so it's shameful but I played possum until my wife go up with him. It was worth it because I was more determined not to lose it again.

      Lucid #96 WILD OBE 7:00AM

      This time I stay aware longer. I used a lot of different visualizations. I have been looking for an easy to go visual to allow me to actively enter the dream easier and more consistent. I ended up trying to imagine myself walking up endless stairs. That seemed to be easy enough. I am not sure but I think I just about lost it again until I felt really strong vibrations.
      My awareness snaps to it then. It's funny but I don't remember any sounds this time. I quickly and easily imagined my feet going over the side of the bed an touching the floor. Now I am standing. I see the bedroom door and start to walk to it.

      Suddenly I feel the vibrations again. I watch as I am sucked backwards against my will back into my body. I let out a huge gasps. The sensation was very odd but I did not let it stop me.

      I transition out once again the same way. This time I am blind. I spend a few minutes trying to open my eyes. Every time I open them I see out of my real eyes from the point of view of laying in bed on my right side. I don't want to wake myself up so I don't worry about it too much as I realize that when this happens, the best thing to do is to go along into the dream and forget that I can't see. I fumble around a bit but quickly and easily open the bedroom door and walk through the house to the front door. I notice that I reach the front door almost immediately. I think no there should be more steps than that. So to satisfy myself I let go of the door knob and take a few quick strides forward until I feel the door again. At that point I realized that I have no idea what I wanted to do. I decide its too late for that and just decide to explore the dream.

      I open the front door and realize that I am in my underwear only. I think well its a dream and it really doesn't matter. Then I remember a thought I had in waking life. Now that its getting colder and I having so many OBEs will I feel cold if I go outside? As I step out I feel cold air swirl around me. I don't like it and force the thought out of my mind. The cold goes away.

      I see my black cat Sputnik. She it fighting with another cat. I hear the awful sounds of cats fighting and then they both run away. Ha! Now I realize that I can see. It's still really dark and hazy but I can see. I think in waking life the sun should be up by now. I am a little disappointed.

      I look around the neighborhood as best as I can. I remember another thought from waking life. I never see to look very far down the street when I am outside in a LD. So I just try to focus on that but its too dark. As I am looking around I begin to notice that the houses look almost like a medieval village and they all have torches and sconces mounted on the outside.

      At that point the dream does dark. I feel my awareness pulling away and shifting to the physical world. I let it be as I know I can DEILD back in. I wait never moving or opening my eyes. I make a huge mistake here. I am waiting for vibrations and forget that SP is not a requirement.


      I have a false awakening. I grab my galaxy player and start to enter into my DJ. I see the time is a little after 7am. I hear my brother-In-Law say something odd to my left. I look at him. He is lying next to me looking at his phone. He says, "I was just kidding. I just like to say that sometimes." I think I start to realize it was a dream still but the shock of it wakes me up for real.

      The last time I had an OBE my wife was in the living room in waking life. Wouldn't it be amazing if she actually saw me on morning? I keep expecting her to say something odd happened but she never does. I doubt it would ever happen. Sometimes I wonder about it but I still think OBEs are just dreams.
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    5. Lucid #95 Lucid Precog Attempt #1

      by , 11-15-2012 at 03:59 AM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Bedtime 9PM-6PM
      Apple Juice at bedtime, SSILD Tweaked, Multiple wakenings focused on DEILD/SSILD


      Brats Around 4AM

      I am taking care of someones kids. I am in a bed room with them and trying to get them to sleep. There are 2 bunk beds in the room. A little boy is on one and there is a window unit next to him. I have a little girls in my bed with me. I think that she was scared. The kids keep talking and I get pissed. I just want to sleep. The boy keeps messing with the AC he says hes hot and its not working. I feel cool and not hot and the AC sounds fine. I threaten to spank both of them. I don't care what the parents think. The girl gets up and goes to the boy. I spank her and she runs out of the room. I look into the living room and see my infant son playing xbox with another infant. I say well they're up I guess I wont sleep at all.

      I lay still on awakening and wait to DEILD. Nothing happens at first so I give SSILD a shot before I reach for my DJ

      Lucid #95 Lucid Precog Attempt #1
      After a short time I start to feel some vibrations. I notice I can still move my hands. I test this by trying to move my hands slightly. I feel them twitch. So I wait. The vibrations get weak so I roll my eyes to the back of my head. That seems to work. I open my eye for some reason and see the room. I am sure it was my real eyes and I close them. The vibrations get weak again.

      Then I feel a person spooning my backside. I am lying on my right side. The first thing I think is OpheliaBlue's demon is here to torment me. I was scared at first but then I blew it off and told myself it wasn't real and to ignore it. As soon as I did that it left but as it left I felt a finger go down my spine. Instead of getting chills it strenthens the vibrations. I imagine a finger going down my spin over and over until the vibrations get full strenghth and I can hear the usual sounds really loud.

      Now it's time to exit. I imagine my feet going over the side of the bed and touching the floor. As soon as my feet touch the floor I find myself standing in my bedroom looking at the door.

      I try to open the door. I feel the doorknob clearly and I can hear the click as I turn it. The strange thing is a phantom door opens leaving the original door untouched. I smile at this is amusement. I open it again and again with the same result. Then I slowly and can carefully open the door. I see the opening now and light in the dining room. I carefully put my other hand in and get a good grip. Then I fling it open and step through.

      I am already thinking about my lucid task. In rl I blindly picked a red backed playing card and put it face down on the bookcase by the door. I want to look at it in the dream to see how actuate I can be.

      I look but both the bookcases are gone. There are some cards scattered on the floor but the look like paint samples. I squat down and pick them up and stare them over like a nearsighted Magoo. My vision get a little blurry and I have a hard time seeing. The card start to look like candyland cards. I think maybe I can summon the card. So I use expectation and reach behind my back into my waste line. I pretend that I have it tucked in there. I just feel my underwear band and nothing else. I pull my hand in front of me and it is empty. I am still thinking it looks like paint samples. I look up and the wall looks like it has just been painted yellow and the hardwood looks freshly refinished. I wonder if the bookcases were moved for the remolding.

      I try expectation again and look in the kitchen and find the bookcases. There is nothing on it but a blue backed card. The card is square but I look at it anyway. I pick it up and its feels like thin paper. I look on the back hoping to see a playing card but it is the same blue playing card pattern on the other side.

      I am little frustrated now. I walk into the dining room and yell at the dream. "I want to see the playing card." My voice sounds odd. Like I can hear my dream voice and my real voice at the same time. Like two mes talking at once. I wait for an answer and almost immediately hear the loudest most hideous SHUSHING sound. "SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" the sound is electronic and robotic like some strange android shushing me to be quite. I freak out and throw myself to the floor. I curl up in a ball and put my hands on my head. I was so unbelievably scared.

      After a moment. I realize I that a dream can't hurt me so I stand up. The room is now dark but I want to try something else. I speak to the dream again. In the same strange dual voice I loudly say, "I want to speak to my higher self." At that point the dream fades and I lose concentration. I fall into a non-lucid dream.


      False Awakening

      I wake up and start to record the lucid in my phone DJ. I see people form work in my room. My bedroom door is open. (how convenient) I see a woman at a desk in the dining room. I get an image of some green brochure in my hands. I see R standing by the door with a huge white board behind him. (BTW I saw a similar scene in rl with R today at work) I ask him what was going on. I can't remember what he said to me. I am distracted by another person writing a phone number on the white board. I can't remember that either. I wake up for real this time. I look at the time and it is around 4am.

      I try to go back to sleep but I am really juiced from the lucid. I get a lot of HH/HI and halfdream but my mind kept going back to the dream. After about an hour I fall non-lucid.
    6. Lucid #94 + 2 NLDs

      by , 11-13-2012 at 07:59 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Bedtime 9:15PM-5AM
      Naproxen 550MG (Tension headache), 1 glass apple juice, bedtime SSILD

      Lucid #94

      I layed down and did a little SSILD pre sleep while my wife was feeding the baby next to me. I almost immediately found myself in a short hazy and fuzzy LD. I thought about this a lot to make sure it wasn't a half-dream or HH/HI. I am pretty sure it wasn't but it was a poor quality dream.

      I am sitting in a folding chair. There are rows of them around me. The chairs are full of old people. I am trying to go to sleep in the chair. Begin to get worried that the people around me will think I am crazy especially when I fall over asleep. I was really emotional about it then I realize it was a dream and it didn't matter. I am shocked at this and that's when I open my eyes fully awake and notice it had only been minute or two. I suppose I should have done an RC to be sure but it was pretty solid.

      Parents 2:27AM
      Something about college. My parent pick me up. I have some pills in the car. I don't want them. I give a huge bottle of Tylenol to my dad. He was like sure I'll take them. Then I have something called Citrate. I read the word clearly on the bottle. I decide to keep these. I think they extend the effect of melatonin. There was something about a hooker earlier. I told her I would me her someplace specific. I hope my parents don't go there because she will recognize me. I tell my mom who is driving to go straight. We go up a large pipe and it Ts off.
      Then the dream changes and I wake up. I had been kidnapped and there are all these crazy people around me acting like zombies. I have to fight my way out with random children s toys. The whole thing feels like it had happened to me before.

      2:30AM WBTB- Apple Juice, Bathroom, SSILD

      I close my eyes waiting for the first imagery to appear. I fell asleep before anything else. I think next time I should maybe mantra a bit instead of lying there with a blank mind.

      Smoke and candy 6:06AM

      I am working at the 13th ST plant again. It's now moved in rl. I go to the gas station accross the road. I want to smoke. I wait in line some and then look for Prime Time cigars. Some tells me those are nasty and to buy some other brand. I think it was "Twisters" I ask for one and see that I am also buying a bunch of candy.

      Updated 11-13-2012 at 09:45 PM by 5967

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    7. FA: Foiled Again!

      by , 11-13-2012 at 01:12 AM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Bedtime 9PM-5AM

      Apple Juice, Bedtime SSILD

      No recall until after WBTB

      WBTB around 3:30AM, Bathroom then straight to bed. No additional aids. SSILD/WILD

      FA: Foiled Again!

      I know I put this in RED but I am not adding it to my lucid count. I was so so close though. If I had not given in to the FA...

      I had strong HH and entered what I call the half-dream. I am walking around waiting for the dream to form. I can feel my body in the bed. At some point it begins to feel more real. I can loudly hear my foot steps like I am walking on gravel on asphalt. I got this same sound once before. I feel like I am kicking my legs in the bed as I am walking. I am unsure if this is real so I stop. I think about the lucid task I want to do. I want to look at a playing card and see if it matches with the random one I have blindly tucked away in the bookcase in rl. Before I can even act on it I feel SP grip me. It is mild and I pause for a bit and then start my usual visualization of my feet going over the side and touching the floor. It feels real but then it disappears. I feel like I am laying in bed still so I roll. I only get to my side and stop. I think that I really woke up. I am half sitting up in bed on one elbow but I never moved that way. I notice later too that I moved way to easy. Not at all like real life.I did not realize any of this and I gave up. Then out of habit I did a half assed nose plug RC. I am pretty sure I blew through but didn't realize it at the time. I fell into non lucid dreams.
      I was really disappointed because I should have enough experience that I really shouldn't be falling for this. How many times must I learn that ANYTHING after SP is probably not real?


      The first one I was riding my bike in my old childhood neighborhood and I follow some kid down a trail.

      Then I have some stupid sex dream about a bearded woman who keeps going on about being a virgin. I think that's probably because you have a beard.

      Something about being at my ex inlaws house. I hear the ex MIL say how R got offered a CEO position. I think how she lies all the time and don't believe her.

      I was in a room with strange technology. Someone was learning dream control with electricity. She was getting zapped by a box and some voice was instructing her. I walk by and touch the box and it shuts down. I say, "I believe you." And walk away smugly. I think how they should have made the electricity with insulation.
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    8. Lucids #92 and #93. From a Grocery Store to a Demon Wife.

      by , 11-02-2012 at 11:23 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Bedtime 9:30P-5:00A
      400MG B6 SSILD at begining

      Love Story 2:40AM
      A green environmental hippie woman falls in love with a business man conservative. They almost part ways but they make up. She moves in with him to New York. It was a real chick flick.

      Toilet Parts Time?
      I am at the store looking at toilet parts. I see all sorts of strange looking pieces and I feel really confused about what I need to buy. My mom shows up and looks with me. I find a faucet that looks like a woodland scene for the base and deer antlers for the handles.

      WBTB 400MG B6 - Total time about 5 min

      #92 Grocery Store SSILD DILD

      There maybe be a beginning to this dream that I forgot.

      I find myself already lucid in a grocery store with a woman that is familiar to me. My wife? We are waiting for something. I watch people come and go with shopping carts. I get bored and yell, "THIS IS ALMOST AS REAL AS REAL LIFE!" Meaning real life can be so boring. My wife is a blonde and looks a little different but I think of her as my wife. Being lucidly bored and move in close to her and point to a back room door. While I push her in that direction I say, "How about you and me go back there and have a little fun? Don't worry no one will care because this is a dream."

      We are now in the back. I make out with her a little. There is a bath tub and I want to get in with her. Suddenly she resists and pulls away from me. I let her go. There is a strange scene were I was floating away and she is running after me. She looks like the blonde sheriff woman from Once Upon A Time TV show. (Strange. My wife is watching it as I type this)

      I think my lucidity must have slipped here a bit Suddenly, I am back at the bat tub. I point to it and ask, "Will you tell if I use this?"
      She says, "I haven't told anyone anything yet."

      I wake up.


      I get up and go pee then lay back down.

      #93 Work Scene SSILD to Active WILD

      I do a few rounds of SSILD but I toss and turn a lot now. I think the B6 is keeping me awake. I remember the last time I just forced myself to not move and I quickly had a WILD. So I did that again.I started getting really strong HI/HH and eventually turns into a very long dream.

      I find that I am able to manipulate the imagery much like in a lucid. I practice nose plug RCs. I even get the idea to try to get precognitive information (a side project of mine) but that will not form. I gradually find myself in a dream scene. It is a place similar to my job but different in a lot of ways. I find elements from when I worked at another place called F.A.G. (Yeah I know but that's the real name). The entire dream scene and imagery takes place in a massive room in with no walls.

      At one point I am with B at the mold shop. The mold machine has a strange cage on it and a conveyor belt. Something is stuck and I crawl in to get it. I realize this is more than HI/HH and I say, "I am dreaming." But at that point the dream fades and I feel my body in bed again and now it feels like HI/HH instead of the dream. At that point I feel a very faint SP vibration. I pause and relax and let it take me only dimly aware of what it was.

      There is darkness and then more imagery. I play around staying active and interacting with things. I don't realize that the SP was probably a good sign that I am already in the dream but things just don't see real and vivid enough anyway. My memory is vague here but I wonder around some and just mess around with things.

      Now I am sitting in front of some lockers putting shoes on. I see J and K from elementary school. They are older now. In real life I have not seen them since we were kids. J alway had a crush on K. They are sitting at a picnic style table. J is flirting with K as K talks on the phone with who I assume is her husband. I see J whisper in her ear and kiss her cheek. She brushes him playfully away. Then J hugs her from behind and grabs a boob. That was too much she gets up and leaves. I am lucid the whole time but was so amused by what I was seeing that I waited until now to take action. I notice how solid and real the dream is as I walk up to J. I say, "Hey, do you want to go to my house and eat lunch? Or did were you planning on not eating anything?"
      He looks at me, "Oh I wanted to eat."

      I smile at him and we walk. The giant room fades away and we are outside now. The outside area looks like my old elementary school. Our friendship feels as familiar as when we were kids. We walk up to my car and I see that it is smashed and dented so bad on the driver side that I think the car much be totaled and not drive-able. But I know this is just a dream and laugh. I get in away knowing that it doesn't matter what the car looks like.

      Suddenly I am driving down the familiar street and J is next to me. I come to a stop sign and never slow down. I think, "Why should I obey traffic laws in a dream?" This orange truck with a yellow and red flame jobs cuts me off. I try to steer the car into him at the last second but I am too late. He passes and I only side swipe him. If feel the dream fade. So I stop to rub my hands a bit until things feel more stable.

      Ah now I am going to have some fun! I make a right turn. The G forces of the turn feels realistic and I smile at this. I say to J, "Haha! AH LOOK OUT!" in a joking tone. In my mind I tell the dream that I want a straight open road. The street stretches out into a rural area. I punch the gas and get as much speed as the dream will let me. I keep focusing on the road. I am thinking, "I want a car to appear." Nothing comes. My vision get blurry for a bit. Then I remember to use expectation. I see a myself coming up to a top of a hill. Now I fully expect to see a car. As a top the hill. BAM there it is. I steer and hit the car head on. I tell J, "Oh no here it comes, ahhhhh." and I laugh. The car just flips out of the way and I feel no impact. Then my subC surprises me.

      The car goes over a cliff and he are doing a nose dive into a construction zone. We plung into a vat of black oil. Then we are falling down a shiny, sparkling, glowing blue water fall. I get the feeling of being in a mouthwash commercial and being immersed in cool minty flavor. As cheesy as that sounds it was actually beautiful and breathtaking. I let out a "oooohhhhh!" the dream fades into a black void and I an still falling.

      I wake up in my bed. I sit up and look around. I see my wife to my left and the room looks normal. I notice the low light and the dresser and the random stuff we still need to put away. Then, as usual, I think, "What was I dreaming? OH YEA! I could still be dreaming." I look around more closely. I see the bathroom door on the left when I know it should be on the right. "Wait a minute! I am dreaming!"

      At that moment my wife comes to life. She puts her hands up in a monster pose and screams like a banshee. The sound is not loud but high pitched. Then I see brilliantly colored rainbow crystalline spikes grow out from every part of her body. I am beyond scared as this was not expected at all. I pass out in my dream and I fall on top of her. I have no control.

      Now I am falling in the black void. Then I wake up. I am in the same situation that I was in my false awakening. I see the bathroom on the wrong side. I say, "Oh God no, I can't do that again." close my eyes and I throw myself backward. I get to skip the part where my wife was a screaming banshee.

      Now I am falling again in the darkness. I open my eyes and see the room again. I close them and now I feel myself spinning with my stomach being the center point. I can fee the centripetal force on my head, arms, and feet. I relax and enjoy the feeling.

      I begin to see that I am in another dream scene when something external and real wakes me up.


      It was my son making hungry noises and the time was almost 5am. Time to get up.
    9. #91 Brief DILD in Japan

      by , 10-30-2012 at 10:09 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Betime 9:30P-5:00A
      3MG Melatonin, 300MG B6 SSILD at begining

      Fell asleep fast during SSILD no dreams recalled until after WBTB

      WBTB @ 3AM, SSILD I woke naturally just before WBTB alarm. I only got up to pee and straight back to bed. I did only a few rounds of SSILD before I passed out again. So sleepy.

      #91 Brief DILD in Japan

      I am in Japan in a Christian church. I feel like it is Catholic. I am sitting among a hundred or so blonde haired little girls. I have my own blonde haired daughters next to me. all the girls are playing brass instruments. I don't remember the song but they play it flawlessly. I can't understand why none of them are Japanese. After they stop I get up and walk to the back and see the pastor standing there next to a small end table with candles. I notice he is wearing a grey suit and black tie. He looks a little like my own pastor in real life. I have a fake and brief memory of him coming to a haunted house and casting out evil spirits. Instead of talking about that, I mention that none of the girls look Japanese. He begins to laugh and reply to that but, at that moment, I look down and notice I am holding my son in his car seat. I carelessly tilt him forward and he falls out and hits the floor hard. I quickly pick him up and hold him close. He is not crying but I look him over anyway.
      My wife touches his head and says "He has a knot."
      "Nah.", I say. "He is fine."

      I am now outside walking to my car with my daughters trailing behind me. It is night time and I see kids playing with a squirrel under a street lamp. For a second I think that I forgot my son inside. I pause and start to think and retrace my steps but, first I focus on my hand. There, now I can feel the car seat handle. I look and there it is.

      I walk around the passenger side and glance at my rear tire. I see that it is going flat. I look at the door to open it then look back at the tire. It had now fallen off and the axle is completely broke. It look like pipe threads at the end. At first I am completely pissed and begin to freak out but I realize something and pause and stare at the door again. I tell myself that I can just use dream control. If I believe, it will be fixed. I know I am dreaming at this point but I don't verbalize it yet.

      I look back at the wheel and it is fixed but the tire is still low on air. I smile. I make an inflating gesture with my hands and let out a whoosh of air with my mouth. I say, "There. Fixed." I don't bother to verify it I just know. I forget about the kids now and walk around the driver side of the car. I finally say it, "I am dreaming.", and smile. I know that the dream has been getting progressively darker but I don't fight it. I want to continue the plot and see where it takes me. I realize that I was about to do some sight seeing in Japan and I really want to drive to downtown of whatever Japanese city I was in. As I reach for the door handle of the car, I instantly wake up. I feel really tired and I forget to try DEILD.


      Naked Between snooze alarm dream

      I am running around the house trying to get dressed for work. My wife is up and about and she has some friend of hers over. I say something to her and she replies something and walks into the kids room. I continue to try to find some clothes but I am in the living room. I look down and realize that I have been completely naked the entire time. I don't get embarrassed. I just wonder why I am not at all modest any more. I am amused by this and start to walk into the room where my wife and friend went into. I have no sexual feelings about it at all. I just think it will be funny to streak in front of them. The alarm wakes me up.
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    10. Lucid #90 The White Void

      by , 10-28-2012 at 12:39 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Nothing to eat after 6PM Actually I totally skipped dinner. I wasn't hungry. We had a late lunch.
      Bedtime 10:30PM
      300mg B6, 3MG Melatonin
      SSILD at beginning


      #90 The White Void 11:30PM

      I did SSILD in rapid cycles and eventually got to where I would either notice all 3 at once or hold sight while cycling sound and touch. I probably did this longer than I should have. I eventually rolled over to my right side. I would guess it was 30 to 40 minutes. Then still noticing HI I counted 1-10 until...

      I feel SP Vibrations. My thought was that it was too early to have a dream so I didn't do my normal getting out my body routine. I just relaxed and waited.

      I find myself in a pure white void. I hear in my mind but almost spoken to me at the same time, "Ancient Indian spiritual wisdom." I feel like I am a different person. I am lucid but I don't think of myself as I am in real life or this life. I think I am a tribal shaman.

      SP takes me again. I think I am on my back. Again, I wait and enter the white void. I DEILD chain 3 or 4 times. On the last one I look hard into the white void hoping for a dream or image to appear. I eventually wake up.


      I have a hard time going back to sleep after that.

      Vivid Sex 1:48AM

      I have very long detailed and vivid sex with my wife multiple times. At some point another woman joins but I motion for her to leave. There are impossible positions and distortions. I see the woman yell at a kid in the distance. I wake up and fail DEILD.

      I remember this dream like it really happened.

      Dentist 4:24 AM

      I am at the dentist office. They keep saying my name wrong. At one point they call me by my mothers maiden name. I just go along with it. I get a huge run around. Eventually the dentist comes and I think I finally can get my cleaning done. He asks me my last name and has to fix it in the system while I go to another waiting room. It's in a different building and the interior is dirty and dilapidated. I wake up and try DEILD

      WBTB a few minutes. Bathroom water.
      additional 300MG B6

      SSILD to WILD

      I can't relax my mind enough to WILD I start to think the extra B6 was a mistake. The furnace is set too high. I am hot. I try to ignore it but I end up having to get up and turn the temp down. I have spent too long on this and I decide to give up and sleep normal.

      Dream WBTB 5:46AM

      I am doing a WBTB in the middle of the night but I am in the house that I lived in Luling, Texas. I am making a sandwhich or something. Really I'm just lost in thought and mucking about. I see the living room light is on and I assume that my dad left it on.

      The baby woke up for a bottle. I tried to go back to sleep with him for a bit but I could not relax enough and he was squirmy fussy.

      Updated 10-28-2012 at 08:20 PM by 5967 (Typos and clarificaiton)

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    11. She Doesn't Trust You, The Voice In The Void

      by , 10-27-2012 at 04:35 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Some Alcohol

      Bedtime midnight-ish - Wife, her mom and sister were up making Halloween costumes for the kids. I got cranky tired and took Riley to bed with me.

      To tired for inductions
      WBTB 4:00AM alarm too tired to even get up to pee.

      I wanted to sleep later but after a 7AM feeding he snoozed and I sort of fell into a half LD half daydream with lots of really strong HI. I can't say for sure if I was actually asleep but time seemed to pass quickly. I was slightly uncomfortable the way he was snuggled against me. I didn't dare move him. I have been really tired and 6-8 hrs sleep is no good for a person that requires 10. I just enjoyed him letting me lay in bed a little longer. It was nice bonding time nevertheless.


      She Doesn't Trust You - 5:52AM

      This dream was way longer but I only remember the last bit. I am in a cow pasture and there are two unpainted barns. Cows are all around and I am moving living room furniture from the right one to the left one. There is mud in the barns and I am stepping in it but I see I am wearing rubber boots so I don't mind. I see a rainy misty green countryside out side. I have a folding chair in each hand. They are black metal. The cows freak out and get scared of them. They act skittish like my cats do and some are small like dogs. One cow gets its head caught in a folding chair and trashes about to get free. I make it to the other barn. There are couches, recliners, other folding chairs, and an old cabinet style TV. I am moving furniture around and I keep seeing my deceased grandfather as a reflection in the TV glass. I make a mental note to investigate when I am done. I see and old black leather recliner. I think I ruined it by putting it in a barn. I look closer and see that it is cracked and the color is worn in places. It was trash already. I make a final adjustment and look at the TV. Pawpaws reflection is sitting down in the chair. I am partial lucid here as I dream of the dead a lot but it feels so natural that I don't totally get it. I look at him and ask him, "Where is Nanny?"
      His simply says, "She don't trust you yet."
      "But...Why?"
      He is looking in the distance and I get the feeling that he can see her and hear her. He says to me, "Because."
      Then the world folds in on its self and I totally and consciously experience every detail of waking from a dream. I was a very odd feeling and one that would be hard to describe. I thought to DEILD but I had to pee really bad and the clock was 8 min away from my wife's wake up time so it was pointless to try.

      This is odd because the last time I remember her in my dream I became lucid. See: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/xano...d-deild-37105/ And a brief NLD:

      Dead Grandma- Fragment
      I experience strong HI untill a full non lucid dream occurs. Funny there was no SP
      I am looking in the filing cabinet on the bottom drawer. My wife comes close to me and bumps her pregnant belly on my head. I look up and caress and kiss her belly. Then I look at her face and it VIVIDLY distorts into my dead gramdma. I am reminded of how it happens in Grimm. She telepathically tells me that she is reincarnated into my unborn son. I ask her how can that be he is a boy and you were a woman. She tells me things like that don't matter. I wake with a startle.
      I am not sure if I have seen her since my son was born. That's some Goddamned crazy shit!

      The Voice in the void

      Later I am in strong HI I manipulate and interact with it hoping to actively WILD. It feels like a LD but I feel my body in bed still. I thin about the past dream and want answers. I see my grandfather and ask him why again. I can't remember what he said to me but it wasn't an answer. So I ask, "Will you be my dream guide? I would be nice to have a relationship with you and be something we never could have when you were alive." I think about how religious he was.
      I don't really see anything now. I an in a black void. I hear a voice reply, "Yes, I will be your dream guide." The voice sounds flat and emotionless. I does not sound like my grandfather did. I ask to be clear, "Will you be my dream guide?"
      The same voice, "Yes."
      "You are not my pawpaw are you?"
      "No." Now the voice sounds deep and sort of like a high class English man.
      "Who are you?" He replies but it gets garbbled. I ask a second time.
      "Edward Godrich the second."
      "OK will YOU be my dream guide?"
      "I told you yes."
      "OK when?"
      "When you let yourself go in a dream, I will be there."


      There was more of the conversation but I can't remember it all.
      My son squirms and wakes me out of my trance.

      That wasnt the type of LD I wanted but both the NLD and the interaction later was fun as hell. I don't really know what to make of it. I suppose it's all just in my head but I hope Mr. Godrich helps me out tonight!

      Updated 10-27-2012 at 04:39 PM by 5967

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    12. Weak DILD Parks and Recreation

      by , 10-20-2012 at 11:37 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      WBTB WILD-fail B6 200MG

      Weak DILD 6:27 AM

      I am at the hospital after my son was born. I am in a waiting room. There are people around I ask a man some questions and then the falls asleep. I push the man on the floor and say, "That's what you get for falling asleep during an interview." My son got knocked out of my wife's arms when I did that and falls on the floor. I pick him up. He is swaddled and I say, "Look hes ok." For some reason he looks like a plastic doll.

      Now I am laying on a bed. I tell a nurse that my wife and son went home but I wanted to nap for I leave. The bed is next to a nurses station. I try to sleep but get interrupted constantly. There was something about a shirt. And a few other annoyances. I can't remember.

      I see Ann Perkins from Parks and Recreation. She is giving me the eye like she wants me. Then I see Andy Dwyer mouth the words "Go talk to her."
      I couldn't be bothered at the moment. All I knew was that I was supposed to be sleeping. I close my eyes and I hear a voice say, "He's out of touch with reality. His mind is always consumed with reality testing to the point that he doesn't really live his life." I am focused on lying still. I want to say that noting could be farther from the truth.

      Now I am in the drive way of my house. I have the car door open getting my son out. My wife is all upset and worried about him. Then something clicks and I remember that I was trying to WILD. I tell my wife, "It doesn't matter." But I am saying it to myself as well. She fades to the background and I feel half awake and half asleep. I pause thinking. I see a vague impression of my son swaddled. I think I should try to stabilize but at the same time I don't believe I can. I try anyway. I lay myself over him. It's all I could think of at the moment. He dissolves into me. And I fall unconscious.


      NLDs short version

      The power goes out but the TV is on. I see fireworks on TV but the same ones outside. It was suppsed to be in CJ but its my neighborhood. I feel confused about that. We go outside to see more but it stops.

      I have Alice Cooper as my guitar teacher but the guitar looks like a rock band guitar painted black with a ton of buttons. I jam out on it to some Alice Cooper type rock. I have no idea what I am doing but it sounds amazing. I feel dissatisfied and grab a real acoustic guitar and see the floor is disgusting rotted with tons of spiders poring out. I think I should mix up some more bug spray and then fix the floor.

      At my exes house. She wants me to take a picture of her friend starting her car. I can't make the camera work. It is the strangest camera ever. Tons of buttons. A few time I have it pointed backwards. I feel like an idiot. I give up and tell the girls it is time to go. D starts crying and a strange liquid flows down her.

      I was very dissatisfied with that lucid. I would have had a better chance but we got up at 6:30 to go to the parade. I tried to take a lucid nap and WILD a little after two. I woke twice after each hour and could not remember a thing. Tonight WBTB.

      Updated 10-20-2012 at 11:39 PM by 5967

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    13. DILD from SSILD and some NLDs

      by , 10-18-2012 at 10:27 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      1 Pint Fosters, 200MG B6, 3x 595mg Potassium

      Bedtime: 9:15PM

      Fell asleep practicing SSILD

      Alien Volcano 10:51
      I am in an inactive volcano with my daughters. I get the feeling that it is Mercury. We are on the dark side and there is a layer of ice above us. I break it open and set a detonator to blow it up. We get inside a hot air balloon and it doesn't rise high enough. I push a button on a necklace around my neck. I tell my ex something about the girls being late. Her reply makes no sense. We climb out of the balloon and are at the mall. They want to go see a movie.

      Fight With Sister 2:24AM

      I am trying to shave in the bathroom and N. makes a rude comment. We blow up at each other and say awful things. A lot of past hurts and grievances get brought up. I continue to shave. I see my hair is so long its on my mustache. I start to shave it but look closer. Now it is just in my eyes. I think oh yeah. I wanted to grow my hair out. I examine it closer and notice every detail. I think about my wife and how we spent the night apart. I miss her and want to see her.

      WBTB 2:30AM - 3:00AM 200MG B6

      Uncomfortable move to recliner.

      SSILD I had some trouble sleeping at some point and went to counting mantra
      LJS 4:10AM NLD to DEILD

      I am back at my first job Long John Silvers. I am opening and start to gather up food and supplies to cook. My old bosses S and D are there. They are already cooking a large order. I go to some upstairs to get some more fish. I am in a big room and see a lady from the grocery store. For some reason I get naked but cover myself with a jacket. Then I walk to her and ask for oral sex. I purposely control her answer with my mind like some jedi mind trick. We say Yes together. Before we do anything I realize what I am doing and stop. I make myself wake up.

      I try really hard not to do this in dreams. Especially lucid. I think it is a waste of time and not fair to my wife. I don't move but recall the dream. Then I really want to be lucid so I try DEILD.

      I see F from work and he has a green laser pointer. He puts it on the wall and makes little circles. As soon as I see this I feel vibrations. This is odd because I went straight to a lucid dream but the SP feeling comes after the dream starts. Plus this time the vibrations are totally different. They swirl in my body in time with the laser pointer. Its like my chest is the center and the vibrations are spinning from the point like a ball on a string. I feel it in my head, then my right arm, then my legs, then my left arm, back to my head. I does this extremely fast. It startles me and I get excited and wake up

      SSILD with counting to DILD At Work 5:00AM ish

      This dream is very dark like poor lighting and the colors are very dull. I am at work and I have my laptop. I am typing out a long post on dream views. I don't know what it said. S. from work is next to me. We are leaning on the long table and I am using it to hold my laptop. He doesn't say anything but is just looking over my shoulder. J. the maintenance man comes by and messes with the outlet. He says he needs to unplug things for a minute. I tell him not to unplug my laptop. He say nothing so I try to hurry and finish my post. Just before I can click "post now" My screen goes black. I say to S, "I told him not to unplug my laptop." I put my head down in disgust. Then I hear some noise like a TV. I look as S he has has a knowing, smiling expression on his face. I look at the laptop and some video is playing. I think about this for a second and I become lucid. I feel a little like a might be wrong but I point a finger in the air and say, "You know what I thing we are dreaming. Watch this." I put the same finger and push it into the laptop screen. The screen is off now. It sinks in a lot and feels and looks very rubbery. The suddenly the dream fades.

      I lie still for DEILD. I feel SP but I get very excited again. I try to fight it but then I ignore it and focus on taking deep breaths. I quickly give up and decide I lost it. But at that point I feel my left hand float straight up. Then, the SP stops. I feel like I am laying there and really but my hand up in my sleep. I fell into a non lucid dream that I can't really remember.


      It was some time later that I woke up. I realized I must have had a false awakening. I reasoned that my body cant move in SP. I should have caught on to that. I should remember that any time there is SP do a RC afterwards even if I am sure that I failed. You never know.

      Wake up time 6:00AM

      Updated 10-19-2012 at 01:55 AM by 5967

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    14. 2 Lucids Sky Painting, Black Fire Fail

      by , 10-14-2012 at 09:23 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Bedtime 11:30PM

      4 16oz Coors Light over 5hr period, 3x 595mg potassium gluconate, 200mg B6

      WBTB additional B6 200mg WILD with MILD mantra "Look at the sky" and counting


      WBTB time 4:00am-4:30am I didn't technically stay but a few minutes but I had a hard time being awake enough to focus. I got really uncomfortable so I moved to the recliner after 30min. It took a few more minutes to get comfortable on the recliner. I eventually forced myself to lay still.

      Sky Painting
      I find myself in a small room sitting in what feels like a folding chair at a small table. I am painting a picture with professional water colors. I remember I made blotches of dark blue and added blotches of black. For some reason my black was applied with my operator stamp from work. I add some crimson and other light hues. The paint was undiluted so I loaded a larger brush with water only and swiped the whole painting. It blended into an abstract but beautiful early dawn sunrise. Then the water turned into a baby blue color and everything got runny. I tried blowing on it to dry it up an the baby blue only moved and the color underneath was unchanged. I messed with this for a bit.

      Then it dawns on me that I am painting the sky. I remember about the sky and that I was trying to WILD. I fall backward in my chair in to an abyss. I hold on the the small canvass for stability but it is of no use. I get a flash of other people posting thier versions of my painting on the forum. Some just added an overlay of a bright object like a building other were abstract. Then I become engulfed in darkness. I stop fighting and relax. I let whatever wants to happen happen. This was the perfect mindset for DEILD.

      I lie still for DIELD. I almost immediately feel vibrations. This time I am completely calm.I even think to check myself. Heart rate and breathing feel relaxed and normal. I am pleased. Before the vibrations end I begin the familiar process of imagining my feet connecting to the floor. It takes a few tries but I finally feel grounded. I am now standing in the living room. It is really dark. Just as dark as it is in real life.I think about how I want to make black fire. I don't know how but I look at my hand and try to visualize. Nothing. I feel the dream fading so I stop and look around.

      I see the mirror in the room and jump on the couch to get up close. I look at myself and can faintly see my left eye is brown and my right eye is green I am really annoyed that it is dark. I say out loud, "I need some light." My voice sounds weak and raspy. I say it louder, "Light please." Still nothing. I go float up to the ceiling fan. I still remember the chain broke yesterday so I reach up close and pull it. The light doesn't work but the fans are spinning. I say, "Fuck it." and head out the front door.

      I am on my front porch and floating. I feel the wind shifting me slightly. It is really dark outside too. I can see a few trees and decide to try some advanced flying. I think about Robert Wagonners book. He says to focus on a place and your dream body will fly to it. So, I look at the top of a very tall pine tree. I zoom toward it super fast. The strange thing is I notice that even though I flew fast, the transition was jerky and not smooth like a badly encoded video file. Maybe my brains computer couldn't render that fast. HA! I see another tree even taller and I fly the same way. Super fast with the jerkiness.

      Now I am grasping the very tip of the taller tree. I look around and try using expectation to create some light. I tell myself that the sun should be coming up now. I look to the east and see the sun beginning to rise like predawn twilight. I smile because it looks like my painting. I think that is good but its still too dark. I am out of ideas now. I feel the dream fading. I learned from the NLD just before, that I should just relax and let it fade away and get ready for DEILD.

      I feel like I am in a black void so I rub my hands together to stabilize. I partially open one eye and can see as if I am back in my bedroom. I see my hands rubbing together and almost dismiss it as a real awakening. I think I am in bed next to my wife but on the wrong side. I almost get up but pause. I think no I will wait and see. This might still be a dream. I think I must have really moved my leg because with that thought I really woke up.


      WBTB 5:00AM-7:40AM

      WBTB WILD with sky mantra and counting. The same as previous dream

      Black Fire Fail
      It take some time to get comfortable and relaxed. About 20 min. I am doing the dive when my wife wakes up and snuggles with me. I tell her I just got back to sleep since Riley woke up. She rolls back over. I am comfortable and let my awareness become a dim thing while counting 1 sky to 10 sky and repeat until I lose track. Each round of 10 I feel myself getting more and more relaxed. I think of it as very old self hypnosis technique I was doing several years ago. It's still effective.

      After 20 min I see SP vibrations. Again I visualize and imagine tactile sensations of my feet connecting to the floor. This time it was not instant. I had to feel my feet walking and stomping before I felt out of my body. Then it fades and I relax. I get a crazy high speed spinning sensation and go back into sp. I remember to relax. I try to get up again. I really struggle to get up and I start to get annoyed. This time I roll fast to the right. I am now face down on the floor with my legs stuck in the bed like my body is stretched. I feel stuck. I remember the last time I did this I felt the crazy cold thing that became a lucid nightmare. I get a crazy idea and try to make it happen again. I feel like there is something under the bed. I smile and shove my hand under. It feels blocked like there is stuff under the bed but its clear in real life. I go in to a very convincing FA. I can hear loud country music. I think its some sort of phone alarm. I feel like I am awake in my bed. I start to turn to my wife to tell her to turn it off. I am very annoyed. Then I remeber to watch for FAs. I think about and I realize there would probably not be country music playing next to me. I stop myself and before I even look at her I realize it is a dream. This time I am well into a dream and I quickly get out if bed. I feel weak and drunk. I stumble out if the room. There is way more like in the living room this time. I smile at that. I think its funny how I know the sun is up now and my subC goes with it. I still want to create fire in my hands. I concentrate. I see a breif flicker of normal fire but when I try to go into black it fades. Now, I can't see the fire but I see the room glow. I lose focus. I wake up for real. I look at my wife and smile. She is awake on her phone and looks at me like I am crazy. The clock says 8:40

      Updated 10-16-2012 at 04:03 AM by 5967 (keep finding typos)

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    15. DILD Angry Father

      by , 10-13-2012 at 03:23 PM (Xanous' Dream Journal)


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      Alcohol before bed

      Bed time 12:30Am

      Angry Father DILD 8:00AM

      It's strange but I am at my ex-in-laws house. It's just me and my parents. I am playing with a new phone. It looks like a Note or galaxy SIII. My dad is ranting and raving about how something was evil and of the devil. I was getting really annoyed listening to him so I start to make fun of him. I tell him things like how I love mammon and I worship the devil. I show him little demon animations on my phone. It was straight sarcasm.

      Then for no real reason my emotions turn into near hatred. I look up from the phone and I see him walking into the living room. I say, "I am going to punch you in the face!" He passes the ceiling fan and I can see the light shine through his head.

      Then it dawns on me. The emotion and the light. All my anger fades instantly. I get overly excited and say, "WE ARE DREAMING!" He just looks at my funny. Then everything gets white washed with a bright light. I think I am waking up. I don't realize that fading to black is waking but the fading to white is something else. I sort of panic and think about the task I wanted to do. I try to visualize but I get nothing. I remember CanisLucidus and how he reentered by saying I am dreaming. It's all I can think of so I say, "I am dreaming." a several times. But then I give up way too easy.

      I should always always always remember DEILD especially when the LD is so short. I guess I was taken by surprise in this dream. I am usually so involved with the emotion that I don't become lucid. Thanks, CanisLucidus for pointing out that strong emotion is a dream sign!

      I didn't wake up after all. After the white goes away I find myself back in the dream non-lucid. I am sitting in the same living room playing with the phone again. I am scrolling though a bunch of text that I can't focus on. I click a link and see a picture of Howard Stern with puffed out lips hold a microphone. He is next to either some woman or it was Steven Tyler with puffed out lips holding a fake dick. I laugh at this and shake my head. All the time Spencer from work is talking to someone in the room. I never look up to see and I don't know what he is saying.

      "Punch you in the face" I think this is the 3rd or 4th time this month that has been said in a dream.

      Fragment
      I remember being at Wal-Mart. I lay down in shopping cart and try to sleep.


      New dream signs: Strong Emotion, Trying to sleep, "Punch you in the face".

      Updated 10-13-2012 at 03:25 PM by 5967

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