1) My name is Jodie A. Currie. This is not the name I was given at birth.
2) I was born on August 17th, 1981 in Sarnia, Ontario Canada.
3) At the age of 2 years old I was adopted by the family I am with now, and who gave me the name I now have. My birth first name was "Judy" and my birth last name started with a "B" but I do not know what the name was.
4) I have no desire to seek out my biological parents. My biological mother was a drug addicted 14 year old who was forced to surrender me to child services. I don't know anything about my birth father other than he worked the shipping lanes in the St. Laurence river.
5) I was badly abused as a child and a teenager, by both adoptive family members and friends, and I have clinical depression, social anxiety and post-traumatic stress as a result. I continue to struggle with these afflictions almost every day. I like to joke that I have several mental illnesses.
6) I used to be very religious, then not so religious, then I sought god in religions other than the one I grew up in, then I gave up because I realized I have better things to do with my life than chase something that doesn't exist. I am very contented being an atheist/anti-theist.
7) Because of my mental illness I sometimes experience auditory hallucinations. This usually occurs around low frequency sounds which my brains scrambles and I hear it as classical or operatic music. I am currenly taking medications that have stopped the phantom music from bothering me.
8) Ever since I can remember I have had something that I call the "vision flow." It is a constant stream of ever changing shapes, images and colours that I can see when I close my eyes. It never stops. I cannot turn it off and sometimes I cannot ignore it because it becomes so strong and vivid that I can see it even when my eyes are open. I do not know what it is called scientifically or why it happens, but I have learned to live with it and often try to draw inspiration for my art from it. It has been sugessted to me by many psychologists and doctors that it may have something to do with my mental illness. It is not Synesthesia.
9) I love my dreams. I often have long, vivid and detailed dreams. Other times I have dream droughts and will not remember any dreams for weeks, even months on end. I can never understand my dreams but it makes me very happy to have lots of them. I think it is because they are unique to me and they are something that no one can ever take away.
10) As well as dreamviews I post my dreams to two other online dream journal sites. Never recieve many comments on them though, so I assume that my dreams must be terribly boring to other people even though I like them. Also, I'm not much of a commentor myself because I often don't know what to say and I'm always afraid of sounding stupid and trite.
11) I love cats and felines of all kinds. I have had a total of 4 cats in my life (though not at once) and I fully intend to be a crazy cat lady with like 50 cats when I'm old and grey.
12) I am not athletic by any means but I love watching figure skating and hockey. I find them breath-taking and thrilling.
13) I do not have cable and still use one of those old clunky tvs with rabbit ears. I don't watch a whole lot of tv anyway, mostly the news, figure skating and hockey.
14) I have a dozen and a half of milk crates in my closet containing all the books I cannot fit on my three full sized bookshelves. Despite this I do not read a whole lot anymore.
15) I think I may be an internet addict. I do about 90% of my sociallizing online and I don't feel like there is anything wrong with it.
16) I am fairly skilled in the arcaic internet language of HTML. It was relevant when I was in grade 9, when the internet was just becoming popular (early 90s), but not so much now.
17) Another addiction I have is food. I love Mexican (tacos!), Japanese (sushi!), Chinese (everything deep fried!), Middle Eastern (hummus!) and Canadian (poutine!) cuisine.
18) I have trouble connecting with people. A lot of this has to do with the abuse I suffered as a child. I have trouble trusting people and letting them close. As a result I often seem cold and uninterested to the few friends I have. I may also have Aspergers but have not yet been officially diagnosed.
19) I am very shy and introverted in situations or places, or with people, I am unfarmiliar with. I purposely avoid going out in public if I can. I love being with my family even though I often am very introverted around them as well. I just need to be near them. I am a very insecure and nervous person and they make me feel safe.
20) I did not do well in public school and was often bullied and behind in class. I was labeled as "mentally challenged" and placed in the special ed class even though my reading and writing skills were on par with other students of my age. I did not talk a lot and although I understood the work assigned to me in class, I often just didn't want to do it and thus did not.
21) I loved highschool. My highschool was huge and had so many students that I was rendered invisible to the people who used to bully me in public school. Highschool was also an introduction to art, english and computer language studies (HTML and VisualBasic), which I absolutely loved. Grade 9 was also my introduction to the internet and I have been online in one way or another ever since. I graduated with honours in all my classes except math and science, which I barely passed by the skin on my teeth.
22) After highschool I attended a special arts school called BEALART and took classes in animation, life drawing and ceramics. Before discovering soapstone in 2006, I planned to work with clay. Clay bores me now and soapstone is the shnizzle.
23) I never make artwork to sell intentionally. Almost everything I draw, paint or carve I give away as gifts at birthdays, holidays or weddings. I have only ever offically sold three peices of work. I have no interest in becoming a "famous artist" and I really don't give a crap if people like my work or not because it is the creation process that I enjoy. And honestly, I don't think my stuff is all that great.
24) I rely heavily on art therapy to help deal with my mental illness so I do art at least an hour everyday. And sometimes I'm just bored and have nothing else better to do.
25) I don't wear makeup or jewelry, nor fancy clothes or shoes. I only ever have two pairs of footware in my possession at any time; a pair of running shoes and a pair of boots. Jewelry gets in the way of making art (and I'm poor and can't afford it). I don't wear makeup because it is often made with ingredients like animal fats and urea (urine) the the thought of putting it on my face absolutely disgusts me. I do like painting my nails with nail polish however.
26) My mentor and current employer also happens to be my highschool art teacher. She taught me how to love art and to express myself without fear. She's my hero.
27) When I was younger I used to love swimming and hiking and running. Now I don't and I am overweight.
28) I have no patience for bigotry of any kind.
29) For a long time I thought I was gay, then I thought I was bi-sexual, but as I have discovered, I am asexual, which means I have no sexual desire for anyone or anything. I believe I am capable of loving anyone though, regardless of gender, because physical body parts have nothing to do with what is in one's heart and mind.
30) I am 29 years old and I have never been on a date, never beed kissed, and I consider myself a virgin (rape doesn't count). Because of this, and my inability to connect with people, I fully believe that I am going to die alone. Sometimes this upsets me, and other times I am completely indifferent and don't care. I prefer the company of cats to people most of the time anyway.
31) I used to be a drug addict and smoked massive amounts of marijuana everyday for three years straight. After seeking therapy I no longer have the desire to smoke myself into oblivion every night, though I do on the rare occasion share a joint with my older brother when we get together to have dinner or watch a movie or something, which is not very often anymore.
32) I am a boring and often humourless person, and I know that, but I am quite content with my life right now. I have a roof over my head, food in my fridge and a family who loves me. I really don't feel like I need anything more.
I don't get a lot of chances to talk about myself so this has been fun. Thanks for bothering to read, if you did!
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