Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Spartiate

That's pathetic yo. Get a hold of your life. Do you think you're the only person who's been in love or has had trouble leaving someone? Think of all the women who are abused, mentally or physically, and who summon up the strength to leave. You don't even live with the guy, you probably only think you know him well because of your antisocial tendencies and lack of contact with other humans.

This will probably come across as harsh, but what you need is a wake-up call. There are other people out there, but you only have one life. You're clearly unhappy, so do something about it...

mmmmmhmmmmm You are a strong woman who don't need no man!

Edit: I couldn't resist >.<

I am loved by all the right people at all the wrong times.

(And only, like, two of them have faith in polyamory.)

I have had an outright "migraine" all freagin day. I feel like puking it's so bad. I tried sleeping, but it's so bad and my blanket smells a little musty which doesn't help. I'm going to try to eat some broccoli and cheese to see if food will help. I've been sitting in the dark, feeling my head pulsate and there's a little man with a knife behind my right eye stabbing it. At least, that's what it feels like lol
I forgot I had hydro's so I just took one. Hopefully it will help. If not- after a few hours- I'll call hubby and get a couple valiums.
It's been a good while since I had a headache this severe. My blood pressure and pulse are excellent. Both usually get better when I'm in pain from range 6-7. I think it's because I get into a somewhat meditative state, paying attention to the pain and my breathing and being mostly still. If only I could will the headache away!!

LOL. I come back after taking a Chemistry exam. An OP from a MMORPG clan channel PMs me on what was wrong with me.

I ask him what I did wrong. He tells me Luisa (the same girl I drew) became upset after I told her off for thinking that I'm a jerk.

He tells me that the outburst I gave to her isn't something he likes, and he doesn't like one member disrespecting another. I decided to just quit the clan. I don't even play the game anymore, and I only go there to chat. But for that woman to get upset over that is her fault, not mine. I made the mistake in being friends with her, but for her to get mad when she thinks I treat her as a child (just because I call her by her first name? Then wth do you want me to call you?) is just hypocritical of her.

This is the reason why I shouldn't be attached to the members of a clan chat. They start to become too protective on another person.

Damn it, I really am surrounded by assholes. FK

Life can be so dull sometimes, I just want to immerse myself in fantasy right now. Thank Nature for imagination.

Originally Posted by Wayfaerer

Life can be so dull sometimes, I just want to immerse myself in fantasy right now. Thank Nature for imagination.

Thank nature? THANK NATURE!?!? We say Thank GOD! In the most sarcastic way possible!

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

One of my classmates committed suicide today. He was that person who was friends with everyone, always positive and happy... but most of us couldn't see what was wrong.

That's totally fucked :/
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My girlfriend's family's restaurant just got robbed for the second time. That's ridiculous >:/

I met this guy a week back and I really like him. We've been texting the past two or three days and it's very clear that he likes me too; we're going to see a movie on the weekend... But I'm so scared I'm going to be awkward, or that I won't know what to say...

Originally Posted by Puffin

I met this guy a week back and I really like him. We've been texting the past two or three days and it's very clear that he likes me too; we're going to see a movie on the weekend... But I'm so scared I'm going to be awkward, or that I won't know what to say...

"Courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality." -Richter Abend, (Tales of Symphonia 2: Dawn of the New World)

You make awesome guides, maybe you could talk about dreaming to him!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

"Courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality." -Richter Abend, (Tales of Symphonia 2: Dawn of the New World)

You make awesome guides, maybe you could talk about dreaming to him!

Thanks. :'3
I brought up lucid dreaming with him and he sounded a little interested, but not much. To be honest I feel like I have to walk on eggshells with him, because it seems like going into too much detail might end up giving him the impression that I'm "strange", or unusual. In a bad way. Of course this isn't the same (wholly, anyways ) and he probably wouldn't care, but I'm still a bit nervous to go into further details.

Yeah I agree, I'm still afraid to tell my friends about Lucid Dreaming.

And he's probably feeling nervous too!

fOrceez's girlfriend and her family. That's very uncool! Did the robberies happen while they were in the store? Are there any leads?
Hope the thief/thieves get caught quickly!!!

Have fun on your date, Puffin! I second what LinkZelda said

I just woke up after almost 5 hours of sleep. My space heater was burning my butt lol I'm surprised my air mattress hasn't popped yet!!
I played Skyrim for about 5 hours last night. AWESOME game! My rant is that somehow, about 4 years ago, my kids did something to the tv. To the left of the middle of the screen there's a big black blur- almost apostrophe shaped. It was getting on my last nerve as I played.
And the game itself is too dark (but so was Oblivion). I changed my brightness setting to the highest but the dimness still irks me. I hope I can still learn a torch spell.
Other than that, I've no real complaints about the game Yet

Health wise, I'm okay. I'm producing way too much phlegm (how can a throat do that- I'm not coughing and my nose isn't runny ) so that's getting on my nerves. BUT, I have no monster headache anymore.
I was eating in my "sleep" this morning so now my belly hurts a tad. I was sitting at my desk and I kept drifting off, then I was pouring Cinnamon Bears out of the bag into my hand. I emptied most of them onto the floor, bent to pick them up then I just ate them I never eat things after it falls on the floor lol. I was majorly zoned out but my tummy woke me enough to lay my mattress down and go to sleep. Cinnamon in large amounts does not agree with me
I've not been *THAT* sleepy in a long time. It humors me

I go check my email to reset my password for an MMORPG I haven't played in years.

Got an e-mail saying "Free Sandwiches"

Got excited and thought it was a female seducing....damn it Subway..WHY~!!!

Edit:

As I'm watching TobyGames on Youtube Do "Let's Play Skyrim" series, I realize my one-handed skill in real life is probably over 99, with the potential of arthritis. hur hur hur

i am VERY pissed off right now. Seriously, I just bought a new computer. and its fucked. Though it was the RAM, nope. CPU, nope. Shitty Western D Caviar Green HDD, Nope. Sooo that leaves the Mobo. Which means that it'll have to be a goddamn warranty issue. Which means that the skyrim that came in today, CAN'T BE PLAYED!

Just depressed as hell, think I'm going to decide to leave DV soon. For a long time I'd finally stopped caring about everything so much but now it's all coming back, that and more. I was staring at the ceiling for like 1.5 hours last night just trying to convince myself that the law of identity is true and that logic is valid and couldn't even do it. I'm so fucking stupid, or so ignorant I might as well be. I don't know why I try. I feel like I've lived so long and should be old and dead now. I'm sure that will sound stupid to anyone older than I am. But I just feel like collapsing and dying and am just so tired.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I was staring at the ceiling for like 1.5 hours last night just trying to convince myself that the law of identity is true and that logic is valid and couldn't even do it. I'm so fucking stupid, or so ignorant I might as well be.

The only way to confirm an axiom is by empiricism. Like all things logic is just a result of the human power to recognise and manipulate patterns, so don't fret about it. Just immerse yourself in the prettiest patterns you can find.

I'd personally suggest starting off with some Attenborough wildlife shows.




Afterwards you could move onto the Beatles discography.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

For a long time I'd finally stopped caring about everything so much but now it's all coming back, that and more. I was staring at the ceiling for like 1.5 hours last night just trying to convince myself that the law of identity is true and that logic is valid and couldn't even do it. I'm so fucking stupid, or so ignorant I might as well be. I don't know why I try. I feel like I've lived so long and should be old and dead now. I'm sure that will sound stupid to anyone older than I am. But I just feel like collapsing and dying and am just so tired.

Why don't you go on a vacation, or move else where? If you're that depressed, maybe you need a change. Do something else. Throw a wrench in the gears. Do something you want to do. By the sounds of it, you're doing what your BF wants, or what other people want. Just do something that'll make you happy.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Just depressed as hell, think I'm going to decide to leave DV soon.

NOOOOOOOOO (That was the closes thing I could find to Dragging someone back, Imagine a rope and me dragging you back )

Dragging Dianeva Back to DV and Out of Depression

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Just depressed as hell, think I'm going to decide to leave DV soon. For a long time I'd finally stopped caring about everything so much but now it's all coming back, that and more. I was staring at the ceiling for like 1.5 hours last night just trying to convince myself that the law of identity is true and that logic is valid and couldn't even do it. I'm so fucking stupid, or so ignorant I might as well be. I don't know why I try. I feel like I've lived so long and should be old and dead now. I'm sure that will sound stupid to anyone older than I am. But I just feel like collapsing and dying and am just so tired.

First, please please please please PLEASE don't leave DV....

I know exactly how you feel, probably, and just yesterday and today have started feeling that way again too.
You're far from ignorant. I didn't even know what the law of identity was until you mentioned it just now and I googled it.
I'm not sure why you can't convince yourself that it's valid, but I'm sure that's more to do with the fact that you're so smart, and thus
are thinking about it in a different way to me, and nothing at all to do with being stupid.

Went to this site creating Michele Bachmann memes, you can tell which ones I made.Slutty Michele meme | quickmeme

Then I realized I have to study for my Biology and Psychology Exam Friday...fml

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Just depressed as hell, think I'm going to decide to leave DV soon. For a long time I'd finally stopped caring about everything so much but now it's all coming back, that and more. I was staring at the ceiling for like 1.5 hours last night just trying to convince myself that the law of identity is true and that logic is valid and couldn't even do it. I'm so fucking stupid, or so ignorant I might as well be. I don't know why I try. I feel like I've lived so long and should be old and dead now. I'm sure that will sound stupid to anyone older than I am. But I just feel like collapsing and dying and am just so tired.

Get. Therapy. NOW.

I'm telling you, I recognize what you're going through, and you should seek professional help, get a psychiatrist or something before you get too down in the deep end. Are you taking any medication, like anti-depressants? They helped me. Just realize it's your brain chemistry that's off... it's not reality.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

brain chemistry that's off... it's not reality.

Conjecture.

Therapy, maybe if necessary. Drugs, no.

Thanks for the replies. It's strange but they seem to have helped (right now at least).

Originally Posted by Xei

The only way to confirm an axiom is by empiricism. Like all things logic is just a result of the human power to recognise and manipulate patterns, so don't fret about it. Just immerse yourself in the prettiest patterns you can find.

With this the problem I see is that we have no reason to believe logic works. Everything comes down to empiricism, which suffers from the problem of induction. Lately I've been thinking I have no solid reason to believe anything I do and I'm just being irrational all the time, that those crazy people in the Inner Sanctum and Beyond Dreaming are right. I honestly don't know how to get past it and convince myself that I'm justified in anything I believe.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

Why don't you go on a vacation, or move else where? If you're that depressed, maybe you need a change. Do something else. Throw a wrench in the gears. Do something you want to do. By the sounds of it, you're doing what your BF wants, or what other people want. Just do something that'll make you happy.

Thanks for responding. That would be nice but isn't really an option. Especially now since I'm in school. Then on winter break I'll be going to stay at my bfs house and that isn't really different.

Even daily escape would help, but I can't even do that. I really just want to play Skyrim, earlier I wanted to brood and write poetry. But I just have no time. If I didn't know better I could swear that weeks were literally getting shorter, and days too. I get home and relax a bit on DV, and as soon as I feel like I'm relaxed and can start on homework, it's late and I have barely any time to do it. And it just keeps repeating. Now I have two assignments due tomorrow and Sunday. As soon as those are done I'll probably have more to rush to get done.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Dragging Dianeva Back to DV and Out of Depression

lol it doesn't look like she's going anywhere nice.

Originally Posted by tommo

First, please please please please PLEASE don't leave DV....

lol You don't know how good it feels to hear that anyone would care at all if I left DV. I may still end up leaving though, idk.

Originally Posted by tommo

You're far from ignorant. I didn't even know what the law of identity was until you mentioned it just now and I googled it.
I'm not sure why you can't convince yourself that it's valid, but I'm sure that's more to do with the fact that you're so smart, and thus
are thinking about it in a different way to me, and nothing at all to do with being stupid.

Believe me you know way more than I do about almost everything. Most of your posts in ED seem to contain knowledge about things I have no idea about. If I seem to know stuff at all it's probably because I tend not to participate in discussions about things I'm ignorant of. When's the last time I posted on something political? Never, literally.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

Get. Therapy. NOW.

I'm telling you, I recognize what you're going through, and you should seek professional help, get a psychiatrist or something before you get too down in the deep end. Are you taking any medication, like anti-depressants? They helped me. Just realize it's your brain chemistry that's off... it's not reality.

I'm taking no medication. I was on antidepressants among other things when I was a teenager, and had nothing but negative experiences with them. They seemed to make me worse. I really don't know about psychiatrists and people like that. Even if I knew it would help, it would be really difficult to do. I've never explained any emotional stuff to anyone irl without feeling extremely uncomfortable.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I'm taking no medication. I was on antidepressants among other things when I was a teenager, and had nothing but negative experiences with them. They seemed to make me worse. I really don't know about psychiatrists and people like that. Even if I knew it would help, it would be really difficult to do. I've never explained any emotional stuff to anyone irl without feeling extremely uncomfortable.

Well, I always hear about how dangerous it is for teens to be taking anti-depressants, and I'm glad I waited until I was fairly old enough to take them, so I'm not surprised you had a negative experience with them.

I was literally a mess before taking Lexapro, and now I'm pretty normal and healthy, and have been so for a while. Now I'm starting to hate those who are against taking any drugs for depression as much as my mom is (sorry tommo). It's unfair and ignorant to say that those suffering from moderate to severe depression/anxiety should have to fight it without drugs, because believe me, nothing besides drugs work. I've gone to therapists and attempted to have talking sessions, but that doesn't work. For everyone in my family (well, remaining immediate family), our suffering ended and we began to have productive, quality lives once we got prescriptions that were right for us. Don't you dare say that's a bad thing, and that we should go back to hardship and suffering simply because of some alternative quack mentalities. That's insane.