Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

What's a segmentation fault?

Also HUGS FOR EVERYONE!

Originally Posted by dave1701

Turkey Vulture? Dog? Raccoon?

Yea that is weird that only the head would be gone.

EDIT: BEGIN RANT

How can some people be so optimistic and happy all the time? I go to school and see all these people who look like they are having fun socializing and stuff. I'm sure they get mad but they just seem to never be in shy, depressed, highly intellectual modes like I get into almost every day. I need to snap out of this shit. It's pissing me off. I'm in a fog half my day. I have no social life. I have no real friends. I have things that I am supposed to do but all I end up doing is things like sitting on DV complaining about my inadequacies. There is a difference between being shy and what I am. I don't know how I got into this cycle of loneliness and solidarity in public, but it needs to stop. I hate it. Isn't that weird? I am a very solitary/boring person who seems to choose not to participate yet I need others more than I thought.

I know I can become an interesting, entertaining and fun person to talk to- I've done it before. I just can't seem to do it. I go out in public and talk to people and stuff and my brain just stops working. I come off as dumb and boring. I don't know if it is a confidence issue, whatever the hell you want to call it, it is really pissing me off these days. I feel like I would be better off just forcing myself to be outgoing and loud and shit- but that's not the person I am either. And this rant didn't clear up my mind either.... Maybe a good nights sleep will. I admire anyone who bothered reading this

Ugh, story of my life. I'm beginning to accept this, though.

MY CAT'S ALIVE DDWSD:GERGBQERBAERBERGBQERM!~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!
I saw him for like 1 second when I got home from work! DDD YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

My rant: So the other day I found myself in the shower with a beer in my hand, no joke. I never drink in the shower, sure I will indulge in the occasional glass of wine during a bubble bath, but a beer in the shower? What happened was that I had brought a beer and a fresh razor into the bathroom just prior to a shower. Instead of setting down the beer on the sink and taking the razor into the shower, I did the opposite.

I truly loled.

That's pretty wonderful.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Segmentation fault.

Fuck you.

Segmentation fault.

Due in an hour and 4 mins.

I start chugging the little wine I have left.

Could still get it done.

Could...

Segmen FUCKING TATION FAULT.

God....

Fucking C

I want to die.

I'm with Patrick, what's that? And I hope you got it done in time.

Originally Posted by tommo

MY CAT'S ALIVE DDWSD:GERGBQERBAERBERGBQERM!~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!
I saw him for like 1 second when I got home from work! DDD YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yay!

Ouch Dianeva. :/ Hope you got it done in time!

And a segfault is when there is an memory access violation. Not to get into detail or anything, it's when the computer tries to access memory that isn't there, or the memory is holding the wrong info, or the memory is corrupted.

A good beer is awesome! After a hectic day, I like drinking out of a frosty mug, kept in the freezer. It makes for a great beer experience. Despite a long history with various beers and forms of alcohol I really enjoy J.W. Dundee's Honey Brown. It goes good with just about everything, meal or not.

A good math tutor who understands math and likes it can teach you anything. I've always been really good at math, but when I had questions I turned to my math-ninja friend, who actually had a living room filled with math competition trophies. He GOT math, and since he had a good personality it was easy to learn from him.

For the relationships...looking for love from the beginning, especially without experience, rarely works out long-term. And when it comes to sex, a virgin's enthusiasm will only take you so far with some people. Dating and trying people out is great, and a good way to learn to understand the feelings involved in personal relationships. It's okay to look for someone who makes you feel good now, even if there isn't a chance to 'have offspring' with them because when you meet that right person it really takes a lot of growth and understanding and compromise to build something strong. Trust is hard, and it sometimes break down, and if you don't understand your own feelings very well a good relationship will end before it has a chance to become great. Look for love, but being honest with yourself about your own feelings and simply appreciating the good qualities of the "right-now" relationship can be worth loads with a future partner if the one you love/lust today turns out to be the most spiteful backstabbing bitch/asshole tomorrow. I wouldn't say any of this if I didn't already have kids and hadn't gone through all of this. I'm glad for my experiences, because I learned from them, and I don't lie to the people I care about, nor to myself. I've learned to accept my faults, stand up and take responsibility for my actions, and make amends to those I fail. I can owe all my good qualities to experience.

Tommo, I'm glad you saw your cat!

Austin is the Whole Foods HQ. I have a friend who works there and she brings great stuff up to the school sometimes. However, I prefer Central Market, mainly because I know many employees there by name and reputation, but partly because I took my son to Whole Foods one time and he said, "...it smells like fart in there." I love children for their blunt ideas sometimes. I know Whole Foods is great, and I might shop there, but it means crossing the river and heading in to a traffic nightmare. Central Market is easier.

Today's rant...it's too early to drink, I have to go shopping, and I need a shower. Damn, my life is easy.

What the hell??? Double post?

Rant, rant, rant!!!

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

It would seem that new bongs lead to drugs. Oh well, as long as there's still no anxiety I guess it's not that much of a problem. :T

Sometimes I think we (DV) are not good for each other... We always seem to be encouraging drinking and drugs... Seems like the kinda friends parents might have warned us about

Parents don't want us to do the things that they did...or still do.

Originally Posted by dave1701

How can some people be so optimistic and happy all the time? I go to school and see all these people who look like they are having fun socializing and stuff. I'm sure they get mad but they just seem to never be in shy, depressed, highly intellectual modes like I get into almost every day. I need to snap out of this shit. It's pissing me off. I'm in a fog half my day. I have no social life. I have no real friends. I have things that I am supposed to do but all I end up doing is things like sitting on DV complaining about my inadequacies. There is a difference between being shy and what I am. I don't know how I got into this cycle of loneliness and solidarity in public, but it needs to stop. I hate it. Isn't that weird? I am a very solitary/boring person who seems to choose not to participate yet I need others more than I thought.

I know I can become an interesting, entertaining and fun person to talk to- I've done it before. I just can't seem to do it. I go out in public and talk to people and stuff and my brain just stops working. I come off as dumb and boring. I don't know if it is a confidence issue, whatever the hell you want to call it, it is really pissing me off these days. I feel like I would be better off just forcing myself to be outgoing and loud and shit- but that's not the person I am either. And this rant didn't clear up my mind either.... Maybe a good nights sleep will. I admire anyone who bothered reading this

I totally get where you're coming from. I'm boggled as to why people can be so cheerful and outgoing all the time and I'm very quiet and tend to stay away from these groups of people. However, lately I've began to think that maybe it's just because my personality doesn't match them. People call me an "introvert", or shy, but I'm the total opposite if I'm around people I can associate myself with, and relate to. I'm totally convinced that extroversion and introversion are totally subjective, depending on who you're around. Unfortunately for me, a good 99% of my classmates don't share my interests and are into the stupidest hobbies and obsessions, this so my parents think I'm shy for not finding it easy to talk to people - I don't find their discussions stimulating or "smart" enough. I'll confess that I have a best friend, but that's the extent of it. It's just hard for me to make friends because I'm often thinking that the person I'm going to talk to won't be like me, so the conversation will be awkward. If they aren't like me, I won't know what the hell to say.

If you like doing something in particular or have a hobby, join a club or something and talk to people there. I've even been to a group where people all kind of have the same "I'm not shy, I just don't think like other people" type deal. That wasn't a psychiatric session or anything; it was actually a lot of fun because I could talk to people like an adult - something I can't do with virtually anyone at my school!

[Rant]: I really need to isolate people in my life and just study study study...with a few breaks, but study study study.

I realized that every class I go to (except for the lab with the stalker girl), I don't really remember them by the end of the day other than seeing them somewhere else. I've been having a laid back personality with college, just absorbing the surroundings around me and just limiting my scope to where I see just the professor/lecturer/TA talking to me. And I find that I'm developing a a pretentious interest in what I'm looking at, which is what I tried to do constantly (without sleeping).

Usually, this facade helps me do well because I go into my own world and memorize more things than I need, but with this Biology professor, I'm going to have to get really serious if I want to make 100s or 98s at least on the 3 other exams in order to get an 88 average, and when you take 75% of that, that's 66 points to the overall score, which means I need to get at least 20% out of the 25% lab that combined with the 75& of lecture exams.

I keep denying that I need to meet new people, but all this time, I've just been meeting random strangers and not really caring about their well-being, which means I should use that time to just turn into a textbook nerd, even though it breeds ignorance (because I'm indulging to old facts that are pretty much the rudiments of what scientists are going beyond the scope of that).

It really sucks that if you want to do well, you have to give up some life skills to get by...but oh well, might as well get a somewhat adequate education, get a career, pass my genes, and be done with life. bleeeeehhhhhhh

And what really annoys me when guys my age say "Disregard females, acquire currency," I wonder how far are they willing to live by that standard. Most of them can't even survive without hunting for vagina, and yet they still think they can become rich when they're worried about the conditions of their cars or whatever "swagger" they're trying to obtain. I mean come on, do you really think humping several women at once and establishing male dominance is going to get you anywhere in life?

Sure it'll be fun and full of experiments, but having several women in your hands isn't going to help you succeed in the interview to get into grad school or whatever company you're in.

The more I try to think outside of the world, the easier the mechanics that consistently result in success become easier for me to follow. College doesn't seem so hard, it's just whether or not you're willing to just literally go hardcore on objectives in certain departments of science and what not for at least 4 years of your life, even if it means wearing a black hoodie as if I'm in some kind of cult.
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For the relationships...looking for love from the beginning, especially without experience, rarely works out long-term. And when it comes to sex, a virgin's enthusiasm will only take you so far with some people. Dating and trying people out is great, and a good way to learn to understand the feelings involved in personal relationships. It's okay to look for someone who makes you feel good now, even if there isn't a chance to 'have offspring' with them because when you meet that right person it really takes a lot of growth and understanding and compromise to build something strong. Trust is hard, and it sometimes break down, and if you don't understand your own feelings very well a good relationship will end before it has a chance to become great. Look for love, but being honest with yourself about your own feelings and simply appreciating the good qualities of the "right-now" relationship can be worth loads with a future partner if the one you love/lust today turns out to be the most spiteful backstabbing bitch/asshole tomorrow. I wouldn't say any of this if I didn't already have kids and hadn't gone through all of this. I'm glad for my experiences, because I learned from them, and I don't lie to the people I care about, nor to myself. I've learned to accept my faults, stand up and take responsibility for my actions, and make amends to those I fail. I can owe all my good qualities to experience

Yes, you're right, relationships when we start out young and inexperienced aren't going to last long-term, they're usually just trials to see what you DON'T WANT in a person, which portrays what your preferences are. And we keep changing those values until we find a suitable partner that can consistently satisfy these traits.

If I can create a simulation that anticipates relationship possibilities based on cues picked up from mind going into the unconscious, I can create a pretty decent phenomenon that is pretty damn accurate in learning how to interact with others. I'm not an active lucid dreamer, in fact, I shouldn't even talk about creating relationships in dreams if I barely can get lucid, but still, if I could do this in my mind when I'm sleeping, when I'm the most vulnerable to various forces or experiences, why should we even try to experiment with others until we're competent to make a salary and a living?

(I'm just wondering about this from being in college, since if you play your cards right, you can get a shitload of experiences from it, but at the same time, it can destroy what you want, or at least create an illusion to what you want, and that just creates more regrets in the end)

I mean, if we're learning by essentially experimenting with other people, surely our mind already has a path dependence towards verifying how the next person might be based on whatever level of trust you've gained from them to give you access to their personal life. People are complex, and with our perception, it can usually suck, but if dreams can simulate more intense and subjective possibilities, what is the point in trying?

If you can go into your mind and find fulfillment by knowing all that you basically want, literally know what makes you, YOU, it seems kind of selfish nowadays to have a relationship if people usually just use them for their own benefit of who they want.

Which is why I'm always standing on a thin rope between using others (I shouldn't say use, but euphemistically saturating the word isn't going to work either) to know what I want and don't want, and also just ignoring the desire to fulfill what is necessary to continue experimenting.

Because from my mind, as long there's money and rudimentary assets to life met, you can go do whatever you want as a luxury. But this mentality of mind that is really is ignorant to a point is probably because I believe I can find a much more attractive partner if I have traits that attract them rather than settling for what's within my location that can be easy to go back and forth into

I'm probably not making sense though :s I'll just stop there and eat, I'm really freaking hungry...

AHHHHH I don't make any bloody SENSE in what I just typed just now....what the hell just happened?! ._____. I don't want to edit it either because I know my mind if going to stab me over with these thoughts...

Originally Posted by khh

Sometimes I think we (DV) are not good for each other... We always seem to be encouraging drinking and drugs... Seems like the kinda friends parents might have warned us about

I think I'd be a little more concerned if my dad wasn't borrowing my bong right now.

Originally Posted by melanieb

Parents don't want us to do the things that they did...or still do.

Probably because experience have shown them it's a bad idea

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I think I'd be a little more concerned if my dad wasn't borrowing my bong right now.

If it makes you feel better, I'm more concerned...

Originally Posted by khh

Sometimes I think we (DV) are not good for each other... We always seem to be encouraging drinking and drugs... Seems like the kinda friends parents might have warned us about

If people here literally try to incorporate temptations from other members, then I'm awfully worried about that person that's absorbing all of these negative ideals. I think by now, if you can't know what's good or bad for you, those DV users should just take advice and pressure with a grain of salt.

I think of this forum as going into the mental hospital (in a good way) because I can be as crazy as I want, because really, we're all nutjobs to some extent (in the eyes of a society that thinks dreaming is nothing but nonsense)

But that's just me.

Well I just realised my life is now similar to that of Vincents from the game 'Catherine'. Never really thought about it until me and a couple of friends were in a shop and the game was there and I said "It's funny because there's two Catherines one with a C and one with a K, it's a bit bias that the games name would be C." then my friend asked "Is she the petite one?". Then I suppose if someone was watching my life on tv or something the camera would zoom into my face because I made a realisation, my life is similar to that of Vincents. I have a group of close friends, we tend to go to the same place(s), and ever since just before this blonde girl came into my life my dreams have been different. The only difference is, the dreams started just over a year ago and as far as I know, I haven't been found dead in my bed. Also I'm single, unlike Vincent, plus I haven't had sexual intercourse with anyone recently, because I'm single, unlike Vincent, who is already in a relationship with Katherine and Cheats on her with Catherine. Oh yeah, I'm also not as old as Vincent.

Originally Posted by khh

Probably because experience have shown them it's a bad idea

If it makes you feel better, I'm more concerned...

I'm not trying to be rude or anything, but if you're trying to tell stoners that weed is bad for you, you're going to be met with a chorus of hysterical laughter.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I'm not trying to be rude or anything, but if you're trying to tell stoners that weed is bad for you, you're going to be met with a chorus of hysterical laughter.

Doesn't that in itself prove that weed is dangerous? Anything that have the capacity to so completely shut of rational thought is obviously something that should be respected. Not just love makes blind.

While I'm sure drug use can be recreational without negative consequences, it can also be destructive. One needs to be mindful of these things. For instance, when you try something and your first thought is "Damn this feels good! I've got to get more" then you should be very concerned (felt like an applicable example, as I recently experienced it).

However, I fail to see how that post could be interpreted as rude...

Originally Posted by khh

Doesn't that in itself prove that weed is dangerous? Anything that have the capacity to so completely shut of rational thought is obviously something that should be respected. Not just love makes blind.

While I'm sure drug use can be recreational without negative consequences, it can also be destructive. One needs to be mindful of these things. For instance, when you try something and your first thought is "Damn this feels good! I've got to get more" then you should be very concerned (felt like an applicable example, as I recently experienced it).

However, I fail to see how that post could be interpreted as rude...

Well, I warned you.

Here's the thing. No one's saying that drug use can't get out of hand. But that's not what I was responding to. Weed is not inherently dangerous, it will do you no actual physical harm and is not chemically addictive. The only reason you'd ever smoke weed every day is because you wanted to and you didn't care that you weren't doing anything about, not because you felt the need to or anything, and that makes it entirely your own fault. Tons of people still live perfectly normal lives and smoke weed during their free time. The laughter isn't because it "shuts off rational thought", it's because the thought that weed in itself is dangerous is completely irrational.

Actually, even "abusing" weed really doesn't do anything in the long run. Once you finally get over yourself and stop smoking it every day and being lazy, you can go right back to where you left off when you started.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Well, I warned you.

Here's the thing. No one's saying that drug use can't get out of hand. But that's not what I was responding to. Weed is not inherently dangerous, it will do you no actual physical harm and is not chemically addictive. The only reason you'd ever smoke weed every day is because you wanted to and you didn't care that you weren't doing anything about, not because you felt the need to or anything, and that makes it entirely your own fault. Tons of people still live perfectly normal lives and smoke weed during their free time. The laughter isn't because it "shuts off rational thought", it's because the thought that weed in itself is dangerous is completely irrational.

Weed is, as far as we know, not very physically damaging, that is correct. It is however both mildly chemically addictive (as in you'll go through a short withdrawal if you stop cold turkey) and can be very psychologically addicting. Since psychological dependency harder to break than physical, that still leaves it as dangerous. Also as an inherent property of it begin illegal, using and accepting it makes you more open to try other illegal drugs that might themselves be physically damaging.

Originally Posted by khh

Weed is, as far as we know, not very physically damaging, that is correct. It is however both mildly chemically addictive (as in you'll go through a short withdrawal if you stop cold turkey) and can be very psychologically addicting. Since psychological dependency harder to break than physical, that still leaves it as dangerous.

Trust me, I've gone through weed withdrawals. They're lighter than caffeine withdrawals. I've been pretty deep in the drug community before and I've never seen someone who honestly wanted to stop smoking weed who couldn't. And this "dependency" only amounts to being lazy all the time. You wouldn't degrade yourself to get weed, you wouldn't skip going to work because you have to get high, there's nothing truly addictive about weed. It's just fun. And like I said before, if you can't stop yourself from being lazy with it, it's no one's fault but your own. Weed will not prevent you from living your life.

Originally Posted by khh

Also as an inherent property of it begin illegal, using and accepting it makes you more open to try other illegal drugs that might themselves be physically damaging.

That has nothing to do with the drug and no one who uses it wants it to be that way. And that'll never change if no one tries to do anything about it.

My cat Sofie is being really attention whorey today. She does this thing where she stares at me for a loooooong time whole I'm doing stuff, then suddenly I hear a "ngrrrrrCOW".. which I guess means "Look at me". So I look at her and say "What." And we repeat this process many times.

What does she waaaaaaaaaaaaaaant

I never cried so much for an anime. I remember reading the manga of Naruto Shippuden when Minato and Kushina gave their lives to protect Naruto, and I was crying at the things they said before their death.

Now I watch the anime episode 248 249, it just made it more emotional. I never thought that an anime like that would make you cry...people always want action in an anime, and don't even bother to understand the story, the emotions, to experience all of these, and to relate them with their lives.

Those were good tears, but I feel weak now

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Trust me, I've gone through weed withdrawals. They're lighter than caffeine withdrawals. I've been pretty deep in the drug community before and I've never seen someone who honestly wanted to stop smoking weed who couldn't. And this "dependency" only amounts to being lazy all the time. You wouldn't degrade yourself to get weed, you wouldn't skip going to work because you have to get high, there's nothing truly addictive about weed. It's just fun. And like I said before, if you can't stop yourself from being lazy with it, it's no one's fault but your own. Weed will not prevent you from living your life. That has nothing to do with the drug and no one who uses it wants it to be that way. And that'll never change if no one tries to do anything about it.

medicalmarijuana.procon.org/view.answers.php?questionID=234 Here's an interesting site. Sorry, still can't post links.

Does the regular smoking of marijuana cause lung cancer or in any way permanently injure the lungs?

General Reference (not clearly pro or con)

Mark J. Pletcher, MD, MPH, Associate Professor, In Residence, in the Departments of Epidemiology, Biostatistics, and Medicine at the University of California at San Francisco, stated the following in a press release titled "Marijuana Shown to Be Less Damaging to Lungs Than Tobacco," available on ucsf.edu:

"We found exactly what we thought we would find in relation to tobacco exposure: a consistent loss of lung function with increasing exposure. We were, however, surprised that we found such a different pattern of association with marijuana exposure...

An important factor that helps explain the difference in effects from these two substances is the amount of each that is typically smoked. Tobacco users typically smoke ten to 20 cigarettes/day, and some smoke much more than that. Marijuana users, on average, smoke only two to three times a month, so the typical exposure to marijuana is much lower than for tobacco...

Our findings suggest that occasional use of marijuana for these or other purposes may not be associated with adverse consequences on pulmonary function. On the other hand, our findings do suggest an accelerated decline in pulmonary function with heavier use – either very frequent use or frequent use over many years – and a resulting need for caution and moderation when marijuana use is considered...

I was surprised at these findings. I thought we were going to find some small negative affect on pulmonary function from marijuana use. But we didn't. At the level of marijuana that most marijuana users smoke, we did not find any appreciable negative consequence on pulmonary function on marijuana use."

Jan. 11, 2012 - Mark J. Pletcher, MD, MPH
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The National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA) wrote in its webpage "Marijuana: Facts Parents Need to Know" on drugabuse.gov (accessed Oct. 18, 2011):

"Q. Does smoking marijuana cause lung cancer? A. We do not know yet. Studies have not found an increased risk of lung cancer in marijuana smokers, as compared with nonsmokers. However, marijuana smoke does irritate the lungs and increases the likelihood of other respiratory problems through exposure to carcinogens and other toxins. Repeated exposure to marijuana smoke can lead to daily cough and excess phlegm production, more frequent acute chest illnesses, and a greater risk of lung infections. Marijuana also affects the immune system, although the implications for cancer are unclear. Moreover, many people who smoke marijuana also smoke cigarettes, which do cause cancer, and quitting tobacco can be harder if the person uses marijuana as well.”


There's more on that site.

RANT: I hate not being able to find a big turkey at non-Thanksgiving/holiday times.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

Ouch Dianeva. :/ Hope you got it done in time!

And a segfault is when there is an memory access violation. Not to get into detail or anything, it's when the computer tries to access memory that isn't there, or the memory is holding the wrong info, or the memory is corrupted.

Thanks but I didn't get it done in time. But I still have to get it done to pass the course for 0 marks. The problem is I don't know C, I've never even tried to learn it before now. I was getting through it and dealing with the many seg faults that arose but that one I couldn't figure out. I probably should learn to use valgrind before trying again, and maybe read some tutorial on the differences between C and C++. If this needed to be written in C++ I'd have gotten it done 10 times over by now.

The only good news now is that I have a week off from school to catch up. Unfortunately I'm so behind I don't know if that's enough. Add my tendency to procrastinate and I'm probably doomed anyway.