Originally Posted by Peachie
Used Teddy Bear
I had my fair share of being used like a Teddy Bear in High School.
I remember in my AP Government class, people thought I was insanely smart with making these good grades on quizzes, and I even made like 105+ on one of the exams (which helped me A LOT in my overall average).
The only thing I did do was actually read the text that was required late at night, and just remembered it without really writing or typing anything down.
When they started to see that I made good grades, and because they're smart people as well, this means they don't have to study as much if they know I can give them some what was on the textbook.
They would always come in class not knowing what the hell is going to be on the quiz, and I told them a few pointers, and of course, they're happy that I helped them.
And you know what happens because that? I ended up doing horrible on the quiz, while they make A+'s on them! And beyond the class, they would just go back to their normal selves.
I was so pissed because I knew that if I didn't help them, they would think I'm a douche and move on to someone else, but I doubt anyone else would be more helpful than I did.
This kindness of mine continued almost every time we had a quiz, until I realized, "Fuck everything, Fuck these people, and fuck the world."
During lunch, they were completely different people, it's like I never even existed. And when I did talk to them outside of class, and most of the AP classes had more women, so I would try to have a small conversation while heading to my next class,
and....and...when I go up to them, they're freaking stuttering, like, you were obviously more sociable to me when you needed help in knowing what to know for the quiz, or even the EXAMS! But when I decide to have a small conversation with you, just for the hell of it, you can't even form words.
So I decided that if they're going to use me, and not at least show some interest in the conversations I tried to have with them, there's really no fucking point in helping you get better grades if you're going to abuse and use me as a resource rather than an actual human being.
The reason I was nice was that I felt that I had to sustain this invisible assumption that I was insanely smart in that class, when I was just extremely lucky at the time.
I even told my AP Government teacher about this, and he laughed because he knew they were using me. And I told him one girl who was using me as well, until I realized she was using me because she liked me and wanted to go get closer with me.
Just wait until college Peachie, when you find a dorm room, hopefully you'll find a good friend there, and have a better friendship than these people who are ignoring you.
They just think they're big shots now for ignoring, but when the friends they're hanging out with are gone, and they're exposed for looking like idiots, they're going to go back to you, and you clearly don't deserve that if they're just going to use you until they find someone else.
I felt used a lot in High School, and the AP Government class was just one example, I find myself to be the GPA slut towards the other smart people, because I gave them advice that made them do extremely well, when I should've let those fuckers fail so that I could hopefully steal their academic rankings.
Peachie, I feel your pain.
They're just being big shots to your because they feel they have better friends, and when those people are out of their lives, they'll realize that they're assholes in not trying to respect you for trying to make a decent conversation.
Some people are assholes. I think college is something to look forward to, since you'll actually find intelligent people who actually want to do something with their lives. It my be rough during your Freshmen year, because it is for me, but you'll find good friends.
And when you do find those few and trusting people that care about your well-being, those assholes who treated you wrong will be nothing to you anymore.
It may not be apparent now, but you'll understand later on.
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