That was quite a post, Djaxup; thanks for sharing!
Though it does seem that some of what you describe as DILD's may have been DILD's, meaning that you may indeed have lost your waking-life consciousness for a bit, and then woke up in a dream; but be assured that these are not "just" DILD's, they are LD's, and every bit as valid as if you had gotten there through WILD... it doesn't matter how you get to your dream, just that you do!
Now:
Originally Posted by Djaxup
- After a long while trying to WILD on my back I turn to my left side, and then after another long while - I'd guess a solid hour all in all - I turn to my right side and after a short time I feel the strong sensation of a vortex like force pulling me into the bed and loud, thundering wind noises. And I hear my breathing very loud over it with my mantra playing in the back of my head all the while. Then, and thats the point now, I saw a guy next to my bed with a digital clock in his hands, that clock leading to me becoming lucid, surge of joy, hard time to stand up, roll out of my bed... BUT I did not really see images, see a dream form or anything like this. Vivid short dream scenes galore before the vortex stuff happened, but that's it. So because of this, and because I needed the digital clock RC to get lucid, I assume this was really just a DILD?
Actually, this was probably a WILD, or at least an attempt at one (I can't tell if you ever made it to a dream). That guy with the clock (clever imagery, BTW!) was likely just HI or a dreamlet, but it certainly was a nicely directed bit of imagery... sort of like you created a DC -- or would that be HIC? -- to help you hold your attention through the torrent of noise, and to a degree it worked. If you see the guy with the clock again, you should thank him -- but be sure to do so only after you read his clock twice and confirm your lucidity!
Oh, and here's a funny thing about RC's in dreams: important as they may be, I have a feeling they are rarely, if ever, used to get you lucid. This is because you are likely already lucid before you perform an RC, simply because the you held the suspicion that you were dreaming. I also think that most RC's done when not lucid result in conclusions that your dream is not a dream -- your dreaming mind just repeated for your what happens in waking life. So yeah, the guy with the clock might have been put there unconsciously, but you consciously recognized him for what he was -- an RC-delivery system -- and acted accordingly. The image didn't make you lucid; you already were, if only slightly.
This dream was the most physical so far, it felt so real and yet so completely otherworldly. I had the impression that I left my body with force, it was a tremendous act of will and strenght to get up, like my body was pulling be back all the time.
Next time this happens, and it will, you might pause for a moment to remind yourself that dreams are by their nature not physical. If it takes a tremendous effort to get up, it is because you believe it is taking a tremendous effort. Relax your mind, remember that your this thing you are attempting to elevate is not your actual body, and then try again, fully aware that this time you will get up just fine.
And if you still can't get up? Well, then do something else! There is no requirement that you must do that roll-out-of-bed thing; if you cannot shake the "realness" of your situation, then create another one. Close your eyes and imagine yourself somewhere else (perhaps in your intended dreamscape).
In other words, try to remember that there is no body trying to pull you back down, and in dreams the only strength that exists is in your mind, and not your DC body.
- some nights after this I had another LD while WILDing, but this time I am certain that I just napped away while trying to stay awake and thankfully a DILD happened. I noticed a not working light switch, was directly lucid, stabilized etc. Nice dream. But this time it felt "semi lucid" from the start. Like I was only waiting for a clue like the switch to happen and work.
- the next night was the same basically, I can barely remember trying to WILD (I did actually) before the dream happened. I was again very suspicious and aware when the dream started, and because of minor clues I do a nose pinch RC and gain lucidity. Thats not even correct I guess. It felt like being lucid before, and the RC just confirming the feeling I had from the very start. Another memorable LD commences.
- the last one as of now had me waking up in bed lucid already. I knew I was dreaming from the start of it, confirmed with a light switch, but totally casually. It was just a nice to know thing.
That I think echoes what I said about RC's earlier; that you are likely already aware you are dreaming before you use them to confirm what you already know.... Nothing wrong with that, of course; just sayin'.
So do I guess correctly that all of those LD were DILD, with my WILD attempt putting me in the correct mood?
They may have been DILD's, though it does seem like your awareness was staying with you to some degree, so they may have been WILD's too. Some answer, huh? I guess the real answer is this: Does it really matter? WILD or DILD, you made it to lucidity, and that's the goal regardless of the path.
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