side notes

I should do more, I guess - but here one dream, I really liked a lot:

I grew up (mostly) in a village at a lake in the Alps.
It is one of my most persistent dream-signs - the whole setting - esp. our old house - but I didn't realize, I was dreaming there again.
So anyway - I wanted to go swimming - but at the lake were tourists everywhere and the water was less than crystal clear and I was disappointed.
But then somebody told me, there would be a lake prior to the big one - directly in the mountains - close to the wells.
There are such small lakes - but the one I dreamt doesn't exist.
Soo beautiful - surrounded by a bit of meadow, which was a clearing in a beautiful forest - and I went swimming and it was really joyful - a great dream.
Swimming I also often do in dreams - and not irl lately - should go to a public swimming pool maybe - I need a bit of workout - always liked swimming.

There is another motive, which keeps returning - me searching a (new) place to live. This was just for staying close there.
So I looked around and found a rock with a hollowness - it was rather small for a house-rock - maybe 4 meters high and as broad - free standing.
With a cleft to crawl through - but inside was a cosy room, which I decorated a bit and put in my mattress and there I had my secret vacation-home in the rock.
I even had a fire-place and there was a hole to the upside of the rock for the smoke to evade through.

Bit later - other people arrived - I kept my rock secret - but the people were nice - and it was clear to me then, that the ones finding that lake were somehow special, interesting people - so I went swimming and talked with some of them - they called it the Ring-Lake - and I wrongly dream-remembered*, that that was indeed the name (I know a part of the original lake, which is called so - but it is just a natural bay irl).

Later a friend of mine showed up and took me with her to a "lake-party" at the big lake - these do also exist and take place every summer.
We got ourselves beer - and I got x-mas cookies (I love them - best sweets in the world if home-baked - esp. the ones my mother in law bakes) but I didn't find/get at my money in my back-pack - so she paid.
Next motive - me searching my - often a lot of - luggage for something and getting frustrated.
Then we watched a theatre-show for children - on very small stools and almost the only audience. The piece had a witch, who looked like these over-enthused esoteric around 50 years old women, I met a lot of through my mother - we deemed her un-impressive and went on.
Then there sat a former boyfriend of mine - and I wanted to talk to him - but he seemingly not with me.
And I also had problems speaking - but tried hard - and woke up from that.
Very unfortunate - because I was starting to suspect something, when I couldn't speak properly - dream time was through then I guess.


Fazit: Incubate your friggin' dream-signs!! And don't just tell yourself - if I see - then I dream - just posted a failure stemming from such under facepalm - but rather mantra myself into doing RCs, if I see/experience xyz.

This dream had almost an overload of dream-signs:

Geographical setting around lake I grew up close to
Looking and finding a place to move in for living
Swimming
Searching luggage and getting frustrated
Ex-boyfriend
Not being able to speak

Six of them in one dream - and I stayed happily non-lucid.

Made a mistake with my alarms - the app needs to be open, for them to go off - I noted, it was not - but my dictation-thing, when I woke up naturally quite late.
Was awake for the next one still then - and the one after that woke me up - and I tried it out as a micro-WBTB with mantra - in the end I fell asleep to a non-lucid.

Buuut: before that was a short phase of - very short - disappeared once I got a bit excited about it - HH!!
And pretty strong ones - bit of vibration and a strong feeling of weightlessness - but at the same time movement - swerving about - even falling.
That was the second time of my life, I had strong bodily HH - any HH, actually - first one was after a longer WBTB and 2 min. of just looking at the back of my eyelids on a WILD try - on my second ever WILD try!!

And such I made a lot of tries the last two months up to half an hour - never again with HH or success in WILD (but quite often with a following DILD).
I guess, I need them some more times, before I can avoid getting so positively excited about it..
This is progress towards WILD, though - and makes me very happy indeed!

It was not on my back but in my usual position on my stomach and turned to the right.
Will copy this over to my workbooks and in the alarm thread also.






*that's a phenomenon, I am interested in..

I get sloppy journalling here - but I do a day-journal at the moment - at least started out.
Edit 01.27.14: Well, well, well - I caught around 4 days since that - I can do better! I hope I will!!

Anyway - on Saturday I met a very nice and interesting woman (intellectually interesting - like common interests..) and a hopefully mutual feeling of understanding what the other wants to say.

Last night I dreamt of meeting her and taking up a discourse, we had started, once more and to mutual learning-effects.
I will not get into what it is we could teach each other - but I am pretty sure, it is a good idea to sit together and do this - with a glass of wine and so on - and I think, I am inspired by this dream to put something like it up in real life.

First dream:

Initially - I watched a match of some sort of water-ball with clubs match in a swimming pool - later though - there was supposedly an accident caused by too many people wanting to watch this very match.
Several cars into each other and some 5 people injured.
Ambulances and everything - but in the end - the people were put in regular hospital beds, and rolled over the street to a hospital - where they had to wait in line - and I was watching over them.
One old woman laughed and took out a cigarette and said, how lucky for her and how happy she was to be able to smoke her cigarette like that.
Bit later a physician came - criticized me for not noticing, that they were not hurt (any more..).
But offered me a job, which I declined after the advice from a young female physician coming out to smoke a ciggy too.

(side note: I stopped smoking - I use a vaporizer to apply my nicotine these days - quitting is not easy, don't I know it - but this switch is very easy and no lung cancer etc.. look it up, fellow nicotiners!! Do your health something really good - and the purse, too!)


Second dream:

I was on a holiday - but not so happy with the destination - I remember to later have remembered in the dream a real holiday with a friend of mine from university-times in America - and somehow our driving around so much - from Chicago to Canada per car for example, and camping - was very appealing to me back then in the dream.
I was with a group of people - and first it was sort of a hiking action, very strenuous - and I had to make them wait, so I could go back and fetch warmer clothes - and some searching through things for ages to find something - I seem to really love to dream of searching things..
Maybe that even tipped me off in some way - searching for my group - I suddenly had a lucid moment - RCed - but then found it stupidly, stupidly more important to find them - which I did but lost lucidity on the way..
Later we arrived at night at a cheap-looking tourist market, where tons of knick-knacks were loudly praised and almost pressed on us - to then arrive at a hut with only mattresses on the floor and no electricity. I think, we went to sleep - no FA on offer unfortunately, though - none that I caught at least.


Intro WBTB and hints at third dream:

Since I had this short lucid moment before - I later did a WBTB-try - wanting a WILD.
Partly I could hit myself - partly I really enjoyed it - I got into sexual fantasizing, while still awake - and fell asleep obviously going on with the topic and having a truly amazing dream from it - but I fuu-- ing missed the transition. Or lets say I didn´t care about the transition.
Maybe the closest I came to a WILD...
But definitively the most interesting satisfying and varied dream of this sort I can remember in general.
I suppose the WBTB and stuff brought me this effect - I won´t go into details - but it was a long one - and I sort of had half-lucid clear intentions - to sample as many different partners (all male this time) and "try them out" as were available (lost count..) - and myself. Not ashamed here - but I definitively leave it at what I wrote already.


Fourth dream:

A packet arrived with the post, with a present from a friend of mine in America.
At first - it looked like darts-parts - and lots of them.
I tried to make sense of it - but couldn't.

Then somebody explained to me, what one can do with it.
The main parts were only sticks in etwa the shape and size of knitting needles, metal - and there were tons of small parts - little junctions and rings and stuff from plastic.
It was a super-light-weight construction set for heavy duty climbing use.
With some guys - we constructed it together and they led it up spiralling around a huge, huge tree (small skyscraper-huge).
And the proof how amazing it was, came by a demonstration with leading up animals - there were sheep and dogs and a cow and two zebras and others - they were walking up the construction - some to the very top of the tree.
Sometimes I would like to make optical dream-snapshots - this would be the chief vista of last night for this purpose..
The end conclusion was - this is a perfect tool for breaking into something and causing mischief - or if you had lost your key and wanted to climb into your four-story flat.
And all fit into a handbag when disconnected.

I went to bed late - woke up only 2 h later - and had no recall - didn´t try very hard.
Seven hours after falling asleep - I did my WBTB.
Reading through my workbooks - I found out, that the successful tries were all rather late - misleading, that I had put alarms earlier - but did the actual attempts later.
Good that I kept book with this.

I remember two dreams from before, one older fragment - and the dream, that made me lucid.
Again I had given up on WILD - with RC this time - not a FA - rolled over and fell asleep.

That dream was again situated at my old school - but I was grown up - like my friends - and we were organizing an exhibition of what we were doing now - it later changed into mainly an art/handicraft/invention show.
I was going outside on the school yard - and noticed, that I was naked - two attractive young beaus close - after a short shame reaction and flight reflex - I suddenly realized that noo way I would be naked there!!

Copy-Paste from TOTM:

Originally Posted by StephL

Soo happy - 7 days nothing - and now I even managed a task!
Also the "harder" basic one.



Bit weird - I had be-mantra-ed and visualized and so on - my most frequent dream-signs in the day - and also put intent on all but that task.
What made me lucid, was ironically one of my dream-signs, which I hadn´t worked on: being naked in public.
I thought - noo way would I be naked here - bam!

Was obvious - needed no RCing - buut: I did the hand-looking again - and first I thought - wow - they are perfect from the get-go - no need for staring them sharp - but when I counted fingers - I had one more on the right hand!
Now I´m not sure, if it was because I expected it or not - but it was an interesting sight.

And then - an attractive guy, who was standing there with a friend - came up to me - hugged me, lifted me and started swirling me around.
That´s when I closed my eyes - spontaneously - and remembered the task - and kept them closed and counted.
All the while being hugged and swirled, which felt wonderful.
And when I opened them - he put me down - and there was still the dream - so I guess it counts - even if I woke up maybe only some seconds afterwards..?
This eye-closing can be great, if you have something to feel!!


Soo happy, it started working again!!

Earlier Dream 1:

Again a journey with a bus (not that I would have ever done a lot of these - in school/in my youth latest).
Me and a group of maybe ten more people were staying at hotel, which was almost empty - and had for some reason two staircases next to each other - some weird spatial relations - can´t really it picture any more - only a bit.
We had been staying there - but in far apart rooms - and most of these rooms didn´t even have furniture besides a mattress and some junk - but there was a breakfast room, where we met up - all a bit over plush and baroque-style there - lots of velvet and diamond-knurling (looked it up..).
When the bus was about to depart - I had to use the toilet super-urgently - and hunted through this building for a facility. Finally decided on an unorthodox one - and got caught of course.
But I managed to keep her from telling somebody else and making stress.
Then of course - the bus was gone - but I found it after some back and forth around the corner.
And we departed - home actually it was to.

Earlier Dream 2:

I had to lead a discussion and brainstorming group - and nobody wanted to contribute - and it was not on me, to do it myself.
So I thought, how I could lure them out.
I tried to plant some ideas, but making them think, they would be theirs - and be in the mood to follow them.
This worked quite nicely - until one woman stood up and kicked up a general fuss - accusing me of this - and making it sound as if I would brain-wash people.
But then she got going, and came up with tons of ideas of the sort, that was useful.
The others only looked on - and me and her ended up in agreement.
So sad, I forgot, what it was about.

Earlier Fragment:

Doing removals again - this time not from free choice and after my will - but I had to.
Needing to find a new job.
It was stress and I felt, it was my fault how it came to pass.