Turquoise Dreams

01.15.16

Yesterday work 6pm-11pm. Stayed up till 4 am today. Slept till 11:30 am.

Read the TOTMs thread and decided to do the Read the book title, meet someone from IRC and change gravity for a DC.

900mgs of my new alpha-GPC at 12:30.

Went to sofa at 1:34, woke up from a 40 min long event at 3:18.

In less than 10 min I was already feeling it. Body relaxing, getting light, even with my cat sleeping on my legs.

Then I realized I forgot to pull my hood on my eyes so I can see the HH better. I did that even though I could barely feel my body anymore, but I told myself that it will not ruin anything.

I was very close to a lucid, when a dog int the neighborhood started to cry and I'm like oh no, coyotes. I thought my attempt is over, coz that got me out of the mood.

I thought I'll stay for 2 more min. I realized I'm typing something and that I'm dreaming.

LDs

40 min long event with 2-3 distinct entries. Rest of it was "i'm dreaming" "oh it ended" "no wait I'm still here" "it ended" "nope still here"...

In one of them I started to move my dream arms in front of my face to see if I am dreaming. They covered my face and it was dark. Then I noticed a sliver of light between my fingers, so I put my hands down and it was a sunny day.

I walked to the window to jump out but I remembered I wanted to see my room to compare if it's the same. The shape and size was the same, but furniture was different. I got to the window again, when I decided I didn't compare enough so I went back and said, yup, still not the same. Then left through the window.

I'm sitting on a floor of some room. Looks like a nursery. There is bunch of books around me. I pick up one and it's a small choldrens book with all hard pages. Nice green cover and it's about animals.

I pick up another one, it's an atlas. I got excited and started paging through it. I thought what if I pick a place and teleport there. I'm looking at map of afrika and thinking NOPE. I look for north america, I know it's at the beginning. I think New York would be nice to visit. I find the east coast, but Los angeles is in it's place. Dangit. I put it down.

Then I remember the TOTM. I pick up the atlas again and start reading the cover. As I do it, the letters flip and now I see the back side and it's also upside down. So there is the barcode, and ISBN# and bunch of tiny numbers. I turn it around and it's the back side again. I laugh. The page turned upside down like on a tablet when you turn it sideways.

I pick up a childrens book and it's about animals. I pick the next and the next, all about animals.

Then I see some book titles, not sure on what. I read like 10 of them. I think I better write them down. I reach for an empty envelope and pen that I prepared. I know i prepared it for real in WL too. But I know this is a dream and the envelope is not the same one. So after I write them down, I keep repeating 2 titles so I remember them. One I forgot, the onter one was "6 doctors laughing".

Now I'm in a room, laying on a floor. I hear some commotion from the other room and there is a guy with a suitcase comeing by my room to the front door. He stops and asks me what the hell I'm doing there. I say I love there, even though I know I'm just visiting. And I know he doesn't live there either.

He walks up to me and starts touching me all over. Then there is another duud and another chick. Fun goes on for good 10 min.

In one transition I wanted to take it further so not sure how, but I got some really strong vibrations, strongest in over a year and a half.

This was on my day (night) off, Saturday 11/14/15.

Woke up in the morning after full night sleep. Atayed up for an hour or so, took one of my last 2 galantaminds and 3 Alpha GPCs. Watched some TV for 15 min, then wanted to give me enough time to fall asleep before GM kicks in in about an hour after taking.

Fell asleep, then woke up and felt my familiar Head rush. The back top of my head feels ice cold and sensation of water rushing through the water hose.

I knew I was awake, but I say what the heck, I'm gonna just stand up and walk away anyway. I did that then counted my fingers and I was lucid.

I was in some kind of a urban canyon. Between tall buildings and carts full of boxes, just like those in my work. : ( I grabbed a red two-wheeler mid flight and started flying with it higher and higher, over the boxes on the next cart and next one. I was happy to be flying. but srs, c'mooon. Work, boxes, two-wheelers... work... work...work : ((( More like a nightmare. Doing it 6 days a week for real and then have a lucid doing it on a night off. Pathetic. And I did this few times, maybe 3-4 times.

I appreciate the lucids and all. But...

7.8.15

Still on night shifts. Day off.

Slept from around 2-3 pm, then again later. 2 WBTBs, one around 10 pm and second at 2 am. Both times started out on the sofa. Second WBTB lead to a WILD and DEILDs.

I started feeling vibrations and reminded myself to open my dream eyes, like what opheliablue does. Was also trying to "fall backwards" and roll out. Soon after I felt the falling backwards and I realized I'm already in a dream. I saw only from the center of my vision, the rest of it was blacked out. But I got up from the sofa.

I was in a house with family. I chose not to interract with them but headed for the door. I opened it and again a door to the outside.

It faded and I realized I'm still dreaming so got up again and headed outside. Don't remember much else, because slept another hour after that before getting up.

Non-lucid before these - I'm on a racing bicycle riding on a snowy road. I have someone on the back of the bike. The snow is covering the whole road and it's all around. It's getting deeper and harder to pedal. We are out in the country, no cars. Now I see 4 cars in the distance coming closer. I hope we can get to the side of the road enough so they don't hit us. First car pulls to his side too much and sideswipes the railing.

10/4/14

Last night bed around 9 coz soming down with something.

Woken up at 3am, spent 30 min on comp, then bed. Woke up at 5:30 from LDs.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD, but proly DILD. Next thing I know, I'm walking down the street, happy as can be and singing and old song, one of my favorites. I realize I can sing nice and loud so I start really singing from top of my lungs. It feels GREAT. I have the lyrics right and I carry a tune.

The dream fades, I see my hands and I realize I'm still dreaming, because a thought crosses my mind that I always am. No transition.

I'm ourside, between 2 buildings. I want to fly up, but there are boards like a scaffolding. I'm pushing them aside and telling myself its easy.

I'm on the street again I think and I manage half of the same song, again happy as fuq, before dream fades.

Not sure if still lucid here or not, proly kinda aware but not lucid. So I go look for OpheliaBlue which I know she is in that corridor. I find her and I'm all excited telling her that I just had a DILD and a DEILD.

Woke up ecstatic.

Why can I sing in dreams but not IWL?

6/2/13

Last night bed 11:30 - 5:50am 5:50 -7:30 WBTB

DR 5:50am

I'm at some compound. Single story building. At night, I observe a dog sticking his head out of the open door and just looking around. Another dog doing something similar. I'm thinking "so this is what dogs do at night".

I'm going inside a glass building to rescue a stolen grey dog. A woman in elevated sentry area is doing something and I fight with her. I get in and I do something with the electronic lock on the door to get out. (watching something about disabled grey dog IWL).

Lucid nap 7:30 - 9:40am

Chain of (7) DEILDs. Woke up, bud didn't get up to write them down. Just replayed them in my mind. Didn't really wake up between them too much. All entries were by me pushing head back. One was by me falling backwards in a dream, because I just remembered matte87 used to say he enters by falling backwards.

1. I'm driving
2. walking through apartment with bright furniture. A woman in a hood with a lightbulb for a face looks at me. I'm thinking an alien.
3. Cat has flees. It has to be groomed and it goes in a cat house.

Reg DR after 9:40 Long dream about class reunion. I'm wearing long white shirt with a belt. Lots of classmates, we are talking.

Thursday 5/2/13

last night bed 12am - 7:30am

DR: Lots of dreams in the morning. Didn't get up to write them down, just replayed with words. All I remember is that there was an Earth Invasion with some bots. (Watched the Iron man yesterday, scene where huge robots are shooting at crowds)

Nap 8am - 10:15am
So happy, because 15 min after I woke up, cleaners came to neighbors apartment to clean the carpet.

WILD+2 DEILDs

As soon as I felt it, I pushed my head back and got some intense falling sensation that ended in LD. I did this twice. One entry - as I'm laying, I think about looking at my hands, so I raise my dream hands and they are so cool. Black swirling, shiny fog. Then I decide I can get up now.

I pet one of my cats, it was MM. I could tell from the way she looked - just like in WL, and her coat felt exactly the same. I was gonna take it easy and stabilize by looking at the wall in my brothers bedroom. As I'm zooming in on details, I start floating backwards to the window, but I stop it, because want to look at the wall some more.

They were short, just 20 sec each.

Saturday 4/20/13

last night bed 1:30am - 8am

Had a few dreams about being chased by police. There ia about 4 of us. We are trying to escape from a house, where we did some bad things. We are going up and down the ladder. Then outside, it's late evening, dark. I'm crouching and walking to a corner to hide in a dark shaddow. As we go by a window, I hear a dog from inside of the house. A little puppy comes to where I'm hiding, but doesn't start barking. Police are walking nearby, looking for us. (Was watching manhunt for the Boston marathon bomber all day yesterday IWL)

This wasn't a fun chase dream I normally get. There was something sinister about me. I did something bad.

NAP: around 8:45am -12pm

Started getting vibrations while on back, got up to turn of sound on laptop and layed down on left side.

WILD: Suddenly I'm looking at my laptop screen and I see there is a new registered member. I can read everything very well. I think, that this is a great time to prove that I was seeing through my closed eyelids. So I wanna open my eyes and look at the screen to prove, that what I saw was real in WL. But I can't open my eyes. I realize, I'm sleeping and dreaming. I think to myself, well, if I'm dreaming, I may as well get up, because then I'm lucid. (IWL, I have been watching new registrations pretty closely. If you reading this venn99, it's becasue of you. Thank you for getting me lucid)

I get out of the window and start walking through the backyard in my parents house. There is a toll column made out of concrete bricks with two openings. I keep telling myself "I'm dreaming" and I'm confident I can keep my awareness, but I lose it suddenly.

LD1: Probably a DEILD. I get a headrush and hear someone dusting bedsheets few feet away, which turns into a chain saw soound right next to my head. I keep telling myself "I'm not scared, no matter what you do". And I really am not scared. Again, I'm getting out some window, this time it has consistency of liquid glass, but I still get out. I jump out of the kitchen balcony on first floor. As I'm falling fastand enjoing this awesome roller coaster feeling in my stomach, I'm determined to hit the ground and see what happens. But just before I hit, I get the smallest thought not to, although I still want to, but I switch direction and few inches above ground start flying paralel to the ground.

LD2: Not sure what type of LD this was. Wow, I even forgot, what it was about. I didn't get up after, just replayed it im my mind with words and went back to sleep hoping for moar. Oh, I just remembered. I was trying to summon Linkzelda. But someone else walked in through the door at fast pace.

Monday 3/18/13 bed around 1am -7am. Nap 10:45am-11:30am

Holy smokes, this was a good one. About 30 min of chaining. First WILD, rest a mix of WILDs a DEILDs + 1 lonely FA.

I was really torn between getting up and writing it down and between continuing, and that got reflected in FA in which I got up and wrote stuf up, only to ralize 5 min later in next DEILD that I didn't do it.

The entries were absolutely amazing. More energy oriented then ever before. Othere times I used to get up with my getting up or rolling out.

My mantra was "slow down, look around".

List is not in order of it happening.

Sensations:

1. Vibrations, which i managed to make stronger by thinking "energy, energy". Boy, did they ever got stronger. Incredible massage. All I could think of was how can anybody not like vibrations.

2. At least 4 times I got out by rocking my body lengthwise, from feet to head. Incredible real feeling. Once I continued the motion and started floating out like from my head. Once I got out by falling backward head first.

3. One exit when I realized I can feel the papers on the desk I was WILDing at (not there in WL) so I started touching papers and desk and saw my arms and got up.

4. One exit - I kneeled on some stairs (like for older pets to be able to hop on bed) and tilted my head forward and down to get the falling feeling.


LDs:

1. I'm walking through one story house in tropical spanish style. (watching too much House Hunters international IWL). Lots of big, bright rooms. Come to the patio with huge flower pot with big leaf plant (like a banana tree) in shape of a casket. I'm about to freak out but I don't alow myself to do that. Instead I think "no, that's not it, just a flower pot".

2. I'm sitting with mom and I'm writing something. She doesn't like that so I ask her if I should rather carve it into my arm. She likes that even less. I pick a ballpoint pen and "carve" write 4 - 4inch letters on my left inside forarm. The ink is not sticking everywhere. Mom comes back with a first aid kit.

3. In one of them I remembered the "slow down, look around" mantra and actually looked around 360 degrees around me. I usually never look around, just move forward.

Added 4. On two occasion, I was blind and thought about wiping my eyes clean, but then decided to do it the easy way and take off my sunglasses instead. I think this happened after exit by falling sensation, not by getting up. If that's so, that's great, because I don't remember having success with this type of entry before.

Added 5. On one occasion I counted my fingers. Left hand had more than 5 fingers, and they looked dirty.

On both occasions it got brighter. In one LD I started to see a wall infront of me. It was grey and textured. I normally don't like going to places I don't where I'm going, but said to myself to stop being a chicken and something nice will be there.

So I went through the wall pushing it away with botm my hands, as you would push away spiderwebs in your way.

Man, I hope I remember more. I'm so stoked. They were all short, most of the time just a few seconds, but I had such a good time.

So after almost all this, I thought it's over, so I changed position but got vibrations again and was thrilled about it. Then I said I need to get up now if I want to remember any of this but got weak vibes again.

Sunday 3/3/13 Bed on 3/2/13 sat 12:20am - 9am

Nap - 11:50 - woke up at 3:20pm

I started feeling body relaxing almost immediatelly and I wondered if it's because it knows I want to WILD. Waves of vibrations start washing over me, I count at least 4 or 5. At the second one, I wonder if I should just get up already, but I know it's too soon.

I get my first head-buzz when I think I have had enough. My leg is crooked begause cat is sleeping at my feet. So I turn to my left side and try again.

I got a WILD and at least 7 DEILDs, but I don't remember them all. Whole thing lasted for at least 30 min. Was not rushed through them as last time. I remember thinking in one LD wow, this is so long, I know I'm not gonna wake up. I hade this strange calmness and confidence.

Each transition was extremely mild. All I did each time was I realized that I'm still sleeping so I rocked my head (dream head) back and forth to start some dizzy motion thing and that usually get's me lucid.

Only at one transition I saw a large insect on my wall and as I was rocking back and forth, more and more spider webs appeared on the wall. I thought about just getting up then, since I knew I'm dreaming. But I got some nice falling down sensation and went with that.

Dont' recall all DEILDs.

1. WILD - I'm flying towards some futuristic city with skyscrapers on background of stormy clouds and sunny skies. On the way there I stop to investigate a beautifull sport arena. I say "take me there" while looking at the wall and I get zoomed in fast. I figure I better remember this new mode of transportation.

Can't tell if its football or baseball, so I'm making my way to the top to see the field. I'm desperate to see the sign on top to know what city I'm in. I thing it says Brewers.

2. DEILD. I'm walking in the back yard of RD10. I feel awareness slipping so I keep yelling something, but it keeps slipping. I realize, it slips anyway, and as i do, I get snapped back to it. This happens a few times.

In the very back, by the fence, there is a small patch of tropical sea of size of maybe 2 bathtubs. Incredible beautiful blue see-through water and white sand. I pick it up and let it run through my fingers.

3. DEILD Same backyard as in #2, only the whole backyard is tropical sea. Lots of white sand, sun, warm, shallow, blue water.

4. DEILD I'm standing on a shore line. Small waves are splashing over concrete shore. I look almost straight up and tovering over me are huge waves. I smile and say "take me there". After my first mouthfull of water I realize I should have said "take me over the wave". I'm bobbing on top of the tsunami waves, while collecting some kids taken out to sea by these huge waves. I pick a girl and a boy and maybe their mom.

I'm walking through the hotel and I get nasty looks from some people. I learn that I am in bikiny and I'm a young girl that she is obviously hated in this hotel. I think to myself damn, why did I have to transform into this girl for?

I make my way through corridors, looking out the small windows, trying to see which way I should get out. I come to a balcony. Beneath me is a tropical sea with beach. Incredible georgeous blue water, not see through, more milky, like some places in Hawaii. Only blue.

I jup in next to something I think is a school of fish. But it's a lobster and sea turtle. I say "turtle details" a few times. Turtle turns to me and asks "what do you mean turtle details?". I say I would like to see more details on him. It looks like whoever built him, didn't finish him, because skin and shell was missing in some places. But the green color was spot on. I feel the warmth of the ocean and atmosphere of a resort.

I lift myself out of the water to look beyond the sea wall. There is the angry ocean with tsunami waves. Ok, I decide to stay in my small peacefull sea and go explore the sandbars of blindingly white sand.

5. DEILD I'm with somone and someone says "invite her to?"

6. DEILD Here I"m at the house I was invited to in #5. A girl I used to know as a child now has children of her own. The little girl running around is not my friend, but her granddaughter. A doctor comes to give here a shot and while I watch, I start rocking to induce LD. I wonder if he notices if I fall asleep while standing up.

When he is done, I ask him if he wants to "do it". Sure thing, but I guess we both fall asleep. We wake up and he says we slept for half an hour.

*I feel like I could be doing this forever. But my big toe hurts like hell. My whole foot is crooked because of a cat sleeping at my feet. So i wake up and cat is not there.

*I watched "The Contact" again and was really obsessing about that alien beach with tropical blue seas. I guess that reflected in this batch of LDs. Thank you, come again.

Saturday 3/31/12 5-HTP at 10:15pm, bed at 11:50pm didn't practice awareness
DR 3:47
WBTB 3:47 - 4:21 didn't fall asleep till 5:20 (cat going potty)
Woke up at 7:15 from DILD + 5 DEILDs Each about 5min long
For WBTB WILD I visualize being at beer pub with mom, dad, and two others. I recall the tables, people, green leaves on a tree, glasses with beer.
Then I fall asleep and have a DILD.
DILD
At home on RD10. I'm hugging and kissing my parents. My dad's cheek has a 5o'clock shadow. We are in a hallway, light are on. Then I'm on front balcony looking out (or maybe through my brothers room window). It's at night and everything is shining under moonlight, as if it was covered by ice. (EDIT: I thught for long time what it reminds me of, and I figured it out today - it has colors, beauty and misticism of Hyu's avatar pic.) I trick my mind into making everything more focused by saying 'Look how is everything so detailed', although it wasn't. In that moment it gets very vivid and focused in shades of black, grey and blue, shiny with ice surface. beautiful.
I'm on my balcony. It's daytime. So crisp and focused, I think it's WL. I do a bunch of RCs. First time I do 'nose plug' RC, although I have never practiced it. I can breathe. But I'm not 100% sure. Doesn't stop me from jumping off the balcony to fly.
Not sure if this is the same LD or a separate one. - I'm on balcony to a street. I know that in my previous LD was daytime and I wonder, why is it night. I say it and in little while the sun is coming up. I'm trying to go to the moon from the backyard. I find it on the skies and take aim. I think I wake up.
DEILD 1
I'm on a sidewalk of a major city. I see tall modern buildings on the left. Bunch of DCs. I ask two of them, one man and then one woman 'Excuse me mam, sir, what is this town, err, city?' I'm so nervous talking, I fumble with words. One of them says Philadelphia.
A bus pulls up to the sidewalk. I'm so scared as it's turning towards us, because its huge, like 3 buses on top of each other. Menacing, white metal, heavy looking. I walk on a sidewalk among lots of DCs. From the left is an exit from a bus depot? Big machines are coming out of there from behind big black rubber flaps, so you don't see something is coming until you are close to it. I'm scared to walk by, so I don't get run over.
Note sure if this is the same LD or another one. >> I'm in a building. Me and another person or two plus our guide are hovering on top of some very tall furniture - couple of stories high. He is shoving us this so we can decide, what kind of a tour we want. I see a window, open it, pull away the screen and fly out. I feel so free. Not sure if it was here, but at one point I jumped off a tall building although I was not sure, that I can fly. Just inches from sidewalk my fall changed to a glide above ground.
***I wake up, (was I sleeping on my back and right shoulder) and remember not to move. I wait to enter another LD.
DEILD 2
I'm on a river bank. Decide to swim across. Water is yellowish. Someone else is in the water. I get out on other side. There is a area fenced off by chain link fence. Some bikers are watching two of them fight, as if in a rink. I decide to try my powers and take the place of one guy to fight the bigger one. The ground is slippery from spilled beer. I think they are pouring beer at each other. I ask where is my beer. One of them brings two big, classical beer glasses filled with what looks like lager. But he takes a drink from them so I say to forget it. I don't know how to fight this guy. >> I'm in a building/shack next to this fight field. I ask a cute biker if he wants to have sx. He says sure and we start to undress. We are almost there, but I wake up.
DEILD 3
I'm back with the biker. He doesn't want to go on, because he doesn't want to wake up again. I walk over to a group of 2-3 bikers, one is a cop in blue uniform and tell them I just broke up with my boyfriend, if they want to continue where he left off. Things start to happen, but I wake up again.
DEILD 4
I'm flying inside the museum. Lots of rooms and people. I realized a few moments past by and suddenly everything is focused. I realize, this is what people mean about dream getting focused after a minute or two. Looking for a window to get out, but can't find any. I realize, I can get out by getting lucid by looking at something moving towards me. I find a boy sitting on a floor playing with a train. I sit down and we pass the train between us, while I stare at it when it's coming towards me.
DEILD 5
I'm hovering over a street with other DCs. I ask out loud to see my grandma. One DC separates from others and flies to me. She is smiling, but her face is changing from a mummy to a girl of maybe 20 years of age. I ask her if it's really her and she assures me yes. But I'm pretty sure it's not.

***In one of the LDs I was able to only whisper. Rest of them I was shouting***
***In one of the LDs I signed my full name without any problem and then was able to read it***
***In most of them, I kept saying to myself loud 'I'm dreaming' to keep myself aware***
***First time 'nose plug' RC. Feels great to breathe through pinched nose.***

Each transition - when woke up from LD - was the most awesome part of the whole thing. I realized, I can get a headrush by looking at something moving towards me and then tilting my head forward or back. (This head tilt is recurring thing from couple weeks ago, when I realized in regular dream, that I can get lucid this way.)
So I looked at the street hoping for a car to come by - and it did, looking at a toy train when playing with a boy, looking at starfield in hyperspace on TV. When this field was going sideways, I made it change direction so it flies at me. Also was able to recall smell from previous LD to help induce another one.