lunagoddess

...We go to a spot in the airport overlooking a ballroom and I see myself on stage (there's 2 of me - me on a balcony watching me on stage). I am very curvy and I am surprised how beautiful I look. My dress looks nice even though it’s inside out. It's a peachy orange color, long, with a satin texture. My hair has been curled and is thick, smooth, and shiny. I’m trying to dance but my face keeps cringing. Why? There’s not much of an audience. As I look out on the ballroom I realize I’m dreaming, for no specific reason. It’s just a tiny thought that crept on me that I could have ignored, but it grew bigger and bigger until I remembered my intention to lucid dream. I suddenly have a microphone and make an announcement. “Excuse me everyone, I’d like to announce that I am dreaming!” Everyone clapped. I remembered to stablize so I spin, it does feel like I’m spinning but I don’t like that it requires me to close my eyes and see blackness. I get concerned the dream will end, but it doesn’t. Then I got the idea to announce, “I’d like to take this opportunity to ask my subconscious if there are any issues it would like to bring up or address.” But I couldn’t finish and get all the words out, partly because the microphone kept switching backwards in my hand, cutting off my announcement. Also because a large white and black house cat tried to attack me. I attempted to make the announcement multiple times but the same things kept happenening. Finally I give up. Now I'm in the audience and more people are flooding in and dancing. I decide to get on stage and dance. I try to jump up using lucid super skills and barely make it, but I still have to crawl a bit. However, I get distracted because to my left is the inside of a walmart. A woman is pulling her children out of a sale bin. They ate chocolate and pooped in there. I’m disgusted. Another woman is telling on her, she’s like the secret walmart police society. I decide that after I dance I’m going to burn walmart down as the December TOTM, I don’t like walmart. Then it ends.

My goal for 2017 is to have 12 lucid dreams (at least once per month). I'm counting this as #1 because I made my resolutions on winter solstice, which I also celebrate as a symbolic new year. I have no idea why I became lucid, but Merry Christmas to me!
In the future, I will try other grounding and stabilizing techniques because I didn't love the spinning. I will also be sure to have more clear goals before I go to sleep.

I made lunch for D and I. Meat, guacamole, sour cream, and strawberries. We packed it up and left. D filled up my car with gas and he was unhappy with the price. I went into the store and someone thought it was weird there was numbing gel in the infant section and I explained it’s probably for teething. They didn’t believe me and I told them that babies can teethe around year and I know because I went to school and learned that. Then I saw a bunch of celebrities hanging out in the store and the next thing I know I’m lucid. I see Donald Trump and want to talk to him for some reason but everyone thinks it’s a bad idea. I get his attention and he’s trying to get away from me and slip into another room. I don’t know what to say to him. I ask him what he thinks about Hilary dropping out of the final debate with Sanders. I tell him not to give me side-stepping political answers. He basically says that one of them offended his sisters. I go outside and wonder what I should do next. I have a small group of dream characters encouraging me and reminding me of goals. I remember the totm and try to stretch my arms out but it doesn’t work. I start walking up a hill and think of the taste that’s in my mouth. It tastes like a familiar herb. It’s the taste of the flower that I’m looking at on the ground and I know I’ve eaten it in fancy restaurants, but I can’t quite name it. I see my mom and sister which confirms further that this is a dream. I kinda feel bad for not saying anything to them, though. I think of what to do next and exit the dream. I don’t DEILD because I think I’m awake and begin a dream where I write down the LD and am really angry because it’s the end of May and once again, I finished the totm when it’s basically too late.

After not having a lucid in months, I got one on the first night of the competition! Woohoo! It seemed to be a combination between a DILD and a WILD so I'm not sure how to technically classify it, but here it is! As I was falling asleep initially I alternated using the mantra "Remember, I'm dreaming" with moments of quiet awareness. If I started getting any images I would briefly visualize myself recognizing them as a dream and say my mantra. During my wbtb I repeated the mantra continuously and tried to see it in my mind's eye.

+I started having a dream about walking down a dangerous icy highway in the snow and dogs kept running in the road, I yelled at them to get out of the way because I didn’t have a brake. Two men commented to me about it. I had to hike up an icy ski mountain where a semi truck was driving the wrong way in my lane and found myself in a dungeon where creepy oracles had women shackled up and fucked. Then I noticed a mirror on the wall and remembered I was trying to WILD. I used the mirror as my anchor and willed myself deeper into the dream but with the intention of a different location. I became lucid in my bedroom. Like usual, everything felt weird at first, my body was vibrating and I felt a little disconnected - like I was a computer program with a lot of static. I jumped for joy and spun around to stabilize, everything lagged a little bit. I immediately thought of my 3 step challenge so I grabbed my phone from the living room. There was a black cat sitting on my back deck and it ran away when it saw me. I said, “Ok, when I turn the brightness up on my phone, it will get brighter outside.” It didn’t work so I turned the brightness down and up again. Then I turned it down another time and it became sunnier outside. Woohoo! I stabilized myself again by feeling the island of my kitchen. I needed to find a dream character so I try to leave my house by flying through the closed door. I end up somersaulting in the air, hitting it softly with my back, and slowly sliding down. So I decide to just open it and I see a white van pulling onto the property. A party chef van? I start doubting that I should go outside and talk to some random stranger at 3 in the morning. With my front door cracked so I could keep tabs, I started browsing the internet. Then I remind myself that I'm only dreaming and confirm it by noticing that my neighbor’s house is now a blue and white camper trailer. They’re having a party so I go outside and it’s a bunch of people I’ve never seen. I pick one random, average looking guy in a light blue and white polo with brown hair. He has a plate of food and is heading toward a picnic table. “Excuse me, can I ask you a question for some advice?” “Sure.” I open my mouth to speak and he says, “Oh, this is a question that I may not have the answer to!” And chuckled. A blonde woman walked by and said, “Yeah, the answer could be pig!” I proceeded, “What do I need to know in my life right now?” He didn’t contemplate long before answering, “That you are 100% tall, curvy, and very sexy.” Then he walked off. Wtf?