non-lucid

I smoked some Alepidea amatymbica before going to bed last night to see if it would have a significant effect on my dreams, and it did seem to improve my recall from what it's been at lately. It's hard to say for sure, but next time I'll try to smoke it without smoking weed too close to it too so that I can get more accurate results.

#1 - Boss Hotel Room And Meeting Melanieb [Non-Lucid]

This dream is hard to remember as whole, it comes to me in a series of fragments, but I know that they're all connected. It started out with me and a few other people in this "boss hotel room", but the only other person I remember is this guy AB from high school. I vaguely remember doing something to have earned getting there and we were afraid that if we left the room the door would close and we wouldn't be able to come back, so AB took a laptop and held it up to the window. This caused a glow and a ray of light came out and he aimed it outside, as if it was like a system of mirrors reflecting the sun in a dark room or something. The next thing I remember is being at a restaurant in a casino, at least I think that's where we were.... I was with melanieb and she said she was going to help me be more social. I don't remember much else of that part. Next we were figuring out who was going to ride in which car to get back to the hotel room, and, though I can't remember this discussion at all, I know we collectively decided that there was "no sharing in group photos". After this my memory gets too fragmenty to put it in order. There was something with Kyle and Cartman from South Park, and then a panoramic view of the night sky with the backdrop of stars constantly spinning, and after that I woke up.

#2 - Hopeless Love Addict [Non-Lucid]

I followed someone, I think it was O, into a college class about how to eat lunch. Since I was just visiting I didn't have to do any of the graded assignments myself. Someone else was also there just sitting in, visiting Kenny from South Park who was sitting just a little bit behind me. I quickly befriended a girl who was sitting next to me and, of course, I started developing feelings for her. We were talking about some singer (who I don't think actually exists) that we were both fans of, though she was more of a true fan whereas I just loved listening to their music whenever it came on the radio. I don't think she liked me as much as I liked her. Eventually class ended and we started walking through the hallway together, but there was an enormous crowd of people and we got separated until I woke up.

#3 - Elementary School Reunion [Non-Lucid]

I was in another college class filled with people from my elementary school, mainly this guy NS and this girl J whose last name I don't remember but I knew lots of people (over the years, all the way up through high school) who had a crush on her. Uh... the basis of this dream is kind of private as I have a history with these people. But the point is that they were being really friendly to me, much more than normal, and NS even invited me to come to lunch with him after class, and it made me feel really good. We bonded a bit and then we got our report cards handed out (in college ) and ours were all terrible! My highest grade was a D, and my lowest one was an R. Mine was the worst of the three so I used that to cheer up NS and J. At some point I managed to come into possession of the couch pillow I normally throw around and keep next to my seat when I'm on my laptop at home, and I was trying to figure out how I was going to carry it to lunch with all of my stuff, but then I woke up.

Dream Fragment - "Dianeva and I create an IRC language that's hard to understand at first because it work the same way as SSRIs???"

I've been really lazy about logging DJ entries and checking others lately, but I'm trying to get back into it now, starting with these dreams from the past week or so. I got lucid four times despite smoking lots of weed, too!

April 28th

#1 - Unemptiable Mouth RC [DILD]

I was hanging out at the house of this kid AB who I knew in high school, except it was actually my house and we were hanging out in my parents' bedroom. It was just us and some random people, and AB apparently smokes weed now (which would NEVER happen in real life). I can't remember much of this part, but I know we got a pizza and we finished it but I still wanted more, so I said I was going to head out and get some since everyone else wanted to go somewhere else. At the door when I was getting ready to go I noticed that RE was with us as well. Now first of all, the way I was thinking of this was that AB, RE, and I all lived in my same neighborhood, and AB and I each lived in mirror copies of the same house. There's a street that extends directly out from my house, and in this dream the whole neighborhood was just symmetrical around this one street, so on the other side would be my house again, the one that's actually my house. Yes.... RE also lived on the other side but one street over, so we decided to walk home together. I realized that this was my first time seeing him since he got signed to a label for one of his latest songs (which actually happened in waking life), so I congratulated him for it. Instead of taking the symmetrical street we went to the next one over and started walking down it, and somehow it turned into a huge bazaar with lots of restaurants intermixed in it. RE went to stand in line to get some food, but I just sat down at a small table not far from him. Suddenly my mouth started seeming very full of chewed up food and it was really starting to bug me, it seemed like no matter how much more I chewed up and swallowed there was always the same amount still in my mouth, so I started just spitting it out on the table and it still wouldn't reduce in volume. O's mom suddenly showed up out of nowhere and sat down at the table with me, and I felt embarrassed because I couldn't say anything. I pointed to my mouth and made a weak gesture and she nodded, it looked like she was chewing something too. I went back to my annoyance and started getting really upset about it, thinking "This only happens when... I'm dreaming." The area has suddenly become a 7-Eleven-like store, and I get up excitedly and say to a DC a couple of times that I'm dreaming, to which he grumbles "Yeah, I heard ya the first time!" and walks off trying to mind his own business. I just flew around the store a little bit and tried to use the windows to teleport myself, but it didn't really work. After enough bouncing around, the dream faded. I woke up without moving and with my eyes still closed, so I thought about attempting a DEILD, but then I got antsy and decided I'd rather remember this dream for sure instead since it was my first lucid in a while.

#2 - Cute High School Guy [DILD]

I saw this girl... wow, her name would also be AB, I didn't foresee this problem. >w< Anyway, AB and this guy T whose last name initial I don't know, were walking around my old high school where I ran into them. It seems that they still go to high school despite the fact that they're also celebrating T's 23rd birthday, and it appears as if they're dating. T starts asking me to do something for him involving a bridge and digging but I can't remember exactly what now, though I agree to do it at the time. There was also talk of a monster...? Anyway, I start walking down one of the school hallways and see some black lagoon-type humanoid monster just standing there, and lazily think "I'm dreaming." I fly down the hallway and there was some cute guy standing there. I landed and the dream started fading a little bit, and I told him to hug me because I needed to stabilize. He did and I grabbed his ass while he was doing it. :3 After that, I took my glasses off for some reason and everything got really blurry. Wonderful move, me.... I put them back on but it didn't help anything, so I just gave up trying to save the dream and let it fade away.

April 29th

Dream Fragment - "D's house base, McDonald's food drug makes you full, K, aunts S and D."

Dream Fragment - "A's boyfriend drive to movie dad meets us turn into M SSRI serotonin control dopamine M burped by boyfriend by being thrown into the air hilarious everyone so happy, dave1701 doing SSRI presentation, among others."

Negligent Sisters [Non-Lucid]

I had sisters (I'm an only child in waking life) that I normally forgot about because I never saw them, at least a few. I claimed that the last time I'd see any of them was around 15 years ago. J was over (and refusing to shut the door to my room no matter how many times I told him to) and getting to know them before coming into my room to wake me up in the morning, having spent the night. He talks about my sisters and I said if he was getting to know them then he probably knows them better than I do, and I'm obviously feeling a little dejected. He starts talking about how he'll have to take me home soon because he has stuff to do during the day, and I'm like "What the fuck? I'm already home....", and suddenly we can't remember who drove him over. I look out front and neither of our cars are there so I start getting a little concerned, but then I wake up.

April 30th

Waiting For Class To End [Non-Lucid]

I was doing some really bizarre worksheet in a high school class and then I got up to stand at the door with this girl A who's last name I forget. We could hear some kids yelling funny stuff with a musical track playing on the other side of the door, and we start making fun of it and I do a little dance that makes A laugh. We eventually pushed the door open to hear the music and I recognized it at the time but I forgot when I woke up.

May 1st

#1 - Horny Teacher [Non-Lucid]

This girl who I don't know wants me to help her go to the game store (which is apparently anti-Jew ) at some vacation spot, I don't remember exactly where. The store ends up being a medicine store owned by my old Chinese class teacher. He tries speaking to me in Chinese and I don't understand him, but I don't need to to pick up on his incredibly lewd gestures. I laugh weakly and the girl and I leave (oh, also, I lost a sandal right outside the store and magically had it back on when we left), and then we see the actual game store we meant to go to. As we're walking in we look at each other and back at the medicine store and I say "Pervy old man."

#2 - Transporting Bodies [DILD]

I was helping a group of people transport bodies in bags into a truck being driven by a fake cop that's behind some huge house. The people weren't dead though, just unconscious. One of the bodies was actually melanieb, and I saw her sneak a quick glance before pretending to be knocked out again as she was put into a bag. I finally finish taking all the bags over and then walk out to the front of the house and become lucid. I try to make all the windows in the house suddenly shatter but it isn't really working, so instead I fly up to the roof and lay on my stomach and feel the brick texture, and I was intenting to make something of it but then I woke up.

May 2nd

Spa Adventures [DILD]

There was a lot of dream leading up to this, but most of it is blurry in my memory. I was at some kind of resort hotel/apartment all by myself, and I went out to a room that was supposed to be like a private spa tub room. I got in the tub and was enjoying myself, but was also somewhat afraid that someone was going to break into my apartment, for whatever reason, but after I got up and locked the door to the spa room I stopped worrying about that. I looked around and noticed that there were no walls in the room, in fact the huge hotel building was built in a square design with all of the spa tub rooms directly on top of and under each other and all facing inwards in the square, so I could actually see lots of other people using their tubs as well. It was mostly girls, but some guys too. I became a bit concerned for my own privacy, but then figured that I'm already looking at everyone else, so, eh. Across from me and to the left a bit I saw a creepy guy looking straight at me, with some weird woman crawling around like an animal next to him. I tried to act like I hadn't seen him but it was too late, he yelled to her to get me, and she jumped all the way over to my tub and cornered me. She's reaching into my forehead and I'm freaking out, but she says "I'm just prying open your third eye so that you...." Well, there was more, but that part's a secret. Sorry! So I say "Oh, okay!" When she finishes opening my third eye, I'm suddenly standing in one of the hotel/apartment rooms again, and I think to myself that that was pretty crazy was just happened, it must have been some kind of hallucination or something. I happily walk off, but quickly become suspicious, so I do a noseplug RC for the first time ever in a dream. Holy crap, it works! Now I know what it's like to breath through my nose when it's pinched shut. I fly out through the window until I end up at some pool area where there are what seems to be a few random employees and a Chinese man and his daughter (?). I had a lot of energy so I was just yelling gibberish at them like usual and repeating stabilization mantras to myself, which seemed to work pretty well. The man and his daughter started getting into a fight so I flew off and started traveling down different hallways in the main hotel building. A thought suddenly occurs to me that if I'm dreaming now then maybe what happened was I fell asleep in the tub and the woman opening my third eye was hypnagogic imagery, and now I'm slowly drowning there in my sleep. I freaked out a bit but finally managed to "wake myself up".

False Awakening - Ah, safe at last, back in the spa tub. Happiness sets in, then suspicion. Noseplug RC. Damn it! Oh well. Totally forgetting about my imagined danger, I fly off and hover around the other floors' spa rooms. One pretty much directly below me is occupied by three very gorgeous and very naked women just chilling in their tub, and I was intent on joining them. X3 But then I woke up. D: Damn it!

Evil Dimension [Non-Lucid]

I was over at D's house with O, this guy JY I knew in 9th grade, and a few other random people. We had entered some other dimension that I don't remember very much about, except that it was... evil. DX There were hornets that would come after me and dig under my skin and start slithering around, and I could feel them in bulges on my skin. I don't... I don't even.... Uggggh.



Anyway, I told D that I couldn't stand being in the evil dimension anymore, so JY and I left. On the way out JY turned into N. We were in some airport-like area, but after walking out the exit we were in a mall. N started talking about getting something to eat, but I can't remember what. I woke up after that.

Casino Drug Smuggling [Non-Lucid]

I was in a casino with O, J, and this guy PR I've known since elementary school but haven't seen since we graduated high school. It's hard to remember most of this plot now, but we were trying to play this one gigantic game (it looked like a cross between a poker machine and a pinball machine ) as a way of smuggling drugs. Inside the little tray where coins drop out there was a veritable pharmacopoeia of unidentified pills all of varying shapes, sizes, and colors. We were basically just sneaking around making sure there weren't any cops in the area while O (I think it was O) played the machine and tried to sneak all of the pills into his pockets in the meantime. At the end of the dream, we're all just standing there watching him when a guy walks up from out of nowhere and then jumps on the machine and starts humping it for a minute.

And that's all I remember.

Family Guy College Class [Non-Lucid]

I only vaguely remember this dream, but it wasn't a fragment or anything, my recall lately has just been poor. I was in some college class where we were watching an episode of Family Guy. Supposedly, the episode was leading up to the start of some very significant arc to the plot, and the characters were letting us know that it was going to end at a very awkward scene because of that. The characters were also very visibly stoned, which I found funny. After that, I got up and wandered around this huge building until I found my way outside, then started looking for my car but was unsuccessful in finding it before I woke up.

#1 - Just More Nonsense [Non-Lucid]

I vaguely remember watching some concert on TV, and I could see M was in the VIP crowd, which was situated up on the stage. I was super jealous but also excited for her, and when the show ended I started texting her. At some point the reason she was there changed to be that she was seeing a movie, and now she was mad that the crowd was taking a long time to leave so she couldn't get out. Meanwhile, I'm with D and we're trying to navigate ourselves out of some parking garage where all of the cars are named after different types of wine. We end up at some club door with a line and a bouncer, and we go up to him and say that the reason we don't have hand stamps is because we were already here before they started giving them to people, so he lets us in. On the inside it was more like an airport or something, and we passed by a line of people and there were two teenage guys talking about something, and as we were walking right by them they each, in turn, said "That's retarded.", so I said it too. As we kept walking they started repeating it more, as if my continuing the chain had gotten them stuck in some kind of mind loop. When we're a ways away from them, I turn back and can still hear them saying it. I nod and say "I'm pretty happy about that." I go into the bathroom and see in a stall there's a huge stack of girls all standing on each others' shoulders, so obviously most of them are over the top wall of the stall and are just staring at me. I give them a weird look and go up to the sink, and that's all I remember after that.

#2 - Hypnotized In A Dream? [Non-Lucid]

There was some plot leading up to this in the dream, but it's hard to remember now. What I do remember is that during this I was Hayden Panettiere, portraying Claire from Heroes. (Though the plot had nothing to do with Heroes, I just remember perceiving this.) There had been some accident that happened though I'm not sure what now, and I was in some high school class. The teachers were talking about trying to hypnotize me to not remember the accident, saying they could make up some quiz that indirectly brings something up that would make me write about the accident if I still remembered it. They seated me off to the side of the classroom away from the other students, and one of the teachers knelt down in front of me. He looked me right in the eye and told me to stare at his and was talking in a really trancy voice. The crazy thing is, I think I was legitimately hypnotized by this. I know I experienced him telling me something, but I don't remember what it was. And not because it's just a hazy dream memory, like it's actually blocked out of memory by the trance feeling. Suddenly I remember being in the chair again with sort of a goofy uncaring haze over everything. I went back to my normal seat and the teachers handed out the quiz. I needed a pencil, and I looked up to say something but the girl (this girl C I've known since elementary school) sitting in front of me just smiled at me, turned around, then turned back and handed me an open salt packet. However, that was enough for me, and I went back to the quiz. I could tell that there was something that I should've known (about the accident) but I couldn't put my finger on it no matter how hard I tried, it was being blocked from my mind. Instead I just ended up writing a bunch of nonsense answers, mostly symmetrical gibberish but also things like "your acetyl choline" and "your cat classy". The answers were put up on the projector and everyone in the class was laughing, but I was still just goofy-feeling so I just laughed along with them. After that, I woke up.

#1 - Pokémon Tracking [Non-Lucid]

I was in a bay area of some unknown location and I was testing the migration patterns of various Pokémon. There was also a small Phantasy Star Online-like mini-map displayed in my vision like it is normally on the screen. I was using the orange dots that display different creatures in the area to watch the Pokémon moving around and I was trying to capture a Pelipper. My parents and my aunt were also there just in the background talking about something, and I remember thinking that I was trying drugs that had various receptor affinities in combination, with one being 5-HT2A/D2 agonist and the other being a CB1/D2 agonist.

#2 - Rolling At The Theater [Non-Lucid]

I went to a movie with my family and D. D and I abandoned my family and found our own seats. I could tell he was really fucked up, so first I asked if he was drunk and he said no, so I asked him if he was rolling next (on ecstasy). He had a huge grin plastered on his face and shook his head yes. I asked him if he bought the tabs there at the theater and he just looked around and pulled out a HUGE pill, like 500+ mg at least. My jaw dropped, and then I took it with some water but it never kicked in before I woke up. It also made me notice my mouth was full of strange gummy candies that were sticking to my teeth for some reason.... I think the movie we were watching had something to do with Hogwarts (though it looked much more normal, like a campus but still fancy) and taking some special "Blu Ray" transportation line to get there. But that's about all I can remember.

This was first dream I can actually remember that I've had in days, likely due to all the weed brownies. The day leading up to this dream I ate a brownie and a half (I think?) and smoked some in the morning, but then in the evening was only drinking. That's probably why this dream was... the way it is.

Something New [Non-Lucid]

I was watching something, I have a vague feeling of it being South Park. There was also some talk about The Beatles going on, but just in the background somewhere. Whatever I was watching, it grew and took over my entire perspective, and I shifted into third-person. I was panning my view left over a wall, and everything started taking on deep hues of neon red with twists of golds and purples and some other colors to a lesser extent, and the world started flattening and becoming somewhat cartoonish in an ancient hieroglyphics type of way. Patterns were being drawn and morphing around on the wall, and eventually the wall opened up to reveal an enormous panoramic view of some house from the point of view of what appeared to be one of the living room corners. This created a very bizarre feel to the whole scene, it was simultaneously flat and curved. The panning stops when there's a door to another room directly in front of me. A woman walks through the door and the scenery around her starts rapidly shifting and morphing into various patterns in a sort of rapid-fire flow, and her appearance is frequently changing as well, and she occasionally phases through other objects in her surrounding. The background has taken on sort of a salvia-esque spin and the woman seems to be made of some strangely stacked cardboard-cut-out-like building blocks.... It's really hard to describe, but I saw people that looked to be made out of the same material a long time ago when I mixed diphenhydramine with psilocybin mushrooms. The whole environment is becoming incredibly unstable, and suddenly the scene ends.

False Awakening - I'm driving down the service road of a highway in one of my old cars, and I just look around and for a moment think that that bizarre scene was something I was just thinking about, but then I remember how vividly I experienced it and it occurs to me that I must have been dreaming and now I'm awake. I tried typing up the dream, but then became concerned about the fact that I was apparently sleeping while driving.

False Awakening - I wake up again, still in the car. Now I'm getting really concerned that I'm actually driving while asleep but I can't force myself to wake up. I still take time to try to type up my dream in my phone, but the time is really messing with me. It looks really wonky at first and then keeps changing around randomly. Of course, it doesn't tip me off to anything.

False Awakening - This time I woke up in M's apartment, where I actually did spend the night after we finished drinking. Her big dog gets up and climbs on top of me in a really uncomfortable way and won't get off. I'm again trying to reach my phone to log the dream, but am unsuccessful.

False Awakening - Once again, I woke up in M's apartment. She's already awake and tells me that she's late for work, she has to go "feed the whale". I get up too and tell her I need to go soon, so I probably won't be there when she gets back. After that, I woke up for real, and almost completely forgot the actual dream.

Dream Fragment - This one I don't remember much of, but there was a big texting conversation going on between me, Linkzelda, M, M's boyfriend, N, M's previous boyfriend, and C. (Maybe some other people, too?) It's hard to remember now, but I'm pretty sure I saw part of this dream through my own perspective, part through M's perspective, and part in third-person. The only visual I can really remember now was that M's previous boyfriend was at his house wearing one of those cone-shaped birthday hats and there were balloons tied to a chair behind him.

Very Strange Episode [Non-Lucid]

Most of this dream was a third-person perspective view of Lily from How I Met Your Mother. She was in a place that seemed to shift back and forth between work and high school, and she was tripping on something, which at the time I assumed to be psilocybin mushrooms. She's happy and somewhat delirious for most of the day, but then afterward when everyone but her and a random guy and girl have left she's starting to become concerned that she's dying because she hasn't started coming down yet. Oh, also, contrary to her normal hair color, she has dark brown hair with semi-dark blonde streaks running down it. So, she starts having an emotional breakdown and the random girl walks over to her and pulls out a comb to give her so she has something to focus on doing with her hands and can calm down. She starts frantically combing her hair down in front of her face over and over again, and then I shift into first-person perspective in her body and continue doing it for the rest of the dream. There was more conversation going on between the guy and girl, but I can't remember what it was now since from that point on I was really focused on combing my hair.

Dream Fragment - "Porn of whatever guy wanted to watch porn of me??"

Fun With Mirrors [DILD]

I'm swimming at a really old friend C's house but constantly being interrupted by his family for stuff, though I don't remember exactly what now. His family was apparently unending because I kept meeting new people every time I was interrupted. I was really high and drunk apparently and just exhausted, and I was getting some weird effect where it sounded like my ears were surrounded by bubbles and all sounds were very distant and distorted. I decided to go home. Some kid stopped me on the way out and was asking me for something but I couldn't tell what he was saying, but finally I realized he was asking for the jellybeans I just happened to be holding. I gave them to him, then picked up a box of nachos Lunchables out of the trash thinking that this is what I'd been looking for the whole time, but was saddened to discover that all the food had already been half-eaten. :C As I head out the front door of the house my hearing is returning, and I notice that my car is gone. I'm really confused and distressed, and some little girls run out of the house to me complaining about something that Cleveland (from Family Guy and then The Cleveland Show) did, and I tried to figure out what they were talking about but couldn't, but then I suddenly became lucid. I walked back inside the house and there was a cop walking around, and he said something to me but I can't remember what now. I saw my mom sitting on a stool in the kitchen, and next to her was a mirror. I walked up to it and looked in it and it was amazingly accurate. Mirrors are usually really wrong for me in dreams. I decided to conjure up another mirror by turning around and just expecting it to be on the kitchen counter. I picked it up and as I looked up there was a third, even bigger mirror so I walked up and faced the mirror I was holding to it to create that effect were you can see the mirrors endlessly repeating. It looked like it worked but it also made the dream turn really fuzzy really fast, so I stopped and looked away. I turned around and it was too quiet, so I yelled "Say something!" My mom looked at me and said "Cool!" with this over-exaggerated smile on her face. I smirked and walked off calling for this girl L I knew in high school to appear, and it took a while and a bunch of incorrect DCs but she finally did. I'm not sure why I thought of her. She started talking to me, but the dream got really unstable and faded.

False Awakening - I wake up in bed and I'm facing the wall that would be to my left if I was facing up. Without changing position, I reached out and grabbed my phone and started typing up my dream, and then I felt someone else moving in bed and I could tell it was a guy. I had a sense that it was N, who had spent the night here but was sleeping on big bed-like pillow in the living room. I got really paranoid, and then I felt a hand get placed on my left shoulder by someone who I could tell was another separate entity, and I perceived them as my dad. He said to me "You really should try using the stairwell.", and I was so confused and a bit frightened, but then I woke up for real.

This was from my first night in Las Vegas, I fell asleep after finishing a bottle of champagne.

#1 - My New Bathing Suit [Non-Lucid]

This one was kind of odd, more like a visualization-induced non-lucid. At first I was just drifting off in bed, and I was thinking about walking around the hotel pool. We'd stayed there before so I know the area pretty well. In my imagination I was walking around in something like this, but like all black:



At first I was just sort of wishing I had that kind of bathing suit, but as I got more and more tired the scene started to expand and suddenly I actually was walking around the pool in that suit. I wasn't lucid though, so I didn't really appreciate it. I remember thinking that I was supposed to be meeting up with some friends of mine, some random female DCs who were busy changing into their suits, but I got distracted by a food stand by the pool. I tried to get a hot dog, but they were out. :C I saw my dad lounging by the side of the pool and went over to him and asked him why there were no hot dogs, and he said that they ran out of meat. He got up and started walking off with me and I started complaining about the situation to him, but I don't remember much after that. I think I woke up not long afterward.

#2 - Fading Phone [Non-Lucid]

I had taken a bunch of downer drugs, and I specifically remember that Ativan and Xanax were two of them. I was partying all night, and I woke up the next morning while it was still dark outside. My dad was there and he asked me if I had gone anywhere while I was on the drugs, and I said no but joked that I couldn't be sure because I had blacked out. He looked concerned, and I layed down on the living room floor only for it to suddenly morph into the hotel room bed. Without changing position, I reached over to grab my phone and start typing up my dream. Suddenly, my dad gets up and walks over to my bed and is acting all emotional (I can't remember exactly what that means, but that's what I wrote down) My sheets are pulled up over my head by an unseen force, then my dad grabs my hands through the sheets. I'm overcome with a fear, and suddenly I realize this isn't happening. It's a very odd sensation to describe, it's kind of like... you're staring at the ceiling the whole time, and you're just really confused about what's going on, but it doesn't change the fact that you were just staring at the ceiling, it's just that you don't really understand it at first, so much that you think all this other stuff is happening, but then when you finally do, it still feels like that's all you were ever doing. Anyway.... I grab my phone again and start typing but it suddenly phases out of my hands, and I try a couple more times but it never works, so I give up. I have the actual feeling of being stuck, which is rare for me even in sleep paralysis, but I manage to shift my line of sight to the left. There's a faint light visible from something in the room, and as I stare at it it starts moving closer and growing and creating strange alien symbols, and I'm filled with a fear again, but then suddenly I snap out of it and am fully awake.

#3 - Lucidly Non-Lucid Bad Trip [Non-Lucid]

This was a terrible dream. :T I took Benadryl, or diphenhydramine, at a hallucinogenic dose. For those of you who don't know what that's like, basically it's sort of similar to non-lucid dreaming, only even more schizophrenically psychotic, and layered over waking reality at the same time. Actually, it can be sort of like the way I described the sleep paralysis, everything is just so unbelievably confusing that even though you're interacting with reality, you just interpret it allllll wrong. And so that was reproduced, accurately I might add, in the dream. And diphenhydramine is an unbelievably terrible experience, not to mention I know how bad it is for you and already had to overcome an addiction to it, so this was a nightmare. The worst part about this experience was that I believed I was in this dream-like trip, so I was paying extremely close attention to the dreamy nature of everything that was happening, and yet no matter how odd it was it couldn't tip me off to the fact that I was dreaming because it fit the scenario perfectly. My mindset was basically like being lucid of the fact that I was non-lucid, and it pushed my dream insanity to a whole new level. I was at my aunt and uncle's house and even my family members over there were becoming extremely confused at the bizarre and unexplainable things I was doing. Yes, I was so non-lucid that the DCs were confused. I can't remember much of the actual plot, though.

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This dream was from the second night we were there, and I fell asleep after more drinking and taking some Soma (carisoprodol).

Dream Fragment - I took a large dose of methoxetamine, which I've never taken in waking life, and ended up tripping out. I was in a classroom somewhere and someone was giving me a foot massage, and because of the drug it felt like my toes were floating off of their original spots and randomly switching places, which made me feel warm and giggly at the time. That's about all I can remember, though.

I had several more dreams than these but I couldn't log them down because my phone was acting weird. :T Oh well. At least I got the lucid one down.

#1 - Bizarre Family Party [Non-Lucid]

This one I just remember a few bits and pieces of. I was at a family party, there was some "moon scare" going on referencing some sort of apocalypse, it was my cousin K's birthday, my cousin G was suddenly legally allowed to drink alcohol despite being 17 years old, I talked about how I was hanging out with M and a couple other people before the party, out in front of the house a runaway bicycle came out of nowhere and rammed into some random guy's nuts, causing one of them to burst with blood flying everywhere , and finally a third-person view of some strange Futurama episode where Bender and Hermes got fused together.

Dream Fragment - I accidentally stumbled upon some YouTube video about "secular graduation" (something related to school), and all I remember about it is that there were lots of theater kids from my high school starring in it which surprised me, and there were these two Asian kids at the end. One of them was a bit chubby and had short, straight, silvery white hair, and the other was very thin with a blonde beard but a black goatee.

#2 - FLCL Throwback? [MILD]

I was back at my middle school in a regular classroom but it was in the music hall. I was playing a Pokémon game with a bunch of random people and then C, an old friend and amazing weed dealer, comes in and joins us. Eventually he's heading out again and I decide to go with him, but when we get out into the hallway I realize it's a totally different person. I follow him out to the cafeteria anyway, only all of the tables are gone, and he's talking about OpheliaBlue, someone else I can't remember, and cheese. Slowly I start to think that something's not right, and then I realize that I'm dreaming. There are a ton of DCs walking around, and I tried to do something that failed but I can't remember what it was now. I saw some oddly placed lockers and decided to fly over to them, and as I did a couple of them magically opened, and there was just one big locker space behind them. There was a sheet of music in them, so I picked it up and then went over to a DC and yelled at them "Make music come off this page!" However, I was flailing the paper around in my hand as I was saying this and I guess that caused it to lose shape, I saw it morphing so I stopped shaking it and it took solid shape as a red electric guitar. o.o I shrugged and whacked the DC on the head with it, and he fell over and I flew off. I turned around to look at him a second later but all the DCs in the area had already changed drastically, and he was gone. I was just hovering above the crowd and decided to whack someone else too, so I did and as he fell over slowly his head popped off. I flew off but the dream started fading, I had lost my sense of sight and I could tell it was about to end.

False Awakening - This was fairly interesting.... I woke up, but didn't open my eyes. I guess that might've been connected to the lack of visual input at the end of the lucid, but I just perceived it as keeping my eyes closed. I felt my surroundings and could tell that it wasn't right. Upon a little inspection I realized I was lying down in a bathtub with just a little bit of water in it, I could feel the porcelain edges and everything. I considered the idea that this was some sort of strange tactile hallucination based on my bed that was just continuing because my dreaming mind hadn't totally shut down yet and I hadn't opened my eyes yet to break the illusion. However, when I actually did open my eyes I was lying in my bed in a totally different position, so it was definitely a false awakening.

#1 - Battle For The Pencil [Non-Lucid]

Linkzelda was in a good deal of this dream, though only fleetingly whenever he was. I was in this enormous and highly stylized school and I was carrying around a folder, a pencil, and a laptop, and consistently throughout the dream Link would sneak up behind me and attempt to grab the pencil from me before I was able to notice soon enough to do anything about it. While I don't remember a lot of the more specific details of this because the dream was really long, I do remember that every time he tried it was getting more intense because it was making me paranoid. Each time it seemed like he was getting just a little bit closer than the previous time. The last time, I was sitting at my laptop looking at a website that looked like some crappy '90s Angelfire page and listed information about different types of alcohol, and suddenly I had this feeling that he was right behind me. I turned around but it was too late, he already made a reach for the pencil, but I wasn't going to give it up so easily! (I hadn't even used it once in the dream. ) I got a firm grip on the pencil myself and thus began a massive struggle of trying to yank it out of the other's hands. It got sooo emotionally intense, but in the end I finally won. I was so amped up and happy that I proceeded to laugh exactly like Shion from Higurashi no Naku Koro ni.



After that I just walked off. I went down this gigantic spiral staircase and ended up in a cafeteria where I proceeded to look for some of my school friends, though really for the entire duration of the dream I was mainly distracted because I was just so happy that I was able to do that laugh.

#2 - Getting Hustled [Non-Lucid]

I live somewhere right next to M now, and she's texting me about her day and talking about how she went across the street to this strip mall place for lunch. As she's saying this, I actually see her crossing the street to do it. I decided to head over there too, but then I got distracted and started thinking about going to GameStop, which I guess was also part of that strip mall. However, on the way there I looked into a different restaurant and saw N, D, J, and O, so I decided to go inside. We were in line getting food on trays like in a school lunch line, and I had a lot of food but all I really remember about my meal was that it included a couple bags of Cheez-Its. There was a guy in the line who was texting and totally immobile for a long time, so we all cut around him but the cashier refused to serve us. :T She said we had to go wait our turn if we wanted our food. We argued that that guy was trying to hustle us , but she told us we didn't have a choice. I think something short happened after that, but that's all I remember.

We're In Heaven [Non-Lucid]

The first part of the dream is hard to remember, but I was at my house with just my parents and my mom decided to take ecstasy, and then she started playing DDR in the living room, and I remember one of the songs was "We're In Heaven" by DJ Sammy, which I was listening to all last night.



My mom has never taken ecstasy before and she's not normally as open about drugs with me as my dad is, so I'm pretty surprised by this. I go and tell my dad and he asks her about, but it looks like she didn't actually want him to know. Oops, oh well. :T Around this point my dad turned into N, an old high school friend, and my mom turned into A, the girl that I actually had some feelings for in waking life from my dream not too long ago that I almost got to start fooling around with her in in my room and then people started barging in. >.< For the record, A has never taken ecstasy either. A sits down on the couch in my dad's usual spot and is starting to squirm and writhe a bit, and she's starting to get a pretty goofy euphoric smile on her face. I walked up to her and she motioned to N and said "Does he know?" and I said "Yeah, but don't worry, he's a bigger druggie than you'll ever be." (TOTALLY not true, not even remotely. ) She looks at me in a sort of drunken cocky way and says "No... I'll be bigger." and looks off all pleased with herself. I just laugh and say "You're starting to feel it, huh?" and she says "Yesssss. >w<" and writhes around some more with her eyes closed. At that moment she ripped off all her top clothes and underwear, and just stretched back on the couch. (I think she did it all in one swift movement too, damn that's impressive. ) I lingered for a second then went to tell N that it was starting to kick in. I go out to the kitchen and grab myself a good-sized strawberry, then decide to get one for A too since it'll probably taste amazing right now. She happily takes it and says that she is feeling a little nauseous, but she's still rolling around on the couch seat and acting like a little kid and doesn't seem TOO upset by it. I told her I'd get her a trash can and if she has to puke then just do it and get it over with because the feeling won't come back after that. She smiled at me and I walked off to do that, but then I woke up.

Okay, seriously.... I am getting a ridiculous amount of drug dreams lately.