Nebulus

I have never had a dream so real before, i've had vivid dreams and lucid dreams but usually there are tell tale signs so I tell its a dream, the dream world doesn't usually seem or look right. This was all too real, I have never experienced anything like it.

I woke up in the dream, like an obe I guess. I looked around it was morning and I was in bed. The room felt stuffy and I shifted on the cotton sheets slowly waking. I was not in my own room, I could make out the bed in the darkness and vague shapes, tiny slits of light were coming in from the shutters on a window.
So I got out of bed and went over, I pulled the shutters open and was blinded for a second by the light from outside.
As my eyes adjusted, I was taken aback as I looked around in wonder, wt..
I was in a dream clearly, but everything was so real, I could feel the heat in the room, see dust in the air, the cold of the stone floor under my feet, and the view through the now open window.
Outside I could see the wall of a house it was two storey and white, clearly not a modern house. I looked around the room, there was a table and a chair, I could not make out much else.
I felt a strong urge to go out to find someone who kept appearing in my mind, I wasn't sure who it was but they felt like someone I was supposed to meet.
Going out of the front door, I entered the street, and saw a street leading down between large white washed buildings. The sun was blinding, and I could already feel it was getting hot, although it seemed like early morning.
I could hear the noise of people who were already up, and see an old woman of dark complexion.
Feeling drawn I walked quickly down the dusty street, looking around as I walked. The houses had a strange architecture, with lots of balconies and chipped paintwork.
following my instincts, I headed off down alleyway after alleyway until I reached a rough path with very thick vegetation on either side.
Large palms and tall grasses where everywhere and there was a pleasant earthy smell in the air as I tramped along.
As I came to the bottom of an incline my heart began to race, and as I reached the bottom a river came into view. I could hear the water running and stopped near the shore which was muddy.
There by the river was a young woman, I was breathless as I approached, but seem to know her as I uttered her name.
She turned and looked up from her washing at the sound of my voice, her smile radiant. My heart gave a little jump.
We sat and talked I know not the exact details as the words that I uttered were not english. But I could tell
the gist as I had images jumbling in my head of us and people I didn't know and then a church. I think it was maybe spanish , but accent so thick I couldn't tell. My mind might have created another language or made it sound like something similar idk.
There was also a feeling of sorrow at one point. I could tell that the two or I and her were in love.
I stole a kiss and my heart was singing as I left her and walked back up the slope.
Returning to the house the way I came, I saw and met people again I didn't know but seemed clearly to know me and greet me warmly.
I was overcome with the warmth of the people, it felt like everyone knew everyone and it was one big family of people.
A few said my name, but the accent was so thick that I had trouble identifiying the word, it was musical and I felt I enjoyed the exchanges.
People were filling the street now, and I felt an urgency again as I heard the loud clanging of church bells beginning to ring out.
I felt my feet guide me be returning to the house again. When inside I looked down at my self for the first time, wondering what I was wearing and infact who I was.
I looked quite presentable all my clothing was of a thin cotton and felt nice against my skin. I searched the room for more clothes and something to wash with.
My stomach actually started to feel hungry but I had no idea were anything was in this house and did not want to leave the dream before I found out what would happen next.
I flung on the clothers feeling my face and wondering what to do about the stubble I felt on my face. I felt a blade by a large bowl of water and proceeded to try and shave, suprisingly it seemed to come as second nature so I did not kill myself.
Leaving the house at a trott and joined the throng heading for the church, again many people acosted me.
I made it slowly up the steps of the church and imposing white building with twin towers and a cross.
Inside was dark, filled with a pungent smell of incense, the pews were of a dark wood, and as people packed in I looked around for a moment and noticed stained glass windows and figuerines.
I felt the presence of the young woman and looked and saw her wearing a beautiful white and red dress. She was at the other side of the church and I went to get up to go over to her but my arm was grabbed and I was forced down again.
Anger flooded me, and I wanted to rage, images flooded my head of her with another man.
Then as she looked over at me, and the vision of her face filled with a soft gentle love fixed on me.
I stopped dead, her attention made me feel like we were the only two in the world and the sounds of the church became muffled and distant.
It came to my mind that it was not destined to be and her family had arranged for her to marry another.
At this moment the vision of someone I know became superimposed over the womans face, in my mind it was as though the two people were one and the same. And as I looked at her, my heart became steady and it didn't matter what was happening then, now or any place in time.
She loved me in that moment and that was all that mattered, what happens in this life is not always in our control,
sometimes there is happiness sometimes sorrow. We have to be happy for the blessings that we are given.

I fell still, and awoke with the vision of her face still filling my mind.
It took a while for me to come out of the reverie. I was back in my own room I could tell, it was still dark.
I rested for a while filled with that peaceful feeling, smiling to myself.

[Comment]
I am still wondering if this was a past life memory or part of one, I have never been to that place but every detail was so real.
Also the dream went on for what felt like an hour or so.
The thing that most strongly makes me think it was something different was the feeling I had that I was in somebody else's body with someone else's thoughts.
Although I realise that I have the same repeating patterns in my own life that are counterproductive.
I know now that I must let go of those patterns, and this feeling of peace and unburdening I feel will help me do that.
Letting go will also improve the chances of what I would like to happen, actually happening as higher vibrations should attract better things

Oh it didn't seem relevant when I was dreaming, but there were no signs of modern living, no cars or electric lighting.

I had a non-lucid dream before this where I was being controlled by someone I was fearful of . I had to beg and do whatever they said. A nightmare.
I am quite clear this relates to a very controlling person in my life, and the need for me to get back my independence.