Charles3

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Closing computer at 7:30. I read alot of LD material today on r/luciddreaming and did more RC's than usual. Esp. when seeing smokers, a major dream sign. Let's see how this one turns out.

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12:27 AM: I had some early dreams. One thing with my Uncle C that was forgotten. Another thing with MB and getting a 4-4 on a test, but 4-4 was a perfect score. So he was very impressed as he handed it back to me.


Then went back to sleep. I dreamed that I was on the beach. The local beach accross from another state. Everyone's parents were supposed to teach them to fly but they never taught me. So it was about how them not teaching me to fly stunted my development.


There was a forum thread about a website called somethinghopeless. It was about some kind of game. I posted something in there. It was eventually closed, probably because it linked to an outside link for something the main website couldo do.

My Dad had to leave early due to a flight. Mom thought he was going for gambling but I told her it was some kind of helpful purpose. I really thought so. Later in te dream, Dad had a jet pack thing that he could use to fly. It was dark grey and shaped like a rocket. It showed him landed in this pool place in a hotel resort, deciding where to set up his tent.

It was kind of fun because my Mom and I got to be flown around by him carrying us and flying around. We had to go somewhere. Almost got caught in the place Dad was scoping out as a grey van drove by and we were there too early. I remember trying to climb back up the fence with nails as foot posts. (facing in) and someone kept saying something like, "You wish you know now what you knew then" or "You wish you knew them what you know now".


A big bodybuilder fellow came over and gave me a piggy back ride. I was supposed to be figuring out how to put my shoes on. There was some heavy metal music and he kept saying how he would squat 315 for 6.

Then it showed this hip-hop music video thing with a series of curtains I'd pass through. I told C I sisn't like this kind of thing.

Well, I don't remember those very clearly but enough of them. I had a good day but didn't practice any waking life recall. Just didn't want to. So, IDK if that will lower my dream recall tonight. I will just be aware of the results. There are also other factors like its much hotter tonight. Anyway, I probably slept 3 hours so far.

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I had some RBFA. One ended with a video game type of thing and something about "honesty". There were some kind of monster spiders. I think there were 4 police officers who caught the monster and stabbed it to death and came out covered in blood. The video game itself was very surreal.

Then I woke up, re-remembered that, went back to sleep.

In the next dreams I remember my friend M S taking care of a young kid. His mom L C was watching. The kid coughed up one smaller black and white fur ball and then two big (3-6 inch diameter) fur balls. It looked very painful for the kid, like they had been in there a while. I think L C was mad at M S for that.

THen it showed this red devilish kind of character talking to another character. They were in a parallel universe to the one in the dream, but overlayed in the same "location". The devilish guy made it so that M S could see the parallel universe through his telescope. Then there was some kind of arrangement made, maybe about helping the kid.


I remember another part where O A helped me remember the video game dream I forgot. It was amazing. I wasn't even lucid. I was in a class room setting and the topic of dream recall came up. I yelled at O A and the other people for not recalling their dreams right when they woke up, then eventually changed my tone to admit how I was sad that I had forgotten my dream that night. (That seemed alot healthier and I felt bad about yelling at everyone.) O A showed me a screen with my entire video game dream from before that I'd forgotten. I still don't remember it now but I remember seeing it like, "Wow! That's it!" And when I think about it I think it was the same dream.

There was this part about jumping up and evading fire balls. And another part in a building with an outline of a character. Kind of surreal or hard to put into words now.


There was something with a dome thing. And then a woman character opening the door to the dome thing. I'm not sure exactly what that one was.

My Dad had bought presents for my sister online. They were shoes in a box wrapped in some kind of soft wrapping material. Semi transparent white. And another heavy gift. I was to put those somewhere.

There was a part where I was sitting in a chair, skinning a sweet potato. In the kitchen. It was morning. I felt really driven to complete my food prep in the morning for some reason, even though I felt adrenalized. And wouldn't have any time later because I was thinking of my school day. Physical Education class had been last Friday so it wouldn't be this Friday (alternating days). While I skinned the sweet potato, someone named Doug was on the phone meeting, making a pun about grandparents. Dad was also cooking right behind my chair and so it was kind of crowded in there.

I remember going to the class or school thing but then trying to get to play outside instead. I had been afraid to rest that morning because I was afraid if I laid down I would never get up. Interesting because I am trying to address and let go of that fear in WA.

Below part is my analysis of why my recall lagged:

Spoiler for Why my recall lagged:

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So, I had much less recall tonight. Here were some of the reasons I think that caused this:
1 - Exhaustion from not sleeping well previous nights. Led to being literally unable to force myself to dream journal and more RBFAs. Solution: Allow myself the sleep I need and dream recall will come up again once that bounces back.

2 - Feelings in relationship. I think they caused me to have more different neurotransmitters going. Solution: Probably not going to stop talking to her. I will still go to bed on time but hopefully I just get used to it and it doesn't affect my dream recall.

3 - Didn't do Waking Life Recall. Just didn't feel like it. Solution: Wait until I'm willing to do WLR, I guess. I can't force myself to do it. So I just have to accept that i'm not that into WLR and wait to be interested again.

4 - Noise from fan. Last night I had to have the fan on all night. I think it drowns out my thoughts when attempting recall. Solution: Can't really turn it off due to heat. Maybe when I install AC I can run that a while and then turn it off and it will be quiet and cool. Other than that just wait for cooler nights where no noise-producing cooling equipment is needed. And accept it for now.

The main thing seems to be that I'm just so exhausted from night after night of insomnia or forcing myself to DJ that I'm getting more RBFA's. So, I just have to be gentle with myself about DJ'ing... If I need sleep, I gotta just let myself sleep.

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