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      by , 07-07-2018 at 03:37 PM
      I went to bed a little before 9. I found some funny videos online and then played two Pokemon Battles before 8:30 and then got to bed. I didn't do waking life recall.

      I remember something about Goku fighting Frieza at the football field. There were more details in these early dreams I didn't re-remember.

      I remember something about walking through the woods. And a "Wobbuffet Wall" which was a wall with lots of little places to get a foot or a hand hold and climb up. They were barely an inch wide of surface but I was able to use them to climb. Getting down was tricky. I couldn't get a good footing on the way down.

      I remember a part where I got a new laptop. I was trying to dial in to the Saturday W A meeting. I kept telling my sister that I wouldn't be available until after the meeting but she kept trying to talk to me.

      I remember something about needing a second access code to enter the meeting. And something about being excluded from "the park". I wanted to get into the meeting but couldn't.

      I originally remembered more of these dreams but didn't re-remember them due to mind wandering.

      I went back to sleep again, which surprised me. I remember some non-lucid dreams before becoming lucid.

      I had a dream that I had started a diet soda habit. I wondered how long it had been since I picked this up. It took me a while to realize that it contained sweeteners. That was when I was in nana's den. I started to worry.

      I remember being in the front lawn, doing something with the grass. I was thinking about a beverage that tasted like alcohol but didn't contain any alcohol. And telling people at A A about it. It wasn't non-alcoholic beer, which still contains some alcohol.

      I remember packing up to move. I was either at 24 or 15. I had most of my stuff ready to go. My mom said not to hurry because we had a whole year before we had to be fully moved. 'A year?' I thought. 'That's a long time! How did they keep both houses for so long?'

      I remember dreaming that I woke up in the back of my dad's van as he drove to work. I thought I had asked him to bring me for the drive. We were on a really windy back road. I wondered if it was safe to drive so fast. We reached a point where some rocks tumbled down, and he had to back out. I used telekinesis to move the rocks off the road, without knowing it was a dream. They were giant boulders.

      I remember a false awakening kind of thing. I was looking at my own forehead, and saw that I had many red pimples. I began to count them. There were around 15.

      'Is this really my forehead?' I thought. 'Maybe I will try a finger palm test.' Sure enough, my finger went through, and I was lucid in the dream world. There was some plastic on the wall ahead of me. In this beginning part, I couldn't move much. I just stayed still and slightly looked around. Eventually I tried moving and the dream collapsed.

      The dream started back up, though. I remember a glass window. There were some asian people in a room, about to be served food. I wanted food. They seemed to be looking at me through the glass. I jumped right through the glass, phasing through it, and that surprised them!

      I sat with the two asian people, hoping to be brought food. An older woman brought out two meals. She gave one to one of the people and one to me, but skipped the middle person. I felt bad. The food must have been just for those two, so I got up to go find food elsewhere.

      After walking around a little, I found a shopping center kind of thing. For some time, it became a video game interface. I got food, but didn't really experience eating it because it was more of a video game thing.

      Then there was something about a history lesson the people there were hiding from me. I didn't push them to tell me. I just went looking for more dream food.

      I walked over to an office place with a receptionist desk out front. At the desk there was some kind of clock thing. Two people were waiting for an appointment, a man and a woman. The woman had two plates which each had a big pile of dough balls. One of the sets of dough balls had powdered sugar and the other didn't. I asked for some and she shared. They were delicious!

      I was surprised that the dream continued. I had a pull-up competition with a guy accross from me. He started doing them faster than I could, and won the competition.

      I think I walked off somewhere down a sidewalk to find more places in the dream and woke up.

      I finished the outline around 9:30 A M, meaning I actually slept enough for a change. That last sleep cycle made a big difference. Until today I was having trouble with being up too early and unable to get back to sleep.
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      by , 07-06-2018 at 12:29 PM
      I went to bed around 8:30 P M after 4 episodes of DB Super and a long round of Pokemon Battles. I tried to meditate a little before going to sleep.

      The first time I woke up, I had some dream recall. I remembered some earlier parts but couldn't re-remember them later. Because my re-remembering is not working, I might need ot start writing them throughout the night, each time I wake up.

      Where my memory starts, I am in an auditorium. It is some kind of recovery meeting. The dog from my college house, L, comes and puts her feet on everyone in my row, one at a time, and eventually gets to me. It is a way of greeting us.

      From behind me, I can hear M R say, "The big book is the real recovery book." It is supposed to be more of an A C A meeting so I get pretty ticked off. I say, "I hate that A A big book. The A C A red book is the real recovery book."

      I remember a passage from there that talked about staying calm and riding out the storms of early sobriety. A B was saying how he accidentally had a slip last night, so he came back to the meeting. He said some people get sober by necesity and some get sober by their intention.

      I remember at the end of the first round of dreams, I was driving to a restaurant. I was with someone else. We were going to a sushi place. We stopped at a smaller sushi place but then left to get to the big restaurant place. As we drove, we got to a 3 way intersection which came to a T. People began closing in on us from each side. We had no where to go. As they closed in on us, I woke up.

      I got up to use the rest room that time. When I laid back down, I could re-play the dreams in my mind and try to form a memory of them. Luckily I re-remembered some later.

      From the next round of dreams, I remember a T I song. I forgot the words, but he had multi-syllable rhymes. I was reading the lyrics as I heard the song. The rhymes were pretty good.

      I remember stuff with people from my college house.

      I remember a part with a side scroller game. The platforms were black. J R was going along the platforms. At the end, there were some tilted platforms he had to jump between. They were too slippery. I suggested he add some grip tape. When I went to add the grip tape, it kept sliding off anyway. There was nothing to stick the grip tape to the platform.

      I remember being in town near the A T M and food store, trying to call my dad. I am not sure why I was trying to call him.

      I remember a restaurant. The owner or manager went to the back with his son to take a break. He said that we could serve ourselves.

      There were shellfish and donuts. I got a donut that looked to be filled with icing. G F commented that my donut must be creme filled but his didn't seem to be. I wondered if the donuts would taste like shell fish. I think E S was there.

      I forgot the ending of those dreams. I remembered those dreams the least. I must have gone back to sleep the soonest.

      I remember dreaming of pizza boxes. Some pizza boxes were open. I remember someone said to keep them closed so that the pizza would stay warm. Due to less air exposure.

      I remember going to some kind of class at a gym. A girl in the locker room was putting her yogurt in her locker until after the class. When I tried to tell her that it wasn't safe to leave it out so long, she said, "It's only a minute." But really, it wasn't! She needed to put that yogurt in the fridge.

      I remember a part when I was at a gym. I was pacing around near the machines, probably between sets. A guy there asked me something like, "Are you okay?" I said that I was fine but my shoulder was just not doing well today.

      Then some people appeared who seemed important. The scene shifted to being in a food court. I saw the guy standing by their table like they were important.

      "Get us some chips," the one guy said. So he ran off to get them chips. Then he got back and they ate the chips. "If we have all this power, to manifest anything at will, why did we just ask that guy to get us chips?" the one on the left said. The guy on the right responded something about pretending to have to live within the limitations of this world some times.

      I didn't know it was a dream. I was really convinced that these were people who had gained lots of power.

      I remember being in a class room. There was a song on a youtube video and the chalk board. It mentioned alcoholism, a higher power, and some other concepts. One line said that there must be a future, because if someone touches a power line, people get sick.

      I remember seeing someone talk to their girlfriend. They said they would make sure to stay up late so they could spend time with their girlfriend. "I will sleep more during the day so I can be up at night," he said. I guess she had a late work schedule. He said that sleep makes him evil.

      That bothered me because it is a negative view of sleep. I try to see sleep as a positive thing. I don't think any harm can come from sleep, while lots of harm can come from a deficit of sleep. I've had trouble sleeping for most of my life so I need all the encouragement to sleep I can get. I am aware that some people have a really easy time sleeping as much as they want, and wish they could be awake more often.

      I remember something in nana's living room. R K was fighting with a teacher. The teacher tried to pull me to her side. I also remember being in town and R K seemed to get along with N R. It was late and people were out drinking. I think I saw a van and thought of going to sleep.

      I remember the front of C L's house. He had some garbage out front. It looked all burnt up.

      I remember L K talking with me. She said sometimes she smokes. I told her that's bad, and she tried to minimize the harm of it. I continued to push the concept that the smoke travels over 50 feet and infects everyone around. There is no safe level of exposure. And so on. She wouldn't really listen.

      Then, she was fighting with someone else over some cookies that were at the table in front of me. To spite her, I threw the cookies over the fence.

      Then there was a thing about how the neighbor's dog would be eating play dough if we didn't pick them up. But I felt so angry that I didn't go to pick them up right away. I knew I could just reach over with the grabber but was feeling stubborn.

      I remember S S was in this next part. I was trying to fashion an angled platform. I had this metal platform thing and bent it all up. S S came out to bend it back.

      I remember people walking down an aisle. Gandalf played music on a keyboard kind of thing, and sung. There was a poster with folding panels that swung around. Some panels were behind the others. I think the performance was for some kind of royal people.

      I remember the dream came back around to picking up the play dough from the other side of the fence. My dad was out there. To get a sense of how to reach over, I went on google images, and tried to see an overhead view of my neighborhood. I showed my dad the old pictures from before the deck was built.

      He was right near the part of the fence where the play dough was. I didn't want him to know what I was doing. I tried to discreetly get the play dough.

      I woke up, took my supplements, but couldn't sleep again. Maybe it was the heat. It's only 6:44 A M so that seems a little too early to be up.
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      memorable , non-lucid
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      by , 07-05-2018 at 02:02 PM
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      I slept surprisingly well. I went to bed around 9 and didn't hear a single fire work all night. I watched the third Hobbit movie before bed and ended up finishing the whole thing. I did some waking life recall afterward. My dream recall still felt low tonight. I remembered something from my first round of dreams but couldn't re-remember it.

      I remember something about only being able to sign in from 9 P M to 4 A M. There was something with a vending machine. There was more to this. It was some kind of school or job thing. I don't rememeber now.

      I remember getting to my cousin J's house. I was at the back sliding door with some other people, waiting to be let in. I was with Uncle R and some others. One of them just let themselves in. I wasn't planning on being so bold.

      The house was arranged with 5 beds. One in the center and one in each of the 4 corners. Behind each bed in the corner, there was a fireplace, which had a fire going. The ceiling was opened to the sky. When I mentioned it, they showed me that they could pull some kind of fence thing over it to close it.

      I remember laying on one of the couches upside down, on a comfortable cushion, talking to some people there. We were asked by someone like M S's mom to go pick up some black vinyl tape and labels from the store. So, we went there.

      We got just one roll of the black vinyl tape, but they wanted more. So, we went back to get 4 more. I realized I had put a different name on the labels than they had asked. It was because the default name on the labels hadn't changed. 'Oops!' I thought.

      There were some bird house things we could clean to earn some money. I tried to do it. There was gunk all over the sides. Someone said we didn't get paid to clean that part.

      I remember a girl near a fence. I forgot if she was calling for help or trying to re-join us. 3 guys on the other side of the fence approached her. They got under the fence and captured her.

      I think I woke up around then, used the rest room, and took some supplements. I tried to form some memories of the dreams and fell back asleep pretty quickly.

      I remember being out kind of late. I was playing Pokemon battles. Near each of my Pokemon, the speed stat was listed. I noticed I had 2 Pokemon with 238 speed, which is relatively high. Their speed was lower.

      They had a Lugia who could cut half its HP and get some kind of power boost. They used it on one of my Pokemon, but I knew they couldn't do it again. Well, I feared they would Roost off the damage and do it again if I didn't take the chance to defeat Lugia.

      I sent in someone faster. Suddenly, they had a new Pokemon out. It was a dragon type with 100% HP. I looked through my moves, knowing I was dragon type, too. 'Oh no!' I thought. 'No dragon moves!' Then I saw it. A special 105 base power dragon move. 'Lets try it!' I said to myself, knowing that if it didn't do 100% damage, I'd have to take one of their dragon moves in return.

      It was like the last few percent points of their HP hesitated to go down. But they went down to 0%. I was so relieved. I think after that, Lugia was their last Pokemon, and it was easier to defeat, having much more speed.

      I remember thinking about or seeing a card game. I was thinking of some kind of endure-reversal stategy, but using cards. I think I had a Marowak card.

      I ahd been borrowing someone else's Pokemon. They offered me some more Pokemon to continue battling. I wanted to keep battling, but I realized I had already had soda and tea, so I didn't want any more beverages like that. "I just need to brush my teeth and get a water," I said. It was almost bed time anyway.

      I went to do that, hoping they would wait for me. When I walked into the other room, it was like the dining room in my college house.

      They were calling someone on the couch "William Hung" and saying that he had a lot of facebook friends. But they were kind of mocking him. I went back to the kitchen, and W H was at the door. He said he would give out free Pokemon cards. I just had to fill out a form.

      He showed me the form. It was kind of lengthy. It had a place for my social security number, but with four spaces instead of three. When I told him I might need more time, he eliminated part of the form, leaving me only with a questionnaire page.

      I remember W H lit an indoor vapor poison thing and it lit up blue at the end. I thought it was a regular poison thing and tried to grab it from him, to put it out. When I grabbed it, I could feel that it was more solid, like a pencil, because it was the vaporizing kind. We fought about it. I remember looking at the water dispensers on the silver fridge. I said even vaporizing poison indoors spreads toxins, even if it doesn't smell.

      I remember they went on some elevator things. They were doing some kind of space mission or research.

      I remember spying on J V as he poured a cup of coffee. I wondered what kind of sweeteners he would use. Because his dad was a dentist, it seemed like he was hiding the sweeteners. I imagined a white sugar or artificial sweetener packet. He kept trying to make sure no one saw.

      I remember something with vaccuums. I used one vaccuum to clean up all this gunk. But then the vaccuum was leaking, so I had to use another vaccuum to clean up after that vaccuum. I vaccuumed out the inside of one vaccuum with the other vaccuum.

      I remember a dream scene where I was looking at dollar bills. I was commenting on how they look very old fashioned. I didn't realize that was a dream memory until this morning. I thought it was waking life.

      I remember Bilbo stowing away in someone's luggage. When they got to the person's house, Bilbo was talking to himself. "What do they see?" He asked. "My behavior." So his plan was to use his behavior to deceive whoever it was. He wanted to leave before they found him, but then they found him. The person thought it was funny that Bilbo had stowed away in their luggage.

      I remember a drawing I had made. It seemed special. I wanted to take a picture of it. I tried lighting up my camera and using a flash on my phone. I remember angling my head to look past the camera. I was thinking, 'Wait, no, I have to look through the camera to see what I'm photographing.'

      I remember lots of slush in the driveway. It was morning. Some people wanted help from a young girl there. I guess I was supervising the kids. I pushed the slush around in the driveway. It felt like moving all the slush would take forever.

      Well, that was it for tonight. I wonder if I need to start writing the dreams before going back to sleep again. Or if its something in my waking life practices.
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      non-lucid , memorable
    4. 1,634 Words

      by , 07-04-2018 at 12:53 PM
      My dreams tonight were cool, but my recall was very low. I think it was because I stayed kind of busy all day without stopping to be mindful or practice much waking life recall. For example, I went to the gym, but instead of writing about it, I played Pokemon Battles. Then, I didn't write much about the Battles, either. Every time I thought of stopping to do waking life recall, I just went and did more activity instead. Then, I watched the last 2 hours of Desolation of Smaug back to back without stopping for recall. By then, I was too exhausted. So, I regret that now, because my dream recall was much lower.

      I went to bed around 8:30.

      (zzz)

      Round 1 of Dreams.

      I remember something early on about being in some mines. This part seemed eventful, but I could only remember it vaguely.

      I remember I was a dog character, walking through the woods. I was leaving my home to go somewhere else. I got to another place with a big dirt quarry. Some people were working there.

      When I arrived, they adamantly said that I couldn't be there. So, I had to leave again. I remember walking around some hallways of my high school.

      I remember something with a bathroom stall. And talking briefly to J L.

      At the end, I remember there were people coming after us to collect these dark orb things we had inside us. We tried to hide, but they could track them. Oh! Now I remember. I woke up briefly, then dreamed this next part.

      I was near a bridge with a teacher guy. He said that the dark orb was similar to my heart. He told me that if I would meditate to a place of quietness, I would hear my heart beat. I would also hear the dark orb. Then, I would be able to control its signal and stop the bad guys from tracking it.

      I'm so glad I remembered that! That detail seemed long lost.

      I woke up and recalled those. Then, got up briefly, used restroom, took supplements and went back to sleep. I was very groggy, and didn't re-remember everything I initially remembered.

      (zzz)

      Rounds 2 and beyond of dreams.

      I remember being near 24. Down the road a little, some kids were playing ball in their yard. They had a purple kick ball. They kicked it really hard and it went flying down toward the end of the road where I was. I ran to kick it back to them before it got too far away, or hit something.

      When I kicked it, instead of going back to them, it went flying off to my left. It bounced to one neighbor's yard, then over another's fence, and into another's yard. I got ready to tell their dad its location since no one else would have seen.

      Their dad walked towards me, lighting a poisonous cigarette. (All cigarettes are poisonous.) "Please, don't light that until you're away from me," I said. "I want to tell you where the ball has gone, but I can't be near you if you're smoking that." He stopped smoking and I told him where the ball had got to.

      I remember a part where I was brushing my teeth in the bathroom at 24. I also remember J L from that part.

      I think I dreamed about something with my sister and something with a library.

      I remember telling my Aunt C to quit smoking. We were looking at a computer. She kept saying all these excuses why she couldn't quit. I kept telling her those are all just excuses. The funny thing is, Aunt C is the one relative who has actually quit smoking.

      I remember being near a waterfall. We were floating above it in a lake part. Someone did some magic that created a place to sit and eat, and have a secret meeting. He made some pillars with seats attached, the backs of which faced the waterfall. We got to sit at the pillars, and eat dessert foods.

      I remember the guy who magically made the place said that if anyone found out some of his crimes, he'd go to jail. So, he wasn't going to tell what he did. We had to keep it a secret.

      I remember being at a table in the corner. Q was there. There was a guy who wanted someone to pass him bread, but no one was getting up. I used telekinesis and perfectly lifted the bread and sent it to him, from accross the room. Then, I got him the butter. I noticed the salt and pepper, and brought those over, too.

      I thought that Q would think I was so cool! Then, the salt accidentally spilled on the guy's food. "I didn't even want salt!" he said, and started to get up. "You're not gonna try to play it off like 'it must be [diety]'s will because it happened, are you?" He asked, with contempt.

      "No," I said. "Of course not." And it was true. "I don't think that way. I hate those ideas." That seemed to help a little. I remember looking into his angry eyes.

      There was something about how we were going to have a victory party. We knew the bad guys were coming, but according to the schedule, we had spare time. So we were going to have a victory party, then leave before the bad guys arrived.

      The bad guys arrived early! There were so many of them, the place was totally crowded. They looked kinda like the triangle head guys from the Clone Vegeta saga, but with horns.

      My first plan was to become invisible, fly over to Q, and then teleport away with her so we could be safe.

      I remember something about a Pokemon who leveled up with love. When they received 20 "Loves" they would level up. So it was going around collecting those.

      I remember looking at a blue Pokemon card during a conversation. The dream had designed the card.

      I remember being near a giant indoor pool. I was bouncing on the pool ladder. I had to follow specific instructions for how I bounced. During the final bounce, I accidentally sent myself flying high in the air and way accross the pool. One of the bad guys made a mean comment about it.

      I swam accross the pool with some other swimmers.

      I remember sitting in an auditorium. A few seats to my left was one of the bad guys. He was making sure we didn't run away or anything. He was talking about who caused some of the problems in his life. "Can I use the bathroom?" I asked.

      My plan was to ask ahead of time, before I really needed to go, in case there was any delay.

      Eventually, the part with the bad guys ended. The guy who I had gotten bread for with telekinesis was with me. I will call him B. B showed me a battery that could be charged by clamping it to someone's skin. They had to be male though, not female.

      "Why don't you clamp it to yourself?" I asked. He said something about a problem with his skin that made it not work. I said I would charge it for him then.

      We got to another location indoors. I saw Q there with another woman. Apparently she had become partners with that woman and they left together. In the dream context, she was my girlfriend. 'She must have thought I wouldn't protect her any more,' I thought. 'I have to go after her!' So I went to follow her.

      As I was leaving, I saw the row of people in the room, including myself, all turn into silhouettes. I felt stuck for a moment as I tried to leave. I think I saw Vegeta's face.

      I had been waking up here and there, doing some recall, and falling back to sleep. I was very groggy and exhausted through the night. I guess it's just more learning experience. When I can do more waking life recall, instead of constant activity, I will get better results on dream recall.
      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable
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      by , 07-03-2018 at 12:27 PM
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      I went to bed around 9:15. During the day, I wasn't able to do my recall practices as much as I had done the previous days. Instead of stopping to do recall, I kept doing activities. I didn't want to stop. It wasn't until the end of the day I decided to do some recall. So, I guess thats okay. It's probably outside my will power sometimes.

      (zzz)

      Round 1 of Dreams.

      The earliest thing I remember is frying a few eggs at 24. My dad was saying how they need to be cooked perfectly because the egg yolk is like a miracle. I saw the white parts of the eggs fry up, but was careful not to burst or overcook the yolk.

      There was a part when my sister had a boyfriend. I think she was seeing if I approved of him. Or just introducing me.

      He talked about his life in a way that reminded me of myself a few years ago. I deemed him too workaholic. I remember seeing some green plants on the ground. We were near where we put the garbage out. We had lif ted up some big object and a bunch of bugs had scattered from underneath it.

      I remember something about being invited to a thing maybe in May. I was sad that I had missed it. Then the date changed to June. I was able to go to that one. Suddenly I was seeing the event. It showed a group of people in a circle. I think one or two people were smoking, which I didn't approve of.

      I remember seeing one of the make up artists sitting with one of the actresses. It was preparation for a movie. They had some kind of circle dish with cream. They designed the cream to look like stucco. Then they would stick the dish to the woman's forehead. It was part of her costume.

      She turned out not to speak any English. Only Spanish. The guy called someone else over, maybe someone in charge. They tried to tell each other that she doesn't speak English, but in Spanish, but using different words.

      I remember being at someone's door. I had a funny name in my mind. It was something like Volumize. I was going to say that was my name.

      I got a bad feeling that someone would be smoking. The person who opened the door wasn't smoking. But another older man that came around the corner was smoking. 'Oh no!' I thought. 'Gotta run!'

      I held my breath and ran. I desperately needed to breathe again but I thought I'd still be in range. When I finally let myself breathe, I was relieved to find that I was out of range of the smoke.

      I yelled at the smoker guy. I forgot what we said to each other. I think I got in a car, and drove off. I hate smokers.

      In the next part there was a funny cartoon. The way it was drawn, is hard to describe. The proportions were very interesting. There were some block letters with the title that showed. I remember black, white and gold. I remember one cartoon character's head, showing the right ear way lower than the left.

      I remember standing near some kind of river or water channel. We were indoors. A red orange snake kind of alien swam by and knocked me into the water with its tail. I remember thinking, 'This must be because I fought with someone earlier, and they are trying to take me down.'

      Animorphs came to mind. I thought of morphing into a giant sea monster who could battle the red orange sea snake thing.

      I was pulled out of the water. Someone examined me. I forgot exactly what else happened. I saw more cartoon images.

      I remember driving somewhere. I was thinking about laying down for 30 minute intervals to rest before continuing with the day. And how that would help me maintain my energy. It was night time. I realized I was far from home, and going further away.

      I went to turn around in a bank parking lot. I think it was a Chase bank. The U turn I made in there was kind of wide and reckless. There was one road that I thought would be really congested. I turned around to try to get to the road with less traffic.

      Without me realizing, it became daytime. I was driving around a building, but then I was on a bike, or just walking and wheeling a bike along side me. I saw a little sign that said something about a temple.

      Ahead of me, not too far away, there were two guys on bikes, with black ski masks. 'Are they robbers or criminals?' I thought. I was frozen for a moment in fear, but hurried to jump on my bike and get away.

      The guys chased after me, but it turned out they weren't bad guys. As I rode the bike, I saw that there was a lot of snow on the narrow bike path we were on. My bike wheel was cutting into the snow, and sliding a little. They must have just been wearing the masks due to the cold weather. One mask did show the guy's whole face. The other mask had no holes in it at all though.

      They were actually members of a fraternity which was related to the "temple" sign. They were trying to "rush" people which means, find new members. I went into their fraternity house thing and they showed me around. I knew I wasn't going to join but I just wanted to give them some time since they were working so hard.

      I remember seeing a blue pamphlet about their policy or philosophies. 'Are those the 12 steps?!' I asked, as I continued reading. Sure enough, the 12 steps were listed. By that time, I had already been there a while, and decided to get going.

      I am not sure if there was anything else before waking up. I went back to sleep recalling the dreams, and still re-remembered them upon awakening. I also took my Huperzine-A 100mcg and Alpha-GPC 300mg before going back to bed.

      (zzz)

      Round 2 and 3 of Dreams.

      I remember seeing L N walking into the woods. I wanted to go for a walk too. I thought I might get to talk to her.

      She was staring at a tree stump with small stones on it. I didn't want to awkwardly stand by her as if just to wait for her to notice me. But I didn't want to interrupt either. She was really concentrating. Then, I became mesmerized by the stones, too. 'This is good,' I thought. 'I get to just stand near her while at the same time I have another reason for being here besides just waiting for her to notice me.' So I let the stones sort of hold me in place there.

      I remember a thing about a little girl at the sink. She used the hot water and hurt her feet. So, she was sad. There might have been some other parts with children.

      I remember a part with Patrick Carnes. I think I was in the kitchen at 15, listening to a talk or podcast by him. He said something about addiction and where it actually comes from that surprised me. It had to do with seeing the roots more in the Laundry List than the Other Laundry List. It is interesting because a lot of programs tend to see the roots in the Other Laundry List while the roots of addiction can be in the Laundry List in many cases. And pushing people to look at how the Other Laundry List applies to them actually makes thing worse, when the Laundry List is their real problem.

      I remember a thing near a fridge. It was a cartoon. It wasn't actually a Pokemon cartoon at first. But then Pokemon music started. 'Is that Pokemon music?' I thought.

      Sure enough, it became a Pokemon Battle. The funny thing was, it was a cartoon like Sponge Bob, and they were doing a Pokemon battle. They had H P meters and everything.

      I remember a thing about searching an online database. I think there was more to it, but I forgot.

      I remember a part when I was thinking, 'I haven't gone to A C A meetings in a while.' Then, I dropped my laptop. It flipped over and landed on the top edge of the monitor part. I hoped it hadn't broken. I thought that dropping my computer was related to not having gone to meetings some how.

      I remember a part when I was thinking about the Spanish phrase, that goes something like, "Ven aca." I was thinking, 'Does it mean "come here"?' I think there was a dog and I wanted to say "come here" in Spanish.

      I think there were a bunch of parts I totally forgot. When I woke up and tried to recall them, I drew a total blank. Well, that's sad. I think I overdid it yesterday, watching an almost 3 hour movie and playing lots of Pokemon Battles, without many breaks. So that probably cost me some dream awareness. Well, its okay.

      I noticed my sister looking over my shoulder as I went through the book. It had some private notes in it and I didn't want her seeing it. I asked her to stop looking and she didn't. I yelled, "Scram!" And she left.

      'Woah,' I thought. 'That was too harsh.' I felt so bad about that. I remember the dream showing that she stayed inside all day that day, very depressed. I felt so bad. I never want to treat my sister like that.

      I remember the dream showing me some old fashioned libraries or courtrooms. It was related to my sister's location. I remember people smoking indoors in them. I was like, 'This must be the olden days.' Someone sitting at a library desk in a black and white dress thing might have been my sister.

      When I woke up, I was glad I hadn't really yelled at my sister. And I was glad I hadn't really dropped my laptop.

      I thought I dreamed about some parts with skiing or snow boarding. Maybe being near a waterfall.
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    6. 1,492 Words

      by , 07-02-2018 at 01:22 PM
      I went to bed around 9, feeling very exhausted. Yesterday I didn't do my waking life recall as much. I watched at least 10 episodes of DB Super and played back to back Pokemon Battles.

      My recall level was still pretty good though. It didn't seem like I dreamed much more than what I remembered.

      (zzz)

      Round 1 of Dreams.

      In another scene, I was with C V, O A, and some other people. We were doing some food preparation. There was also something about a meeting. I think some women were saying about what they would or wouldn't eat.

      I was making rice with peppers and other vegetables. I realized some people might want the rice and vegetables separate, so I started to separate them. I was near a fridge.

      Someone else came by and took a bunch of ice. The ice maker looked full and the fridge was full of ice too. I think I worried we'd run out of ice, but then there was some idea about how we could add water to the ice maker, and I wasn't worried any more.

      I saw someone's bowl for food. They had something with sprinkles along the rim of the bowl.

      I had some Pokemon Battles in my dreams. One had to do with a Dragon Pokemon in the mountains. I don't remember everything about that. What I do remember is that I had a Gengar, in the lower left. The opponent Pokemon was in the upper right. It showed our HP meters like the battle screens.

      However, in this one, my Gengar could move freely. So I ran around the battlefield. It was a brown, earthy terrain. I got to a bridge and saw two orbs. Those were energy orbs. 'Wow! Free energy!' I thought, and collected them.

      I was thinking something about how they put the word "Toxic" near my name. "Toxic" is just a status condition in Pokemon but I think it was more of an insult in the dream, which is silly.

      I remember a part where a person had hired big groups of people to do experiments on "scape goats". I don't remember all the experiments, but the last one involved basketball.

      Everyone was running around the basketball court, playing. I think the person was observing the one he'd identified as the "scape goat" of the group.

      There were also some parts in that about telekinesis. Using telekinesis to push people back.

      I dreamed that I felt really tired. I was out, walking around, and decided to just walk into someone's back yard and hang out near their fence. They had a white fence. I wasn't invited and I didn't even think I knew the people. I just thought I could walk into their back yard and hang out for a while.

      I felt so embarrassed when B W came walking towards me. Apparently, B W lived there! He asked about what I was doing there.

      I didn't really have a good explanation. I watched some cars drive by, and thought about stuff. Also, a big bus drove by, and I think it related to a prom.

      B W said something about how I always do certain kinds of things. I forgot the exact phrase. He had very thin brown eyebrows and brown eyes which I think is different from waking life. I haven't seen him in a while, so I don't know.

      I woke up from that, pretty relieved it had just been a dream! I was able to recall it and keep it in my mind until later.

      Something with weight lifting or RS/RM comes to mind but I can't quite place it.

      It felt like I had slept a long time, so I took my Huperzine-A 100mcg and Alpha-GPC 300mg before going back to bed. I am trying to get the timing of that stuff right.

      (zzz)

      Round 2 of Dreams.

      I remember something about two people jumping out in front of a moving bus. I forgot why. They let the bus sort of push them along the road. Maybe it was a kind of protest.

      I remember dreaming about someone who had defeated Goku. I felt sad. I think it was Trunks. Goku seemed sad and depressed.

      I remember being on the road, but maybe walking instead of driving? I think I was with W N. We were turning left to go somewhere. I got a bit ahead of him. I think there was stuff with people from my college house, too.

      I remember more Pokemon Battles. In one battle, I was against a Rapidash, who was using Calm Mind. I figured their plan was to get at least 2 Calm minds before doing anything. I kept using Extremespeed and got them down to 1% HP.

      There was another Pokemon Battle where they had Leech Seed. I forgot who the Pokemon were but one had Recover. I was trying to take out their HP before Leech Seed took me down.

      I remember getting inside, and there were these platforms. I think there was a little spot I teleported to, also. Like a portal.

      I was supposed to walk back up. There were a lot of ramps and steps, and the platforms seemed to be floating in space.

      I had these rocks that I was able to do telekinesis on. I wasn't aware it was a dream, but I had some powers. I had some conscious control of my actions, too, and felt myself using the abilities first hand, but just didn't know it was a dream.

      I was able to put out my hands and pull the items to me while breathing in. I had a sense that pulling went with breathing in. One rock was a little heavier and I had to put my hands closer, but I could still pull it to me.

      I headed up the stairs and platforms, excited to show everyone what I could do. When I got to the top, someone from my college house was talking. He wasn't talking from a religious perspective but he still used the word "sin". I felt kind of ticked off at the religious language.

      I walked by someone else who said, "I hate when they use that word." I was like, "Me too!!!" And felt much better.

      I walked to the back aisle between two rows of seats. The place was kind of like a church. I remember the guy said he didn't like people to speak while he spoke. Normally this would tick me off, the authoritarian attitude, but he was younger than me, so I yelled, "Sorry!" As loud as I could. The place was so big, I could hardly hear myself.

      'I know! I will fly up over the middle row to the other side, and back towards those platforms,' I thought. So, that's what I did. I was able to fly up and over, but it was a little hard to aim for the door. I ended up flying into a white wall that hung over the place. It wasn't a crash, I just gently flew into it and then let myself down to walk from there. Still, I flew!

      I might have gone down into that room again. If I did, I don't remember what was there. Maybe another Pokemon Battle.

      I woke up from those and recalled them. My recall was good. I was happy with the recall. It's kind of a relief to be done writing so early. It's only 7:41 A M and I'm done.
    7. 1,569 Words

      by , 07-01-2018 at 11:56 AM
      I went to bed around 9, after a series of Pokemon Battles which I stopped around 8:14. There was an annoying noise, like someone was playing music in the distance.

      (zzz)

      Round 1 of dreams.

      The first time I woke up, I remembered a lot, and thought through them a few times. The next time I woke up, I couldn't re-remember most of it. That was sad! It works most of the time.

      I remember one part when I was in Nana's living room. K S was there. We were talking about reading the meeting format for our group. She said, "You wouldn't want to do your will," and it really ticked me off. I said, "Yes, I want to do my will!" And went into this whole thing about how "I'm not going to keep saying I will do the will of some imaginary diety," with a lot of anger at K S and the other TWNMBD people there.

      There were some parts I wasn't sure if they belonged in round 1 or 2 of dreams so I will put them in round 2.

      (zzz)

      Round 2 of Dreams.

      I remember a part where I was on a cell phone app. And on a page where someone was asking if certain functions of the app don't work on other peoples phones. It had a black and white interface.

      I remember going into a gas station or 7 11 kind of thing. There was an Indian man at the counter. I went in for a free slushy but didn't really want the slushy. I opened my wallet to donate a dollar anyway.

      There was this part with J T and blue solo cups. Something about how the solo cups needed to be cut into strips. Also I remember a frying pan being used. J T had cut the cup into jagged and dangerous strips. I knew they were supposed to be straight.

      The manager came along. He was like J from SWT. He didn't approve of the way the cups were cut. I realized he would assume I had been the one to cut them wrong. So I made sure to make it clear that J T had done it. I felt bad for this, but I would be blamed my default, and that wasn't fair!

      There was a part in a class room. I remember the teacher said that A R liked something about my writings or other work. So I talked to her about it. S S was there. I forgot all the details, but I remember telling everyone the importance of recovery from religion and the importance of resting and relaxing. Everyone seemed interested.

      I remember walking around and going into someone's house. It was someone like T M. She had a beard though. I forgot some details of this scene. But I remember she had boots on. In order to hide her height, she had bent her feet up into the leg part of the boot, not put them into the foot part. I could see them poking out. I wondered if that actually reduced her height, since her heels still touched the ground at the same place. Maybe she wanted me to get something for her.

      I remember being at the big food store and looking at some display with adjustable lighting. It may have been the produce section. I wanted to adjust the lighting down a bit. There was a reason but I forgot why.

      An electrical engineering woman, whose name I forgot, came out to tell me not to adjust the light. I said I needed it to be dimmer. I remember being on the phone with her, and going over her website. She was very busy with electrical engineering, but wanted me to review her website and then we could talk. I was embarrassed about the fact that I was an electrical engineering major in college, and yet, didn't know these things.

      At first, we were talking about the lighting, but I asked her about EMF's. She had a whole page about that, too. So I looked forward to our conversation. Her website was like the ones that sell the faraday cages.

      She also told me that she had a condition where she grew fur, like a mouse. It became part of the plot later in a minor way.

      I remember I had a friend in real-estate who gave me a property to sell. It was a big brick building with a huge glass window that looked out on a nice grassy field and other brick buildings. Someone was definitely going to buy it, and I would get the commission. I wondered why they would do something so nice for me. I remember looking at a cell phone, thinking about it, maybe sitting at a table by nana's pool.

      I remember sitting in a restaurant with some friends. We were doing some kind of I-spy thing. Part of it was to find two furry people. We found one and my friend was like, "They have rat fur!" Then the electrical engineer woman walked in. She had on a dress, showing that her back had lots of white-grey, curly hair.

      I didn't want her to be dragged into our game, since I knew her personally, and wanted her help with the electricity stuff. My friend said, "Look, she has rat fur/hair!" She said, "It's not rat hair, it's human hair."

      Then from a table behind me, someone said, "I hate smokers! When they spread their poisonous fumes out the window while driving, it's worse than a drive-by." I was so happy to hear someone say that. I said, "Yeah! I hate smokers, too!"

      Someone else was yelling at me. Apparently I had ignored them before. I yelled back at them in a yelling voice, but saying apologies, and that I wished we could be friends. They left and kept yelling at me as they left.

      I remember some Pokemon battles. I had to re-play each of them. In one, I was deciding whether to leave a certain Pokemon in play, based on whether or not it would one-hit K O the opponent. I decided to go for it. They sliced the opponent in half. But then it showed the opponent in one piece, laughing and walking off to the side. Showing that it was just a game and no one was really getting hurt.

      I remember another Pokemon battle scene where I had a Steel type Pokemon. At first, my steel move did like 50%, so I expected to K O next turn but it only did 25%. I didn't know why. That was the second time I had done the battle. I also noticed I had a move with 10 base power and 25 PP in the bottom right. I was like, 'Why would they include that??' The Pokemon I was using was like Golem. I wonder if I will notice differences between my Pokemon battles in dreams from the ones in waking life and get lucid. So far some of the differences have been, repeat battles, move damage seeming random, and silly moves.

      I remember the kid who had been yelling at me met up with me again as we were leaving. He said that my sister had gotten into a bus or train with their friends and left him behind. I remember seeing a mental image of the bus driver and a red stop sign. He tried to run after the bus/train but they wouldn't stop.

      I told him he could stay with my friends and I. He thought we were lame because we were an older crowd, and declined the offer. I thought to myself, 'We might be older, but we know each other well.'

      I thought I saw N M, a friend from school, but his arms weren't bodybuilder sized. So I figured it wasn't him. I got all excited to say hi but then kept talking to my other friend.

      I remember a part when I was driving my car to leave the city. We had been in the city for some kind of celebration, like new years eve. We thought it would be too early to leave, and traffic would be very congested. But still, I was tired, and wanted to go home.

      I got to one street and it was closed down, so they could run street sweeper trucks. I turned around and went the other way. While doing a U Turn, I thought about song lyrics which rhymed the words "love you" with "snorkle".

      I woke up and recalled those, then found I couldn't fully re-remember round 1. I remembered something with a part where I was gonna write, "[something] with another word after it" in quotes with the word something in brackets because I forgot that half. It was just OTTOTT though.

      I finished the outline by 6 A M and the entry by 6:50 A M. I guess it's nice to have the dream journal entry all done a little earlier, since yesterday's was over 4,000 words and took until 10 A M.