side notes

Sorry team, had 2 non-lucids but life got in the way & I couldn't log either. Sigh. Kids are now gone though, so I'm hopeful for tonight.

1 pt non lucid
2 pts wbtb
= 3 3 + 105= 108 for total contest

3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


I was working in this pet store. It was really odd. There was one huge tank in particular that was like a big globe w/ a see through bottom & was way up in the air. I was almost under it but to the side. I saw a shark in it & shot at it which shattered the tank. Everyone was mad at me & we were all scrambling to save the fish & other creatures in the tank. I found these 3 kittens that were the size of a new born kitten & they were gasping for air & soaked. I didn't know how to help them. I was so confused because I couldn't tell if they were like some sort of "catfish" & were gasping because of not being in water or if they were essentially almost drowned some how.

Did wbtb but don't remember the last dream because I couldn't hold onto it due to a disruption in the house.

No dream recall because my grand-daughter yelled, "Hey grandma!" right by my ear & I thought the house was on fire. But she just thought she was being funny. Hence, no dream recall. I will set my alarm tomorrow & set out bowls for their cereal. Lesson learned. They are finally old enough to make their own cereal & turn on the tv so grandma can sleep in. Awe, what a great thing to finally happen! She is almost 7 & he is 5 1/2. I can't believe I haven't tried this at all over the last year!

Last night was a bust. I now have my other set of grandchildren for the next 3 days. I can sleep in my own room w/ these 2 here though. Very grateful for that so I have a better chance w/ a lucid.

1 1/2 pts- non-lucid
2 pts- wbtb
= 3 1/2 pts + 102= 105 1/2 (should be 2 pts more but the mods said no but not sure why so I'd like to know the reason for this plz.)

3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 1 task for Team Vampires
Fully transform into your team's creature (Vampire)


D1: Went out to eat w/ Ellen Degeneres & Portia & later went to a bar. Nothing exciting.
wbtb
D2: Mike & I were spending the evening back at Ellen's place & they wanted to watch football & Mike wasn't excited about this. Their dogs, cats & weird other animal were there. They looked like some science experiment went a wry. I had to find the remote in the cushions & ended up finding a bunch of old dry dog shit & some other old food & crumbs so I had to go wash my hands. It also smelled which made me choke on the smell & grossness but we all just laughed it off. Mike wants to leave cuz he's bored to death & it's turning into more of a pajama party for girls. Us girls were laying on this great big couch & grand ottoman which makes it into what looks like a big bed. As we are leaving we have to go down a bunch of steps & there is a lot of foliage, a guy who looks like an alcoholic homeless person asks Mike if he is here to mow the lawn. I'm having to pull Mike along because he is pissed off at the guy. Next a bunch of trash whore like women are throwing stuff at us from the balconies of the apartment complex that we are at. I get up the woman's face & push her & threaten to kick her ass because she is assaulting us. I go back up to Ellen's apartment & now there are more of these trashy ppl who are suddenly there hanging out w/ her & Portia. My alarm went off & I get woke up.
wbtb
D3: I was w/ s guys & 1 woman. We are coming up the steps & into an apartment. The guy who goes in first is the brother of the other guy. Suddenly there is a sound & the guy who went in first & had gone into a closet. His brother says "He went out the back of the closet!" And we are like "what?" And he says I know he did cuz I heard him run into my guitar. Then the dream changes & they guy now w/ us is out w/ his pet shark out in a cove. All of this dream was so bizarre & made no sense to me so I just can't explain it.

10 pts- First WILD of the Night
5 pts- Subsequent WILDs
2 pts- Chain a lucid
2 pts- wbtb
2 pts- interact w/ a dream character
10 pts- teleport

=31 pts & total (31+73=104 Total Contest so far)


I had trouble w/ my first 2 wbtb's & the dream recall so I won't count them.

D3 I was on this big slide & the first guy I ever had sex was w/ me. We were both back in time as young as we were then. Both way too young to be having sex but we did off & on for a few yrs in real life. Did RC but didn't need to because I realize how absurd it is that we are both young & I know I'm married to Mike. It makes me lucid & I am having sex w/ this guy which I know is a dream so I just go w/ it. We had sex behind this green house which was the actual place I lost my virginity in real life so it was all youthful fun. We were trying to do it everywhere, just like back then. I then jump forward in time & I'm w/ Gail which is my ex-girlfriend. I'm so excited to see her. I'm telling her that I just came from the past. Then my alarm goes off for my wbtb.
D4: She is still there in my WILD, now I'm chaining a WILD. But we start walking. It's all hard to describe. I'm still talking to her about jumping forward this time in time & how I came from the past. She starts to kiss me & I know it's a dream so I just go w/ it. We are making out & talking about how we have missed each other & our friendship. (We were best friends before we were girlfriends & lost our relationship in the end. It was really sad because she's battled cancer, yet she was a toxic relationship for me to be in IRL.) The scene starts to destabilize. So I jump back in time to where the guy is & we have more sex, breaking a fence in the process. When this happened, the dream tried to destabilize & I jumped forward in time to be w/ her again. I kept jumping back in forth in time & lost track of how many times I did it on purpose so I'll use the low end scale of 4 times for point purposes. Eventually my alarm went off again for another wbtb w/ no success.

Important note: I have an ethical dilemma w/ sex in dreams because I'm always lucid in such scenario because I immediately remember that I'm married. I talk to my husband about my dreams & he doesn't read my journals as an act of privacy. But, today I lied & feel like shit. I told him it wasn't lucid because he knows how real they feel & didn't want to hurt his feelings. I think I did the right thing because I had already blurted out the time jumping, the first guy thing & her & he immediately asked me if I was lucid. Hence I said no. I had a sense he was gonna freak out if I told him I kept jumping back & forth for sex while lucid. Oh the dilemma.


3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 1 task for Team Vampires
Fully transform into your team's creature (Vampire)

2 pts- non-lucid
2 pts- wbtb
10 pts- wild
1 pt- reality check
2 pts- interact w/ dream character
5 pts- super speed
10 points- Advanced Unsummoning/Banishing
5 pts- my character was from a tv show(she was the warden on Wentworth)
5 pts- Super Speed
10 pts- Time Control
= 52 pts total


D1: Dream recall was too fuzzy
Did wbtb
D2: Dream recall was yet again fuzzy
Did wbtb
D3: Mike & I were staying in a nice hotel. We were there w/ a group of ppl who were family members. I'm wanting to leave & go talk to my mom w/o Mike knowing. I gather some of my stuff & sneak off down the hall to my parents room. We are on a cruise ship. My mom tells me to stay & hang out w/ her but she no sooner said that than Mike came to the door w/ my dad & sister Kayla. We all are now in the hallway. I need to the bathroom & find what looks like a small sitz bath. I poop in it & am very embarrassed when others find out. Now we are fishing off the deck & laughing about how funny we find that the beds don't move on the ship. I'm talking about the kids on the deck & how it makes me nervous that they will fall over board.
My alarm went off for my next wbtb.
D4: I was in a prison that looked like the set of Wentworth. It's Australia's version of Orange is the New Black. So some of the characters were from that show. Something happened & the prison malfunctions & the prisoners, me included were trying to escape & stay away from the guards & other violent prisoners. I get stuck in some stupid revolving door. It seemed to go on forever. I was mad at Mike for not being here to help me get out. We were all hiding stuff like prisoners do & going back & retrieving them strategically to help us escape. It looked like everyone had escaped except me. A guard told me that I may never get out. I told him that I didn't need to get out because I was trying to clear my name & not have a record.
My alarm went off for my next wbtb.
D5: I was back into the same dream. But now some of the scene has changed. I'm excited because I'm now lucid. My brain is doing cartwheels because of the chain & lucidity. I know my first tasks is to do a reality check. Check. My scene is changing & I'm outside in a bog or swamp like place but there are still guards everywhere. There is a woman laying in a swamp & she is dangerous but she tells me she helped me escape, which was in the previous dream but I forgot to write it down. We worked together for a while. But then I didn't want anything to do w/ her & remembered my first task of my 3 step goals. I banished her & the bog/swamp/water that she was in. Great, now she's gone & so is the water. Step 2 superspeed. I start running from the guards like I was Speedy Gonzalas. I was darting everywhere & laughing. When I finally stop I remember step 3 is time control. I kept freezing them & slowing them down & speeding them up. I lost lucidity trying to remember the whole "I'm a vampire" thing. But all in all a good night.

1 Pt for a full non-lucid:

I was at a Lake House some where. There were many families there congregating. I wasn't familiar w/ most of the ppl. The cops came & took all of the children & escorted all of us in cars to a detention center of some kind. We were being processed there. We were all trying to keep custody of our children. It was some bizarre martial law type of scenario.

My grandkids wore me out! I'm exhausted. I even put up the Christmas tree so I am all too happy for sleep to come tonight, knowing that tomorrow will be quiet.


Side Notes for me personally

3 Step Goal:
Advanced Unsummoning/Banishing - 10 points
Super Speed - 5 points
Time Control - 10 points

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country



1st WEEKLY TASK:
Fully transform into your team's creature (Vampires)

I didn't get much sleep. My grandkids tossed & turned & laid on top of me & each other. Sigh. I'm exhausted! It figures, the first night of a new comp & it was a bust. I probably won't get any again tonight cuz they don't leave until tomorrow. I guess I just hope for the best!

I accidentally erased my first entries for the day & left the fact about my grand children being here. But they just went to sleep so I'm going to try again.

D1: Mike & I were in my childhood home. It was dark & the twins were babies for some reason even though they were only there via the bond I felt. We both heard something. I knew it wasn't only me who heard this "something". We were moving & fumbling around the living room in darkness, around "it". Mike says, "We shouldn't have come here." And I said, "I told YOU we shouldn't come here." I awake & he is staring at me next to me. I'm in complete sleep paralysis & freaked out because I'm thinking we had a shared dream. He doesn't remember the dream, but he rarely does. And he doesn't remember looking at me. When I can move I go to pee, left bewildered. I tried to get back in the dream but no dice. This was definately memorable. I should have woke him up right then & asked him what he was dreaming about. But he just got done working 60 hrs this week & couldn't screw him out of his sleep. I should've manned up so to speak & said damn the torpedoes cuz this could have been a game changer. I've heard of it being done & my husband & I are very in sync w/ each other on a deeper level than most. Now I'll always wonder what it was. But then again I can now have a glass full kind of attitude. "If it happened once, it couldn't certainly happen again." Optimism, I like that.

D2: Dream sign. Damn shambled house again but w/ a lot of family around. Lots & lots of rooms per usual. And I keep thinking, "It's along a road which seems creepy but it's near a small town which is good." So odd.

Maybe I'll get lucky & the kids will go to sleep before midnight tomorrow night too. It's hard to predict w/ these 2 younger ones. My other set of 2 are just at home here so it's not anything out of the norm. But I have been making progress w/ these 2 this time around. I've prayed about it quite a lot.

I just typed in my shit & accidentally hit paste & erased it all!!!!

My grandkids are here for the weekend. And not the ones that behave, lol. But actually I'm doing some Halloween crafts & giving them some good persona time & they are doing well so far. I think my daughter living w/ the new boyfriend instead of the old women beater one has done wonders for these kids. Unfortunately they still go visit him because he is their dad. Anyway, I probably will have problems getting to other ppls comments until Sunday. At which time I'll try to make rounds after they leave.

Tossed & turned all night. Couldn't hold on to anything. I was just being stressed out by life but I'm logging it anyway!

D1: I was living in an area similar to the town I live in but things were in the wrong place. I kept leaving where me & my husband lived in search of things to do w/ ppl. But he kept following me & was insisting I come home. One place was a chines restaurant w/ my first mother n law working there. Another has vast amounts of shoes there. Lots of men & women that were like forbidden fruit since I'm married. One offered drugs which I politely declined. I then encountered what we thought was a wall w/ a mural. But when I figured out what it really was & tried to tell my husband he just couldn't comprehend it. It was like a wall but actually it was the edge of a 5th dimensional world exactly like the way it happened in the movie Intersteller w/ Mathew McConaughey!

D2: I was at a carnival & I was a teenager who ran into a boy who I was having an innocent hold handing time with. This dream lasted a long time. He had to leave & I was left to my own wandering & came upon so many things. The whole town had seemed to be a part of this so I went to main street where I saw down another street that in front of a store were art! I became lucid & went to over there & looked at the art outside & inside. I've only been to one art gallery in my whole life so I guess that was why they were mostly framed pics or things in frames & then some abstract pieces that I didn't understand what they were supposed to be. One had a t-shirt in a frame that said Y-O-L & I went yes, I'm going to buy that so I can reach into my pockets. I pulled out a brush out of one & a man's wallet & my keys in another. Hence The first part of TOTM for October complete! I get wings! I could never really hold any of these things in my little itsy bitsy pockets except sometimes my keys. I usually put my keys on the rings on my purse so I don't lose them cuz I'm good at that, lol.



I'd like to thank Nebulus for showing me one of DreamCafe11's art that inspired me to try again for the TOTM art gallery! My first dream made total sense to me in an abstract way of my past & how far I've come.

I can't read anything I wrote down last night. I thought I could write in the dark. It turns out I can't. At least about a dream, which is barely legible w/ the light on, lol. Silly me!

I was at a dinner of some kind w/ my extended family. Meaning my uncles & cousins even were there so there were a whole lot of ppl including a lot I didn't know at all. I try to score some pot from my uncle but to no avail. I get up & walk out into the hall & go up the stairs. I see all of these young girls acting inappropriately around some man. I go into another room & I saw the weirdest thing. Bicycles. Like hundreds of bicycles. They are all facing inward & packed together perfectly. They were stacked some how in between them too but perfectly, no leaning. They created the spectacular circular tower. It was most accurate thing I believe I have ever witnessed in any dream. Anyway, it had no part to play in my dream which was even more strange. I then notice the girls walking up another flight of stairs & follow them. One of the girls looks like one of my girl cousins but turns into my granddaughter Booga Bug. The 2 girls lead me up to the roof. They both are doing this synchronized balancing act by standing on the ledge & balancing on one leg w/ the other over the side of the building. I'm holding Booga's hand while she is doing this because I'm freaking out that they are both about to die by falling off of the building & come crashing down to the earth. But I look at her & let go. I decided to have faith when I let go & both girls fell. But while my heart was freaking out as I ran over to the ledge, there they both are laying on a second roof only 2 feet below the ledge. They are just fine & laughing. I then see the creepy man again & he looks kind of like Robin Williams. The dream is very long. In the end they are doing nothing more than making organic dehydrated vegetables. Part of a self sustaining food source of some kind.

I did an inner meditation right before I went to sleep. I have put off doing this kind of inward meditation because I can't sit still during the day to save my life or w/o a Xanax. I'm always fiddling w/ something. That's why I've stuck w/ doing jigsaw puzzles as a serious form of meditation for me. That's where the faith came in, which was actually more cool than even I could have imagined. And the bikes! Wow! That was really amazing to see. It seems I am always in protective mother bear mode so the guy in the dream was harmless in the end even though I was skeptical. I think I'll keep my skepticism at the healthy level I believe it to be.