side notes

I had so many pages up on my computer & multi-tasked & campaigned throughout the night & early morning. Then celebrated via online via FB. Exhausted & need rest. Off to bed again now.

I only got maybe 3-6 hrs of sleep because I'm campaigning for our election. I already voted last week. More of the same today because our US election is now upon us today. It's gonna be a long day & night. And then tomorrow should be a whopper in itself. I'm not voting for Hillary. I'm Trump through & through! I have major problems w/ my government changing history & lying to us. How we are run by the rich elite establishment. It's a joke Hillary is still allowed to run. Which in itself should be a major warning side to her followers. I am not a democrat or republican. I know there are no actual sides. Yet I do know how to vote because I don't categorize myself. Too many people feel they must categorize themselves. Anyway. I will only be checking in briefly over the next few days, but if I have a dream somewhere miraculously I will post that of course.

Last night of comp was a bust. I had to deal w/ life & kept waking up via Meesha cat every hour on the hour. She has grown increasingly hungry because her body is storing up for winter & the mice, birds & rabbits are becoming more scarce. I'd love to just put out more dry food but she isn't buying that. She needs a combo of wet, dry & snacks. She is also in the last phase for a female Mainecoon cats cycle to reach her full growth. They are notorious for being extremely large but she is a female so she won't get as big as the males but she has already exceeded the low end of the scale for or a female of her breed so she is basically having her final growth spurt. I just have to weather this time of less sleep. During the week Mike will give her more wet & dry before his early departure to work. I had to deal w/ my parents regarding my grandmother Daisy. Mind you, I have not had to challenge them like this in my adult life so this hurt me quite a lot by things that were said & asked of me. But not only did we make up but it opened the door for me to tell them all about my lucid dreaming, me being a emotional em-path, being in contact w/ my mom's dad who passed away 24 yrs ago. My parents have been atheists for a long time & just assumed I was a Christian & not what I am which is a spiritualist. I found out that they aren't so much atheists but have a lot of the same understanding as I do to different dimensions & parallel worlds. I cried while telling them all of this stuff & they were so understanding & interested even. They shared their views of things that helped too. It was quite an enlightening event. I'm very happy w/ the results. I now have an even better relationship w/ them than before.

2 pts wbtb
1 pt non lucid
= 3pts

I was staying w/ Katie briefly & we plan to go to see houses. We are looking around & see lots of bedrooms in the house we are looking at & it's clean. But it's close to other houses which I don't particularly want for my next house. Yet my kids & Mike are there & we are really liking it all & the price. Suddenly Katie grabs my hand & drags me off into a bathroom & shoves some clothes at me. She says we are going to go see Anthony in jail even though in real life he is in prison. (She was just talking about seeing him & how they made her change her shirt while she was there when it was totally appropriate). She had pulled some strings to get us into see him. Things kept going wrong so we were obviously never going to get there.
WBTB
Dream recall was interrupted do to life

I think my comp nigh count is off, great. Anyway. I woke up to family drama which was on a whole new scale today. So I was screwed at the start. I didn't have time to write it down.

I had a hard time sleeping & finally just gave up & worked on a puzzle early this morning which made for a long day. I did something to my hips & back so now I have a lot of pain that meds can't fix, yet I keep taking them to take off the edge. Hopefully I'll get some down time this weekend. I sure need it.

2 pts- Interact with a Dream Character
1 pt -stablization
2 pts- wbtb
10 pts- First DILD of the Night
2 pts- chain a dream
5 pts- super speed
2 pts- Interact with a Dream Character
5 pts- Gain Invulnerability
5 pts- DC Changing
10 pts- Fully Phase through Big Solid Object
= 44 pts

3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.

D1: I was in this old house with infinite rooms. I know this house immediately because it's a dream sign for me. I've not seen it since I've been on DreamViews which was surprising in some way. I knew for sure I was dreaming & became lucid. This house has so many hidey hole places & rooms that it was like a playground for lucidity. But with that said I also had to try to find the meaning in it as well. There were a lot of people living there & I was milling around & getting familiar w/ the characters asking them things like why they were there. It was sad, most responses were from kids & adults that had been put in the foster care system. Which is where this dream stems from for me & teaches me things. I was standing at the bottom of a staircase when I got woke up by my phone.
WBTB
D2: I didn't get up, I just turned my volume off & fell right back into the same dream, hence "chaining a lucid". I wasn't at the bottom of the stairs though but in a kitchen. RC. I was talking to a man & explaining that I know this house well & he was rather pacifying in his answer. I now know why I'm in the dream. (It's personal, it's something about my father recently). I wall through out the house talking once more w/ others & trying to explain where the hidey places are. I walked right through a wall to get to another room which was kinda cool. It felt like everything went dark briefly & I ended up in the room I wanted to. In the room w/ me is a mouse so I make him big which was rather more startling than expected so I put him back to himself. It felt like it became more dangerous while big. I was really afraid I would run out of time so I walked up to the top floor which was like a big spiral staircase that was like a building top & jumped down to the bottom. I felt like superman cuz I landed in that kneeling pose, lol. I decided to run up the stairs back to the top at super speed but once I got to the top my dream decided to end. All in all a good night I'd say.

1 pt non lucid (I had to get up at 4:30 to get my clown make up done for school so yep 1 pt is all I got.)

3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.

Non-luic: Mike & I were walking along a highway when we heard gun shots. We immediately got down in a ditch by a college campus. A guy died right in front of us . The world had become caos so we found refuge in a community of ppl at this college. There were a whole lot of awful things happening & ppl sharing stories. Then Mike & I witnessed a woman get shot & we patiently waited while an organizer person talked to a man who could acquire some medical supplies & other stuff. We were hoping for a gun but no dice. But we did get other items from him. We started walking around the campus that used to be the college pub. My first husbands brother was there. His wife was there too & she was telling us of their hardships about trying to keep a fire going when it was so cold. She also talked about water issues & a whole lot death. It was so sad. And as we went about things all throughout the dream was masses of death everywhere.

I'm not getting much sleep. A lot of Halloween stuff going on. I've got to get up at 4:30 am to make it to the kids school on time. My clown make up will take forever! Last night I just kept waking up cuz of all the stress of things. I did have a GREAT birthday!

Had to get up really early to go to a company fall fest. It was a really good birthday for me. I'm exhausted!

Meesha woke me up every hour on the hour & then my wbtb every 2 hours. Dreaming was a joke.

1 pt non-lucid
2 pts wbtb
= 3 pts 3+ 114.5=117.5
3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


D1: Walking to my car after shopping at a flea market. I make a wrong turn & so do a bunch of other ppl. We are all trying to walk to our cars where we are in the middle of a gun fight. There a gang of mean bikers. ( I should note that most all the bikers that I've ever met in my life were nice ppl who raise money in my town.) They are everywhere & haul us all back to their cabin where they make us all work for them. A man & his wife were running things but mostly they weren't seen together. This dream was really long. There were a lot of escape attempts that went bad & ppl got hurt in various ways. We started wearing padding under our clothes because of all of the bullets that were flying so often. These ppl holding us there were really violent. I kept having to gather intel to try & find a way out & to try & stay safe. I was informing the new ppl who had just arrived about the padding. I'm gritting my teeth & they break & chip off. I'm trying to convince the woman to ease up on us. This place was being attacked by another gang, hence the padding idea helped quite a bit. There was a horrible blood bath fight so I upped my search to find a way out. So when they took us to this water slide being made out of actual tunnels that were next to the cabin. It wasn't finished but I was told it would be the most expensive slide attraction in the world when it was done. I start my decent down the slide when Meesha Cat jumps on my head in real life & I freak the hell out! It was only 2 minutes until my wbtb alarm so I'll count that as this time.
wbtb
D2: I'm fishing in my parking lot for a living. You gotta love the dream world! Other ppl were fishing out fish & other odd things. My dream grandson was supposed to be watching a movie in a near by movie theater type place but it's supposed to be an elaborate daycare. It was really big, like an auditorium. There is a roller coaster in there & things are happening that is some what like a Harry Potter kind of theme of things that are magically happening. I try to call my daughter at work & some guy tells me that if I was a good mom she would be there but cuz I won't take care of her kids she has to stay home. I'm so mad but I don't say anything to correct him. I ask him if he is her boss & he says no. My alarm goes off & I get up.

1 pt non lucid
2 pts wbtb
=3 pts 3+ 111.5= 114.5

Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


I was in this group home but I'm an adult. There are lots of women there but I only recongnize one of the staff as a real staff member I had in my IRL group home as a kid. It looked kind of like a library. We all were gathering in this great big room, like unusually big. The ceiling began to crack. I was telling ppl to get out & dragged one of the girls out but it still fell and crushed a lot of ppl. But the staff just all acted like we just need to move forward & get back to normal immediately. The woman staff member I knew IRL as a kid told me I had to get more new clothes & didn't understand why I hadn't done so the last time the money was allotted for them. My alarm went off.
wbtb
I lost my recall because my husband called me.

I only had about 2 hrs of sleep last night. I am so exhausted. I kept having flash backs triggered by my friends mom dying & me contemplating going back to my home town for the funeral. Today wasn't much better. I get to my doctors appt & they say I've been dropped & I have to make them call billing to get it fixed, which I had already did yesterday. Only to have them tell me I was going to have to have a full blown drug test which is way more than the usual because they said I had, wait for it, METHADONE come up in my pee test last time. I'm freaking out at this point because I even quit drinking 2 1/2 yrs ago which I'm really proud of. After I get really crazy mad to the point I'm about to cry & they tell my husband he has to pay a crazy $350 on top of my usual payment plan & copay. He's freaking out cuz he's about to rip them a new one & knows I am already going off. The receptionist says, oh, I'm sorry, forget all about that, it was for someone else!!!!! These are ppl who know me & know good fucking well I don't anything like that so I'm still pissed but relieved. So I get my meds & Mike needs these shots in his neck & he says as long as he can go back to work, but that soooooo didn't happen. He went pale as a sheet & almost passed out. He then was all fucked up & I had to take the keys & eventually make him call work cuz he would have went into a meeting w/ an asshole like this & been fired. Bad bad bad fucking last 24 hrs! I just want sleep!

I woke up from a dream that became lucid but it didn't go well w/ my dream recall. I found out an old friend of mine's mother died & I've been trying to figure out how & if it's possible for me to travel the 6 hours for November the 4th. The funeral had to be postponed for my friends daughter to make it into town. Anyway I got obviously side tracked so this is my entry. Life comes before dreams.

1 pt non-lucid
2 pts wbtb
= 3 pts for the night so 3+ 108.5= 111.5 total contest thus far

3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


D1 was unstable & my pen died when I went to write it down. I found one later that I used for dream 2.
WBTB
D2:I had a daughter but it wasn't my IRL daughter. I found her working in this dump of a bar & being taken advantage of by an old man. There was a lot of fighting going on & it was getting violent between me & the dirty old man. She was saying she was all grown up & he was over there looking at me from where she couldn't see him with a sly creepy look on his face. It was a dark nasty environment. WBTB alarm went off.

My allergies were really bad cuz I spent half of Sunday outside helping Mike trim back trees for winter. I fought a runny nose all night.