lucid

I​ recommend reading my previous DJ entry first. Only 6 views and it is more eventful...(apparently DV only allows members to view DJ's now...unless it is a bug.)

1015-1030? 238am-320am? for wbtb. leftist rally in Germany? German accent: "... ...in the mother fu**ing ..." was the name of event or rally. Night time. Familiar train station? Fragment.

Greece LD wake from LD ~4:50pm
I'm with brother in law E and brother-in-law B in the dream but we're meeting the former at a coastal cliff side house in some town in Greece. We are walking along the beach and up a path and we see beautiful views of cliffs all around. After we get to the home and visit for a little bit we're heading back to where we came, this time along with brother in law E on this return leg. He seems to know a shortcut and he's going around the other side of the cliff and the footholds are not very wide and they're going pretty quick ahead of me and I'm cautiously taking my time. They stop at a bend in the cliffs and look at a swimming spot down below. It is absolutely beautiful down there and a beautiful sunny day. They continue on, but the path seems too narrow and not worth the risk when I can just go back the way I first came earlier in the day along the beach. When I think about the earlier path along the beach it seems like it was a dream memory maybe from a previous dream and I realize that this is a dream right now. I float up in the air just enough to confirm as an RC. I then start to fly back towards the beach going slow and not with a lot of directional control at the beginning which is a little unusual for me. I go back and forth left and right to correct my direction flying over a rugged rocky area. It is beautiful and exhilarating being up in the air reminding me of my simulated flying last night while a passenger in a car going over various overpasses (for day practices)...but so much better! I am unbounded drifting across the sky. I still have not seen any DC's so I decide to turn around and see if I can find my brother in laws and surprise them or something on their trek along that narrow path by the cliffs. As I fly down that way back towards the cliffs I feel myself abruptly return to bed and the way I woke up and my level of rest seems to indicate I was at the end of an REM cycle. Too short but back to lucidity after too many dry days! Found motivation for day work and also did a number of "I'm dreaming" mantras during the day. Corrected monkey brain during SSILD. No.274


Cafe epiphany NLD or semi: I'm modern me sitting outdoors at a cafe soaking in the moment. I see happy and sad faces on this beautiful day . "If you don't open yourself up to the world around you, you will miss out on so many experiences," I tell my companions. People who look sad look like they're walking around "in a bubble" with tunnel vision, seemingly oblivious to all the beauty around them.

I realized I am condensing my DJ entries down too much recently making them a bad read so going back to a more free flowing entry here. ~610am Wake from longish LD string. Work meeting scene. The board member shouldn't need to take video. CW there. I have a headache (bleeding through from IWL?) and massage my temples. Next memory is FA caught by "record skipping" FA. I am arriving to the wake up sensation at least 3 times in quick succession each lasting about the amount of time it takes for a vinyl record to rotate once...and repeating like a skipping record! I get up out of bed happy to have received this gift in this FA. As I make my way through the house with visuals not perfect I get the partial visual of my sleep mask covering my face as I walk, and I rip it off and throw it behind me. As I get to the front door I see there is a note on an index card by the door. I pause for a moment thinking if I'm awake I don't want to open the store and leave it open or unlocked putting my family security at risk so I better RC. I start to do the finger through palm and as it shows I'm awake I realize how inconsistent that one is and just look at both my hands but focus on my left one where one of my middle two fingers was noticeably longer than IWL . I grabbed the note by the door and start to read it but then look down what looks like an apartment building hall and the note is narrated to me in what is supposed to be my wife's voice saying "today is the day to bring out the garbage."(which it is!) I float fly through multiple halls and it is completely barren so far. I quickly peek over an overlook down to the floor below me hoping to catch a DC down there but it is also barren. I fly down to the lower floor and explore a little bit finding what looks like a door to the outside and when I open it it is a bright sunny summer day. I look across a big grassy open park-like area and see a building on the other side of it with lots of DC's gathered inside but starting to come out. I dump off all my clothes feeling free and fly their way thinking about what kind of reactions I might get. I approach a couple of young women and start to interact with them telling them it's time to remove their dresses but I seem to be too much inside my head thinking about something and the visuals fade but I do not fear waking up but rather hang on for the visuals to come back. (Something I am getting better and better at and following Sageous' suggestion to avoid following the more common path back to your sleeping body-NREM thread, possibly NREM reality check thread). During this quiet time in a void I reflect on the fact that I didn't get to any competition goals. The visuals eventually come back and I soon have a vivid sunny summertime scene again but this time it seems like I'm at of family reunion. I'm looking around at all of the DC's enjoying this vivid beautiful world and I look over to my right and see my grandmother who passed away several years ago sitting down and I go to greet her. It is so wonderful to see you I tell her as we each clasped the others hands facing each other. It's so feels like her hands warm and wrinkly! (I am choking up while reliving this lucid moment while transcribing this dream!) I asked her to hold on a moment and I release her hands since I use a certain motion of my hands as part of my recall of goals. I think of my mnemonic (memory) pegs and peg number 1 brings me to time control, stopping time. I know my trusty pocket watch with amazing time control is in my right hand and I start clicking it while looking around. At first it is not doing anything very much like the very first time I used this. I eventually get the DC's to freeze in time!..and they unfreeze as I release the "clicker." I play around with it a little bit more and then think about peg number 2 and decide to skip it and go to peg number 3. Neither 2 nor 3 are part of my 3 step task anyway only peg 1 then peg 6 and 8. I grabbed a football that is being thrown around and say check this out. I punt the ball with super strength way up into the sky and out of sight! Cool! I look back over at my grandmother and just behind her and to the right is my grandfather who passed away quite a number of years ago and who I thought about last time I thought about my grandmother and how I haven't been seeing him in my dreams. This time he is there!..but he starts morphing a little bit maybe looking more like his younger self when he was a teenager and then a boy! I grasp my grandmother's hands again realizing I should have spent more time in the dream with her asking her questions I'm saying what kind of responses I might get. The dream starts to fade. I hold on again and I arrive outside of a room indoors it's a little bit dark, dimly lit. There is a young black boy in the room and I walk in there and ask him what does he represent? He only says there's someone over here and I follow him around and out of the room and sitting on the bench is a short humanoid creature that looks like a weird boy, a little bit stocky with a large-ish head with dark short thick hair and black eyes. I asked him what it represents and try not to get freaked out by his unusual appearance and I realize I can wake up if I want to but I don't remember making the decision to. Either way I wake up for good this time. I think reading a couple of dream journals of other competition participants may have helped me recognize the false awakening at the beginning. One person, I forget who, was talking about some kind of incongruity being a common dream sign as a dream tries to adjust and readjust to fit the situation. Also maybe the same person or someone else mentioned how they handled a false awakening by quickly getting up and doing an RC when normally I would try to do a motionless RC but maybe I need to be more aggressive like I was when I noticed my FA and immediately took off.

​1/24/15 *Late LD wake from about 10am.In a big auditorium inside a casino apparently and they moved the lockers I always use to make room for new games. I am getting up from my seat and feeling bold and slap several people who were awnry earlier aha I am doing this because I'm dreaming...pass two little blonde girls...they didn't do anything I remember so no slap and find a sexy woman in short jean skirt I remember from earlier sitting in her seat in a row full of people and our eyes lock in passion and I go straight for

Spoiler for sexual content:

intercourse in her seat and do. While doing her I rip off her skirt up to the zipper and need help with the solid part of the fabric and summon scissors and cut it off. The her red panties partly ripped off and cut the rest of the way off. It is so sexy to be doing all of this and exposing her lower half

in front of this huge crowd (which is no longer in focus but I can still "feel" their presence.) I lose lucidity

​Another quick recap...gotta keep up with my DJ with Sensei's competition starting tomorrow night (for my time zone). I can move whole cars to get around traffic jam (like imaginings IWL)! Aha. then fly around cityscape! Void or DEILD without sense of body IWL...felt different from normal void and a little uncomfortable making me wonder if slight sense of REM atonia but not return to bed feeling present normal dream exits. Scene reforms at a parking garage try to fly, odd back to ground to slither. Awnry old ladies...prank them a bit. Homeless guy-think of past LD punches on DC's but no interest. Float around fun. Find a petite 20's Jennifer Aniston longer hair in a nice silky short dress. Undress multiple sexy layers. Touch. Super petite...wow. Sex.

I am keeping these recaps brief but if anyone wants more details, feel free to ask.

1/11/15 epic night for me starting with a semi-lucid that felt like it occurred over a full day and I even had the thought "I keep getting back into the same dream!" I was on a trip and had 2 different sexual partners and my Wife didn't mind!

Later dream/DILD: entering a dark hall I realize this feels like a dream scenario and become lucid and start opening a bunch of doors trying to influence what will be inside. #264

late morning DILD: older DC kicking coins at me. I keep them and walk away and his friend follows me and I get dreamy thoughts it knock him out and realize this is a dream and knock him out. Fly around various things but not much control in stopping where I want to for a while. #265

success bringing a dreamlet scene back! Late morning dreamlets. When a sexy one faded that I wanted to explore I told myself it was just a crowd passing in front temporarily blurring my view and instead of the typical new unrelated dreamlet, it came back! Not counting as a full fledged LD though.


1/15 huge sky full of stars makes me lucid. So beautiful! #266

fiddling with a broken gadget and a goblin?(short green creature) appears and I immediately realize I'm dreaming. Strip down and explore nearby DC activities and sex. 267

2 sexual LD's with Wife but one may have been semi-lucid so count one. 268


1/17 shoot up into the sky to escape collapsing house and realize I'm dreaming. Throw fireballs and fly. 269


1/18 towards end of long exploring dream I am at a beautiful overlook and get the thought to fly down to my destination and realize I'm dreaming. Fly a bit before ends. 270

Dec 17th - Jan 19th 2015 Super Brief Notes LD's #254 to 270 With Dry Spell

Super quick notes to catch up.

12/17/14 FA "back to sleep" vibrations, stay patient then visuals with eyes closed. Flight to Girl Friday's house and lose patience. Decide to fly up to moon but can't find it and decide I will drop down a bit and land on the moon but end up in a living room with my son about 12 years younger! Hold his hand and talk. #254

quicker...

12/18 cute DC gets me thinking about dream options turns into LD. woman in black is creepy and other weird DC's. Talk to them all searching for SC insight but dumb answers. I mostly ignore woman in black until she re-asserts herself. 255

12/19 with Wife on bench, a sexy woman approaches. Semi to full LD. Boldness initiated. Telepathically tell them to kiss and remove clothes. Sexy! 256

<vacation starts and I change everything I'm doing and pay the price with a dry streak after which I am slow to get back in the groove. Up to this point I was rolling strong 16 LD's in the first 19 days of December.>

12/30 I feel bold early in dream probably assisted by bold visualizations after WBTB. I tell all of the female DC's to follow and gather around me and I float up to a mezzanine overlooking a wide open library-like indoor space to get a good look around at the women. Sex and watching another woman undress sexily. 257

12/31 lucid at seeing deceased father-in-law. Happy to see this dream sign back! 258

Trying to DEILD. Clump of simple images in mostly empty void becomes more complete and I start air swimming towards the scene. Explore a video game-like green landscape by air. 259

1/5/15 become lucid in doctors office probably from seeing cute woman. 260

FA caught: semi to full LD. Crawl over bed. What if someone in bed? Sure enough. Must be a dream! End up in void. Another FA in bed caught due to unlikely scenario. Nudge vibrations. Void. Closed eye teleport. Eventually scene forms in bedroom. Cool courtyard between buildings do backwards TOTM while attempting to find crystal ball for other advanced task. Western shoot'em up! See TOTM thread 1/5 for more complete description. Only counting one LD in this FA series. 261

1/10 on couch with Wife I get dreamy ideas bring another woman in. Sexual then end up outdoors confusion then regain lucidity. Dance with beautiful woman and she becomes this glowing gorgeous bright eyed blonde. 262

Riding down street trucks passing I recognize the street from earlier dream and realize I'm dreaming. Billboard. 263

Praying for someone who seemed to get news of terminal illness my eyes are closed and I see the words "me too" and right below "smile." I take this as a sign that I am being given the opportunity to be lucid but wake. Not counting.

1/11 epic night...to be continued...

Dude! That was awesome! To bed ~11pm. Dance studio at a school too small. Older male teacher dancing next to student hip hop style calls up one of his older students a taller Hispanic guy...maybe has already graduated.

He dances impressively. They asked us to leave for the private part of the class and I go down the stairs and then up a different set of stairs and there are some guys playing pool.

I head back down the stairs. The way I'm running back down the stairs or the cute female I see when I get down the stairs gets me thinking about dreams. She goes out the door with some other people with me exiting also. It is nice and sunny and another very similar female goes in through the door and is heading back up the stairs towards where that dance studio was, but now this is all more like a hardware store with multi levels but narrow. I get the idea that I can fly to catch up to her more quickly and fully realize that I'm dreaming. I lose track of her but a cute...no, make that beautiful, sexy petite blonde, Russian perhaps,

is walking up and we seem instantly attracted to each other and we start going at it. Surprisingly the dream starts to fade but I hold on to it thinking about my theory of why my romantic / sexual dreams tend to keep going and how I think it's all about the tactile contact but I also remember to not become overly focused on one thing and to not focus/worry about time in dream and I tell myself "I got this!" I start rubbing her back and all over quite enthusiastically and after a while the store starts coming back into view and we have some passionate kisses and more. Her body is silky smooth! She has straddled me while I'm leaning against the counter off and on, at times just holding her off of the ground...the dream does not create the sensation of any significant weight and it is effortless to hold her up while active. The counter is somewhat egg shaped and is in the middle of this main room, laying between the entrance and the stairs.

The narrow store continues down beyond the stairs on this ground floor. There are DC's all around us but none of them are paying attention. There's a cute girl behind the counter working the cash registers but not helping anyone at the moment so I call out "hey everyone" several times and eventually raise my voice on the fourth time and she looked right at me with a smile surprisingly. She also looked like she was attracted to me and I said you see what's going on here? She just smiled again. Her eyes we're beautiful brown and seem to sparkle a little bit. She was a brunette... Dark brown hair a little over shoulder length.

I start looking around the store for other things to remember and one was a product labeled UTW I think it was. I think about how interesting it is how thee store came back into focus well I wasn't really paying attention too much more focused on the sensations and interaction...in touch with my partner in the dream. It was more like well I can see everything again though perhaps a little blurry at first. I use the word blurry but that's not really the best way to describe it. Nothing is really blurred but all the details have not caught up when I first notice the store coming back into view. Anyway we continue to have sex for quite a while kissing some more and I am just thrilled at how realistic everything feels especially the sensation of her tongue in my mouth and my tongue in her mouth along with...you know. Eventually I feel myself back in bed smiling ear to ear. Not only was it an exhilarating LD but it came on a night when I told myself to go straight back to sleep after any awakenings due to my game today and wanting to make sure I get a full night's sleep. My wife did wake me up a little bit just before she left for her day and that may have helped me become lucid as I became a little more awake than I planned to be. This was another right before getting up for the day lucid when I'm normally a little more spaced out. Wake 7:40am Maybe 10 minutes being lucid. #253


Pretty good sleep schedule, day work: RRC, meditating on dreams after wife woke me later morning ~6:40am to aid quicker back to sleep blocking out thoughts of waking life.


Earlier friend of M from 45 minutes north leans against me on couch watching movie on TV. M looks but brushes it off.

Quick recaps...I will try not to be too wordy but keeping some notes I feel are important to know how I am getting lucid/tools I am using.

12/15/14 1115pm 1145 330

Office. Sign up for contribution. I gotta go...got a game. Flirt..woman: can you help me? Just call me..4 wrong business cards before dog eared correct one. Game tonight? Confusion...wasn't it Sunday night last I remember...oh but woke from that=FA: oh no, 2 nights in a row no LD(wrong due to FA). I am walking outside still thinking darn no LD...as I approach an unfamiliar(?) doorway...wait this could be...it is a dream. Awesome flying LD. Fly over guy on 2nd try. Meadow and large trees. I land and eat grass to stabilize. Fly. To a set of peaks...see what lies below. Jump off and fly. This LD is so silent...Sound added! (Wind blowing by, bird chirping) Meadow with woman laying in grass. start then stop sexual actions to keep going. Fly more. Beautiful green valleys flying low to ground to keep stable. This was a good length LD despite the short notes. FA phone record. 555 wake. #251


I stay sleepyish after my wife leaves and we interact a little bit and I try to stay with the dreaming mindset and not go off into waking life thoughts and focus on the LD I just had. I wake up from several short dreams thinking go back to sleep while repeating I'm dreaming I'm dreaming. Eventually I have one where I realize I'm dreaming again. I and being followed by a guy driving...we are both driving and I pull over to see if he will go around me and he does probably so he doesn't look too suspicious I think. As we continue again we are both walking now and I hear him say something on his radio that he hopes that the event will be over or something like that and I see that he goes up the stairs but doesn't go up the second flight of stairs and is lying in wait for me so instead of continuing I go back the other way and I'm heading towards exit quickly jumping through...flying through!..an opening that is like a bar between 2 rooms and I realize I'm dreaming again I don't need to run from this guy so I turn around and I start to go after him. I shoot up through the floors busting through the floors and it gets a bit blurry and I think this doesn't have to make it harder to find him...this is my dream after all! With that in mind I decided that the next ceiling or wall and bust through he will be there and he is but still nothing is very clear and I start wailing on him before I wake up smiling that I nabbed another LD before getting up...about 5 minutes before I normally get up which is unusual and the when my dreams are usually too short to realize I'm dreaming. This makes me wonder if the last REM periods are supposed to be longer, why do I have all these short dreams with little mini awakenings in the late morning. Perhaps something to do with getting close to the beginning of the day and my wife leaving earlier than me and everything. I don't know. 745am wake #252

12/13/14 #250 early dream: An Olafian error (an error befitting Olaf).

Waiting for an elevator in a busy courtyard. I see two versions of my #MotherInLaw and realize I am dreaming and I float up. One mother in law is with my wife across the courtyard and I tell the one closest to me that "there are two of you!" When I look over at the over at the other version across the courtyard she now looks noticeably older. I float over to a woman and (sex).

12/12/14 #249 early dream: Making a statement wrong by altering the way something is heading.

Rioters and astray looks. I am driving with my wife and son during the day and up ahead we hear someone talking agitated over a loud speaker and assume protests are up ahead and turn around to go a different way. Next thing I remember I am walking out of a store and heading to vehicle where wife and son are waiting. As I exit 6-8 hoodlum looking people are nearby as I am trying to clean off my sunglasses. I think they may notice that they are nice Ray-Ban sunglasses and see me as one of the enemies that they think about when protesting and rioting. I keep walking and turn my head just enough to see if anyone is following me. I plan to pick up the pace when I hit that corner but they can still see me through a chain link fence so I try to make it look like I am walking normal but speed up markedly and eventually run in a walking pose. The walk run feels so odd that I realize that I'm dreaming. The scene goes dark and I seem to be in the void. I walk forward and imagine that my vehicle, wife and son are still ahead of me and eventually get to a point where it feels like I am opening the door to the vehicle and getting in but instead I get a night time scene in a city with a good size two story brick building in front of me. I decide to float up above it for a better view but maybe too soon as the dream starts to fade again but not completely...only more foggy-like. I decide to land and stabilize and the first thing that looks good is the brick wall of the building. As I get up close to the brick wall there is some "electro magnetic-like interference" in the image of the details of the brick which I thought was interesting. It went away as I got a good feel on the bricks and they felt very realistic to the touch. Behind me to my right is a short natural stone and mortar wall like a retaining wall and I feel on that and get excited...just kidding...but maybe that is why my sexual dreams with lots of contact are often stable. But again the stone wall feels very natural. I see plenty of loose dirt on the ground and scoop it up like a handful of sand and pop it into my mouth for further stabilization. It tastes like what I would expect it to taste like...bland earthy but not terrible. I decide to see if I can make it taste like skittles candy and grab another scoop and pop it in swirling it around in my mouth but it tastes the same as the first time. Dream starts fading and a do my squirming animal swim that got me through a void or NREM in a recent LD but this time I eventually found myself uncomfortable in bed. I remembered that I decided to not try to DEILD too long in an uncomfortable position lest it wakes me up too much making it harder to reenter dreamland this time of the morning. I opt to reposition after maybe 20 seconds.

12/11/14 1130 535am early dream: You might not want to confront them directly about it.


lucid in the dark...doors visible. After being in a #dangerous area at night and realizing no worries I'm dreaming. I go into a door that is supposed to be work related nothing much to see and back out of it all dark outside but stay patient. FA alarm 8am! Late for work not caught. #248

12/9/14 A young woman gets out of the car wearing only a men's cardigan exposing a lot as a treat for her boyfriend or is making something up to him but he is embarrassed.

Office meeting x2
<snip...other NLDs>


Coming "home" through a back door I find my front door ajar (it is daylight outside) and unlocked and become suspicious this is a dream and when heading down the hall to check for intruders I feel somewhat emboldened and I recognize the layout of the home as childhood home but with craftsman interior features instead and fully realize that I'm dreaming. I pause and consider hunting down bad guys and I enter my brother's old bedroom (per the layout) which is the first door you come to from the front door and it is completely empty with white walls, no furniture and no wallpaper and I decide to move on. I think the fastest way out to explore the dream is to phase up through the ceiling. It is kind of fun but I don't make it through in two different tries. While considering maybe going through front door or other options I eventually wake up. Need to make decisions quicker I think or just end of REM. I wasn't planning on trying wbtb and did no pre-bed intentions last night due to league game the next day. I did however become more awake than planning during nighttime bathroom visit. #247

12/8/14 ~1150 ~445 ...one of the $100 bills and I noticed it looked a little odd...ah just an older bill. (Near miss)


Wake from LD#1 ~615?
The showroom boldness DILD. I am in some kind of showroom near a beach and there is a sexy woman behind the counter and I think about what I would do in a dream...how bold I would be...ah yes I'm dreaming...I'm walking around this showroom only in underwear after all. I have a very exciting interaction with her starting by floating up to offer her a healthy appetizer. Some more craziness and eventually seemed to lose lucidity and was looking for someone who was..."oh he's sleeping in that car over there." I look in and see my #youngestBrotherInLaw in the front seat asleep awkwardly before waking up with my wife turning off her alarm clock. #245


Wake from LD#2 ~645?
The hotel meeting room. Didn't spend time trying to recall the NLD portion before seeing the following clue headline as I was focusing on reentering sleep for another LD. Large font title on paper read "Lucidity Chronicle Institute Daily" (my first thought: LCID almost an acronym...before looking it up IWL and being reminded that you can use the first few letters of each word to form a different word LUCID). Anyway, when I saw the headline I instantly realize I'm dreaming. I walk to my right and #GirlFriday is there with a small boy. I tell he to remove that sexy skin tight dress and she looks at me incredulously but I Jedi mind her saying "this is something you want to do." She removes her dress and is extremely sexy standing there in nice lace underwear. We start to go at it with me removing a bra revealing probably larger than normal breasts and I think some of the recent fantasizing about her got me a little more excited than normal and may have resulted in the subsequent wake up. I tried to immediately go back to sleep but struggled and when I woke up for the day it seemed like there was one additional faint memory of lucidity but I'm not able to recall. #246

Some of these were kind of short and not just shorter due to quick recaps. Finally catching up on my LD DJ entries since my basic TOTM entry.

12/6/14 11:40+ 2:50 early for wbtb but already awake. Wake from OBE style LD 5:10 felt like end of a REM cycle but if so no recall before OBE or dreaming I'm trying to get to sleep. Did my son actually come in the room? Anyway I feel vibrations but nothing happening but remain patient. Eventually decide to nudge vibrations and they get quite heavy...almost uncomfortable but I decide to experiment nudging them harder (eye clench) and I finally feel like I am in my dream body in bed and struggle to get out...nudge vibrations some more and feel ready to roll out and do. I feel a little sluggish like waking in middle of the night so I do glottal - seems to indicate awake. Finger through palm...solid...unreliable. Nose pinch since I am quite sure it is a dream there are no sinus repercussions and I can breathe through the pinch. It always feels so amazing. I start out of bedroom door and it sounds like my son is in the family room watching TV. I float the rest of the way to the front door. There is a chain door latch unlike IWL and I remove it and unlock the deadbolt and as I crack open the door there is a hint of cold air and I find that interesting since temperature is not noticed often. I am only wearing underwear in this dream body. I decide it will be a normal neutral temperature and also wonder if my dream will replicate my son wondering who is opening the door in the middle of the night but I suppress that thought and both work (neutral temperature and no son tugging at my lucidity. I go outside walking again at first. There are fictional neighbors across the street coming home. Night time scene. It is a husband, wife and small boy maybe 5 years old. Young Asian family. They parked in the middle of the street, perhaps only unloading. I float-fly a little slower than desired at first then speed up to get a quick look on my way toward Girl Friday's. Though the woman (the wife) is attractive I decide to continue down the street. I see another lone woman walking towards her front door and I float just above her as she goes in her house and I wonder if the DC will even pay any attention to me but she does looking a little uncomfortable. She has a big vaulted ceiling living room very much like ours and I float up into it enjoying the sensation. A bit of that then I float back down closer to her and whip it out to see her reaction. She acts uncomfortable once again. I decide to leave and as I head towards her door it starts to fade and try to closed eye teleport but I am already back in bed. I resolve to ignore the urge to reposition and attempt DEILD but perhaps a mistake after trying for too long may have been counterproductive and better to roll over and reposition more quickly. I also didn't want to open my eyes to check the time and may place in the REM cycles but later realize it was later after wbtb than I would have guessed. 6am

Semi-lucid with two Tonys. Later Tony was the store owner. Got wrapped up in being caught messing around the front of his house which seemed to pull away what little lucidity I may have had. I'm trying to remember the other Tony but I remember thinking during the dream that it was pretty cool that the interaction with one Tony brought up the dream with the other Tony. Also experiment more with eye clench vibrations. More noticeable while semi-awake when ear plugs are in but still degrees of vibrations achieved so must be a sleep/wake level component to the vibrations as previously deduced.

Wake from LD#2 7:55
Weird colored schematic of a water fountain very vivid and I am looking at a stable image for quite a while before it starts changing. This is more than a dreamlet. I am stationary and just observing and the image becomes the outside of the water fountain and a hand reaching down to push the button. The image is panning out and I am interested to see who it is but it all fades to black. I decide it is time to get back to using the closed eye teleport. Awareness and memory is great. I start to imagine my favorite starting point that lead to some of my favorite dreams (teleport to ocean) but perhaps I focused on the wrong thing (the ocean instead of the beach that often dumps me in the ocean). I stay with it and it almost feels like I am floating in water but when the visuals come back I am laying mostly face down on my bed but it is transparent and there are a lot of miscellaneous things on the floor underneath the transparent bed including small papers like post its and other junk. I decide to do a swimming motion with my arms and perhaps that will take me to a different place. The image below my bed stays static and not moving with my supposed swims forward. This image is so out of this world and very bright but I know that I am wearing my sleep mask so there is no doubt but this is all an odd dream location. With not enough happening I decided I might as well roll out (of this transparent dream bed) like in my first LD. This time the door is straight ahead from my bed instead of up and to the left. I go out and head down the stairs and notice that the stairs are not like my stairs in waking life as opposed to the first LD. It is more of a traditional all white banister of thick block shaped wood unlike my rounded natural oak banister. As I am heading down the stairs I recalled my thoughts after my first LD that I should have tried to do at least one task of the month. I decide that when I open the door there will be snow all over the grass but as I do it is a bright sunny day with green grass and I see people over to the left and what looks like a small child over to the right across the street sitting on their porch. I decide "well there will be a small clump of snow left that hasn't melted" and I look down around the grass in front of the house I just walked out of and I find some melting snow but very little. I reach down and clump it together and it is barely larger than a golf ball but good enough and I pick up a piece of foam laying on the grass to put underneath the snowball so that the dream has no excuse to melt it. The group to the left is no longer there but the child on the porch is still there and I approach. The child is a small girl maybe only 3 or 4 years old and she is adorable blond girls with shoulder length hair. I threw the snowball very softly at her and it hit her in the face and fell apart. Her only reaction was blinking
her eyes a lot because of the snow that got in her eyes. I decided this is just a dream and I should probably give it a proper throw and I clump back together the pieces of snow and throw it properly at her and this time she disappeared with only her small plastic figurines she had been playing with left behind. I decide to take a closer look at the figurines to remember what they were when I wake up and see if there was any significance. There are three; 1 is a standing owl-man (standing more like a man but with the head of an owl) another is a Little Mermaid knock off figurine (didn't look much like Disney's Little Mermaid and more little girl than Disney's) and the third one I forget at the moment. And actually there was a 4th one that became the owl-man but I can't remember what that one was either. The dream starts fading here and I decide to try the closed eye teleport again and it seems like I am staying asleep until my wife moves in bed abruptly and coughs and I can feel that I have fully returned to my bed, to my waking body. 243 & 244

​12/4/14 <snip earlier NLDs> Counting one LD for tonight though two lucid experiences of some kind plus one semi lucid to lucid one. During the first one was having trouble getting to sleep after WBTB and at some point (mark green for uncertainty of what this was, green normally used by me for semi-lucids) I felt like I was in my dream body and that there was a unusually good replication of snoring. I do a glottal RC since this feels like I'm dreaming that I'm in bed and I don't want to risk waking myself up. The RC shows that I'm asleep. I stay patient and there are announcements with an echo exactly like you would hear a train station . One of them said "Charlotte" and another one said "extension 4210." There was a lot of talking over this speaker system. I tried to visualize a train pulling up since this all seemed like an experience in the void and I seem to get one in a rather wispy way, not solid enough. I consider whether or not it could just be HH's but it felt like I was fully asleep and my glottal RC indicated that I was nowhere near awake and gave the result I expect when I'm asleep and dreaming. It feels like I'm both in this train station and in bed with my dream body though and I I try to roll out of bed but couldn't move and decided to wait a little bit longer and the audio continued. I wonder if this could be NREM. I sense again what feels like my dream body and it feels like I'm successful moving my dream hand a little bit so I try to roll out of bed again but then either wake up or have a false awakening. I'm quite sure it was a real awakening though with the noise I heard from my wife getting ready. Whatever that was I wanted to have a regular REM lucid but I probably should have just floated there in the emptiness for a while longer. I'm in my house walking around when I walk into a bathroom and there is a woman I don't recognize and I instantly realize that I'm dreaming and I decide too have some fun with her and she is agreeable to take off her top and has nice breasts. I did want a little different looking woman and when I look back up at the mirror she is a different woman thinner and more attractive in the face with smaller breasts. This woman takes a little more convincing to become naughty but eventually she agrees to remove her top which should have stayed off right? She replaced the DC standing in the same exact spot just before that had her top off. I enjoy her for a little while and decide to imagine the third woman and she also materializes but this is when it gets a little blurry or foggy and eventually leads to a convincing false awakening where I'm rushing to get out of the house I am late or close to being late. I'm gathering my gym bag and there is some stuff in there that somehow I forgot to wash. My wife and my son are here but for some reason my son is taking my car and I have to take the truck. My wife comes up and says there's a construction vehicle that says your vehicle is in the way and it looks like they're going to tow it. I know that I parked it in a legal
spot and just because they're doing some work doesn't give them the right to tow my car so I go out there and I see the truck again and I wonder why again am I driving the truck and how am I even starting it...it is having mechanical problems? There's another vehicle pulling out from a neighboring parking spot heading towards the truck slowly. I know that the other car is not going to hit it but he does and pushes my vehicle and there is a mischievous look on the driver's face. As he gets to the other side of me and parks I noticed a baby carrier from his car and it is empty and this is the part that is semi lucid to fully lucid because I decided that this must be a dream and I'm going to pick up the baby carrier and use it to rough up this idiotic DC and I take number of swings before waking up. 242

12/3/14 <snip> Wake 5:15 very tired, game last night. To bed 11:50pm.
Old neighborhood put two new blocks the streets look oddly vacant newer and lit up strangely in the daytime perhaps the way light looks when you have sunny rain. I'm with my father and apparently we bought a house on this block and I'm going down to check it out I get down to the end of the block and I've gone too far according to the numbers which are confusing but in hindsight may have been unusual and not in order as normal. a neighbor has a big screen TV outside their porch dark house. For some reason I'm avoiding detection by the neighbor perhaps it's not our house yet? I go to open the door and it is unlocked and I'm able to go in this is when I notice how extremely dark it is in there. (Memory gap or very odd transition) When leaving it is like I'm at an open house and other people are looking at the house and they asked for directions back to the freeway. I pull out my phone and the first application doesn't do a good job of pulling up the map
so pull up Google Maps and I accidentally click on part of the map that's back near my current day home which delays me finding the information they need but then eventually I reset the map to current location and have a hard time determining my current location it keeps moving on the map but eventually settles but the person already gave up and I guess figured they would find their way back to the freeway. I follow out as well. I pass this big open area with lots of displays including a miniature display it said miniature people go here as if someone set it up each time. I go further down the sidewalk and see the group of people that were asking for directions and they are stopped talking and blocking the sidewalk it occurs to me to fly over them and that's when I fully realized I was dreaming. The scene is not unlike a festival scene with DC's everywhere. I fly low over the crowds of people looking around enjoying myself but I realize the dream feels
a little unstable and I start to think about how I can keep it going and I decide to land and walk on the ground and it seems to stabilize a little but I should have taken it further and grab some grass or rub my hands because I didn't get to walk around very long before I felt myself back in bed and a little too uncomfortable to drop back in. 241

12/1/14 Did much more pre-bed in bed. Some insomnia but early LD before 355am wbtb. The earliest that I remember being lucid I am looking at a bright scene way down below and decide to fly there. Perhaps induced by "if I were lucid I would!" It takes longer to get there than expected and I just decide this is the place at an empty clearing in the woods. I decide there will be many women in the area I'm about to land. Next thing I remember I am in a #church #parkingLot showing off how far I can throw stones while lucid. We can hear my stone splash down in the pond that is way up there. Seem to lose lucidity as I explore the parking lot and find it really dark when following source of many people in the lot...the church exit. Later I show 2 people my device that shoots energy bursts and finally get it to work as the 2 drive off...I had to hold down the button longer. I'm on a motorcycle and losing track of them at an exit I don't know if they turned right at High Street or if they turned left to turn around on freeway. I miss the light and am revving on edge as two #police approach from my right and look at me like suspect I'm about to run red light then say "I can't believe that" later realizing they were talking about the street artist who is gambling in the street. He is known for painting feathery creatures in the street and may be Native American. 240

Tonight or last night? Remember eating a lot of things in dream and thinking how that was unusual for me.

Weird clown-like guy that was pulling a prank this involves him pretending to stab himself and splashing blood all over the wall. Not scary but weird.

11/29/14 Setting up audio/video equipment just like last night IWL.
No strong dreams to "meditate" on so I use SSILD 2nd night in a row. In hindsight, the previous night's was a rather typical realization for a DILD using SSILD. Tonight it seems that I was at the very beginning of the dream and realizing I am dreaming. There is a beautiful overlook down to a nighttime view of a city that I don't recognize. There is a wooden fence blocking part of the view and I float up and hang my arms over the fence to get a better view when the visuals start fading. I start chewing on the fence and have a little trouble with it but before long feel myself uncomfortable in bed needing to change position but optimistic about reentering a dream lucid but got sidetracked with waking activities so no worries. 239

Actually back to SSILD for all of these nights except the early LD on 12/1.

11/28/14 Epic sex LD. I am walking around the inside and outside of a house and seem to have trouble figuring out the layout and what leads to the backyard what leads to the front yard. When I make my way outside I go through what looks like the front but it is actually a fenced in backyard I guess and the gate leads to another unit I guess it is a duplex. I make my way back through what seems like the back and out onto the street and this whole time its just me walking around. I think that I'm already getting suspicious that this is a dream. I run into a guy out front and something about the previous scenario and something about this guy makes me realize I am dreaming. I float up into the air and get ready to fly but the guy grabs hold of my ankle and I motion and shoot an energy burst at him and he let's go but then another guy comes and I decided to try a more traditional flying left hook. After a few hits I'm able to get away and I fly off. I wonder if there was something I should have stayed there for and perhaps I could have asked those DC's why they were trying to hold me back and what they represent. (But then I probably wouldn't have had the experience that comes next.) I'm flying and the visuals have gone a bit gray on me so I decide to visualize where I'd like to end up. I visualize a huge crowd of beautiful women in bikinis and before long they start forming but not real clear but good enough and I land in the middle of the crowd of beautiful women, and just send out the message that we'll

Spoiler for sexual content:

have one big orgy. It is using something like telepathy but not exactly since this is all happening inside my brain, this is all my dream so of course all I have to do is think what I want to happen! I feel around on quite a few different women before I choose one woman to focus on and she has nice size breasts and beautiful silky skin and her nipples are little bit pale but so beautiful.

She looks like a natural blonde petite and very sexy. There are two sexy Asian women nearby and I will them to come over and

Spoiler for sexual content:

lick her breasts while I have intercourse

with the blonde. They are a little bit foggy but the blonde is not in the least! She is very vivid! I will another woman to come up behind me and hold me and

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touch me while I continue to thrust into the blonde.

I notice that the blonde seems a bit disinterested and even at one point reaches over to a pen and notebook and writes a few quick notes. Funny I guess...but I want you at least pretending like you are enjoying this! At this point I actually speak with my mouth and I say I want

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you to moan <snip>, it is quite sexy. She does it a little bit and I look around and back down and I seem to lose the visuals but I still have some of the feeling and I continue to thrust

and eventually the visuals come back but I am in a bedroom and the woman is now my wife.

Spoiler for sexual content:

We continue having sex

but at some point my wife says that someone is coming and I forget what name she used but it sounded like someone important. This is one of those moments that can try to pull you away from lucidity especially after the fading transition from that extra-ordinary scene to this more normal setting. The person comes in, she is a butch stocky short haired blonde woman and my wife seems concerned. I say it is ok this is all just a dream and I decide to float up just to confirm it in my head. Sure enough I float up and decided to

Spoiler for sexual content:

pull back out my "ahem" and offer it up to my wife's mouth. She looks at it like that thing has been so many places just recently. It looks significant but slightly flaccid and an image of a child size one

shows up on the opposite side of what is becoming more of a narrowed tunnel vision. Eventually the visuals fade and I decide not to fight it and at first feel like I am in a void but then feel myself back in bed, I've already had a terrific experience and I want to make sure I commit as much as I can of that experience to memory and record it. 238

11/23/14 Earlier dreams including playing some great music on a nice sound system and navigating a train platform with actual local trains being announced. After a late WBTB I have an FA in my actual sleeping location and soon find myself coming off of a train platform again and I realize I am dreaming. I think it may have been the odd transition from sleeping location FA to train platform after a brief moment of confusion. I am looking down a long street toward a largish group of people sitting on some benches along the road at the cross street of a T-intersection. I initially have some more adult ideas and I am flying that way not too high and not too fast and drop back down and walk up the people for the last 10-20 yards. I see it is mostly families and I drop the adult ideas. (What is up with this more tame me?) I walk up to one of the ladies and convince her to let me hold her 1 year old girl after some dialogue back and forth and had to use some Jedi mind trick type dialogue to close the deal. The baby is cute but is squirming around too much and give her back and I move to the lady with the 3 year old and have to do some convincing again to be able to hold her. I am surprised how much heavier she feels in the dream. The dream seemed to replicate the difference between the two girls quite well. I make baby faces at the girl playing with her for a bit and then hand her back over and start to look around and think about what I want to do next and lose the dream. Kind of short. I should have had some goals in mind but have kind of let goals slip into the back seat lately. Like yesterday I am able to float back to sleep with some interesting HH's including one of a gorgeous woman turning to look at me and her hair flowing. 237

Night 4 of "meditating" on my dreams and continuation of day practices adding silliness to up attention to my RC and RRC's. During WBTB I keep a little more sleepy/dreamy and don't stay up long but stay awake a while in bed keeping the focus simply on my previous dreams with the occasional MILD-like affirmation...usually one or two thoughts only which seems to allow me to float into HH's with some light awareness. Once again immediate waking life showing up in my dreams though I guess FA's more commonly do that.

11/22/14 I will see if I can do a written DJ entry in a quick way...trying to find a good balance. This "meditating" on my previous dreams seems to bring much more of my immediate waking life into the coming dreams somehow but it's only been three nights in a row so it's hard to tell if it could be some other cause and hardly conclusive. Leaving out some non-lucids should help speed it up.

I am on the couch with my wife and we are cuddling and getting more frisky and we have a blanket and while I wasn't looking she removed all her clothes and I knew what was next. The visuals and the vividness are quite good with very enjoyable sensations. <snip********************************************* ************************************************** ***************************>. Next we hear the keys in the front door lock and my wife rushes to get up and brings the blanket with her and runs around to the hall to hide leaving me with just my hands to cover up. I find my underwear and put them on. My son comes through the front door. As I greet him I hear a hair dryer going in the back corner room which, in hindsight, the layout seems most like my childhood home. The sound is coming from the bathroom in the master bedroom and no one should be in there. I ask my son if he knows why there would be a hair dryer going in there, did he use the hair dryer in there but that wouldn't make sense why would it come on by itself as this whole situation seems more supernatural...I get the thought that I can't believe this is not a dream. As I carefully head that way to see if there is an intruder or ghosts or what, my mother in law comes out of the bathroom and it is explained supposedly. I wonder what she is doing here though. I decide to do some state checks as we all head to an eat-in kitchen area that is in the place where the wall used to be between our kitchen and living room. I try to float and it feels like I'm doing it a little bit but I start to doubt...could I just be imagining the sensation really well right now. I do finger into my palm and my palm is solid but I know that many times the dream will create that scenario and decide to push my finger harder and I am amazed as I can see the skin on the back of my hand pushing out in the shape of my finger. But then again I wonder have I ever pushed this hard...can I actually see the shape of my finger on the other side of my hand if I do it this hard in waking life? I then decide to do a floating back flip and this convinces me enough to say OK then I can remove my underwear this is definitely a dream. I look over at my son who has a normal waking life reaction like "you are crazy what are you doing" but then I look at my wife and she has a "go ahead, whatever" look on her face and that is all the confirmation I would ever need! Unfortunately all this buildup, and then full confirmation in my mind, kind of felt like a strong emotional moment and I think it woke me up or I was just coming to the end of REM anyway.

I had several lucid just before waking moments after this that I won't count. 236

Trying the "picture says a thousand words" style DJ entry again...Yesterday's entry took too long.


Count again...this time some of the currency is black...I'm dreaming.


Look up, quite vivid vast sandy parking lot or similar with a monument way off to my right.

I run then fly there




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DILD #2

Spoiler for risqué picture:

(picture seems pg-13 rated...hope okay) other women around...explore foggy house with sexy women all around



234 & 235

11/20/14 Earlier an incredibly vivid non-lucid and possibly a little semi-lucid in spots before my LD. I'm on a trip to a hauntingly beautiful Pacific Northwest town of "Ted"...was that correct? is there such a town? Town name given to me when told where I would take my blood to a "lab nurse assistant" in town..."Where's Ted?" "It's this area we are in." "how much do I have to pay?"(for the lab work) -I just put the hotel on my amex and wondered if i will have enough credit for the whole trip. (Rushed notes mostly for myself...sorry so sloppy...feel free to skip to the blue text=lucid dream) My #Dad is there. We have at least two rooms. A 2nd employee came shortly after I got in line to check in at hotel and he helped me quickly. At check-in they gave us a black vinyl record with a label indicating it is about the local area. "So each room has a record player??" Transition to us "watching" the record (record has an ability more like an old video laser disc?). So I am watching this tour of the beautiful local area in what is revealed at the end to be a VR motion simulator. The simulator is apparently where I am seeing the beautiful images of the coastal area and thickets that we are now flying over..."we would call those thickets because they are areas hard to walk through." The scenery and beautiful/gloomy slightly foggy "air" of everything makes me think of a dark crime movie where a young girl's death was being investigated. I even have the thought that this experience (which in hindsight is definitely a dream) could be affected by that movie...as if I am semi-lucid..? (About a week ago I was reading about the director's more recent movie and thought about having seen this older movie years before when reading about the director). People in lobby with a suitcase open, is it theirs?...girl friday I pretend I don't particularly care that she just arrived...where was she? oh yeah she drove separately and left later...I'm naked on bottom and I put my underwear back on and seemed confused as if I was in the middle of changing. My #eldestNephew is next to me on couch...larger group on trip than it seemed at first. #eldestBrotherInLaw says the #4 needle was perfect but the #2 needle hurt (bad) which makes no sense (possibly record needle to medical needle dream transition). Transition to where I draw blood in bathroom, no pain. blood spill...blood bag too full. 2 different hotel workers come by as I am now in hotel hallway. First one I tell him it's blood...2nd one named Hank is very curious about my cup...I now claim it's juice (after I moved blood into small white paper cup). Blood quite red at first but with 2nd guy Hank, in hotel cleaner garb, blood was purplish and cup barely filled now...blood seeping through paper? Wake.

Previous dream was one of those dreams that launches a thousand ships due to its awesome vividness...or at least a dozen!..launching a nice longish LD with multiple scenes! :

Later-morning LD...
(I think this is the beginning of my dream, so possibly quick DILD realization) I'm in a bedroom/living room combination and I hear the answering machine come on and it is "Jane Green of Columbia" asking me to call her back and I immediately recognize her name from my previous dream (though I can't remember the context...possibly false memory) and realize that this is a dream. On the other side of the room is my brother and I tell him how glad I am to see him and I interact with him a little bit . The dream then fades into what at first seems similar to dreamlets but I am able to enter most of them and watch many of them form in front of my eyes including a school hallway scene and in between would be void-like darkness where I used a rhythmic squirming motion (dream body is present) much like what I imagine a mammal with it's appendages would use to swim underwater or may be based on videos of such swimming. Weird! But it kept me moving and felt great moving me into scene after scene. I am hopeful that I was navigating some very brief NREM moments...otherwise my dreaming mind simply created such a dream with void-like gaps. Anyway some of the other scenes include being in a hallway and seeing the door that had a beach scene on the entire door kind of like a poster but more like a professionally designed door that led to a spa facility perhaps. I was completely expecting to phase through it and into a beach like scene but I think I did have in the back of my mind that phasing could collapse the visuals even though I have had no issue phasing at other times...I got a dark void again but wasn't the least bit concerned and I squirm/swim my way to the next scene. There was a scene with a bad guy in a black cloak and hooded outfit and I fly towards him throwing energy bursts at him. I get another bad guy in the next scene but ignore him and look around. There are quite a few scene changes that I am losing some of the details. Scenes with a sexy woman. And one of the last scenes I got caught up reading aloud a fairly long passage of text and seem to be lost in the moment before my awareness kicks back in and I realize that I'm back to dreaming again. I pause in order to commit all of these scene changes to memory and the blackness this time is the back of my eyelids....Counting as one long-ish LD and I am sure I am forgetting some details due to the vastly different scene changes. 233

I had a wake back to bed between that really vivid non lucid dream possibly becoming semi lucid and the subsequent series of lucid dream scenes. Instead of my normal SSILD I go back to bed and lightly and dreamily think about my previous vivid dream and go through my memories of it and this seems to keep my head in the right place to allow me to quickly become lucid when dreaming starts. Yesterday I also played with self awareness through a little silly dance or silly faces which seems to allow me to see myself from the outside more quickly than my usual clear light based perspective and found it clearly bringing more awareness to my self.

11/15/14 Unstable OBE after SSILD and vibrations, didn't get very far, should have been more patient at the beginning. 232

I had to put this somewhere...I just saw Jessica Chastain in last night's Daily Show interview...and I must say my heart fluttered...dang is she so lovable and stunningly beautiful in that interview! Maybe I can go on a date with her in dreamland!