Turquoise Dreams

Thursday 5/16/13

Last night bed at 9:40pm - 6:40 am

Lots of dreams.

DR. I'm at home in NZ. My parents are arrainging marriage. They are giving me to the son of a inkeeper in A. I don't want to. But they are some kind of a mafia or something. Even my brother guards me with a shotgun, so I don't run away.

DR. A neighbor enters while we at the table eating. I ask him if he grabbed my keys last time he was there. He sais no, I have my own. I'm telling him it's not ok, to give me the key. He sais he made it himself so it's his. His wife is telling him to give me the key. He is so sad.

DR. My mom is hiding some secret in a folded up yellow cloth. When I unwrap it, bunch of beads fall out.

Took a nap 9-9:30

DILD and DEILD

Don't remember how I got lucid. But the whole thing was very foggy.

In first one - I'm walking around with my old classmate Renata Sz. It's bright and I'm clapping in excitement and to remind myself that I'm dreaming. I'm thinking I'm gonna make it last this time.

I pushed my head back for a headrush and got up from my body, but it was so hard. I remember thinking I may have not separated yet. I also see some HH video but decide to wait for the black void. I only get the 2D void, so I enter by pushing my head back.

Second one - I remembered I wanted to connect to my spiritual guide. There are some people and I ask them if they have seen him. One guy with backpack starts going around a parked car as I follow him.

Then an idea of sx pops in and that's the end of spiritual exploration.

tuesday 5/14/13

Had a bunch of dreams last night. Something about chicken spoiling in the fridge. Then I woke up and discovered that cat went potty.

Took a nap but didn't get anywhere. Just fell asleep. But last nigt, watching tv on sofa, got really sleepy and closed my eyes. Got HH in under 15 seconds and felt myself like flying or shifting.

Monday, 5/13/13

Not much of a recall last few days. But I know why. Couldn't sleep well, if I slept at all. Was very excited about my new discovery of relation between WILD and OBEs.

I'm happy, can't wait for a free morning to WILD.

Saturday, 5/11/13

Yesterday, I had a huge revelation. I realized, that what I have been suspecting for a long time, is true.

Dreams, lucid dreams and astral projections are all happening in the same "place". Astral plane. The only difference is the level of awareness and way of entering.

Astral plane is not a place pre se, it's a mental state, level of awareness and focus.

This explains some of my WILD experiences. The 'snapping back' to my body, the feel that I'm on bungy cord, being pulled back, before having chance to get some distance from my body. The feeling of me being in my real room.

The images and sounds during transition.

Friday 5/10/13

Last night bed 1:40am - 10:15am Watching The Galaxy Quest

DR1 - I'm with a friend of mine in a beach hotel. it's already second day, and I realize I have not gone to the beach yet. I look out the door and ocean on the left is in distance. The sandy beach between us is very wide. Some people are sunbathing nearby.

Something happened to my shorts, so I'm looking for new pair in a drower. There is a green pair and salmon colored one.

DR2 - I'm in a long, one story building. Feels like a hospital or clinic. I'm getting away. I make it past the main door and outside in a park I'm hiding from a nurse that's following me. She runs towards me and I can't run fast.

There are some gorillas at the front door. They are friendly and I pet one of them as I walk by.

Back inside some building. There is a guy in upstairs room and some guys friends of mine. I ask him if he is running from police. I wanna help him.

Police and FBI are taking positions outside. All you can see from bushes are shiny barrels of sniper rifles. And big, shiny badges and medals. I unwrap an old piece of cloth on the table next to this guy to take a weapon to help him defend himself. To my disappointment, there is about 5 samurai swords, only 2 shotguns. I take one of them and I'm checking out how it works.

Police chief walkes in to negotiate. I think the guy is doing to surrender.

DR3 - I'm at the wheel of an riksha type of a vehicle. 3 wheels, one place at the front. But in the back is a bed with comforters. I think a child is there with me, maybe my younger brother. We are in town K, where my gramma lives.

We are about to take off, when this old, skinny lady lifts up a tarp that serves as sides of the vehicle and gets in. She wants me to take her to the cemetary. I don't have a heart to tell her I'm not a taxi, which I think she has me confused with. But I also have a feeling, she exactly knew who I was. I feel like she as another agenda.

I tell her to sit down or lay down. She lays down and I cover her with a comforter. She gets up and fidgets. I'm worried she falls out through the tarp side. I see she is cold, I tell her to lay down again and I'll give her another comforter.

I tell her in hungarian, that I don't really know how to get to the cemetary. She says she will navigate. I tell her in my broken hungarian, that she needs to tell me couple streets before we need to make a turn, what street we need to make that turn at and if to the left or right.

I'm also asking my brother to navigate. He sais he never been there. I tell him sure you were. Then I'm trying to remember when, and I tell him we were there for our godfather. I'm thinking hard who else, then I remember my godmother.

Thursday, 5/9/13

DR: I'm going in a boat to the other side of the lake. The dock we come to is called garfield. I follow someone up a long and steep bank, that has some metal walkway. Metal is of sun-bleached red color. I notice how it bends under my weight.

Went for a OBE at 2pm. Got some strong relaxation feeling in about 5 min, but a neigbor talked very loud to someone right under my window. Tried to ignore them and I acctually got some very nice HH - i was flipping through some colorful catalog with flowers.

Every time I exhaled, I felt as if a baloon under my back was inflating and I was higher and higher and more lighter. This was a first.

I was falling asleep, but then the noise was just too much and it all stopped. Then I was just falling asleep without HH or anything. My goal was not to take a nap but to have OBE/WILD, so I got up. My legs felt mushy for a while. All in all, nice experience.

Wednesday, 5/8/13

Last night bed 12am - 7:30am

DR: With my best friend M on a train. Arriving to the bus depo and going from there. Bying some newspaper and checking out books. (I do love newspaper and books in WL.)

Something about being with a group in mountains.

Didn't want to take a nap today. Last few days couldn't pull of a WILD, perhaps because I'm so used to morning naps, it's just like another normal sleep time.

So I read some OBE articles and got so excited, that I decided to take a nap afterall. I go on sofa at 12pm. Got some weightless sensations very soon. Did some rhyming mantra and breathing. Started to feel as if rotating on axes, but couldn't make it stronger. So I tried to get the falling feeling, in which a succeeded little later on.

WILD
Got some gorgious HH images. A huge, colorful wasp on light burgundy background and two other images of two more insects. But I had my heart set on OBE.

I got some vibrations and tried to open my real eyes to see if I can see any hallucinations in my room. I managed to open left eye and I saw myself laying on sofa, same position as I knew I was. I had same pants on I did in WL. I noted my hand was in strange position, but I knew that's how I had it IWL. I couldn't move my head, so I had limited view to my right, where the window is. Room was fully lit, as I knew it was. Tried to pry open my right eye and succeeded for a moment, but almost immediatelly lost sight in both eyes. (So, it wasn't my WL eyes, but my dream eyes I had opened.)

Before I lost sight, I tried to get up and I felt myself getting up and it was the strangest feeling, because at the same time I saw my body not moving. It was almost as if I was saying to my body "I'm going, are you staying?" I got up and ended up in my aunties bathroom. I was still trying to have OBE, so this experience ended, because I was not trying to keep it alive.

I'm back on sofa, saying "up, up". But I realized I'm getting too needy and I shouldn't. Can't help it, I really want it. I have to prepare myself better next time.

Tuesday 5/7/13

Last night bed 11pm - 9am nap 9:20 - 11:15am

DR - 12:45 Comminicating with tech admin, someone has 2 accounts

DR - 9am Hectic dream. Getting kids ready for school in the morning. They are dressed and ready, so we go and play on the street. Mom comes home, why they not ready? It takes them another hour to get ready. It's my fault.

DR - It's my first day at school - last year of highschool. It's already 9am, school starts at 9 and I'm still at home. I'll get there faster on bike, but it's snowing. Then I'm thinking where in the building will be my classroom. That's when I realize, I already graduated from there and today it's my first day at college. But I don't know which one, only that classes start later than at 9.

DR - Guy is standing at some metal panel and is being electrocuted. Some guys are getting ready to save him. They pull him off and one of them calls on a walkie-talkie for Rescue 1. They are in another city, but they are coming. Someone brings some medical instruments covered with paper towel. I'm suppose to take some of them to the school dentist, but I question if they are sterile. Girl says yeah, they are clean, I just washed them. I know they should be sterilized, not washed, so we argue for a while.

DR - Guy is making hot-dogs. All different kinds. I yell at him, because he has them on my new sofa, just like that, without plate or anything.

Sunday 5/5/13

Last night, bed 1:15am - 6am (Didn't fall asleep till 2am)

WBTB 6am-7am. Had a cup of one bag mint tea with green tea and one bag of peppermint tea just minutes before nap. Got up once at 8 to go potty. Dream afterwards. Got vibrations twice, after turned on my left side, but no LD.

Thought about ToTM. I imagined, how I will detach my thumb and put it back on with helo of either duct tape, or laser shooting from my other finger.

This is what I got:

Non-lucid nap DR: I'm walking down the street, that looks like is in village where my gramma lives. Single story houses. I'm going to a house I have previously been to. But I don't remember well how it looks like. I overhoot by a few houses and have to track back. I recognize the house now.

Inside, I'm standing at the kitchen sink with some older lady on the other side of it. I'm showing her my left middle finger. It looks bruised and deformed. She tells me "honey, you have ? fly worms in there". I look closer and I see heavy movement under the skin.

That's when my finger breaks open at the knuckle and out come pouring black worms. 1 inch long, kinda skinny, color of black, coagulated blood. And it seems like that's not enough, bunch of smallish beetles come rushing out too.

Worms fall in the sink and I wash them down with water. Lady is complaining "now I'm gonna have a worm smell in my sink". I can see, how that would be upseting.

Bugs scatter all over. But I chase them down, until there is just one left. It's little more colorful than others. It's a special bug. I keep swatting at it with a ruler, but keep missing. Then it gets under some stuff on the desk. As I move the items around, I see a sea of fleas on the desk. I figure, I better let them be. But I do get the last bug.

There was another dream after this one, but I only feel, what it was about. Will keep thinking about it.

Saturday 5/4/13

last night bed 2am-9:30am

DR: I'm debating with someone, how in US, people don't greet each other when they see each other in the morning, or don't say "bye" when hanging up a phone call.

Going for a nap 11:15am -

Friday 5/3/13

Last night bed 12 am. Couldn't sleep, got up till 3am. Slept till 8:20. Nap too late, 12pm. Fell asleep, woke up right away and got up.

Thursday 5/2/13

last night bed 12am - 7:30am

DR: Lots of dreams in the morning. Didn't get up to write them down, just replayed with words. All I remember is that there was an Earth Invasion with some bots. (Watched the Iron man yesterday, scene where huge robots are shooting at crowds)

Nap 8am - 10:15am
So happy, because 15 min after I woke up, cleaners came to neighbors apartment to clean the carpet.

WILD+2 DEILDs

As soon as I felt it, I pushed my head back and got some intense falling sensation that ended in LD. I did this twice. One entry - as I'm laying, I think about looking at my hands, so I raise my dream hands and they are so cool. Black swirling, shiny fog. Then I decide I can get up now.

I pet one of my cats, it was MM. I could tell from the way she looked - just like in WL, and her coat felt exactly the same. I was gonna take it easy and stabilize by looking at the wall in my brothers bedroom. As I'm zooming in on details, I start floating backwards to the window, but I stop it, because want to look at the wall some more.

They were short, just 20 sec each.

Tuesday 4/30/12

last night bed at 1am -9am.

DR1:

I'm in a nightclub. A dead girl, all bruised up, is curled up on a bar stool. Two girls sitting on each side of her lean over her and start making out. There is another dead girl nearby, also no one pays any attention. (I watched Defiance IWL and they looked like some people from there.)

DR2:

I'm in school. It's empty, I'm looking for exit.

DR3:

I'm with my class in a long room. There is a few beds and I'm sitting on one of them. Another classmate is sitting opposite of me on another bed. A teacher brings plastic jug with clear liquid in it. It's Ayahuasca. Some of us are suppose to try it.

Classmate takes a sip and we watch him for a while. Everybody is watching. It's some kind of a lucid dreaming experiment. Then I take few sips. At first I feel nothing but then I feel something mildly strange with my head. Then I get the strongest vibrations. I brace myself for pain. I doesn't hurt, but I fell like it could.

The vibrations stopped and I'm wondering why am I not lucid. I decide to test it. I open the glass door to the balcony, which is not too high, just a first floor. I hop over the metal rail and start to hover - fly in the air, right between the balcony and a nice big green tree. Lots of people underneath. Pedestrian zone, some kind of a fair.

Then I'm back inside the class. I talk about how it didn't get me lucid, but then I conclude, that I was flying, so it must have been very vivid, real lifelike LD. I'm asking lots of questions where I can get ayahuasca and we debate it for a while. (There was a teaser on syfy channel yesterday, about new series and three words flashed on the screen - DMT, Ayahuasca and something else).

Had a really crappy dream last night. The mood stayed with me all day long. not even gonna write it down, hoping to forget it.

Nap dream:

I started to work in a huge, square shape, one story house. A girl is talking to someone through open door and I'm getting worried, that he is some stranger. So i'm asking around, if anybody knows him. By then he leaves and runs after a small yellow and green truck that was delivering stuff to the house to catch a ride. It's quite a distance to town.

Friday, 4/26/13

last night bed 12;30 - 8am

DR: I'm in a large house. Some people are harrasing us and coming to the house, trying to get in. I'm in a yard when a guy in red t-shirt riding on a horse breaks through and gets in. Somehow we get them to leave and I'm looking for a 4x4 or baseball bat to have some weapon for next time.