Turquoise Dreams

Wednesday 3/27/13

Bed 1:20am -7:10am
Morning nap 8:30, got up to restroom at 9:40, right back to sofa, up from WILDs at 11:07

After WBTB, lay down on my left side - I had all LD in this position today.

What a completely different experience than last DEILD chain. This time, almost all of 30 min experience were LDs, just a tiny portion were transition.

I got the falling feeling maybe just twice, after I invoked it. But nothing like last time.

The whole time I wasn't really asleep deeply. I heard the church bells, felt my cat move at my feet.

1. This guy is stealing some metal rod construction things from my uncles yard. I yell at him from my window that I have him on camera. He comes close to me and I cover my face so he doesn't recognize me next time. But I know I'm just visiting there so I know there is no chance of running into him later.

Until I run into him and his gang later. Oh yeah, kids cover your eyes. He bends me over and we have some gooood times. And then one more time. I saw his penuuuuus!

(He looked like the bad guy on Sliders - I'm watching reruns)

2. I'm walking through a very realistic looking apartment with white kitchen furniture. I'm thinking about people asking on DV how realistic LDs can get and I'm thinking to myself "pretty damn realistic". Looked as real as my real kitchen.

I sit in a chair and 2 friends are there asking me if I can get lucid again, because they wanna be in a dream with me so we can be lucid together. I say I don't know and start to pushing my body so it hangs of the chair and I start seeing with my eyes closed and I'm lucid. Mind you, I was lucid already. I'm touching my friends and poking them if they can feel me, but they don't know I'm lucid (OBE), since my body is still sitting in the chair.

3. I'm laying on sofa and I watch a small animal crawl on a carpet. I think to myself when I notice something, I'll know I'm lucid. It's a small, fat, hairless, 6 skinny legs, looking like a cuddly spider of a size of a small plate. Brown and lighter brown body with design like a spider. I pet him. He feels soft and squishy.

4. I try to get out of the building. But every door I open leads to another room. I have to chuckle, because I'm aware of my daytime thought of staying in buildings, not be scared of them. I put my hand on the doorknob and try to think what's behind it. But I have the door ajar already and something bright and colorful is behind it. I walk out to Las Vegas casino.

I want to get outside so I walk up to a rack with postcards. I thinking hard where I wanna go. Think Stonehenge, but there is no postcard for that. So I think pyramids in Giza. There are pics of pyramid, but it's the one in Vegas. I try it anyway and think I can trick my mind and have me transported to Egypt anyway.

I put the postcard on my face and try to push my face inside. I remember reading IWL, that you can change dreamscape by entering large posters. I know this is too small but I also know it will work.

I push my face into postcard and it stretches as a thin film over my face. I push myself through it and emerge on the other side. But It's still Vegas. I pick another postcard, this time of a very nice octagonal water fountain someplace in Egypt. I push myself through but there is only darkness.

5. I start in a building again. Old apartment, european type. Try to walk out. Finaly after many doors I come to main hallway. There is a very old, frail looking lady checking her mailbox or something. I pet her arm and try to talk to her. I know my voice was not strong in last couple of LDs, but I know she can hear me. I get an idea that maybe she is someone I know who had passed away. I feel close to her.

3/24/13 Sunday bed 2am-8:50am

Have to get back to my normal schedule. Bed around midnight and water regime. This is not fun. Will try moning nap tomorrow.

3/23/13 Saturday

First attempt at morning nap - got some cool sensations of heaviness, but got up because of damn hunger.

Second attempt - kept falling asleep without lucidity. So I just got up.

Third attempt - fell asleep.

Friday 3/22/13

Bed 5am - 10:50am Watching Warehouse 13 marathon. Now, I'm ready for new season.

OK, last dream of my sleep was crappy. Stil feeling crappy from it.

DR: I was visiting friend of mine and her two kids. I know them very well. I thought I had permission to tell kids about what LDing is and how to achieve it. As I'm starting to explain, she tells me, all annoyed, I hope you not telling them mombo-jumbo crap. I'm like "no, just that they don't have to put up with bad dreams and stuff".

But I stopped explaining. Then we had some crappy pizza and I couldn't wait to get the heck out of there. Very ackward. We played with kids on the floor and I felt like everything I do or say is scrutinized and wrong.

I really wish I would stop dreaming with people from my past. That part of my life is over. I wish, I could get over it.

3/19/13 Tuesday bed 1am-8am

Tried to take a nap at 11am, but didn't fall asleep. My cat decided to sleep on me and was fidgeting. I let her, because once another cat of mine go me lucid by waking me up often, but this time i couldn't even fall asleep.

Monday 3/18/13 bed around 1am -7am. Nap 10:45am-11:30am

Holy smokes, this was a good one. About 30 min of chaining. First WILD, rest a mix of WILDs a DEILDs + 1 lonely FA.

I was really torn between getting up and writing it down and between continuing, and that got reflected in FA in which I got up and wrote stuf up, only to ralize 5 min later in next DEILD that I didn't do it.

The entries were absolutely amazing. More energy oriented then ever before. Othere times I used to get up with my getting up or rolling out.

My mantra was "slow down, look around".

List is not in order of it happening.

Sensations:

1. Vibrations, which i managed to make stronger by thinking "energy, energy". Boy, did they ever got stronger. Incredible massage. All I could think of was how can anybody not like vibrations.

2. At least 4 times I got out by rocking my body lengthwise, from feet to head. Incredible real feeling. Once I continued the motion and started floating out like from my head. Once I got out by falling backward head first.

3. One exit when I realized I can feel the papers on the desk I was WILDing at (not there in WL) so I started touching papers and desk and saw my arms and got up.

4. One exit - I kneeled on some stairs (like for older pets to be able to hop on bed) and tilted my head forward and down to get the falling feeling.


LDs:

1. I'm walking through one story house in tropical spanish style. (watching too much House Hunters international IWL). Lots of big, bright rooms. Come to the patio with huge flower pot with big leaf plant (like a banana tree) in shape of a casket. I'm about to freak out but I don't alow myself to do that. Instead I think "no, that's not it, just a flower pot".

2. I'm sitting with mom and I'm writing something. She doesn't like that so I ask her if I should rather carve it into my arm. She likes that even less. I pick a ballpoint pen and "carve" write 4 - 4inch letters on my left inside forarm. The ink is not sticking everywhere. Mom comes back with a first aid kit.

3. In one of them I remembered the "slow down, look around" mantra and actually looked around 360 degrees around me. I usually never look around, just move forward.

Added 4. On two occasion, I was blind and thought about wiping my eyes clean, but then decided to do it the easy way and take off my sunglasses instead. I think this happened after exit by falling sensation, not by getting up. If that's so, that's great, because I don't remember having success with this type of entry before.

Added 5. On one occasion I counted my fingers. Left hand had more than 5 fingers, and they looked dirty.

On both occasions it got brighter. In one LD I started to see a wall infront of me. It was grey and textured. I normally don't like going to places I don't where I'm going, but said to myself to stop being a chicken and something nice will be there.

So I went through the wall pushing it away with botm my hands, as you would push away spiderwebs in your way.

Man, I hope I remember more. I'm so stoked. They were all short, most of the time just a few seconds, but I had such a good time.

So after almost all this, I thought it's over, so I changed position but got vibrations again and was thrilled about it. Then I said I need to get up now if I want to remember any of this but got weak vibes again.

3/16/13 Saturday

Just finished watching G.I. Joe Retaliation 4th time and can't stop thinking of storm shadow.

Had a very brief dream in which he appeared.

3/15/13 Friday

I'm watching Late night show Ferguson and him talking about mosquitos in Florida gave me recall of my long and detailed dream I had last night. All I remember from it, that I was visiting with someone and slept over and in the morning I opened the big glass door to outside. Didn't close the screen door either and mosquitos waiting on the screen door got inside and guy who lives there was asking who let them in.

And I just remembered another dream. This one was inspired by reading some posts in Lounge how somebodys bungholes hurt because of something rather.

So in my dream, there was a shawing razor that I disassembled, a guy, someone else and a certain person from DV with red stars. That's all I can say.

Another one - someone is teaching me how to pronounce some word.

Wednesday 3/13/13. Last night went to bed 1:30 am - 9:30am.

I was chased by police, again. I'm walking down a pedestrian zone, 2 cops in black uniforms, they look like NY police. They are walking towards me. There some kind of a metal column in the middle of the walkway, and it exactly covers their view of me as we walk. It's unnerving to walk slowly this close to them, but it works, they can't see me.

I sit down outside a small store. Lady owner comes out and tries to shoo me away. Then she sees the look of desperation on my face and askes me if I need to hide. I nod "yes". She lets me in. A customer brings her dog in for grooming and walking downstairs.

- I'm in another building. Could be police station. There are stairs to go downstairs but it's restricted area. I walk there anyway, because I feel that's the way out. Big chase, I'm up in the metal construction thing under the ceiling and jumping out the closed window.

Chase is always fun, but this one was a little tense, for some reason.

Sunday 3/10/13 bed 1am-9:30am

Last couple of days I had this strong feeling that maybe my company would ask me to relocate to Bangalore, India. I'm kinda opened to the idea. I was looking at maps, reading relocating websites and I'm actually excided. It's very unlikely to happen, but it's exciting to think about.

DR -
I just arrived to India. It's lunch time and I sit at the table with about 8-10 spaces. There are only 3 people sitting there, but their office mates are arriving shortly. I'm scooting over to give everybody space. These will be my coworkers. One guy looks like he is the boss and he tells me something about food. I'm disappointed that he doesn't talk to me more about what's gonna happen now.

I eat some soup from small bowl. Then they bring plates of deepfried catfish and corn. Someone puts a big piece on my plate and I feel obliged to eat it all.

While we eat, I watch some girls play on their lunch break. They are dressed in traditional colorful saris. I'm thinking if I should wear stuff like that too.

After lunch we go for a run. Some kind of a team strenghtening excercize. I see from birds-eye view some guys putting bushes in middle of the running path to hide there and scare the new person. I see this girl, face sunburned, as she is saying - "I'm going home. Not staying here". I realize that's me and I'm disappointed in her.

Sunday, 3/10/13

Have been working pretty much non-stop last couple of weeks, including at nights. Not much dreaming/recall going on.

Yesterday and today had some bad dreams.

Today

DR- I'm in a dorm like setting. My auntie and uncle are visiting?

I just woke up and I'm telling my auntie that I almost got LD, had she not woken me up. (IWL I remember having "white screen" and some headrush, so I probably did almost get a DILD). On the white screen, some letters were showing up, all mixed up, but I know they would read lucid dream (ing).

They are asking about some names I have on the wall. First one is my signature, rest of them, I tell them are signatures of my friends. I'm not telling them the whole truth, because I know it's somehow LDing related.

They tell me it's dangerous to have whole names on public display and I know they are talking about LDing also.

I'm in bed, cuddling with my brother, trying to flip my hair that's falling in my eyes and covering my view. I hear some stomping sounds coming closer in the hallway. I know this is it, I should have erased the names from the wall, and I was going to, just didn't get a chance yet.

Then I'm with a friend of mine in some building. It's a long dream. We are in some room, looking for higher safer ground, because I hear the stomping again.

IWL - is it possible, I was hearing HH while about to LD?

Sunday 3/3/13 - bed at 12:30am - 8:50am B-complex at bedtime

some dreams

DR1
I'm at some meeting, signing attendance book

DR2
Get yelled at by someone and I stand up to her.

Monday 3/4/13 Nap 11ish - 12:30am

Got either DILD or WILD. And added 1 DEILD to it.

Not remembering much, because continued sleeping thinking I hook another DEILD to it.

FIRS TIME EVER - vibrations in face and not the usuall torso.

I'm sitting on a chair, rocking backwards, until I overdo it and back of the chair leans all the way to the ground in a slow and gentle motion. I realize I could do this to induce and keep doing it.

I'm sitting on a train, my dad is standing and talking to me. I'm half asleep, when I realize i can see him with eyes closed. I figure it would be fun to follow him so I get up and follow him. We come to a building I know my friend lives in so I decide to go check out her bedroom and next time I'm there to see if what I saw was correct.

*IWL, they are cutting trees nearby and using the shreader so it's very loud in my apartment. But I had a LD before in lots of noise, so i tried today as well. Iw was ok, but couln't get a long chain going. It's ok, I'm happy. Thank you, come again

Sunday 3/3/13 Bed on 3/2/13 sat 12:20am - 9am

Nap - 11:50 - woke up at 3:20pm

I started feeling body relaxing almost immediatelly and I wondered if it's because it knows I want to WILD. Waves of vibrations start washing over me, I count at least 4 or 5. At the second one, I wonder if I should just get up already, but I know it's too soon.

I get my first head-buzz when I think I have had enough. My leg is crooked begause cat is sleeping at my feet. So I turn to my left side and try again.

I got a WILD and at least 7 DEILDs, but I don't remember them all. Whole thing lasted for at least 30 min. Was not rushed through them as last time. I remember thinking in one LD wow, this is so long, I know I'm not gonna wake up. I hade this strange calmness and confidence.

Each transition was extremely mild. All I did each time was I realized that I'm still sleeping so I rocked my head (dream head) back and forth to start some dizzy motion thing and that usually get's me lucid.

Only at one transition I saw a large insect on my wall and as I was rocking back and forth, more and more spider webs appeared on the wall. I thought about just getting up then, since I knew I'm dreaming. But I got some nice falling down sensation and went with that.

Dont' recall all DEILDs.

1. WILD - I'm flying towards some futuristic city with skyscrapers on background of stormy clouds and sunny skies. On the way there I stop to investigate a beautifull sport arena. I say "take me there" while looking at the wall and I get zoomed in fast. I figure I better remember this new mode of transportation.

Can't tell if its football or baseball, so I'm making my way to the top to see the field. I'm desperate to see the sign on top to know what city I'm in. I thing it says Brewers.

2. DEILD. I'm walking in the back yard of RD10. I feel awareness slipping so I keep yelling something, but it keeps slipping. I realize, it slips anyway, and as i do, I get snapped back to it. This happens a few times.

In the very back, by the fence, there is a small patch of tropical sea of size of maybe 2 bathtubs. Incredible beautiful blue see-through water and white sand. I pick it up and let it run through my fingers.

3. DEILD Same backyard as in #2, only the whole backyard is tropical sea. Lots of white sand, sun, warm, shallow, blue water.

4. DEILD I'm standing on a shore line. Small waves are splashing over concrete shore. I look almost straight up and tovering over me are huge waves. I smile and say "take me there". After my first mouthfull of water I realize I should have said "take me over the wave". I'm bobbing on top of the tsunami waves, while collecting some kids taken out to sea by these huge waves. I pick a girl and a boy and maybe their mom.

I'm walking through the hotel and I get nasty looks from some people. I learn that I am in bikiny and I'm a young girl that she is obviously hated in this hotel. I think to myself damn, why did I have to transform into this girl for?

I make my way through corridors, looking out the small windows, trying to see which way I should get out. I come to a balcony. Beneath me is a tropical sea with beach. Incredible georgeous blue water, not see through, more milky, like some places in Hawaii. Only blue.

I jup in next to something I think is a school of fish. But it's a lobster and sea turtle. I say "turtle details" a few times. Turtle turns to me and asks "what do you mean turtle details?". I say I would like to see more details on him. It looks like whoever built him, didn't finish him, because skin and shell was missing in some places. But the green color was spot on. I feel the warmth of the ocean and atmosphere of a resort.

I lift myself out of the water to look beyond the sea wall. There is the angry ocean with tsunami waves. Ok, I decide to stay in my small peacefull sea and go explore the sandbars of blindingly white sand.

5. DEILD I'm with somone and someone says "invite her to?"

6. DEILD Here I"m at the house I was invited to in #5. A girl I used to know as a child now has children of her own. The little girl running around is not my friend, but her granddaughter. A doctor comes to give here a shot and while I watch, I start rocking to induce LD. I wonder if he notices if I fall asleep while standing up.

When he is done, I ask him if he wants to "do it". Sure thing, but I guess we both fall asleep. We wake up and he says we slept for half an hour.

*I feel like I could be doing this forever. But my big toe hurts like hell. My whole foot is crooked because of a cat sleeping at my feet. So i wake up and cat is not there.

*I watched "The Contact" again and was really obsessing about that alien beach with tropical blue seas. I guess that reflected in this batch of LDs. Thank you, come again.

3/1/13 Friday bed time 1:45am - 9am.

Was watching rerun of The Americans. Was suppose to be going till 3:30am. I was contemplating to finish watching it and then start on a work, that just arrived (I work over internet). Decided to go to sleep instead and start work in the morning.

3 long and detailed dreams at 9am.

DR 1
I'm in a larger room with lots of people. Older gentlman tells me he needs to go to Coronado and asks if it's thataway. I tell him no, it's by San Diego. I take him to a large map on the wall. I show him we are here at Fashion Island. He can take a 5 or PCH. It was 2pm and he had enough time to get there by 5pm, when he was suppose to be there. I ask someone to confirm that he will make it on time.

After we are done, I take the map down, fold it, but someone hands it to someone outside of the bus (I'm on a bus now). I tell them no, that's my map and show them my hadwritten notes with pencil on top of the map and I take it back.

DR 2
I'm with a group of friends. They walk away a few feet and start singing a limerick about how stupid google chromebook is, because it's made in China from parts made in CzechoSlovenia. I get pissed at them and complain to someone - you think they are friends but they are not. I thank them for being dicks and insulting my country. (I did research that laptop before bed IWL)

DR 3
This was a first dream, and I remember the least from it.

We are filming and I play a part. We are taking different shots and takes. It's a fun and easygoing athmosphere.

2/28/13 Thursday

Took naps throughout the day. Tired from being up all night working. Bed time - 7:30pm 1:14am; 3am - 8:45am

DR 1 - 1:14am

I'm looking out a huge window to tha canyon below me. There is no vegetation, because a huge rain storm washed everything away (watche firestorm live on TV IWL - Riverside) But there is all kind of animals on the slope. Sheep, coyotes are stalking them, especially the one sheep that is alone. There is a big black and white shiny animal swimming in a river on the bottom of a canyon. it has markings like a killer whale, but looks like giant river otter. I call others to look at it but lose sight of it as if swims under the low, arched, stoney bridge. When it comes out on the other ends, it's a submarine with crew walking on top of it.

A former classmates stopps by and run off to put on pants. I pick a pair that's too big and while hopping on one foot trying to put the other one in a pant sleeve I tell him while laughing "I have 15 pairs of black pant and I pick this white one, which is the only one too big for me."

We decide to go out for a drink. Turns out, I'm in Hawaii. I look back at the hotel I came out from so I know how it looks so I can find it on my way back. It has a light blue and white logo, kinda like NOAA. It's called O'nus. We walk on a wooden pathway over crystal clear water. i watch seashells and coral and fish. One black mussel swims up and divebombs and eats some small snail.

There is some seaweed and lifeforms on the walkway and I kick them gently back to water.

In front of a small shack on the walkway are 3 little cinnamon kittens in a cage, all wet. And three more in an aquarium with little bit of water on a bottom of it. I yell at the young woman to call someone to take care of the kittens, if she can't. She threatens to call the cops and I tell her I'm staying there until they show up. i see her changing her clothes and running away.

DR 2 - 8:45 am
I work for royal family of England. (Watching movie The Queen durin WBTB IWL)