lucid

12.13.13

Last night bed around 2am -9am

Today, wanted to WILD baaaaadly. So I laid down on my sofa at 1pm. Of course, that was a signal for my cat to climb on my chest. She was purring so happily, I couldn't say no. I never say no. Thankfully my other cat was sound asleep. That's because I'm getting smart about my preparations. I used to put pillows and a blanket on a sofa just before WILD, and they always saw that when that woke them up, and they almost always climed up on me. But now, I prepare my sofa way ahead, and then later I just sneak there quietly.

Didn't really have any HH. Just getting nice and relaxed. Then I got a first WILD. Was short, and I wasn't super aware. Just enough to have presence o mind to wanting to invoke falling sensation each time previous LD ended.

In one of them, they rolled my boss to me in a wheel chair, so he can talk to me. I said, "oh, you are impared". Guess what, so am I, coz I'm wilding and not getting up from sofa". And this seemed to be a theme. Me laying down in every transition trying to invoke sensations to enter LD.

Not a single time I realized, that when in that state, I'm already in LD, all I need to do is to get up. Normally I realize that, but not today. Anyways, this went on and on, what seemed like good hour. This is first time I didn't count the LDs or transitions. At least 5 of them, leaning towards more. A liiiitle bit of a bummer. But not enough to bum me out, lol. Thank you for the experience, come again.

12.04.13

Last night, bed around 1-2 am. Woke up 7:50am and got up with intent to WILD soon.

Layed down on sofa around 10am to WILD. Of course, that's like an invitation to my cats to come and lay down on me. If I just lay down to watch the tv, I can call them, but they don't come. For some reason, they know when I'm WILDing and that's like a catnip. One cat found a comfy spot at my feet, and I could still feel her, every time she stirred. The other one, the chest-cat, jumped off after maybe 20 min, just as I was getting relaxed. Good things, as I was able to continue with a WILD.

Matra was "I'm dreaming", later switched to "When I see, I get up" and Later yet "I see, i get up". This has worked for me in the past and I knew it will work today.

I kept giving into the dreamlets, dipping down below into sleep, only to wake up slightly just seconds later. Next thing I know, I exclaim "I see!" I'm on a bed and I realize I'm dreaming. I get up, and take a look around. I'm in my childhood bedroom. I make a decision not to rush, but also not to worry about stabilizing, because I remember OpheliaBlue saying, that if you worry about stabilizing, then you have already lost.

So I just KNEW, that I'm gonna be ok without stabilizing. I took in the sights. Dark yellow light from setting sun was permeating the room. I made a consious decision to not just throw myself out the nearest window as I normally do. I wanted to walk outside using the doors. So I went through a few doors, each time with bit of trepidation if the door know will work and if I find behind the door what's suppose to be there. But I also KNEW, that doorknobs will work.

I walk throught the front door and as soon as I do, I can smell the dusty, summer air and my bare feet are getting almost burned by hot asphalt pavement. I take a right around the house and continue on the sidewalk. There are 2 new buildings. I can see through the windows, they are some kind of a gift shop or visitors center. I take a few steps back to check out the large letter/number designations on the front of the building. I want to remember them, so if they build them in the future IWL, I will know that's what i saw.

Here I lose it.

2.
I'm in a bed again. Not my room from WL, but in the dream, it's my room. I remember I wanted to look back and see myself laying in the bed. I look back and bed is empty. I look again, trying to trick my mind into showing someone there, but no luck. Bed is empty.

I make a decision to walk through doors again. I'm hoping this time, door will take me to some exotic place. I walk through a few of them, and last one takes me to my childhood room from WL and from previous LD. This makes me laugh histerically. Haha, my room=exotic place. Nice one, subcon.

3.
I'm on a sidewalk in a strange city. Not too modern. Looks like a pedestrian zone. I realize I don't have a plan and don't want to just walk around aimlesly. So... I grab the first guy and drag him into the small shop. It's tiny. Just a panel with some merchandise behind it, a clerk, and space for 5 people tops.

So I stand this guy int he corner of the panel and the front door. I Know I don't have much time left. I pull his pants down, I pull my pants down and I give him a BJ. While I do that, I observe some dust and a fly on the pult to not forget I'm dreaming and I keep repeating "I am dreaming" to keep aware. Too bad though, because soon after i wake up. Maybe new policy is in order. Me first, BJ next?

Not sure if they were WILDs or DILDs. First one felt like a WILD, but others... Didn't get any transition at all. Both times I just realized that "I see". Either way - THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU and LOVE YA

And I'm happy, that I was walking and NOT flying. Finally.

10.25.13

Last night bed 2am-9am

Nap 3:20-5pm

I layed down all excited that I'm going to WILD. I was thinking that Ophelia just got a LD and I didn't want to be left behind.
I keep dipping under and waking up slightly. I notice I got my lex relaxed very fast.
I had 3 LDs, but they fell more like just one, with change of scenery. But I was losing then gaining awareness, so not sure if DEILDs or what.

I feel I'm getting close, so I push my head back. I start falling backwards. I know, that this is the least successfull type of entry for me. So I'm forcing my eyes to open knowing, that I'm already in a dream, even if still falling.

I open my eyes and I can see clearly. But they start to close almost as soon as they open.

Now I'm cutting vegetables. I'm thinking how much fun was the last LD. I figure I should RC. When I look at my hand, part of my finger is missing and start laughing at my SC, how tricky it is.

I walk out the window. I'm in a town with hills in the background. They are black and white, with patches of soil and melting snow. I look away and when I look back, the whole town looks like the hills - black and white patches. I laugh with excitement, how easy it is to change something just by thinking it.

I'm trying to figure out what to do. I don't wanna stay in town.

I'm on a sofa again and I'm looking at myself, as when you half sitting with pillows behind your back. I can see very clearly. I think to do an RC and I start waving my arms in front of my face. But I don't see them. Feel them, but I can't see them. There is only a very minor space distortion. As if they were camouflaged. I start clapping them to make them appear. At some point I get out the window.

Sunday 10/13/13

Last night bed 11pm - 8:45am

I frequently have dreams from very shitty years in my life. They don't really upset me because of the content, but they upset me, because they are taking up my valuable dream time, and I would rather forget. But these make me remember and I alwyas feel like crap after being reminded of that.

I had another one of those last night. I wasn't gonna right it down. Until I realized, it was somehow different. In all dreams, I always just took what was being dished out to me. But in this one, I turned the table on them and I think I prevailed. So I'm gonna write it down, since it seems like a breakthrough dream.

DR - I'm told I did a crappy job. In front of a large crowd of people gathered for a party. I know I'm being unjustly accused. So I stand up and say to everybody sitting at the table - "If anybody wants a hard working person, I'm available". And everybody laughed with me, on account of the stupid person accusing me of not doing good job. I felt like I could leave at my leasure, and I don't have to take shit anymore.

NAP 3pm - 5pm
I layed down on my sofa with intent to wild or else. I knew I'm having something.

Started by some breathing from head to toes. I wasn't even done yet, and I was getting flashes of dreams.

Next 2 hrs were a mix of HH, dreams with high awareness but not lucid, transitions, and LDs.

Every time I woke up, I didn't really wake up. I stayed in the "between" stage. I really have no idea what was what.

1. All I know, that I had a massage on a table, while I was holding my cat. I was on my stomach in little bit of warm water, to make me comfy. I thought cat will freak out, since he hates water. But he also loves warmth and he fell asleep so peacefully. I thought how funny it would be, if I had a LD while getting a massage. At that moment I feel like I'm sitting up, laying down, sitting up... But I hope it's just my dream body and the masseuse will not notice.

2. I'm getting out the window into the night. Glass is only on the edges and has a yellow stripe. I'm high up in the air, over 30 stories high. I'm looking at the highrise buildings in a large town. I figure I fly to the police building. Windows are dark, after office hours, but I wanna do it anyways. I get there but can't stop the flight at their offices.

3. I'm sleeping, my mom is also in the room. I was telling her previously about my ability to see with closed eyes. Now I'm already asleep and I'm talking to her, that I can see what's on tv, and I even read her from the screen. But I also know, that tv is off.

4. I'm outside again. Daytime, sunny. I'm deciding where to go. I look up and I decide to follow some commercial airliners. But I can't fly. I hug a missile and imagine it's engines on. Still nothing.

5. Something sexual. I was done in 5 sec or less.

At least once, I was thinking, which sensation to envoke, to get into LD, but then I realized I can just stand up and so I did.

Monday 10.7.13

Last night I went to bed at 11pm. That seems to be a sweet-spot for my good recall. I also had water before bed and when I woke up first time. But didn't remember the dream when I woke up at night.

My cat decided she wants to snuggle with me all night. When I was laying on my left side, she snuggled there, when I turned to the other, she stepped on me to get to the other side. I couldn't move without worrying about me rolling over her, se each time I wanted to change position, I completely woke up, sat up, looked where she is and tried to find a comfy position in a small space she allocated to me.
I guess that's why I got a DILD. And also why I felt vibrations again, after a long time, when not WILDing.

I didn't remember dreams at night, but did remember them in the morning. Didn't write them down, instead, re-told them with words each time I woke up in the morning. Now I remember 3 long, although not so detailed dreams.

DR 1 - I'm walking down a street with 1-2 others. Houses are villige type, single family, with yards between them. Someone said there was a monster chasing them. I look back to the end of the street and a black shape is starting to emerge. I say "oh, that's just a T-Rex".

We duck into one house. It's rather long with lots of rooms in single row. We are looking out the windows, but being careful, so they don't see us.

Somehow I'm holding a cat in my arms and there is a Nazi someone there as well. Now we are outside and I'm about to be kidnapped by this Nazi.

DR 2 - Im in my home town. Showing our garage to some friends from US, because they didn't see one like this yet. I'm telling them they should get some posters of the country, before going back home.

DR 3 + DILD I'm at my grammas house. She is shooting at a paper target on her wall with a smallish BB gun. (watched Anthony B. episode with him shooting guns) She points out a pretty bird outside a window. Size of a phasant. She wants my little brother to see it. But he can't, until the bird moves.

Now there is a large wolf about to get the bird. They are just watching, letting the nature do it's thing. But I take her gun and go outside to shoot the wolf. I shoot a few times, with no effect. I shoot him point blank, and nothing. I'm standing now at arms length to the wolf. He is growling and showing his teeth. I'm a little bit scared, but not enough to leave.

Now I'm inside again and there are lots of family members there. I look at my toes and start counting them. 1...2...3...4...5...6! Omg, I tell myself, how come I didn't notice this before. I'm a POLYDACTYL! But I think I say PTERODACTYL and I realize, that's how that dinosaurus got it's name. I also remember that some cats are like that.

I count again and not there is 10 of them, and there would be even more, if I kept on counting. I realize I'm dreaming. I walk outside and start flying. My dad comes out and jokingly tells me to come back. But I feel he is serious and if I was any lower, he would pull me down and I'm a bit scared.

I'm above some low trees now and I remember, that last time I was not able to fly fast. So I try a few techniques a remember reading about. I do the superman, and also I put my legs and arms together. Doesn't work. I wake up soon after.

Saturday, 10/5/13

Last night bed around 1am - 9am

DR
Long house right on the edge of the ocean, so it was right under the windows. I was there on some kind of a retreat.

I'm asking them to show me my bedroom. They take me through many rooms to my room. Very next room to mine is dark. It feel different, older than rest of the modern building. Like couple hundred years older. Walls are black, almost as in a coal mine. There is only on light source, a bare lightboulb on the ceiling, giving out yellow light. There is a door in the wall, also black.

I don't like the feel of this room. I learn, that that's the place for mentally ill.

I'm talking to someone. I'm saying "if I knew this is that type of a retreat, where they don't let you have cookies, I would have never come" "It's ok to not have cookies all the time, byt if I feel like having one, it's really damaging not to have it". Then I comment, that I have seen my name on the list on the bathroom door, that "im on duty from 00:00 to 00:45. I guess it meant I'm on cleaning duty.

I took a nap at 10:48. I fell asleep with yoga nidra. I was fine and ready for a WILD after just a few minutes, but didn't wanna move to shut it down. So I just fell asleep.

Second nap after 8pm.
DR - I'm being followed by assasins. I get to the river and throw all my close in it. I thought they were following me with a bug in my clothes. So I made a mental note of allways getting naked when being followed.

I made my way back to the house, through some parking lot or indistrial lot. I think I blew up their car by blowing up some nearby crates. (playing Killzone IWL)

Now I'm in my house. It's already dark outside and I'm peeking through the blinds and I think I see two shadows of these assasins. But I'm not worried anymore.

WILD - I law down for a nap on a sofa same way I'm in WL at that moment. I wake up and I think I hear some sound. I put my hand down and pet my cat. Then I'm trying to stand up. I can lift my legs and arms, but not the body. So I stick them out straight in the air in hopes of my body following. ( I think this was all HH, not for real)

I finally get out of my body. I can't see. I try to wipe my eyes, but it's not working. I can't open them either. So I start telling myself "I can see". I start seeing some ligher grey. I move to the window while telling myself "It's nice and sunny outside and I can see that". Then the corner of a window got really bright with sunlight and I could see outside throught that opening. Rest of it was still fogged up.

I got out and it was a beautiful sunny day. I was hovering maybe 15 feet off the ground and I was convinced that I'm a ghost. Because I saw the streets the same way as they are in WL. At least that's what I thought. Because It was some completely strange place. It had a feel of a small town. So to prove myself that I'm a ghost in RTZ - real time zone, astral projecting, I read the sign on a restaurant I passed by earlier. Yup, it matches, I'm APing.

I figuered a scare someone. I see a grey minivan turning the corner on the street, coming towards me. There is a chef sitting there. I could tell by his tall, white chef's hat. But I called him "baker". I flew after his van, wanted to get in and scare him. But he was too fast. (I have no clue why I would wanna do that, since IWL, I would never wanna scare somebody)

I'm flying back towards the town center, looking for DCs. Here I lose it,

DEILD - I'm back on my dream sofa, waiting for sensations again to WILD. They come and now I'm flying through space. I wish I would see something beautiful and some structures do show up, and they are gorgeous. And some more, and more. I almost cry, it's so pretty.

DEILD - I lose it again, and I'm back on my dream sofa. I wait for sensations and help by pushing my head backwards. I get out, and now I'm flying over the ocean, but the shore comes up and I wish there was more water. So I'm over ocean again and 'm thinking of diving into it. There are some huge storms gathering and I'm thinking if it's a good idea. Then I see a huge shark jumping up of the water alongside the boat I'm on. He continues flying higher and he is a greenish motorboat. Another shark comes by and weather is turning really bad.

Wednesday 9/18/13

Last night 11:30pm - 9:20am

After talking to FryingMan about Yoga Nidra, and how it puts me to sleep, so I can't use it just to get relaxed for WILDing, I thought I do it again today.

Layed down on my sofa around 3pm. Listened to last 2 tracks - the Ascending Breathing and Yoga Nidra. It stops with instructions to keep looking deep into the space inside the chest. So I did that. I have been noticing some slight vibrations and I was happy to have them again. I even forgot to recite a mantra.

Next thing I know I'm standing up and I though I totally screwed up, because I felt my real body standing up. I was thinking, that I'm standing up too soon, but I said "screw that, I'm gonna make this work, no matter what".

So I'm standing and lucid. I'm some kind of a bright hallway, like a school. I grab somebody by hand and we are looking for a place to do it. As I'm walking, I'm thinking this is going to be a long one, I don't feel any indication of it ending. I'm losing it and I'm thinking how long will it take me to get another one. My head is falling backwards, I get the familiar sensation and I'm lucid again.

Same school. Again, I grab someone and walk into a room. There are people there, so we walk into another one. But two teachers walk in. I'm talking to one of them and I see her looking on my hands and she is cringing. I have a thumb pushed to the palm. I'm gently pushing but I know I'm going to, because I know it would hurt. So I ask her "am I here?, are we here? like for real?"

I'm fading and pushing my head backwards to get the familiar feeling. As soon as I'm lucid, I walk to the large glass wall, like the ones at the ariports. But it's the same school. I get out and see an airplane high in the sky. I decide to fly to it. I can't go fast, no matter how much I try. I imagine having rockets on my legs, but it didn't work. So I try to take away the distance between me and the plane. That works and something comes very close to me, but it looks like a giant tarp, not the airplane.

**each transition was super fast, under 5 sec. I was talking to DCs, an I even started shouting to someone "omg, I'm finally talking to DCs, this is my first". And I was crying from happiness and at the same time telling myself to calm down so I don't wake up.

Monday, 8/18/13

Afternoon nap, woke up at 5:30 from DILD. And I suspect I have one earlier too.

DR -
I'm in my childhood house. A guy is walking from one end of the house to the other. Cigar in his mouth, camo pants, tank top, heavy machine gun in left arm and ammo belt hanging from his shoulder. He looks like sergeant, so I yell "hey, sergeant! Gunny!" He looks back at me and keeps walking fast, almost running. I skipp after him and ask him in graveling voice, if he happens to have some discarded weapon, because I would really love one. I tell him about my dreams of doing what he is doing - inventory of weapons cache and ammo cache, and how I dreamt about having all kind of weapons. Swedish, french....

Now I'm sitting on my bed. I know I'm falling asleep and I wonder if I could acctually see through my eylids. I pick my hands up and to my surprise I can see them coming into focus. Hands and everything around is in colors and focused. My hands are nice blue color. I realize I'm dreaming and I think I start shouting about it all happy as a bug.

I ran to the window to get out but it turns into a wall. I throw myself at it head first. It feels like it's from bungy cord. It's stretching, but I finally break through and start falling. I recognize this familiar feeling and I'm so happy. When instead of landing I start going up, like on a bungy, I recognize it to. I know I'm not really getting to have a LD, so I decide to fall again and have fun with the sensation.

Yeyyyyyyy!

Friday 6/21/13

Last night bed 12:20 - 5:15am WBTB 5:15 - 6:22 Took GM 4mg+choline 300mg at 6:22 Had to get up from bed and go back at 7:10.

Got up at 10:11, after LDs and a very long and detailed regular dream.

I thought it will be a bust. I had to get up twice and got back to bed just 10 min before GM should have been on peak of it's action.

I started having the bright screen and some HH on bright background. I remember some writing that was sideways, as if you looked at book while laying down on your side. (That's how I was, on my right side on my sofa.) I was thinking too bad, because I'm nowhere near to asleep.

In fact I was still wide awake, or perhaps just aware, but felt like awake, when I got an idea to urge a LD. I remembered this post by serclif from yesterday, how he felt sliding off the bed. Well, I love my sensations, so I thought why not trying that. I gently pushed my left shoulder and it took over. Slowly falling over the edge of the sofa and pulling rest of me with it. It was similar feeling to rollin out, but perhaps little more controlled, since I didn't roll over, just drifted to the ground in super slow motion.

I did stabilize in few LDs, remember touching the wall and saying, "yup, feels the same as my wall, because it is my wall".

WILD and DEILDs

1. Remember being on my moms balcony from my bedroom, trying to get over the cables she has there for drying clothes. I felt the cables and the tension in them.

2. Same balcony, trying to prop myself over the cables.

In all of the remaining LDs I'm naked from waste up. Rest of me is wearing blue jeans. I must say I look good. Young and tanned.

3. After exit, I was kinda surprised and took me a second to get on my knees and get up. I went to the window and got out. There is nobody outside my apartment. It looks a little different.

4. After exit, I already knew what's going on. Jumped up and started singing some show tune, that I'm not even sure I know. Out the window again. Outside of the building, different than my apartment. I hear doors closing in the underground hallway. I walk in, place is lit by soft yellow light. I see one lady just closing the door from inside and she is not interested in my nakedness.

5. On the ground again, no surprise, I know the dril. Jump up, happy as can be, strike a pose and belt out a showtune. I get out of the building and find myself on a wide sidewalk next to the street with low traffic. It's winter and ground is covered in snow. I walk down the sidewalk and see one guy. I try to get him interested in my nakedness, but he makes a wide berth around me. I stalk him for a while, then give up.

6. I end up on the ground. Can't see, but I know I'm next to my sofa. Try to get out through the wall. I end up on the same wide sidewalk. It's still winter, but there are only few signs of snow on the ground. I hear a sound saying "this is a better place, there is lots of Stanford students here". And it's right. Student's are walking alone and in groups. They talk amongs themselves, having fun. I try to attract their attention and they see me.

7. I end up on the ground. Can't see again, so I figure if I just keep rolling, I will roll myself out of the builing. I roll for a while, I should have been out already, but I'm not.

8. I keep rolling again, this time for a shorter distance. Can't see.

9. I can't see, try to pry my eyes open with my hands.

I feel the ride is over. Not ready for that yet, decide to go to sleep and see if I can get a DILD.

Gawd, I just remembered I did the thumb/palm RC at least 2-3 times and it was awful. It's been progressively worse everytime I do it, because it bacame painfull and i feel as if it was tearing through my flesh. I gotta stop practicing this RC.

Reg, DR -
I'm riding in a car with someone, sittin on the back seat on driver side. We are in Paris and i'm looking at the map of the city. We went there to do something. I'm telling them that we should at least go and see the Eifel tower, since we are already in Paris. They agree and we start driving. I'm looking at all the great buildings and I realize I don't have my camera, since we only went for a short trip, not anticipating a sightseeing tour. Suddenly the driver doesn't wanna drive. I look out the windshield and traffic is heavy in this modern city. I offer to drive.

I end up with a friend of mine walking down the street full of street food vendors. So much beautiful looking food. Someone offers us a sample of pecan cake. Holly shit, it's so good. Pecans are crunchy and it tastes heavenly. We have to take some of it home.

We decide to eat. I want to try some small, flat fish, that's grilled to perfection. They have a ton of it in every booth. Then there are other see creatures and salads and soups and sweets. I take a plate, because that's what my friend does and go to the vendor to pile on some food for me. But then my friend puts the plate down. She speaks french so I ask her to help me. She is already sitting with a plate full of some grey looking stew and she says she won't help me. I guess she is pissedd because she picked crappy food.

So I go to the guy and tell him all the words i know in French. I say "bonjur monsieur, como ce va" and "pettit" plate. I would like a big plate, but all I can say is petit. He picks a big plate anyway and I ask for the grilled fish, but he is giving me some boiled fish, that's thicker than the grilled one. I'm telling him no, but he gives me that anyway. And I wanna know what the other food is, because he is admiring some fish eyes in a jar, and I for sure don't wanna that.

Then there is a guy, who jumps over the 12 foot fence and climbes on a double decker tour bus with open top. Everybody cheers for him.

Thursday 6/20/13

Last night bed 11pm - 5:40am WBTB 5:40 - 6:20 Nap 6:20-8:30

DR1 2:40am

DR2 5:30am This is a weird one. Tons of details. It some kind of a feeling, that I can't identify.

I'm watching kids at night. House is huge, one story, lots of rooms. There is one boy and at least one girl. I put them to bed, bud boys bed has sand on it. I know mom won't be happy about me not doing good job. I brush it off. Night is weird. Something happens and girl calls her mom, before she even tells me what's wrong. I feel out of the loop.

I think she called on my phone and now I can't find it. Dad comes home and he decides to go get his wife, who is someplace farther away. Then mom is home and I'm about te leave, since they are home now. Can't find my phone and keys. I look everywhere. Dad pulls out wad of money to pay me for babysitting. he gives me one bill, looks like a 20. I tell him that's enough. He gives me another one, this is a 100. Now the first one looks like a 100 too. There are also some coupons in size of the bills. I think he won it all in casino.

The dream has some kind of a dark undertone. Like it could all turn really bad really fast, if I was to realize that. Untill I'm clueless, I'm safe.

Mom finally finds my phone in a yellow manila envelope. Girl put it there when she called her from the yard. Girl doesn't seem to give a flip about what she caused.

I pull out my two bunches of keys and I'm taking of some small key I got from family. I'm returning them. They are surprised. They are asking if I'm not gonna babysit for them any more. I know I have to be carefull with my answer. They seem nice on the surface, but I know they are bad people. Dad looks like he didn't shave in a while and he is drunk and mom looks also disheveled. I carefully tiptoe around the answer.

Then I ask them where is the exit. I walk through the door, but it leaves into garage. I try another one, that's not it either. i finally get out through some small door. I realize it's not used frequently, because they usually go through the garage. I find myself in a huge yard. Looks like farm. Dirt ground with some worn out grass. There are a few farm animals. A horse, some goat. I come to another door and behind it is another yard. More farm animals. I know I'm still not safe. Try to containg my panic, so they don't know I'm on to them. I finally get out of there somehow.

There were more details to this, like kids rooms, dads valet, how the parents look like. I like this dream because it was detailed, but on the other hand, it was kind of dark for some reason.

Ok, now on the the lucid nap.

WILD
It came on fairly quick. I remembered "oh, so this is what Opheliablue talked about". Not sure what I ment by that, but she was saying IWL that she just feels the dream coming on soon after some motion sensations.

So I got the brightened view and as I saw the dream, I got up. I don't think I ever exited like this before. I either wish myself into the dreamscape, or get up when I see my room. This entry was a mix of those two.

I'm on a long, sandy beach. There are some holes in the ground going a long way under the sand. They are partially filled with tidal water. i see a tiny seashell and I pick it up. I used to have a hermit crab in a green turbo shell just like that. I put him down.

I set my clothes on the ground in some kind of a beach shack. But the water has risen and coming in through the closed doors. I pick up my stuff so it doesn't get even more wet.

The dream goes dark and i decide to get to another one by going through a wall. I can't get to the other side, the wall is too thick. So I decide to grap the other side of the wall and push myself through it. I'm finally out.

I remember getting up from bed at least 2 times.

I walk around a lot, remember thinking what a nice long lucid. I come to the parking lit with all kinds of buses and passenger vans. I decide to go and offer my services. I promised myself not to do this anymore, but I just can't help it. I keep telling myself that I won't wake up this time and it keeps going for a while.

Tuesday, 6/18/13

Last night bed 11pm - 5:45am WBTB 5;45 - 6:30 Nap 6:30 - 9:30

DR 5:45am
I'm at home, standing at the kitchen balcony door. Looking outside, where my mom is showing me this beautiful place beyond neighbors house. She points out, that we can see it now, because it's winter and tree has no leaves blocking our view.

There is a small lake sitting deep inside a crater. Steep walls on all sides, except in the front. Looks like the crater is man-made. Drag marks from the excavator are clearly visible on the light brown hills. Nice trees growing on the top. Sunshine is just perfect. Deep yellow light, like in late afternoon or early evening.

I get my camera and as I point it there, I can tell I'm running out of light, as sun is setting fast. I take a picture and I'm hoping it will still have enough light.

(I have a feeling, with these places I see in the distance, that they are someplace else, further away. maybe not in real life, but as if I had binocular vision in the dream)

DR2
I see some low lying tropical island. They are small and there is lots of them. Beautiful light blue waters between them. Then I'm in my living room, pulling out a really old atlas and showing those islands to someone.


Nap, woke up from LD at 9:30
WILD and series of transitions and maybe 2 more WILDs

I'm on my bedroom balcony. Looking to the left I see a shallow ocean. From the color of the dark water I can tell places with sand or coral. For a second, color of water changes to gorgeous tropical blue. Now I can see the sandy places much better. But I guess sun is behind a cloud again and water is dark. This happens a few times. I really want for water to stay tropical blue and to go there. The water is nice blue now and I find myself wading in it and trying to dive to swim under water. i'm too boyant and I think maybe I should spawn some weight belt. Don't want to waste my time and dive again. Water is going in my eyes and nose and I surface spitting watter from everywhere. But I make it and manage to dive. See all kinds of bubbles around me and to my shock, water is filthy. (Once I saw a documentary with a jar of water from open sees. It was so full of tiny peaces of human junk, like plastic). This looked just like that.

For transitions, I got some light behind my eyelids and did the falling sensation with my head pushed back. A few time I got up from sofa in my brothers bedroom.

Oh yeah, the longest LD of this series - I was just so happy and giggling uncontrollably. I flew out the window, for a split second telling myself not to get too excited from the beauty, but that was futile. I was exstatic. It was actually kinda long, but I was just so happy the whole time.

Another one - I was preoccupied with sx again. I have to put it in my mantra. My mantra was "when I see my room, I get up".

Oh yeah, one transition was really new. I thought maybe I'm getting OBE, because my feet just shot up in the air as I was laying on my sofa and I tried to get my body to follow. Not clear what happened next, I was too far gone by then I guess.

This is from sunday.

Wake up at 8 am, nap at 8:10

I'm standing on top of a small, man-made hill. Looking down at grassy area. There are some buckets with water and i decide to shoot fire balls at them. So I do, with hand motion like spiderman. I want to make them bigger and the get bigger, and bigger again.

Then I walk away and thing really hard what to do. I touch the wall and look around thinking to stabilize "I'm in a dream and it's a real thing". There is a mettalic wall along my right side and doors are opening automatically, like doors on the ship in MGS Sons of Liberty. (I played a few days ago IWL.)

There are some people from DV, only recognize Auron. I see Dwight Shrute from The Office walking towards me and passing me and I ask him if he wants to do it. He is surprised, but agrees. We walk into one of the small janitor's closets behind swooshing doors. There are some buckets and mops and stuff. I see a janitor pushing his bucket with the broom and I ask him if we can borrow his closet. He says "sure, just wait for me". (There was a lots of fun talk on IRC today, so I guess that had payed off.)

Message to the neighbor - Is there any reason why you can't use the door knob when closing your freaking door? Every freaking time? Oh yeah, I know, you are lazy and inconsiderate prick. And just because you are outside, you can still use your indoor voice when talking to someone standing 2 feet away.

Sunday 6/9/13

Last night bed 11:15 This is second day of drinking water before bed and each time that wakes me up. Great recall again.

DR 1 - 1:15am
I'm an actress, standing with 5-6 others for a group picture on a set of a movie. Director is there too. I'm writing some translation notes on a small piece of paper and director takes it away from me thinking I'm an industrial spy or something. I assure him I'm not, but he is not happy. I tell him name 'Anderson' is a common name and it is also a first entry in a picture dictionary. He sits down on a sofa to look at it and asks me to sit next to him on his right. So I'm slowly flipping first few pages to get to the entry, while he is looking at pages with interest.

DR 2 - 1:15am
I'm in a back of an armored, futuristic passenger car. I keep looking back, because we are either chased already, or expect to be. We are going through hostile territory. Someone shows me a tall apartment building and tells me that in about 6 min, lights should turn on on the 6th floor. That's our clue, that's where we going. I'm watching the black window, expecting a granade to be thrown in, or me laying down suppresive fire with and automated rifle. (Watching Book of Eli that night in WL.)

Got up at 4, didn't feel like have enough details to write down a dream.

DR - 7:00
I'm on a beach in Australia. Someone tells me that the sand is coarse, like ground black pepper. I pick up a fistfull and really, it's like salt and pepper, and it's moist and plyable. I walk to the water and find 2 coins. Then I tell kids that I will be exchanging US coins for australian, 10 of each, 1:1.

7:10 - I lay down on my sofa to WILD. As soon as I do that, a dream pops in my head from the night. It's really cool so I get up to write it down.

DR from night, unknown time
I'm laying on a single bed with white sheets and a blanket. It's a narrow room and bed is along the long wall, from where I can see the front door. Light colored wood. It's someone elses house, I'm visiting?

The front door opens and 4-5 people walk in. Dressed in black and white, some machete hanging from their hands. I know I'm in mortal danger, but all I can do is pretend I'm asleep. I hope they will believe that and don't feel a need to kill me, since I won't see how they kill the guy in the house.

After they are done with this guy, I sense 2 of them standing over my bed. I know this is it. They start slashing me with slow, deliberate cuts.

Next image I get is a girl with hair and face caked with blood, sitting on the back of an ambulance. I don't understand how she is still alive. She is me. Despite of everything, this was more exciting than scary. Or maybe not even exciting, but I knew I can't get scared or it will be even worse.

7:15 - nap to WILD - woke up at 9:00am

I got 5 falling down transitions. There was maybe a minute between them, so it was not DEILDs, but WILDs.

I entered LD in first 3 transitions. In rest of them, I just could not fall asleep on time.

WILD 1 - I wake up in my brothers room, get up and walk through kitchen and through window shades and glass door to the balcony. I lose it here.

WILD 2 - Wake up and walk out the same way. This time I hold it together as I'm standing on the kitchen balcony. It's very early morning, low dark clouds and sun rays peeking at a very shallow angle. In the direction of a WL tree park and behing it is an ocean. It's dark waters are twinkling in the sunlight. There are a few huge cargo ships near the shore. I really want to go and see it up close. Then I remember, I never look around in my lucids, so I start looking around and that's when I wake up.

This is second time I saw an ocean there in my dreams.

WILD 3 This one was kinda sexual. I'm not gonna talk about that, just gonna mention this bug that was walking on the purple wall. Someone told me about it earlier, that the pink spots I see on walls are left by this bug. And really, as he walks, he excretes something and leaves a pink line everytime he touches the wall with his butt.

6/2/13

Last night bed 11:30 - 5:50am 5:50 -7:30 WBTB

DR 5:50am

I'm at some compound. Single story building. At night, I observe a dog sticking his head out of the open door and just looking around. Another dog doing something similar. I'm thinking "so this is what dogs do at night".

I'm going inside a glass building to rescue a stolen grey dog. A woman in elevated sentry area is doing something and I fight with her. I get in and I do something with the electronic lock on the door to get out. (watching something about disabled grey dog IWL).

Lucid nap 7:30 - 9:40am

Chain of (7) DEILDs. Woke up, bud didn't get up to write them down. Just replayed them in my mind. Didn't really wake up between them too much. All entries were by me pushing head back. One was by me falling backwards in a dream, because I just remembered matte87 used to say he enters by falling backwards.

1. I'm driving
2. walking through apartment with bright furniture. A woman in a hood with a lightbulb for a face looks at me. I'm thinking an alien.
3. Cat has flees. It has to be groomed and it goes in a cat house.

Reg DR after 9:40 Long dream about class reunion. I'm wearing long white shirt with a belt. Lots of classmates, we are talking.

Sunday 5/19/13

Last night bed 11:30pm - 5:50am

Had some dreams before. I think related to Burned Notice Marathon I was watching IWL.

Got up to potty after 4am. Woke up from a long and detailed non-lucid and DILD at 5:50 am.

Non-lucid DR: I'm sleeping in my room in NZ. I can hear through the wall some girls talking shit about me. Taunting me. I know they don't live there. As I ley there, I can see my balcony through the courtains. It's dark outside. We have a common balcony with the neighbour, but it's separated by a wall. Now I see some movement at the separator. At that moment, I can feel her on my back and hear her. I ask her how she got there and try to squirm away. The touch on my back is uncomfortable.

Later on I walk over to the neighbor. Now it's not an apartment anymore, but a huge, 2 story house. Very bright, lots of light, white walls. I want to talk to the lady, but we are expecting intruders. She arms the alarm so we can hear them come. I look for weapons and decide on some fireplace tools.

I'm tryin to secure the sliding door. I look outside, and there is a guy charging up the hill towards us. But a goat that's grazing there attacks him. He runs away.

Then the girls are coming up the stairs and I stand at the top waiting for them. As soon as I see the first one, I start dropping chairs at them. A little boy is there and I'm sending him away from danger, but he wants to help.

DILD: Now I'm someplace else. Looks like a tiny factory control room. I'm telling someone that if I can do something, I will get lucid. I start to lift off and I get lucid.

I immediatelly turn left on the metal corridor and walk out the door. I stand on top of the exterior metal stairway, that goes on the side of a huge, barn shaped metal building. I grip the metal rail and note how cold and smooth it is. I exlaim 'how beautiful". Lady next to me asks "really?". I keep touching the rail and I lean over to touch the wall to stabilize, but i don't want to think about it too much.

To my left are some sheep in a pen, all huddled together. Grass is nice and green and I'm thinking I'm in Australia or New Zealand. I ask "where is the ocean?" and look in the direction behind the building. There it is. Dark blue waves breaking on the beach.

I walk down the long stairs. I keep walking and Halle Berry walks by pushing a stroller. There are three guys that look like they are down on their luck. I ask them "was that hally berry?" and one of them says "nope, it was [?]. I don't remember the name, but he repeated it a few times.

Guys are sitting underneath a tarp. Like a big tent, but it has only the roof. Behind them is a gift shop full of slovak hockey shirts and other slovak mamorabilia. I hear Olympic anthem played in the distance, in the large building. I ask the shopkeeper "olympic games?"

I keep walking (decided to walk and not fly) on the dirt and patchy grass road. I end up in some town. I think it's NZ, but only because of the layout and I can orient myself. But houses are completely different. Almost alien like. Small, crammed next to each other, no space between them. Lots of people on the street. They seem to be shorter in average.

I look to my left and I see a synagogue. It's dark and ominous. Behing it is a humongous memorial statue. It scares me, it's so huge. I look up and it goes high to the sky.

I remember that I rarely look ap to the skies in LDs. So I look up, expecting to see something enexpected, something cool. But all there is are some white clouds on otherwise clear skies. I start walking to the right. I keep saying "my guide, if you are present, I'm asking for your help. Only entities with my or above my level of development may be here". (Interesting, that I remembered to call my guide and to remember the phrase of protection from WL) (I decided it's time to meet my guide. Not the dream guide, but the spirit guide. What I forgot, was that you don't call him directly. I should have just have a thought "it would be nice to have help with... But I didn't really needed help. I want to ask for help in learning to navigate in the astral, so I remember that for next time)

As I'm walking, I feel something big coming from ahead, but I can't see because of the bend in the road. But the small man with beards start closing their small wooden doors. I try to walk into one for protection, but too late. The door is shut. I make a step back to another door, which I feel is closing too. But as I turn and walk up the 3 small cement steps, I see that it's opened. There is a string from door to the wall. I guess a pull-string for closing the door. Now the owner is there. Small guy. Can't see his face clearly, but when he walks inside through second door, I see something grey on side of his face. I thought its a beard, but it looks more like some desease.

I sit down right behind the door, in a small and narrow ante-room. The guys goes inside the house. The doors are all wooden, arched at the top.

Suddenly I'm inside. It looks guite modern. I sit on a chair in front of a coffee table. The guy is opposite to me. He eats chinese takeout. What he doesn't finishes, he pushes over to my plate, even when I protest. I try to speak chinese to him and I'm not sure if he understands me. But after dinner he speaks to me in my language, but I have no idea which one is it. Feels like it was some kind of a test, since he first didn't speak to me and pretended not to speak my language.

I tried for a DEILD, but nothing happened. Didn't really wanna get up to write this down, but I'm glad I did.

Everything was very clear, not foggy at all.

Afternoon nap WILD
I'm coming in and out of sleep. I'm seeing this very, very colorful ice rink. Yellows and reds and whites. Or maybe it's a basketball court, like Lakers. it's coming closer to me and I say "I am there". I was almost lucid even before I said it, but lost it all as soon as I approached.