lucid

3.30.15

Last night bed 10:30pm - 5am

WBTB 5am - 5:40

Woke up at 8:46


Didn't have a good time WILDing with other things being on my mind.

I'm telling someone I'm never gonna be lucid, and in that moment I get lucid, but lose it, I think.

Next thing I remember I'm trowing cartoon holes on the ground from my pocket. One is not dark enough, another is not deep, and something else. But I ignore that and jump into every one of them. I get stuck in one, another one is solid, and I think I move on to other things.


I remembered this NL later afternoon, while pouring me a glass of dark beer:

I walk into an irish pub. It's just a smallish, old type willage room. Rectangular, white washed walls, benches on 2 long sides and a bar desk on the short one. I came there to pick something up, or do something. While I'm at it, I figure it wont' hurt to get a glass of dark beer. She asks "dark, you sure"? Tasted very good, realistic, almost same as the WL beer I had later.

3.23.15

Last night fel asleep on sofa at 8:30, moved to bed. WBTB 6:05-6:35. Woke up from lucids at 8:38

I was very excited for april ToTMs. Tasks have not been voted on yet, but I picked some from the suggestions as my lucid goals. I really want to:

- take a shower - I practiced this while falling asleep, telling myself I have only one t-shirt on and shorts, no underwear, because too many layers trip me up.

- get blown away by wind - also practiced as I'm blown up to the orbit, maybe to ISS

- make it rain inside of a room

So as I'm WILDing, my cats leave me alone for at least 20 min. Then they start walking on me and sleeping, one by one. I sigh a sigh of relief, since I'm so used to WILDing with them, it's like a good luck charm.

So when my boy seddles in and falls asleep on me, I keep listening to him purr, while I'm getting more and more relaxed. I kinds wish though he fell asleep already, stopped fidgeting and purring so loud, haha.

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I see myself in a bed in a dormitory style large room. I think there is more beds, but I'm alone, except one other person I'm talking to. It maybe my cat or my mind, because my thoghts from falling asleep continue here.

I can't wait to be lucid. I finally think I am and I stand up and walk away. I see my cat moved and I feel my "real" muscles moved, so I know I'm not asleep yet and return to bed to do it again. LOL. Only I was asleep and my dream body walked away and I got tricked that it was the physical one. : D

So I'm 'trying to get relaxed again" haha, I notice my left leg is bent and I know I should make it straigt. This is all already in a dream, only I'm thinking it's not. I try to "levitate" and "up", and make my dream left arm move up to confirm that I'm asleep, but nothing happens. Danged, this is first time it happened.

Ok, so I know a sure way to a lucid, haha. I push my head backwards and I feel like I'm pushing too hard (only I'm not, coz already asleep, hahaah). But I do transition finally and realize I'm dreaming.

I feel like I did bunch of stuff, like 1-2 TOTMs by the time I end up in my mom's hallway and I remember what to do next. I want to make it rain inside. So I look up and...

Oh yeah, this is what I did before: I flew up to the lamp in mom's hallway and wrote GAB in the dust on the lamp. I wanted to check in the morning. Too bad I live thousands of miles from my mom's place.

Make it rain in the room. Ok, so I look up and say "rain". I start hearing some sounds from the outside. The hallway has no windows to the outside, because is surrounded by other rooms. So I listen and it sounds like raindrops are starting to fall on windows and the roof. I imagine a window and rain flowing down on it, just like I saw in the movie "castaway" last night (when at the end they were both sitting in a car outside of her house). Rain hitting the roof is now loud. I'm thinking it's not gonna rain inside, when I feel a wet drop on my right hand. I look at it and I'm thinking maybe I just spit on it as I was talking. But there is another one, and another one. It start to really pour now, it's raining cats and dogs, haha. There are some opening higher on the wall, and suddenly water comes gushing from there. I'm up to my ankles now. I'm thinking I better get out before the whole room gets filled.

I tried to get myself blown by the wind, but I didn't work, and I didn't stay to try longer.
I think I totally forgot about the shower TOTM, unless that happened in the first part which I don't remember at all.

Dreaming ended by me getting into some underground rooms that belonged to some resistance. I was the leader ofc. I tried to get out of there. Opened a door but it was a closet, tried again, and same closet.

Somehow I got out and I'm on the street, trying to put some paper or plastic sheets on my feet as I didn't have any shoes. I see a police car (asian police car, white with blue and red stripe, from the movie Bourne legacy I watched that day). And I'm like hell, now they got me. But they were there for something else. But now I'm sure they noticed me and they are coming to me next.

3.16.15

Last night bed 9pm - 5:04am WBTB till 5:31am, took 900mgs of alpha GPC at 5:07

Sofa 5:31 till 7 - potty break, because my cat got on me at least 2x, but by now, I already felt my head in "lucid mode", but differently and less intense than last few times when I didn't take anything

then back and woke up at 8:29 after after long chain of lucids

During WBTB I read the forum and read the TOTM for March post.
teleport somewhere through mirror
enter a house and describe
eat some truth potion

I made a desicion to enter houses, and I sad thanks to my subC for me not being scared of houses anymore, and for not being scared to walk instead of flying everywhere.

Ok, so I had a long chain of LDs and FAs that turned into LDs, but I didn't get up right afterwards, but slept for maybe 30 more minutes. So this will not be in correct order, and I forgot some details.

45 min long Chain of LDs

First I remember walking through a street fair. Wendors selling all kinds of stuff. I remember the truths TOTM and I walk up to one lady and ask "one truth potion please". She hands me a pill. It's that plastic kind that you can pull apart and powder is inside. (I just took 3 of those before nap). I take it, pull it apart and pour orangish power into my mouth. It's not coming easy, some parts are not wanting to come out, but I squeeze and roll the plastic, till it does. I do the same with second part.

I think I forget about asking for the "truth" now and leave. It ends here.

I realize I'm still dreaming, get up and walk on the same street. Now I'm looking for a house to enter. Many houses on the left side of this busy street. They are tall and old looking, like in Prague. Shops on the bottom and apartments on the top. I'm looking for a police station I saw previously here, I think it would be fun to describe that. But I don't see it, I think it was one street over. It ends here.

I wake up and I'm tellin Ophelia and someone else while laughing, that I did these TOTMs and I better write them down. Unless I'm still dreaming. So as a joke I count my fingers and sure enough, I'm still dreaming. I think I should still write down my dreams, but I decide to count them instead. I counted 3-4 at this point. I'm wondering if I ever wake up for real. So I say bye and walk off.

I'm walking on the sidewalk in the same area, but now in diff dirrection. There are apartment building on my right, but I remember it has to be a house. There is a house on next street that used to belong to somebody, but now it belongs to Dreamviews. I want to go there and describe.

I see that street ahead of me and DV house and one next door have their front doors wide open. I laugh and enter the DV house.

First room is small. It has 3 beds with light green bedsheets. Walls are also greenish or bluish. I realize it's some kind of a sleep-over house. Safe house. Next room also has 3 beds and at this point I start to recite items I see out loud, soo I remember them later.


There is a mirror on the right wall in the next room, which is a bathroom. I hop up on the counter and try to go through it. Then I decide to go through the one right next to it, coz it's a bit bigger. I imagine this beautiful place I want to teleport to (which now I forgot). I teleport to a place where I'm hanging in mid-air. The air is yellowish and I'm thinking it's another planet. I see huge giants, size of empire state building in the distance. They are black monsters. I weave my way through them and end up in a library like building. It's full of humans. There is some kind of a problem and I feel like I should fly around here rather than walk. I enter another large room. I forget after this.

Last one, I felt like I did enough of normal suff, so I asked my boss if he wants to do it. He did, so we did.

Spoiler for 18+:

I ask: do you wanna suck or f..k? He laughed and laid back and undid his pants. I pulled out his equipment and went down on him. I was wondering if I'm doing it righ only with mouth, or should I add some hands. Then i did. But I heard no complaints.

Bits an pieces:
I feel like there was about 7 distinct LDs. Between each of them I just realized I'm still dreaming. Got up and walked away. At one point I figured I should roll out again, since it's so much fun. I'm sure I'm still awake and hitting the floor will hurt. I roll out, and first time out of maybe 20 times, I actually hit the ground. Doesn't hurt, but definitelly made contact. I laugh that I'm dreaming. I try to keep rolling or get up, but can't do either.

When walking through many houses, I went through doors by opening them with handles, rather than phasing or getting out through windows and flying away. This all after making consious decision to do that.

I went through at least 2 more mirrors in the earlier LDs, but don't remember where I ended up.

Most of them were bright. One started out dark after teleporting, so I thought I'll just stay here and stabilize till I see.

Towards the end I remembered how much fun it was to sing, so I started to belt out a tune, but couldn't remember any that I wanted to sing. So I'm not sure what I was singing, but it was loud and so much fun.

3.9.15

Last night bed around 9pm. Woke up at 5:47 and WBTB till 6:05

Woke up from a 40 min long lucid event at 7:30

At work, boss.

First I was getting some HH of me working in produce. Leveling the apple display, where the produce is in bags. I started moving my hands and when I realized that, it ended.

Next I'm drinking coffee, still at work, and I realize I'm still in a dream. I smile and walk away. My boss V is there and I'm happy to see him. This also ends.

Now I jumpstart my HH by seeing myself walking through the store, or rather seeing the store through my eyes as I'm walking through the store. It works. (finally I'm lucid at work). I see through the small window on our black doors what's on the other side, and Its still workplace and as I walk through it, I'm still there. I'm happy, because sometimes when I walk through the oor, I'm someplace else. I walk around and come to the front end. My boss V is there, looking like a younger version of himself and I hug him and tell him how much I appreciate him.

Then I walk up to a bagger with long hair, M, I think, and I tickle her butt. She turns around, but she doesn't see me. This is fun, so I do it few more times. I ask her if she really can't see me. Then I walk up to V and ask him if he really CAN see me, because it appears like he can.

Mirror ToTM - Advanced I

When this ends, I start to think about the mirror ToTM. I'm wondering where I'm gonna end up, maybe in the void, and how will I know.

I realize I'm still dreaming, get up and start looking for a mirror. I know we have one in the hallway, so I go to it. It's only about 2 feet in diameter and I had to get up on the shoerack to get closer. I gather up my courrage, because thoughts of "dangerous" mirrors cross my mind. But I tell myself I have seen mirror before and it was ok. So I look in the mirror and concentrate on my reflection. It's me, and it's not changing. I throw myself head first. I go through up to my waist, then I get stuck, because I have no leverige to push myself all the way. It ends here.

I'm in someone's house. I find a bathroom, I turn the lights on because it's a bit dark, and the lights switch on and it's bright now. I climb on the sink and go through the mirror feet first. It takes me to a children's bedroom. Windows on the left, door on the right. I choose the door. It opens up to bathroom. It's noticably cooler there and it smells like freshly cleaned bathroom. I like it. I open another door and it's blocked by some stuff. I realize thats the door I saw blocked when I appeared in that house.

I realize I'm still there so I open the door to my mom's bedroom, coz I know they have a long floor mirror behind the door. It's a bit darkish, like when curtains are closed. I flip the switch but this time it doesn't work. I step through the mirror feet first and I end up someplace I don't remember.

K from work; N. Cage; guns
I realize I'm still in a dream and I end up in front of a building. K from work is holding the door opened for me and motions me inside. There is some urgency in his behaviour, so I follow him. Another coworker is holding another door opened, and he closes it as if nothing happened as soon as we are through. I ask K what are we doing there. We come to a room and tehre is N. Cage in a bed, not happy that his girlfriend is on the floor with another girl and they are doing it. He is like "wth, I'm here, so what gives". His girlfriend is doing it from grudge. Oh, N. Cage has a blondish mustache, only underwear (I assume) and he is under white sheets.

Somehow I went throught the mirror again, and I'm in an empty smallish room. Two narrow and long windows on the left wall, high up, near the ceiling. I get out through them and I'm on the outside wall of the building, by the windows. As I'm climbing down, I see a gun holster in a cubby in the wall. I take it and continue going down. Then I remember, sometimes people hide guns outside their windows. so I look up and sure enough, in another cubby hole there is a very nice revolver. I take it ofc, and look up, and haha, there is a handgun in every cubby hole under every window. Needles to say, I take them all.

I get down to the ground and some bad guy is trying something. I stick the gun in his face and dare him to find out if it's loaded. We kinda end it there.

At some point I got some geometric HH on white background, which I didn't have in about a year. And I felt the telltale sign the buzzing and weird feeling in my head, that tells me lucid is coming.

I'm kinda happy, that I was not scared of mirrors. And that I didn't go for the first window, but I was opening doors and not scared doing that and being in a building.

I could have continued, but I felt I'm already forgetting some parts, so I got up to write it down.

2.9.15 Last night bed around 11 pm

Up today at 7:35

8:30 Took 2x Alpha GPC

Was gona take my last 2 pills of GM at 9:25, but there is some construction going on, so I didnt want to waste it. Besides, I wanted to see if alpha GPC choline would work just by itself. And also, I used to WILD like this daily and gotten DEILDs to wazoo. And what do you know, it worked.

Mantras as falling asleep:
I look at my hands and realize I'm dreaming
When I see I get up
Nosexnosexnosex

As I was falling asleep, I was thinking of the TOTMs and that I forgot to read what they are. I remembered the "microwave yourself" that I didn't like last time, so I decided to redo my Valentines cards from last time. I imagined opening a mailbox and there would be a note simply folded up, or just a postcard, so don't even need to unfold.

Also, I fed my cats so they can poop and fall asleep before my attempt. It worked. But my boy still found me about 10 min into it and jumped on me. He absolutely loves my new bath robe that I'm wearing for these attempts, coz it has a badass hood that I pull over my eyes.

I started to feel buzzing in my head as I usually do pretty soon, and was still up when church bells rang at 10am.

Woke up at 11:50 after a longass lucid.

Valentine Cards 2
Don't remember how I got lucid. I started walking through this neghborhood with highrises on the left, and grassy area on the right. That's where I saw a red mailbox. Those typical US ones, standing on a pole. I figured this will be as good as any and I opened it. Now I was in a room with others watching me opening the cards. They were all of the same type. Like those kids give eachother at school with a piece of candy. Just a simple folded card, white and pink.

At some point I was amazed and pleased how long this lucid is getting.

I started opening them and read them all carefully. Looked for who it is for and from whom. They were all so funny. Mix of english and german. One made me laugh, all in german, something about miene liebe, shiezen,...

I tried to hard to remember them. But before that, I was gonna take a notebook and write them down so I remember them when I wake up, but I realized it won't work, haha. So after I read like 7 of them, I found those first ones and reread them again, amazed that the text is the same as was first time. And lol, one card was from me.

Flying
I was in a 3 story house. Walking all over, getting yelled at by some woman for walking on her sofa with my shoes. I went on a balcony and floated down to the one below and then next one. Just to amaze the people there. One kid asked me if I can tell him how I do it. I took his hand, tied him to me, and I took him to float with me.

Then I was flying in swimming fashion, when I realized I don't have to do that. I can just "stand" in the air and move my upper body just a bit in the direction I want to go. Kinda like a hummingbird. So I did that. I was surprised on the speed and hight and lack off effort.

At some point, maybe before I started flying, I was on the ground trying to lift off, but couldn't. I felt the normal gravity and it just wasn't letting me fly. So I closed my eyes and cleared my mind (wtf) and with my thoughts I started hovering. Someone said "see, thats how you do it".

So as we are flying with this kid on a string behind me, I notice he is getting sleepy. I ask him about it and he is falling asleep. I take him in my arms and hold him like a baby and tell him I'm gonna find him a chair.

Come to a place like outdoor caffee. 2-3 tables. I eyeball a chair that has a pack of cigaretts on it, but I think it's bag of candy, till I look closer. Obama sitting in the next chair tells the guy "don't you see who this is? Give her your chair." So I put the kid in the chair and we fly off again.

It wasn't a very high lucidity lucid, and who knows, maybe that's why it lasted this long. But I remembered my goals, how to do things, and it was awesome.

alpha GPC 2x300 mgs 7:35am
GM 2x4 mgs 8:27 am and straight to bed

Woke up at 10 from totms, tried for more and slept for 27 more minutes

Read the TOTM thread before bed. Now that I woke up, I got a twinge of fear if I remembered them or if my mind just made them up.

As I layed down on my sofa, I start feeling "dreamy" in just a few minutes. Even with one of my cats sleeping between my feet, and another one jumping on and off me the whole time.

Don't remember every detail from these lucids, since the whole thing lasted 2 hrs.

I did lots of flying. Saw the moon finally and aimed for it. It was hanging low in the sky and had the spots in the right places. It was getting bigger as I was coming closer. There was something written on it. I remember "recruiter 444 (this was a phone number, but remember only first 4 digits).

Few times when I stood up I wasn't even sure if I'm asleep or awake. So I was exiting the windows with as much caution as you can have when jumping out of them, haha.


1. Candy
I start feeling like I'm in a dream and I stand up. I come to a werehouse type of a store. I realize it's full of candy and I remember the TOTM. There is a black guy in grey hoodie on his head, putting product on the hanging rack. I ask him what is his favorite candy and what would he recommend. He says something, but is not very talkative. So I ask him if "this" one is good and I point to the candy in shape and size of a nerf ball, hanging on the rack.

There is 4 of them in the package. He says yeah, it's a good one. I grab it and pinch off a fistsize. It's rubbery like gummy candy and it stretches. I put it in my mouth and it tastes like old fashioned gummies. Sooo good. I break off 3-4 more fistfulls and eat them all. The candy is starting to show different colored layers underneath.

I ask him how much do I owe him and he says something like 2.50. I get in his face and ask him "are you sure you want me to pay you with money?"

(I promised myself while falling asleep that I will avoid sex)

2. Valentine card
I stand up and start walking outside of my apartment. I'm with someone, so I tell him that I want to check out those mail boxes. There are some metal boxes on the wall, and I pretend those are mine, in case I wake up too soon. But there is something wrong with them, I forgot what was it

So I decide to walk a bit and get to "mine" mailbox. I come to it and as I normally do, I pull out my keys. First I pick a car key to save time, and I'm thinking it's just a dream, so it should work. But it doesn't. So I find my real mailbox key. But that doesn't work either, the key doesn't fit, just like first time. I see some handles on them and I'm thinking maybe they will just open if I pull. I pull on the handle and it opens all the mailbox doors. They are wooden inside and completely empty. I open another row and also empty, except small baggie like for a ring or something. I'm hoping for a rolled up paper in it with a note, but I don't remember what was in it.

3. Gold chains
I start walking, looking for trouble. I see a kid with gold chain and I decide to take it from him. I see two grown ups nearby and I know they are kid's family. I'm hoping to provoke a fight. I take the chain and I walk to the adult males. They both have 3-4 gold chains on them. I have a feeling they are italian mafia. As I'm walking there, they start throwing the gold on the ground towards me. One guy walks towards me.

Spoiler for explicit:

I pull his pants down and start sucking him off. His black tool is already erect. I'm thinking ok, but when is it gonna be my turn?

4. Stadium dormitory
I wake up what can be described as a stadium, with beds next to each other as in a dormitory. Some are sleeping, some are walking around. I tell somebody to get me a notebook to record my lucids before I forget.

5. School
I'm walking around the school. Come to a room with huge window. Cafeteria or library is on the other side. Lots of chairs and people sitting there. One row of tables it turned differently and older people are sitting there, watching the crowd. Must be the teachers.

Took 2x300mgs of alpha GPC
2x GM which has 200 mgs of choline at 8am

heard the church bell at 9, when head sensations started
woke up at 9:48 from lucid event

head sensations start one hour after GM, trying to get up, can't, roll out, but can only partially, it's fun to keep trying, not frustrating at all, kinda loling to myself

kept thinking "open your eyes and see" like ophelia does it, because it was always dark or pitch black

once I started to open my left eye but saw what looked like waking life (had the hood of my bathrobe over my eyes, and saw the bottom portion was bright, where I could see from underneath) so I quickly closed it and LD continued. Now I'm thinking that could have been LD as well, next time I'll just open it. Since if in SP, should not be able to open real eyes.

sunrise, reflection in window, surprised - town at dark, wanting to get it brighter, saying something, sun coming up as leaving town, looking back at town when edge of it reached, caught a reflection of sun in a window and it surprised the heck of me, coz was so real life, and I didn't expect it, skies getting brighter and clouds picking up orange hue, so beautifull, started to cry

hill, resistance, fighter jets, bombs with parachutes, rolling bombs, bombed out building, low ceiling with metal wire ceiling, perimeter head-with space to stand up, hole in a wall
we are on a hill and see figher jets coming from behind the hill, kinda slow, and they drop some bombs that come down on parachutes. They didn't detonate and we are relieved. But then they open up and small can like bombs start rolling down the hill towards us.

checking for my dick but dark, checking again, I feel it, one longer one shorter for balls, limp, not well formed, checking for "other eqipment" it's still there
I remembered I wanted to see what's 'down there" in a lucid. So I put my hand into my pants and pull down the front a bit. I feel a penor, about 5-6", kinda skinny and limp. There is another one, smaller, I figure that's the ballz, error in rendering, haha.

Next time I check again, same thing. This time I wanna try and change it. So I make it longer, till it's hanging out from my hands, like a foot and a half long, haha. Still kinda limp, and bumpy as in skinnier then wider and skinnier again and it's like that on the whole length. Kinda disgusting. I figure i test it out, so I grab a guy in red shirt and glasses, short blond hair. He is like wut? I push him to the ground, pull his pants down and test my equipment. It works.

I try to see if I can feel some pleasure from it and I can, but it's not the same.

walking on streets, into building, guys eating at wooden tables

dark shadow approaching as a fog on a ground, not scared at all and saying it loud

trying to remember TOTM but I know I didn't read the new thread, trying to remember older ones, but can't

checking my hands, 5-6 on left, but all sideways, right has standing up, but shorter and longer, fixing them up

sleeves and shirt is blue scientist-engineer, working on some gadget with others

clapping hands, checking them again, saying something loud, feeling my real throat rumbling

my room but previous one with high window

was looking for the moon to go there, but didn't see it, twice

There were no transitions at all. Just one continuing event.

10/4/14

Last night bed around 9 coz soming down with something.

Woken up at 3am, spent 30 min on comp, then bed. Woke up at 5:30 from LDs.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD, but proly DILD. Next thing I know, I'm walking down the street, happy as can be and singing and old song, one of my favorites. I realize I can sing nice and loud so I start really singing from top of my lungs. It feels GREAT. I have the lyrics right and I carry a tune.

The dream fades, I see my hands and I realize I'm still dreaming, because a thought crosses my mind that I always am. No transition.

I'm ourside, between 2 buildings. I want to fly up, but there are boards like a scaffolding. I'm pushing them aside and telling myself its easy.

I'm on the street again I think and I manage half of the same song, again happy as fuq, before dream fades.

Not sure if still lucid here or not, proly kinda aware but not lucid. So I go look for OpheliaBlue which I know she is in that corridor. I find her and I'm all excited telling her that I just had a DILD and a DEILD.

Woke up ecstatic.

Why can I sing in dreams but not IWL?

12.1.14

Last night bed 10:20pm - 7:40am

Back to bed 8am-10:40

I put an extra pillow under my 2 and propped it against the dresser. So I was on my back, with head raised a bit. I was daydreaming and felt the falling asleep sensation few times and surprised me that it came that soon.

I got into a transition, which consisted of a mild wierd head sensation, as if falling forward or backwards, but very mild. More just a head sensation. And at that exact moment my cat jumped on my bed. The other cat was already asleep by my left arm. So this one took up position on my right, plopping her body on me and purring up a storm.

I continued falling asleep, but when he changed position third time, I turned to my right side so he is behind me, rather than on me.

Very soon I got into another transition. Again, just a wierd feeling in the head. I tried to make it bigger by pushing my head backwards. Then decided to start getting up, even I knew that transition is not finished yet.

It was very hard to get up. I couldn't. I could barely sit up, but I was almost like held down by gravity or something. I tried to levitate up desperately, while also trying to sit up. I finally levitated out over some guy asleep in red shirt. I stood up and started walking away in what looked like a large warehouse. I saw my steel ring on the ground but walked by, didn't want to waste time. But ofc I couldn't leave it there, I turned back and picked it up. I looked at the inscription as I always do before putting it on. There were some pictographs on it, instead of word.

That's when my cat behind me moved again and I got out of it.

Had one more transition within minutes, but nothing came of it.

Morning of 25th. Bed 12:30am - 5:11am (potty)
woke up f DILD at 6:27

It was about 10 min long.

I'm in a smallish, dark room and I'm thinking "next time when I'm dreaming, i just look at my hands and I will know if I'm dreaming". I look at my hands and they are fading and melting as energy would.

I realize I'm dreaming and decide to use the door properly to exit. I use a classic european doorhandle, open the door, walk through it and then close the door. I'm happy this all time that I'm lucid and want to go and do things fast, but I'm pacing myself to do it the right way, slowly, taking my time with details.

I'm out on a street. Sunny day, wide pedestrian zone, people walking around me. There is ocean in a distance to my right.

I start to hop up with intent to take flight. I jump 10-20 feet straight up, slowly, and slowly come back down. I realize I can't fly there, coz a concrete roof. I walk little closer to the ocean, look up and with force of my will I SEE blue skies with some white clouds, and not the roof.

I keep walking and come to an older looking single story house. The outside is sunbleached brown wood, almost gray with age, and a chinese type of wooden doorway. It has 2 part, on left an right, and it's old red in color.

I really don't like houses in lucids, even if I love them in non-lucids. So I make a consious decision to walk inside. As I walk throught the door, I reasure myself that "only nice things are here".

I know whom this house belongs to. It's "S". He is not home, only his mom. She thinks I'm a friend, and I'm not gonna tell her any differently. I'm walking through the house, aware that his mom is in other parts of the house. I'm looking through a dresser. There is a ziploc baggie with golden rings and earrings. I take it. I also take a baggie with old coins, and another 2 bags, that I keep finding in this drawer. Normally I would never take what's not mine. But I know this person and it gives me some weird satisfaction that I'm taking it.

His dad is coming home. I have a feeling that he will know I'm not a friend, and I know his mom is clueless, but she doesn't trust me either. It's time to leave. I'm at the window to the yard and his dad is coming through there. I avoid him and get out.

10.27.14

Last night bed 10:30 - 5am

Wanted to do WBTB, but realized it's still dark out and I don't wannu WILD in the dark. But I woke up with some serious cramps that kept me awake for an hour. So at 6 I decided to take:

1x4 mgGM
1x300 mg alpha GPC
1x300 mg choline

Had to get up at 6:45 to potty. And had to kick off my cat 3-4 times from the bed, walking all over me : (

By the time I had to go potty I felt I was very close and soon after I got back to bed I got to that state of mind very soon again. I hear my watch beep at 7 and I get lucid minutes after. I wake up from it all at 8am and write it down.

So it was a 30-45 min event, if not longer.

I didn't feel any transitions, any bubbling or coldness in the top back of my head as usually. No HH, no sensations, no NOTHING.

I kept concentrating on my black eyelids and saw just fog swirling, what happens at the very beginning and it normally doesn't end in a lucid for me. So I was thinking nothing will happen this time either. But I also knew that it will.

I heard my cat and I imagined how it would be to hear HH and I may have heard my name being called, but I was so close to falling asleep, I'm not sure.

I felt the slightest sensation of moving forward (I was more sitting than laying down with comforter and 2 pillows behind my back) so I rejoiced and pushed myself backwards and it worked!

1.
I realized I can see my room (not my real room IWL). I was like "finally I'm lucid". I had pyjamas on (I don't wear any in WL). Flanel, beige colored with some print. Top was unbuttoned. I almost got up, but thought that I should check "down there". Since ophelia often talks about her parts, I wanted to know myself. I rolled my pyjama bottoms down. I saw nice flat tummy and lady's parts. I looked at them thoroughly, thinking "daum, I look awesome". Was shaved, but with like a 5'clock shadow, lol. Everything looked as it should, and better.

2.
There is no transition between LDs at all, just one long event.

I'm walking down the street. It's very wide, not many cars, and sidewalk is almost empty of people as well. It's evening, and it's like suburbs, not in the city. No houses either.

There is a very colorful huge billboard on the left side ahead, with sea life on it. A sea turtle and 2 other animals and some text. It's so colorful, sharp and detailed.

A georgeous blond duude runs by me and he wants me to follow him. He needs help. As we are walking, I'm telling myself not to be stupid and waste it on sex. I'm not in a mood for sex anyway. But he is so damn hot. I'm not into blonds, but he IS HOT. So I ask him if he wants to do it. He doesn't. I should have taken my hint, but now the liftoff sequence had been initiated and there is not steping back. I lose lucidity somewhere here. But I continue with the fantasy.

3.
No transition again. After I realized the previous LD is over, I think to myself "ok I'll just wait here for the next one" only to realize "wait a minute, I'm still dreaming, I'm lucid wooo".

I'm on top of the hill. It has dry bushes growing on it and it's almost straight down. I don't think twice and I launch myself down head first. I fly at breakneck speed. It's so awesome. I can feel the tingles in my stomach, like on a rollercoaster. Only much stronger, almost unbearably strong.

I see some hot air balloons being launched to my right, on some kind of a very large flat part of a mountain slope. I decide to try if I can steer and I turn slightly to the right and I'm flying towards them now.

4.
They are looking for girls for some favor. They assure us nothing is going on, like porn or anything. It's suspicious anyway, but I trust them. Then there is this long part that's kinda foggy, but sex is involved.


I made a decision between LDs that I'm not going to retell them in my mind during transitions to remember them better. I didn't really care to remember them this time. Just happy that my dry spell is over.

8/13/14

Last night bed around 11:30 - 8am

Nap to WILD 9:25am - 12:20pm

I did my ascending breath breathing excercise as I always do and felt my body getting super relaxed very quickly. I felt my head getting "relaxed" too, and I knew lucid is near. I was right there on the edge, but no lucid yet. I figured it's because I'm not asleep yet. I know sometimes we think we are awake when we are in fact already asleep, and thatused to happen to me all the time, but this time I really was still fully awake.

I pushed my head back and got a falling backwards feeling, but as soon as I stopped pushing, I came back. So I continued the motion and stood up on the bed, without bending knees or anything else. Quite freeky, but I have done it before, and did it a few times today too.

After standing up, I went through few doors. Each one lead to an empty room with whitewashed walls. One was kinda dark and led someplace else. I have made a decision few month ago to explore rooms and houses, since they normally scare me and all I want to do is to jump out the first window. But this last room, I said no thank you and backed out. But no matter what I was expecting, all rooms were emtpy with whitewashed walls.

This goes on for quite a while, and I remember doing some things in rooms as well.

Then I slept for 2 more hours.

8/9/14

Last night bed at midnight - 8am.

WILDing 10am - 1pm.


I waited for cats to fall asleep then laid down on my sofa. 5 min into it they started growling at each other, but I was already super relaxed and didn't want to break it, so I let them growl it out. They stopped soon after that.

I got into a WILD via a huge head sensation. Like falling backwards while a waterfall flowing through my head.

I did one ToTM, which now I can't remember. But I remember recapping it in my LD, before remembering the "Pull your eye out" ToTM.

Just before bed, I practiced getting naked, pulling out my green banana (don't want a ripe mushy banana as a weapon) and robbing a bank while yelling "this is a stickup! Gimme all your lucid dreaming vouchers".

Then I practiced getting naked and pulling my eye out. I said this is gonna be gross, and I proly don't wanna do this one.

So after recapping my ToTM, I remembered the "pull your eye out." I put fingers of my right hand around my eye and pushed in slightly while thinking "this is not gonna work". Grabbed the eyeball and pulled it out. My hand is kinda closed and I'm thinking again that it didn't work. But I see a shiny white ball with black dot in size of a pupil between my fingers. I'm totally surprised. (I have also practiced putting the eye behind me and looking at my butt) but I kinda lose it here and don't remember what happened next.

Then I stupidly slept for 2 more hours.

7/17/14

Last night bed 12:30am - 9am WBTB 9-10:10

Cats were calm, so after breakfast and 1 hr spent on DV and IRC, I got on my sofa in more sitting than laying down position. I started feeling my body falling asleep withing 5-10 min. I knew it's gonna be a great attempt, because of my great recall from the night, and also because I wanted it.

LDs

Don't really remember how it started, but it lasted about 25 min. Then I "woke up", wrote some keywords down and went back to sleep, I think lucid again. But as I was writing it down, I realized I'm still asleep, because even if the paper DJ and my pen were exactly what I had prepared for that occasion, my writing was "drunk sloppy" and I recognized it.

I'm underground again. Large rooms, all well lit. Almost looks like inside of IKEA. No windows, bunch of large rooms, and bunch of people milling around. I'm already lucid. So I do what I practiced while falling asleep. TOTM - I jump in the middle of people and yell: Look everybody, LOOK. I'm getting naked.

Crowd of guys tighten around me and I feel some touches. I started to fiddle with my top, when I remembered practicing having just a simple T-shirt on. So I took of my polo shirt. Wut? A bra? Didn't practice this, dangit. But no problem, quick unhook and girls are free.

Don't remember what was on the bottom, but off it goes.

By now crowd has thinned and some had turned away, going about their business. I'm thinking bloody hell, I don't just need to get naked, but I need your reaction. So I jump up and yell: What yo guys think? Some are still looking, but most had turned and left.

So I grab one of them, push him against the wall and have my way with him. I dont stop till happy ending.

I do the undressing one more time in another room, because I want a reaction out of them, but again, all they do is act uninterested.

But there is a table with some feast. Looks like I came late, because all is left is one piece of something that looks like small flat round candle. I pick it up thinking that this will do as a sweet cake junk food. I take a bite and stuff it in my mouth, cause I need to eat a LOT of junk food. By then it tastes sugary and not that bad.

To the left, there are some pastry/pizza looking things. Never seen them before. I'm thinking they are sweet, but as I stuff some of it in my mouth, it's savory, but next piece is sweet again. I forget to note people's reaction here.

I walk away, thinking how to make it more vivid and last longer, so I clap my hands and yell: I-am-lucid-I-am-lucid.

I think it's time to find a window and get out. I see one, and behind it is my balcony. I walk through the tall glass, only to end up in another room with same window to same balcony. I'm thinking c'moon, this time I walk outside for sure.

And I do. I step off the balcony, so happy to outside of the building. I'm falling to the ground when I remember I'm not that good at flying, but thinking that yes, I'm am good at flying, just so I start flying ok. It's taking me to the left, but I'm thinking I should fly to the right this time, towards the town. But no, I speed up and go really fast in the night sky.

There are no features, only black night sky. I'm getting worried that no features to look at will wake me up. Then I see something faint in the distance. Like a slightly glowing trail. I turn more right and start following it. I see bunch of dots, like you see sometimes in a video game when looking at something in a distance. I'm thinking too bad, that these boulders in comets tail are not looking real. Then I start seeing them as boulders that are turning slowly around their different axes as they are being left behing by the comet. When I look at it from distance, I sear I can hear the same sound that you can hear at the beginning credits of star trek voyager, when they fly over some stoney rings of some planet.


This was some kind of a non-lucid with some awareness : dunno :

I'm at work. Standing at the cashiers, helping out. Another coworker says something about my boobs, and adds: That's because you are a lesbo. I feeze, thinking, finally, you bitch, I got ya now. You were just mean till now, but now the company is gonna deal with you. So I ask her all "offended" : what did you say? Making sure eeeeverybody notices.

Then my higher manager asks me to go with him. We go to some back room, that's barely lit and looks like a cave, or old mine. He/she tells me to grab a flyer from a rack. Not the "boobs" flyer, coz we already covered that one in last session : wtf:, but another one.

I'm left there alone sitting in a chair, all sleepy and tired. barely any lights are on and room is huge and black walls are not making it any brighter. I'm thinking if anybody wanted to come here and rape me, that would no surprise me, coz the darkness and remotness of the place. But i think hell no, that ain't happening and prepare myself mentally for a fight, and also walk to the adjacent room and put some lights on.

7/7/14 Monday

Day off, so went for a WILD morning nap.

Last night bed 10 pm after marathon of Walking Dead ended. Woke up at 7:47am. WBTB till 9am. Breakfast, but no coffee.

WILDing from 9am - 9:55, when i got up to potty, as I normally do. By then I was already completely relaxed and on the verge of a lucid. I felt my head falling forward and I knew that's a signal of incoming lucid. I also felt top back part of head getting a bit cold, which is also a sign of a transition.

So when I went back on sofa after potty, I was super relaxed and got lucid almost immediatelly. I was falling asleep thinking of TOTM - eating junk food, taking an elevator and doing something fun with another member.

1.

Well ofc, I wanted to LD with OpheliaBlue so badly, so I was thinking of her. Very first place I end up in is a room with a counter and 2 girls standing behind it. I focus on the one on the left, because I know it's Ophelia. Same haircut, same face. I have no doubts. Suddenly I don't know what to do. I figure a handshake will confirm that she is really there, so I lean over and we shake hands. I'm happy, can't believe it's really happening. Dream fades away here.

Till I wake up 2 hrs later, I'm going in and out of lucids. Before, when I was WILDing like this, I had clear transitions, so I was able to count all the DEILDs and was aware of every transition.

But this is about 3. time, when it's just one long event. Sometimes I remember some transitions, but they are not vell defined.

This time I remember thinking "well, I'm not gonna wait for another dream, what if I just stand up now, before dream comes." And I stood up and was in a dream. I also counted fingers. I'm having this "let's not wait, I'm in a dream already" feeling more often lately, and I like it.


2.

Now I'm walking through a street fair. Place between the stalls is very narrow, barely wide enough for 2 people to pass. It's either underground, or there is a roof, and no windows. It's a common occurence for me. Having buildings without windows, or feel of being underground.

I remember the TOTM to eat something. I grab a corn chip from one of the stalls. They are just laying there in a wide and shallow basket, to be sampled. Taste is ok, but it's not crunchy anymore. I don't even finish that one chip. Next stall has some ham. Looks kinda like jerky, but not that dried. It's wraped, like banknotes are in the bank. I take one piece of ham from the one that's still wrapped. It tastes just like ham should. Nice and salty. This makes ham my most eaten food in a lucid. Dunno why, it's not my most favorite food.

I feel the urgency of other things to do so I wonder off. Dream fades.

I'm walking through yet another building. Normally i would be jumping out of first window, or clawing through the walls to get out of the building. But last time I think I got over this problem and consiously decided, that buildings and doors are ok and fun, and I should explore, instead of being scared.

So I'm opening doors, all optimistic, with smile on my face, decided that whatever is behind it, will by ok and fun and cool. Open the door into a smallish room, but the far end corners are in dark. it's all gloomy and I decide that this is not the best room to get over my fear of rooms. Thank god I have enough of whatever to back out.

Next place, I'm walking to another room from a hallway and I see something like airport or subway gates. Those things, where you wait in line to get through the security check, or where you put in the token and small gates swing open and let you in.

Someone is there right now and the machine dispenses a hoverboard. The person hops on it and they take off. I think that's something I could do. I know I'm in the future and I don't know how to operate this thing, but I'm eager to try it, no matter what. I walk up and I get a howerboard in shape of a smaller surfboard. I sit on it with my feet dangling and it takes off. It's white, with a red and green buttons, and something yellow, also some text.

So we take off slowly with a low hum of an electric engine. We turn left, and at the end of the lit tunnel is some kind of a gate. It's opened, and I think it's more of a marker, than a gate. Like "you can go fast from here". I wonder how to go faster, so I push the green button. The hoverboard starts to inflate more and I realize that's how yo control the speed.

Behind the end of the tunnel, I'm higher up over some more rooms.

I'm standing in the room. It has lots of high cabinets, color is gray, metal. There are some huge glass containers, with some human experiments in them. i'm not liking it, but not scared either.


Lots of walking through buildings.