lucid

7/3/14

Last night bed 1:30am, same as night before. Got up at 6:40am.

WBTB 6:40 - 8am. Got up from WILD nap at 10am.

I knew nap is going to be a good one. Got relaxed in matter of minutes. Cats were asleep and I was at the gates of a LD. Then my cat jumped on me and layed on me for a few minutes. I didn't let that bother me one bit. I was incredibly excited and played out scenarios I would like to dream about. So many cool ones.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD.

LD:
I'm in a place with some people. I look down and I'm in underwear and a bra. I quickly pull off the undies, while saying sorry to those around and telling them that I'm on a mission.

Next I'm in a long hallway. It's rather narrow, like maybe on a ship. But we are not on a ship. Doors made out of shiny lighter colored wood are lining the hall on both sides.

I decide to go door by door and find someone, so I can undress. First door has a female in. I realize this is doctors offices and doors have patients behind them waiting for the doctor. I quickly close the door.

Next door has 2 skinny people with body piercings. I can't tell if male or female. I'm hoping at least one is male. Not sure why I'm thinking I should undress only in front of males.

Another door has a person with blond hair, sitting in a chair facing away from me. I say hi in hope it will turn around and I can see if male or female.

Next door has a freaky huge machine in it, which I recognize as Iron lungs. I quickly close the door.

Next is an x-ray room, or some lab, with lots of females in white coat. I don't find this room suitable either.

Finally, there is a lonely male leaning against a door. I ask him to help me take my bra off. He is doing it with one hand and I praise him for being a pro. Dream cutts off here.

Dream ended and restarted many times. I remember lots of transitions.
1. Just a regular restart
2. I'm rolling out, fall on my knees and I'm thinking I'm actually awake. But have 8 fingers on one hand.
3. Pushing head backwards to get the falling feeling
When I stop pushing, I come back to the bed, so I make it a swinging sensation. Push down, come back up and higher. Untill I was standing on the bed and just stepped off. This one I did at least 2-3 times.


Next dream - I don't think I'm lucid here, because the whole time I'm desperately trying to WILD.

I'm in a large, L-shaped room. She is in the other part of the room in a bed with white sheets. I think a medic is treating her, because at one point she says with pain in her voice "damn, that stings". But that's the only complaint I hear from her.

When that person leaves, I come closer and ask if I can help. Make some food or anything else. But she declines every offer I make. Nothing new, I expected that. Makes me feel sad though, that she won't accept help even from me.

So I sit on a chair next to the bed and trying to figure out how to at least hold her hand without her rejecting it or making it look like some mushy move. All I really want is to transfer some healing energy to her and make her more comfortable.

She says something about her kidneys giving her hell.

She gets up and tries to do some chores. I trail her while desperately trying to WILD so I can treat her aura in a lucid. I'm pushing my head back while walking. I feel like I'm WILDing a few times, but those are all fake, not real lucids.

Now I see through the window that we are in LA. For a second I'm happy that she lives here but then i remember that she is only visiting. I have a few suveniers from my visits in LA and I'm rummiging through them picking out the one I want to give her. But I know she wont like them, so I stop doing that.

Last night bed 11pm - 7am

Got up for a WBTB. Had breakfast, no coffee. Closed the window and curtains, made my sofa and made sure cats are asleep before starting. Went to sofa at 8. My cat ofc came and jumped on me and sat and purred on mychest for about 10 min, while I was doing the "ascending breath" relaxation.

Then he jumped off and I was concentrating on watching the back of my eyelids with mantra "next time I'm dreaming I look at my hands and realize I'm dreaming".

I suddenly realized I could be dreaming already and looking at hands confirmed, to my surprise.

I actually think this was a WILD with subsequent DEILDs. But there was not a single transition

Everytime when I thought I lost lucidity, I told myself "ok, I'll just wait here till I'm lucid again", but since the dream was still there, everytime I thought that, I realized "wait a minute, I'm still here and lucid".

I did lots of walking through doors. Normally I don't like doors, because I don't know where they lead. But I have read lots of people saying, that they can lead to awesome places. So I consciously told myself to be opening and going through doors, that it's a good thing and I actually got myself excited in anticipation of an unknown cool place behind door.

Many doors lead to correct room after the room I was in. It always surprised me. One lead after a room, to hallway, to in front of my building in NZ.

When I desired something else, there were some unknown places, and last one was a huge, dark, very industrial room. I was a bit scared, but also excited.

When I realized I didn't have a single transition, I decided to make me one. Pushed my head down to invoke the falling backwards feeling. I started falling backwards, but gently came back, when i stopped applying pressure. Tried a few times, coz I just love that sensation.

Once I came to in a world, and when I looked up, there was a huge planet hanging overhead. I recognized it as Earth, and Italy was right there in the middle. I got so happy, that I'm finally seeing Eart from the orbit, as I wanted to since day one. The planet looked just like live pictures from the orbit. With clouds and weather that was moving, and earth rotating.

During one "intermission", I remembered to try and levitate out. And I started moving upwards in prone position immediatelly. Going through roof and bunch or other rooms.

In one LD, I'm walking on the street and pass a guy leaning against a wall. I think to myself "no, no sex!" But after few steps I turn back to look and he is opened to it, so I say ok, what the hell.

Next 15-20 min is xxx.

6/11/14

Just woke up from a nap. 1:30 - 3:30

Didn't want to sleep, because I have tons of work for the next week. But body started getting relaxed almost immediatelly so I thought If I get HH when I close my eyes, I'll go for a WILD or a nap. Since I didn't really want to sleep or sleep long, I kept waking up, or getting close to waking up dipping back under.

Ha a few cool dreams:

DR1: DILD

I'm in a hospital as a nurse in training or something similar. We are walking around, doing things. There is a patient and something prevents us from checking on her. A nurse or doc tells us, that it's too bad, because we are there to learn and god knows when we'll have another chance on a live patient.

Now I'm in my mom's kitchen. I'm writing something on a laptop. There is a girl there with me. She hands me a paper with some handwritten notes, saying that she noticed me typing in english, so there are names of some books she knows I would enjoy. She eminates so much peace and love. I feel so good in her presence. She has long darker hair and a calm, smiling face.

She remind me of one of my good friends from high school, L.H. So I half jokingly ask her, if she her, or related to her, because sure as heck they are so similar. She laughs and says no.

We talk some more when i say "hey, wait a minute, I think we are in a dream". I look at my left hand and count my fingers and sure enough. I'm so happy that I rcognized the dream feel and counted my fingers. I tell her all excited that we are in a dream and I'm so happy to share that moment with her. I grab her by the hand and we walk through the balcony glass door. I'm thinking if I should tell her t just walk through and not worry, or will that make her worry, but by then we have stepped through. We are outside and it's night. I say let's go flying, but it's so slow. So I tell her to get jets for her back and I get some for my feet. It's still so slow, no matter how much I want it.

So I tell her to lay on her back and paddle that way, and as a bonus we see the starry skies that way too.


DR2:

My parents are visiting me in Beverly Hills. It's at night, they just arrived. I want to take them outside by the swimming pool and ahve a glass of red wine. I'm showing them the city pool deep below us.

I vaguely remember something about snakes chasing us in the swimming pool.

DR3:

I'm outside of my childhood house, near the tennis courts. Some teenagers drive by in a cabriolet. They are up to no good and when they spot us, they start shooting. I summon an assault rifle and start shooting. I realize my hands are empty, so I at least make the ta-ta-ta sound in hopes it will make bullets appear. But no.

Now I'm on my balcony and teens are all over the neighborhood causing trouble. We are trying to get away through the balcony. I think I can just jump off and fly, but my mom is worried.

Almost forgot. Last night, fellated a foot long black... snake. Proly bit longer. Somebody walked in. Then let us be.

5.2.14

Last day of my 3 days off. Woke up at 7am, took a nap at 9am -12pm.

GM 8mgs, Choline 900mgs. Alpha GPC 600mgs.

Little more than 1 hr after taking it, I get a sligh buzzing in the back of my head. I push my head back and start falling. it leads nowhere. So I push my head down again, and fallling again. Now I remember how to get out of this into a LD. Just stand up. So i do that and I'm in a LD. I didn't wanna go after sex, but once lucid, all bets are off. I spend it all on sex. And the next DEILD as well. Then a third dream, not sure if lucid, or what it really was.

Wake up, decide that nothing worth writing down happened, so I just get a drink and go back to sleep.

4/29/14

Last night bed 10pm-4:23am

WBTB till 6am

6am - 8mgs Galantamind + 900 mgs of choline

Laid down to WILD at 6am, got up to pee at 6:32, after already was partially asleep. Went back to sofa and WILDed.

Woke up at 7:51 from a chain of DEILDs. Didn't count them, but there were at least 5 distinct transitions. As I was falling asleep, I was telling myself "please no sex". But I had a feeling it's futile.

All transitions were from me realizing what I see is a dream. I stood up into every one of them. I was mostly blind. I was tellling myself as falling asleep and in LD, that I have to just open my eyes as OpheliaBlue does. It didn't work. I tried to pry them open with my hands which normally worked, but not this time. But I did wonder, if I'm doing it with my real hands to my physical eyes. I also tried to take the hoodie off of my eyes and sunglasses. Didn't work, because I know I didn't believe I have a hoodie or sunglasses on.

These will probably not be in any order:

1. Realizing I see my room, I stand up, walk to the door and walk outside. End up thousands of miles away, on the street in my hometown, in front of my childhood house.

I start walking to the town. It's at night. A guy drives by on his bicycle. I resist the urge. But he turns around and as he drives by my again, I yank him off his bike by hooking my arm under his elbow. As I'm dreagging him off to the bushes by the side of the house, I'm asking him if you wants to have sex. He says he doesn't know how to. I ask him "do you have a penis?". When he answers "yes", I tell him "then I'll show you how to". We duck behind the bushes and get busy.

2. Again realizing I'm in my room. I make a consious effort to walk out my door, and not jump out the window or go through the wall, as usually. I unlock both locks and turn the knob. There is a box in front of neighbors apartment and I realize this is my current place or residence.

I walk outside but I'm in front of my childhood house again. Once again I start walking down the street towards the town. I notice it's winter and everything is covered in deep snow. I'm rather gliding or hovering maybe a foot above ground and nice speed. There is a fort kids made from snow in the middle of the street. No cars because of snow. I glide over it and say samething to kids.

I figure I should go to the moon, since I'm moving at nice pace. Skies are overcast, but there is some faint light from one star. I say "when I turn around, there will be moon" I turn few times, but no moon. I take aim for the star, but I realize there are no features to focus on and I;ll lose lucidity if I continue, so I abort.

3. Again I realize I see my room and stand up. Walk to the door, but this time I don't unlock, just turn the knob and door opens. But before I do that, I say "there is a moon behind this door" and I imagine lunar surface. But no, it's my hallway again, only this time with even more boxes than last time. I look at the label on the box in front of my door to see who sent it, but can't make it out. I decide ot check it out when I wake up to see if it's still there.

4. A very annoying insect is buzzing right at my face. I put all my effort into moving my hands and I try to shoo it away, but then I catch it and squish it, expecting to be bitten.

5. Same hard sound of insect buzzing, I squish him again.

6. Finally, some sinking sensation. I push my head back little bit more and now I'm falling backwards. It's aaaaawesoooome! But it doesn't last long.

7. There are some cucumbers and other stuff on the plate and I realize it's a dream and stand up.

8. I'm outside, at night. I see 2 helicopters with what looks like a refueling plane. They are chasing and shooting at 2 triangular alien ships. We are in Nevada.

9. I'm talking to alex on IRC, when OpheliaBlue boops me, and I tell her I'm talking to alex. I think she has a message for him.


10. Also in Nevada. Half way up on a huge mountain that has rocks, no vegetation, typical desert rocks. There is some kind of an apparatus. I'm test piloting it. I get out of it, then walk to the edge of the clif as tall as if reaching all the way to the skies, and I throw myself off. Wooooo. Love that feeling.

Thank you for my dreams and transitions.

4.15.14

Last night bed at 8:45 pm - 1:50am

I had to be at work at 3am, hence the early bed time.

DR 1

Woke up at 11pm from a DILD.

I'm in an unknown hallway with my dad. I'm telling him we are dreaming. We were doing something fun, but now he is like "what else is there to do in a dream"? So I say we can go and slide on a big yellow inflatable raft. Thank got this boring part ends here.

Now I'm at some other place. It's night. I feel like doing it and there are 2 girls. Somebody takes one of them. I'm thinking "oh great, I'm left with the chubby one". But I also dont care, hehe. I push her down and she giggles, and I remember Ophelia talking about having her way with girls, when she changes into a guy in her dreams. I'm not sure I changed into a guy, but I just knew, that none of those tiny details will make any difference with me completing my plan. Not sure what happened after.

But now I'm in a room that looks like wooden cottage, like wild west type of a building. Someone walks in, a guy this time. I lock the door and we do it. Happy ending iz all I'll say. Thank you, come again, hehe.


DR 2

I'm in my homeland, on some kind of a trip with foreigners. We walk down into the river and water is reaaaaly low. At some place I kneel down and touch the ground. There is just less then 1/4 of an inch of water. Just enough to make a wet sound. Rest is sandy.

I look ahead and the river is missing all the water. It must be a drought. I tell them we have go and explore, because this happens like only once in 20 years.


DR 3

I'm walking through a street fair or some other fair. I look for some candy. I see lollipop glasses made from blue sugar. I buy one and taste it and it's the best flawor I ever had. I want to buy more, but the lady is out. So I keep looking at similar things, maybe I'll find them, or they will taste the same, or other vendors will have them. But the lady says, after I ask her, that she doesn't have any more of them. I really want to buy some for my family, who is also there at the fair, but walking separately.


DR 4

I just glanced at the title of an entry 2 post below mine, and from "suspenders" I recalled this dream.

I'm in my childhood room. I have these mans suspenders on. Everytime I pull on them on the top on my shoulders, they levitate me up. My mom is standing in my door and I'm showing her this and saying, that changing lightbulbs and cleaning the light fixtures will be so easy this way. She faints.

I can sooo clearly feel the gravity being 0 and me just levitaning upwards so easily and effortlessly. Such a freeing feeling.

3.24.14 Monday

Last night sleep 10pm- 7:40am.

Layed on sofa to WILD at 9am, with 8mgs of GM and 900mgs of Choline.

I got relaxed pretty fast and started getting static soon after. I felt top back of my head being active. I was lucid, and I stayed lucid for next 2 hrs, with one short break. Even when i wasn't lucid, I was asking myself "wow, am I not lucid anymore, it sure feels like I'm dreaming" and I checked my fingers and sure enough, I got lucid.

I don't think I had a dream ready for me from the beginning, because I felt like I'm in a dream, but there was nothing. Went back to transition, back to the dream, but there was nothig still.

Then I ended up in a town with yellows and blues. There was a fair, people eating outside, having fun, but nothing was happening. I wanted to go somplace else. I tried flying, but it didn't work. I tried different mental methods. Then I thought I'll fly up to the rocky, partially snowy hills behind the town. I was able to fly there, or more like skimming the surface.

I circled back to the same town. I was up for some excitement. Wanted to be chased, or in a battle. So I did "when I turn back, there will be a military camp". But nothing.

Bunch of transitions, non lucids in which I realized I'm dreaming, DEILDs, that seemingly stretched forever. I was even asking myself, how come I didn't wake up yet. Not even that woke me up. I was askin someone if my eyes are opened.

I remembered what OpheliaBlue said the other day, how she was looking for hell through the opening she made in her floor. So I thought that would be exciting and made an opening in the wall by pushing my hands through like when you swimm, then pushing my hands to the sides. I got sucked in, and tried to move there, but it was like in liquid rubber. Hard to move, so as I was in laying down position, I just paddled a bit, then got tired of it.

Did it with numerous guys, and by myself. Very realistic, I was able to tell the size of guys "equipment". I could swear I was using my real hands, but I wasn't. That was a surprise.

I finally ended up in a chase scenario. Nothing serious, just some scientists chasing me, low key. I'm running through a building and get out. Now I feel like I should really get away, but it was still a game.

I exit into a dark courtyard. It's narrow, with very tall walls, only a narrow slice of skies is visible. The walls are sculpted with some figures. The are tall as the walls are. (They look like spaceships in necromancer movie). Built into the walls are spaceships. They kinda turn into the wall and out of it, so people get get in. Somebody is tired of the slow process and speeds it up. Now I notice there are people hanging on to the walls about half way up. Passengers, or refugees. Now I see 2 people entering the courtyard looking for me. I'm thinking it's good that the launch sequence was sped up.

There was lots more, lotls of little transitions into nothing, return to transition and back again.

Lots of fun. Thank you, subC, thank you my higher self. Come again

3.13.14

nap around 5 -7pm

I was thinking last couple of days, and thinking about me telling people, how when I think in a dream that it's WL, but I RC anyway.

So today, I'm walking in circles around this counter island (like a kitchen island) in the large bathroom, when I think I should RC, because eventhough I know I'm awake, "what if"? So I check and I have 6 fingers.

I walk through a neat, clean and organized small apartment. Beds are made, and most is in grey and matching colors. I look into rooms, looking for my husband. I yell out his name "peter" and I ask myself in surprise "wow, my husband's name is Peter?". I know he is not home, it's way too quiet. I'm ready to exit throught the main door, when i see a mirror and I think I should walk through it. I have never done it before. Then I see a large mirror hanging on the entry door, that I was gonna walk through to leave. So I decide to walk into that mirror. For a second a remember how people say it can be scary, but I don't care and I know it will not be. Mirror feels like liquid metal, or like surface of the even horizon, like the watery thing in Stargate.

I walk through it, and I'm about to put second foot throough, when with corner of my eye I see my husband climbing inside through the window. So I go back, go into the bedroom, we get undressed and we do it. Yeah. All the while I'm telling myself "noooo, don't waste your time on THIS AGAIN". But I'm not listening to myself. The urge is strong in this one.

Ps
When I realized I'm dreaming, I didn't get the out-of-this-world-happy feeling as I normally do. I hope it will come back. Although, maybe that's why I didn't wake up after 30 seconds this time. Because the happyness didn't wake me up.

3.16.14

Before 4am

DILD
I become lucid in front of my house in RD. I quickly look at my left hand and middle finger is longer and pinky is all croocked. Yeeey! I start flying just a bit higher then the houses are. In direction of the town. I go up and down a few time. Have good control of the flight. As I turn the corner towards the old store, I decide to land and walk instead. Nice controlled descent. Now I'm walking on a sidewalk on a warm sunny day, same as it was at the beginning of the ld. I like walking, but want to be able to walk a bit faster. So I look back at my feet and I see I'm barefooted in shorts. I summon springs on my feet. They are like a flat black metal sheet. It's magnetic and kinetic, and it's enough to touch the suface for it to launch you 2-3 feet into the air. Now I hop like a kangaroo.

2.18.14 Tuesday

last night bed 11-9:45

Nap 12:20pm

I was visualizing walking on the same beach as yesterday (whitsunday). But fell asleep.

DR
I'm in US with Valika and Deniska. Valika is buyng a place here, and I'm helping her pick one. I'm telling her she will be so happy living here. Then we are walking on a raised wooden walkway. We come to an old town square. Looks like we are in past, or it's movie props or something. I'm telling V about LDing. Then I tell her "and then you count your fingers, look, like this" And I count 6 fingers. I'm like, wth? I count again, and again, 6 fingers. I look at them and yell out "we are in a dream right now"!

They disappear and I found some people to have sex with.

I wake up and write it all in DJ. I'm so happy with myself, that I remember all the names and details. But only till I wake up again, this time for real.

2.17.14 Monday

Last night, bed 11:30:5am, watching Thor before bed, also voice skyping with OP

DR 2:35
In a store, shopping cart

DR 5am
I'm on a tour of a factory with 3-4 more classmates. (We used to take tours like this from school.) Tour is over and I realize we can buy some things for good prices, so I walk back and see all the products they have. It looks more like a grocery store warehouse then a factory, because of a sortiment. I see some large tubs of cream chese, and I know I want to buy certain kind. As I'm walking back, I see hot sauces on shelves, crackers, bunch of stuff. I keep walking back to the "good items". Someone tells me tour is over, but he will stay behind with me. Others have left, since you have to leave exactly on time.

Employee tells me, I need to go to the director for some paperwork and he shows me how to get there on a mental map.

I walk outside of the large building, towards the director's place. A female employee joins me to show me the way. She goes for my boobs (I remembered this part in the shower, lol). So I somehow lose her and I sit down nearby. I see an old friend of mine. She cut her hair short. I hope she didn't see me. She is walking by slowly, and I pretend I don't see her. She stops behind me and says mine name, hoping that she is right. I turn around and say her last name in surprise. She really looks different. She mentions some things from our past.

We get together to directors office. It's a small cubicle in another factory building. She (he) tells me, that I have been fired twice before. Once from company called Rakuten, and the other time, when I was a taxi driver in Ukraine, and was late picking up a client. She only tells me this after I insist. I tell her, there is no company of that name in my country, and I have never in my life been to Ukraine. So I figured, that factory rakuten had to be there too. So it was clear, she didn't have the right paperwork.

Next door is some kind of a dormitory. We go there with this friend of mine. She is now both, the friend from old times, and OpheliaBlue. I'm falling asleep and I start seeing patterns and lights. I whisper to her loud "I'm about to WILD". Reason being, that I'm hoping others int he room will stay quiet, and I want to share my joy with her. I don't get the headrush or any transition, but I do get into a WILD. (Possibly just a dream about WILDing.)

As I "get lucid", I start climbing out over windows and stuff. I keep my lucidity for quite a while and every few seconds I tell myself that. I'm quite happy how long I'm holding the lucidity. Then I think "oh, I just thought about waking up, so I will", but I also know, that it will not happen, because I'm a good LDer.

It's morning now, and my friend/Ophelia askes me to give her her thing, that she needs to mail to her dentist. I pull out a small plastic baggy. Two fly-sized bugs or creatures from the bag get on my left hand. In the space between fingers and the thumb. One by one they start to burrow in my flesh. It hurts like hell. I try to pull them out, but I have a feeling, their heads detached and they keep burrowing deeper.

I end up in a large room, that resembles dining hall from Harry Potter. But the tables are not alongsied, but across, like they would be in a library, or a classroom. I know I'm infected from those bugs. Suddenly, these tiny white pustules shop up all over my body. They are perfectly round, and they light up. As if fluorescent. Someone from the desk in front of me turns to me and we talk. I see immediatelly, that she got infected as well. I know that, because she starts to giggle and talk to another person, and that apparently is a sign of infection. The person she talks to get's infected, giggles and talks to another person. Pretty soon the whole hall is infected. Few min later, my spots are gone. Int he back of the hall, there is another room. It's now full of people that are getting into next stage of infection. They are getting bit aggressive and their hands and fingers are getting curled up like claws. Someone unlocks the door with a regular, old fashioned key and one person is trying to get out of that other room. I push the door shut and lock it again.

But just to be sure, I fly up close to the ceiling and exit through some windows. I'm on a street. Sidewalks are covered by some roof. It looks like at the train station, where there are these roofs on pillars. I assume these are to protect people from some flying threat. It could be, that infected people will turn into these flying things.

2.5.14 Wednesday

Woke up in the morning around 9:45

Took a nap at 12:50. Took 8mg of GM and 300mgs of Choline just as I was going to lay down.

My cat was sleeping on my chest, so I was having hard time falling asleep. Everytime I exhaled, she batted her ear, because my breath was tickling her. So after an hour at 1:50 I said that's enough, I got up to go potty and also to put the kitty by my feet.

As falling asleep, another cat woke up and jumped up on me, eventhough I was laying on my left side, and he is a huge cat. Had hard time finding comfy spot, so he jumped off in 10 min or so.

Now, I was ready for business. I was disappointed that I didn't feel a thing from GM. But it came fast. I got a huge headrush and woke up in my bedroom. I stood up and on wobly feet I walked to my living room to ask my dad if he can see me. (we live thosands of miles apart). He says yeah, he can see me. I ask ok, but nothing strange? He says well you have two shirts on and it shows on the bottom. I'm like yeah, that's ok (I did have 2 shirts on and they were showing like that IWL).

I said, I think I'm OBE, so I'm making sure I am. I got to the opened window and I say now I'm gonna jump out and I sure hope I really am OBE. I figured I get out the window just a bit and if I dont fall down fast, I'm ok. So I did that and I slowly floated down.

Then I flew up, and to the roof.

Huge headrush again. I see images of guys flying in front of me. Not covering the whole field of view. Just like a postcard in the middle. The are dressed up, like characters from cartoons. The image changes and now they are characters from Star Wars Legos. I figure I try to get there. I say "I am there" and it suckes me in the picture. Now I'm flying alongside these guys in a long, gently curving corridor. Byt the walls are huge plastic bins full of lego pieces. Then I'm flying alone.

Another transition in my bed of my childhood. I hear some mean growls, so I want to speed up the transition to get out of there fast. I'm flying in a corridor. It's getting dark and I'm slowing down. I'm like "ok, you gonna be like that? Then at least give me some sex." And I get it.

1.27.13

Woke up at 5:40 am, tried to take a nap, but just as walling asleep, was woken up. Tried second nap at 1:30pm.

I got a WILD via falling backwards sensation. I'm sitting in a long row of chairs, I push my head and my body backwards and get into LD. I'm hovering above ground in a town at nigth. I look at at a clock tower and it's around 11:35. I look at the moon and it has a clock face on it too. Time is different than on the tower. I attempt to memorize it and check when I wake up.

I start flying towards the moon, figuring now is a good opportunity to finaly get there. But change my mind, thinking, I don't want to lose lucidity. So I fly between some office buildings. I can start and stop, slow down, anytime I wish. I'm happy about this, because normally I'm out of control.

I wake up and I'm thinking, great, this was a several minute long LD and I'm happy and bummed out at the same time. Something prompts me to look at my hands and my fingers are a mess. I realize I'm dreaming. I see a DC and I'm so excited. I can finally talk to a DC. So I stop him and we start to talk. I notice his logo on his polo shirt. He is dressed in yellows and greens. Something comes over me and I'm thinking sex again. I don't wanna, but things start to stir and I can't stop it. I'm waking up and I know it, and cursing at myself for allowing it to happen.

I'm in a row of chairs again, trying to push my head forward to get a different sensation and I get into LD again. Wake up right away though.

1.22.14

woke up 7:20, nap around 1pm to WILD

Got about 3 rounds of vibrations. I told myself to just stand up when they hit. So I did and counted 6 fingers. Woke up.

I hear some animal growling just 2-3 feet from me. I'm thinking"come one kitty, take a bite out of me". because I didn't want to be scared.

non-lucid:

I'm sitting in a back of a church, in the kids isles. Not participating in prayers. I see pews in another room ahead of me, facing right. I only see last few rows, don't see rest of the church.

I freak out, when my vision changes. All I can see is on the perimeter. Center of my vision is blocked by gray. I grab a hand of female sitting next to me, because I'm kinda scared. But I also know I'm safe, and this is just a game.

12.28.13

Last night bed after 1:30am - 9:45am

Had to get up around 4 to take advil and watched TV till it kicked in (WBTB). I also had a convo with rudedude about dilds just before bed. And how I no longer have them, coz I mostly wild. I was trying to help him start RCing again.

DR:
I'm standing with crowd of people in a small, one story building with lots of windows. All is cool, when we hear something approaching. I look outside and there is this flying object approaching fast. Size of a small bus, white with red and blue stripes and with sharp corners.

It flys by, stops and turns around to come by again. I can see it's con trail. It slows down near the building and I yell "It's coming here, it's stopping". That's when I have the "wtf" moment. I look at my hands and I have more than 5 fingers. yeey, I'm dreaming.

I promptly throw a fireball. I'm satisfied that they are still guided by my eyes. Where I look, that's where fireball hits. Then there is this woman. And a baaaad witch. Then it turns out they are both one person. The witch changes her face to something hideous and comes at me with open mouth, yelling. I put my hands on her open jaw and push both jaws in different direction downward. I can feel her teeth, my hands are sore and bleeding. But I don't let go. I break her face and she falls into pieces. Someone tells me to make a hole and throw her in there. So I look at the grond and will a hole. I think it's too small and shallow. But when I look, I wery proud of my work. It looks like a 5 feet wide well, quite deep, and it has some purty shiny metal grates for the bottom. I throw her in there and pieces keep falling into the blackness of the well.

DR:
(During WBTB I watched a show "secrets of the secret service" and it was about how they were protecting obama during inauguration)
So, I'm suddenly sitting next to Obama. He is all relaxed and we are talking. Somebody wants me to show him a website I have linked earlier. So I look through my notebook. I have bunch of snippets, notes, links, all neatly organized and all about politics. I think I find the article but not sure about the link. I forgot what the topic was. So we are looking at his assistants laptop. As I move around, I touch a rifle that's proped against a chair. A very, very handsome secret service agent put it there. I apologize for moving it. It has a huge scope and it's beautiful. The rifle, I mean.

As I sit next to prez, our legs touch a few times. I wonder what is he doing here for so long and why is he talking to me so much. There is lot more, but I have forgotten : (