non-lucid

4.15.15

nap at 3pm - 10:45 pm after 13 hr shift

Someone I know got swept away. I go looking for him by lettming myself be swept away by flood as well. I end up in some tiny town, or the outskirts.

I find the person, I think it's my mom. I take the cell phone and we call my dad, telling him I'm ok and I found her. I'm looking at street signs and I read him the street names of that intersection. He is happy and babbling about, and I stop him saying that he should write this down before my phone dies.

I get a map, trying to figure out where we are, because all we have is street names. I see a map of eastern US, maybe Seattle area. Coastline with lots of islands and bays.

I walk into some tiny store and a shopkeeper offers us some cookies. Then I learn the names of St. Ives and St. Vincent.

4.13.15

Last night, bed 9pm. Had the night off. Up at 8:15, BT sofa 8:22 to WILD.

DR 2:03

I'm standing in some town. Maybe 2 blocks away, I see some water rising over some tall wall. The wall is maybe 7 stories high, and water is coming over it in waves, violently. I'm not scared. Now I ahve water at my feet.

There is a boat on a nearby canal. We get on it, but when I learn it's going not where I want it to go, I jump off as they are untying it.

Farly good, adventurous feeling from the dream. Danger, but I know I'll be safe.

WILDing at 8:22
Didn't get a single thing. Not a falling asleep sensation, or relaxing, or HH... nothing.

DR
They remodeled our workplace. Now the batroom stall doors are all 2 wings, dark, polished wood with golden door knobs. I walk into the last stall. It's really large. Potty is right next to the wall, no gap. I find it strange, but use it anyway. A guy walks in, and I'm thinking, this is maybe part of the remodel, and doors have no locks.

But now there is a low wall between us, so I can see him, but he can see only my head.

I decide to go and exlpore the building. There are some old looking doors. I open one and peek inside. It's kinda dark inside, like curtains are drawn. But I can still see clearly. It's a storage room full of things. I'm thinking we can look for some things there if we need anything. I expect something supernatural to happen, but it doesn't happen.

I open the other door and room is same darkish, with filtered brown light. Its dusty looking. Again I expect something supernatural, but it doesn't happen.

4.9.15

Last night bed 11pm - 7am

WBTB 7am - 7:42am

Got up to potty at 8:46
Got up at 9:09 to eat a slice of bread

Woke up at 11:48, about 30 min after the main event.

So this was something new. So I settle on my sofa with pillows high in almost sitting position as usually, and both cats rush to take their spots on me, as usually. I welcome their presence, since I know I can WILD even with them stirring on me. I pull the lem of my robe that is on top of my pillows over my eyes to make it dark. Nothing unusual about all that.

But then, literally just 5-10 min after I close my eyes. I feel the strongest sensation in my face mostly, and also in my head. Similar to sensation I feel when I'm falling asleep. I call it "dipping down, or going down". It feels to me as I'm going deeper, one level after another, into me, into sleep. It's also similar to sensation in my head just as I'm entering lucid state.

So I'm not asleep yet, but my face and head are saying that I'm lucid. Now I remembered I should have tried rolling or motionless RCs. Damned. Something was going on. And this was going on till I got up first time to potty, continued after and was still happening when I got up second time to eat.

At some point I manage to fall asleep and I'm instantly lucid. I recognize I'm in my childhood bedroom. Split second urge to fly out the window but making a consious decision to exit via door. The apartment door is halfway opened, but it closes as I reach for it. At first I think it's mom or dad coming home and I say "Hi...". But when the door closes, I sense something not good and as I'm trying to open it, it puts up a fight and it's just like in my non-lucids, when doors are being held shut by something. I feel like I made this happen, coz I got a quick "bad feeling" just before it started.

To my biggest surprise I wake up, still with lucid sensations all over my face and head.

I fall asleep and I'm pretty sure I'm lucid again. I'm showing some kids how I can fly, or at least I tell them, that I could fly, but not always. And sure enough, I can't fly. I'm making swimming motions upwards and I'm slowly ascending. I'm holding hand with a child, and he is holding another ones hand, and there is about 5-6 of us, and I'm pulling us all upwards. It's hard, so I'm pulling myself along by grabbing things on some buuildings that look like towers made of stacked books. I'm affraid they will start falling over, but they are not.

Next dream:
I'm in some school. It's huge. Connected via some doors and corridors with another school next to it. I somehow enter that other school, and when I'm coming back, I think I'm not returning to the same reality I had left from. But I can't be bothered trying again and looking for the door to my correct reality. I'm thinking whatever, this one may be fine as well.

4.6.15

Last night fell asleep on the sofa, moved to bed at midnight. Slept till 6am, WBTB till 6:30.

Got up at 10, no WILD, back to sleep sometimes later.

Another nap I think later. Losing track of time.

This dream recalled hours after waking up.

I'm a teacher. Talking at home to my old english or biology teacher, telling her my methods. I apparently make flash cards with info that I hold up so kids can read them while I say the info on them as well. I have 2 more methods for different classes.

3.30.15

Last night bed 10:30pm - 5am

WBTB 5am - 5:40

Woke up at 8:46


Didn't have a good time WILDing with other things being on my mind.

I'm telling someone I'm never gonna be lucid, and in that moment I get lucid, but lose it, I think.

Next thing I remember I'm trowing cartoon holes on the ground from my pocket. One is not dark enough, another is not deep, and something else. But I ignore that and jump into every one of them. I get stuck in one, another one is solid, and I think I move on to other things.


I remembered this NL later afternoon, while pouring me a glass of dark beer:

I walk into an irish pub. It's just a smallish, old type willage room. Rectangular, white washed walls, benches on 2 long sides and a bar desk on the short one. I came there to pick something up, or do something. While I'm at it, I figure it wont' hurt to get a glass of dark beer. She asks "dark, you sure"? Tasted very good, realistic, almost same as the WL beer I had later.

3.29.15

Last night bed 9pmish - 3:30am

Woke up at 11pm with this:

I'm standing on my mom's kitchen balcony. Somebody is showing me a person standing on a flood barrier that's to the right, about 60 meters from the house. It's a man holding some small device that I can't see but I think it looks like a walkie-talkie. Someone tells me "do you see the antenna?" And yes, I do see a 7 inch black plastic antena sticking out of the device.

I understand, that they are controlling us with that. As I look to the left on the barrier, I suddenly see lots of people sitting there on benches, all with devices. I can tell it's something sinister and I don't like it. I grab my air rifle and head out to the barrier. Small kid walks up to me trying to stop me and I push him away. His dad comes rushing and he tries to hit me, but other "normal" people there stop him. I put my fists up and invite him to figth me. He is a huge guy, and I wanna kick his ass so bad.

Now we are having a dinner party and there is a cloth hanging on the wall and on the balcony. I suggested earlier to put up aluminum foil to shield us from the controlling waves, but I was told that would not work.

3.26.15

Midnight shift last night. Got only about 3 hrs of sleep before that. So at my second break at 5 am, I was dosing off sitting on a chair in break room. Was getting all kinds of HH. If my head falling down wouldn't wake me up every time, I would have WILDed.

HH:
I'm looking at few cartoonish cars head on. One is pink, looks like FIAT or Cooper or something like that from Cars movie. Very cute. I think it was smiling at me.

3.23.15

Nap from 3 to 6:30

Tons of dreams, feels like dreaming the whole time.

1.
I was pullng scabs or whatever from skin without looking, when I pull something and it's like 3 inches long. I see a bloody root of a plant in my hand. I look at the other end and it's like a clover leaf. I find moss and other plants on my body. (from Bridge to Terabithia I watched the other day, where the dog ripped a chunk of moss from the troll's body).

2.
I'm in a one story hotel room that sits 5 feet from the take-off runway. I watch all kinds of diff planes take off from left to right and I'm telling someone what a cool hotel. It's winter, I walk outside and watch from there. Some kid starts to play on the runway and I tell him he better not, coz you know, the airplanes.

3.
There is a train going by the airfield and one wagon has opened side and bunch of kids are sitting there like on a disney ride "soaring over california". Someone shots a sotgun into them and one kid slides out all like wtf?

4.
Coworker A. is banging on some door handle to make it work. It's pretty consistent with his regular behaviour.

5.
I'm at work which is a swimming pool, and I'm cutting some beef to cook it up, coz hungry.

6.
I'm telling someone about my post I made today "sensations in head on verge of a WILD". And I demonstate my sensations by rolling on the bed and making sound effects.

3.20.15

Last night bed 9pm - 3:35am

DR
Lots of us DVers? are going on a plane ride. Plane is huge and ultra modern. Seats like in a theater, lots of white colors. I get off to change my clothes and go potty. Going by the cockpit noticing the door is closed and secured, no way to open it for unauthorized person.

Just remembered this one:
Walking on a dirt path, maybe 7 feet wide. Two girls just a step ahead of me. One of them is announcing snakes. But too late, when we are already on top of them. I tell them to look more ahead, not under the feet, so we can see them from distance, ffs. I look and I see some in a distance, so I know it can be done. All snakes we come up on are already dead. Clearly. Either head crushed, all dried up, or other lear sign of being dead for a while. But they were all different kinds and I see some cool details.

Remembered this one on my way to work:
We are in a building and feeling a lots of small tremors. Then there is a 6.8 in San Diego. I see it written on some sign.

3.19.15

Last night bed 8:30pm - 3:35am

Had dreams all night. But only remember details of those that I recalled immediatelly when I woke up at 11:30 to go potty. The ones I remembered having in the morning, I guess because alarm woke me instead of waking naturally, I only remember having.

DR at 11:30

We are listening to radio news saying big change in weather is coming. I walk outside, look up at dark skies and sure enough, there is a huge and very colorful and defined halo around the moon. I show it to someone else.

Someone is asking me about something, and he thinks I did it. I tell him, "no, God turned it off".

3.16.15

Last night bed 9pm - 5:04am for WBTB

Israeli suq
I'm walking through a bazaar in Israel. It's covered, like the Grand Bazaar in Istanbul, but not as nice or large. It has halls with different items. I find one with gifts, one with food or meat, and when I get to one with animals, I quickly turn back to find something else. Everything has signs on a cardboard paper in hebrew or english and also arabic scribbled on it. I can tell arabic is secondary language here. I realize it's not easy to orient ourself there. I see a sign that has a map of all the halls with merchandise. Most of the merchants there are old men and they are looking at me as I don't belong. Sure, white and girl, I do feel bit uneasy.

3.14.15

Last night bed at 9 pm - 3:40 am

Throwing chairs
My new roomate says: "I got some new furniture, clother, and snakes so I can start snakecharming".
Me: WUT? You have them here now?

So he shows them to me. He has 2 snakes on his arm. I'm telling him no way, and not to get any closer. But the idiot is inching forward. I pick up a chair and with legs towards him, I hold it up. He keeps advancing, so I throw it at him.

He is asking, if I have seen any more dorcile snakes. I look closer. One is like a reddish baby corn snake the other one blackish, also a baby. They are non-poisonous and very calm. I agree, they are nice, but... I see them just fine from here.

He keeps coming closer, and I keep picking up chairs and throwing them at him. Now one snake bites him, and it looks like a sting would a bee would make, with the stinger still attached. Exactly like in the documentary I watched yesterday.

Laundry
I spilled some water in laundry basket. Now some white things have red on them, and some red things are bleached. I'm pulling it all out trying to clean up the mess. Someone, a former classmate z. is asking me if I spilled red wine while I'm trying to rinse them out.

2.28.15

Last night bed 7pm-3:20am

FA at 3:20
I set my coffee maker on auto, to start brewing at 3:20. I wake up to it brewing. My cat jumped on the bed as usually, I'm petting him and saying I have to get up now. But I lounge, and I guess fall asleep again for a second I wake up, and keep petting my cat, thinking it's time to get up coz coffee alarm. Then I hear it brewing. It happens normally, that after it finishis brewing, it still keeps heating up unless shut off, and it makes a few brewing sounds after done. So I'm thinking that's what's happening. But no, it starts to brew normally. I'm like whoa, FA, damned. I REALLY have to start RCing EVERY TIME I WAKE UP.

Monster in Romania
This was quite long and detailed, vivid. I retold it every time I woke up, but still, many details were lost by now.

I'm outside of a modern building, looking at a billboard. There is a head of a monster on it. Some kind of a dinosaur with thing on the head that looks like hair on one of the characters in Babylon5.

Funny thing, because I tried to explain that hair to someone in the dream, but all I could say that it's perpendicular to the head, stiff hair like (and I just now remembered the name - Lando from Babylon5).

Now I'm inside of that modern building. It's one story, lots of glass. We are in the visitors vestibule and we see through glass walls into the control center with lots of controlls and blinking lights. I know it's all a deceipt. This is the place where they defeated that monster and they are keeping it either alive or dead there, but the danger is not gone. They don't have it under full control.

So now the monster has escaped. We are running all over the place outside, and this is going on for a while.

Snake
I'm looking at my cat sitting outside. Suddenly I realize a huge snake is looking at him, just from few feet away. He is beautiful, yellow and bright green. His head is huge, with big yellow eyes. I wave my arms and start throwing small pebbles in his direction so he knows he is found out and so he goes away.

2.23.15

This just came to me.

I'm someplace with Ophelia. I have 2 rings right next to each other on my finger, and Ophelia has 2 as well. It occurs to me, that since we are both there, and we both have 2 rings, we should exchange one of them. So I have one she wore, and she has one I wore.


2. FA (3 days ago)

So I wanted to get up around 3 am, which is an hour earlier than normally. I wanted to work before I had to leave for another work. But I also realized I forgot to set my watch alarm and didn't put it next to my bed as usually.

So every time I woke up (and I was waking up often because didn't want to oversleep), I walked to the bathroom and on my way I checked the time on the cable box.

So in a dream:
I wake up, grab my watch from the usual place and push the button to backlight it to see the time. But the button doesn't work. I try few more times. Then I just get up, into my room, and decide to look out through my window.

While I'm looking at a grassy area, part of a parking lot, street lights on, night outside, nice a vivid colors, everything is quet and calm. I ahve a view from maybe fifth floor. I'm expecting some danger.

While at the same time, I also see my kitchen behind me and door opened to the walk-in closet, that is normally opened during day so my cat can sleep there. And I'm realizing, that if any danger comes, it will be from the closet, not outside.

The room, kitchen and door to the closet were same as in WL. The outside was not.

Just remembered this while reading an article about carrying weapons.

I'm in a large house, second story, last room. Someone is comming in the hallway, whisper-yelling at me "get your gun, get your gun", somebody is in the house. I try to tell her to hide, while I'm walking in the hallway to next room on the right, where my gun is. But I already hear the gunman coming upstairs, hollering "show yourself now, or I'm gonna start killing people".

I know we have no time to hide or get my gun, so I put my hands up and tell him "i'm coming out, don't hurt anybody".

Moral of the story: If you have a gun, have in on you, ffs.