non-lucid

1.26.15

Last night bed around 8 pm.

DR:
I'm leavin a managers apartment, after me and some kids with me slept over there for some reason. As I'm leaving, 3 men are coming to her place. I recognize one of them as a famos actor, but I can't remember his name. He looks like a cross between Liam Neesen and James Franco.

He recognizes me as an actress and he is kinda happy to see me. He is telling everybody inside about me. I'm telling him to stop, because I didn't tell anybody about me being an actor and he is embarrasing me. But he continues doing it. (this is from me convo with OpheliaBlue in irc last night, when we talked about my other job and I didn't wanna say too much. And Ophelia was saying that I play in the movies).

I'm looking for the manager now to thank her that she let us sleep over there. I see her few times but she disappears. I fnaly find her and she doesnt want to look at me and she tells me she has chicken pox, and she is not happy I stayed there, I should have asked, because she doesn't want us getting sick.

I'm walking through some rooms now, looking for kids that came with me, so we can leave. The place is dirty and as I look at my shoe, I see a tiny white inchworm. (This is from the gif OpheliaBlue either posted or commented on in irc - Inchworm Boy).

DR:
I walk into a movie theater. It's rather small, and it's bright. The screen is blank, for some reason, the movie is not playing. There is some technical issues people are saying. They start leaving.

1.19.15

Last night bed round 11pm - 7:40am, then 11am.

DR from day before:

I'm in someones house. Looking at the map, trying to find a way out of there. It's a new place, never been there before, and I don't know how to get back home from there. We are turning the map all kinds of ways, but it still doesn't show what we need.

So I go out on the balcony, which now looks like my mom's place. I'm talking to someone below. I'm naming streets like Moldon or Moulten, and Beltway. Now I know at least first few streets and I should be ok.

I'm going down to the garage and my car is blocked by things. Some people there make some stupid remarks. I first let it go, but then I reply to them and I immediately regret it. I should have let it go.

(I was looking at google maps that day and before, and those are real street names, or very close to them)

DR Last night:

I'm in a huge apartment building, that looks like that superstructure in latest Dredd movie. Lots of corridors, doors, people. But friendly athmosphere. I have a feeling we are all new there, just came there from some other place.

There is a rumor that president Obama is coming to visit us and welcome us. His people are already there. Some lady is showing us how to set our phones so we can take pictures. She wants to do it on my phone, but I tell her I can do it.

I see a room with tables in long lines, white tablecloth, plates and glasses, flower centerpieces. I had no idea they had prepared it.

Now we see 3 black cars coming by ar hight rate of speed. It's him. The car door opens and I'm hoping it will take him a second to get out, while his security guys check it out outside, so I have time to pull out my camera.

Now he is walking, I can see him clearly. He looks very focused, in black suit.

He is suppose to talk to all of us individually. It's my turn. So I go and sit at a table opposite to him. He looks so real. His face, body, voice, manners. He is asking me some questions and I'm answering. I'm not nervous, I know it's a good thing to talk to him. Then he takes off his jacket and he is rolling up his sleeves on a white dress shirt. I know my "interview" is over and I say thank you for the conversation. He is ready to talk to the public. Some video is shown, and he takes that time to talk to some other people, which now is my mom's turn. I know she is asking him to help me. I'm like whoa, not embarrasing at all.

(Obama dream, because I saw his twitter on Ophelia's twitter account)

1.15.14

Last night bed at 11pm

Just before bed, I was talking with Ophelia, how far I live from the ocean. I said about an hour, but I have not seen it in years I love the ocean.

DR:
I'm at the shoreline and the huge blue ocean is infront of me. It's a surprise and I'm so happy. The water is rather dark, but very pretty blue. I start running into the water, while laughing with joy, yelling how happy I am. I put my hands in a water as I'm running and I yell how great the air smells like, salty, like ocean. The waves are a bit choppy, but I'm still only less than knee deep. So happy. : D

1.13.15

Last night bed around midnight.

Last week or so, I have been having lots of dreams every night. I wonder if it's because I had beer before bed (vitamin B).

DR1

I'm in some kind of an underground corridor. My boss from work is there, working, pulling some kind of a cart, as we do often at work.

There is a guy by a metal box, and two women are asking him, if he is sure he can lift it, because it weighs 35 pounds. He is suppose to install it on the wall. So he is standing on some box, then he lifts this metal box above his head and tries to hang it on some hooks on the wall. He almost has it, but one corner is not secured yet and he is losing strength. The box slips and hits him on a side of his head. He falls backwards to the ground. As he is falling, the box hits him in the chest. He breathes in and out loudly about 5 times and stays quiet. I'm standing behind the corner now. I see my boss approaches him trying to help. I think he has died. But boss says no.


DR2
I'm in a very small room, 20x20 feet. There are some wooden benches without backrests and some people sitting on them. I'm drinking from a wooden cup. I don't like the drink, and there is stuff on the bottom, like hair and leftovers from previous drinks. I complain to someone, but I have a feeling I shouldn't, because we are slaves. They say those are just seeds, and really, I put my hand in the cup and pull out a fistfull of tiny seeds that looks like inside of a fig.

There was a third one, and I should have typed it while I remembered.

Sunday Jan 11, 2015

Last night bed around 9pm.

I have been having dreams last few nights, what seems like all night. But waking up every time just a bit too late to remember anything that can be put into words.

Yesterday:

DR1:
I'm in a house, when we notice there is a fire in the next room. Flames are shooting out from some opening in the wall. I'm looking for an extinguisher, but all I find is some water. I start throving it on the fire through this small hole and it's working.

DR2:
I'm outside, sitting on some benches or chairs, by some small stores. Suddenly there is a black smoke coming out of one of them. I think store is empty, but a bunch of us run up there to help people get out and to stop the fire.

Last night:
DR1
We are living in a single story house by a huge lake. Water comes up all the way to the house. The surface is very calm, like a mirror. Somebody who lives there wants to do something with the lake and I say yes. So she put a thin seethrough plastic layer on top of the water. So it looks like a lake, but you can walk on it. I walk on it, where water is only few inches deep, just barely enough to cover up some rocks that have green moss all over them.

There is some large party and I tell someone to go walk on water and surprise the guests.

We are standing outside, admiring some birds sitting in a tree with flowers. I want to take a picture but they all fly away and with tons of other birds alrady in the air start circling above. I know what's coming as I hear soft thuds all over the place. We are getting bombarded by bird poop. I look at my left arm and it has dozens of tiny white-grey lines of poop on it. I'll walk inside to shower.

Now there is 3 of us, walking someplace. I ask where, and we are going to visit friend K's mom V. I realize I'm still covered in poop and i say I can't go. I turn back, and when they want to turn back with me, I tell them to keep going.

DR2
I'm standing someplace on a higher ground, looking down at some "wading" pools. In one with beatuful turquoise color, water only ankle deep. Another pool adjacent to that one is knee deep.

Lots of dreams, happy.

12.29.14

Last night bed 10ish - 8:30ish

Woke up few times last night, recalling dreams, and retelling them each time so I imprint them on waking life memory.

DR1

I'm traveling in a tour bus on a busy street in Bangkok. Side streets are rather narrow, full of small shops and people. Another large bus drives up along our and comes very close. It's red and I'm thinking that it will sideswipe us. In a few seconds it sure does. Comes even closer and sideswipes us.

Now I get a 3. person view from behind and above. I see the other bus pushing ours to the left and onto another sidestreet. I'm thinking "I hope that's not the one with river in the middle of it" and I have a feeling I have walked those streets before, that's how I know. And yes, as I see the bus being pushed to the sidestreet, now I have persepective both from the bus and from 3.person view, I see the river in concrete banks and my bus is on the sidewalk next to the river, still traveling.

I'm telling people to get ready for emergency exit, in case we get into the water. I see an axe type of a tool hanging above the left window and I look to the right if I see another one there, and I do. I point them out to others to use them to break the windows if we need to.

Now we have stopped. Someone is pushing the emergency door to open in the back of the bus - like on school busses. It doesn't budge so I kick it open. We get out.


DR2

I'm with others out in the fields. We can see a city in the distance. It's San Franciso. I tell someone to go for a jog with me to the city. My eyes zoom in and follow a dirt path along the field and a river to the bridge and to the city.

Thursday 12.25.14

DR from Wednesday

Woke up to a random skype boop at 3:30am and remembered these dreams:

1.
We are skyping with Ophelia. Then I'm at her place. Her son is at the front door waiting to be let in. Bf is walking towards the bedroom to take a nap. Ophelia is in the kitchen getting ready to go shopping.

2.
I'm standing on some kind of a long berm. On the left side there are some single story, village type houses. Instead of the yard, they are surrounded by clear water lakes or lagoons. I can clearly see to the bottom, where there is a lots of fallen leaves, tree roots and such. I want to swim in that so bad.

There is a large trash container on the berm. It's one of those they give to apartment buildings. Big metal thing. It starts to roll. It's heading to the end of the berm, which ends in a clif over seaside resort's beach and people on it.

A truck catches up with the trashcontainer and nudges it to the left. Container rolls down the berm into that clear water.

3.
I'm screaming my head off calling my dad. Same as I used to when I woke up from a nightmare as a child. I'm screaming, but quietly.

12.11.14

Last night bed 10pm - 6am

Had dreams all night. Everytime I woke up, I remembered some.

DR:
I'm in the mountains. Many people around me, all tourists. We are getting on a ride, that looks like Disneyride. But only the vehicle, the nature around us is real. It's a large open-top vehicle on rails. It seats about 10 people in a row and has about 8 rows. I see my frends sitting in the first row left, but somebody already sat next to them, so I sit in first one on the righ. I'm holding 2 seats for other friends. I wonder how it will be sitting in the first row.

10.7.14

Last night before 9 pm, then again at 9:30 ish.

DR:

I'm at my current work, or on some retreat with coworkers. There is lot's of going on, people walking around, busy doing work and plannig.

I'm in a room, taking a shower behind the door. People walking by. Boss walkes by talking to another person waking behind him. After they walk through the room, boss tells the other person "you should at least put up a sign or something. I just saw her whole ass, ffs"!

DR:

Something with Ophelia. I woke up right after, but didn't have enough strength to reach for a pen I had nearby. I was fighting it but I guess I fell asleep.

12.6.14

Last night bed 10-ish.

Dream at 2:32am

OpheliaBlue is visiting. She is staying over, but there is also something about the hotel.

I'm at some sohooting exhibition or competition. Somebody is shooting into the air, and the goal is to catch the falling bullet with the smallest of the devices. So someone makes the falling bullet land on a tip of a stick, that is only as wide as the bullet is. I think he won : D.

11.27.14

I'm standing with other recruits and members of a spy agency. Somewhere outside, near a slope with dirt and some eucalyptus trees and bushes. I don't wanna be there, because we are there against our will. So I'm escaping. These agents were female, btw.

I run, but they are immediatelly after me. I duck under a flat stone that has only few inches off the ground some free space. One agent kneels down and looks through the hole in the stone, but few feet from where I am and he doesn't see me. Another one kneels right beside me and is quietly waiting for me to notice. I notice that I have been caught and I see myself being led away. I don't like that so I take my slim chance and run again.

I make it to some small shack with 3 others. People keep coming by, but we lay down under the window so they cant see directly down and we hope to stay undetected.

This happens again, we lay down, but one of us is smoking and that makes the other one crawl away. I can tell that this movement will be visible.

A reporter is peeking through the window and I hear him say "nobody here". I breathe a sigh or relief. But then he continues "only the family that moved here few days ago". I instantly see some black dresses agents miles away, that were looking for us, hearing these news and rushing towards our location. We don't have much time, have to run again.

11.26.14

Last night bed around 11 or so till 9:20 am. Tried a WILD around 12:30pm, but just couldn't fall asleep. But I recalled a dream from that night.

I'm looking at Ophelia's hands, that are in front of me. I see them, as if they were mine, right in front of my face. She has a copper colored elephant ring on her left hand, silver colored one with small colorfull stones on the same finger, and another ring on another finger. Perhaps one more. And a necklace type chain between 2 fingers.

11.11.14

Last night bed 12:30am - 9am

1. This could have been a DILD, but not sure, maybe not.

It's at night and I'm in old Rome. I'm telling myself it's just movie props, but I have a feeling it's a real deal. There are old churches, already very old and almost in ruins. Lots of tumbs, graves, sandstone buldings with walls half fallen down, burned out and never rebuilt.

It's a place of my nightmares, but somehow I'm not scared. But I know flying would be safer than walking, so I try to fly up. I can just a little bit. So I do what I sometimes do. I grab on a branch of a tree, pull myself higher, then hop on taller tree and keep pulling myself higher till I can jump off and glide or kinda fly to next object, like a roof.

At some point I'm trying to fly differently. I remember not to try to fly, but rather imagine myself "going" or being at a desired location, so dream does the flying for me.

I also remember to fly up at 45 degree angle to get to next dimention.

So I'm kinda tree-and-roof-hopping from place to place. I land outside of a very large and imposing church. The front courtyard and some walls near are collapsed, burned out. I don't really look at it coz it's scary as hell, if I was to go in there. So I keep flying-walking to tumbs and graves and stuff.

Sometimes I see people that are walking slowly, without emotions. They all look like ghosts from movie 13th. ghost I watched just before bed.


2.
I just arrived to India. I'm suppose to babysit there. So I'm talking to mom and I'm impressing here. There is more going on here, we are walking around, talking. I compliment her place, having such a good location in middle of the town. Then I talk to her and she sounds like a grownup. She offers me Bud and something else. I realize I'm thirsty and I ask for a Bud, after I figure that I'll be still able to talk inteligently with them, coz Bud has no grades.


3. We are watching the ocean. It's so beautiful and sparkly from the sun being at just the righ angle. Sudenly there is something happening. Some 4-5 large indents form on the water. They keep changing, It's a beautiful and misterious sight. I'm devastated that I don't ahve my camera with me. Then I say, "oh wow, I really hope it's not a commercial". And sure, suddenly there are cars on the water and it's a car commercial. I'm so mad and disappointed.

11.11.14

This was few days ago.

I'm climbing up a latter. It's standing on the bottom floor and top of it ends in a small circular opening in the ceiling few stories high. It's not near the wall, more like standing in the middle of the room.

I got to the top and here getting off is a bit tricky, because some old wood rigging that doesn't look too stable and there is a gap between the latter and the floor you need to get on to.

As I reach the top, I stay there and help others behind me to get to the floor safely. They are all children, maybe just a few adults. Like a class or something.

I have a feeling we are leading them to a safe place, because end of the world is coming in form of some explosion. So after we tuck everybody safely in some room, me and another person stay out there in the room with the latter. We sit down and we ahve a view through a window on a nearby wall. We are discussing if it's a safe place to be for us two, if the blast wave from explosion wont blow us off from that room. Maybe we should hold on to some metal railing, but I don't see any there. I don't feel very safe, but I think we are going to be ok.

11.4.14

Last night bed at 9pm - 2:30am

also slept a lot yesterday from 9am to 2pm, coz I wasn't feeling well last few days, and I'm still not good

DR:

I'm at some kind of a family compound. Outside in the very large yard, or field. It's surrounded by a fence, but inside is just dirt or dry grass, as if it was fall or winter.

Somebody is trying to come in in a homemade helicopter. I realize something and I get him to take me home from there to my mom. It's far away, another country or even continent.

Now I'm at home. I'm heading to the restroom when my mom is calling me. I go to see and she has some pyjamas on the bed, asking me if I want to take some with me when I'll return back to where I came from. They are very cool looking, gray and black and white, and soooo soft. But I don't want to take hers away, as I did last time. And I feel sorry now for not bringing those back to her now, since I could have had, having a ride and all.

Now my dad is there too. We have the courtains opened and I'm looking outside at some dark cloud, which has a "leg". I think I see it getting longer, and another cloud has a part that is also protruding down and getting longer and bigger. I say "wow, you guys we are getting a tornado". The hanging parts are now in shape of a tornado and spinning wildly.

By the time I grab my camera, they are so close that all I see is blackness. I ran to doors and close them, yelling at everybody to do the same. In case some window opens, it won't suck us all out.

It goes right over the house. I am excited. I go out on the kitchen balcony. My aunt is there and I ask her how they protected themselves from tornado. But she is busy. Her daughter (my cousin K) is in wedding gown, getting married. She says we should hurry, coz they are starting to gather.

My mom says she has no dress for a wedding, coz they didn't tell her on time. I also don't have anything, since i only grabbed one bag when I was going there.

I ask about my friend who came with me yesterday and was sleeping over, and mom tells me she went home already. I remember she has family in town.

I'm looking out the living room window again. I tell my mom "you won't believe how often I have a dream about me looking out this window". And I see the tennis courts across the street.

Suddenly its pitch dark outside. I see an anourmous cloud of large, black birds flying by. They are mostly or all crows, flying in neat formation, all same speed. Some of them look at me. I once again scramble for my camera to take pictures, coz it's an incredible sight.

Now from the other direction, from south to north, there are people flying in the air. They are standing up as if walking. Most if not all are male, all dressed in business attire. I regnize one of them as an american actor. He has a bloody lip. I look at others and most of them have some sign of trauma. They are all somber, not talking, not looking around.

I ask a question and one that looks like the actor answers "time". I ask to clarify and he says "we are running out of time".